I have barely started my skk analysis and is already more than fifteen pages long 😭

I have a problem that probably should be talked about in therapy

I find hilarious how bsd twitter is complaining about the death baits. Sorry but how could you fall for them in the first place? 😭😭😭

Are you really telling me you read the whole thing and still thought that Chuuya was gonna have that lame ass anticlimactic death? That you really thought that Dazai was going to die just like that? That you really thought that Fyodor died when we didn’t know anything about his past, motivations and ability?

The only one I can excuse this far is Kunikida’s death bait outside of it, every single one of these was screaming that it wasn’t real. Now, I agree that this is a writing device that is getting repetitive and unnecessary yes, but I just find funny how many people are complaining about it when the whole work was telling you what was gonna happen.

Most important thing to remember when characterizing Atsushi is that he is, at his core, a kind person. The second is that he is a little bitch

I have a select handful of tumblr mutuals that I'm always like chill-ly trying to impress. if I post something like "I bet she'll love this post" and she don't interact with it I'll be like "I'm not good enough. gotta get better"

For you @sensitiveheartless because I have a feeling you enjoyed writing these scenes and i really love them

Your gonna have to click on the to read them

me at any given moment

edit: bsd version

it’s so funny that chuuya is judging nikolai for being unsure about whether he really wanted fyodor dead when this is exactly how chuuya feels about dazai. mr “i hate dazai so much i want him dead so bad which is why i’m going to repeatedly risk my own life to save his”. absolutely zero self awareness

We as a fandom moved on waaayy too fast from this panel because why is Dazai looking at him like that? He looks SO fond and soft. That’s no way to look at a man holding a gun to your head. Even though it was part of the plan, he still had full trust in Chuuya and that he wasn’t about to kill him, he’s so relaxed he doesn’t care about that gun, in this moment all he cares about is Chuuya

Brainrot is brainrotting

The funniest thing that happens every time a new Dazai ship starts to develop is that there is always an argument of whether he be with character A or B but then people start shipping A and B together and leave Dazai out. And it’s like, so we all agree? That Dazai is the problem right?

How mentally unwell you think Chuuya is?

Your takes on his character are the best so i will be glad to hear your take on this

PD: thank you for the perfect analysis you do <3

Hey! Thank you so much for your kind words 💖

And I’m really sorry to be answering this so late but life has been crazy this last weeks. I want to say that when I got the notification of this question I was at work so I just read the first part and I was /Convinced/ someone has asked me how mentally unwell I was and I laughed out loud because the answer is a lot but I couldn’t figure out why someone would ask it like that 😭 Then I realized it was about chuuya and everything made more sense lol.

Now going with the actual question (and once again apologizing if something doesn’t make sense because English is not my native language.

Chuuya’s mental state is kind of difficult to talk about. The easy answer is that he is in a really bad mental state but it’s a little more complicated than that. Chuuya’s has gone through so much trauma, basically since the moment he started living everything in his life has been a big traumatic experience after another. It has gotten so bad that there’s a running joke in the fandom about Chuuya’s lack of reaction to fucked up things, because that’s just another Thursday in his life. He is /used/ to this horrible things happening to him. We need to understand that there’s no such a thing as a little trauma. But chuuya’s case? Is outrageous. He was experimented in, treated like a weapon, deshumanized by everyone, constantly fighting with his own feelings of inhumanity, he was used and betrayed by the people he gave everything to protect, he made new friends that loved and appreciate him only for them to also be taken away from him, worse than that, they were killed /because/ they were his friends, he had to see them die, he had to hold his own pain and instead be comforting while he saw something fucking horrible, he was hurt, physically, mentally, he was poisoned, tortured and hit by a literal black hole, he saw more people he loved die, the same year later he once again lost his friends during the dragon’s head conflict and the worse part? Shitty things are /still/ happening to him

So no, no one could go through all of that and be mentally intact, it doesn’t matter how mentally strong they are. The pure amount of trauma that Chuuya went through in three days would break any other person and that’s just a minuscule part of his life. And that’s not even the worse part of it, I said it before but Chuuya’s core is all about humanity and he find his humanity in the people that he loves. That’s the kind of person he is and is devastating to realize that this mentality is the only thing that keeps him standing while at the same time being the thing that is destroying him. He was stripped of almost every decision in his life, he is at the worst place he can be in, forced to go against his whole fucking personality, his belief system and his moral code and he can’t leave because that would go against all his character. So chuuya endures, and endures and endures. He takes every hit, he has renounced to vulnerability, he has renounced to the right of being afraid, he has renounced to the right of stepping back. He has internalized that he is strong so he /needs/ to protect the people that is not. In order to protect his people (and his humanity) he needs to be reliable, he needs to be unwavering, he needs to stand still even when everyone else is already in the floor. He has lost such a basic human right as giving up. He doesn’t now how to do it, he /can’t/ do it because people depend on him. And it’s really a tragic paradox because this is what moves him but is takes so much of him. And all for what? He keeps losing people he loves, at the end there’s no difference. All this autocontradiction is killing him, he chose the mafia because the bonds with the people there, because his bonds with the sheep means something to him. Because his humanity is there, not in the organization but in the people that is part of it. He chose the mafia because that means choosing his humanity but the mafia is the kind of organization that works around deshumanizing people, so what’s the point of all of that. He is surrounded by people, he loves and is loved by people but he still is so unbearably lonely.

Now, what makes chuuya different from other characters? Chuuya’s resilience really is a scary thing. He is brave, he takes everything the world gives him and retaliates just as hard. Even when he has gone through hell and back, he still is full of vitality, he is still so hungry for life, he still enjoys all the little things he can get. Even when he knows that the worlds is a cruel place, even when he knows that there are bad people and that fucked up things happen, he never grew to hate the world because he clings to the good things, no matter how small they are. Because it doesn’t matter if he’s using corruption and bleeding from every hole, or feeling like his bones are being pulverized by gravity, it doesn’t matter that he loses the humanity he so desperately clings to, if by doing that he can protect the people that he loves. Is not that chuuya is mentally well, he is not emotionally intelligent (actually he’s horrible at it, it only seems like he is because most of the time he is being compared with Dazai who is far worse) but he is probably the most resilient character in bsd. Chuuya is strong, he is a fighter. He will fight for his place in this world, he will fight the unfairness of all, he will fight the senseless of life.

I also feel like it’s important to add that chuuya has a lot of interesting copying mechanisms and while most of them are certainly not healthy, it’s also what keeps him moving. Regarding all his trauma, I feel like it’s important to talk about how chuuya just never thinks of certain hurtful stuff. He just put all the pain in a mental box and hides it away. Chuuya doesn’t seem as affected by his trauma as other characters because he is hyper fixated in going ahead, he never looks back. He just keeps going forward BUT it doesn’t matter how much he advances, it doesn’t matter how fast he goes, all that trauma, pain and contradictions will catch up on him one day and it will be a terrible sight. Because my boy doesn’t know when to stop, he doesn’t know when he’s had enough, he thinks that limits are just kind suggestions that he can ignore.

So in summary Chuuya is an accident waiting to happen. He is more less stable at first glance, because he has copying mechanisms and a strong mentality and a otherworldly resilience but he also sucks at dealing with his own trauma, he is self destructive, and a living contradiction and that’s gonna wear him down someday. True to his character, his contradictions are fighting between them to keep some kind of weird balance but that won’t last. So, Chuuya is definitely mentally unwell.

Whoa that was longer than what I expected, sorry for that.

Okay so I don’t know why there’s so much kataang in my twitter tl but please make it stop because every time I see it I want to hit my head with something. Can we stop pretending that Kataang had a good romantic development? I assure you, if they had written it better then people wouldn’t be bashing on it.

Sorry, I love katara and I love Aang but I will always be a kataang hater. Their romantic relationship was terribly written, it was lazy writing and I can’t believe some people still have the guts to wonder why like literally HALF of the fandom didn’t like the ship. And yeah to each their own and bla, bla, bla but every time I see someone defending the terribly writing decisions when it comes to this ship, I want to punch something bc half of their arguments don’t even make sense, other are simply stupid and the worse is that because the ship is canon they are certain that they’re right. Just because something is canon doesn’t mean that it made sense. What bugs me the most is that Kataang would’ve worked, would’ve been a great friends to lovers if they didn’t fucking suck at writing it.

i think the funniest thing abt skk is just. the contrast to whats going on w everyone else this arc😭😭😭 sskk have been going angstcrazy doing the real 'no this isnt you' dramatics and struggling. fkfk old man yaoi are experiencing the horrors of being doomed. teruko is having a Time and A Half. sigmas like half dead on the floor. kolyas sobbing over his seemingly dead bf. and fyodor is. fyodor.

and then skk are fcking around w vampire roleplay, chuuyas complaining abt mori getting his fake fangs stuck, and theyre throwing some poor guy up and down 15 times to 'wake him up'. like.

Dazai, age 15, full confession: That's what makes me love you.

Chuuya: Lol, gross.

*little cracking sounds from Dazai's heart and pride*

I love skk so much that it makes me stupid but beast soukoku? I don’t give a fuck about them

Chuuya’s so funny because he literally shows up to do the bare minimum (unless Dazai is involved).

Like mfkr, you’re the strongest person in the world, what do you mean “oh no! he sliced through the helicopter blades! What are we going to do?!”

Your power is near limitless. Take your pick of defensive techniques. Throw him to space. Grind him to dust. Carry the helicopter away???

Why are you making people jump out of planes and sacrifice their lives when you can juggle the opps until their brains are mush?

He’s like “Mori said let them on the helicopter. I did my part.”

“Oh no; that kid and that guy from that place that Dazai occasionally volunteers at are strapped to bombs?” … “Well it’s my day off so more power to them.” ✌🏼

The absolute bare minimum. He’s so funny.

i haven't fulfilled my promise yet to use you as my dog!

redraw!