in order to distance myself from painful baggage along with the shame of giving myself a chronic injury through how i interacted with tumblr back then, i made a new tumblr over at @breserker

i know there are some questions about hiatuses and the like. my best answer for you guys right now is Chronic Injury that resulted in the need for a lot of reflection and restructuring of identity and how i see myself (as in, how could i possibly be an artist now, and what does art mean now that the way i had been approaching art injured me?)

im still alive and making things, i just want a fresh start. thanks for your patience

the perfect time to write an update is 5 minutes before you have to do something but i’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about tumblr because i do like it here in a sense but i just haven’t had it in my “site rotations” for ages and after a loooong time I think it’s because the way i built up my presence on tumblr with a lot of art (a lot of art) and illustrations was the cause of like, ruining my wrist and giving it a chronic injury. a lot of ykz fans were more active on twit back in 2017/18 so that helped the migration and helped feeling like it was a brand new endeavor without the baggage of “this is how i see myself and how other people see me” attached. i honestly just felt shame to show my face around here because i physically could not do what i was doing before.

so i’ve toyed around with a totally new tumblr? i guess. i’m still thinking about it, because i think deleting this all would be a shame. but also i’d love to delete it. you know? start fresh.

especially since i met my fiancee on tumblr and now that’s...gone and traumatized me in a different way.

hummm.

i’ll think on it more because a compounding issue is the older and freer i’ve gotten the more straight up explicite the stuff i write is. living my best life with that. so that doesn’t help either.

anyway. i have to piss and make tea and attend lesson

i forgot what the post was gonna be……. i made these n then my brain stopped after that step

Pass of Aglon

Feanorian week, Day 5

Mutuals, I love you, but how many times do I have to say that you can't make blanket statements like "ALL horror is about love/romance" if you're just talking about the Ari Aster/Robert Eggers/Andrzej Żuławski coalition

Strawberry Supermoon 2021: Night view from June 24 to 25 in Saint-Sebastien, Spain. 

i love santa clarita diet

hey remember when i said i was engaged

lol

Robin Hyde, from The Desolate Star & Other Poems (1906-1939); “The Farmer’s Wife,” (x)

im sorry but no matter what i will never use "ofc" to mean "of fucking course". its "ofcourse". obviously.

I love parents in gay dramas. What Did You Eat Yesterday? / Kinou Nani Tabeta?

I hate how in the Cruella trailer she’s all “people try to hold me down… I am woman…. hear me roar……” as though people are opposing her for misogynistic reasons and not because her primary motivation is SKINNING PUPPIES? 

the homosexual valley - Submitted by Midniter

#eb4e3b #f2863f #fbb625 #9a3393 #612c8d #262262

reblog and put in the tags what’s a song that’s absolutely incredible, but you can’t listen to it because it makes you too sad?

just crying over how romantic Freddie & Jim were nbd