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boy-porridge-vent · 3 years

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200 cal Fettuccine alfredo recipe★彡

only 200 cals for 2 servings of alfredo! u can eat one of both of these servings, the plate in the pic is 2 servings! i used cornstarch water to thicken the sauce more so i’d suggest doing that or adding more flour!!

- 1 pack of fettuccine shirataki noodles 10 cal

- 1/2 tblsp unsalted butter 51 cal

- 1/2 tblsp all purpose flour 13 cal

- 1 gram chicken bouillon powder (or to taste) 2 cal

- 3/4 whole milk or milk substitute 112 cal

- 1 cup broccoli florets (optional but recommended) 20 cal

serving size: 1 serving

cal per serving: 100 cals

1. follow directions on package and prepare the shirataki noodles

2. let ur butter melt in ur pot then add in ur flour

3. mix together

4. when browns add ur milk and mix

5. let thicken and season with ur chicken bouillon powder and salt and pepper to taste

6. add in broccoli and a bit of water

7. put ur lid on and let ur broccoli steam till cooked

8. when broccoli is done mix in ur noodles and serve

9. enjoy!

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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anyways, besides them, I printed out baby pics of me and baby relatives, good memories of friends etc. and Im very happy to finally have them physically since I have so many images that I lose super easily

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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It’s not like I’m gonna hang up the pictures of my exes and stare at them like a creep

I printed them, dated them on the back, and put them into a photo album that corresponds with the time it was taken. I don’t really want to look at them anyways, it makes me too sad. I only printed them to know that those pictures at least exist somewhere and I don’t have to worry about losing them again, since most of them were sent to me at one point and almost lost for good until I found them by digging through old text messages for hours

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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this is hella private so dont tell anybody

but i finally got around to printing pictures Ive had saved on my computer for months and months, and even pictures on my phone Ive had for over a year

I wanna frame some of the for my room, hang some up in my locker, etc.

BUT over the past few months Ive been working toward digging through every crevasse of my internet usage to find pictures of friends, family, myself, art, etc. that I love and want to have as a physical print, and while doing so I found so many pictures of exes and old friends I no longer talk to for my own mental health and happiness (they were terrible people) yet for some reason I still saved those pictures of them, and over the past few days Ive printed about a dozen old pictures of me with 2 of my exes, or just sweet pictures they sent me that I refused to let go of

I feel terrible for doing it because I know they hurt me so badly and they shouldn’t be anywhere in my presence, yet now I have photos of them from back when I thought everything was okay and it makes me feel empty, I guess.

I found a photo of my literally abusive ex from 8th grade as she was dressing up for our 8th grade formal, we thought it was such a serious event, we spent so much time planning and getting ready, and actually getting pictures together for the first time probably ever in our entire relationship. It was the only time we both had pictures together as a couple because neither of us had phones and we usually just kept everything pretty private, between ourselves when it came to love and intimacy yknow? So looking back through old online messages and files on old computers and finding more pictures she had sent to me blew me away, because both of us had almost nothing of each other and yet now, 4 years later, Im finding the few images of her i DID have.

and idk, it just makes me think about a lot. How so much negative happened in that relationship, yet I only stayed for so long because I was hoping things would get better. About 95% of the relationship was literally all negative, abuse, manipulation, stress, guilt tripping, terrible shit and 5% was absolute perfection, and I stayed in hope of seeing more days with that 5%

With all that negative I had to deal with for over 3 years, really the only good things I have left to show of that relationship are about 5 photos of her seemingly happy, smiling for me, and 2 are of us at a dance together, and that’s it. That’s all I had of her, the rest was private texting abuse that lasted for years.

These images I print are all I have left of some people and it makes me feel weird. Or of my last ex, I knew her for 3 years before we dated, we got a few pictures together, the ones we got with both of us in a picture are very nice and all tied to great memories, and I think that’s why it’s so hard to let go, why I refuse to delete images of people I hate even when I know it makes me so sad to look at them, when I know it’ll bring back the memories of what they did to me.

It’s hard to let go of those photos because those are the only good memories I have of them that I can physically see and remember, everything else has either been blurred in my memory or taken over and replaced by the bad things they did, which is all I ever think about when it comes to them.

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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sorry to get personal.......

i was on my mom’s facebook using a throwaway account, and she’s only uploaded pics of my brother and other family. She hasn’t uploaded a single recent picture of me in months.

I farther I progress with my transition, passing as a male better and better, the less she associates with me

I have no bond or connection with my mom so she doesn’t matter to me, but it still bothers me that my dad tells me that she loves me and mom lies by forcing herself to say “love you” and yet she doesn’t show it or prove it anywhere. She posts pictures of my brother that she takes all the time, pics of our pets and of my dad and other family, but the past 4 months she’s taken few photos of me for my birthday, holidays, other special events, and has posted none of them.

For example, she was yelling at me and making fun of the way I look on Easter day back in April, and then immediately gave me a candy basket and told me to smile for a picture so she could post to Facebook. She did this to make herself look like a good mom. She didn’t even get me the candy, my dad got it but she claimed she got it for me. Obviously I saw through her lie, along with her suddenly switching from absolute hatred for me to false love, so I refused to smile in the photo.

I thought “if you’re going to verbally torment me everyday and at fake, then I might as well be the better person and NOT act fake. I’m gonna be real” so I didn’t put on a fake smile, I kept my sad expression. I thought if she’s gonna do that shit to me, then might as well let all her Facebook friends know how sad I am.

Go figure, she didn’t post the picture. She doesn’t take pictures of me ever, only of my brother, even when he’s not doing anything! He’ll just be standing around and she’ll want a picture because he’s exactly what she molded him to be, whereas I formed my own opinions, personality, likes, and outer look.

Instead of wearing dresses and doing every sport she tried to force me to do and wearing my hair how she wanted, I instead turned out to be trans, interested in art and calmness, not sports, lopped all my hair off, etc. I’m not what she wanted so now I’m just excluded from everything. The only time she’s posted a recent picture of me was nearly a year ago for my first day of highschool pictures, where she took 2 pictures of me, and about 5-7 of my brother, and that’s it.

Other than that, on family birthdays she always posts baby photos in a timeline and recent pics of the family member at their current age. Me? She only posts baby and toddler pics of me wearing what she wanted, pictures SHE arranged and had control over, and none of how I look now. And of course, she uses the words “daughter” “[deadname]” “she” “her” as much as possible since when I go in public with her everyone assumes I’m a male.

It makes me sick and I’m tired of it.

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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again, sorry for the longass post spams!

They were all copy and pasted from my vent twitter because I wanted to clean it up and turn it into an art account instead

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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April 18

Anyways Im just going to try & keep all my thoughts here instead of snap. I dont want anybody to know anything abt me. I wanna seem like an emotionless husk and make people worry about my huge weightloss and lack of talking. I wanna struggle to open up abt anything to anyone

Emo decided to sic her step sister on me, she tried to follow my Twitter accounts lmaooo Probably thought I wouldnt know it was her??? Yall are so dumb, ya think I'll let anybody follow huh? Yea sorry Im not you looking for attention by posting drama publicly

April 26

funny how as soon as i go private yall stop using Twitter lmaooo only got on it and made multiple new accounts just to stalk me, fuckin GOOFY ASSES

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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April 12 2020

Funny how you still have a story highlight on your profile but now it says "postponed" the fuck do you mean post poned? Of course your immature ass still has those stories in a highlight on your profile lmao.

also your transtrender bf decided to get involved? It's funny how they also said "focus on your self" yet theyre getting involved despite not knowing my side at all and all the shit you did to me,,,, and all the abusive/manipulative behavior you still exhibit

but I guess its whatever, right? Since your transtrender partner is exactly like you, so they dont see whats wrong with you. You both fetishize gay people, youre both trenders, both go off your emotions instead of reason, both have a superiority complex, cant take criticism

its honestly so sad that you both found each other and only encourage each others bad ways. Your trender partner has no job, cant drive, sits at home going "uwu im a smol babey sub -///-" its honestly disgusting. you and I did that in 8th grade... your partner is 20.....

normally i wouldnt care bc its just cringy behavior and thats all, but the fact that you both act so high and mighty despite being lazy weeaboo furry garbage is honestly sad. Not to mention the many times youve both taken your relationship date outta your bios bc of breakups

like obviously yall arent going to last considering that one of you always used to talk trash about the other on your Ryuki candy account, while the other constantly took the date out of their bio, then would add it back, the take it out, add it back, etc after ever argument

its just sad. but yea have fun with that life, no car no job no talents or skills, where your goth dom bb trender sits at home drawing anime and copying my friend's every little thing, thinking it makes her better than everybody else. Disgusting lmaooo

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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Funny how yall call me a coward for having a private twitter, but I has a private finsta that she originally used to only post about W, and now B privated her instagram

Yea, call me a coward for doing what YOU wanted. Call ME the coward when you decide to private your instagram despite also saying "uwu I have nothing to hide bc Im not a coward like you" But now youre private.... dumbass.

lmaoooo yea okay

you were probably told to do this by C***** bc I know he wanted the drama and stuff to stop, but I just find it funny how you used to brag about having your account public and shit, called me a coward, and now youre private

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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April 9 2020

anyways i just find it funny. You think im the hypocrite but then do exactly what I do. You say when I do it it's okay byt when you do it, it's bad Nobody is saying that. Ive let you vent and havent said a fucking word to you. You just have an ego problem lol

Someday youre probably going to find this account & get all the screenshots u could ask for just to be like "look!! he's public!!!! Ranting about me again omg he's a hypocrite!!!" do what you want. I hid everyone from this account for a reason, u went outta ur way to find me :)

it's what you did to my partner. I made a new Twitter just to make you happy that I wasnt rAnTiNg anymore, but then you stalked my partner and found my new twitter. You did that on purpose and got mad. Thats your own fault.

"focus on your own relationship" yea ok why dont you focus on yours, who is actually a good guy, instead of posting for everyone at school to see bc they dont care. & for my first ex, why dont you focus on your uwu bunnie softboi trans trender partner instead of your victim lol

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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April 9 2020 Twitter Thread Rant

the only time i deleted tweets was back in november bc you were mad at me for posting them so i was like "ok, you dont want them up? then i'll take them down just for u" then u freaked out that i was "deleteing tweets!!! trying to hide!!!" no, i just wanted you to shut up abt it most of the time we do it privately and dont interact with each other's venting!!! when you do it, you go public, use usernames, faces, direct names in order to claim youre "the good person for directly calling them out" no youre putting them in danger. I'll only come here to vent or talk about my issues

Future TW// self harm ed suic*dal thoughts abuse idk, other stuff that is bad ig lmao This is my space to do with as I please

Even blocked my partner and best friends :) Happy now? Scum.

In fact, even just to make my abusive ex and my other cheating ex happy, I not only blocked them but blocked every from school I could find There. Now truly nobody knows me. Are you guys happy now? Forcing your victim to stay quiet & hide AGAIN? Like youve always done to me?????

Fake ass.... you claim to be my friend yet anything I tell you goes straight to my ex and drama starts again bc you pretend to be on my side hating her, then youre on her side against me Now youre taking screenshots from my friends and sending them to my ex... shady shit

call me a hypocrite yet youre being hypocritical on your story. I see haha

telling people to write in a diary instead of online, yet you've written how you feel online, you made 9-12 public posts for ~460 people to see, all with rants and venting about me, made 5 public stories about my friend and brought my name into it. When will you learn.

you say something like "you can talk shit and its ok, but when it do it, its not ok?" no, here's the problem. You do it in the wrong way. We actually keep it private and resolve our anger with friends that are also struggling bc of you and understand the situation

most of the time we do it privately and dont interact with each other's venting!!! when you do it, you go public, use usernames, faces, direct names in order to claim youre "the good person for directly calling them out" no youre putting them in danger.

when my friend posted to his story about you, it was on his PRIVATE VENT account.... what it's supposed to be used for....? Venting about how he feels abt my other ex copying him, and you giving into my ex simply bc you both dislike me. It's childish.

You and my ex go on public ramblings for everyone to see and use direct names or usernames as if people are gonna hunt us down? Ive never done that to you. I talk about you with my friends at school sure, but online? I NEVER shared your username. NEVER shared your name. Nothing.

The only info people could use to figure out who you were was me calling you a cheater, using the word "whore" because thats what you CALLED YOURSELF as we were breaking up!!!!! And talking about your pet that you only have because of me

You also say me and many of my friends are cowards for blocking you, bc if we werent blocking you you'd be "all up in our dm's" is that why you made a whole new twitter account dedicated to calling me a clown and immediately blocked me so I couldnt find it?? Okay "coward"

I blocked you bc you've admitted to people that you stalk my instagram, you stalk my twitter, yet when i block you to make you stop (bc ive had issues with stalking before) you get mad??? youre like "ok coward, if you had nothing to hide then why did block and private"

because 1.) i dont like stalkers and you know that 2.) i made everything private bc you were literally throwing a fit about how my months and months old rants were pUbLiC and anybody could see them, so I made it private so ppl dont read about you,

now now youre mad bc you cant go through my twitter anymore without following and you cant find anymore of your sacred screenshots. again, i have nothing to hide. thats why i havent deleted my old tweets. bc I stand by what I say.

the only time i deleted tweets was back in november bc you were mad at me for posting them so i was like "ok, you dont want them up? then i'll take them down just for u" then u freaked out that i was "deleteing tweets!!! trying to hide!!!" no, i just wanted you to shut up abt it

the other time i deleted was march 31? bc you decided to use your NEW bf to get onto his old account (which hadnt been active since 2017....) and retweet a vent of mine. I was like "yea no im not gonna have you stalk my twitter through your bf thats ridiculous"

after he retweeted, you went on that posting spree on instagram about how all my stuff was public. So i deleted the tweet he retweeted just to make you happy. It's either leave them public and you shame me for public tweeting, delete them but ur mad that im being fake? or make my account private and now youre mad bc you cant search through my account of 4 years like the gross rat you are

it's funny how you can also post public tweets about me for your followers to see, and when I find out I didnt say shit to you, didnt start drama with you, i took my screenshots and left. then you deleted them..... i bet if someone called you out for it you would pretend you didnt say shit until someone pulled out the screenshots bc that's what you do, you act like you did nothing until somebody proves you wrong w the evidence, then u pretend like "ohh those tweets! Um yea, uh..."

wit yo fake ass you were all our friend, you were in the friend group bc we cared about you, until you dated me on and off over and over, tried to fuck one of our friends after prom, crushed on one of my friends and your coworker, bitched at me if i didnt invite you to hangout.. even if you ween invited, dated me again while also dating someone from discord while also being sneaky with one of your neighbor guys. Calling me a crybaby for being upset about the breakup even tho you vented about your military ex for months and months..... you even went to your online discord friend who was now your ex and told him how shitty my friends and I were for not inviting you to the Halloween party..... funny thing about that... you chose to opt out. You wanted to spend halloween with your new bf, the one in college, but guess what? He left your ass to go to his own party, so after that THEN you changed your mind and wanted to go to OUR party

OUR party, which had maxed out the guest limit. You said you didnt want to go, so you got removed and replaced with somebody else who COULD and WANTED to go. Tough luck. You leave the line at the BMV, you get sent to the back. Thats how it works.

Then u told your discord ex how shitty we all were & made us out to be shitheads bc we "didnt invite u" we did invite you. u chose not to go until it was too late. that was ur fault. not to mention u had been starting drama & being weirdly sexual w ppl in the group at the time

you wanted to fuck my friend after prom despite knowing he was crushing on a girl & wanted to make it work??? Wanted to suck my friend's dick in the back of the culinary room despite knowing he was with another girl? flirting w girls online despite having a partner? disgustang

even now, u JUST got w a new dude & youre already telling people abt the weird shit yall do. Ur sending him to spy on ppl from the friend group. Getting him involved even tho he's really chill & I have no problem w him??? I hated J bc he was w you, I dont wanna hate this guy too

like damn shawty u say im a hypocrite for not lettin u shit talk.... i do let u. Ive caught u saying shit on twitter & insta but Ive never made any posts abt it like u did. i saw what u said on twitter, or even our dms when u call me a crybaby? but i never posted about it like u

i couldve totally taken a screenshot of your immature dm of insults and no actual argument and posted it all over the place, but I didnt. I couldve posted your vents and rants from twitter, your main insta, and your vent insta all over the place, but I never did. Yet you can??

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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April 9, 2020

I've already blocked their accounts. Both of them. Both those people and their multiple accounts. And if they find a way to find me here and try to start shit, that's their fault. I'm hidden. Nobody here knows me. "stop talking about us get over it" absolute clowns

Not only did my first ex abuse me sexually, verbally, mentally, on rare occasions physically, use my emotions to get her way, guilt trip me, manipulate me, cheat on me, lie to me, isolate me, make fun of me, misgender me, but in the end she called me an abusive asshole. Wow.

Not only did my 2nd ex lie to me, keep me on a hook for money/sex/compliments/free things, keep huge secrets from me, keep other secret partners secret, and cheat on me many times, she calls me the bad guy. Says I'm a liar when all her exes say the same thing abt her. Weird....

But that's what I get for trying the best I could in both relationships and choosing to date an abusive sociopathic manipulative liar and a lying serial cheater with a huge ego both of you are scum. you have ruined me.

They didnt ruin my image. Nobody sees me differently. Nothing happened-- people came to me to say you were both immature idiots for going crazy on instgram toward me when it's been proven that youre both liars & used me..... youre pathetic attempt at starting drama did nothing.

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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April 9

Stating this now:

THIS IS MY PLACE TO VENT

NOBODY KNOWS ME

NOBODY KNOWS THE PEOPLE I VENT ABOUT

If you dont like it, cry about it :) I'm not here to apologize to my abuser and my ex who cheated on me/many others multiple times with no remorse, you absolute clown

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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April 8 2020

#WhyIDidntReport I went to her house on my own, I chose to date her, so when she sexually assaulted me I thought it was my fault for choosing to be there. I didn't break up with her afterwards. When I tried to report, she made others pity here, and my story was ignored.

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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hello im back

i made a rant twitter but now i wanna turn it into an art twitter, so Im gonna dump all my ranting stuff from that account to here

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boy-porridge-vent · 4 years

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i am leaving, im gone from the internet

leaving all my social media behind

trying to disappear and i dont want people to see me ever again

bye bye

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