True.. :)

To obtain, something of equal value must be lost

Fullmetal Alchemist

Gloomy Sunday

Awal sejarahnya lagu ini diciptakan oleh seorang pianis sekaligus komposer asal Hungaria yaitu Rezső Seress yang dia beri judul Szomorú Vasárnap yg juga berarti Gloomy Sunday pada tahun 1933. Lagu tersebut ditulis berdasarkan puisi yang di tulis oleh László Jávor yg menceritakan tentang seorang penyanyi yang depresi akibat kematian kekasihnya dan ingin bunuh diri. Dan kenyataannya, sesaat setelah lagu itu dirilis ... László Jávor mengakhiri hidupnya dengan bunuh diri. Semenjak awal diciptakannya lagu itu, banyak peristiwa bunuh diri terjadi bagi mereka yang mendengarkan dan juga menyanyikan lagu itu. Dan pada puncaknya yaitu sekitar tahun 1941, seorang musisi asal Inggris yaitu Billie Holiday menyanyikan lagu itu dan menjadi hits di putar di radio2. Tapi akibat yang terjadi banyak ratusan kasus bunuh diri terjadi setelah lagu itu diputar di radio2 Inggris, Amerika maupun Hungaria. Hal ini yang menyebabkan kegelisahan stasiun radio saat itu dan mereka depresi untuk mengudara kembali pasca kejadian itu. Lalu mulai mem-banned lagu tersebut untuk di putar lagi di radio-radio. Dan statiun radio Inggris BBC pun memasukan lagu tersebut sebagai lagu terlarang untuk diputar di radio mereka. Dari Inggris lalu ke Amerika untuk mem-banned lagu tersebut serta di Hungaria sendiri sebagai tanah kelahiran dari lagu tersebut. Lagu itu kemudian menjadi sebuah legenda, dimana pendegarnya pasti berinisiatif untuk mengakhiri hidupnya. Termasuk penciptanya sendiri yaitu Rezső Seress yang mengakhiri hidupnya dengan melompat dari jendela apartemennya pada tahun 1968. Disaat yang sama surat kabar terkenal di Amerika yaitu New York Times menulis artikel tentang itu, dan berikut cuplikannya : “ Budapest, January 13. Rezsoe Seres, whose dirge-like song hit, "Gloomy Sunday" was blamed for touching off a wave of suicides during the nineteen-thirties, has ended his own life as a suicide it was learned today. Authorities disclosed today that Mr. Seres jumped from a window of his small apartment here last Sunday, shortly after his 69th birthday. The decade of the nineteen-thirties was marked by severe economic depression and the political upheaval that was to lead to World War II. The melancholy song written by Mr. Seres, with words by his friend, Ladislas Javor, a poet, declares at its climax, "My heart and I have decided to end it all." It was blamed for a sharp increase in suicides, and Hungarian officials finally prohibited it. In America, where Paul Robeson introduced an English version, some radio stations and nightclubs forbade its performance. Mr. Seres complained that the success of "Gloomy Sunday" actually increased his unhappiness, because he knew he would never be able to write a second hit. " Hit lagu Gloomy Sunday juga mengakhiri hidupnya, karena setelah menciptakan lagu tersebut ia sendiri tidak bisa membuat lagu lagi yang bisa menjadi hit karena dari lagu itu sudah menambah keputusasaan dia tentang hidup. Selain itu ada juga kasus bunuh diri yang dilakukan oleh Biliy Mackenzie, vokalis band The Associates pada tahun 1997 yang meng-cover lagu Gloomy Sunday versi Billie Holiday di tahun 1982). Dia mengakhiri hidupnya di rumah ayahnya di Dundee. Nah pada tahun 1941, Billie Holiday menyanyikan Gloomy Sunday yang liriknya ditulis oleh Sam Lewis ... dan begini liriknya : Gloomy Sunday Sunday is gloomy, my hours are slumberless Dearest the shadows I live with are numberless Little white flowers will never awaken you Not where the black coach of sorrow has taken you Angels have no thought of ever returning you Would they be angry if I thought of joining you? Gloomy Sunday Gloomy is Sunday, with shadows I spend it all My heart and I have decided to end it all Soon there'll be candles and prayers that are sad I know Let them not weep let them know that I'm glad to go Death is no dream for in death I'm caressing you With the last breath of my soul I'll be blessing you Gloomy Sunday Dreaming, I was only dreaming I wake and I find you asleep in the deep of my heart, here Darling, I hope that my dream never haunted you My heart is telling you how much I wanted you Gloomy Sunday

Please, don't kill yourself after listening this song !

Daftar Musisi yg pernah membawakan Gloomy Sunday 1935: Pal Kalmar (this is by many considered the original and "the granddaddy of them all") 1935: (UK): Paul Robeson (released in the US in 1936; Desmond Carter lyrics) 1935: Pyotr Leschenko (in Russian, under title "Mratschnoje Woskresenje") 1936: Damia (in French, under the title "Sombre Dimanche", recorded on February 28, lyrics by Jean Marèze and François-Eugène Gonda, music by Rezső Seress) 1936: Hal Kemp 1936: Paul Whiteman 1936: Noriko Awaya (in Japanese, under title "Kurai Nichiyōbi") 1936: Taro Shoji (in Japanese, under title "Kurai Nichiyōbi") 1940: Artie Shaw, 3 March. Pauline Byrne vocal. 1941: Billie Holiday 1957: Josh White 1958: Mel Tormé 1958: Ricky Nelson (released posthumously) 1959: Eila Pellinen (in Finnish as "Surullinen sunnuntai") 1961: Sarah Vaughan 1962: Lou Rawls 1967: Carmen McRae 1968: Genesis (U.S. band unrelated to the well-known British band) 1969: Ray Charles 1979: Lydia Lunch 1981: Elvis Costello & the Attractions (Trust) 1982: Associates (Sulk) 1983: Marc and the Mambas 1983: Swans Way 1983: Jacques Calonne (Ténor Mondain) (in French, under the title "Sombre Dimanche", lyrics credited to László Jávor, but probably the ones by Jean Marèze and François-Eugène Gonda) 1984: Peter Wolf (Lights Out) 1985: Harri Marstio (in Finnish under title "Surullinen sunnuntai") 1986: Christian Death 1988: Serge Gainsbourg (Le Zénith de Gainsbourg) (in French) 1991: Vlado Kreslin (Bela nedelja, in Slovene) 1991: The Singing Loins (Songs For The Organ) 1992: Diamanda Galás (The Singer) (Desmond Carter lyrics) 1992: Sinéad O'Connor (Am I Not Your Girl?) 1995: Gitane Demone 1996: Sarah McLachlan (Rarities, B-Sides and Other Stuff) 1996: Mystic (The Funeral soundtrack) 1998: Marianne Faithfull 1998: Satan's Sadists (On the compilation Their Sympathetic Majesties Request) 1999: The Smithereens (God Save the Smithereens) 1999: Björk 2000: Kronos Quartet 2000: Sarah Brightman 2001: Iva Bittová (The Man Who Cried) 2001: Heather Nova (South) 2002: Rob Coffinshaker (Live at the Cemetery) 7" EP 2003: Edvin Marton 2003: Hot Jazz Band 2003: Priscilla Chan (with changed lyrics, pop, Cantonese, titled "Gloomy Sunday") 2004: Branford Marsalis (Eternal) 2005: Yellow Spots (Psychobilly) 2005: Eminemmylou featuring Legs MC (raps added, turned into anti-suicide anthem) 2005: Venetian Snares (Rossz csillag alatt született - a remix of Billie Holiday's version) 2006: Emilie Autumn 2006: Tsukimono (on Famousfor15mb.com) 2006: Angéla Póka (live) (performing Szomorú Vasárnap live during Megasztár) 2006: Red Sky Mourning 2006: Lucía Jiménez (for the movie the Kovak Box inspired by the song) 2006: Zaorany kytky (band from Czech republic) 2007: Candie Payne 2007: The Unbending Trees (live) 2008: Ivana Wong 2008: The Unbending Trees UK only bonus track on their album. 2008: Paris Jones Canadian Singer 2008: Saori Yano Tokyo saxophonist, Billie Holiday tribute CD. 2009: Aliyah Hussain

It's called obsession.. Can you handle it?

I'm starting obsessed to take photo of these little box.. Innocent face and lonely expression it gives is cute :)

I think I'm off with models for now, this thing give me a lot of fun (and not complaining when I make them wet)

Danbo playing with my pet

Summer Sky

Danbo family trip

Birth of Li'l Danbo

Dosa Ini Tak Akan Berhenti

And on and on From the moment I wake, to the moment I sleep I'll be there by your side, just you try and stop me I'll be waiting in line, just to see if you care

Akankah kau berdaya menghadapi dunia

Penuh dengan rencana membuat kita

Cemaskan kenyataan, budak kekhawatiran

Akankah kau bertanya “Inikah dosa?”

Akankah kau percaya omong kosong belaka Hisapan jempol semata membuat kita Lupakan kenyataan, hidup dalam khayalan Akankah kau bertanya “bukankah kau percaya?”

I was a good kid..

Please kill my other half..

"You kill yourself for recognition, kill yourself to never ever stop..

You broke another mirror, you turning in to something you are not.." - Radiohead

So don't let the blue, the blue eyes fool you.. They're just gelignite, loaded and aiming right between your eyes..

Steven Morrissey