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bitionraingang · 4 years

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One Leads to Another pt.2

It sucks, but hope y’all enjoy it!

As I waited for Changmo to come to the table, I texted Chang Ill that we were in a cafe and that he can go home, which he replied with a big “NO!” to. We were finally seated in front of each other by the window. He took a sip of the hot chocolate that he ordered for both of us.

“So, how’s work going for you?” I started.

“Good, I got a new album out recently and I’m working on a single for now.”

“I heard your new album. It was good.” I replied.

“Yeah? Which was your favorite?” He asked.

“I liked Night Letter and Wrist Watch.” I said smiling.

He smiled back and said, “I was thinking of you when I wrote Night Letter.”

Shocked, I brought my hand to my mouth.

“What?”

“You were my muse for that song.”

“No way…”

“Yes way.”

My heart felt so fuzzy and began to race uncontrollably.

“Thank you.” I said.

“No, thank you. Because of that song, my album got a lot of recognition. I owe it all to you.” He said taking my hand.

“What about you? How have you been?” He asked.

“Umm.. you see… this is the reason why I needed to meet you. First I’m going to explain why I didn’t come earlier. Okay?” I said with a shaky voice.

“Is something wrong?” He asked worried.

“I was afraid at first about what you would think of me. Would you think I did on purpose, I was lying to you. And then I was being eaten by the thoughts of you telling me to get rid of it or even take my baby away from me. I was scar-”

“Baby?” He said taking away his hand.

“Wha- what do you mean?”

“Changmo, I’m pregnant.”

“What?”

“And you’re the father.”

“No way.”

“I’m sorry. I didn’t want things to becom-”

“You said you were on birth control.” He cut me off.

“I was. For the past 3 years, but birth control isn’t 100% effective.”

“Bu- but..”

“The reason why I came to speak to you today is not to throw sudden responsibility on you. I’ve thought about it for the past 4 months and it was only right for you to know, as the father, of your son. I don’t expect you to throw away everything to take on the proper role for our mistakes. But I’m here to ask you to let me please keep the baby. If you decide to not be a part of the baby’s life, then please I will never bring you into the picture ever again, so please don’t take him away from me.” At this point I was sobbing.

“I will understand and accept your decision, but let me keep my son please.”

Changmo stared at me blankly. He mouth was slightly agape. We sat in silence for a good 10 minutes.

“I… I…” He started.

“I’m sorry, but I’m not ready to become a dad.”

My heart squeezed with pain, as if I were shot. With tears brimming, I nodded.

“I understand… I wasn’t ready to become a mom too, but here I am.” I smiled sadly.

“I’m sorry y/n, but there’s so many things I have to do.”

I shook my head. “Just promise me that you won’t interfere with our lives. Please.”

He nodded. Feeling some sort of relief, I thanked him.

“That’s all I have. Sorry and thank you Changmo. Goodbye.” I said getting up.

“Can I…” He stopped me.

I turned to face him.

“Can I give you one last hug?” He asked.

I nodded with a smile. He pulled me into a hug burying his face into the crook of my neck. I was patting his back as he tightened his grip.

“Changmo, it’s too tight.” I muffled, my stomach feeling suffocated.

“Sorry…” He said slightly pulling away. His eyes ran from my face to my bulging stomach. His warm hand moved from my back to the top of my stomach. Where his hand was placed felt like it was burning.

“I’m sorry.” He whispered tears brimming in his eyes.

“We’ll be okay.” I whispered back placing my hand above his.

And with one last peck, I walked away with a pained heart, but with relief. I was about to press the call button on Chang Ill’s number, but stopped myself. I didn’t want him to see me crying. Mommy is hurt Peach. But I will only cry today okay? I thought as tears escaped my eyes. I made it home and slumped on the couch. I couldn’t hold in the tears that I’ve kept in for so long. I was expecting that kind of reaction from Changmo, but I guess somewhere in my heart, I wanted him to come and be with us. I cried my heart out as I rubbed my belly. I will only cry for today I promised myself. As I got up for a cup of water, my phone buzzed.

Did you go home?

-Chang Ill

I completely forgot that he was waiting for me and I came home without telling him.

Do you want me to come to you?

We could eat ice cream and watch movies!

-Chang Ill.

Sorry I completely forgot you were waiting for me… I’ll give you a call tomorrow, I want to sleep early today. I texted back. He probably knew that the conversation didn’t go well.

Okay, let me know if you need me. I love you, good night.

-Chang Ill.

I sighed at the last message feeling relieved at the fact that there is at least someone I can rely on. After filling a glass of water, I headed for my bedroom and sighed at the endless amounts baby furniture that Chang Ill and the other 1lliambition boys bought for me. Not wanting to do anything that required me to move around, I simply laid down resting on my side.

5 months have passed since that day, I was about to give birth soon. Chang Ill helped me come about the pain by hanging out with me more which led to more rumors. It was an ordinary day, I was supposed to meet with Chang Ill, but an important meeting for his work came up so I decided to travel the city by myself. I had my earphones on, listening to Hash Swan’s new album as I took a sip of my iced peach green tea. I looked around, looking for stores to go into until I felt a strong pull in my stomach. Something didn’t feel right. I was about to sit down at a bench until I felt water drizzling down my legs. My eyes widened realizing I was going into labor. “Fuck.” I muttered. Rummaging through my bag, I frantically looked for my phone. Once I was able to get a hold of my phone, I immediately dialed my emergency contact.

“Fuck… pick up…” I said.

Hey, still in the meeting, I’ll give you a call in 10 minutes.

-Chang Ill

Chang Ill, my water broke.

After that message, there was a call immediately.

“Where are you? Are you home right now?” He shouted panicking. I could hear his voice echoing, probably running in the halls of the studio.

“I’m at the cafe we went to the other day… near Swan’s new store…” I replied as calmly as possible.

“Why are you out?! I told you not to leave anywhere without me.” He scolded.

“I’m sorry… Chang Ill, should I call an ambulance?” I asked.

“No, I’ll be there in 5 minutes.” He said before hanging up.

“Ma’am are you okay?” a young man approached me. He saw the puddle by my legs as I stood in a weird position.

“Do you need me to call help?” He asked.

I shook my head no, “my fri-friend is on the way. He’s coming soon…” I tried to reply, softly.

“Would you like me to stand here with you as you wait?” He asked.

“Yes, please. If you don’t mind.” He immediately grabbed onto my arms, trying to help me keep balance. I tightly gripped his arm as I felt my contractions.

“Sorry, this baby is eager to get out.” I stated with a nervous chuckle.

“That’s okay, it’ll be okay. Do you know when your fri-”

“Y/n! I’m here!” Chang Ill yelled getting out of his porsche.

“Thank you.” I said with a smile to the young man that stood with me. A crowd of people was forming as they realized the rapstar that was here. Chang Ill tried shielding me from the phones of the people as he sat me down in the passenger seat.

“Hold on, okay? Everything will be okay.” He reassured me.

I nodded before he closed the door to run over to the driver’s seat and zoomed off to the nearest hospital.

After a dreadful 17 hours of labor, I finally gave birth to a beautiful baby boy whom I named Young Hoo, Lee Young Hoo.

I had my eyes closed until I heard the door open. Chang Ill came in, rolling Young Hoo’s bed. I smiled and tried to sit up.

“Stay still. I’ll help you in a few” he stopped me.

After parking the bed right beside my bed, Chang Ill helped me to sit up. I looked at him as he ever so softly held Young Hoo in his arms.

“He’s so beautiful.” He said with sparkling eyes. As Young Hoo came into my arms, I couldn’t help, but to tear up.

“I can’t believe this.” I whispered. Chang Ill sat down beside me placing his hands on my thighs.

“You did it. You’re going to do so well and I’m going to be next to you in every step of the way, okay?”

I nodded with trembling lips. He pulled me into a warm hug and pecked my temple. We pulled away at the sound of the door opening once again. In came Dong Gab, Sungbin, Stephanie, Joonkyung, and Jinyoung.

“Hey, congratulations y/n!” They said coming in.

“Shhhhh….” Chang Ill shushed them pointing to Young Hoo in my arms.

“Wow, I understand why people would think you guys are a family.” Jinyoung commented looking from afar. Chang Ill and I smiled at each other, I was thanking him with my eyes and it seemed like he understood it.

After everyone took turns holding Young Hoo and conversing with me, one by one, took their leave.

Chang Ill stayed behind and even asked Dong Gab for a few weeks off to help me settle in with the newborn which I immediately refused to, but Dong Gab insisted on it.

“Are you okay?” Chang Ill asked while I was breastfeeding Young Hoo for the first time. I couldn’t take my eyes off of Young Hoo and just nodded.

“I’m happy. Thank you Chang Ill, for everything.” He shook his head, saying that he did nothing.

“You know, people really think that Young Hoo is my son after the video of us rushing to the hospital.”

I looked up at Chang Ill’s face.

“As long as you’re okay, I don’t mind.” I replied.

“I don’t mind people thinking that as long as you’re okay.” I said once more.

Chang Ill smiled, “Then I don’t care too.”

We were finally on the way home. There were even more rumors about Chang I’ll getting secretly married, having a child, and more as photos of Chang Ill and I leaving the hospital with a baby were released by fans. Chang Ill didn’t approve or deny anything, but posted photos of Young Hoo on his instagram which resulted in his posts firing up within seconds.

“Hey.”

“Hmm?” He hummed looking up from the sleeping Young Hoo.

“It’s been two weeks now, shouldn’t you get back to work? Or at least stop with posting Young Hoo on your story? People are literally attacking you..”

He walked away from the crib to take a seat next to me on the couch.

“Dong Gab said I could take as much time as I was off since I released 3 albums in the course of 2 months and who cares what other people think?!” He shrugged.

I sighed, lightly slapping his thigh.

“Did Changmo contact you yet?” He asked.

I froze at his name. Shaking my head, I said,

“I told him not to and he hasn’t. Which is good.”

“I mean, but he’s the dad. He’s not even a bit curious? He probably saw the pictures of us and he even saw my stories of Young Hoo, but he hasn’t even contacted me.” He replied.

“Is that why you keep posting on your story?” I asked.

Like a burglar caught in action, his eyes widened and vigorously shook his head no.

“I just want to share Young Hoo to the world.”

“Whatever Chang Ill. You should really go home now. You haven’t gone home in 2 weeks.” I said getting up to fold the small clothes I had hand washed with the help of Chang Ill before.

“I’m fine. I like being here with you guys.” He said following behind me.

“Chang Ill… you can’t keep doing this… I know, I know it’s because you care and maybe even pity us.” I sighed.

“What?” He exclaimed turning me around to face him.

“What do you mean? Of course I care, but what do you mean pity you? Where did you get that thought?”

Tears were welling up in my eyes and I couldn’t face him.

“No, stop. Don’t turn away from me. Tell me what you mean by that.” He said palming my cheeks that were getting wet with my tears.

“Y/n. I don’t know if you noticed, but I like you. I like you more than a friend. And I want to become a part of your lives.” He whispered.

My eyes widened. I didn’t know that Chang Ill had liked me more than a friend.

“I… I… didn’t know that… Chang Ill, you could do so much better than me. I have a son, that’s not even your child…” I said surprised.

He continued to hold me and looked deeply into my eyes.

“I don’t care. I love you for who you are and Young Hoo for who he is. He’s practically my son.” And my tears were activated like a waterfall. I couldn’t stop crying. Chang Ill pulled me into his arms and rubbed my back, trying to soothe me.

“I want to become a part of your lives.” He whispered.

I pulled away lightly, “Chang Ill I’m thankful for everything, but I can’t do that to you. You deserve so much better.”

He pulled me back into a hug and dug his face in the crook of my neck, “No. Don’t say that. Please. I want this. I want you. I want Young Hoo.”

I stroked the back of his neck. “Are you sure?” I asked.

He pulled away and with tearful eyes, he nodded. “I know I want this.”

Young Hoo was now 6 months old. Chang Ill and I were doing better than ever as we were deeply in love not only with Young Hoo but also each other.

“Y/n! I need another diaper!” Chang Ill yelled from the bedroom.

“Ugh! He always forgets.” I muttered as I let go of the laundry and trotted up the stairs. Just as I was going to nag him about forgetting to refill the diapers, I saw him leaning into blow bubbles on Young Hoo’s tiny belly which made him squirm in glee. I couldn’t help but smile at the sight and walked over.

“Chang Ill, I love you, but please stop forgetting to refill the diapers….” I said as I peck the side of his head.

“Oh my gosh and don’t forget to take a shower… you stink.” I said pulling away.

“I think we both need to take a shower babe.” He said as he changed Young Hoo’s diaper.

We were happily living in the moment. I got rid of social media of any sort because somehow people had found my accounts and started terrorizing me about Chang Ill. Knowing that, Chang Ill stopped posting about us and tried his best to focus on his music.

An alarm went off to feed Young Hoo. I picked him up and sat down on the feeding chair.

“How much longer are you supposed to breastfeed him for?” Chang Ill sked grabbing the bib and placed it under Young Hoo’s chin.

“I read around 6 months is good, so soon slowly start with formula and soft foods.” I replied.

“Can you get me the pillow over there?” I asked. Chang Ill walked over and helped me get comfortable with the pillow. After getting situated, he took a seat on the arm of the chair. He stroked the back of my hair as he looked at the two of us.

“Is something wrong?” I asked as I heard him sigh.

“Umm… I should probably tell you.” He started.

“Tell me what?” I asked.

“Changmo has been contacting me for the past couple of months…”

“What? Why?” I asked.

“Well… he obviously heard about Young Hoo and wanted to see him. I told him you wouldn’t like that, but he kept insisting. He wanted to call you, but didn’t have any way around it.” He sighed.

“He promised to stay out of our lives…” I sighed stroking the side of Chang Ill’s thighs.

“But you know, he does have the right to meet Young Hoo at least once.” Chang Ill said trying to persuade me.

“I will only if you’re there..” I said softly which he returned a nod with a big smile.

“Does the baby bag have extra clothes Chang Ill?” I yelled from the bathroom.

“Yep. I just put it in.”

“Okay, thanks.” I replied as I finally got my hair in a ponytail.

Chang Ill peeped his head into the door and asked,

“Ready to leave?”

“Yup.” I answered.

I walked over to pick up Young Hoo who was engrossed in playing with the new toy that Dong Gab had got for him for turning 6 months old.

“Let’s go baby.” I said pecking the top of his head.

“Porsche or Wagon?” Chang Ill asked before opening the front door.

“Babe. Young Hoo needs to go too, of course the bigger one.” I replied with an ‘are you serious’ look.

Chang Ill laughed and opened the door for us to walk out. Once we got off the elevator, I buckled Young Hoo into the car seat, I walked over to the passenger seat and sat as Chang Ill got the car ready to leave.

“Are you okay?” He asked grabbing my hand with his right hand.

I took in a deep breath, “I’m just nervous that’s all.”

“Don’t be. I’m here for you. Okay?” He reassured me which I responded with a nod and a big smile.

“Thank you.” Chang Ill returned the smile and placed a peck on my lips.

We were finally in front of the restaurant that we decided to meet up at with Changmo. Chang Ill got out first to get Young Hoo out of the car seat as I sat in the front trying to calm myself down. The door of the passenger side opened and there stood a tired Young Hoo, who just woke up from his quick nap, cuddled into Chang Ill’s neck.

“Everything will be fine. Trust me Y/n. Okay?” He said with eyes full of care. I nodded and got out of the car. As Chang Ill held Young Hoo in one hand, he held my hand in the other and we walked into the restaurant.

“Hi, we have a reservation for 4 under Chang Ill.” He told the host.

“Follow me this way please.” The host directed us to a private room. The people in the restaurant were going crazy as they saw Chang Ill walking in with a baby and a woman whom he was holding hands with. I tried to hide behind him as people were taking pictures and videos. Finally we were led to the room and the door closed. Chang Ill sat Young Hoo down in the highchair and took a seat in the middle. He saw me being tense once again and turned to calm me down. He was murmuring sweet words into my ear as he held my tightly by my waist. Just as he placed a peck on my temple, the door opened. I wasn’t active on social media after my last trimester with Young Hoo so I had no idea what to expect when Changmo walked in. There he was, with a smile, shining so brightly, flaunting his now natural brown hair.

“Hey, how have you guys been?” He asked as Chang Ill got up to give him a handshake.

“Good. You?” Chang Ill asked as they hugged.

“I’ve been doing good.” Changmo replied.

I was standing behind Chang Ill still nervous to greet Changmo

Chang Ill moved to the side and I came face to face with Changmo

“Hey, y/n.” Changmo said opening his arms.

I moved up to give him a hug.

“Hey Mo. Good to see you.”

“I missed you.” He said tightening the hug.

“Me too…” I said returning the hug.

We pulled away and I turned to Chang Ill who was smiling at me.

“Well, let’s sit down.” He said holding onto my shoulders.

“Is he?...” Changmo wispered as he sat down.

“This is Young Hoo, Lee Young Hoo.” Chang Ill answered as he picked up Young Hoo from the highchair and walked over to Changmo. I sat down in my chair and saw Young Hoo, for the very first time interacting with his blood related father.

Changmo’s eyes widened and any sort of hearing seemed to cease for me. All I saw was my baby that I loved very much in the arms of his father for the first time. After a good ten minutes of Changmo being with the baby, we finally sat down and began to order.

“He’s six months old right?” He asked.

“Yeah, just 3 days ago.” I replied.

“I’m sorry I wasn’t there.” He said.

“Changmo, we made a promise before. I’m grateful you kept it. Really.” I replied.

“Then I’m sorry that I said I wanted to meet you and Young Hoo.”

“That’s okay, you have the right to meet him at least once.”

“It took a lot of work convincing her Changmo.” Chang Ill joked trying to lift the mood.

We all let out an awkward laugh. The air was incredibly thick in the room.

“So, are you guys like together?” Changmo asked.

I nodded as Chang Ill answered, “Yep, almost six months now.”

“Wow, that’s it? I thought you guys were together for longer than that, based on like the news and stuff.”

“Well, people think I’m secretly married and think Young Hoo is my child. What’s new?” Chang Ill laughed.

“You guys do look like a family.” Changmo muttered. “It looks great.”

“Thanks, I really do think of Young Hoo as my own son so I’m happy to hear that. I should thank you also for helping in giving life to Young Hoo.” Chang Ill said genuinely.

Changmo seemed like he was forcing a smile as he gave a nod.

Young Hoo who was sitting nicely until now started to throw a tantrum by throwing the spoon and fork he held.

“Hey, don’t do that.” Chang Ill scolded slightly taking away the utensils which led to Young Hoo crying.

“I’ll take him out for a second and get him settled.” He said warily walking out of the room.

Now with the room left with only Changmo and me, it was even more awkward.

I didn’t know how to start the conversation.

“The reason why I asked to see you was because…” He started. He seemed to think as he talked, trying to say the right words.

“I don’t want this to sound condescending in any way, but… I wanted to start fresh with you and Young Hoo.”

“What?” I gasped.

“I regret it so much. I regret saying that I wasn’t ready. I regret letting you go that day. I wanted to grab you after you walked out of the cafe door, but my body was frozen. I want you. I want Young Hoo. I want us to happen for real.” He said grabbing my hand.

Tears of anger were filling my eyes. How could he think that I would just let him in, in a snap just because he regretted it?

“Y/n. I know you’re with Chang Ill right now and that’s probably because you need someone to be with you, but think about Young Hoo he’s going to need a father, a real father who-”

“No!” I cut him off. “Don't you dare underestimate my love for Chang Ill. And as for Young Hoo, he does have a real father. He’s been loved even before he was born by his father who isn’t related to him with an ounce of blood, but with pure love. Don’t think you can squeeze your way into something you rejected before, but want now. I told you. I told you, if you were going to leave, I’m going to need you to leave for good.” I started crying.

“Changmo, please don’t think of breaking our family. I’m grateful that you took part in creating Young Hoo, but this family that Young Hoo has brought together is far more precious to me.”

“I’m sorry. I just realized what I’ve lost after I’ve let it go. I just hoped for you to come back.” He said.

“I’m willing to have you meet Young Hoo occasionally, but only after your heart of wanting something that will never happen to be gone. So until then, please don’t contact us.” I said picking up the baby bag and my bag and heading for the door. I was still in tears, but had to wipe them away to face Chang Ill. I didn’t want to tell him what happened. Before I could open the door, Changmo held me back. He grabbed me into a hug from the back.

“I’m sorry for everything. Please don’t hate me okay?” He whispered.

“I won’t hate you.” I replied as I pried away from his arms and out of the room.

As I was walking towards the front of the restaurant, Chang Ill called out for me.

“Y/n! Where are you going?”

“Changmo suddenly got called in from his company so he needs to leave. Let’s go.” I said pulling him towards the door.

“Really? I didn’t even get to say goodbye.”

“He said he would call, come on, let’s go.” I rushed him.

We finally made it home and I prepared dinner that Chang Ill wasn’t able to eat before.

“I’m going to lay Young Hoo down and lay down for a bit okay?” I said as I placed the food in front of Chang Ill.

“Okay, I’ll be there soon.”

“Eat slowly, don’t choke like the other day.” I said before walking up.

After laying Young Hoo down in his crib, I walked over to our bedroom and laid down on the bed. I was lost in my thoughts as I felt strong arms wrapping around my body.

“You okay?” Chang Ill asked.

“Mhm.” I hummed.

“Thank you.” He murmured with his lips against the back of my neck.

“For what?” I asked.

“For saying you love me.” He replied.

“I heard you today. I was going to walk in, but heard Changmo start his whole speech. I’m grateful for this family too.” He continued.

I turned to face him. “I’m sorry you had to hear that. I didn’t want you to hear that..” I said pecking his forehead.

“I will forever be grateful for you being with me and Young Hoo. I really do love you Chang Ill. I will continue to love you even if you don't love us anymore.” I said with tears welling up.

“What are you saying. Of course I’ll love you guys forever. I’m thankful for you guys being in my life.”

This was it. From being miserable after being cheated on, to finding a man who loved my son and I unconditionally. Happiness came with the price of one thing leading to another. And I was 100% sure that I would go through every sort of pain again if that were the only way to be with this family.

#double k scenarios #double k #son chang ill #changmo #khiphop

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bitionraingang · 4 years

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One Leads to Another

THIS IS FOR MY BEST FRIEND! hope everyone enjoys it! There will be a part 2!!

Changmo X Double K X OC

It’s been weeks since I found out my now ex boyfriend had been cheating on me for 2 of the 3 years we’ve been together. I ran out of our shared apartment with all of my belongings and crashed at my best friend’s house.

“Alright. So today, we are going to party our asses off okay?” She asked.

“Hell yeah. I need this.” I replied while slipping on my little black dress. This dress is perfect, it isn’t revealing, but hug and accentuates all my curves.

I gave one last look in the mirror before turning around.

“Damnn… you look smoking hot Y/n.” Chang IIl, my friend said while eyeing me. It was pretty normal for our group of friends to throw suggestive jokes around at each other, until I became part of a committed relationship which didn’t matter anymore.

“Thanks, but I’m not reserved for you today.” I said slipping on my heels.

Chang Ill walked behind me and put his groin against my bent ass and wrapped his hands around my waist to pull me up after I strapped the heels onto my ankles.

“You sure you don’t want to be with me tonight?” He whispered into my ear while teasing me.

“Chang Ill we all know how many girls you’ve been with. There’s no way I’m letting you in me.” I replied while laughing and prying his hands away from my body.

He gave a peck on my temple and said, “Well you know I’m always open for you to have me.”

“Nu uh, not a chance.” I replied while walking towards Joonkyung, who held my purse. He helped me sling the purse into my shoulder and pulled me into a side hug.

“Are you feeling better?” He asked.

Joonkyung was my brother from another mother to me. He was always there when I needed help. He was the best friend that I ran to after finding out about my ex boyfriend’s wrongdoings.

“Yeah, thanks to you as always.” I said returning the hug.

“Are ya’ll done?! I wanna leave!” Deok Kwang yelled from the bottom of the steps.

We were seated at the usual V.I.P. rooms thanks to the famous boys. Right away we got started with some drinks. After taking a few sips of my drink, I turned to Joonkyung who was conversing with one of the call girls.

“Joonkyung, I’m going downstairs to dance a little bit.”

His arms fell from the girl’s shoulders and grabbed onto my waist.

“Want me to go with you?” He asked.

I pushed the few strands of hair that blocked his eyes and shook my head.

“I’ll be good. Have fun.” I replied.

The bass in the song was so strong that I couldn’t help but to move my body freely along the upbeat music. Within a few minutes, I was joined by a group of girls and guys who wanted to dance with me. We all bopped along to the music. It felt so good to let myself loose after such a long time. As I took a sip of the drink in my hand, I felt a warm pair of hands land on the middle of my stomach. I turned around to see if it was Joonkyung who had come to check up on me, but I was shocked to see someone with bright silver hair.

“Hey, I’ve been watching you dance since you got here and wanted to know if I can join you.” He “whispered” loudly over the booming music.

I was so shocked to see one of my favorite rappers of all time behind me, holding onto me, and asking if he can dance with me. “Oh my gosh! Aren’t you Changmo?!” I asked, somewhat shouting so he was able to hear me.

He nodded and gave me a big smile. I placed my hands on his and rocked my body against his. As we danced against each other, it felt surreal. I was dancing with the man who I’ve only listened to on my Spotify Premium account.

“You want to talk for a bit?” Changmo asked into my ear which sent shivers down my spine. I nodded and grabbed onto the hand that he was holding out for me to take.

He brought me to a secluded room that seemed to be near the room I came from. We sat next to each other as a waiter brought another glass of drinks for us.

“So, what’s your name?” He asked.

“I’m Y/n.” I replied.

“Well, I’m Changmo. As you know. I just wanted to get to know a beautiful person like you.” He said while tracing his fingers on my forearm.

“Is that what you say to all the girls you want in your pants?” I questioned laughing.

“No, I usually don’t have the courage to do this.” He replied somewhat sincerely.

I gave him a flirtatious smile and said,

“Well, you’re doing a good job in trying to have me want you.”

He returned the smile and shifted closer to me.

“Well then is it okay for me to give you a preview with my lips?”

“Just keep in mind I have high expectations.” I said smiling and then leaned in to close the gap between us.

The next morning, I woke up with my head buried in his warm chest.

“Told you that preview I would be worth it.” He groaned making me chuckle.

“Wait. Changmo.” I said abruptly pulling away.

“Yeah?” He asked, eyes widened.

“You didn’t know wear a condom… You’re clean right?” I asked warily. I always wore a condom, not just to avoid pregnancy, but in case of exposing myself to diseases.

“I’ll get you a morning after pill. Sorry about that I completely forgot.” He said trying to pull me into his arms again.

“No, I’m on birth control so that’s okay, but I’m asking about other things. You don’t have anything right?” I asked.

He chuckled, “Sorry, no one’s ever asked me that before. But yes, I am clean. You’re the first person I’ve ever had slept with without a condom.”

“Okay, just making sure because I always do, but I completely forgot as well.” I said easing back into his arms.

“Are you clean?” He asked teasingly.

I lightly slapped his arms, “you think I would’ve asked if I wasn’t?”

I closed my eyes feeling tired from the intense workout while Changmo continued holding me and placing kisses on my face.

“You give so many kisses to a person you’ve just met.” I said without opening my eyes.

“I usually don’t, but I can’t help it.” He replied.

After a tiresome day, I made my way to Chang Ill’s studio.

Hey.” I said slumping down on the sofa.

Without turning away from the computer screen, he humphed a hey back.

“Are you working on a new song?” I asked.

“Yeah I got a sudden inspiration.” He answered.

As if he remembered something, his body jumped and swiftly turned to face me behind him.

“What?” I asked without opening my eyes.

‘Where’d you go yesterday?”

“You could never guess…” I said while sighing.

“Did you go home with Changmo?”

My eyes popped open and I jumped up, “how’d you know?”

He nodded with a grin, like a parent proud of their child’s achievements and said, “I have my ways.”

And just like that, our lives went on. Changmo lived his own. I lived my own. That was until I got sick. And I mean very, very sick.

“Ugh… I didn’t even eat anything… why am I like this…” I groaned against my pillow.

“Chang Ill is bringing medicine and porridge for you so hold onfor a bit.” Joonkyung said while brushing my hair that was sticking to my forehead.

“Did you sleep without the A.C. on?” He asked.

“No… I don’t know why I’m like this.” I replied.

“Since when did you say?”

“Maybe like two days after the day we went out? I think..” I groaned once again feeling like throwing up.

“And you haven’t eaten properly since that day, right?” He asked cautiously.

“Yeah.” I said and got up to run to the bathroom once again.

Joonkyung followed behind me and patted my back as I tried to release the toxicity in my body.

“Y/n… you said you guys didn’t use a condom right?”

With a big frown, I looked up at Joonkyung and said, “Joonkyung, I’m on birth control. I’ve been on it for the past 3 years, since I was with Dong Hae.”

“You do know birth control isn’t 100% effective.”

“That’s like 1 out of a million. There’s no way that it could happen to me.”

With a concerned look, Joonkyung shook his head. “That 1 could be anyone.”

My body stiffened at that thought and I could feel my blood rushing to my heart rapidly. Biting my lips I walked out of the bathroom and over to the nightstand where my phone rested.

“Chang Ill.”

“Hey, you okay? I’ll be there soon. I’m like 10 mins away.”

“Bring a pregnancy test too.”

“Fuck. Are you being ser-” and I hung up. Joonkyung walked over to me and pulled me into a hug. Tears slowly escaped my eyes as dug myself deeper into his warmth.

I stood in front of the mirror, just staring at my reflection. I was too afraid to look at the test.

“Y/n.” I heard Joonkyung’s voice from the other side of the bathroom door. My head turned towards the door, but I couldn’t say anything.

“Did you take a look?” He continued.

My head whipped towards the pregnancy test that sat on top of the closed toilet.

“Y/n? Is everything okay?”

Taking a deep breath, I slowly picked up the stick and took a look.

“Y/n. Answer please.”

My heart dropped at the two big red lines that stuck out on the white stick.

“Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. FUCK. FUCK. FUCK.” I chanted roaming back and forth in the bathroom.

The banging on the door became louder.

“Y/n?! Open up! Open the door! Changmo! Look for the bathroom keys in the kitchen drawer!” Joonkyung shouted.

“Y/n, it’s okay. Just let me in okay?” He begged. My hand was shaking as I continued to stare at the stick that changed my life. Why hadn’t I used a condom? But I was on birth control. But if I had a condom, I wouldn’t be like this. My reflection in the mirror showed my disheveled hair, shaky body, with tears falling freely to my chin. The door to the bathroom jiggled open and came in a rushing Joonkyung and Chang Ill. They knew the test was positive from my current state and pulled me into a hug. I was crying in the arms of Joonkyung as Chang Ill brushed my hair out of my face.

“We’ll be here for you no matter what okay?” Joonkyung whispered.

“Yeah, don’t worry.” Chang Ill added.

It’s been 3 days since I’ve found out about my pregnancy. Joonkyung and Chang Ill stayed over at my house since the day I found out. I was taking in the truth better than the previous days. I still couldn’t eat, but Chang Ill forced me to for the sake of the baby in my womb.

“How are you today?” Chang Ill asked.

“I’m feeling better… thank you Chang Ill.” I said while gripping his hand.

“Hey, no need to thank. It’s what friends do.” He said giving me a hug.

“Are you going to tell Changmo?” He asked.

“I don’t even know his number… And it was a one night stand. He wouldn’t want a child from a one night stand.”

“I could try to get you in contact with him. And he deserves to know even if you decide to get rid of it.”

“Chang Ill, I know that, but what if he says to get rid of it? I don’t want to live with the fact that I got an abortion and an innocent baby died because of my or his selfishness. I’m not getting rid of the baby.”

He sighed with a look of relief and gave me another hug.

“I was so scared that you would say you wanted to get an abortion. Oh God. I feel my legs shaking.”

“You’re not the one pregnant or even the father.” I chuckled.

“Yeah, but I’m going to be the Godfather.” He replied.

“Uhh… that’s Joonkyung.” I joked.

“Hey!” He said pulling away from the hug.

“Just kidding, of course it’s both of you.” I said smiling.

“There’s that shining smile.” He said poking my cheeks.

Four months have passed and I was entering my second trimester. I haven’t met Changmo since that day and I was somehow able to convince Joonkyung and Chang Ill to not let Changmo know because I was afraid that he would make me abort my baby or take it away from me. Joonkyung was busy with his new album so these days I was hanging out with Chang Ill more. There were rumors that Chang Ill was becoming a father since he was seen so often with me shopping for baby supplies. Luckily, my face was not released to the public. There only were pictures of Chang Ill with a lady that looked pregnant occasionally joined by Joonkyung. Since the weather was still warm in late September, I had a thin shirt with a loose cardigan.

“Chang Ill, what do you think about this?” I asked raising a pair of baby Jordans.

“That’s so cute!” He replied with a giddy expression.

“Let me get it for you.” He said taking it out of my hands.

“No, you already bought so much for us! I want to buy it!” I exclaimed.

“But Coco is my first godson. Of course I have to buy it.” Chang Ill whined.

“I told you his nickname is Peach! Not Coco!” I said while smacking his hand away.

“I think Coco is cuter.” He said as he skillfully took the Jordans out of my hands and ran to the register.

“Chang Ill!” I yelled slightly as I finally caught up to him. He gave me a grin as I smacked his back.

“For my baby, anything.” He said giving me a side hug.

We were headed for my favorite ramen shop for dinner as Changmo got a call from his boss, Dong Gab

“Chang Ill, can you come into the office right now?” He asked.

“Umm, I’m actually out with Y/n right now and we’re getting dinner right now. Is it okay if I go in a little later?”

“Actually, can you both drop by? It’s important.”

“With Y/n? I can -”

“We’ll be there soon oppa.” I said cutting off Chang Ill.

“Alright, thanks see you.” Dong Gab said before hanging up.

“Y/n, we already know what this is going to be about. You’re pregnant. It’s only going to stress you out.” Chang Ill said looking back and forth from the road to me.

“Chang Ill , I’ll be fine. Dong Gab oppa isn’t going to yell at me or anything. Don’t worry. I’m stronger than you think.” I said trying to lift his worries.

He sighed loudly before saying, “Wait. Oppa? Dong Gab oppa? Yah! I’m older than you and Dong Gab, but you never call me oppa! Why is Dong Gab an oppa to you?”

I chuckled and said, “That’s because mentally, you’re younger than me!” which resulted in a pouty Chang Ill driving to 1llionaire Records.

“Hey Dong Gab oppa. How have you been?” I asked as he welcomed me with a hug.

“Good. What about you? How’s the baby?” He asked as we sat down.

“Peach is -” I started before I was cut off by Chang Ill shouting,

“Coco!” I glared at him before continuing,

“PEACH is good. He’s 4 months now, half way through!”

“That’s good.” Dong Gab said smiling.

“I called you guys in because right now there’s a video of you two going around at a shoe store buying baby shoes and Chang Ill called the baby his baby. And fans are going crazy right now.” He continued.

“A video? At a shoe store? That was literally 30 minutes ago.” Chang Ill exclaimed.

“Yeah, and Y/n, you’re face was revealed in the video. I’m trying my best to have lawyers take it down immediately, but then again because you were with someone famous, and it was taken in public, it might be hard to.” Dong Gab sighed.

Feeling overwhelmed at the situation, I took in a deep breath.

“Is there anything I can do?” I asked.

“No, you’re not revealing yourself to the public. Your face was enough.” Chang Ill said. If I were to come out and explain my situation, then 1) I would be telling everyone in Korea that I am a single mother 2) I would get backlash about being a single mother 3) I would get backlash about being a scandalous woman… the list could go on and on.

“Chang Ill’s right Y/n. There’s no need for you to expose yourself to the public. We’ll do that for him, but as for you, try to stay on the downlow and don’t hang around together in public too much.” Dong Gab said with a concerned look.

Chang Ill and I nodded as we drifted into our own thoughts before it was interrupted by Dong Gab’s million dollar question.

“Are you planning on telling Changmo?”

I froze and just stared blankly back at him. Changm Ill instead answered,

“She doesn’t want to because she’s afraid he might tell her to get an abortion or take the baby away from her.”

Dong Gab nodded before adding, “But you don’t know that… shouldn’t you at least try? If it doesn’t go well, you know we’ll all be here to make things right for you.”

“That’s not the only reason.” I started.

“What if he thinks I did that to him on purpose? Or like I’m lying about him being the dad, but want him to take responsibility? I don’t want to become a pathetic person.” I said finally letting out my true feelings.

Dong Gab got up to sit beside me and gave me a hug.

“You’ve got it all wrong. Look at you, you’re 4 months pregnant right now and you didn’t tell the father. He should know then you didn’t do it on purpose or that you’re trying to force him to be responsible for a baby that’s not his. Changmo is smarter than that.”

So somehow, I was now in front of Changmo’s studio. Chang Ill palmed my cheeks and lifted my head so I could meet his eyes.

“No matter what happens, remember that I will always be here for you. That includes Joonkyung, Dong Gab, everyone. Okay?”

I nodded and stirred up a smile so that he wouldn’t be too worried. One part of me wanted Changmo to accept the baby and become a responsible father. The other part of me wanted to turn around, go home, and hide in my bed covers.

“I’ll be out here so don’t worry. Call me if you need me.” He said lightly turning my body towards the door.

I stepped in and was faced with a young lady who was managing the front desk.

“Hi, how can I help you?” She asked.

“Hi, I’m here to meet Changmo.”

“Are you the new program’s producer? Did you make an appointment with him?” She continued.

“Umm… no. I need to speak to him as soon as possible for a private matter. Is it poss-”

“Honey, you’re not the first to try this tactic. If you really want to meet him, make sure you buy tickets to the next concert.” She said while shaking her head.

“No, I do know him personally. I just wasn’t able to get in contact with him privately.”

“Well, maybe that means he doesn’t want to speak with you. I’m going to have to ask you to leave.” She replied getting up from her seat.

“No, please. Can you just tell him Y/n is here to speak to him. He’ll know. Plea-”

“Y/n?” A familiar voice cut me off.

“Changmo!” I exclaimed.

“Hey, how you’ve been?” He asked while reaching out for a hug.

“Could’ve been better…” I said while returning the hug with my side, trying to avoid hugging him with my stomach that was bulging out.

“What brings you here?” He continued.

“I’m actually here to see you. I need to speak to you, is that okay?” I asked lightly grabbing his fingers.

“Yeah, of course. Let’s go to a cafe in the front.” He said taking my hand into his own.

“No, let me!” I said trying to push him out of the way from the register.

“No, no. I want to treat you.” He said blocking the view. Rolling my eyes, I turned around to grab a table.

To be continued......

#double k scenarios #double k #son chang ill #changmo #khiphop

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Comes Around

Sorry to whoever will be reading this. It sucks, but I love writing!

The Quiett angst/fluff(?)

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He was no longer coming home. I’ve waited until 5AM walking back and forth, from our room to the front door. At around 5:30AM, I would rest my eyes for 2 hours before having to wake up again to get our 5 year old son, Dong Soo up for Preschool. I called and called. But all I heard was “Please leave voice mail in…” I’ve called in sick for over 2 weeks now. Every footstep I took back into our apartment was dreading. I constantly looked around hoping for him to magically pop out of a corner, with a big smile, apologizing, saying he was busy. But no. It never happened.

Joonkyung came over a couple of times. Though he was closer to Dong Gab than me, he felt that it was right that I knew. He’s been seeing some girls. Girls who weren’t moms. Girls who weren’t wives. Girls who he felt a thrill to be with because he was taken. He didn’t want to be taken anymore. He didn’t want to be responsible. He wanted his life motto to be “fuck bitches, get money” again. Joonkyung had been a great support for me and a great role model for Dong Soo. I was happy that at least I had a friend who truly cared.

I no longer cried. I no longer sighed. I no longer waited. I was happy. 5 years ago, on the day that I sent Dong Gab our divorce papers, he came back home. He was crying. He only cried 5 times in his life. Once when he was born, second when I said I wanted to break up after dating for 2 years, third when I said yes to his proposal, fourth when I gave birth to Dong Soo, and finally, the fifth when he came back home. He said he was stupid. He begged me to forgive him. But my heart was as hard as a stone. I said no. I waited 6 months for him to come back. But now, I won’t. I was willing to give him the freedom that he wanted from me, from us. But why? Why didn’t he want it now? I didn’t understand. So that night, I did what I gave up on a long time ago. I called my supervisor, asking if I can repeal my decision about the transfer opportunity I was offered. I initially had said no because as a mother and as a wife, I had a duty here. Here in our home, or what was our home. I could not just leave everything or force the other two to leave everything in order for me to move forward with my career. But now, I had nothing holding me back. Leaving Dong Gab in tears trying to envelope my body into his, with all my strength I tightly held onto Dong Soo in my arms and forced off Dong Gab off and went into the taxi. I wanted to cry too because I was scared, but now I had no shoulders to lean on. I had to become the shoulder for our, no, my Dong Soo.

Looking out into the night sky, I took the last sip of my Rosé. I felt peaceful. I felt content. But was I truly happy? The arms wrapped around my waist felt so warm. He had fought so hard to be here. I taught Sociology and he taught Law at Columbia University. I did not want to be in a relationship with anyone after Dong Gab, but Jintae had slowly crawled with warmth into my heart. He pecked my neck, tickling me with his facial hair. I giggled and turned around to face him, his arms still wrapped around me. I gave him a big smile and leaned in to give a peck on his neck.

“What’s keeping you up?” he asked.

“I’ve just been thinking.” I replied.

“Bout?” I could feel his voice rumbling in his chest.

Of course I couldn’t tell him what I had been really thinking about. We were almost like a married couple. We lived together for almost 3 years now and even adopted a dog with Dong Soo.

“Let’s go back to bed, I’m tired.” I pulled him towards our bedroom, trying to change the subject.

“Okay,” he never said no to me. Whatever I wanted, we would do.

I laid down towards his side of the bed so I can cuddle to his warmth. He was always warm. So it always had me wondering, would his warmth eventually cool down as well? I haven’t thought of Dong Gab since I moved back to New York. Everything was just so hectic. The explaining I had to do to my parents, friends, getting ready for a new job, taking care of my 5 year old son… it was a lot to deal with at first. Now that I think about it, I had left my home in New York to get married to Dong Gab and 5 years later I’m back, leaving what I thought became my home to get away from Dong Gab.

I loved waking up to the sounds of Jintae and Dong Soo laughing. Jintae took care of Dong Soo as if he was his. It was quite amazing to see the type of bond they have. Their relationship was more about being a father and son. It’s almost as if they were soulmates who understood each other 100% (which sometimes made me jealous). I walked out of my bedroom towards the sounds of laughter in the kitchen. There they were, my two most important people at the moment, laughing over nothing, just making pancakes. Quickly walking towards Dong Soo, I grabbed his cheeks and gave him a big smooch. My big boy who was 10 now still loved my kisses. With his bright eyes, he looked up smiling and said,

“Mommy sit down, we’re making you breakfast with the new recipe we got from Desert Master.”

It was their thing. To watch Desert Master, find a new recipe, and make it for me. Suddenly, Dong Soo said he left an important note for us from school in his room. I lightly tapped his cute bottom so he would go get it and show me. I looked up at Jintae who had been looking at me with a huge grin ever since I walked out of my bedroom. I walked towards him and gave him a hug from the back. I stood there for about a minute, just breathing in his scent.

“Good morning,” I mumbled.

“Good morning. You get more and more breathtaking each day my queen” he replied with a sly smile.

“Stop it” I groaned and reached up to peck his lips.

He snapped around to grab my chin up towards him and gave me more than a peck. I was laughing into the kiss, trying to shake him off before Dong Soo got back. Me trying to break away would only cause him to tighten his grip on my chin. Just as we could hear Dong Soo loudly explaining the reason for the letter, we broke away. I was going to turn to Dong Soo as Jintae held me back and whispered into my ear,

“I’ve been waiting for so long. That was only the beginning. Be ready for tonight.”

With rosy cheeks I looked at Jintae and elbowed his side. We haven’t had sex in over a month because of Dong Soo starting middle school in September and us, preparing the syllabi for our own classes in the Fall. So I guess, I was craving him too.

After having somewhat burnt yet, delicious pancakes for breakfast, I made my way to the bathroom to get ready for a quick check in meeting with the Sociology Department head in a few hours. Dong Soo was in the living room watching Stranger Things 5 on Netflix and Jintae was sitting on the closed toilet next to the mirror which I was standing in front of.

“So what was it you’re exactly doing with her today?” He asked.

“We’re just going over the syllabus and talking about the class structure for the year because you know who fucked up last year.” I replied.

The last semester, a colleague of mine had sexual relationships with multiple students in his class and was teaching anything, but Sociology during his lecture. So at the start of a new semester, the Department Head wanted to meet up with every single professor in her department to make sure nothing like that ever happens again.

“Right… Sociology people are so weird.” He said trying to tease me.

“Yeah, but you’re in Law you doodoo head.” I snapped back at him.

“Yeah, but you love this doodoo head.” He said while laughing.

As I closed my foundation cap, I looked at him in the eyes and said,

“Do I?” And walked out of the bathroom.

Jintae just smiled at me as he watched me getting dressed.

“Can you stop staring and smiling at me like a creep.” I complained.

“I’m just so excited for tonight. I can’t help it.” He replied.

Saying goodbye, I walked into the elevator. 34 floors later, I was out, walking the streets of New York City. The weather was still warm though it was late august. I had a good amount of time before my interview so I decided to walk instead of taking the train. Columbia was just 30 blocks away from my apartment so it wasn’t that bad.

15 minutes into my walk, Spotify just happened to turn on a song with a familiar voice. I guess it was his new album or something. After leaving Korea, I made sure to block him out of my life in any way possible by getting rid of social media and mutual friends. I was contemplating whether or not I should skip the music, but I realized it wasn’t his usual upbeat kind of song. Without the song even starting yet, it seemed to have a deep and heavy feeling to it. I turned to look at the title and it was “All These Girls.” Feeling my throat tightening I quickly skipped the song. Just another song about women. Even after all that has happened with his ex-wife, he still felt comfortable enough to fuck other bitches? I guess I really meant nothing to him. Tears were about to escape my eyes, still broken over what happened. But I was stronger now. I can’t let this affect my life. So with stronger strides, I walked towards the university.

After about 30 minutes, I was finally in front of the main entrance. I smiled at the security guard and made my way to the Sociology department. And just so happens that Dong Gab was there. I could feel my eyes go wide as I saw him from afar. Just as he was about to turn towards my direction, I quickly ran past him and beeped myself in. Why was here? Was here to hook up with some college girls? Was he here to filming something? I took out my phone and did something I haven’t done in over 5 years now. I looked up his name on Google. The first thing that popped was: “Illionaire Records The Quiett becomes Professor Shin.”

It felt very suffocating to hear that. Here I was sitting on a bench right in front of the Department Office just contemplating whether or not I should quit. In the article, apparently they were staying here for half a year to teach the Sociology course on how music affects people. If he were to do that, then obviously we’re going to have to see each other since we’re in the same department. Then he might try to get back into my and Dong Soo’s life. That can’t happen. Alright, so today at my meeting, I’m just gonna tell the Head I can teach this year. And maybe I’ll come back next year. Yeah that’s what I’m going to do becau…

“Excuse me?” Someone asked as they tapped my shoulder.

Too deep in thought, I couldn’t recognize the voice and looked up. Oh shit. Just fuck my life. This is great.

“Y/n? It’s you right? Y/f/n? It’s me, Joonkyung. Remember me?” He asked frantically.

Of course I remember you, you retard. How could I forget. You know what, I’ll just pretend to be someone else and just walk away. I’ll go and tell her right now and just go home and everything will be okay.

“I’m sorry, I think you have the wrong person. My name is not Y/n, it’s Audrey.” I replied as calmly as I can.

“Stop lying, I could see right through you. Where have you been? I’ve been trying to get in contact with you for so long.” Joonkyung said with a look of concern and a tight grip on my arms.

Fuck. Is this where it all ends? No, if I tell him to not say anything to Dong Gab, it’ll be okay. Maybe I’ll take him out to dinner or something. Just as long as Dong Gab doesn’t know.

“Sorry, Joonkyung. I just needed to get away from him. And the only way I could do that was by cutting everyone off. But hey, can you not say anything to him? Like we can have dinner or something and I’ll explain everything to you. Just please, please don’t tell him.” I pleaded.

I knew I was begging to the person who was more than a brother to Dong Gab, but this was the most I can do to save myself from going through hell again.

“Alright… just give me your number… I’ll call you. Dong Gab is in the bathroom right now and he should be getting back soon. So hurry up to where you need to be.” He said while glancing behind himself.

I lightly jumped up at the sound of footsteps coming towards us and the voice I no longer wanted to hear saying,

“Joonkyung, the bathroom here is clean so you should go when you can.”

I couldn’t bare to look at the person walking closer so with my head hung low, I swiftly ran into the department office. With the door to my back, I heard his voice mumbling asking Joonkyung who he was with. Letting out a huge sigh, I walked towards the Head’s cubicle.

I had originally asked if I can get the year off due to personal reasons. She says she would’ve said yes to me, but there were already 6 Professors who won’t be in for the first semester because they were due to give birth. So instead she said I can have off for the second semester. Either that or she would take my year leave for an eternal leave from this university. I couldn’t have my job to go away in a snap just because of him. So what did I do? I called Joonkyung.

After waving at Joonkyung through the cafe window, I pressed call.

“Hey babe, when you coming home?”

“Jintae, something came up so I’ll be home a little but later. That’s okay right?” I asked.

“Yeah, just let me know when you’re getting home so I can drop off Dong Soo at Chris’ house.” He replied.

Right… today was going to be our “date night”. I just know I won’t be in the right mind today and I don’t want Jintae to suspect anything…

“Umm… Jintae, I’m really sorry, but I’m very tired from the meeting today. Is it okay if we moved it? I feel like I won’t be in the mood and I don’t want you to feel like it’s because of you.” I said apologetically.

There was an awkward silence for about 30 seconds before I cleared my throat and called his name.

“Oh, yeah. Of course. Just let me know when you’re getting home.” He seemed to reply with a sigh.

“Yeah, I will. Love you.” I said as I hung up.

I walked into the cafe and sat across Joonkyung. He gave me a tight smile and clasped his hands together. After the waitress took our order, I finally looked at him in the eyes.

“I’m sorry.” I said, feeling tears welling up.

“Hey, don’t be sorry. I know why you did that. I’m sorry I couldn’t do anything.” He said as he grabbed my hands.

“I just couldn’t take it. I waited for him to realize that he was leaving me, leaving Dong Soo, leaving us. He basically gave up on our family. I gave up everything I had to be with him. Joonkyung, I was 21 when I got married to him. He was 37. I thought he would be the mature guy he was when we were dating. But it seems like the lyrics in his songs were right.” I cried.

“I know, but the lyrics thing was wrong. He always loved you. He still loves you. But I think it was the stress catching up to him.” Joonkyung said carefully.

“He didn’t come home until I was done. You know when he came back? When I sent him the divorce papers.” I said.

“I know. I was there. We were in the studio and I was telling him to go back home to you guys. That he shouldn’t be doing this. Once I brought the papers to him, he jumped up and ran home. He didn’t even take his car. He ran home Y/n. And you know what running means for Dong Gab.” Joonkyung said taking my hand into his.

My chest tightened at that. I still loved him, but there was no way that I would be able to forgive him. I looked up at Joonkyung and said,

“That doesn’t matter anymore. I loved him. I’m pretty sure that I still do, but I don’t want to go through this whole drama with him again.”

“But don’t you want closure? Y/n, think about Dong Soo, doesn’t...” Joonkyung spoke softly.

“Dong Soo doesn’t even remember who he is anymore. Joonkyung, I’ve been with someone for quite some time now. He takes care of my son like he’s his own. Jintae will be more than what Dong Gab can offer.” I said fiercely.

“You’re meeting someone else?” He asked.

“What am I supposed to do? Live like a nun after my failed marriage? Joonkyung, I know you’re doing this because you really care, but right now, I’m happy with the family I have right now. Jintae is amazing to both me and my son. There is nothing more I could ask for than having Dong Gab turn down his position as a professor.” I said.

“I’m sorry, but I can’t do that to hyung. He’s excited to become a professor here. As much as I love you and care for you, I can’t do that hyung who’s always been there for me” He replied.

I sighed and said, “I know, I’m sorry. It’s just that I don't know what to do anymore. My life finally is getting better and here he comes like a storm again. Literally a quiet storm.”

“Hey, but everything happens for a reason. Whether you guys meet again or get back together will be in God’s hands. So don’t try to change fate” Joonkyung said with a warm smile.

After some silence, I asked, “He’s moved on right? I just happened to hear the intro to a song that was recently released, though I didn’t listen to the whole thing, I could tell it was about his girls… you know I was always scared that his lyrics would become true? But I never told him because what if that planted a seed in him to actually go on with that act?”

Joonkyung shaked his head and sighed, “You’ve got it all wrong. ‘All These Girls’? That song is about you. He wrote that in regret. While I was mastering the song he said he hoped that you would listen to the song and come back to him. I told him the title was a bad choice, but he wanted to keep it like that.”

“Well, I saw the title and immediately turned it off because I was mad. Thinking how could he just continue with his actions just like that.” I said.

“You know, you guys are technically still married?” Joonkyung brought up.

“What? What do you mean?” Confused, I looked into his eyes.

“After you guys left, he never signed the papers, he put it in the paper shredder. So you guys are technically still married.” He explained.

It still didn’t make sense to me how when someone was given the freedom they wanted, they didn’t take it. Tears started welling up in my eyes. I lightly gasped, feeling my chest tighten with pain from the situation.

“Y/n, no matter how much you deny it, I can tell, the whole world can tell that you still love Dong Gab.” Joonkyung said as he got up and took a seat next to me. He lightly pulled me into a hug and stroked my hair.

“I just want the best for you both, but I know and even you know that you don’t want it to end like this. Dong gab hyung feels the same way.”

Joonkyung held me in his arms until I could look up without having tears well up in my eyes. After 3 hours of catching up, Joonkyung drove me home.

“Why do you have a Bentley here?” I teased him.

“Hey, a man’s got to be ready to take any of his ladies home.” He said with a smile. We finally pulled up in front of my apartment and I got out of the car. He walked from the driver’s side to the passenger side and pulled me into a hug once again.

“Just think about it okay? Don’t think about anyone else, but yourself. Ask yourself if you want to be with Dong Gab or not.”

I returned the hug and said, “Thanks Joonkyung. I had fun today. Don’t forget to give me a call sometimes.”

We released each other and just smiled under the shining moonlight. As he gave my cheek a friendly peck, I felt a presence right behind me and heard,

“Who is this Y/n?”

“Oh, Jintae. Dong Soo, where you guys coming from?” I asked slightly caught off guard.

“Y/n, I asked who this was.” Jintae said slightly angered from the sight he witnessed. I could see Dong Soo somewhat hiding behind Jintae.

“Oppa, this is Joonkyung oppa. He’s a friend of mine from Korea. He’s always been like an older brother to me and we happened to meet today at school.” I explained.

“Dong Soo, do you remember uncle Joonkyung? He was the first person to take a picture of you when you were born. He also helped feed and change your diapers when you were a baby.” I said waving my hands towards Dong Soo so he could come closer.

I saw the Jintae’s grip on Dong Soo’s hand loosen as Joonkyung stepped closer to see Dong Soo.

“Hey man, you remember me? Wow, you’re almost as tall as me.” Joonkyung laughed.

I was surprised to see Dong Soo jump into his arms. Joonkyung looked equally surprised.

“Uncle, where have you been? I missed you. I missed you and daddy.” Dong Soo cried.

My eyes widen at his words. Did Dong Soo remember them all this time, but I hadn’t said anything. Why hadn’t he said anything? Tears were welling up once again as I saw my crying son being held in the arms of his crying uncle. I couldn’t help but to question if all of my actions were done out of mere selfishness. I came to a realization that I had physically ripped my son that I loved so much from his father whom Dong Soo had loved just as equally. Joonkyung was crying softly murmuring apologies into Dong Soo’s ears. I turned towards Jintae who looked very lost. Thinking back, over the course of years of being with Jintae, I realized I have been trying to fill up Dong Gab’s empty spot with Jintae and have been deceiving myself to think everything was fine. But now, I knew that after today, I would have to clear things up with him.

After all the chaos that happened, Dong Soo was in his bed sleeping while Jintae and I were seated on the couch of our living room. There was silence as we didn’t know how to start the conversation.

“I…” Jintae and I said at the same time.

“You go first.” I said.

“No, you go.” He replied.

Taking a gulp of my own saliva, I started with, “I’m sorry.”

“Sorry? Why are you sorry?” Jintae asked.

“I think I’ve been deceiving myself to protect myself from getting hurt.” I replied.

“What do you mean?” He asked, his face cringing with a hint of hurt.

“Jintae, I’m really thankful for everything you’ve done, for me and Dong Soo, for everything we’ve gone through, but I don’t think I loved you. There were times where I did feel flutters in my heart, but I think I missed Dong Gab so much that I was trying to replace you in my heart.” I said crying.

With desperation in his voice, Jintae said as he grasped my hand,

“No, baby. You’ve got it wrong. I love you and you love me. We’re gonna get through this. It’s just because you were reminded of your past today and Dong Soo crying like that, that you feel this way.”

“Oppa, I’m sorry, but I don’t love you. I loved the idea that someone else was in love with me even after all that had happened in my life. I know how much it hurts to be in the position of not being loved by the person you love so I think we need to end this here. I don’t want you to be hurt.” I cried as I pulled him into a warm hug.

“But, think about all the things we went through. If you feel like you don’t love me anymore then, think about the times we had love. I can’t let you go like this.” Jintae cried into my hair as he tightened his grip on my waist.

I could only cry along with him because I understood the emotion of pain he was going through. No matter how much I am grateful for Jintae coming into my life, I couldn't deny the fact that I still did love Dong Gab 5 years after we had “broken” up.

I woke up to the sunlight slowly creeping its way into the bedroom. I turned my body away from the window and faced Jintae who was sleeping next to me. After our long talk yesterday, we had decided to break up. So today would be the last day as being a couple. I shifted myself closer to his body and wrapped my arms around him. As I peppered light kisses on his shoulder, I muttered apologies.

“It’s going to make it harder for me to break up with you if you keep doing that.” I heard Jintae say without moving.

I giggled lightly and removed my arms from his body. I sat up and pushed his disheveled hair out of his face.

“I’m sorry oppa.”

“It’s okay, as long as you were honest with me, I’m okay.” He replied, finally opening his eyes.

How was someone able to be so understanding and warm even if they were thrown off the bus? I really didn’t deserve someone as good as him.

I reached down to give a peck on his lips and said,

“Let’s get up and talk with Dong Soo.”

“I thought we’re breaking up, how can you kiss me like that?” Jintae asked with a smile.

“We haven’t broken up yet so I still can.” I replied as I got off the bed.

We ate at a local diner in front of our apartment as we explained the situation to Dong Soo. Dong Soo also shared his part of why he hadn’t said anything about missing his dad, he didn’t want to see me sad after he did once when he was younger. Hand in hand, we walked back to our apartment. Today was the official last day of Jintae, Dong Soo, and I being a family. I had planned to move out of the apartment with Dong Soo, but Jintae said he would because it would make the move easier and make it easier for him to adjust to living alone.

Hot tears dropped to my chin as I watched the scene of Jintae giving Dong Soo a big hug.

“Hey man, make sure you’re always good to your mom. And remember me leaving doesn’t mean that you can’t call me or come see me when you want to. No matter what I’ll always be here for you. Alright?”

“Thank you dad, uncle Jintae you will always be my second dad.” Dong Soo said.

Jintae smiled with tears in his eyes as he faced Dong Soo. He slowly got up to my eye level and pulled me into a hug. I burst out crying once again.

“I’m so sorry oppa.”

“It’s okay, baby, you’re going to be happy. I’ll be happy too okay?” He said as he pulled away from the hug. I placed my hands on his cheeks as I gave him a warm kiss before he could leave. After a chaste make out, we finally pulled away.

“I’ll get going, make sure to keep in contact!” Jintae said as he walked away waving at us.

Dong Soo gave me a side hug as we watched Jintae get into the uber that would take him to his new place.

Dong Soo and I were cuddled up in my bed after Jintae left.

“Honey, did you miss daddy very much?” I asked hesitantly.

“Yes.” Dong Soo answered with a shaky voice, trying hard not to cry.

“I’m sorry that I didn’t know that. We’ll meet daddy soon okay?” I said as I pulled his head towards my chest.

“Thank you mommy.” He replied as we fell into a 3 hour nap.

It has been 3 days since Jintae left and we were doing fine. With deep breaths I pressed the button to give Joonkyung a call.

“Hello? Y/n?” He picked up.

“Hey, oppa. Can we meet up?” I asked.

In less than 30 minutes, Joonkyung was outside waiting for Dong Soo and I by the passenger side of his Bentley.

“Sorry, we didn’t have enough time to get ready when you said you’ll be here in 20 minutes.” I said.

“No, mommy it was just you. I was done in like 5 minutes, you took the extra time.” Dong Soo said wittly.

Joonkyung laughed as he gave Dong Soo a hug and proceeded to give me one while placing a peck on my cheeks. We all got into the car and went off to our destination for some late lunch.

After placing our orders Dong Soo was off to the kids play section. Joonkyung looked up at me with anticipation and said,

“So, what’s up? I had to lie to Dong Gab hyung to come meet you.”

“Well, first, Jintae and I broke it off.” I said and proceeded to explain everything that had happened after he left that night.

“I mean, I’m happy that you’re happy, but does that mean you’re going to meet Dong Gab hyung now?” he asked.

“I don’t know.” I answered truthfully.

“I know we have to meet for the sake of Dong Soo, but I don’t know if things can ever be the same again. I still love him, but I don't know if I’m ready to go back into a relationship with him.”

“I think that’s fine. You don’t have to push yourself to get into a relationship with hyung, but you should clear up things with him for the sake of your son. He misses you and Dong Soo a lot.” He answered.

“But, I also don’t know how and where to get started with him. It’s been such a long time. I don’t even remember his phone number anymore.” I said.

“I guess it was a great idea for me to actually calling him to come here. Sorry, but before I left, I told him to meet me here. He thinks I’m grabbing lunch with him, but little does his know…”

“You called him here? Joonkyung, what if I called you to say I don’t want to meet him anymore? How could you do that?” I asked.

“I already knew where your heart stood after that night. I just wanted you to sort it out first and then let me know. You better thank me for this later on.” He said with a smile.

It was any minute that Dong Gab was going to walk through that door. Joonkyung gave my hand a squeeze as he knew how nervous I was becoming. Then we heard a ding as the door opened, indicating someone walked in.

“He’s here. Hyung!” Joonkyung said as he gave my hand another squeeze.

“Sorry I’m late, there was traffic on the way here. Oh, didn’t know you had company.” I heard Dong Gab say. My back was facing towards the door so all I heard was his voice. He sounded the same from 5 years ago. I couldn’t help, but wonder how he looked now.

“Hello, I’m Dong Gab, I didn’t know Joonkyung had company.” He said.

I saw Joonkyung smile a little and look up at Dong Gab.

“Hyung, don’t be too shocked.’ Joonkyung said as he signaled me towards Dong Gab with his chin.

I slowly turned to face Dong Gab, I could see his face change from a nonchalant look to a look of surprise as he realized who I was.

“Hey.” I said with a tight smile. Tears were brimming up in the lines of his eyes and he took a deep breath and pulled me into a hug. I didn’t have the courage to return the hug, but I softly sobbed in his arms. All sorts of emotions ranging from happiness to sadness to anger poured out.

I could hear Dong Gab sobbing as he buried his head in the crook of my neck.

“I’m sorry Y/n. I’m so sorry. Baby, please forgive me for everything. I missed you so much. Baby I’m sorry.”

“Daddy?” a soft voice called.

Dong Gab slightly released me from his arms and turned towards the soft voice.

“Soo, baby. My baby. Daddy is so sorry. I missed you so much baby. I’m so sorry. Please forgive me.” Dong Gab cried as he reached down to pull Dong Soo into a tight hug. I could only cry as this scene played out in front of me. Joonkyung got up from his seat and pulled me into his embrace. After everyone had calmed down, we all took our seats to eat. I watched Dong Soo eat happily as he told his dad everything that went on for the past 5 years. I couldn’t eat as I was still overwhelmed with the situation and just watched the two happily conversing. From time to time Dong Gab would look up at me with sad eyes. Joonkyung lightly elbowed me so I would eat and I just gave a small smile back. After lunch, Joonkyung proposed to take Dong Soo on a shopping spree “to make up for the lost years” so that Dong Gab and I would have some time alone.

We were seated side by side on a bench at Central Park. There were children running around with their parents, couples strolling in the sun’s gaze, tourists on horse carriages. Everyone seemed content with the beautiful weather and situation except for us. We were still caught up in the past, not knowing where to start.

“I know I don’t deserve to say this, but I’m sorry and I missed you. A lot.” He said.

Thump. Thump. Thump. Went my heart. It was no lie that I still loved Dong Gab. But will I be able to forgive him was the question. I heard him shift closer to me and I just sighed looking up to the sky.

“I know saying sorry won’t fix anything, but I don’t know how else to express myself.” He said.

“After Dong Soo and I left, I cut off all social media and contact with anyone that had connections with you. I didn’t want to be reminded of you in any way. You know, I waited. No, we waited 6 months for you to come back. I know it must’ve been hard for you to be tied down after long years of being so free. So that’s why I waited. Because I knew you didn’t mean it. But when my river of hope was brought to a drought, I couldn’t do it anymore. Dong Gab, I was 21 when I got married to you. You were 37. I left my home in New York to get married to you and there I was, 5 years later I’m back, leaving what I thought became my home in order to get away from the very reason to why I came.” I started.

“I know. And I will never be able to forgive myself for hurting you.” He interjected while grabbing my hand.

Holding in my tears, I said, “I didn’t understand why you left and then tried to come back when I gave you your freedom. That’s why I’ve been mad. I was sad and upset about you cheating, but more mad about the fact that you came crying when you finally got what you asked for. Dong Gab, did you even love me? Or did the thought of someone leaving you make you want to come back?”

“Y/n, I’ve loved you since the very first time I laid my eyes on you. When I saw you get into that white G-Wagon on that day, I knew that I needed to have you. I still love you. I know I hurt you to the point where it’s indescribable I don’t fully understand why I did that. I think it was because I knew or felt like you would always be there for me to return to. But after seeing the divorce papers, I knew I fucked up. I couldn’t do anything to turn you around. I’m sorry Y/n. He cried.

“After I moved here, there was a man. He taught me to love and be loved again. We were so happy. He was so good to Dong Soo, treating him like his own son. Jintae loved Dong Soo and I so much that he let us go back to you oppa.” I said finally returning the grip he had on my hand. Shocked, Dong Gab lifted his head, face red from crying. I slowly let the tears drip down to my cheeks as I pulled his face closer to mine.

“Meeting Joonkyung reminded me of how I have yet to learn to unlove you. I hate you for everything you’ve done, but my love for you is so much bigger than that.” I said before placing a chaste kiss on his lips.

I slowly pulled away, as he kept pushing in, almost as if he didn’t want to move away from my warm lips. We smiled at each other with tears brimming once again. He said, “I love you” before cupping my cheeks and pulling me into another warm, deep kiss.

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Our lives

Hello ya’ll.... this is my first, very first written piece😖 I know that it may be very lacking, but I have great passion for writing. I hope you all enjoy it! Thank you!

Mains: The Quiett (Shin Dong Gab) & Audrey (OC) -> or any name you want it to be

Angst/Fluff

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“I like you.”

I was so caught off guard that I laughed and replied,

“Me too. You’re a good friend.” There was no way that he saw me anything more than a friend or a younger sister. He was such an important person to the world. For a person like me to like him, I would be told to dream on. He’s way out of my league.

“No, I like you as a woman Audrey.” He replied looking straight at the wall before him, not even sparing me a glance.

“Huh?” I felt so confused.

“Sorry, I’ll get going. I’ll join you next time.” He hastily said while getting up.

For a good minute I watched his figure disappear behind the corner of the mall. He said he liked me. And I liked him. So what was I doing just letting this chance go? Go after him a voice seemed to yell in my head. With all the speed I had I ran towards his figure getting into his parked Bentley.

“Dong Gab! Wait! Oppa! Wait!” I yelled before he could close the door. With his head hung low, he slowly got out of his car. Not being able to stop myself from the great speed I had, I tripped over air and fell into his arms. With my head against chest, I thought that I could hear his heart beating with great speed just like mine. I quickly balanced myself and looked up at him. His eyes were open wide with a tint of pink on his cheeks.

“Why’d you just leave like that?” I snapped at him.

“What do you mean?” He asked.

“You didn’t even wait to hear my answer. You just left.” I said.

“Well, you didn’t answer and that seemed to be your answer.” He said.

“Well, I like you too. I was just thinking about how you would like a girl like me. You’re so great and I’m just this nothing. So I was wondering how and why.” I told him truthfully.

“What do you mean? You're way out of my league. I don’t deserve a girl like you.” He said.

“Are you crazy?” I said I lightly slapped his arm.

“You don’t have to say you like me because I said I like you. Don’t feel bad for me.” He said trying to turn away to his car.

I grabbed his arms and placed them around my waist. With my arms around his neck I asked, “Dong Gab oppa, can I be your girlfriend?”

With a shy smile he pulled my body closer to his and said, “Thanks for having the bigger gut.” After giving him a chaste kiss on his cheek, I released myself from his warmth and ran to the passenger side of the car and got on. After being frozen for 10 seconds, he quickly got into the driver's seat. While putting the gear to drive, he grabbed my hand and pulled it towards his lap. I smiled up at him and looked out the window. The man I liked, no maybe even loved for the past year was finally my boyfriend.

We were happy. Even though he was busy, he never failed to leave some time out for me. We tried to do everything a normal couple would have done, but only after making sure to make ourselves look unrecognizable. We went to the movies, cafes, shopping center, food tours, and so much more. After a certain point, I had practically moved into his apartment. We got a Russian Blue cat and named it Dong Soo. We were happy until one day he wasn’t able to come home early anymore. He said he had been so behind on his music productions because all his time, he would pour into our relationship. I told him it was okay and that he can take some time to finish what he had to do and that I didn’t want to be stealing his time. Only if I weren’t stupid. I should’ve realized it, but no.

I had come home early from my 2 week overseas work trip in Canada. The first thing that welcomed me at the front door was a pair of high heels and a pair of his favorite Jordan’s. Dong Soo purred and walked over to me. Picking him up, I walked over to our bedroom. Behind the door, I could hear his laughter and her giggles. Biting my lips, my hand reached for the door handle, but before I could turn it, I quickly turned around. Why was I running away? What had I done wrong? Nothing. I shouldn’t be running away. But if I caught them now, everything end would there and then. I was going to make him hurt, just like me.

I didn’t go back home until the date when I was supposed to. He wasn’t even home. He didn’t come home until 2 days later. I was sitting on the sofa with Dong Soo, watching a new episode of “I Live Alone”. The door opened and Dong Gab walked towards me with a smile.

“Hey, your back!” He sounded so enthusiastic it almost fooled me.

“Yeah, been back for 2 days now. What you’ve been up to?” I asked nonchalantly.

“Oh… sorry it totally slipped my mind. I’ve been busy with a new album.” He said as he tried to wrap me with his arms.

“It’s fine, I had fun with my friends while you weren’t here and I figured you’d be busy so I didn’t call.” I said while moving towards the kitchen to get away from him.

“Oh… what did you do? You guys had dinner with Kasey or some?” He asked.

After pouring a glass champagne I answered,

“No, we just went to the club. Junyoung broke up with his girlfriend and he needed some encouragement.”

“What? The club? With Junyoung?” He asked as he walked closer to where I stood.

“Yeah, I hung out with Junyoung and his friends. It was fun, I made a lot of new friends.” I said looking straight into his eyes.

“Wait, but with Junyoung? The fuckboy kid that you used to know?” He said with a dumbfounded look.

“Yeah, I called him the other day because I was bored. I wanted to see what he was up to and he said he wasn’t doing much, but broke up with his girlfriend so we went out for drinks and hung out.” The look on his face made me want to laugh out loud in his face. He was getting paler than the walls around us.

Before he could even utter another sound, I put the glass in the sink and went towards the bathroom and said, “I’m going out in a few so if you’re hungry, there’s food in the fridge.”

“What? You’re going out now? Do you know what time it is?” He asked getting a little heated now.

I turned around to face him and said,

“Yes, I do know what time it is. Jintae said he’s picking me up at 12:30 and taking me to the hottest club in Gangnam.”

He looked so lost after I said that. His face had a huge frown.

“Audrey, what do you mean? I just got to see you after 2 weeks and now you’re going out with a guy at 12:30PM? Would it make sense for me to do that with another girl?” He asked, trying to put some “sense” into me.

“It’s not like I’m going to sleep with him or bring him here.” I replied with a low tone.

I saw him physically flinch. Probably triggered his guilt.

“Why would you do that?” I asked.

“No, never.” He lied straight to my face. Instead of putting on a smirk, I smiled sweetly at him and said,

“See? Oppa, I trust you and that means you should trust me. We’re just meeting a couple of friends.”

“But I don't think I’ve ever met this Jintae before too.” He said.

“You can come with us then. We’ll have fun.” I said and walked into the bathroom.

I dressed myself in the most provocative clothing I owned, which was a leather bralette and leather jeans. I put on large hoops and dark, red lipstick. Dong Gab didn’t look happy as he watched me getting dressed.

“You’re wearing that?” He asked.

“What else should I wear to a club? Business casual? Come on Dong Gab, Jintae oppa texted me he’s outside.”

“Oppa?” I heard him mutter under his breath.

“Tell him to meet us there, let’s take my car.” He said as we waited for the elevator.

“He’s already here. I can’t tell him to just go. If you want to take your car, just bring it I’ll go with Jintae oppa.” I said without sparing him a glance.

I could feel his stare on the back of my head as I said that.

“Fine, then I’ll meet you there” he said, now really upset.

“Kay, I’ll see you there.” I said as I stepped out of the elevator and he remained to go the garage floor.

“We’re inside.” I texted Dong Gab. Jintae and I went to the table with all of my new friends that I met.

“Where?” My phone buzzed. Ignoring it, I took a shot of vodka and immediately went to the dance floor. I was so into the music that I didn’t even realize Dong Gab was standing right in front of my face. I grabbed Jongin, whom I just met, and he pulled me closer. I tried to close up even closer as I took another shot before I was ripped away from Jongin.

“WHAT ARE YOU DOING? ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND?” Dong Gab yelled, his face fuming with anger.

“What? I’m just dancing.” I said as I shrugged. I tried to turn back around to Jongin, but just as I did, I was pulled outside of the club.

Dong Gab didn’t stop until he put me inside the Bentley he drove alone. Feeling the alcohol bringing up my confidence I asked him why he was overreacting.

“Overreacting? You were literally on him. Did you forget you have a boyfriend? Is this what you’ve been doing for the 2 weeks you weren’t here?” He yelled.

I scoffed and pulled the door open so I could leave. Dong Gab quickly grabbed my arms so I wasn’t able to and looked at me in the eye saying,

“Why are you doing this? Did I do something wrong?”

I rolled my eyes and laughed.

“Did you do something wrong? Huh. If you did, you should know what you did wrong, shouldn’t you?”

“Audrey, what are you saying. Talk properly.” He said shaking my arms a bit.

“It’s exactly what I said. Shouldn’t you know what you did wrong, if you did do something wrong?” I said boring my eyes into his.

It looked like he was trying to think, think of an excuse. But before he could say anything, I shook his hand off my arms and pushed myself out of the car. I walked off back into the entrance before I was being pulled out again.

“Stop it! Don’t touch me! Let go of me!” I yelled trying to get away from Dong Gab.

He shoved me against his car and trapped me with his arms. I punched his chest and arms, yelling at him to move away from me. He grabbed my face with both of his hands and with tearful eyes, he said,

“I’m sorry.”

I stopped thrashing around and looked up at him with a smirk,

“You don’t even know what you did wrong, why are you apologizing?”

“I’m sorry Audrey. It just happened when we were out for the 1llionaire dinner you couldn’t come to and she kept calling me. I’m sorry. Please forgive me. I love you and only you.” He begged.

I laughed at his face and said,

“You don’t have to beg me for forgiveness honey. Tonight was supposed to be our last day anyways. I’m glad it happened like this. Jintae oppa will drop by your apartment tomorrow to pick up my stuff. I already packed everything so you don’t have to worry about packing anything else.”

“No. No. No. Please. Audrey. I’m sorry. Please. Don’t leave me. I’ll do whatever I can. Just don’t leave me. Don’t leave us. Don’t leave Dong Soo.” He pleaded with tears rolling down his cheeks.

It hurt time see him cry with such sorrow because I still loved him, but I needed to put an end to this.

“Oh yea, about Dong Soo, he seemed to be sick. Make sure to bring him to the doctor. I didn’t take him because then I would become the primary owner to him.” I said as I pushed against his strength. He tried to take me back into his arms, but Jongin, the hottie I was dancing with earlier came towards me grabbing me by the waist.

“Hey babe, I’ve been looking for you. You want to go to my house? I have a cute cat.” He asked.

I wanted to look at Dong Gab’s crying face, but thought I would run back to him to console him so I didn’t and said,

“Sure, lead me to paradise.”

Jongin and I walked away with his hand in mine, gripping it hard. All I did was laugh and give him a kiss on his cheeks. This is it Audrey. You have to move on now. He's done his deed and you’ve done yours.

It’s probably been 6 months that we’ve broken up. I was in a relationship with Jintae. He wasn’t able to bring my stuff to our new apartment because Dong Gab had apparently taken everything out of the packed boxes in order to “stop” me from leaving. As if. It was better that I didn’t have anything that reminded me of him. Except one thing. I was pregnant with Dong Gab’s child.

“Babe! Can you please get me a glass of milk! I’m dying here!” Jintae yelled from his recording room.

“You know I’m pregnant! You want me to walk back and forth for a glass of milk with this body?!” I yelled back. Eventually I gave in because Jintae was willing to be the dad to the child he didn’t even help in creating. I couldn’t have Jintae leave me as well.

“Thank you honey.” He said as he drank the entire glass.

“Be right back, I need the bathroom.” He said while running.

“I don’t think if I’m living with a man or child.” I said shaking my head.

Then a light from his phone caught my attention. I knew I shouldn’t look, but I couldn’t help myself. It was a chat with an unknown number with texts consisting of how he was going to rock her world and give her all the pleasure. There were also some texts about how much of a whore I was, expecting him to be the father of a child that’s not his. I could not believe my eyes. In the beginning of this relationship, I had specifically told Jintae that I was not ready for another partner and that I was pregnant. He told me all was fine. He wanted to be my boyfriend. Before he could come back, I quickly let go of the phone and walked out of the room.

At our shared bedroom, I took out my suitcase and started packing all of my belongings. Jintae walked in as I zipped up my bags.

“Hey, you going somewhere? Was there a trip I was not aware about?” He asked.

“I can’t stay with you anymore.” I said looking down.

“What? What do you mean?” He asked, confused.

“I never once asked for you to stay in this relationship. If you wanted another bitch, why didn’t you just go to her? Why are you here? Why am I here with you? I have to go.” I said with tears in my eyes.

“Did you go through my phone?” He asked. That was all he could think of to say right now? Is he being serious?

“It just happened. I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to, but I need to get going.” I said trying to step out.

“You really are a whore. Going through other people’s phones. Look at you. This is probably why he cheated on you too.” He said.

Sobbing, I ran out of the apartment.

Aimlessly, I walked around the streets with two huge suitcases. After walking for about 2 hours, I felt my head spinning and fell onto the ground.

When I woke up, all I saw were white walls and loud sounds of beeping. I tried to move, but a voice said,

“Ms. Lee, you can’t move vigorously like that now. Try to calm down. Do you recognize where you are?”

“Is this the hospital?” I asked. Gasping, I reached for my stomach.

“Your baby is fine Ms. Lee. It seemed to be stress and sudden shock that made you faint. Your husband said he’ll be here shortly so please hold on okay?” The voice said.

Husband? I don’t have a husband tho. Not even a boyfriend, anymore. Then the door crashed open and came running a silhouette that reminded me of Dong Gab.

“Audrey! Baby! Are you okay? What happened? Why are you like this?” The person asked.

“Sir, you have to calm down. She just woke up so she is also confused. Someone called in that she fainted on the streets by Gangleum Road and it seems to be stress and mild shock that caused it. But she is fine now. Your baby is safe as well.”

“Baby?” The man asked.

“Yes, your baby is perfectly healthy. Please try to get her to have a drink of water. Thank you.”

Finally having my sense back, I was able to see the face of the man clearly. It was Dong Gab. He grabbed my cold hands with his warm ones.

“Audrey, I know I’m the last person you want to see, but I have to make sure you’re okay.”

“I’m fine. Sorry for making you come such a long way.” I said looking away with tears in my eyes. He looked so dead. He looked thinner than he usually was.

“No baby. I’m sorry. Can you please forgive me? For everything. For hurting you, for leaving you, for coming late to you.” He pled, sobbing.

Burying my face into my arms, I sobbed.

“Congrats on your baby. Where’s Jintae? I heard you guys were together.” He said with a forceful smile, trying to change the subject.

“Is he on his way? Jintae must be lucky, to have a child on the way. I should get going before he comes.” He said holding in a breath.

“Can I give you a hug Audrey?” He asked.

Without raising my head, I nodded. Immediately I felt his arms wrap around my body and I began crying harder. His tears rolled down his cheeks, unto mine.

“He’s yours.” I mumbled while crying.

“He’s home? Did the nurses not give him a call?” He asked.

“I said, he’s yours.” I cried into his shoulder, probably still hearing ‘he’s home’.

“He’s home. Okay, do you want me to call him? I should probably do that.” He said as he released me from his arms.

I grabbed his hands before he could get move away and shook my head with tears spilling out. Confused, he sat down and pulled me into a hug once again.

“Alright then, what do you want me to do?” He asked with a soothing voice.

I pulled myself away from his hug and put his hands on my stomach. He looked utterly confused.

Softly I said, “I said, he’s yours. Dong Gab, he’s not Jintae’s. He’s yours.”

“Huh? What do you mean?” Dong Gab asked, his eyes shaking with tears threatening to spill once again.

“After the night we broke up, I was sick for a week. I thought it was because I drank too much that day so I went to the doctor and they said I was 5 weeks pregnant. And the only person I was with until then was you. I know the right thing to do was tell you, but I couldn’t. I was so scared. I didn’t want to be in a relationship with anyone anymore. Especially you, but there I was pregnant with your baby. But Jintae kept pursuing me to date him and said he would take care of our baby with me. Being the emotional pregnant lady I was, of course, I said yes. I’m sorry.” I cried.

“No. No Baby, it's not your fault. It was all me. For displacing your trust like that. Would you please forgive me so we can start fresh for our child? I still love you so much and I can’t bare to think of anyone else fulfilling my place like that.

I bit my lip shut to stop myself from crying and nodded. I loved Dong Gab and never stop doing so even after we broke up. As much as I tried, I could not let go of him. I loved him too much. Feeling a great sense of relief, tears fell like a waterfall once again and I looked down at my stomach thinking, we’re going to be happy baby. Mommy and daddy will work hard to make you happy.

“Dong Gab hurry up! We’re going to be late!” I yelled from the bottom of the stairs. We were invited to an awards ceremony as a nominee for the Best Album and Best Artist of the Year. Finally, he came down from the stairs looking so good.

“You look dashing Mr. Shin.” I said putting my arms around his neck.

“So do you, Mrs. Shin.” He said with a wink.

I gave him a quick peck and turned around towards the front door. I grabbed the car key and said, “And I’m driving today. You just sit back. I know you’re nervous right now.”

“No, no, no. You are pregnant young lady. I am not letting you drive with a watermelon in your stomach.” He said without much thought.

I gasped loudly, genuinely taken aback by his comment about my stomach. Is that what he thought of me. A big, ugly, green watermelon? His eyes turned wide realizing what he had said. Obviously, my hormones were making me super erratically and got upset about everything.

“No, baby. I didn’t mean it the way that your thinking right now. I’m jus.” he said before I cut him off.

I sobbed saying, “Is that what you thought of me? A big, ugly, green watermelon? Oh, so I’m like an ogre to you? How could you say that to me Dong Gab, I’m pregnant with your child. I can’t go to this place looking like a watermelon. I’ll just stay home.” I was so upset that my tears did not stop.

Dong Gab, who wasn’t used to his girlfriend (soon to be wife) being so sensitive realized he had made another mistake again. Before, when she wasn’t pregnant, they could go back and forth at each other with “offensive” jokes knowing they didn’t mean it in a truthful way. However, me being pregnant was a whole different story. The other night, I woke him up at 2AM asking him for the food I detested, pickles.

“Pickles? We don’t even have pickles in our house because you hate them.” He groaned.

“Are you saying that it’s my fault that we don’t have pickles? I’m sorry, I’ll just go to sleep then.” I yelled agitated. Pulling the covers over my head, I fell asleep with a huge craving for pickles. All he did was sigh and apologize. But around 40 minutes later, I woke up again not for the craving for pickles, but rather to the sounds of Dong Gab grunting in the kitchen. Worried, I quietly walked down the stairs and entered the kitchen. And there he was, struggling to open the can of pickles that he just bought from the store. It must have been the hormones, but I ran towards him crying. He got so shocked that he yelped a little and turned around with bunny eyes.

“What happened? Why are you crying?” He asked, very concerned.

“I’m just so grateful to have someone like you. I love you. Thank you for getting me pickles.” I cried.

He laughed and gave me a big hug saying, “My big baby, you’re so cute. I love you too.”

After requiniting our love after the clash over pickles, we went back to our bedroom at 4AM. I laid my head against his chest and before I felt my sleep taking me away, I murmured,

“Remind me to never eat pickles again please.” And fell asleep to the soft rumbles of his laughter against his chest.

And here we were once again, me being emotional about watermelons. Well specifically, me being a watermelon. Somehow he had convinced me that he meant I was as delicious as a watermelon and I was fine now. We were on the way to the ceremony when I felt a tight pull in my stomach. I thought it was our son just moving in me so I didn’t think much of it. Once we were there, we posed for the press that were taking pictures for their articles. Then we were led inside to our seat. As Dong Gab pulled out my seat, I felt the tight feeling once again. I softly whispered to myself, “Baby, please don’t move too much, it’s hard for mommy.”

“What was that?” Dong Gab asked, thinking I was talking to him. I shook my head and looked at the pamphlet in front of me.

After a series of awards that were handed out, finally came up the announcement for the Album of the Year. I clasped Dong Gab’s hand, trying to send a message that everything will be okay. Simon Dominic who was the MC of the night said,

“And now, I present to you, the award for Album of the Year belongs to, The Quiett’s ‘Sorry’ congratulations!”

“Oh my God!” I turned to Dong Gab and gave him a shove. With a big smile, he got up to go on the stage. I was so happy for him. He worked so hard on this album and he won the award! During his speech, he did not fail to thank me, for being the very person behind the album and the cameras turned to me. I was being broadcasted all over the stage and there were screams from the fans who supported us. I smiled brightly and did the usual 1llionaire sign.

And then again, there was not only a tight feeling in my stomach but also a sharp pain down there. Since the cameras were still on me, I tried my best to keep a smile on my face, but with the pain increasing, I couldn’t help but to shoot a frown while grasping my stomach. I looked up at Dong Gab who had a concerned look while giving his speech. I bit my lip to hold in my yelp and there he was running down from the stage. Hyoeun, who was next to me put his hand on my back asking if I was okay. I couldn't answer him and only held onto my stomach. The people who saw the awardee running down from the stage leaving everything behind were confused. Dong Gab grabbed my chin trying to have a look at my face.

“What’s wrong baby? You okay? Tell me.” He said hurriedly.

“My stomach… it hurts…” I groaned. And thence heard a splash of water hitting the floor. There was water everywhere. My face filled with horror, I met eyes with Dong Gab.

“Dong Gab, we have to go to the hospital now.” I said.

“Oh, shit. Dong Gab hyung, hurry, your baby is on the way!” Hyoeun exclaimed after realizing what was happening.

Dong Gab hurriedly put my arm around his neck for me to use him as support. Hyoeun tried to follow us out, but Dong gab turned to him and said,

“Hyoeun, congrats on winning. Stay till the end, represent 1llionaire and I’ll call you later.” And off we were to the hospital.

After 8 hours of painful labor, I gave birth to our perfectly healthy son, Hyuk Woo. I can’t remember whether it was me crying more or Dong Gab. But what I do remember is, us smiling at each other with tears in our eyes after the delivery and he kneeled down to give me a kiss and said, “Thank you and I’m sorry.”

I was resting with Hyuk Woo in my arms and Dong Gab leaning over the hospital bed to look at Hyuk Woo. He was so beautiful. Then softly, the door slid open to Joonkyung and Changmo walking in. They congratulated us and took pictures of Hyuk Woo. They also told us how we were a huge topic in the news at the moment because I almost gave birth at an award ceremony. We laughed and was just immersed into the happiness of seeing a start of a new life. I felt so happy, content, loved, and thankful. Thank you Dong Gab, thank you for giving me Hyuk Woo and I love you very much.

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