Friday, March 19.

So today's gonna be the last day of the making of our daily blog and I'm happy to share with you that I really had so much fun with the previous ABM 4 students. I was kinda shy at first yet when my other friends from their section were slowly showing up, my confidence boosted up. I am also happy thinking that I was able to make lots of friends when I was in my 11th Grade. I was so fond in joining competitions in every celebration that Liceo would have so I was able to make new friends every month and work with them.

Anyway, I honestly hesitated of joining their section thinking that I might be out of place especially that my friends from their section would be more focused to their classmates yet they were all so fun to be with and it feels like no one gets left behind. We played so much and I was just silent but sports is really not my thing. Although, I play basketball, volleyball, and badminton, the fact that I am worried about my health really scares me. I might lose my consciousness anytime and I dont want that to happen. I'm just physically weak. And that is basically one of the reasons why my lola was overprotective when I was a kid. My lola has a heart failure and then my mom also found out that during her adulthood, she also has the same condition with my lola. And that makes them worried about me 'cause I might also inherit it from them and they find it alarming that I get tired too easily. So when I was a kid, I prefer to play alone since my ate won't also let me join her and her little squad since I have always been the reason why they're losing their games.😂🤦🏻‍♀️But if my ate is in a good mood, she'll be joining me yet we were playing our own different games since she's into cards and all those baby boy stuffs and I'm into barbie and cooking stuffs..I mean, were just too opposite which makes us quarrel a lot.

So much for the introduction, I just wanna say that I'm honestly happy that because of this subject, I was able to share my thoughts and almost everything that happens in me within the day. I even deactivated my Twitter account so that I can prevent from ranting and be focused here but since we are bidding goodbye with this application already, I'm thinking of reactivating it 'cause the other side of me is there. I mean, I only let the other people see the good side of me especially with my Facebook account since it has a lot of viewers and we really can't fully express ourselves since there are lot of 'judgerist' so yas.

And I'm excited right now for our upcoming pictorial 'cause I'd be able to step into our school again and I just hope someday, there'll be a reunion that will make us all reunited. The days are running so fast and this decade is already the year of settlements for the others. At the end of this year, most of us are almost 30 and I wonder what and how we are doing at that time. And one thing is for sure, I'll still be single this decade because after my 4 year course in accountancy, I'll be proceeding to study law since I wanna be a lawyer who is a politician at the same time someday. And I am genuinely hoping that what we are praying for today will be heard and it will come true.

So uwu that's all, and I think, it's a goodbye already! Don't forget to talk to God always and eat your meals on time.🥰 That's just a friendly reminder cause I'm a concerned citizen and char, take care always and see you all soonest! Byers!

Thursday, March 18.

Nothing much happened today like going outside and work with papers or stuffs and I'm supposed to have a continuation of what had happened yesterday when I was alone at the City Hall but that would be another drama so what I'll be sharing today is linked with our previous class discussions and how am I going to relate all of those to myself.

Our lessons these past few days were, indeed, relatable to our personal Iives. We were talking about family and stuffs and I found myself that I can relate to some of Miss Yu's personal life. I mean, her family is living far from each other and so I am. My mom has always been far from me. She's always abroad to work and for her to support our family's needs and wants. I grew up with my grandmother together with my ate that is a Vietnamese. Growing up without a mother that will guide you to which path you should be stepping to, a mother that will defend you in public and will correct you in private was hard. But I was thankful to my grandmother for raising my ate and I with good manners. Because of my grandmother, I can say that the best education I had started at our home. It was when she taught me the principles and values in life that I'm still trying to hold up to this day..even if she's no longer here. I can't imagine how I was able to survive without my mom but maybe, my lola just handled the situation perfectly even if it was not that easy. Maybe the reason why on the five languages of love, the one that I am rooting for is physical touch because the one that I was thinking while answering the questions was my mom. I am honestly not a clingy person. I grew up with the old school type, with modesty, conservation, and a 'shy type' person because that was what I observed with my lola. Not until I met my JHS classmates. They were so clingy and I so much feel awkwardness at first. Although, I do let them hug or kiss me but I don't do or give it back to them. But as months go by, they were able to make me clingy and it was okay. I sometimes think that everytime I hug any of them, it was my mom that I was hugging to. I even sometimes ask myself, does it feel like it or better than this? Another thing that I can relate to miss yu is that some of her family members are Muslims. My father's tribe is maranao, while my mom is bul-anon since my lola's origin is from Bohol. But my mom is now an Islam already. While me? Well, I am a Muslim by blood but I am a Catholic by faith.🥰

So much for that, I am kinda problematic today because of our activity entitled 'My Ideal Family'. Honestly speaking, I don't have an ideal family. I am completely aware that I'm on my adolescence and my age is already legal but I haven't been thinking of that. It was a struggle for me to think thoroughly of what my ideal family should look like. So I came up with the idea that I'll make my current situation as an inspiration and apply some changes into it for me to be able to have one. So the masterpiece that I'll be making is a complete family that sticks and travels together. A family that no one gets left behind, that no matter where they go, they are always with each other.

And that's all for tonight, I'm super sleepy already and I'm excited for tomorrow because I'll be meeting new people while making our performance task in PE. I'm hoping that they'd accept me and my other friend. And again, goodnight and sleep tight!

Wednesday, March 17.

A lot of things had happened and I honestly don't know where exactly should I start. I am exhausted today 'cause I had to go back at the City Hall's office to review some of the changes I've made with my personal informations. It was a struggle for me especially that I was alone and I had no one to talk to while waiting for my number to be called. There was a huge number of students who were falling in line, hoping that everything will be worth it after the sacrifices and efforts that they have made. I felt relief when the interviewer that I was able to come through was nice and approachable. He even asked me how am I doing. I felt comfortable while answering his questions and I don't know if he's straight or nah but one thing is for sure, he's cute🤣 Anyway, it made me happy when I was able to finish my appointment before 12 pm because I still have a class at exactly 1:30. Before heading home, I decided to work with my bank account because my mom kept on asking me for updates about it. I finished working with it at almost 1. I went to the mall and bought a new phone 'cause I think, that was last month when I told my mom that the screen of my phone has a crack and she told me to buy a new one the next time she'll be sending my allowance. I ate my super late breakfast at 1:30 inside the mall while I was listening to our class discussion and I find it hard to focus because of the nuisance that sorrounds me. I came home around 4 and started working with our technical feasibility. In the evening, it became a habit of me to read my classmates' blog before making mine 'cause I wanna know how some of them are doing (since I wasn't able to follow everyone.) And then I came to see this post, a post of one of my closest friends inside our virtual classroom. I have read that God took her granny home. And I was really shock because she didn't tell anyone of us, her friends. She even frankly stated (🤣) that she didn't tell any of her friends because she didn't know how to do it. I sent her my deepest condolences and I honestly feel sad for her. I also lost my grandmother 23 months ago and it was never been easy. She'll be having her second anniversary next month and it's almost two years but the pain is still alive.. It keeps on haunting me. I am not healed yet. I haven't moved on yet. As much as I am trying to but the progress seems too slow. So I am really hoping that she'll get through this. My friends and I are trying to cheer her up in our groupchat and we are genuinely praying for her fast recovery because losing someone is like losing a part of you too. We also hope that she won't get really distracted especially that we are on our last grading and we are trying to survive for us to graduate and finish this Grade level and she has her members that looks out to her.

And that's all for tonight, keep safe always and don't let negativity eat you up. There are reasons why some things happened. And all we can do is to keep our faith in him and trust the process! Aja, keep fighting again!🥰

Tuesday, March 16.

My day today was kinda busy. I worked with my papers for the City Scholarship Program and I am really hoping that I'd qualify to become one of their aspiring scholars. This will have a huge contribution and impact not just to me but to my mom as well. College is no joke and also, as students we should make use of the opportunities that the government has offered especially if we know on our own that we deserve it.

Anyway, I feel like I missed a lot of things academically today 'cause there were lots of struggles I've encountered while I was at the City Hall. My load has expired in the middle of our homeroom where our discussion was dominant for our Feasibility study and I just feel bad that I wasn't able to finish listening to it. While in the afternoon, I was lucky enough in the first subject 'cause there was a power interruption that made our teacher decide to not have a class and instead, she'll just send us a recorded video of our lesson. However, during our second subject, we had a meeting that I wasn't able to join since I was still at the City Hall until 5 pm.

By the way, as reported by my friends, we will be having a Recreational Activity in PE that will serve as our PT. And I still don't have any idea what exactly are we going to do but maybe, I'll just go with the flow and have some fun while meeting new people.

Anyway, that's all for today. Thanks and keep safe! God bless us all and may everyone-- which includes me, study well for the quiz🤗

Monday, March 15.

As what I have mentioned yesterday, today's gonna be a busy day. And that made me feel super exhausted. Anyway, we finally had our first meeting with Ms. Yu for this grading. Our topic was fun 'cause we were talking about love thingy and during our discussion, there was an annoying intruder which was my ate that was also listening. She kept on teasing me about my crushes when our topic reached to the point where we tackled about being in a relationship and stuffs. And honestly, my concentration went gone!

By the way, before I forgot, we had a webinar in the morning and it talked about the awareness of teenage pregnancy, a broaden explanation to reproductive organs, and a lot more. Also, it has been mentioned that a prosperous family starts with a family planning. And that is why it is really advisable to spouses to think thoroughly first before engaging themselves in a lifetime responsibility. By that, it is not just them that will benefit from it but they'd be able to help the community as well. What I have learned throughout the webinar is that, taking care of one's self is one of the most important things since it helps us to become a better version of ourselves and it'll help us achieve our goals in life. As a teenager and as a young lady myself, we should protect our own instead of engaging ourselves into premarital sex that leads to teenage pregnancy. Yes, a lot of people may say that having a baby is a blessing but on the contrary, it is also a lifetime responsibility. A responsibility and perhaps, a mistake that you can't just erase. One of the reasons why poverty-- one of the main problems in our country, never decreases is that people tends to add problems to the existing ones instead of helping to look for it's solution.

I think, the lecturers point was to really make the teenagers realize that there's a bigger consequences and problems after engaging ourselves into such mistakes. And it's better to spend our time in our studies 'cause that's the most important thing to prioritize right now. And if we needed some things worth fighting for, this one suits perfectly.

Anyway, so much for that. Goodnight to each and everybody! May we all have a good sleep and restore the energy that we lost.

Sundate, March 14.

My apologies for the late blog! So a funny thing that happened last night, my kuya's friends went and visited our tea lounge. My kuya's been inviting them to come and visit our lounge so that they'd be able to taste our Milk Tea's for free. But, they weren't able to do it immediately since most of them are very workaholic and busy with their personal lives. I actually didn't know that my other cousins made an agreement with our kuya that if he gets drunk, which was really inevitable 'cause he's with his friends, we are going to have a road trip today. And due to the pandemic, our family is supposed to just travel or have an outing atleast once a month. And we already had one for this month and that happened two weeks ago. Yet, my brave and super proud kuya agreed with the deal 'cause he thinks that he can resist with it. But unfortunately, he didn't.

I was shock when my cousins woke me up at exactly 4. They told me about what happened and that we need to prepare 'cause a long journey awaits for us. And I didn't know what to react, they just left me dumbfounded.😂 I then found myself packing my things and help my ate cook some foods 'cause it's one of the things I think, I'm super good at. We went all the way from Patag to Gingoog but we passed by at Claveria to witness how ravishing the view deck looks like. It was really alluring and I'm just really inlooove with the nature.

We went back home at 5 PM and it took us 4 hours to reach the Cathedral Church before heading home. Like we always do, we lighted some candles and sincerely prayed to God. We thank him for everything and asked for his forgiveness and guidance.

Anyway, I'm honestly worried right now 'cause I wasn't able to read the ppt so I think, I'll just have it by tomorrow. May the odds be ever in my favor tho. So I think, it's time to say goodnight! I hope that everyone had a great weekend too 'cause tomorrow's gonna be a busy day. Or perhaps, who knows that this week's gonna be a tough one? It's the last grading so I think, this ride's gonna be exhausting. Nonetheless, just keep on fighting and sooner or later, we'll gonna reap everything we've planted. God bless!❤️

Saturday, March 13.

Unlike the other days, my day today was just plain so I think, this blog is going to be a short one. Since I knew last night that I have some important matters to do and an appointment to comply, I set the alarm at 5:30 am so that I could wake myself up at exactly 5:30! But my unconscious self woke me up at 4:50. I just don't understand why but my habitual character would always wake me up first instead of waiting for the alarm to snooze at the alloted time I personally made to wake myself up. Also, it rained in the afternoon and one thing that I so much love everytime this happens is that my ate would always make some 'biko'. And when I say 'always', it means that even if it rains every other day or even daily, then my ate would cook it for us everyday.

I'm not sure if I'm just being lazy or perhaps, something happened today that made me like this, but yas, I'm super unmotivated. So goodnight, sleep tight, and keep safeee.

Friday, March 12.

I woke up by the sound of the birds chirping on the trees that can be visibly found right in front of my bedroom window. My phone kept on buzzing and it was on a purpose that I don't usually turn off my internet connection because I am too anxious thinking that there might be an important announcement or perhaps, a message that needs to be responded immediately. As soon as I opened my eyes, I immediately unlocked my phone and as I was expecting, there were bunch of messages including group chats that awaits for me. After that, I then realized one thing.. I woke up too early! I was kind of disappointed because it's still 6:30 and for some personal and emotional reasons, I hate it. I tried my best to fall asleep again but my eyes won't let me so myself left me without a choice but to get up and start my day.

And just like the other days, my day has been fully occupied. Although academically, this week is, indeed, one of the chillest week this sem has, still, that didn't change the fact that I have so much in my plate right now. Also, I was really upset with myself earlier because there are things that I wanna be as clean and organized as it possibly could yet I don't know, it just won't.

However, my evening was the best part of my day. I have met someone online who is just as kind as she is. She gave me something and I'm that kind of person who isn't used of you know, being 'helped'. And it makes me uncomfortable when somebody do me a favor and that specific person won't let me give him/her something as a return to his/her kindness so yas. All I can do is to hope that her dua's will be heard by Allah.

I guess, that's all for tonight. Don't forget to talk to God before you sleep. Keep safe!❤️

Thursday, March 11.

Today's our first day of the last grading and I'm happy because we didn't have a meeting earlier. And it's honestly one of the things that some of us were rooting for-- vacancy!

During my vacant time, I used to spend it on my leisures like watching an American TV series on Netflix or reading some poems, poetries, and other stuffs but this time, I just reviewed my past lessons in preparation for my upcoming scholarship exam. I don't know why but thinking about college is one of the things that exasperates me lately. And when one of my previous teachers in Grade 11 noticed me being a bit distracted about it, she then adviced me to stop thinking too much and the best thing to do is to manage my time and use it wisely to avoid such complications. And it makes me feel overwhelmed (in a positive way) thinking that I have met teachers that genuinely cares for their students even if they no longer handle them.🥺💝

In the afternoon, I just took a quick visit in our Milk Tea Lounge while in the evening, there was an urgent meeting and all the presidents were asked to come. We tackled about our upcoming activities in the next few days, a webinar, and some tests that we need to comply as part of being a licean. I kinda feel tired thinking about everything and doing 'em all but it's okay because I think, the higher our ages are, the bigger our responsibilities become so fighting!❤️

And that's all for tonight, and I hope that everyone is safe. God bless and sleep tight!

Tuesday, January 26.

It's our last day in this subject (for this grading) and that means our examination day will be today! And I was hoping earlier for us all to have a nice score that we truly deserve. I did take some review before taking the exam 'cause I wasn't able to do it these past few days, not even yesterday knowing that I've had so much fun hanging out with my friends. And I'm kinda worried for tomorrow 'cause we will gonna have our new subject teachers and I also think that we are going to have two major subjects at the same time? Not sure, but no matter how pressure it'll be, or what kind or pressure awaits for us, either way, I'm hoping that I and my classmates can perform well in it!

Also, I'm gonna miss this subject so it makes me glad thinking that were still gonna have to see each other back In a few months. Also, I hope that our teacher is good with our performance task and that we will be doing great as well as we are taking some few steps in our research papers. God bless us all and keep safe. Hanggang sa uulitin!

Monday, January 25.

My morning was kinda draining and frustrating but gladly, my afternoon went good 'cause I got to see some of my classmates and got to reunite with my friends. I really had a great time meeting and being with them even if we just spent a few minutes introducing ourselves and exchanged some thoughts about each other.

And abt our activity today, 't was about mental health issues, coping strategies, and a lot more. It makes me remind of someone who undergo some sort of depression. He told me that his really down and that his life's no fairytale, nor is it a romantic novel. He also believed that we live in the modern world filled with agony and sorrow. And that it's about dejection. At first, I honestly don't know how to approach somebody who has some mental health issues 'cause I'm not really good at giving advices. I can listen and I'd surely love to but it's just that, it makes me shy when I can't provide some helpful advices 'cause I once believed that every person who has it always needs an advice from another person. But then, at the later time, I'm able to realize that sometimes, they just needed somebody to listen to them and understand what they're going through. But still, I told him that life is tough and it is filled with walls and boulders that wishes to shatter our souls, and it can be over bearing at times but we must also remember that we are tough, we just need to rest 'cause we are weak without it. And that is why, we should remember to take a breathe and regain our strength, and after that, let's continue facing the world again, but this time, with a mind of clarity and a heart that is strong.

And that was it. After that, everything went good although, I think, mental health issues doesn't really vanished at all. It keeps on coming back and hunt people 'cause that's just it's job. And I hope that everyone's having a good day and that, just keep on fighting. One day, we're all gonna reap the fruit of our bravery. Have a good night!

Sunday, January 24.

I honestly can't believe that we are doing this for a week already. I am blissful because we were able to make the 'posting' consistent.

So to begin, I had a glorious day today. I've had so much fun with my family. It may sound redundant but again, weekends are just the best! As our routine, we travelled all the way from Patag to Opol to Bugo and vice versa. We dropped at St. Augustine Metropolitan Cathedral to light a candle for a prayer. And I've also realized that there is one thing I'm sure about everything; I'll never get tired of spending my day and the rest of my life with my love ones. Aside from the fact that we are sharing the same ancestry, I'm also able to learn from them. One of the things that I truly love about our family is the respect that we have for each other. I've never heard them say these but by simply observing their actions, I can tell that respect is as important as dignity for them. If I were to explain further then, respect is as important as dignity since, to respect a person is to consider his or her feelings or to realize that he/she too is human. And that is why you respect him/her the way you respect yourself. Without respect, an endless war would've happened and there would be division that will sooner or later occur. Also, to have one's dignity makes one feel whole and pure, without it he/she would consider him/herself as filthy and empty, so as respect without it one would feel down and wrong. I think, it's vague but yep, that's it.

Anyway, I hope everyone had a great time too! Stay safe and may the Lord bless us!

Saturday, January 23.

I'm pleased that the weekend has finally come! Weekend means family time and family date. Although we all are still engaged to our unfinished businesses--either it's associated to school, work, acads, and etc., well then atleast, it's pressure is lesser than the usual days on weekdays. On Saturdays, our family routine is to travel from Patag to Opol to fetch my other cousins, next is to Bugo to visit my grandmother's grave, and then go somewhere else to eat and enjoy the rest of our day. And on Sundays, it has been our routine to go to church together no matter how occupied our schedules are. We used to light a candle on the altar rails too! And I guess, weekends are just the best!

Apart from that, my groupmates in 'Feasibility Study' are kinda busy for our Chapters 1-3 while my other groupmates in 'Personal Development' already started filming for our Performance Task. I've been so busy yet super happy. Genuinely happy!

And I hope that you all are too! That's all and have a blessed Sunday in advance! Adios!

Friday, January 22.

The ambient temperature this week has been consistent. But today's kinda different. I find it perfect for a short anticipated walk 'cause the scenery was serene.

Anyway, because of our lesson earlier, I've realized that posting or sharing sad pieces doesn't mean that we wanna spread negativity. We just need to release this grief we had inside 'cause it might prolly kill us little by little without us being aware of it. You know what, eversince He took my grandmother home, I haven't been feeling myself. A lot of things has changed in me. I feel like I'm drowning and I just couldn't find the urge to fight back and swim upwards to save my myself. There were also times that I had to cry myself just to go asleep at midnight. And you know that feeling when everyone around you has a lot of hopes to you and expects a lot from you then you're like, you can't just fulfill and meet their expectations anymore 'cause there's a part of you that went with you love one who left?

So much for that, I somehow enjoyed the activity that was given to us yesterday, 't was like writing a letter to your chosen respondent. And I chose to give the letter to my mom. Although, she have been always far from me, that didn't become a reason for us to break the bond and the connection that we have and she really deserves it, I mean, she even deserves better than that but for now, it's just one of the things that I can simply offer to her after everything.

And that's it for the fifth day. God bless us all, keep safe always and happy weekends!

Thursday, January 21.

My day has been fully occupied and that makes me feel exhausted. I've been traveling the whole day alone, looking for some stocks of cups to purchase and I also came to the point that I had to listen to our discussion while I'm on a trip. I think, the most difficult situation that I've experienced today was dealing with my phone that has a very low battery. I have never experienced skipping classes or being absent for a day even if I am not feeling well so this so called 'low battery' will never be the reason for me to not be able to attend our class this afternoon.

Just in time before my phone turned off, I've been able to finish our discussions and even able to make a few announcements to our class groupchat and to my groupmates in 'Personal Development' and 'FS'.

So too much about my whereabouts, the lesson that we've tackled earlier in our first subject really has a big impact to me 'cause aside from the fact that everybody can relate to it, it's just really meaningful. Dealing with challenges has never been easy and it seems like it just keeps on getting worse everyday. Also, as we get older, almost everything seems to be heavy, there are also times that we are starting to see those as a burden already and not just a simple problem that needs to have a solution and will disappear permanently. I kinda like the part where it says that life is a like a jungle, we don't have any idea of what's inside of it and what kind of danger awaits for us so we really have to be prepared and fight in order to survive.

Wednesday, January 20.

Today's just like the other days lately. It has been really gloomy-- and so am I.

Anyway, what we discussed today was about 'Entering the Phase of Middle and Late Adolescence'. Throughout the entire discussion, I've realized that I had and experienced an early adolescence based on the table that was shown to us. Well, there was actually a specific classification where this particular age is affiliated to this phase of adolescence and that's where you can tell that you belong to it. Furthermore, my face lightened and my mood brightened after seeing who I am gonna work with for our upcoming Performance Task in 'Personal Development'. We also had a 40-item quiz on quipper and subjectively, some of the questions was a bit confusing but if I'm gonna go and look at the brighter side, it made me reflect and think deeper.

Also, aside from discussing for our product proposal, I ended up my day interacting and socializing with the customers in our milk tea lounge and it is, indeed, accurate that even if you are not in a good mood, you really have to keep smiling most especially when you are infront of your customers.

That's all for today, thank you for reading and God bless! Keep safe and stay sanitized!

Tuesday, January 19.

A cold and windy weather sorrounded the day again and I could feel legarthy overtaking me. But I know that I had to fight this urge inside of me or else I'm gonna be drowning in my bed all day long that would only make me end up being unproductive.

While our discussions was ongoing, I had a difficulty in focusing because of nuisance. My Internet connection was unstable and I think the weather has something that made an impact into it. But it's okay 'cause I know that I'll be having my own review afterwards since we are going to have our unit test for tomorrow and it's something that we, students, should be taking seriously. I mean, no pressure, but still, although it depends, we have to do our best and strive harder if we really want to fulfill our desired goals.

After our classes, I felt happy 'cause our current assigned teachers didn't give us any activity to work on so we make use of our time to discuss things in regards to our feasibility study with our groupmates.

And that's all for the second day and I am genuinely hoping that we can ace our unit test tomorrow. Break a leg, ABM 3!