2023_03_17 My heart (and mug) is full. Thank you everyone! 🥰🥰🥰 (at Carinderia ni Ka Enteng) https://www.instagram.com/p/Cp47y71PBI1/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2023_0214 You know, @homer.jose.7 , this reminds me of Beauty and the Beast.... Thank you ❤️❤️❤️ https://www.instagram.com/p/CopGLDuvOiw/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2022_11_30 Kaunting senti lang... Nung isang taon, binigay sa akin itong notebook na ito ng nag guide sa akin sa insurance. Hindi ko ginamit yung notebook, para sa inspirasyon.... Ngayon, dahil may bago akong adventure na papasukin, kasama ulit sila, naisip ko, gagamitin ko na ito... para maalala ko kung bakit ko ito inumpisahan... Gusto ko lang naman na may proteksyon ang mga tao sa paligid ko.... Sana... mahikayat ko sila, para sa sarili din nila... Sana, maserve ko yung gusto ko talagang mangyari... Sana mabigyan ako ng sipag, tyaga, at pagkakataon... Mamimiss ko si Emma, pero, looking forward naman ako kay Alex... #GoingOrangeForAMajorChange https://www.instagram.com/p/ClkV_oJvQcr/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

#jichangwookforbench_reachyou (at MOA ARENA) https://www.instagram.com/p/CknkNzWp8pk/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

Bawal ang magulo... First time ko toh! https://www.instagram.com/p/CiWwbAwrz9_/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2022_09_07 Giving myself some "me time" Letting myself breathe Letting myself crawl out... (at Egg Talk) https://www.instagram.com/p/CiNJqFbJ_LY/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2022_09_06 Minsan pala, kahit kailangan mo ng tulong... kahit kailangan mo ng pansin, iuurong mo, dahil may mas kailangang humugot ng lakas mula sa iyo... kakapit ka sa sarili mong lakas, dahil kailangan mong tumagal... ang hirap pala na sinasabi mo sa iba na, magiging ok ka din pero kailangan mo lang ng kaunting panahon... ang bigat bigat ng buong pagkatao mo pero kailangan mong lumaban, dahil may rason ka para lumaban. Kailangan mong magmukhang malakas dahil kailangan... bahala na... ang weak mo che.... https://www.instagram.com/p/CiJ5MjjrilJ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2022_09_06 I need a drink I need to get away I need to breathe Too much going on Too much i need to do Too much to think about When was the last time i was like this? When was the last time i felt too tired to even think about going to work? When was the last time i cried because i was too tired? Ang weak mo kase Che! Gusto kong magtago sa kweba Kahit isang araw lang... Para hindi ko sabihin na AYOKO NA https://www.instagram.com/p/CiJXoXlpTjl/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2022_06_05 Titingala ako sa langit at ngingiti Kakaway Magpapaabot ng pagmamahal 17 years, Francis... 💙 https://www.instagram.com/p/CeZxTpDPtKN/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2022_05_30 Mahal ko ang trabaho ko, pero minsan, naiisip kong sumuko. Hindi ako nice na tao, pero sinusubukan ko naman. Minsan, nasasagad ako. Minsan gusto kong magtanong sa kausap ko: sandali, kasama ka po ba sa pumipirma para marelease ang sahod ko? Kase kung hindi, wala ka pong karapatan na magsalita na parang ikaw ang mayhawak ng susi ng payroll na kinabibilangan ko. Nakakababa ng moral na hindi naiisip ng iba na parepareho lang kami ng estado. Wala sa edad, wala sa tagal sa kumpanya ang pagiging self-entitled. Marunong naman akong umintindi ng trabaho lang, walang personalan, pero marunong din sana kayong makisama. Bakit yung iba, kaya naman nila? Bakit yung iba, high and mighty? La lang... naisip ko lang... https://www.instagram.com/p/CeK7jCPJfqR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

2022_04_05 Well, no one has to know how much of a struggle it is just to smile on your down days... The most important thing is, i am still here, i am fighting, and i am trying my best to get out of my dark place. Inhale... exhale... I got this! God has got this! This will pass... Tomorrow, i will be better... https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb8uRQmv8jx/?utm_medium=tumblr

Hinahanap ng tenga ko yung boses ni Seungri. Parang kulang... Parang senti... parang 🥺 Parang ang lapit na ng dulo... Wag muna... di pa ako ready Nanamnamin ko muna ito #BigbangIsFive #StillLife #Bigbang https://www.instagram.com/p/Cb7xoBXpVod/?utm_medium=tumblr

Birthday Blog 2022

March 19, 2022

 Usually, I would find time to reflect on the week of my birthday, and I have been thinking this week about how my life had been, and how I am seeing my life, moving forward.

One thing I have realized, I AM BLESSED.  Despite everything that has happened in my life, there were always silver linings somewhere.  I might have failed to recognize most of them immediately, but those small blessings were there for me.  I am one lucky person.

All the pain made me a stronger person.  My once loss of faith made me realize that I am blessed and that I have a God that will never let me down.  I just have to trust that there is always a perfect timing for everything.  I have learned not to ask from Him, but just to wait for what is in store, and try to make do and maximize what was given. This made my heart lighter.  The questions such as “Why me?” or “Why can’t it be me?” stopped and instead, I have a grateful heart because I am still here, standing tall, blessed and loved.

I just may be a slow learner when it comes to graciousness, but I am getting there.  Life is still hard.  I am still looking for my purpose in life.  I still have a lot of recovering to do, but I am now slowly crawling out of the deep hole I have created for myself.   I still have a long way to go. I still have to move forward.  The only difference is that my outlook is more of anticipation now. Before, I was just existing.  Now, I am living.  I know more storms are coming still, but it is ok.  I am stronger now.  I am better.  I still have doubts if I can make it, but it is okay.  I know that I will not try to fight with a bitter heart.  I will try to fight with a hopeful heart now.

I still have a long path. I am ready to live.

2022_02_09 Been down for a few weeks now This past few days have been really hard... and scary for me... But i am slowly snapping out of it... https://www.instagram.com/p/CZvnxoWvkXe/?utm_medium=tumblr

2021_06_15

Too many things going on, my mind is about to crash.

i had an anxiety attack this morning that really caught me off guard because i suddenly wanted to hide under the nearest office desk.  

i am also pissed at some people who think of themselves as high and mighty. well, i cannot please everyone... Bahala kayo jan. i will be myself, just do not put your face where i can see it... i might just hit it... 

i wanna scream

i wanna cry

i wanna throw a tantrum

i am a bit angry...

2021_06_05 My first angel went up there sixteen years ago. I still get sad sometimes, but i am all better now. Hey Francis, reserve me a hug, will yah? Kisses to you and Caelyn... i will forever love you. 😚 https://www.instagram.com/p/CPtH-cAMKpp/?utm_medium=tumblr