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bro code — a haikyuu au (18+)

two years after breaking up with your ex, osamu, you have moved on with your life. you finally get a big role in an up coming tv show after years of small insignificant roles. when you find out that your co-star is suna rintaro, your ex’s best friend who you despise, you plan on dropping the role. however, suna isn’t exactly how you remember and for some reason you start catching feelings.

pairings: suna x fem!reader & osamu x fem!reader

genre: angst! written + smau

tropes: actor!suna, actor!osamu, enemies to lovers, exes to lovers

warnings: 18+, love triangle, miscommunication, cheating, toxic relationships, unrequited love, explicit sexual scenes, asshole charactes, stalking, (+more to be announced)

taglist: (open)

status: ongoing

cast

SEASON ONE ↓

episode one : leading role

y/n nervously awaits to hear news from her agent on whether she got her dream acting job or not.

episode two : so lame

osamu and suna find out what roles they got. y/n questions atsumu.

episode three : comfort

the showrunners of loveless announces the cast.

episode four : worse

cast meeting. chaos ensues.

episode five : get along

y/n questions whether she should give up her role after her recent discovery, her friends talk her out of it. someone unexpectedly contacts y/n.

episode six : stuttering

it’s the first day of filming, y/n struggles on set. she is comforted by the last person she would expect.

episode seven : so close

akira makes a cast gc. still struggling, y/n reluctantly takes suna’s offer to practice lines with him. osamu confides in his brother.

episode eight : abandoned

after spending time with suna, y/n catches herself enjoying his company. osamu questions suna. akira invites y/n to hang out,

episode nine : plotting

atsumu tells osamu that y/n has been practicing with suna, which upsets osamu.

episode ten : understand

osamu confronts y/n and they have a much needed talk. suna and osamu have an argument.

episode eleven : friends

osamu and suna interrupt filming with their unresolved issues. sakusa threatens them. y/n questions suna.

episode twelve : assumption

atsumu is being weird and y/n can tell that something is wrong. atsumu messages suna. osamu attempts to apologize to suna.

episode thirteen : secret

hina interrogates atsumu for y/n. he bribes her to keep quiet. y/n messages osamu after a few days, wanting to check up on him after the argument with suna. she finds herself doing something she had been avoiding doing.

episode fourteen : 3 weeks

a few months into filming osamu and y/n are on good terms. suna begins to distance himself which hurts her feelings. y/n confronts suna.

episode fifteen : feelings

osamu is thinking about asking y/n out on a date, but chickens out. akira and y/n talk talk about “crushes”. y/n & suna have a talk.

episode sixteen : interview

as the season one of loveless gets closer to the end of filming, the cast goes on their first interview. comments from the fans make osamu insecure.

episode seventeen : joke

y/n’s friends confront her about what they saw in the interview. osamu finds out something that breaks his heart. filled with anger, he confronts y/n.

episode eighteen : happy

the last day of filming is here and akira invites invites everyone to a wrap up party. osamu and suna have a talk.

episode nineteen : wrap up party (part 1)

akira throws a filming wrap up party. osamu is still avoiding y/n.

episode twenty : wrap-up party (part 2) season finale

after a night that y/n can’t remember, she wakes up somewhere strange. y/n finds out about suna’s secret.

SEASON TWO ↓

episode twenty one : leak

someone leaks a video of what happened at the party.

episode twenty two : lying

in response to what was leaked, osamu leaks more information

episode twenty three : meeting

osamu, suna, and y/n have a meeting with sakusa about what happened.

episode twenty four : break up

after the meeting with sakusa, suna and y/n aren’t sure what to do.

episode twenty five :

a few months have passed and season one of loveless is out. y/n is nervous but her friends and suna comfort her. her nervousness goes away once the first influx of comments and reviews come in.

episode twenty six

episode twenty seven

episode twenty eight

episode twenty nine

y/n starts getting close to someone new.

episode thirty :

episode thirty one

a secret that suna has been keeping is revealed, which may change the relationships between everyone.

episode thirty two

episode thirty three

episode thirty four

episode thirty five :

y/n recieves an ominous message.

episode thirty six

episode thirty seven

episode thirty eight

episode thirty nine

episode forty

SEASON THREE ↓

episode forty one

episode forty two

episode forty three

episode forty four

episode forty five

episode forty six

episode forty seven

episode forty eight

episode forty nine

episode fifty

*possibly more episodes coming soon

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BRO CODE ♡ ྀ 20 WRAP-UP PARTY (PART TWO) 18+

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the car ride to his apartment was silent. once in the car he found some tissue in his glove compartment, so that stopped the bleeding a bit. you weren’t sure what to say or if saying anything would help. all of this felt like your fault and the guilt is slowly eating away at you.

once you reach his apartment, it is still quiet between you two. suna is never this quiet, which worries you even more. maybe he blames you too.

you stand awkwardly in the middle of his living room. you came here to help patch him up but now you’re not sure he even wants you here. you shift uncontrollably as you watch him walk towards his bathroom, leaving you behind.

he stops as if he realizes you aren’t following him. he turns back to you, confusion clear on his face.

“you coming? i thought you were gonna patch me up?” he playfully pouts as he says it.

relief washes over you. it’s clear that he’s at least not angry with you. if he blames you is another situation. you silently walk towards him and he leads you into his bathroom.

at this point, you’ve been in his bathroom multiple times so you pretty much know where everything is. suna is oddly very organized. he keeps his sink clean except for a bottle of hand soap and a candle that you bought him.

suna takes a seat on the lid of the toilet seat. you bend down to rummage through his sink cabinet in search of his first aid kit. once you find it you place it on his sink. you place gloves on your hands before beginning. you take a cleaning wipe and some gauze to soak up the blood.

“tilt your head back.”

he complies, his nose angled up towards you. the tissue that he shoved in his nose is completely blood now. you slowly pull the bloody tissue from his nose with a gloved hand. once it’s free, blood begins to trickle from his bruised nose again. he winces in pain, his eyes watering a bit.

“i’m sorry,” you whisper.

you take the cleansing wipe and softly wipe his nose. he winces a bit more when you wipe again the bruise that’s forming. the more you assess the damage that osamu did the more you have to hold back your tears. you notice that the bleeding has stopped so you wipe what’s left.

the tears that you were holding back fail to stay in your eyes. suna watches as one tear falls down your cheek. he slowly grabs your wrist, stopping you from wiping his nose.

“baby, why are you crying?”

you close your eyes and shake your head, embarrassed to be crying in front of him. you don’t want to tell him why you’re crying. what if he does say he blames you?

“it’s nothing.”

your voice is quieter and more broken than you expected. suna’s eyes soften.

“tell me. please.”

his soft eyes coax you into telling him the truth. he moves his hand down from your wrist to hold your hand.

“this is all my fault. i should’ve done something-“

“done what? and no this is not your fault. osamu made his own choice and that has nothing to do with you.”

despite how angry he sounds his voice is low. when you don’t respond he stands up to meet you at your level. he places his hands on either side of your face.

“look at me, pretty. i need you to understand that it’s not your fault.”

he whispers as if there were someone else in his apartment that could hear. you wrap your hands around his wrist, finding comfort in touching him.

“okay.”

he smiles warmly at you. he pulls you towards him by the sides of your face. he attaches his lips to yours. his lips are soft and warm like usual. the kiss becomes more heated and suna pulls you impossibly closer to him.

you softly moan into the kiss, your grip on his wrists becoming tighter. theres a heat in your chest that begins to burn. the closeness and the intensity of the kiss makes your heart rate pick up.

you two have never been this intimate before, only short make-outs and cuddling. something about this kiss feels different and it makes you feel alive.

the hold he has on your face loosens. he pulls his hands from your grip and wraps his arms around your waist. you mimic his actions, your hands meet in the middle of his back. you softly run your fingernails against the fabric that covers his back.

the action causes a whine to erupt from his throat.

you giggle at his reaction. you take it a step further and push your hands up under the back of his shirt. your finger gingerly runs against the soft skin of his back. you start the lift his shirt up, revealing his waist. he chokes a little. he pulls away from the kiss, tugging your bottom lip with his teeth.

“i don’t want to do this here. well-well obviously only if you wanted to do it anyway.” he stutters a bit, which is unlike him.

“am i making you nervous?”

you quirk your eyebrow up at him, a small smirk on your lips. he shuts his eyes and lets out a shaky breath.

“yes.” he sighs.

without another word, you take his hand in yours and leas him out of the bathroom. already knowing where his bedroom is, you lead him straight there.

your naked legs wrap tightly around his bare waist. the kiss had now turned sloppy. his hands rest on your waist as he lays on top of you, both unclothed.

suna breaks away from the kiss and starts to kiss down your neck. once he reaches your breast he places a sloppy wet kiss on one of them. his hands that rest against your waist travel down to wrap around the underside of your thighs. he pushes your thighs up to meet your chest, revealing your wet pussy to him.

he moves up from your breasts to your lips again. he frees one of his hands to help guide his condom-covered cock to your pussy. you harshly grip his arm as he pushes inside of you.

you wince as he pushes further inside of you. he stills for a moment and pulls his face away from yours.

“are you okay?”

you quickly nod in response, ready for him to just fuck you already. he chuckles at your quickness. he takes hold of the back of your thighs again, pushing them further against your chest. he begins to pick up his pace.

soft sounds of your skin slapping against each other fills the room. the angle that he’s fucking you in makes your eyes roll. loud whines force their way out of you. suna places his lips against yours, muffling your whines.

suna takes one of his hands from your knee and places his thumb against your clit. he rubs small circles against it as he picks up speed. the double stimulation makes heat fill your lower belly.

“mm fuck, you feel so good.” suna groans into the kiss.

he speeds up even more, making your legs shake a bit.

“i’m gonna cum. please keep going.”

at that suna rubs your clit faster. the heat in your belly becomes too much to bear. you uncontrollably squeeze your legs around him as you cum loudly. His lips still against you muffle the sound of your yelp as you cum. suna chases his orgasm and eventually cums after you.

loud labored breathing from the both of you fills your ears. he lets go of your thighs and collapses next to you. he catches his breath quietly. once he feels okay he turns on his side towards you. you turn on your side to face him too. he cheekily smiles at you, forcing a smile from you.

“so much for taking this relationship slowly.”

an aching pain in your back and legs wake you from your sleep. embarrassingly enough you hadn’t had sex in a while and the ways in which suna bent you pained your body.

you groan as you shift to the side. you could barely move. suna sleeps soundly next to you, no care in the world. your roll your eyes at the soft snores that come from him and turn away from him.

you need something to ease the pain, but not being able to move makes that impossible. you don’t want to wake suna yet. after what he endured yesterday he deserves to sleep as long as he wants.

you spot the drawer of his nightstand slightly open. through the crack, you can see something that looks like a pill bottle.

you hurriedly pull the drawer open. you sigh in relief when you spot the bottle of muscle relaxers that will surely ease your pain. as you reach for the bottle you spot a piece of paper inside the drawer with your name written on it.

you go to grab the paper instead. when you pull the paper out you can tell that it’s pretty old. it’s slightly covered in dust and the paper is crinkly. you crinkle your eyebrows together in confusion.

you unfold the paper and what you read surprises you. at the top of the paper, it’s dated march 13, 2017. why would suna be writing something to you back in 2017? curiosity gets the best of you and you read the whole letter.

March 13, 2017

To Y/N,

I probably won’t give you this letter but I still feel the need to write it.

You and Osmau have been dating for a year and I thought I would’ve gotten over it by now, but I haven’t. I’m not sure I ever will. You’re the first person I’ve ever felt real feelings for. We got really close at first and I thought maybe it could’ve led to something but then you randomly started dating Samu. It hurt, way more than I wish it did. I guess it’s mostly because Samu knew my feelings for you and still dated you. I put my feelings aside because I could tell that you are happy with him. He’s a great guy and I guess he’s perfect for you. I wish I could’ve been the one you wanted. You’re beautiful and perfect and I would’ve been lucky to have you. Maybe one day in the future we could be something if things don’t work out with Osamu. For now, I’m okay as long as you’re happy.

by the end of the letter, there are tears falling from your eyes. you don’t know how to react. what stuns you even more is there are more letters in the drawer with your name on them. you’re not sure you could stand to read all of them.

shifting from behind you startles you. you hurriedly hid the letter back inside the drawer. you sloppily wipe the tears from your face.

“good morning.”

suna’s morning voice fills your ears. he wraps his arm around your waist and pulls you against his chest. he places a wet kiss on your naked shoulder.

“good morning, rin.”

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BRO CODE ♡ ྀ 23 MEETING

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to say you are nervous would be an understatement. when your agent/manager informed you that the director wanted to talk with you and the guys last night, your heart dropped to the pit of your stomach. you're sure this won't be a pleasant talk based on recent events. osamu's social media rant may have gotten all three of you fired.

you and suna arrived together. you were able to successfully get him out of the locked bathroom the night before. he had been sitting in the bathroom for a couple of hours, scrolling through the search results of his name on twitter. fortunately for him, there were quite a few people who hadn't made their judgment on him without his side of the story. however, there were equal amounts of people who condemned him based on osamu's rant. to suna, the only people that mattered were the people who were sending him hate.

you took his phone from him and you don't plan on giving it back anytime soon.

fortunately for you both, osamu hasn't arrived yet. he is late, which doesn't look good for him at all.

sakusa sits across from you both at a wide wooden table. he hasn't said anything besides the clipped "hello." when he entered the room. his facial expression is unreadable. he looks annoyed but he always looks annoyed.

the sound of the door creaking open grabs your attention. osamu stands in the doorway, he makes eye contact with you. instantly you feel anger bubble up inside you. the mere sight of him reminds you of how much hate you have for him right now. osamu's eyes shift awkwardly away from yours.

"sorry for being late." he bows lightly and then takes a seat.

sakusa looks up from the paperwork that he'd been staring at the whole time. he says nothing to osamu, he doesn't even spare him a glance. without any words you know how he feels about osamu.

"i'm sure you all know with this meeting is about." sakusa shoots osamu a sharp glance before looking back at his paper.

osamu looks down, shame written all over his face. he should be ashamed. he not only embarrassed suna and himself but also you. he made you and suna out to be much worse people than you are. he absolved himself of all his faults by pinning everything that happened on suna. that's what made you angry. what mattered to you is that he lied on suna.

"i'm sorry about-"

"i'm not done talking," sakusa cuts osamu off.

sakusa takes a deep breath, closing his eyes in annoyance.

"this is your first and only warning, pull another stunt like that and i won't hesitate to fire you. you're an adult, don't run to twitter with your drama."

osamu says nothing. his mouth is agape in shock.

sakusa turns to you and suna. your heart begins to speed up. this is it. he's going to fire you both. he's going to say that you've wasted their money and they have to film with a whole new cast to avoid the negative publicity. your mind runs with these outlandish thoughts. under the large table, suna inches his hand towards yours, grabbing your hand in his. it's as if he somehow knows you are panicking.

"i wanted the cast of this show to be comfortable, so i didn't put a no-dating clause in your contracts. however, it seems that i made a mistake."

sakusa sighs in disappointment. his eyes soften as he looks at you two.

"i am asking you two to break up and refrain from seeing each other. i'm sorry to say, but if you don't i will have to fire you."

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BRO CODE ♡ ྀ 24 BREAK UP

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bro code — a haikyuu au (18+)

pairings: suna x fem!reader & osamu x fem!reader

genre: angst! written + smau

tropes: actor!suna, actor!osamu, enemies to lovers, exes to lovers

warnings: 18+, love triangle, miscommunication, cheating, toxic relationships, unrequited love, explicit sexual scenes, asshole charactes, stalking, (obviously) (+more to be announced)

taglist: (open)

status: ongoing

cast

SEASON ONE ↓

episode one : leading role

y/n nervously awaits to hear news from her agent on whether she got her dream acting job or not.

episode two : so lame

osamu and suna find out what roles they got. y/n questions atsumu.

episode three : comfort

the showrunners of loveless announces the cast.

episode four : worse

cast meeting. chaos ensues.

episode five : get along

y/n questions whether she should give up her role after her recent discovery, her friends talk her out of it. someone unexpectedly contacts y/n.

episode six : stuttering

it’s the first day of filming, y/n struggles on set. she is comforted by the last person she would expect.

episode seven

episode eight

episode nine

episode ten :

episode eleven

episode twelve

episode thirteen

episode fourteen

episode fifteen

episode sixteen

episode seventeen

episode eighteen

episode nineteen

episode twenty : season finale

after a night that y/n can’t remember, she wakes up somewhere strange. the first season of loveless is released.

SEASON TWO ↓

episode twenty one :

filming for season two begins. after months of being apart there is still tension between y/n, suna, and osamu.

episode twenty two :

the cast of loveless attend interviews, which receives interesting comments from the viewers.

episode twenty three

episode twenty four

episode twenty five

episode twenty six

episode twenty seven

episode twenty eight

episode twenty nine

episode thirty :

a secret that suna has been keeping is revealed, which may change the relationships between everyone.

episode thirty one

episode thirty two

episode thirty three

episode thirty four

episode thirty five :

y/n recieves an ominous message.

episode thirty six

episode thirty seven

episode thirty eight

episode thirty nine

episode forty

SEASON THREE ↓

episode forty one

episode forty two

episode forty three

episode forty four

episode forty five

episode forty six

episode forty seven

episode forty eight

episode forty nine

episode fifty

taglist: (open)

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bro code — a haikyuu smau (18+)

two years after breaking up with your ex, osamu, you have moved on with your life. you finally get a big roll in an up coming tv show after years of small insignificant roles. when you find out that your co-star is suna rintaro, your ex’s best friend who you despise, you plan on dropping the role. however, suna isn’t exactly how you remember and for some reason you start catching feelings.

pairings: suna x fem!reader & osamu x fem! reader

genre: angst!

tropes: actor!suna, actor!osamu, enemies to lovers, exes to lovers

warnings: 18+, love triangle, cheating, toxic relationships, unrequited love, explicit sexual scenes, asshole charactes (obviously) (+more to be announced)

taglist: (open)

status: starting after “traitor”

cast

SEASON ONE ↓

episode one : leading role

y/n nervously awaits to hear news from her agent on whether she got her dream acting job or not.

episode two

osamu and suna find out what roles they got. y/n senses that atsumu is keeping a secret from her.

episode three

cast meeting. chaos ensues.

episode four

episode five

y/n questions whether she should give up her role after her recent discovery.

episode six

episode seven

episode eight

episode nine

episode ten

episode eleven

episode twelve

episode thirteen

episode fourteen

episode fifteen

episode sixteen

episode seventeen

episode eighteen

episode nineteen

episode twenty

SEASON TWO ↓

episode twenty one

episode twenty two

episode twenty three

episode twenty four

episode twenty five

episode twenty six

episode twenty seven

episode twenty eight

episode twenty nine

episode thirty

episode thirty one

episode thirty two

episode thirty three

episode thirty four

episode thirty five

episode thirty six

episode thirty seven

episode thirty eight

episode thirty nine

episode forty

SEASON THREE ↓

(more episodes to be announced)

taglist: (open)

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STOLEN SWEETHEART ( SUNA RINTARO AU )

you’re constantly being bugged by your parents to get in a relationship and suna needs to be married to get his inheritance. already being close friends, he poses that you two both get married to get your parents off your backs. this arrangement would’ve been easy and simple if you hadn’t fell in love with him, despite him being in a real committed relationship.

pairing : suna x fem!reader

genre & tropes : angst, very 18+, unrequited love, marriage of convenience

warnings : toxic relationships, cheating, toxic parents (+ more to be announced)

taglist : open

CHAPTER ONE :

summary: visiting your parents while home from college should be stress free, unfortunately when you’re 25 and not even dating anyone that’s all your parents can even talk about.

word count: 4k(?)

CHAPTER TWO :

summary:

word count: 6k(?)

(more chapters to be announced)

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your hands wrap around the edges of the sink, your gripping it so hard that you feel it could break in your hands. his arms wrap around your waist along with you bunched up skirt. your eyes are screwed shut as his cock abuses your cervix over and over. his groans fill the air of the slightly dirty club bathroom.

“fuck- you feel so good around me.”

jean, nanami, ran, EREN, OSAMU, rindou, IWAIZUMI, matsukawa, tartaglia, KUROO, suna

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he hates that you’re embarrassed of your facial expressions when he’s pleasuring you. when your hands cover your face in embarrassment he detaches his lips from around your nipple and looks at you unamused. he had prepared for this. the cuffs that he attached to his headboard came in handy. with your hands successfully restrained he goes back to work on your nipples.

“never hide your pretty face from me.” he mumbles against your chest.

GOJO, osamu, EREN, SUNA, getou, LEVI, diluc, iwaizumi, uzui, NANAMI, ayato, zhongli

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as it was — haikyuu smau

being in the public eye can put a strain on any relationship. with media, fake scandals, crazed fans in the mix this cause you and kiyoomi to have a on and off again relationship. no matter what you were always drawn to each other. however, with an introduction of a new member in your band, suna rintaro, you start to be drawn to someone else.

pairing: suna rintaro x fem!reader & sakusa kiyoomi x fem!reader

genre: angst !

tropes: band au, singer!sakusa, singer!suna, love triangle

warnings: there may be some 18+ scenes

taglist: (open)

schedule: every other day

status: ongoing

CHARACTERS

CHAPTERS :

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03.

04.

05.

06.

07.

08.

09.

10.

(more chapters coming soon)

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bro code — haikyuu smau

two year after breaking up with your ex osamu you have moved on with your life. you finally get a big roll in an up coming tv show after years of small insignificant rolls. when you find out that your co-star is suna rintaro, your ex’s best friend who you despise, you plan on dropping the roll. however, suna isn’t exactly how you remember and for some reason you start catching feelings.

pairings: suna x fem!reader , osamu x fem!reader

genre: angst !

tropes: actor!suna, actor!osamu, enemies to lovers, exes to lovers

warnings: 18+, love triangle, cheating, toxic relationships, unrequited love, (+more to be announced)

taglist: (open)

status: starting after “faceless”

cast

CHAPTERS

SEASON ONE !

episode one

➪ y/n nervously awaits to hear news from her agent on whether she got her dream acting job or not.

episode two

episode three

episode four

episode five

episode six

episode seven

episode eight

episode nine

episode ten

episode eleven

episode twelve

episode thirteen

episode fourteen

episode fifteen

episode sixteen

episode seventeen

episode eighteen

episode nineteen

episode twenty

SEASON TWO !

episode twenty one

(more episodes to be announced)

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faceless — suna rintaro smau

suna is a popular faceless streamer/youtuber, during a stream he mistakenly out his crush on you. you also being poplar streamer, word travels fast. you start messaging each other and your friendship grows, but problems arise when he “reveals” what he looks like.

pairing: suna x fem!reader

genre: angst

tropes: streamer!suna, love triangle, catfishing

taglist: (closed)

schedule: whenever i can

status: ongoing

y/n & friends | suna & friends

CHAPTERS:

01. snitches

02. clout

03. pretty girl

04. understandable

05. sunas in love

06. catfishing

07. rare form

08. oh no

09. why should i?

10. sick and twisted

11. my fault

12. demand

13. aquatinted

14. ditched

15. goodluck

16. invited

17. fix this

18. streamer con

19. confession

20. friends

21. apology

22. busy

23. official

24. confused

25.

26.

27.

28.

29.

30.

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3:16 AM ༄ MIYA ATSUMU

nothing could dull the ache in your heart that was currently preventing you from falling asleep. you silently hope that atsumu wouldn’t come home tonight, so you wouldn’t have to confront him. however, him not coming home would also send you into further heartache.

you sit up in your bed, back against the head board and legs folded against your chest. you haven’t laid down at all. you don’t want to. once you lay down you know that the tears will flow uncontrollably and you refuse to cry over him.

he doesn’t deserve it.

the sound of keys quietly being placed on the kitchen counter alerts you. you turn the lamp on next to you, so he can see you as soon as he enters the room.

the room door knob slowly turns. you assume he’s trying not to wake you. once the door is open atsumu instantly makes eye contact with you, stoping dead in his tracks.

something in his stomach twists. he can tell by the look on your face that something is wrong.

“baby, why are you awake?” he asks warily.

for a few moments you just stare at him. looking at him now you still see the man you fell in love with years ago, you can’t comprehend how he could step out on your marriage. you were sure he was better than that.

atsumu shifts uncomfortably under your stare.

“baby—”

“how long have you been sneaking off in the night to fuck your co worker?”

atsumu’s heart plummets.

he’s completely silent for far too long and that pretty much tells you everything you need to know. his face is emotionless which only pains you more. do you really mean that little to him that being accused of cheating gains no emotion from him?

atsumu’s heart is racing and his palms gets sweaty. he’s stuck. his mind and his body.

“fucking answer me.”

despite your voice being almost a whisper it still drips with venom. this pushed atsumu out of his paralysis.

“3 months.”

surprisingly to him you just nod in response. you reach for your phone and you scroll for a few minutes. atsumu isn’t sure what to do so he just stand there, the eerie silence in the room sends chills down his spin.

he swallows thickly from nerves. with your phone in hand you rise from the bed and walk over to him. you turn your phone towards him and he instantly closes his eyes in shame.

“next time check who you’re sending your texts to.”

you turn the phone back towards you, looking at the picture that you’ve stared at for hours. it’s of atsumu and the co worker who you met at a company party a few months ago. she referred to atsumu as her “work husband” and he told you that it was nothing serious and they were just friends. them being completely naked and kissing in the picture tells you a different story.

you look up from your phone to him. the feeling of self hatred washes over you. you hate yourself for feeling the way you do. you hate that even after what he did, when you look at him you still feel the love for him that you felt the day you go married.

you hate yourself for not hating him.

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