May this remind me of our love and give me strength to never give up on us. May our love be enough for us to conquer all obstacles in our relationship. I love you. And I will never give up on us, even if LDR is so fcking hard.. I promise and I swear, I won't ever let you go...
When you love someone… truly love them, friend or lover, you lay your heart open to them. You give them a part of yourself that you give to no one else, and you let them inside a part of you that only they can hurt—you literally hand them the razor with a map of where to cut deepest and most painfully on your heart and soul. And when they do strike, it’s crippling—like having your heart carved out. It leaves you naked and exposed, wondering what you did to make them want to hurt you so badly when all you did was love them. What is so wrong with you that no one can keep faith with you? That no one can love you? To have it happen once is bad enough… but to have it repeated? Who in their right mind would not be terrified of that?
Why am I so depressed? Ayokong umalis siya. Naiisip ko palang na lilipat sila, na aalis siya, na iiwan niya ako.. Naiiyak na ako. Kahit pa sabihin natin na masaya naman naging araw ko ngayon, Pag magisa nalang ako at naaalala ko yung thought na yun.. Hindi ko mapigilang hindi maging malungkot. Alam ko naman na kaya namin tong LDR, pero yung thought lang na matagal ko siyang di makakasama, ang sakit na. May tiwala naman ako na mahal niya ako. Hindi naman siya nagkukulang sa pagbibigay ng assurance. Hindi siya nagkukulang sa pagpapaalala sakin na pagsubok lang to.. Pero.. Bakit ang sakit pa rin? Bakit sobrang lungkot ko pa rin? Selfish ba ako kasi nalulungkot ako kahit na alam kong para sa kinabukasan niya yun? Hays. Pag-ibig nga naman.