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"Fish" (21/3/2024)
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It started as a doodle and I tried to color it
It was a bit messy because there's no planning
But the drawing looks too good to be abandoned
So I finished it to see how it goes
Sharing the sketches because it looks decent haha
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Also sharing this on my birthday
Because why not
Happy birthday to me yipeeeee
🎂🎉🥳🎈🎊
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Doodle I made when I was depressed af
It's a person curled up with sword stabbed inside them
I was in a super unstable state so that was the best I could do to describe the feelings
An attempt to develop the doodle to something
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"🦋🩸" (17/3/2024)
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Another doodle I drew. An extension of the previous doodle. I felt a surge of energy and I wanted to draw something.
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"Thanatos" (16/3/2024)
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A doodle I did while googling about "methods to end myself". I didn't find ways to end myself and read some helpful material instead. Gave me a new perspective on such desire. Thought that it was an end to my suffering, but it seems that all it does is to spread my sadness to people who care about me. I feel that it's my responsibility to deal with it.
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Didn't refine the doodle so it can reflect the mood more accurately.
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Glamour Witch Tips♡
• use your face wash to cleanse away the negative energy from your day
• say or think healing affirmations while applying your moisturizer
• primer can be used to make good things "stick" to you
• use the application of your foundation to set the intentions for your day and what you hope to accomplish
• use concealer to draw sigils or mask anything you wish to hide
• incorporate color magick with your eyeshadow and lipstick
• enchant your lipstick and lipglosses to make your words have impact
• apply your mascara or eyeliner with the intention of seeing through the bullshit
• braid your hair with whatever intention you see fit (knot magic!)
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"Prince" (15/2/2024)
I saw a photo of him on Pinterest and he's so fucking beautiful. I have to draw him even if it's mean I have to figure out the shiny pieces one by one.
This drawing was much more challenging than I expected, even when I draw it with a reference photo. I tried doing this because I want to use this as a warm up for me to go back to drawing (as I'm going through a hell lot... That's why the updates are so delayed here uggh), but literally everything in this drawing is a challenge.
First, the face. There's a shadow on his face and I seldom draw this kind of shadow on face. I have to figure out the colors to express the value + not making it look too spooky/ like blood dripping on the face. Also the beard. I NEVER DONE BEARD. It's so challenging because I don't see much beard irl so there's so little data in my head for me to work with. And the hair too. It's just black in the photo, but it can't be too dark or else it cannot match the fabulousness of his jacket.
And next, THE JACKET. Oh My God. This takes forever to draw. So many times I just wanted to trace the whole things but I resisted the temptation. I figured out the placement of the discs, one by one. It's not super accurate but it's good enough to work with. The rendering was like an endless boss fight. I had to zoom in so closely so I can do the details but at the same time not lost track of the big picture. It's also so challenging to figure out the colors, as I want to capture the rainbowy effect on his jacket, which caught my attention on the reference photo.
The guitar strap is literally the easiest thing in the drawing but still it's not that easy, as it's gold on purple, which two of the colors are both quite warm. I put lots of cold colors in the gold part so it won't stick to the purple part, but at the same time it has to have warm colors so it looks gold + reflections of the purple strap.
This drawing took me 42 hours to finish, and I didn't expect it to take this long at all. But tbh I didn't even think that I could finish it at the first place lmaooo. It's a fucking boss fight and I learned a lot from the drawing. I can see my improvements during the process, and I am also blown away by the improvement I've made, when comparing this to my other drawings. I've heard that color is the most difficult thing to master in drawing. I always agree with it and I am so feeling it in this drawing. I feel that every time I draw, I'm learning a little bit about colors, just enough to motivate me to finish the drawing. There're still so much more to explore about colors.
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"Lilian" (2/1/2024)
Drawing Lilian, my friend's oc
He designed the outfit too
I love the design so much it's so inspiring
Thanks for curing my art block
Also finally a chance for me to try out the make up from Dior 1997 show 😭😭😭😭😩💯💯💙💙
Here's the show... I love it so much 💯💯
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And here's a greyscale version of the drawing hehe
Also one thing about this drawing is that I didn't pose a 3d model for reference... because I didn't have enough focus for that as I'm going through a lot. I have to calculate everything in my head but at the same time it gives me more freedom to do what I please hehe.
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2023 ART SUMMARY
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It’s the time of the year to do an art summary.
Every drawing I tried my best to make it my best one, so it’s surreal to see how my drawings become sicker thru the year when I put them side by side. It’s true that the best drawing is always the next drawing, but the old ones always have a place in my heart as they’re all meaningful to me.
This year, I’ve posted 49 drawings. It’s roughly the same as last year, and this surprises me as I had been through lots pf obstacles, such as final year project, work, and getting fucking covid. There’re lots of challenges that I’ve dealt with the first time in my life that adds new fuel to the dumpster fire called my life. I wonder why I have to been through so much shit and I cannot find any real reason for it other than things do be like that. However, the light of the fire grows as it devours all the stupid shit being thrown at it, and for now I am happy with seeing the flame becomes more beautiful everyday. It’s not the real answer to life, but it’s a good enough belief to keep it going and be open to new inspirations for cooler artworks.
I wonder how I can become better next year and make real improvements in drawing like this year. It seems that it will just happen as a byproduct of me keep trying in life so there’s no need for worrying. All I have to do is to keep trying and see how it goes for 2024.
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And here’s a very cool song that I love.
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"♅" (22/12/2023)
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Hmmmmm Viktor. Haven’t drawn him for a long time.
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One day I had a vision of Viktor playing with magic right before I fell asleep so I tried to make it work. I spent a whole day trying to make it work but I couldn’t. And then the next day I heard a song and the whole layout showed up in my head. Then I had a walk and saw someone wearing a jacket that was similar to the idea in my head.
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I feel so blessed.
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The song that inspired me 🤩
#digital art#hyperpop art#glitch art#my art#art#viktor#viktor arcane#viktor arcane fanart#viktor the machine herald#viktor lol#arcane#Spotify
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"Asylum" (17/12/2023)
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Funny how you believe that
There's wrong or right
Lucky that you can break free
When it doesn't feel right
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The drawing is inspired by the terrible experience of my first full time job. The ideas mainly consisted of my father's commentary on my situation. How fitting that a father figure inspired a drawing of Saturn lol.
Rules and logics don't really matter when everyone in the place is insane. My frame that supports my mind had been nullified. Instead of the window frame, I was a fragile paper on it. One poke and I was broken, and then the broken hole attracted another attack, and another one, and another one. Glad that I was not glued to their frame. Lucky that I can leave.
The circle rings that stands upright symbolized the window, and Saturn's ring at the same time as I want something to tie him with the concept. The inner circle is tilted to make it more window/door like as it looks like it's opened. It also gives him something to step on so he can do the running pose, giving some motion to the drawing to show how bad I wanted to break free from that hell hole.
His outfit is inspired by restraining outfit in asylums as well as Gabriel's outfit in the movie Constantine. Not only that it symbolized that he escaped from a place full of insane people, but it also mocks him for trying to find order in the chaotic world. Unfortunately, this is what Saturn does, forming orders in this mess, and believing that he's the logical one. That's why he belongs to an asylum lol.
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"My life is full of things that were not really here" (27/11/2023)
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I reached a point that I was so depressed because of work. It could've been resolved by a maniac breakdown but I didn't have the energy to do that as I was so drained. I didn't want to let the negativity bother me so much so I vented it out with the only method I know...
There's no plan for this drawing. I was doodling things that I love to draw, which are angel and the feathers on their wings. I didn't know how to make the doodle work but at the end it worked. I really love the vibe of it. It's so honest...
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This is one of my favourite songs. It's so perfect.
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"What takes you so long" (13/11/2023)
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I just wanted to draw my beautiful oc. Inspired by a dream, I added some words in the shades. It's difficult to come up with nice writings as I am not a writer. But I guess they're good enough for shading lol.
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Without bg
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"Mobius" (10/11/2023)
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My friend's oc Mobius. I love them so much. It's worth it to have my brain fried to try figure out how to draw them as they're so adorable.
I was not sure if things can work when drawing it but it works, and now I love this drawing very very much.
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Cute Mobius 🪼👍🏻
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"Saturday" (30/10/2023)
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You've found me. From now on the days will be gold.
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Drawing that I did during the time I got covid. I was so tired but couldn't sleep as I felt so sick. So I kept drawing and streamed it on discord during the time I was awake. I wasn't really sure if my state was good enough to draw, but at the same time I couldn't think of anything else better than drawing. Had a lot of fun drawing triangles and talking with people on the voice chat lol.
The subject is my new oc, Saturn. I always wanted to make an oc inspired by saturn. While my mind was dizzy, I kept seeing this male figure in my vision. He's watching me suffering illness silently because he knows that it doesn't matter, when I could gain so much freedom and inspiration from the experience of being sick. Immediately I feel that he's the perfect image for my oc.
He lives in his own world with his own orders, it feels like time has never passed. When he faces obstacles, instead of making them weigh him down, he will get over them. This is why he has a youthful appearance. Also, I infused some feelings I went through while being sick in him. I was stuck in a nostalgic feeling that time, as it's been a long time since I last been that sick. The childhood times were the only thing I could relate to the experience of covid. This is why the time on his pocket watch is in reverse, and there're no hands on it, since direction of time is so... meaningless. Time only has meaning when there's meaningful experience ties to it, and the mind can swim through those moments in life without the constraints of the physical time.
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"Portrait" (13/10/2023)
Drawing of my relative's friend. I don't really know him and I don't really know his friend too lmao. So uhh... nothing I can talk about this drawing lol. My mom took me to Taiwan to see some relatives and this was a gift for one of them.
Looks unexpectedly beautiful when being printed and framed hehe.
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(4/12/2023)
Omg I don't have time to update this blog because of the crazy work stress but I am quitting my job so I will post new artworks that I haven't posted here next week + some life updates.
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(20/10/2023)
They said true artist should have the determination to die for creating their work. I always romanticize such martyrdom idea and wish that my life can end in drawing. But the recent experience gives me new perspective to this idea. Art is not only the end of artists, but also the way an artist lives. There's no death without life. Drawing is not a suicidal activity. I don't have to drain every bit of life force in drawing so I can claim that I am an artist. The way I live is art. I should embrace living for a little bit more.
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