Do you think this wine will explode if we chill it in the freezer?”

I can’t wrap my head around this. I’ve been crying for hours.

9 dead and 27 injured. A guy I went to high school with. A guy I shared a marching band field with. A guy I used to party with, and smoke weed with killed all those people. Hurt all those people. And tried to hurt more. Among his victims was a girl. A girl I shared a marching band field with. A girl I used to talk on the phone with for hours everyday. A girl I used to kiss. A girl I remember holding in my arms. A girl who used to cry to me until 4am, telling me all of her secrets. A girl I shared a bed with at band camp. A girl I used to hold hands with. A girl I used to love, and she loved me; for what we both knew of love to be at such a young age. She was afraid to come out, and we kept our relationship a secret. But it’s all coming back. The memory of her. The memory of us. It’s all coming back now. I’m so so sorry Megan. I’m so sorry that this happened to you. That your own brother, someone who was supposed to protect you. Someone who was supposed to love you. Someone you’ve known for your entire life, could do this to you. Not you. You never deserved this. You deserved to live a long and full life. You deserved to fall in love, get your heart broken, and fall in love again. You deserved to see the world. Every island where the sun shines. You deserved to get married. You deserved to not only graduate college but to start your career. You deserved to start a family. You deserved everything and more that this life had to offer. You deserved to smile, to laugh, and mostly; live. You deserved to live. You, your boyfriend, and the 7 other dead victims deserved to live. Fuck you Connor Betts. Fuck you for everything you put me through. Fuck you for robbing me in high school, you piece of shit. Fuck you for putting out a hit list in high school and threatening MULTIPLE women who turned you down. Fuck you for writing about RAPING and DECAPITATING the people on your hit list. Fuck the Bellbrook PD for not telling the TRUTH about the terrorist peace of shit and what he really did. Saying that he had no priors and a clean record. Fuck ANYONE who says that he was a “good kid”. Fuck Bellbrook High School for not doing enough to protect us from him against his threats. Not informing the media or organizing ONE assembly surrounding the events. Fuck Bellbrook High School for not doing enough for the mental state of its students. Fuck ANYONE and EVERYTHING that had time to stop him before he became this and never tried to. I’m so fucking heartbroken, I’m so fucking sad. This just doesn’t make any sense. And I can’t stop crying over Megan. I’m so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so so sorry Megan. No matter what I say, it could never be enough. I can only be sorry.

OREGON DISTRICT SHOOTING DAYTON, OHIO 1:07AM 08/04/2019

I remember the day my dad angrily sent me back to where i was coming from all because i came back late at night.

My mom insisted on following me to stay out all night not becos she was cool with what i did but becos she couldn't watch her 9months suffer! #elpaso

Appreciate your Mothers!

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