Possible things people might say after reading this or think: let me clear this up

But what if I apologize?

Well I'll appreciate the apology but it doesn't mean I will forgive / have to forgive or that I will / have to forget. Sorry. Im not taking you back. My forgiveness isn't earned by an apology. Its a step in the right direction but usually when I break things off myself its over a lot of piled on shit or something MAJOR like abuse. An apology wont cut it. So lets keep our distance from eachother thank you.

But grudges are bad to keep you have to forgive / Forgiving is forgiving yourself.

I find both of these very invalidating takes that has been ingrained in our society to force us to push down our emotions and hurt to be "the bigger person" which usually results in us feeling wronged, ashamed, bitter, or empty without release. rather than helpful advice I always find this insulting and it can be damaging for some peoples mental health because its not one size fits all advice. so with all due respect please don't come @ me with this. Its not as helpful as you may think, not for me and not for a lot of my friends, sorry. And I dont see someone else hurting me as anything I have to forgive myself for. I don't even see in any world how that one makes sense unless you literally are blaming yourself.

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If I come to you about an issue please for the love of all that is unholy and holy. Do not come @ me with - You should pray - Well you should join xx religion - God has a plan / trust in god

This isn't helpful its not comforting it just feels like a religion being forced on me which I really don't need after I was already forced into one most my life. Please and thank you And one really bad thing I have heard when I was having a panic attack over my brother being in the hospital and my fear he might die years ago: - You should get over it like I did - Just cry and move on This is in no way shape or form is helpful its insulting, rude, callous and comes off as bitter, cold and uncaring. If you say this kind of shit to me im breaking off the friendship the

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1. If you walk out of my life Im not going to hold onto you. Silently unfriending or not taking me serious when I warn you im not going to be some backburner backup friend you come to when whatever you are leaving me for falls through. I'm not the type to beg and plead for a friend to stay. I do my best while we're friends and if my best isn't good enough you are welcome to the door because 90% of the time i end up bending over backwards for people.2. I don't talk shit about you, we stop being friends? thats fine. But if you try to go public with rumors and cry and whine or ruin my friendship with other friends. I will go public with the proof I have against you simple as that. I will defend myself im not going to be a doormat. 3. If you leave my life, thats it. we're done. You're dead to me and I don't want to see you again. Simple as that I cut all emotional ties if you burn bridges, you wont be able to rebuild that bridge. 4. I can go months or years not talking to you because of busy lives or whatever, but when we do talk again it'll be like no time has passed. I still will love you all the same and be your loyal friend by your side. 5. I abhor misunderstandings. If you come at me with accusations, getting angry, treating me like dirt, without ever speaking to me to try to clear it up prior (especially if its over some dumb shit like social media). I will write you off then and there as a toxic friend. Im fine with assumptions out of anxiety thats not my problem but if you always assume the worst of me and then make it effect how you treat me without ever discussing it and try to villainize me. GFYS. 6. If you constantly shit talk my friends GFYS If you constantly shit talk my family GFYS If you constantly shit talk my fiance GFYS You can criticize or express concern for me over the people in my life but if you constantly talk bad about them to me every single chance you get and insult me over being friends with them as "stupid" infantilizing me or try to pressure me to leave them. GFYS 7. If you put me down for my kinks or sexuality or infantilize me for them or try to tell me how MY sexuality works Go royally FYS If you feel differently about any of this, thats fine. Im not the friend for you and thats okay. we can still be mutuals or share content between us. Just dont message me, keep it as just people who are in the same fandom and happen to share interests.

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1. If you walk out of my life Im not going to hold onto you. Silently unfriending or not taking me serious when I warn you im not going to be some backburner backup friend you come to when whatever you are leaving me for falls through. I'm not the type to beg and plead for a friend to stay. I do my best while we're friends and if my best isn't good enough you are welcome to the door because 90% of the time i end up bending over backwards for people.2. I don't talk shit about you, we stop being friends? thats fine. But if you try to go public with rumors and cry and whine or ruin my friendship with other friends. I will go public with the proof I have against you simple as that. I will defend myself im not going to be a doormat. 3. If you leave my life, thats it. we're done. You're dead to me and I don't want to see you again. Simple as that I cut all emotional ties if you burn bridges, you wont be able to rebuild that bridge. 4. I can go months or years not talking to you because of busy lives or whatever, but when we do talk again it'll be like no time has passed. I still will love you all the same and be your loyal friend by your side. 5. I abhor misunderstandings. If you come at me with accusations, getting angry, treating me like dirt, without ever speaking to me to try to clear it up prior (especially if its over some dumb shit like social media). I will write you off then and there as a toxic friend. Im fine with assumptions out of anxiety thats not my problem but if you always assume the worst of me and then make it effect how you treat me without ever discussing it and try to villainize me. GFYS. 6. If you constantly shit talk my friends GFYS If you constantly shit talk my family GFYS If you constantly shit talk my fiance GFYS You can criticize or express concern for me over the people in my life but if you constantly talk bad about them to me every single chance you get and insult me over being friends with them as "stupid" infantilizing me or try to pressure me to leave them. GFYS 7. If you put me down for my kinks or sexuality or infantilize me for them or try to tell me how MY sexuality works Go royally FYS If you feel differently about any of this, thats fine. Im not the friend for you and thats okay. we can still be mutuals or share content between us. Just dont message me, keep it as just people who are in the same fandom and happen to share interests.

Answering a few asks here from my main rather than on a main

Q: Do you like spawn or Ascended Astarion better? A: I'm Neutral on what path other people take and from a romantic stand point I enjoy both equally but from a DA / SA victim / survivor standpoint I prefer Ascended personally because giving him power is cathartic for me. Q: Whats your sexuality? A: Asexual, Repulsed Asexual to be specific also known as Apothisexual Q: Do you play anything else except BG3? A: I used to but currently BG3 is my hyperfixation. I used to be hyperfixated on sims 4 before that and MP horror games. Q: Have you romanced anyone else? A: Sort of? I have some characters in the underdark with Gale or Wyll but its dual character runs where I launched the game twice to make a 2nd character so at the same time im still romancing Astarion. Currently im preoccupied with my Shadowheart turned Tav run.