im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

im not hungry im just bored.

HELP so real

This is good to know!! I also wondered how people don't get the munchies when they smoke, I will have to try this next time!

Super jealous of the people that lose weight when they start smoking 🍃

Everytime I smoke I get the worst munchies ever! I’ve learned tho, that if I eat a little bit of food or get a little bit of sugar in my system before I smoke, I don’t get the munchies so I need to keep that in mind!

Day 12

What do you normally eat?

♡ it depends on the day I think, it could be nothing or it could be yougurt or vegetables like cucumbers or peppers. Or just candy

I post this at 5 a.m…

Day 11:

Your favourite thinspo blog and why

♡ This one is hard because like, there's not a lot of easy to find ana meme blogs or fantasies. A lot of blogs are just diaries, including mine. So I dunno if I have a fave, and if anyone has any good ana meme pages they recommend, lemme know

16.6 BMI let's fucking go!!!

Day 10:

What is the hardest thing you gave up during this weight loss?

♡ Im not sure... I think the respect of people maybe.

It's hard for me not to please people, and having a very obvious eating disorder... Being honest with people about how I feel about my body, about how it's hard to eat and hard to want to get better. People never want to hear that, so you break the hearts of the people who love you, and lose the respect of them. And it's deserved but also... So hard to not let the ana control you.

Day 9

Did people ever make comments about your weight in a negative way?

♡ Yeah a couple times, even just last week at work a customer told me I should eat more because my arms are so small, which made me kind sad... I don't like making people worried. My whole life I've always had people asking if I ate enough, asking why I'm small, telling me I'm tiny. Which is so validating, but when it's in a rude way it still hurts

Day 8

Your work out routine

♡ Honestly I don't really have a work out routine. I walk at least 10,000 steps a day, and I used to work out in my early ED days, but because I'm taking hormones it builds muscles so fast, and I didn't want muscles, sometimes I do 500cal burn cardio videos, but, I haven't needed too in awhile

Just found out about the A24 paper size body check, that's so validating

r u still hungry?

thinspo

Fear food is so annoying because like, I be getting scared when someone brings out lasagna, bro this is my only meal in two days... Does it really have to be 1800 calories?!

Day 7

Do you parents know you're trying to lose weight? Do they care?

♡ My mom knows, technically both my parents know, but, my Dad can't remember things about me, so he's forgotten about my ED. My mom does care, she has told me a couple times that she wants to put me in a facility, it makes me feel guilty that she's so worried.

I want to be someone's skinny little trailer park cigarette bunny, together for life

DAY 6:

Do you binge? If so, explain why you think you do.

♡ I do binge, it's nothing crazy, but itll be like, a whole bowl of mac n cheese, or a whole bag of chips. Just more than I intended to eat. I would consider that bingeing for myself. I think weed is partly to blame, I get high a lot, and I get hungry because of it. The other part is that I think I've scared myself into thinking I will never encounter food again, my body thinks that if Im eating it'll be the last time for awhile. I've been lucky enough to stay between 99-105 lbs though, despite bingeing. I know I would get to my goal If I could stop