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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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12/04/2019

Błąkałam się

Bolało mnie

Że jak to jest

Że nic nie widzę

Otworzyłam drzwi

I stałeś Ty

I stało się jasne to czego nie było

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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13/04/2019

Nie chce być segregatorem

Być tylko nim po życiu

Po latach zebranym w całość

Bo za życia byłam chaosem nie do uporządkowania

Chce być więcej

Niż fotografie i filmy na których jestem radosna

Chce kochać się w windach utkniętych i w łóżkach nietkniętych

Nie chce uciekać, ale być tam gdzie spotykają się uciekinierzy

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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Nie mogę przywołać co robiliśmy wczoraj w nocy

czy przyciskałeś mnie mocno,

a ja zdążyłam się podniecić?

myślałam jak piekną masz twarz?

czy o obsesji, którą czuję, gdy Cię nie ma?

chciałabym wszystko pamiętać

żeby

jak juz zapomnę

móc z otwartymi oczami

idąc

tęsknić za Tobą

może nawet popłakać

i mam nadzieję

że będziesz mnie wtedy trzymał za rękę

w drodze do kawiarni, która lubimy

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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a.r.t.

jeśli ruszę głową

i ten bezsens i cierpienie i te wszystkie plamy

co mi zasłaniają myślenie

przemienię w sztukę

przecież wszystko teraz może być sztuką

mój bałagan też

to może to jest plan

tak oto powstało teraz coś, co możemy nazwać poezją

bez natchnienia

bez wytchnienia, bo nie mogę go znaleźć

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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Life happens when you don’t look

When you don’t spoil yourself with moments of waiting

Knowing much bigger things surround you

Than the ones you were expecting to be

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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happy a.t.d.

Happy all the days

When you are with me and when you are not

When I shout and you shout back

When I smell your neck and it’s home

When you run fingers through my hair

And it feels better than hairdresser washing my hair

With me by your side you are capable of anything

With you at mine I can do everything

It’s just the matter of time

When we both realize

The love we are waiting for

It’s already here

Happy 21, my love M.

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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~

I’m like most of plants

I will survive on my own somehow

Just shorter

Than if you watered me

But you need a bucket

And gloves to hold it

And perfect moment

And perfect temperature of water

Instead of just let me grow

With your one drop

It would be enough if you could

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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painpoem

All she wanted was to be loved

With no fear and boundaries

With crossroads on which they can both choose which way is better to go

All I knew was how to be in love

All these sleepless nights and desired dreams

Facing cruelty of someone else’s actions

And keep on waiting until there is a day

Day would never come

And I knew it from the start

But hopeless thoughts rode me through months

With covered eyes

Because all I could see before was you

And all I could after

Was

Nothing

No more of passionate perspectives

We all dying alone

And I thought I have power to do it different.

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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***

Knowing this is the best day you can get

And the best place you can be at

You should keep jumping in one place and don’t stop

Until you know is all

And then jump again and forget all the truth you knew

Cause it was only truth when you wanted it to be

Now just keep jumping and keep

Keep it for yourself

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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sex

It was us in the forest

You took my hand and walked me through the tall trees

And on one of them you told me without words to lean

And then you pushed and pushed and it was beautiful

Like I’ve never made love

-cause it was making our love-

Before.

And please, someone help me

Cause when I look into your eyes

I’m blind

And when I don’t

I’m lost.

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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postcard

You can see is as a planet

As a cirle

Or plate

Whatever you see it as

I want to be there with you

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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Life happens when you don’t look

When you don’t spoil yourself with moments of waiting

Knowing that much bigger things surround you

Than the ones you expected

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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Sun is up

I’m not down

Cause last night

You dropped your bike by the street

To see me quicker than I would see you

In my sleep

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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litteral

If you asked me about my favorite island

I would say it’s you

About mountain

It’s you

About best coffee place

I know it gets boring but

Still you

Don’t ask me about my hidden cave

Where I would slowly fade away

The moment you are gone

There is no me

Because everything I ever was

Now it’s upside down

Everything I told myself

Can be thrown away with million of other thoughts

As now, I’m the weakest person and I always wanted someone to make me so weak and strong at the same time.

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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Let love in

And when you do

Your stomach will hurt

Your brain falls apart

Legs can't walk

And headaches come more often.

But it's all for love

Like Bryan Adams sings.

***He pulls me closer

And I smelled his sweat

That never smells bad.

Camera in my head recorded him from the back

And thanks Zeus

That was good quality

So I can now see his goosebumps when I press play. ***

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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time machine

Time machine took me away

You took the next one

To catch me on the road

Where I feel like home

Even when I'm not, I'm there

And your senses lead you here

and I refuse cause I don't see it coming

That one day

You'll lead me through the snow

I won't realize it, I know

That you are the silence and peace I should have known before

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anastazjabeza · 5 years

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Ring in Venice

Sometimes you own things

and other times things own you

So much

You can't leave place without knowing

That that moment and that thing

Was yours

From that second

And in past it was yours

Given to you by your grandmother and that was you.

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