I cannot express how jarring it was after being raised by a "Porn Addiction Coach" to get into a relationship with a woman and come face to face with the fact that she did actually want me to sexually desire her.
Like, in Evangelical Purity Culture, male desire was basically poison. It was a threat. It was this constant temptation that would destroy everything. And even after leaving, in the sort of queer, feminist spaces i spend most of my time in that wasn't something that pretty much anyone was spending time actively dissuading me from feeling.
But my desire is good. It's not something that I'm being accepted in spite of. It's a positive thing. It's a bonus. Not even just vanilla stuff, all the stuff I'd convinced myself were these weird terrible desires that were shameful to have.
It honestly took me over a decade to fully accept that. To stop dissociating during sex and confront that I was, in fact, being a massive perv and that was fantastic and preferable and that I could accept that into my self-image without shame or self hatred.
But it's important to do. It's important to leave relationships that don't welcome that part of you. To know that your sexuality is valuable and valid and worth owning and celebrating. Because the alternative is just...not being. Either existing as yourself and repressing the part of your identity that is sexual or allowing that sexuality to exist but turning off your self while it does.
ohshc is the funniest found family of all time because it's really a bunch of wealthy teens + one non-wealthy teen running a host club out of their school's music room for the following reasons:
a hopeless romantic who really does want to make the girls who come to the club happy, but is also completely fucking oblivious to his own romantic feelings
a guy who is literally only in it for the money and the networking
a set of twins who are in it for the lolz (and to find someone who appreciates them as individuals)
a former karate champion who's there because he gets free cake
a guy who never talks and is only here to hang out with the karate champion
a girl who's there because of indentured servitude and everyone likes her in a way that makes them queer.
oh and also there's a random girl who does not go to their school but declared herself their manager and lives under the floorboards
and their nextdoor neighbor is an occultist who's allergic to the sun and carries a cat puppet
Throwback thursday to when I was like 12 and I was putting out new writing DAILY...... Like entire Chapters of my then-current wips just, over an afternoon. What the fuck was I on
Btw, just because there is already an AU where the DCA is [thing] or already uses [concept] doesn't mean you can't use those ideas and do it your way.
For example: if you wanted to make an AU where the DCA is..... a shape shifting alien, but don't do it because "there already is a shapeshifter alien AU", you should do your AU anyways.
Just don't copy paste others entire thing, use your own ideas and interests. Your AU is gonna be yours and theirs is gonna be theirs.
We have many virus, roommates and (thanks to mermay) mermaid AUs, why can't we have many of the others different concepts if we want to?
I don’t know which author needs to hear this right now but even if you never update your wip i would never regret reading it a time of joy is never wasted
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