I’m Not Shy... (The B Side) [October 31, 2021]

- At Ren and Grace’s Halloween Party -

Aly returns beside Jasper after taking a little trip to get drinks, having grabbed one of Jasper’s favorites for her, along with something that he Had To Try, according to Grace, a warm curiosity moving through him as he takes in what was supposed to be the Signature cocktail for the party, resting a kiss on the side of Jasper’s head, rather than her cheek, so as to not smudge her makeup, as he hands her the drink, before a curiosity alights in his eyes as he watches Jeyna excuse herself and head off to...A soft amusement moving through him as he watches her approach Richard, as just the song comes on. “Did she plan that?” He asks, a warm curiosity moving through his tone, a softly bright twinkle in his eyes at the thought, feeling like it was just Something that Jeyna might do, to make a Moment.

A playfulness sparkles in Aly’s eyes as he walks hand and hand with Tai past whomever towards the bouncer, sliding his own ID out of his wallet before walking deeper inside the club with Tai, the energy pulsing around him making him feel...alive as he curiously wonders where Grace and Lizzie might be but...Tai’s words drawing him in as a warm mischief sparks within his eyes. “It is,” he warmly murmurs back, a breath away from her ear, feeling like this was definitely one of those nights that required some celebration...

I’m In Miami Bitch [September 17, 2021]

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Isaac takes a deep drag from his cigarette as he stands outside of the nightclub, his eyes moving over the shots of George and….mmmphLuca that were floating around the internet, gritting his teeth a bit as he takes in some of the comments, why the fuck were people Happy about this shit? One in Particular grinding through the back of his mind as he focuses in on the inhalation of smoke, closing his eyes, letting it sit in his lungs before exhaling…..until the sound of his name snaps him from the closest thing to fucking peace he could achieve in the moment. Opening his eyes, to see…Tai? His brain registering the name first as he takes her in, before seeing…well, she moved fast, a voice in the back of his brain chimes in as he takes in the hottie before him, his gaze moving over him for a beat, the way his shirt was tight against his chest, mm, could he blame her really? “The one, the only,” he offers out in confirmation in his deep tone, before the thought of Her being in Miami of all places registers as…fucking random, from what he last knew of what she was doing, a flicker of curiosity moving through him. “What are you doing here?”

“Я люблю тебе, Альоше.”

The words not registering as quite...right in the moment, there, on the ice, with Tai and A.J., feeling like it wasn’t quite coming from either of them, moving to turn his head towards them before, realizing they were no longer there, the world, the moment, slowly fading away before...

Aly slowly opens his eyes as he feels the dream slowly subside away, as he feels his consciousness return as he comes back into his body, the waking world, an almost sense of...loss, moving through him, as he softly, blearily, blinks before realizing that крапля дощу was there beside him, looking almost...frightened? Almost like a deer in the headlights..A soft strike moving through him as he wraps his arms around him, just hoping that would help, whatever was going through his mind right now before...

“Я люблю тебе, Альоше.”

It registers, then and there as he pauses for a moment, to draw back, a breath away from крапля дощу as he...feels an understanding move through him, strike him, somewhere deep in his core, his gaze gently searching Rainn’s, taking in the little details, the little few golden flecks in the corner of his right eye, the...gently, moving his fingers through his hair. “Why do you look so scared?” He lowly, softly breathes out, not wanting him to feel...like that, because of him, of all people, was he afraid that he didn’t...love him? The realization echoing in the chambers of his thoughts before...a warm, easy smile blossoms onto his lips, as the words move from him, naturally sprouting into existence as he takes him in, this beautiful, wonderful, complex, gentle soul who had come into his life, brightened it, in so many ways, it not even being a question, why was he so afraid? Resting his forehead against Rainn’s as he rests a gentle flutter of a kiss on the bridge of his nose, “Я теж люблю тебе, Крапля дощу,” before feeling that soft, stirring of affection in the pit of his stomach but also the...weight of the reality of it all, and just...how lucky he was, to be here, in this moment, right now, “Я радий, що дожив до вас,“ he breathes out as a near whisper, his fingers loosely, gently tangling in Rainn’s curls, the words mostly to himself, not even sure if Rainn would know them anyway, as he looks at him with soft wonder, just... “Never be afraid with me, though. To speak what feels true to you, to Feel, as you are, okay? Я люблю тебе за тебе,” he feels the need to remind, remembering how fearful he looked before, his smile softly warming, before...an easy chuckle moves from him as he realizes he had spoken the last words in Ukranian... “I Love You For You,” he translates, before a bit of teasing playfulness alights in his eyes, “and for the way you say...ебать,” he casually drops, even as a little spark twinkles in his eyes as he floats in the final word, the edges of his lips teasingly dancing upwards, knowing how that amused Raindrop, a light, warm chuckle moving from him at the memory of how Shocked Rainn had been that he Swore way back when, before moving to draw him into a kiss, a softly sensual, affection laced through it, feeling...good, warm...кохана.

Oops, Baby. [March 6, 2021]

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Rainn releases a…deep fucking breath as he feels the…familiar panic begin to swell in his chest, his heart beating like…a fucking drum in some school marching band or some shit like…feeling the urge to just leave and never look back and just…disappear, cross through the back of his mind even as he tries to just…take a deep breath, take a deep breath, re-center, shit wasn’t like…didn’t have to take the nuclear option, or whatever, even as he feels the thoughts bubble around the core of his mind that just like…it was S Word, Aly wasn’t going to Like it, he’s going to Hate It, and You, also cutting through, probing for a few beats, even as he tries to tell that whole thing to Shut Up, Sit its ass the hell down, it was So Fucking Dramatic, really, sheesh, he tries to tell himself as he tries to slow his heartbeat down…just…a…bit…yeah, thinking about what Jess said and just…moving to place his headphones and laptop just…on the coffee table as he makes his way into the bedroom, remembering the deep breaths…and being on his zen shit…yeah, and not being such…a fucking drama queen…with some of his thoughts, like…clutching his phone tight as hell, feeling his palms sweaty, something about Spaghetti, the fucking…Eminem song or whatever the hell it was of all things coming to him as he just…moves into the bed beside Aly as he just…gently moves his fingers through his hair, a deep, warm, soft feeling moving through him in spite of his…damn heart feeling like it was running a mile a minute and his body feeling like it was starting on the road to panic town…as he just…closes his eyes, loads the gun and pulls the trigger, the words fumbling out of his mouth as he tries to…get them Right, but knowing it probs sounded like a Trainwreck, shit, but just…whispering them out in a soft breath, “Я люблю тебе, Альоше.”

Aly gives a warm, emphatic round of applause as Tai finishes her show, a bright grin naturally forming on his lips before...Oh, moving to quickly catch Camay, he remembers, Camay, Jackson’s friend, giving Tai an encouraging little smile as he watches Jackson skate over to her, hoping that things would go well for her, before...his gaze flickering briefly towards where Drip Drop and Jano were, a...momentary twitch passing onto his lips as he wonders if he should check on him, before he hears Camay’s words, giving a playful little bow, the best he could, while still keeping a hold of her to help steady her, “Happy to be of service,” he replies, in his rich, warm, lightly-accented tone, before taking in her request, catching sight of Lex scrolling through what he was sure were some amazing as all hell action shots, able to keep up with Tai in a way that only he could, though he was sure Ros did one hell of a job with the video, too... “Go with Kai, and make sure Rainn is okay?” Aly requests of Lex, getting the nod of affirmation, feeling a bit of relief at that, but also wanting to help Camay out, and damn if a warm drink didn’t sound good right about now, the easy warm grin naturally returning to his lips. “To the other side we go,” he affirms, moving to offer his arm out for Camay to link with his, if she wanted,  taking care to help steady her the best that he could as they make their way towards the little stand, even as a little bit of...worry bubbles in the back of his mind, even as...he was sure if Rain Drop wasn’t feeling included, if anyone Could make him feel that way, it was Kaila, and...hey, Lex was there for moral support, he offers to himself with a little internal spark of amusement, the corner of his lips tugging upwards, as he gives them all a little wave as he heads with Camay off the ice and towards the stand, The Other Side, that beckoned them...

Rainn vs. Heterosexuality [February 17, 2021]

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Rainn makes his way back to the…bench on the side of the rink, kinda…taking a breath as he focuses in on the song Zip had sent him, I got your bitch singing like lalala, even as he feels his eyes naturally gravitate towards…not a big deal, Rainn reminds himself, as he takes another small breath, focus on what You can control, and like…you’re being…Irrational, and even if you Aren’t like…it’s all chill, it’s all chill, it’s all chill, he repeats on a loop through his mind like cycling a tape deck, lalalalaaaaa, releasing the breath before he feels…barely, through the echo chamber of his own thoughts and BBNo$ he had gotten sucked into…the shoulder nudge, looking to see the glasses guy who had…lost his voice? From something? Trying to remember what his girlfriend had Said, but having…not really having been able to pay attention when he was just…trying to not come off as a fucking loser meeting everyone…looking at him with a grin, all of a sudden feeling Self Conscious and Self Aware as he crashes back from his thoughts back into being a corporeal human with a body who could be Perceived by others in this world, gross…

Aly lets out a warm chuckle as he takes in the video Cee had sent him, it just amusing him in the moment as he fires off a quick text back, noo, that wasn’t Him, even though he totally knew it was so Him and was Spot On, it just making it all the more amusing, running his fingers through his soft brown curls as he absentmindedly flicks between a few different apps, relaxing back into the couch as he reaches to take a sip of...was it his third cup of coffee of the day? Hm, hm...one, two, yeah, third, but life was short, and coffee? Incredible, and pourquoi vous limiter? The words coming back to him in a breathy, hushed velvet wisp of a memory even as he has to chuckle, an affectionately self-questioning smile warming his lips, were the only bits and pieces of French he knew for the purposes of justifying drinking unholy amounts of coffee, oui? He internally self-chides with an affectionately playful twinge, c’est la vie,  he adds as That comes back to him in the moment as well, see, there was more there than coffee justification, though was...the thought train being cut short as he feels the weight on the couch beside him, the corners of his lips perking upwards as Крапля дощу (rain drop) joins him, a warm chuckle moving through him that alights his features at the smooth, so smooth move, a half-grin perking onto his lips as he thinks of something just right to say back to play into the whole thing before...he feels the sudden shift and retraction and just...subtle shift of everything as he...a pang moving through him and just...moves his arms around Rainn to help...center him, feeling like that was what he needed right now, having a sense, but also...hoping it was what he needed right now, that it was...Something, a weighty feeling moving through his chest even as he just holds him, always wishing he could do More, but...moving to place a kiss on the top of his head. “Ебать...” He warmly, lowly murmurs, with a honey-dipped teasing playfulness sparkling through it, easily lacing in the word in Ukranian, even as a playful mischief sparkles in his deep blue eyes, knowing it always amused him when he swore, especially in Ukranian, for whatever reason, but милий як пекло, it was, ебать милий як пекло (fucking cute as hell), if you will, knowing that was the right Choice to fully go for It with a good old ебать as he hears that snort of amusement come from him, the little smile sparking upwards on the edge off his lips, aw, a little bit of amusement and endearment swirling through him at Крапля дощу (rain drop) in the moment and just at the whole...aw, an easy, warm smile naturally forming on his lips moving to give him a few more kisses for good measure, and how could he Not? Він був чимось особливим, the thought affectionately flickers through him before it’s displaced by a swirl of curiosity at who Rainn was calling, figuring if he was making the call with him there, he wanted him there, the thought making him...aw, the corners of his lips naturally, softly perking upwards at it, even as a subtle warm spark of energy moves through him at just...seeing what was next to come and who he was meeting, ready to roll with it and see what Крапля дощу (rain drop) had in store for him, just finding it pretty damn cool to have the chance at all.

JadaRainn Bonding Time [January 29, 2021]

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Rainn gives everything a quick once over as he stands back in the kitchen, feeling…fucking exhausted, honestly, like he wanted to just fucking crawl into bed, but wanting to like do a little something for Aly and also make sure it all looked good for Jada, too, not like it was…that hard, Aly was good at keeping shit clean, wasn’t that much to do, he was just bad at cleaning, he could say that, right? It was just fact, he was bad at cleaning and it was draining, but…it was something he could control and take care of and should do, he reminds himself, having been good at sticking to the schedule he made for himself and shit but…seeing the smile on Aly’s face at the whole thing, was worth it, so worth it, god, he was so gay, haha…a little crooked half smile cocking onto his lips as he feels his heart do the whole ass gay thing as he folds his arms around himself in the oversized tye dye ass sweatshirt he had found at the thrift store, hoping he didn’t look Too hipster scum adjacent or like Too different from the Tarje days, haha…feeling that self-awareness that made him feel kinda gross in his own skin creep into the edges of his consciousness as he just…releases a breath, refocus, refocus, can’t Change that shit about you, focus on what you Can change, like Jada cares about That, he reminds himself, before he sees the text from Jess about the twizzlers and shit, and…hell yeah, the half-smile twitching a bit back onto his lips as he plans on dropping by with some pick me up shit after the hang with Jada, moving to text Jess back before making his way out of the kitchen and sliiiiiiding onto the couch, all casual like, doing the whole cheesy ass 90s sitcom boyfriend kinda thing with the stretch and yawn into the arm around the shoulderrrr but make it Ironic and Self aware, yeah, casual as hell, why was he in the kitchen? Oh, just making some coffee, will be done soon, he mentally rehearses for the Why he had been checking on the kitchen, to not give away the surprise, hoping he didn’t look…too comical being the one doing the arm wrap thing, a flash of self-consciousness moving through him again as he…kinda casually moves his arm off of Aly, not wanting to like…kind wanting to like…not wanting Jada to like, judge him or like…focusing instead on his Phone and her contact info as he just like…takes a deep breath, trying to let the kinda…anxiousness about making this whole friend date Good…subside, and just like…be, before he feels Aly’s arms move around him, his eyes naturally closing as he just…takes another breath, moving in closer to him and resting his head on his chest, as he just…gives a small swallow, taking a breath in through his nostrils as he reminds himself of how cool it was, to get to do this with Jada, to have her meet Aly, for real, the part that was like…the Real Shit, and not like…the s-word anxious shit that like…still wasn’t Gone, that was like…the most frustrating thing sometimes, that shit didn’t just like…go away…but it was like…how you deal with it, or whatever, just…yeah, taking another little breath and just…feeling like that jolt of !!! had just like…calmed the fuck down a little, and like…wanting to focus on the Good, and having fun, he deserved, that, and so did Jada, yeah…and he really wanted Aly to meet her…moving to press the facetime button as he hears the ring…

A warm, easy smile crosses Aly’s lips as catches the nod, a soft laugh of his own naturally coming from him as he feels pulled in towards Ros, a spark of curiosity moving through him at the options, and just what Dealer’s Choice might be, before taking in Tai’s question as he hears it move in between the space between her and himself where Ros was, a bit drowned out by the sound of the music echoing in the background...a warm light sparkling in his eyes as he looks at Tai. “On special occasions, or with friends, and if there ever was a special occasion, this is It, and friends to do it with, it’s You,” he replies, the smile warming and radiating on his lips, before giving Ros a light nudge with his shoulder, “and You,” he reminds as well, a naturally easy playfulness moving through him, feeling a Truth to it, even though they had known each other such a short time, but anyone who was this special to Tai was special to him, before looking at Tai with a warmth, but also a flicker of energy, excited for what the night held. “Though down for any and all of the above tonight,” he lets her know, moving to give Ros a little shoulder nudge and watching him pass it on, causing a glimmer of delight to move onto the edges of his lips as Ros Got It, черт возьми (hell yeah).

New Year Wazza! [December 31, 2019]

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Ros’s attention flies away from what Tai and Aly Not A.J. were talking about as he hears Roe mention that she had finally tracked down the wild Hollis, hearing the bemused chuckle from Avis as he becomes her accomplice in the whole thing, Godspeed to them, as a half-grin slides up his lips, giving them the Signature Salute, before moving to place his arms around both of their shoulders, feeling very aesthetically Chef’s Kiss ✨ Mwah, about all of their outfits that night, but also rather parched, and wasn’t this the bar that had those drinks that came in lightbulbs? Mmm, but also hearing a total banger begin to play through the club sound system, bopping his head back and forth in consideration for a few beats before deciding…he would place fate in Tai’s hands…. “Drinks, Dancing, or Dealer’s Choice first…?” He floats out to her as he playfully sways with the two of them.

Were You Wrong? [January 7, 2021]

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Alyosha’s lips curl like a soft half-crescent smile as he feels the gentle, delicate sensations through his loose honey-brown curls, the soft rise and fall of breathing beside him, as he intently takes in the entire story, the details of it, absorbing it without yet processing it yet to just Listen, in full, to Everything, Everything...a small, nearly audible breath moving from his lips as he...wordlessly envelops Rainn in a tight, consuming hug