Happy lesbian visibility week to every lesbian with schizophrenia! Happy lesbian visibility week to every lesbian with schizoaffective disorder! Happy lesbian visibility week to every lesbian with schizoid personality disorder! Happy lesbian visibility week to every lesbian with schizotypal personality disorder! Happy lesbian visibility week to every lesbian with paranoid personality disorder! Happy lesbian visibility week to every lesbian with delusional disorder! Happy lesbian visibility week to every lesbian who has ever experienced psychosis!

I love you all, happy visibility week! 🧡🤍🩷

Hearing people throw around the words "delusional" and "delulu" so often when they clearly don't know what it means is so silly to me at this point, but also a little frustrating.

Like I heard someone in a video say "she's the worst type of delulu, where she actually is in a different reality" while describing someone being cocky and overconfident.

As a reminder, delusional means someone is holding a belief or altered reality that is persistently held despite evidence or agreement to the contrary, generally in reference to a mental disorder. Delusions are typically beliefs that exist outside of objective or common reality (so not something subjective like "this art is good"). It is often unshakeable, people can't be talked out of their strongly held belief even if it is completely nonsensical. They typically cause a disturbance to your life, unlike a spirituality or religion that you enjoy.

So someone saying "I'm the most attractive and most talented person in this room" might be annoying, but it is that person's subjective belief. It's your subjective belief that they are not, but neither is right or wrong because it is subjective.

Having a crush on a celebrity and wanting to marry them and imagining that happening is a conscious choice, it's a daydream. Meanwhile delusions are not conscious choices, it is a symptom a person has whether they want it or not.

It's important to uphold the true meaning of this word, because it describes a mental condition that impacts many people. Having the words definition change by making it mean other things does harm us. If we want to open up to a friend about a serious mental problem in our lives by saying "I have delusions", that person should know the gravity of that, and not think it's some fun quirky personality trait that everyone has.

Also the way people misuse the word tends to be in a negative or insulting way, aimed at the delusional person. But delusions dont indicate anything about the delusional persons personality and morals. The delusions are caused by a mental health problem and not chosen by the person. This is important to remember when people have strange, mean, self centered, taboo, or scary delusions, it doesn't mean that a person wants to believe that, they can't control it.

So please try and use the words "delusion" and "delusional" correctly, don't give it a cute trendy nickname like "delulu". And try and educate the people around you about the actual meaning of these words, and the impact of misusing them.

Unfortunately, I think stigmatised disorder (personality disorders, psychotic disorders, etc) culture is realising something you experience has a name and finally feeling seen, but you go to google it for more resources and only find people talking about how horrible and morally evil you are for daring to have that symptom you never chose in the first place.

One time, I was talking with a colleague about my studies and how I wanted to go into psychology. I was talking about a specific university that had a lab specifically about schizo disorders and how interesting that was, not mentioning that I myself am on the schizo-spec. She said "urgh, you like scary things don' you ?"

I had to sit there like... "Yeah. Scary things. Sure."

That was a bit of a wake up call : I'm never going to be a normal person to them, even if I'm medicated and taking care of myself.

things i have witnessed non-schizospecs do or say that peeve me

Misuse or appropriation of psychological terms (psychotic, delusional)

“You don’t look schizophrenic, you look normal”

The belief that schizophrenics must live with little to no autonomy due to the perceived nature of the disorder

“I’d rather kill myself than live with this illness”

The idea that we have to be medicated in order to be functioning members of society

Encouraging delusions, or conversely, outright denying them in a way that causes us distress

Confusing schizophrenia with DID

“Did you take your meds” (said condescendingly in response to an odd behavior, not as a reminder)

calling any writing that is bizarre or goes against the grain “schizoposting”

Watching those dramatized schizophrenia simulation videos and thinking wow this is so cool and fun

implying that schizophrenia is just a spiritual awakening (there’s some nuance to this, i might elaborate in another post)

Talking about us in a dehumanizing way (“i want to find a schizophrenic person and study them in a lab”)

Just straight up abusing people who are having a psychotic episode (not so much a peeve as it is something that legit angers me but yeah)

isn't it insane though how schizophrenic people are viewed as violent and dangerous by the majority of society when in reality schizophrenic people are nearly 14 times more likely to be on the receiving end of violence than to be the perpetrators...

ways a pet cat can help you deal with psychosis:

•if you see or hear something and dont know if its real or not, check if youre cat is reacting to it, something loud would make them look at it, someone intruding would startle them

•theyll make sure you get used to hearing random noises throughout the house, you can always check and see if they did it

•if tacticle hallucinations are bugging you, go over and pet your cat, they have such a nice real texture you can focus on

•some cats learn to come and comfort you when you need it most

•if nothing feels real, cuddle up to your cat, you can feel them breathing, feel their heartbeat, maybe feel them purring, thats real right there

•notice how your cat isnt judging you, they dont know or care that you are psychotic, they just see you as their owner and they love you

i love you schizophrenics. i love you schizoaffectives. i love you schizotypals. i love you everyone on the schizophrenia spectrum. i love you psychosis experiencers, i love you addicts, i love you sleep paralysis experiencers, i love you anyone whos had a bad trip, i love you current and past users of medications with hallucinatory side effects, i love you people with depression and/or anxiety with psychotic features, i love you experiencers of hypnagogic and/or hypnopompic hallucinations, i love you spoonies who have hallucinated from medical procedures/drugs administered during medical procedures, i love you sleep deprived students under too much stress, i love you people with a history of trauma, i love you anyone whos hallucinated while sick from high fevers and/or too much cough medicine, i love you people who hear things that aren't there, people who see things that aren't there, people who smell things that aren't there, people who taste things that aren't there, people who feel things that aren't there both inside their body and out, i love you people who experience one type of hallucination, i love you people who experience multiple types of hallucination, i love you people who used to hallucinate but don't anymore, i love you people who currently experience hallucinations, i love you people on medications for their hallucinations i love you people who aren't, i love you everyone and anyone who has ever hallucinated for any reason. thank you so much for your existence on this beautiful earth with me.

I hope black girls with depression have a good day today.

The internet honestly and truly despises schizophrenic people/people with psychosis. They despise our existence. So many “mental health” advocates actively demonize psychosis.

People refuse to listen to us when we tell them not to use “delulu”. They can understand why using mental health terms incorrectly is damaging. They can understand not to say “intrusive thoughts” when they mean impulsive thoughts. They understand why saying “I’m so OCD” when not describing OCD is wrong. They are actively refusing to understand why not to use delulu.

I’ve had people tell me, when describing why not to say delulu, that it’s not a big deal. It’s not a big deal to you. You’re not the one suffering. And even then, you don’t need to personally suffer in order to understand why something is harmful. You should not need to see yourself/someone in your life suffer to have understanding for those who do. Your understanding should not be based on proximity to the self, ESPECIALLY if you consider yourself a mental health advocate.

And if they don’t use “delulu”, then they’ll often describe someone they’re morally opposed/bigoted as delusional. As if being delusional is some sort of moral failure.

Not to mention how if someone so much as mentions their psychosis, they’ll get bombarded with “I’m in your walls” jokes. If someone hears that a person experiences psychosis, they will actively attempt to trigger that person’s psychosis.

They hate us. The internet hates us. I’ve grown up on the internet seeing psychosis demonized my entire life.

I hate this "delulu" shit with a burning passion. Stop watering down our terms. They don't JUST mean "I have a belief that's not true" they're spurred on by psychosis DELUSION IS A MEDICAL TERM STOP USING IT AS SLANG

I was in a server and this guy said their character was delusional and I raised an eyebrow because it just seemed like an obsessive fan character, and then they called that character "delulu" only for me to say "hey that's not really okay" and then they justified it and didn't listen to me AT ALL when I tried to explain why. And then painted ME as the bad guy.

They just said "its a joke about parasocial relationships" and uh. Parasocial relationships?? Arent?? Delusions??? (Not inherently anyway) (everyone involved is also at least 20 so this wasn't some kid doing this)

Every day I want to leave that server more and more I fucking hate the splatoon community I genuinely hate it.

Disclaimer: THIS IS NOT ME TELLING YOU TO GO OFF YOUR MEDS. THIS IS NOT A SIGN TELLING YOU TO GO OFF YOUR MEDS EITHER.

I've been doubting my diagnosis for a bit (reminder, I was diagnosed with Schizotypal Disorder). I did have a psychotic episode, and I do have signs and stuff from my childhood and teenage years telling me it might just be it, BUT.

But maybe it's not enough.

What I have is not enough.

I don't have enough attention issues, cognitive impairments and social skills problems.

And I'm glad and thankful for that, don't think I'm not, but it doesn't make sense. I'm good with people, I have high empathy, I make them laugh and I can make friends, though it exhausts me a great deal.

I don't know. Maybe it doesn't add up.

I have therefore taken a decision. I will stop taking my meds. I'll see what happens and I'll know if my diagnosis is right or wrong that way. I've already started the process, don't worry I'm not going cold turkey on it.

I'll keep you updated.

also hey can we talk about violent psychosis for a sec. cause i really appreciate all the talk surrounding psychosis positivity and stuff but a lot of it is "we're not all violent! sometimes hallucinations can be positive!" like sorry mine are not. im scary psychotic.

im "cant have anything that even remotely could be used as a weapon in the house" psychotic. im "if i miss my meds one day i have to go to the hospital for homicidal and suicidal thoughts that literally aren't my own thoughts but theyre controlling my actions" psychotic. im "im seeing horrors you cant even imagine to the point where i dont exist in the same world as you anymore" psychotic.

im not going to hurt you, i just need help. when im rocking in the corner talking to myself at 3am, remember that i am in a state of terror. im afraid for my life. i either genuinely believe everything is trying to kill me, and i only know one way to deal with it; or something is telling me to be violent or else it will kill me; or i have dissociated so hard that i autopilot myself to violence to try and wake myself up.

some of us are violent, and that's okay, because it has to be, because it's the truth. just get us help.

I wish people with stress induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with substance abuse induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with schizophrenia (and all disorders in that field) a very good night

I wish people with bipolar induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with brain trauma induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with psychosis a very good night

You cannot know the history of schizophrenia as a diagnosis without coming to the conclusion that the fault of the misinformation surrounding schizophrenia and its setback in its research in modern society is a direct result of the laziness of past clinicians.

Negative symptoms used to be the focus of this illness when Kraepelin and Bleuler defined it - Kraepelin thought them to be more important and Bleuler literally defined them as FUNDAMENTAL symptoms.

Then in the 60s and 70s, since hallucinations and delusions were easy to spot and define, they were given more and more prominence in the hopes of "improving diagnostic precision." In real people language, that means they were lazy and wanted a quick checklist to go off of instead of, you know, caring about their patients.

What resulted from this is that now nearly everyone thinks schizophrenia is just hallucinations and delusions. On the medical side of things, the only treatments available for it treat psychotic symptoms, and the majority of the research focuses on them. Which leaves the rest of the debilitating symptoms untreated.

There are corrective adjustments being made to return to the emphasis on negative symptoms, and cognitive symptoms accompany that, but it should have never changed in the first place. Plus, the majority of society isn't adjusting their worldview to align with current perspectives on schizophrenia.

Schizophrenia was historically about the negative symptoms, and it always should have stayed that way. Schizophrenia is not just a "disorder that causes psychosis." It has negative, cognitive, disorganized, and catatonic symptoms as well.

Schizophrenia is a disorder affecting thought, behavior, and emotion, that is accompanied by psychotic features when left untreated.

Stop boiling down illnesses to basic symptoms. Teach and treat them wholistically.

Hi anon, I don't mean to self promo but my blog is focused on stpd and schizospec stuff if you're interested. I also know that @livingzomboy (same thing, If you want me to remove the tag I can) does kind of the same thing as me. Feel free to check and If you want me to talk about something specific, don't be afraid to ask :)

Do you have any recommendations for STPD blogs?

sadly i dont have very many recommendations, as most of the blogs are just normal blogs run by pwSTPD. the one i do know of is @little-stpd-things (apologies if you dont want to be @'d, i can remove you) but if anyone has other recs, please add them in comments or reblogs, it would be greatly appreciated!

I wish people with stress induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with substance abuse induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with schizophrenia (and all disorders in that field) a very good night

I wish people with bipolar induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with brain trauma induced psychosis a very good night

I wish people with psychosis a very good night

if ur gonna send me transphobic anon hate at least get the suicide rate dogwhistle right, ur right wing besties aren't gonna care about "43%"