Healthy Life Style...Sigh

When you looked at social media posts, there are many people posting about the healthy lifestyles they had, achieved, or strived on. Like it is a goal or some kind of achievement. Well in 2023 I guess I have to accept that a healthy lifestyle is not something that I could choose, my body required it.

Is a healthy lifestyle like balanced eating and enough exercise easy for me? I would say it is not that hard.

Please note, balanced eating for me is basically don't restrict myself from eating anything as long as not too much or often. So yeah I eat everything, boba drink, soda, cake, noodles with thick broth, bread, meat with cheese topping, salad, fruit bowl, Doritos chips, gummy bear, ... you name it, I almost eat everything. So you can give me a huge bowl of salad, and I'll devour it gladly. Steak meat with mashed potato on the side, it will go in right away. I want it, I eat it. Maybe that's why I rarely craving for food. Exercise...it is not hard for me to ONCE I did it. The hardest part of it is getting up to do it, which I have a choice to not get up to do it. There the problem comes up. Well in my family there is a fixed time to eat and I also try the same when I was at work, so I mostly eat at the exact time every day. But exercise, nope. My family members are quite active in general, we have no housekeeper, so we do everything by ourselves, but there are no pushes on doing exercise.

I did Tae Kwon Do for 15 years as a club activity when I was still at school until I graduate with my bachelor's degree. But it stops when I am taking my master's degree and working. I know and admit that I have the best appearance and feel when I am constantly working out. Not only feel good when I saw myself in the mirror but feel fit. I have no problem falling asleep or getting up in the morning, I feel fresh. I am not easily getting sick, I have my number 2 regularly. it feels amazing and less worry. Well, I have to admit when you like what you see in the mirror and your body is fit, you have fewer things to worry about

So...I gained a size or two after the end year's holiday. Some of my clothes that are already XL size feel tight, I got breakout (plus because of the orange sauce that I accidentally eat on my end year lunch with my best friend), got allergic reactions almost every week, I struggle to fall asleep, my bowel movement is irregular, EVENTHOUGH when I already come back to my daily working staple which eats like light breakfast (salad and boiled eggs) and eat at fix time, walking around (well I am working at school so this is given), never missed my veggie or fruit on my dinner.

Then...for this year I have pointed again as the k-pop dance fitness trainer. Nope, I am not a professional trainer, I only have 1 year of experience in ballet in my elementary days, I don't make my own choreography so I just pick one from Youtube and rehearse it. I rehearse it these 2-3 days for 15-30 minutes..and guess what? My bowel is moveeee...yep, I got my regular number 2 again, my acne is getting better faster than before, and it is easier for me to fall asleep. I don't know about my clothes size, I haven't tried anything since.

So yeah, that's when I realize...I have no choice but to exercise. My body required that not to get a better appearance or increase the quality of life, but basically just to function decently. When I think I can manage my healthy body with just balanced eating, my body said "NOPE! You have to exercise...".

If one asked, how you did do 15 years of Tae Kwon Do, but can't do 2 days of 30 min exercise? Hmm, I love martial arts when I did, like Muay Thai, I don't need extra motivation to do it. But again it goes again to money. Martial Art class is expensive in Jakarta. And I did this for a small amount of money, free, or included in my tuition when I am at school and Uni.

Now I need to think about how to have an exercise routine that can fit with my work life and budget. Manage my money to have a Muay Thai class if I want it easy motivation, which is expensive in Jakarta. OR manage me to do exercise with no money, just do what Youtube have, which is harder on the motivation aspect. Since I need to leave the house at 5.30 AM and arrived home at 6 PM every workday. The weekend is indeed the only choice to exercise, and I choose to lazying around. Because Excercise is not a recreational activity for me, it is work...that apparently my body required it. I guess I have to make time and take advantage of the new responsibility of the "k-pop dance fitness instructor". For now.

Ughh...body! why you need exercise just to function well (T T)?

Intro

You see this cat illustration by Mofusand, this is so me hahahhaha. The face even the body position when seeing my laptop screen, it is me.

Well anyway, I intend to make this Tumblr page a space for me to share my writings. Writings about things that I have been thinking about for some time. I can be very reactive and that's what Twitter is for. And in this space, I TRY to write more mindfully. Yep, it is in bold, because yeah that's what I want to do on this page. Try. Just try writing truly as me.

Me who multidimensional. I love the word multidimensional to describe myself. Because I have a lot of interest and enjoy doing a variety of things that probably do not fit perfectly with any stereotypical or aesthetic category. I am every little bit of everything, I guess. I am still exploring things around me and seeing if I like them or not. Even about myself.

Who knows while I am writing things here, I might know more about myself.