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Yesterday's Dream 1/15/2020
Here we go again, another year passed but we're still here, dreaming of you,
Wondering how you do,
I just can't seem to shake you off, you're constantly on my mind, a fantansy, an illusion, the devil comes at night, and fills my head with confusion,
Because I want you, but I don't know why? I never got to know you, and when I tried, you left me out to dry...
Damn, you made it so clear but why so many years later, babygirl I'm still here thinking we go together like cocaine and beers...
Unhealthy as fuck, I realize that, but you seem to be everything I ever wanted, it was hard to move away from that,
And I tried to move on, but why when I'm with her does it feel like I'm cheating myself? Like there's someone else out there that makes me feel better? The receiver of my love letters,
Forever dwelling in the past, if I die tomorrow, my last thoughts would be of you as I pass in sorrow,
So please let me borrow sometime, let me entertain your attention, my love and affection has your name on it like the orignal poem on the side margine,
But see, my mind is twisted, you probably don't even remember me, oh the irony, a piece of paper tossed in the trash, I'm not even a memory to you...
A fool, just a lonely boy playing silly games in my head in a state of solitary, I accept my fate, but I'll be okay...
I realize this is my life, you only live once so I don't waste my time chasing nickles trying to find a dime to make Rugrats with like Angelica Pickles, I hope you liked that rhyme,
But anywho, thats neither here nor there... my feelings, I want them back, I don't wanna dream of you and baby thats a fact,
Because even when I do, I ignore you like you don't exist, maybe thats payback, paying you with the same coin that you paid me,
You leave me speechless, we don't even talk in my dreams and I don't wanna feel this, I wanna forget about you like you forgot about me,
Maybe its the universe sending me meesages or maybe this is God trying to teach me a lesson, but whatever it is, I'm at your mercy, you're an Angel sent from above,
All you have to do is "Reach Out I'll Be There" like the four tops because "Baby I Need Your loving", I feel like this feeling will never stop,
So let me put an end to this, I feel like a hypocite writing this poem after seeing you in my dreams all while trying to forget you and I end up dedicating you two oldies, pondering if you remember me too...
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No hay dia que no pienso en ti,
Eres inolvidable, la mujer perfecta para mi,
You were what I needed to see at the time,
I thought you were into me so I wrote you a rhyme...
And then I felt like a fool, I fell for you,
You pretended I didn't exist, and that hurt me too,
I was confused, did my imagination tricked me once again?
All I could was talk about you to my family and friends...
But whatever, I never heard from you,
A simple no would of suffice, but outta the blue,
You just dodged me like the plague,
Those actions were enough, I guess I'm too proud to beg,
Fuck it... it is what it is,
I just want to say thank you though, for saving me, when my life was in a world of shit
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For Destiny Desiree 7/13/2018
i wake up in the morning from last night, restless, like i just shut my eyes,
only slept about five hours in the past two nights, got a lot on my mind
i try to meditate but i just ain't feeling the vibes so i wait till sunrise,
maybe this vato needs a little light in his life? searching for the fire inside,
i dig deep and see what i need to improve, so i lace up my shoes
and go for an early morning jog to clear my head and ponder on my next move,
i don't like where i'm at but the main focus is on being her dad,
i know she loves me, but she might not understand that relationships also go bad...
i show her what she needs to be treated like, tell her she's my little princess,
for instance i give her hugs and kisses love has no dollar sign it ain't a business...
this little lady is always on my mind, she's shines the light when its dark,
we can be miles apart but she'll always be with me in my heart,
our love will everlast all the bullshit from the past, cherish every second because she grows so fast,
nothing but love babygirl you deserve the best in the world, when i say i love you and miss you, i mean every word,
Destiny Desiree i remember the day you were born, so small who would of known you'd change my world,
i went from a cholo to a soldier, it takes a man to raise a kid, believe in my love baby and we'll get through this shit...
my rehab is you so there's no relapse, no need to tok a few, baby i got you,
dark times will fly just as sure as the sun will rise, i promise mija i'll make things right,
for years to come when you grow older and start to understand, that some things don't last forever,
but never will i abandon the role of being your dad, i'll always be around to make things better,
to help you and be with you so you won't make the same mistakes i've made,
not to manipulate but to teach you to love and not to hate, to help you be yourself, to use your own brain,
you're so small and precious, a lifetime of joy and happiness until the end of time,
But time is endless and so is my love for you, one of a kind, keepin me in check... keepin me in line,
mi Destino Desiado, i give my all for you, nothing easy is worth accomplishing, remember that,
when times get hard the weak gets soft, but we don't give up just like that and that's a fact,
ain't no weak link in our dna, you got the blood of a soldier pumpin through your veins,
the heart of a poet saying beautiful things to your brain, never forget you're blessed... just look at your last name,
life has a meaning, but we're not all the same so keep your eyes wide open and march to your own drum,
not everyone has the best intentions, some will try and do you wrong so stay strong, hard times won't stay for long,
we'll get through anything and everything, you're my strenght card, you're my sun, never forget where you came from,
Destiny Desiree the heir to my fire, what two lovers aspire when air met fire, baby we got you... what my Destiny Desires
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3:33 Poetry
its 3:33 here in san luis az, my thoughts are flowing free,
to my Destiny, mi orgullo, mi amor siempre sera pa ti,
deste el primer dia que te vi, cambiastes mi vida,
180 degrees, the reason for me to stand tall on my own 2 feet,
i have a lot to tell you but simply for you i stay doing good,
siempre andas en mi mente, i'm always thinking of you,
throughout my days when you're not around, when you're with your mom,
me tienes pensando... estrellita donde estas? mira como brillas,
eres mi hija, quien pensaria que iva tener mi tejanita,
mi corona, chiquita bonita, i give my all for you mija,
yeah i love you, without a doubt in my mind,
now it's 3:45 but to you i dedicate all my time,
your love is sublime, i know you're strong
i feel all your love when i hold you in my arms,
truely, you make me feel proud, mi Destino Desiado,
mis ojos extrañan verte conmigo a mi lado
now i hope this gets to you my angel, you bring in hope,
nothing is impossible for you, this next verse is all yours,
dedicated to you the words of a simple man, "one of these nights",
my eyes will see you again, you make me feel so right inside,
you brought in the light in my life, and for that, i thank you,
you're such a great woman, such a beautiful angel, can i be your halo?
and go wherever you go and explore the world in its natural beauty?
i stay up late marvelling... you're the best... and i want you for me,
can you blame me? got me going crazy whenever you smile,
you spread your wings and fly if that's what your heart desires,
for you, i'd travel endless miles for you are worthwhile,
you're worth my time, i'll do anything to see my reflection in your eyes,
you're all need to get by, i'll be there for you boo,
i'm a stick with it to show you how my words are true,
i tried to let go but from the get-go you left your mark on me,
now i write these rhymes dedicated to you, i'll see you in my dreams...
now last but most definitely not least, the reason for me being, dedicated to Beatriz,
siempre estuvistes ayi por mi, no estuviera aqui si no fuera por ti,
perdon por las canas que te salieron en tu cabello, pero te quiero,
mis hotwheels me que me compravas siempre me recuerdo
todos tus sacrifisios, no hay mujer que se pueda comparar,
estuvistes conmigo a pie del cañon, en el mundo nomas tengo una mama,
ahora entiendo todo, que te duele cuando tengo el corazon roto,
pero mama no se preocupe que esto cambiara pronto,
perdona me por todo lo que te ise pasar, pero yo tambien te demonstrare,
el hombre que soy como mi padre, pero sin la O por que soy Alfred,
todavia tengo mucho que aprender, pero sere mejor que el de ayer,
hare lo imposible por ti por que eres dulce, mi madre eres fiel,
aqui estoy yo a tu lado por que tu nunca me dejastes abajo,
en mis peores momentos, verdadero amor me as demonstrado,
y te pido gracias, por todo lo que haces y por dar me vida,
crea me madre que su amor que me dio, tambien se lo doy a mi hija
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here i go again early in the a.m., writting down the things in my head,
today's a good day, i get to see my babygirl for she is my world,
the reason why i try, the reason why i cry, my reason to smile,
i promise you, i'll make it worthwhile, you make me docile,
you're the reason for all my seasons, rain or shine,
the reason for me staying true, you keep me in line,
you deserve the best, so the best i must become,
you mean the world to me, you bring in the light when my days are dark,
a soldier, a cholo, a killer, a hater, many things i've been told,
but being a father is the greatest title i wanna hold, you are my mold,
you shaped me into the man that i am, you're always on my mind,
i wake up without you by my side and i say that with tears in my eyes,
i'll never do you wrong, tus ojitos are the reason why i stay strong,
you bring in love, the hours are long the days you're gone, feels so wrong,
but you are my strength so i wipe my eyes and carry on, i do this for you,
i gotta set an example, you're my greatest school baby let me show you
el amor entre un padre y una hija es inseparable, so no lo intenden,
no me olvido de donde vengo, siempre lo llevo en la mente,
recuerdo a mi gente, por ellos hago el intento de portar me bien,
mi familia es chica aunque somos mas de cien, pero somos fiel,
C.R.U.Z best believe i'm proud of my last name, ain't no shame,
yeah we're poor, but money doesn't mean shit, its just a tool in this game,
i remember those days in the hood when we used to ride our bikes on the streets,
59 and Hoover was hot... so at dark we'd play hide and seek,
its nice to recall all the shit i've been through and survived,
like all the drive by's and fights where i could of died,
west side of i110 where it all began now in Arizona is where i am...
it ain't where you from but who you are, and you can't change that,
been many things, but i'm honored to be your dad, you're what my Destiny Desires,
i give it my all for you, for you i'll walk a million miles for your smile,
your smile is powerful, it brings in the light Destiny i love you,
until my time comes... even then, i'll show you nothing is impossible
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Can't Spell Music Without U and I 7/10/2018
its a "natural high" whenever you're around,
like a "dream come true", "i want you round",
"look what you done for me", "darlin",
i "sleepwalk" and when i wake, i feel as if i'm fallin,
"love and happiness" is the goal, its embedded into my soul,
and i want to "make it with you " if you would only "take a chance"
and "don't look back", just squeeze it tight, "i want to hold your hand"
and show you "what i got", money "can't buy me love " so "love me do",
"quien te entiende", i can do this in spanish too because you're "simply beautiful",
es necessario que "hablemos"? i talk to you through my soul,
"you're all i need to get by", "ain't no mountain high enough" if you wanna be "my girl",
i try and "get ready" to answer the call and say "yes, i'm ready",
because "i got this great big bundle of love", its a bit heavy,
it ain't easy "confessing a feeling" so "here i am, come and take me",
"oye como va"? can we be "cruisin" "my darling forever"?
"gimme a little sign" y te demuestro "lo mucho que te quiero",
"baby, you got it" going on and "i'm the one who knows",
"hey girl, i like your style", it has me "groovin", "i can't help myself" but to ask,
"hello stranger", wanna "try me"? tus "labios rotos" will be a thing of the past,
por que "eres" para mi, lo que fue "poli love" para leon larregui,
"We belong together" "always and forever" just "stand by me"
"earth angel" "love... can be so wonderful", you might ask "who's that lady "
that has me in "my cloud"? its you "Angel Baby",
"sincerely" yours, "you've really got a hold on me"
and "it's growing", "i'd rather be with you" making love "between the sheets"
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Bring in the Light 7/8/2018
Baby for you i try to do good but sometimes i slip and trip,
Rowing through rough waters, but it won't sink our ship,
I get all weak whenever we say our goodbyes,
Nothing will tear us apart mija, nobody ever really dies,
Great things happen to those who wait, hopefully, i'm setting the example,
In this life temptation is a bitch, but you don't gotta bite that apple,
No babygirl, we're not weak, we're strong, i can see it in your eyes,
Time may pass, hours, days or weeks but you'll always be mine,
Hope is all we need with a little bit of trust,
Everytime you're with me, i keep my eyes on you like a hawk,
Listening to everything you have to say, paying attention to your needs,
I'm your papi, and i won't let anyone seperate you from me,
Gettin all my hugs and kisses, actions speak louder than words,
Hope is all i got but babygirl i'll make it work,
Trust in me... i can see the love in your eyes, it keeps me going,
Doing the impossible for you, this love keeps growing and growing,
Everyday i wake up with you in my head, but i must confess,
Sometimes i wake up sad, but i replay our videos and truely feel blessed,
Today, tomorrow and forever more, i'll be there, just look over your shoulder,
In hard times and in celebration, your veins carry the blood of a soldier,
Nothing will ever tear us apart, your love is my strenght and with time,
You'll see the truth in your own eyes, our love will withstand the test of time,
I love you, you give ma a reason to dance, your love makes me smile,
Loving you is all i know how to do, its what my Destiny Desires,
On the brink of defeat, i learned what true love really is,
Vales mucho para mi, mi tesoro, my reason to live,
Eternal like time, my love for you is what keeps me in the fight,
You are my everything, my world, you bring in the light,
Or better yet, you are that light that shines in my life so bright,
Unicorns are real, because you're one of a kind!! You're always on my mind, you're always in my deepest thoughts, the truth will show, in due time
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Time is Endless 7/6/2018
Every moment i got to be by your side,
My words would slur and i got this feeling that i could not hide,
I was just passing by, at the right place, at the right time,
To you i dedicate this rhyme, this poem, in an attempt to make you mine,
Reality hits hard, beautiful like the angels above,
Under the cover of darkness, my eyes search for you in the stars,
On my own i walk through this lonely road, but i ain't weak,
You really put some work in me, can you see how my words can be so deep?
For you are the reason why spent countless nights with little sleep,
On the low babygirl you got me going wild, you make my heartbeat,
Towards you i make my move, i like how you groove, you took away my blues,
No words can get me next to you, and i know this, i'm just dropping hints and clues,
Everyone has a choice, and its you who i choose,
My mind, my thoughts, yeah, they belong to you,
On my darkest days when the sun should shine, to you i was introduced,
My jaw dropped, i was left in a state of shock, you lit my fuse,
Alfred, can you remember my name?
To be clear that one was hasty, i rushed it, i wasn't right in the head,
Even though i liked you, i was able to read you like a book,
Going through life, you and i, i can tell because your eyes had that look,
I don't wanna make myself an illusion and get lost in confusion,
Nothing can change my mind but you, let me tell you who Alfred Cruz is,
Another random fool who overstepped his boundaries, but because you removed my curse...
Can you do me a favor, and read the first letter of each verse in reverse?
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Pillow Talk 7/5/2018
as i take my last breath before going to sleep,
not knowing is getting the best of me,
great things come to those who wait,
everyday, i think of you, wondering how your lips taste,
like love, or maybe like passion,
i got a feeling for you, i think its everlasting,
crazy how things happen, sometimes i wonder why,
and look up at the stars, wishin i had you by my side,
do you think of me, like i do of you?
or is it just my imagination that's stuck to you like glue?
yes my words are true, maybe i'm too quiet,
or is it the beauty of an angel that has my soul causing a riot?
unforgettable is what you've become,
look how you get me, look what you've done,
i dream of you, not always but sometimes i do,
knowledge is power, i'd like to get to know you,
everyday, i ponder on how your day went,
patiently waiting and wondering, if i'll ever see you again,
on my mind you reside, hoping you receive all my wishes,
even if you're not with me, hey, hugs and kisses,
maybe you have all the excuses, and all the right reasons,
so until next time, i guess i'll wait until i figure out what i'm missing
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Thinking of You 7/4/2018
there's a verse I rehearse whenever I wake my day,
because your name I wanna forget but i just can't, so those thoughts stay,
i try to forget and go about my day and keep focus on what lies ahead,
it is what it is at the end of the day, so i keep my distance and watch what i say,
i don't want it, not like this, i ain't a bitch i just respect you if you ain't for me,
maybe you should see things through my eyes, from you i wanna be free,
you're always on my mind, you always rob me of my sleep,
ain't enough sheep i can count to forget about you, you're cool but you got me acting a fool
whenever you want, just call on my name and I'll tell you the truth, my sky is blue because of you,
you're really special and i hope you see that, i ain't saying no lies, just spitting facts
so i act like a man and keep my head up high, its all part of a plan to show you who i am,
my crown comes off whenever you're in my thoughts, you humble me down,
there's sonething about your eyes, in which peace i found
and now i sound like a nut probably ramblin around saying nonesense,
but fuck it, its just a lot of shit i gotta get of my chest so if its for the best,
i trust in you, you probably know something i don't, feel something i won't,
So fuck it, i try to drop it, but them eyes babygirl just keeps me woke,
whenever you're in my dreams you got a look of disappointment, and never say a word,
i don't know what it means but it robs my peace, it's gonna be hard to keep on movin,
but it won't be the first time, it probably won't be the last,
its gonna take time but theses feelings never last
so fuck it, i write these feelings on here wishin for something real,
but then i see them shooting stars, and it robs my chill,
i gets me thinkin, how you doing? then i get to wishing you get the best of everything, hoping you get what you want,
because you lit my inner fire, a powerful magician call me the king of wands wishin you the best, when i see them shooting stars,
i don't like seeing you in my dreams, it really fucks with me, gets me thinking, girl, you a woman but you're also like me,
a queen straight royalty, don't ever bow your head to punk ass lame, even if they'll treat you better than me,
i don't really know if you're ever gonna read this but for the longest time you left me speechless,
i try to show my strength, but when you're around i feel nothing but weakness
that's why i say you humble me down, you make me feel, you make me human,
it must be your voice of an angel or straight up, it must be your beauty, what you do to me?
shit, if you're fightin it, then i guess i am too, but you took that pain away, i remember why my sky is blue,
because of you, i write these hasty ass poems hoping my message gets through,
only if you knew all the words i spoke about you, my family seen a difference in me, i guess i did too,
so thank you, you're an angel with a bright ass halo, my destiny is in my hands, i'm really grateful, i met you,
so until next time, who knows if you ever will read this, i ain't sleazy but your lips i wanna kiss
and make em mine, every poem i write you deserve every line, so much i have to say, i fear one life time won't be enough, so until next time, maybe then i'll be able to be more than this.
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Angel 11/19/2017
Do you like poems? Can I get a moment of your time?
To give you thirteen on why you should be mine,
If you read between the lines then maybe you’ll see how deep this poet can really be,
I can be the man to hold your hand for eternity...
I’ll be your king, for you “I Walk the Line” and hold your hand through the hard times in life,
Without a doubt, babygirl you rocked my world... you should know what you’ve done to me...
You gave me Hope, I know I can make it work,
I ain’t rich but I can promise you this,
I’ll put my time and effort... just for a kiss,
on your lips, or maybe your hips and thighs...
I’m not saying you’re easy, I'm saying you’re worth my time,
They say “Beauty Is Only Skin Deep”, the beauty I see keeps me from going to sleep...
A blind man can see how the chemistry be,
Whenever you’re around me...
So what did me in? What gots me like this?
What has me in my truck writing this poem? Let me tell you miss...
It has to be your eyes, how they tend to get smaller when you smile,
Or is it your lips that I’ve been craving for a while...
Whatever it is, I really don’t care... mi amor es sublime, let me take you there,
Let me treat you better than anyone before...
I strive to improve myself, because the Best is what you deserve...
I ain’t playin’ no games, I got no time to lose,
If you get to know me, it’ll be me you choose...
Pero si no, then I guess its cool...
but if you “Take a Chance” on me, then you’ll know my words are true!!
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Wild Thoughts 2/11/2018
you and me have a lot in common,
way more than what you might think,
i ain’t trippin’ so for damn sure i ain’t fallin’,
so lets just kick it, have a few drinks
and have a laugh or two, maybe you’ll like me too,
whenever you’re around, my eyes belong to you…
it ain’t easy trynna keep my composure,
writing this just for some exposure,
and take up a minute of your time,
get to know me and forget what people have to say
but anyway, tell me how your day went and i’ll tell you all about mine,
whenever you smile, you make my day,
you bring up my vibe, it puts a smile on my face
i like what you did to your hair,
but i’m really wondering how them lips taste,
so like kids lets play truth or dare baby i care…
so are you down to ride or is it time to go
to the bedroom, no more locked doors!!
you got in going in circles, beauty is only skin deep,
are you an angel sent just for me?
baby don’t waste my time!! we grown,
tell me how you really feel and from there we’ll go
adventure the world, maybe it’ll be a new beginning,
i ain’t playin’ but if i were, then baby we winning!!
or we can keep it on the low, do all the things i like,
just one call away, baby day or night
just hit the speed dial, and i’ll be there
getting lost in lust, but i don’t care,
if that’s how you want it to be, i’m cool with it too.
lets not beat around the bush, we ain’t fools,
we’re just two people in this reality, where you only live once
so lets make the most of it… fuck the drama, lets have fun!!
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Changes 2-11-2018
see, sometimes i feel like a king the way it should be…
being a Grumpy 13 B just isn’t for me, so i try and focus
and ground myself out, being from the south
let me tell you what its all about when you grow up
in the city of angels, where around every corner
lies a different form of danger but we’re no strangers,
it ain’t no thing, can’t let that cloud your vision
and keep you just wishing things will change,
so through this form of art, i found a way to express myself,
sharpen my skills and protect my mental health
because it was hell, getting from point a to point b,
going from south central to little san luis?
bitch please, i grew up with drive by’s and gun play,
in every street had a wall tagged up with a different name
of the hoods in our general area, let me tell ya
how it really goes down when you grow up without no ferria…
so where i’m from, things have to be a certain way,
where people die every day over some shit they say
its all that gun play, waking me up at night,
i was still a kid not knowing wrong from right
but I knew, when the ghetto bird spoke
don’t look out the window because you might get smoked.
and walking home from school… the following story is true,
getting stomped by fools all i seen were shoes
and fist coming at me from left and right,
its kill or be killed homie… do or die
its just a perspective, of a way to live your life,
but when are you gonna grow up and see the light?
through a dream, or more like a nightmare,
seeing where my life was leading, i had to care
and stare at my old ways, what was i thinking?
i was the captain of my ship… and my ship was sinking
so i pulled up my pants, and started paying attention,
doing wrong was out of the question and not to mention
i had lost all my old friendships, but my fire was lit.
failure wasn’t an option because the bitch i missed
was just that… something in the past…
i’ll wake up angry,then go run a few laps
and when i’ll get tired, and want to quit,
i’ll remind myself what lead me to this
commitment, to this service to my country
if you thought i was rapping, then bitch you ain’t knowing me,
its story time, can you read between the lines?
getting drunk every weekend just to kill some time
and it was all fine, it helped fuel my fire
it got me to where i’m at and what my Destiny Desires
because i’m a Rider With Style, and that’ll never change
C.R.U.Z. where my roots reside… remember the name
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2-11-2018
they say pain is weakness leaving the body,
but I just about had it with this bad shit
crossing my mind, clouding up my judgement,
this isn't what I wanted, but fuck it,
i'm on a rocket, shooting for the stars,
watching numbers that repeat themselves,
they got a story to tell, and so do I
so chill with me, roll one up and get high
to understand why it is I do what I do,
feeling like a king cus' I ain't no fool,
i thought you knew, AlfredcruZ
A through Z nor anything in between can't keep me down,
"i'm gonna fight em off, a Seven Nation Army couldn't hold me back"
can you picture that? as a matter of fact
picture me rolling in the all blue cadillac
throwback to way back when, all my worries were just pretend...
now my cards are dealt, if you felt what I feel
you'll probably kneel, or get knocked off your feet,
in the presence of defeat, but this won't define me.
this isn't who I am, a mexican with a tall story,
just another lonely boy trynna make a dollar out of 15 cents,
nothing makes sense, i even lost a few close friends
but at the end, its all for the best... its all a hex
from a fucken peasant residing in mex...
can't keep a good man down but I still worry,
can't sleep on my dreams cus' they leave in a hurry,
and before i knew it, it was all over...
i guess the good life really wasn't for her
so now i roam alone in my hometown
because i know how this story is gonna end,
feeling sour inside but i smile for my friends, and family...
i just wish that maybe, one day, they'll understand me
i'm a grown man, with big hopes and dreams,
have you seen my truck? it looks pretty sweet
but that's just me, and who i am,
Destiny is really shaping me into a man...
it is what it is, fuck it, i gotta do good for my kid,
but for now, this verse is about me
moving on from a tragedy, moving on from defeat.
not letting those triple digits fuck with my sleep.
are you asleep? or are you awake?
put yourself in my shoes, and rewind this tape,
re-read my poems and now take a second look
at the hooks and jabs that shaped me into this man...
and tell yourself, don't let no one get you down
because if they do, you'll be the laughing stock around town,
so no more tears, and no more pain...
tune in later... I'll tell you how this story ends
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Intro Feb/10/2018
saddle up, we’re going in deep
to the mind of a man who has no peace, at night he can’t sleep,
he’s lost in his thoughts wondering if there’s more to life
because he gave it his all but it wasn’t suffice,
she wanted from him more and more
until she got tired of waiting and kicked him out door,
she made him feel like less, brought to him all this stress
until he was a mess and filled his chest full of smoke
and now he tokes with great pain and great remorse,
thinking why things had to be this way listening to Pac’s message of better days
and in a way, he knows its the right thing to do
but he can’t gather up his courage to make his next move,
I wish it wasn’t true, it is what it is
he feels like a fool blindly walking off cliff
because he has no control of this shit, why did they miss?
he didn’t catch a bullet but might as well end it and pull it,
feeling useless, now careful on who he chooses
now his mind is racing, thinking of all the lies
and how she was ruthless and never was on his side,
but damn he should of known better
should of never stayed up late and wrote her that letter,
it caused him pain in the past, his hard work didn’t last and now she asks
why he’s a piece of shit but forgets that she got where she’s at… because of him
all his sacrifices, goals and dreams went down the drain
baby in this story, it doesn’t sprinkle it fucken rains
all up in his head, it’ll all be over in a few weeks
taking that L like a champ but he’s still weak in the knees
get back on your feet and get ready to meet
your new foundation that’s harder than concrete,
but show no defeat, show em who you really are
show em they’re wrong along, show em you’re the Ace of hearts.
and what you’re not, is whatever they think you are
because this Destiny lies between the stars
when it pains it pours, keep strong even if it hurts
and this curse keeps following this foo trynna do good
rest assured, he ain’t quenching his thirst,
first thing first, allow me to introduce myself on this verse
All he really needs is some green to feed his soul,
Let’s not get ahead of ourselves, try and keep it slow,
For the last time you acted quick, you had nothing to show…
Really pay attention to your surroundings,
Endings bring new beginnings so lets do this shit
Dealing with it day by day, what can I say,
Can’t keep a good man down now watch me slay
Right and left, left and right, day and night
Understand the good fight,
Zero to hero, trynna make things right
Just because I’m riding with style
Really doesn’t mean you know my profile,
of where I’ve been, and what I do…
But if you really wanna know… my name is Alfred Cruz
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