I reread aftg for the third time and now i want to take my heart out and die

this one time i saw one of those posts imagining the characters's twitter accounts and andrew was a shark nerd and nothing has ever resonated so much with me. yeah that motherfucker would love a shark. he would fight people online to defend sharks. he would hate jaws. it's as real as the sky being blue to me

the art / the artist

Kagehina's last summer together before Brazil

i think one of the most fascinating things about the sunshine court is that realisation of how quiet andrew actually is compared to what we see in neil’s POV.

idk i guess i just forgot that from an outsiders POV, of course andrew is going to be mildly unsettling. & that him talking so much in neil’s POV was a rarity.

i love him so bad

lore accurate double black battle scene

Neil: *staring non-stop at Andrew*

Jean: *not so subtle and looking at Jeremy every chance he got*

Kevin: If I were attracted to a blonde man, I'd keep that to myself.

Listen, you know why Andrew loves Neil? Why Neil Abram Josten was the one Andrew would allow into his inner space, to allow growing roots where Andrew keeps the remaining fragments of his heart?

Because hardly anyone respects Andrew's boundaries. Renee does. Bee does. Wymack does. Andrew respects his own boundaries to the point of enforcing them at knife point.

But Neil? Neil Abram Josten?

He views Andrew's boundaries as sacred.

Renee, Bee, and Wymack would view crossing Andrew's boundaries as disrespectful at best and a violation at worst. They earned his trust that way.

But NEIL???

Neil views crossing Andrew's boundaries as a fucking sin. As blasphemous. A devoted disciple would sooner spit in their God's face than Neil ever conceiving of crossing Andrew's boundaries.

Some people would look at you erecting brick walls covered in barbed wire and would start looking for a good crack to aim a sledgehammer. Some people would watch you lock a door and try knocking, just once, to see if you'll open it for them. And some people would watch you draw a line in the sand and never dream of stepping over it.

Neil parked his ass on the other side of Andrew's barbed wired multi-layered brick wall surrounding his concrete bunker and stayed there, running his mouth. And when Andrew revealed the hidden door, Neil smiled, stayed put, and kept talking.

Andrew didn't fall for Neil because Neil wouldn't come in.

He fell because Neil waited for Andrew to come out, waited for Andrew to extend his hand, and waited for Andrew to lead him inside by his own volition.

And that's why Neil was the one who earned Andrew's "Stay".

pour one out for kevin day, queen of exy, for fumbling both jeremy knox AND jean moreau. personally i would never recover

It’s so funny going from Neil’s asexual pov to jeans definitely NOT asexual pov

Neil: Kevin is tall and has a tattoo

Jean: pretty boy with a soft smile and beautiful green eyes

Neil: Renee is a women and has hair

Jean: a force of hope and beauty, an anomaly in a world that’s ugly and bleak. She is the sun.

Neil: Jeremy is the captain of the Trojans and he smiles a lot for some reason

Jean: his bleach blonde hair frames his tanned freckled skin, his broad shoulders and tiny waist give way to his thicc thighs and ass

But also the reverse

Neil: Andrews strong unwavering frame and honey colored eyes

Jean: the tiny goalkeeper

Jean and Jeremy ~ (finished TSC the other day! I really like their dynamic.)

we've all talked about the iconic neil cameo (i will never tire of talking about the iconic neil cameo) but the scraps jean hands us about andrew? warms my heart. the fact that people in the exy world have picked up on how he's actually putting an effort into games this year. the way he heaves himself out of goal so fast to defend neil from riko. that wymack told the press it was andrew's idea to put neil in defense and it was hailed as genius. andrew getting the recognition he deserves, even if he doesn't care for it. jean speaking to an empty room, "he will be court", as confidently as kevin speaks about neil. andrew having a dedicated candy drawer. andrew always looking at wymack when kevin and neil are being pedantic. andrew and neil and the quiet way they are wrapped around each other's existence. andrew minyard.

THIS is beautiful, the angst, the pining, the symbolism. Andrew's attention was never on the court, but on the eyes watching the two most important people in his life. Neil's priorities is the court first, then notices Jean eyeing him and his family. Kevin taking no notice of Jean or anything else other than the court - his one and only priority.

yes jeremy

+ bonus

the foxhole court // the sunshine court

babies

Jean Moreau be like Neil Josten was supposed to be my best friend and I consider that loss to be one of the worst things that ever happened to me. He's one of the select few who I trust to take me and my problems seriously and make good on his promises to me. Unfortunately he is also the fucking antichrist and everything he does is calibrated to spike my blood pressure.