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im excited 2 see ur akutagawa fic! <3 just read ur post abt it n its just so cute to think abt him trying super old school ways to date someone.. and the reader making him apologize to atsushi hdurj4jrndn such a silly man ♡
thank u so much oml im also super excited to finish it so i can finally post it 🥴 i love my silly mans hes just like "oh" and "yes" to everything u say im just so 😭😭😭😭 hes not old but bro the way he acts is SO OLD like he's sending letters thru actual ass mail, polishing up his finances for when he introduces himself to your parents, keeping things super private then immediately asks to be engaged 😭 ITS SO FUNNY I CANTNTNNTNT but i love it so much sigh i cant wait for my finals to end so i can write this again
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- - ——— ꒰ armed detective agency꒱
DAZAI OSAMU [太宰 治]
╰─▸ ❝ confessing to their crush [fluff]
╰─▸ ❝ standing in the rain [hurt/comfort]
╰─▸ ❝ ex-girlfriend? [fluff]
NAKAJIMA ATSUSHI [中島 敦]
╰─▸ ❝ loser=lover [fluff, hurt/comfort]
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- - ——— ꒰ main masterlist꒱
recently on [@akutails] .....
. . . ⇢ ˗ˏˋ confessing to their crush [ft. dazai & ranpo]
. . . ⇢ ˗ˏˋ cat & dog [ft. dazai & chuuya]
bungou stray dogs masterlist
╰─▸ ❝ armed detective agency
╰─▸ ❝ port mafia
╰─▸ ❝ others ...
haikyuu !! masterlist
╰─▸ ❝ miyagi prefecture
╰─▸ ❝ tokyo
moriarty the patriot masterlist
╰─▸ ❝ now loading......
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do you have a masterlist?
omg anon im so sorry u just reminded me that i dont have one 😭 ill make one rn omg im so sorryyyy 😭😭😭😭
ill do it then ill just update this post :(( i literally forgot to make a masterlist damn
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I’m so indecisive between the slightest differences in coloring so you get different versions lmao
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what r ur recent wips!? ♡
hello anon ! i just talked abt them here but i'll elaborate more on some of them here :DD and maybe add a little more
with university student! akutagawa i really wanted to do a reaaaaaaaaally long fic with it cause i just super enjoyed the concept of aku learning how to pursue someone and show his affection in a non-"traditional" way, since he only knows how to court people by the books he read (which is usually old ass books). him being blunt and overdramatic with his intentions (which creeps you out at first but then find it endearing ?!) then he gets mean w atsushi but then realizes that atsushi is ur roomie and u make him apologize and HE ACTUALLY DOES 😭😭 it's just a funny lil fic with just a small hint of angst at the end which makes it sooooo cute and i'm so excited to write it again actually:((
i dont rlly see kageyama as someone who would get or be attracted to someone if they weren't at least a little bit interested in volleyball. i mean, if u don't have an interest in the one thing he enjoys most then what are u two supposed to talk about yknow ,, so when u, a first yr (or second year ????? hehe kageyama liking someone older than him just sounds cute to me) student from the journalism club piques an interest in volleyball, he's more than willing to help ! and maybe even offers a one-on-one off the record interview with dinner bcs ure so cute 🫶 about volleyball, of course. then he invites u to his national games and ure there like "of course im going?? u dont need to ask me" and hes so giddy im just SIGHHHHH . kageyama tobio and his silly adventures i love him
another wip i'm super excited abt is academic rivals to lovers dazai 🫶 originally this was supposed to be for chuuya but i found a slightly better fitting idea for him so dazai has this wip >:)) dazai nvr rlly cared for his grades but still gets top scores without even trying which PISSES U OFF and when he gets wind of ur annoyance he goes "oh?" and starts putting a little more effort to piss u off even more and haha silly silly banter. i just loveeeeeee some pissy rivalry LMAO but he's actually super attentive to u and knows when to tone it down, especially during ur favorite subjects bcs he'll let u have this one bcs ure so passionate abt answering and learning with that cute lil sparkle in ur eyes that he just cant bring himself to ruin it :') crying sobbing
that's all i have for now i think ! im super excited to i hope everyone likes these ideas so i can work on iy soon :((
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recent wips?
THANK YOU ANON I LOVE U
university student! akutagawa as ur suitor fic
now i've already posted and drafted 5 chapters of this fic on my old blog and i stopped writing it bcs i lost motivation BUT ! i wanna pick it up again bcs its just a sweet lil akuatagawa as ur suitor and i really loved the idea and i hv so many things i wanna do for it so :)) stay tuned ! i might give some 👀 sneak peaks if u ask the right question <3
kageyama x student journalist! reader fic
this one MMMMMMM i love it . its abt reader interviewing the whole volleyball team when they make it to nationals so they can write abt it on the school paper BUT !! reader has never written for volleyball so when they get to interview kageyama and realize how much he knows abt it they ask for his help :)) i have so many sweet ideas for this one and the layout is almost done so im super super excited !
bungou stray dogs x moriarty the patriot oc! reader
now this one . it's more imaginative than my other wips HAHAHAHHAHA AND ITS SUPER SELF INDULGENT ! basically the reader gets transported to the mtp universe due to an ability user having the ability to make portals to other universes (totally not inspired by america chavez/s) and while the bsd universe tries to bring u back the mtp guys figure out where u came from while simultaneously making sure u dont ruin their timeline by being there 😭 it's super fun and i lovee thinking abt it (but not writing it lawl) so this one is my fave<3
#⚘-dma#i dont wanna put any super tags on this one since i dont wanna set anything in stone for now#i dont feel like pressuring myself in making fics anymore 😭
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someone ask abt my recent wips QUICK i wanna talk abt them 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶
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hi vir, welcome back ! ৻( •̀ ᗜ •́ ৻)
also, ugh, i feel you sauurr much. uni really sucks, pero kailangan laban lang.
#survivor #fighter
ok titigil na po aqoh HAHAHAHA
just dropping by to, again, welcome you back, tell you to take your time to write and such, to take care of yourself, and to thank you for reblogging one of my recent works for gojo! reader, the chuuya one, to be exact.
i'm glad you loved it !! (૭ ｡•̀ ᵕ •́｡ )૭ ♡
uni absolutely sucks !! especially since my uni is on a trisemester which piles up so much work huhu not to mention YUNG BAGYO !! ugh binaha kami ng sobra lagpas tuhod inside the house then my uni didn't let us have a wellness break >:((
anyway, i really loved ur chuuya x gojo! reader fic it's so cute :(( i always love how u write chuuya and also !! the baby fushiguro one with aku WAS SO ADORABLE i don't think i've reblogged that one but i sure will after i answer this 🫶
i hope ure doing well !!
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Hi there! I wanted to do a request for the Gojo!reader fic. Here it is: The port mafia decided to go to a summer festival just to relax, and being the good boyfriend that he is, Chuuya invites Gojou. How would he react to seeing his beloved dolled up in a yukata for the first time? And will he have to deal with any guys trying to flirt with her?
perfect — bsd x gojo! reader
masterlist of infinity
╰➤ PAIRING(s): nakahara chuuya
╰➤ CW(s): possible spoilers for bungou stray dogs and jujutsu kaisen, fluff/jealousy, chuuya being the best boyfriend
╰➤ SYNOPSIS: your loving boyfriend invites you to a summer festival that the port mafia was going at and sees you, his beloved, dolled up in a yukata for the very first time
before you read: hey there! in case you're new, this is a oneshot series bungou stray dogs x gojo! reader which means you have gojo's surname, six eyes, and cursed technique which is an ability for the sake of this fic. for more information please see the masterlist of the series.
although port mafia was an underground criminal organization, it wasn't all that bad, or so you'd like to think when nakahara chuuya called you while you were in tokyo for work under heiwa, your own organization.
"a summer festival there in yokohama?" you inquired, squeezing both of your cheeks in your free hand while holding the phone to your ear.
"y-yeah, you heard me, it's not a port mafia type of business. we're just going there to relax, but also because elise wants to go, and of course i'm inviting you along," chuuya replied, but on the other end of the phone back to him, he was a blushing red mess with ozaki and tachihara softly chuckling behind him.
"hmm, i see.. sounds cool..." you nodded quietly as you looked over at one of the higher-ups, gakuganji, who was watching you and the other younger heiwa ability users who were practicing in the distance.
chuuya, on the other hand, mistook your tone and almost panicked, "but you don't have to come over if you don't want to. you're probably busy there in tokyo with work!"
"eh? i didn't say anything like that," you exclaimed, puffing your cheeks up as you turned away from the idiot higher-up, "of course, i'm coming over, idiot. i just need to take care of something first," you narrowed your eyes for a second with your response to chuuya and whispered, "the higher-up here is fucking staring at me and my subordinates."
"ah, so that's why," chuuya sighed in relief before narrowing his eyes, "well, alright, i'll see you then and try not to gouge their eyes out, okay babe?" his last statement prompted tachihara to look at him strangely with wide eyes in shock.
you shook your head, softly chuckling a "yeah, yeah," when chuuya took your attention back to him, "and for another, [name]?" he asked.
"yes, chuuya?" you asked, adjusting your black round sunglasses and pushing them up against your nose.
"i'm looking forward to seeing you soon."
as a giggle escaped your lips, you couldn't help but feel your heart skip a beat. it just goes to show how much chuuya missed you. after all, it's been a long time since you returned to him in yokohama, at the penthouse you shared with him. the higher-ups were a pain in the ass, and you had kids to mentor and protect, especially this one who, like chuuya, is a vessel for a god.
"i miss you too."
a summer festival with chuuya sounded great.
fast forward to the days leading up to the actual summer festival, and ozaki koyo couldn't help but sigh and smile at how antsy chuuya had been all day preparing. chuuya was constantly asking her what to do with a significant other at summer festivals and if his expensive but fine yukata for the occasion looked okay. the boy she'd been watching over since he joined the port mafia had grown so much.
"chuuya, you're fine. calm down a little." koyo giggled quietly, covering her lips with the sleeve of her yukata.
"yeah! cut yourself some slack," tachihara agreed to koyo's words, "we're going to a summer festival, not work."
as tachihara spoke with the executive, akutagawa and his sister, gin, who were also dressed up for the occasion, remained idle.
"you heard tachihara," everyone turned their heads towards the port mafia boss, mori ougai, who was dressed in a black yukata for the occasion, while elise was dressed in a crimson red yukata that she seemed to dislike a lot, "all of us are going there to relax, so relax, chuuya-kun."
"he's having a little trouble relaxing because of you know who," koyou tilted her head, giggling again, but this time eliciting a small whine from chuuya.
"ane-san!" chuuya cried out with a faint blush spreading across his cheekbones.
"ah, that's right, ozaki. i almost forgot that gojo-chan's coming along with us as well. no wonder chuuya-kun can't sit still," mori said fondly to the ginger-headed mafioso, who was now scowling and turning his head away in embarrassment.
fast forward to the actual summer festival, and the port mafia has already chosen a location to watch the fireworks, thanks to elise's recommendation. everyone had already prepared the picnic, including the food and beverages, but you were still missing.
chuuya fumbled with his yukata, worried as to where you were. he knew you were coming, but he can't help but wonder if something unexpected came up at the last minute. did you have any work to do? were you dealing with the shitty higher-ups again? or perhaps you just didn't want to go? it was absolutely killing him.
just as chuuya was about to ring you a call on his phone, he heard your voice.
"chuuya!"
he and the rest of the port mafia turned their heads in your direction at that moment. chuuya had the impression that time had stopped and the world had frozen.
there you were, running up to him, dressed elegantly in a white and blue yukata that reminded him of your once snowflake-hair that you had dyed [color] and aquamarine six eyes that twinkled like stars in a dark, midnight sky. you even had your hair styled and makeup applied to your liking for the occasion.
in his eyes, you were a goddess. could you be the god of the skies himself, rather than just sugawara michizane's descendant? when you finally got to chuuya, he was at a loss for words, panting slightly for air before smiling. In his eyes, you were even more stunning up close.
"my, my, gojo-san, you look absolutely lovely," koyo stared at you fondly with a soft smile.
even elise couldn't agree more with chuuya and koyo, "you look like a princess—no, a queen!"
"damn, chuuya-san. you're onneee lucky man!" tachihara whistled before draping an arm around the ginger-haired mafioso who was stunned by you, "just look at gojo-san!"
"oh my, you guys flatter me too much. thank you," you said sweetly in response to their compliments.
chuuya looked around at the other port mafia subordinates who had joined them, as well as passers-by who were staring at you with adoration.
something within chuuya ignited as a result of this. he stomped towards you as soon as tachihara's arm was removed from around him. he then grabbed you by the waist and pulled you close to his side, his hand possessively grasping your hip.
"stop looking at my girl," chuuya scoffed at tachihara and the other port mafia subordinates, who turned away and cleared their throats. as tachihara grinned at chuuya's growing jealousy, your eyes widened.
tachihara laughed, raising his hands in the air defensively, "relax, gojo-san's all yours."
while chuuya and tachihara bickered, you stepped away from chuuya for a moment and were approached by mori, the port mafia boss himself.
"mori-san! thank you for letting me come to your little get-together," you said with a smile.
"it's an honor to have you with us, gojo-chan," mori said respectfully, "your dear boyfriend was antsy all day waiting for you to come."
"really, mori-san?" you chuckled softly, glancing at chuuya, who had a faint blush across his cheekbones.
"huh, i don't know what they're talking about," chuuya said as he returned to your side and lightly squeezed your side, clearing his throat.
"ah, young love," mori sighed, shaking his head as he smiled at you and chuuya, "well, enjoy the summer festival. there are lots of booths over there and feel free to seperate from us if you two want some privacy, alright?"
"got it, boss," chuuya nodded curtly, slightly hovering his hat as a sign of respect as you thanked mori again, "thank you, mori-san."
as a result, you and chuuya separated from the port mafia and decided to explore the various booths and stalls in the festival's said location together. you couldn't help but chuckle as chuuya insisted on walking with you by the hip. he still has his arm around you, specifically around your waist.
"chuuya, i'm not going anywhere," you said, gently patting his hand on your side with a small giggle.
"sorry, but i'm not letting you go," chuuya's lips graced into a smile as he looked at you before slightly narrowing his eyes as he glanced at his and your surroundings—people were staring at you, specifically men—which he didn't like at all, "they're all staring at you."
and then he stammered, dismissively waving his free hand in the air, "but you look stunning, that's why people are staring, so let them stare baby, i'm protecting you either way, okay?"
you giggled at him, "okay, if you say so, chuuya."
you two tried a variety of delicious foods from booths and stalls such as takoyaki, taiyaki, and dango, and played a variety of games such as catching fish and shooting games. chuuya was genuinely impressed, far more so if possible.
even the staff couldn't believe it because even if the game was rigged, you still managed to win it, and chuuya loved the triumphant look on your face as you laughed together with their priceless reactions of surprise.
if only they knew how your lovely aquamarine eyes were so much more than that.
chuuya was your personal bodyguard for the entire evening, and he couldn't believe it; some men had the audacity to flirt with his girl while he was with you, and he found it a little annoying. because you were so stunning, some women were actually flirting with you.
you, gojo [name], could have handled things in a matter of seconds. please, with your unrivaled six eyes and limitless ability, you could bring down an entire organization in a matter of seconds.
chuuya, on the other hand, will not let you fuss over them. chuuya wants you to sit still, look pretty, eat a lot of your favorite foods, and enjoy the rest of the night while he takes care of the rest. he can't bear the thought of his beloved darling wasting her breath and time on some people.
"i swear i'm going to roundhouse kick that motherfucker over there," chuuya grumbled, trying not to make a scene while you ate a mochi, "ugh, i'm sick of those damn idiots. who do they think they are?"
"hmm, well i say we should give them a show."
"hah, what do you mean by that?"
you leaned in towards chuuya, gently grabbing the fabric of his yukata to pull him to you. with that, you pressed your lips against chuuya, who was taken aback by the kiss and blushed profusely.
you drew back, looking at the men who had previously flirted with you, their mouths agape. "this one's mine, boys," you said, your eyes narrowing slightly and your lips curving into a smirk.
you were a sly fox, to be sure, but a part of him reveled in it. chuuya loved being yours as much as he loved having you as his, and thankfully, that worked and those idiots left you and him alone.
finally, some peace and quiet, chuuya thought.
"now i have you all to myself, chuuya-kun," you said happily, sticking your tongue out as you struck a peace sign pose with three fingers at him, which chuuya found absolutely adorable and made his heart scream and short-circuit on the inside.
"i should be the one saying that," chuuya exclaimed, reaching out his hands to gently flick at your brow.
"whatever," you joked as you smiled at him, shrugging your shoulders.
chuuya sighed and smiled, softly laughing as he took your hand in his. he stared at you again as you two began to walk away to where you would be watching the fireworks. chuuya was a lucky man. an absolute goddess like you could have chosen someone else, but you chose him.
"what'cha looking at, mister?" you teased, raising your brow.
"just adoring my beautiful, beautiful [name]," he squeezed your hand, biting his lip as he eyed you up and down, "you're just so perfect. all dolled up like this too. i literally can't take my eyes off you."
"quoting song lyrics now, hmm?" you joked and wiggled your brows up and down, laughing.
"i'm being serious, [name]," chuuya huffed, pretending to be irritated.
"i know, darling, i know," you chuckled, "i'm just messing with you; i can't help myself."
"alright, alright. now, come on, let's hurry up before we miss the fireworks, and after that, we can go back to the penthouse and get some rest because i know you came all the way here from work," chuuya exclaimed.
"sounds more than good to me. it's perfect," you chuckled softly, "to be home with you."
chuuya leaned in closer this time, pressing his lips against your forehead then your lips to kiss you before pulling away and taking the two of you to where you'll be watching the fireworks.
#↷-reblogs#HE'S SO CUTE IM ABT TO GRHGRGRH#nakakagigil k ! ang cute cute mo !#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE THIS
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VIR :( im so happy ur okay!!!
HELLO MAI I MISSED U SO MUCH !! i hope ure doing okay too mwa mwa kisses
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i'm so sorry i've been gone 😭 uni sucks so badd but i'll try and recover ! i have tons of stuff i wanna work on (if u wanna know just ask :DD) but yes i'm letting everyone know that i'm alive
#alive inside? that's a different conversation.#⚘-dma#but yes hello i'm back (maybe)#HOW IS EVERYONE DOING
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tysm for the tag ! i've been so gone lately i'm so sorry TT
kyoya ootori (ohshc), louis james moriarty (mtp), & kageyama tobio (hq)
tags : @masuchu & anyone T^T i don't know much ppl on tumblr
small fun fact, i gave a presentation abt ranking and rating haikyuu setters and ranked kageyama at s tier w a 10000/10 rating :D it was so fun (idk why we had to present a random topic in that specific subj but im not complaining i got to talk abt kageyama so)
hold up show us who you are currently simping for!!!
i will go first and you can show your top 3 and also tag your friends to this madness
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BF TSUKKI<3
plot: random bf tsukki headcanons. reader insert.
a/n: your honor i love him. also i wrote this on a whim while listening to body paint by arctic monkeys
proofread?did i proofread this??idk :D
"and if you're thinking of me, then i'm probably thinking of you"
tsukishima wakes up super early to have enough time to be a hater
he really doesn't, he probably sleeps super late, spending the time on his phone and wakes up moderately early, like 10-11 AM
doesn't want akiteru to find out about him being in a relationship, he'll probably annoy him the fuck out and make him uncomfortable
so you don't really hang out at his house and the one time akiteru saw the pair of you walking down the street, he jumped in to ask you if you were his s/o and you kinda lagged out, not really knowing what to answer since you knew kei didn't want him to know for the time being but also feeling guilty for lying
kei saved it though
lmao no he didn't, akiteru was sure that you were his partner after that encounter
you, kei and tadashi are such a power trio,its kinda like those shonen trios (nobara/megumi/yuuji, aki/power/denji)
ukai teases you a lot as his assistant and eventually takeda sensei starts doing so too in his own ways
but whenever hinata or kageyama do so, tsuki goes well, tsuki mode
tanaka and nishinoya probs ogle after you but when guys from other teams do so they protect you out of respect for you and their teammate's honor
tsukishima often sends you songs that remind him of you, he never outright tells you so but you figure it out after the first few times he sends them to you.
looks over at you after scoring a point or doing a great block to see your reaction, his chest swells with pride
dumbass (affectionate)
tries to annoy you a lot but you know it's out of love
you're kind of like the default settings for him. sad? go to y/n. happy? y/n. wants to go out? y/n. is hungry? y/n might be hungry too so he's gonna pick up something extra for you too.
would die if he made you feel uncomfortable, like you don't understand how sick with himself he would feel if he ever made you feel like that.
super proud of you when you say something he would to the team. everyone's like "YOU CORRUPTED THEM >:(" and he's in the back smiling smugly and patting your head.
cuddly when sleepy. my brother in christ will on god lay on top of you, literally almost crush u, push his face in your neck and whine but as soon as you coo at him and say something along the lines of "aw is my baby sleepy?" he'll DENY e v e r y t h i n g. he's worse than youtubers getting caught red handed committing a crime. like tf you mean, there's literally evidence📸
he thinks about you so much throughout the day, you're his safe space <//3
he is kind of insecure though. when he notices other teams approaching you, it's then that others' comments about him begin to soak in.
of course he wouldnt admit it but you can see it in the way his face falls
tell him you love him and wont leave him 🔪
sometimes cries about this at night
he knows other people could be more open about their feelings to you and you deserved to be told how perfect you are as much possible
but he tries so much :(
he never saw it as "just a relationship" what you have is one of the few things he actually takes seriously
tsukishima is great bf and i said what i said
#↷-reblogs#THIS IS SO CUTE I CANT STOP READING IT#i just . i just want him#hes so..#why isnt he real and why isnt he MINE !!!
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STANDING IN THE RAIN. - dazai osamu
✁you and dazai have little in common, grief is one of them. warning: grief, loss, no one really dies in this but there are mentions of dead people. notes: decided to repost this but with more feeling, because i initially wrote this without much experience of grief, but after my loss i decided to add some more of my thoughts :) repost from @[yatsugareboyf]
dazai isn’t unfamiliar with grief . in fact, he almost finds comfort in it with how long it stuck around him. he grieves everyday, whenever he passes happy little kids playing the park, whenever he sees a curry place that just opened, hell, whenever he sees his own coat. everyday, dazai is reminded that he is still very much under the hostage of grief.
he knew that he isn’t the only person in the world to experience grief, everyone does at some point. it’s a universal thing. but he only knew recently that you have been grieving too.
which is why you didn’t say a single word when you spotted him sitting against a headstone one cold afternoon. you merely stared at him before walking away to go to your own headstone to sit against. usually, you’d be smiling at him, beckoning him to come closer to coming closer yourself, but today you barely acknowledged his existence as you situate yourself quietly, only a few moments away.
he looked in your direction to see your back facing him. you were standing and looking down at the grave in front of you. you didn’t bring anything except for a small convenience-store-bought coffee. were you mumbling? were you saying anything? were you just staring? he couldn’t tell from the distance. were you crying? he would’ve known if it hadn’t started raining.
since he was under a tree, he never felt it coming, but you were there, still standing on a grave, holding a stale cup of coffee without a care in the world. in a span of a few second, your whole body was soaked in rainwater and the earth under your feet started to mud. you seemed to not mind, since you still stood there. and he understood why.
grief is such a complex thing. it pulls people away from their families and their beliefs, it turns people into cold-hearted murderers and serial killers, it makes people lose their sanity and well-being, and it drives people to stand in mud while it’s raining.
the pain that grief causes one person is immeasurable. you can never truly comprehend whether or not you’ll ever see the end of you grief, nothing can “cure” grief. you can still be happy, successful, blessed with all the riches in the world, and you’ll still be grieving because no amount of things in the world can bring the dead back to life.
even if you flip the world upside down, travel the world in search of an answer, finish the book they never got to finish, create a world where they could finish said book and live happily in peace, they’re still dead, and you’re still alive. you will forever live on without them, even if there is an afterlife waiting for the two of you.
the time you spend grieving them, avenging them, or giving them the peace they deserve, it'll never amount to the time you spent with them. nothing could ever truly replace the hole in your heart where someone used to be, and it will always be sore, always be longing for a fill, a fix, or a replacement. you search the world for an answer, a distraction, a solution, and yet whatever you do it will never be the same again.
so standing in the rain was the least of your worries, and dazai osamu understood. not enough time in the world could heal you, you only get used to the pain.
he stands by you a minute later, not sparing a glance at the grave you’ve been staring at for the past 20 minutes. he looks up at the sky and then at you, who didn’t mind his sudden presence. you knew he was here, after all.
“that coffee probably has rain water already, belladonna.”
you didn’t answer him, but you seemed to snap out of your trance and examined the drenched paper cup that still had “coffee” in it, if you can still call it coffee.
“it’s not for me.”
he knew not to ask for who, what relationship you had with the grave your visiting, anything, really. it’ll come one day. he also can’t bear the inevitable “what about you?” question that comes right after, not right now.
“why are you standing in the rain? you were perfectly fine under that tree.”
“i could ask you the same thing.”
you chuckle emptily, and he wishes he never heard it. it was so devoid of emotion, so far from what he hears from you everyday. it wasn't sadness or anger or disbelief, it was nothing. the nothing you feel when they're forever gone.
“love and grief makes you do silly things, no? like stand in the rain.”
love and grief made dazai leave the only “home” he’s ever known to pursue a life he knew nothing about, the complete opposite of his previous life. it made him finally try to become a better person, see the world through the eyes of someone who wants to live. the biggest change in his life, and he doesn’t even know if he’s doing it right.
he has a ghost of a smile on his lips, “yeah. stand in the rain.”
the two of you stand in the rain with no clear motive of leaving anytime soon. after a few moments have passed, you placed the coffee besides the headstone and faced the tall man besides you.
“let’s go?”
you nod silently, letting dazai hold your hand softly as he guides you away from the grave.
╰─▸ ❝ @[akutails]'s work is not open to reposts, plagiarism, and the likes. (09/13/22). reposted from @[yatsugareboyf].
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