Saw what happened. I don't know who passed away but... Condolences

i saw it. it’s alright.

@chizzy0510 on instagram if you want ever want to message me. i want to know what you heard about me a few months back. 

Hi! I'm not sure if you'll see this but I just want to let you know still. I received the notice that the thing you sent me arrived in the post office and I have decided to not get it anymore. I hope you don't mind that, I just have no reason to receive or claim it anymore. I'm sorry if this will offend you though and thank you!!

Thank you for your kind words and advice and don't worry, I have moved on already since I don't really know, a month ago maybe. I don't think about you or us or anything anymore and I am genuinely happy right now, I hope you are too. I log in here not because I am sad or still not over things, logging in here just doesn't hurt anymore for me which is I am really happy for.

Thank you, I am looking after myself. I hope you are to. Let's not cross each other's paths again, I think it's best for both of us. Wishing you happiness! 😊

It's best if you don't log on here and move on. But do what you must.

Wishing you the best of health.

I heard some interesting stuffs. I wanna confront you about it but yo, I really don't wanna talk anymore.

I'd really appreciate it if you stop appearing in my dreams.

April 28, 2020

I was brought to the hospital earlier. I was so scared, the pain was too much for me. Mom was on panic and dad was trying to stay calm, they are afraid the hospital would reject me. Luckily they didn't but that got me a lot more afraid, I've never been in a situation like this. They took my blood, made me swallow something before x ray. It wasn't that serious, just gastric ulcer or something. I can't drink coffee though and has medicines to drink.

I'll take this tumblr as mine. I hope you don't mind nor open it anymore. Thank you.

I saw this on this FB page I'm following and thought of you. I hope you like it.

I won't let myself break.

I'm not going to break.

Idiot.

Yes, I'll let you stay by my side. I can't tell you how long it'll take until I feel like myself again. I can’t tell you how long that will take. I can’t tell you if I’ll even be the same person you knew when we first met. Obsessed, completely head over heels and prepared to do anything for the one he loves. I can’t guarantee I’ll be the same person. But.. depending on how you react to my new found “personality”, we’ll start to heal together. 

It’s true, you are the only girl in my heart. You always have been, and you always will be. But I also put  someone else in my heart beside you, myself. And I put myself as a priority this time. So... I’m going to stop trying to act like a therapist, and I’m going to stop putting your burden on my own chest just because I love you. Because I love myself, and I want to do what’s best for me.

I think healing individually while staying beside each other is a great idea. You’re my best friend, who just so happens to be the girl I love. I want you happy and healthy, and I want you to find that path by yourself. I’ll only be here to give you advice, and a shoulder to lean on from time to time when you need someone. I hope you feel the same way. I love you, babygirl. 

I wanna stay by your side. I don't wanna leave you. I wanna be with you. Can't we do that? Can't we heal ourselves and be glued to each other? I'm not asking you to date me, I just want to continue loving you while you heal and while I get better too. Can't we try again when we're better? I promise, only when we're better. Knowing that I am still the only person in your heart and the only girl you'll look at the way you always do, the only person you'll love and miss. That is more than enough for me right now. Please? Can't we stay by each other?