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“cool. sake, i know.” very well - for better or worse. a phantom headache makes him re-consider their plans for a moment, but then he remembers the awful, awful words of his professor and re-considers the re-considerations. they steer towards the parking lot where zeke’s clunker awaits among the sea of other student cars. like hell if he’s going to walk all the way to town. “yeah,” zeke nods, hands twisting around the straps of his backpack. blinks a bit at the relieved - thankful? - expression on jiyong’s face and coughs into his fist. “on the way to the lot.” then, “i read some reviews that seemed promising. granted, everything’s a little limited given what we know about your memory so far, but— ” he shrugs, “it’ll give me a good idea of the field. starting point.” this kind of psychology wasn’t his field of study. but that had hardly stopped him before.
the stop at the school post office doesn’t take long. signs for the package, waits. buys a few stamps while he’s there. “shit. heavier than i thought,” he murmurs once the white fed-ex box sits in his hands. it feels like a chegg textbook order. good, maybe. means it’s possibly more of a detailed introduction than it looked online. “c’mon. we’ll open this later,” zeke smiles at jiyong, stepping away from the counter to open the door out with his back. bitter november wind sweeps through and ruffles his hair, chills through his sweater but he laughs, “or you can open it in the car for me. wanna get down with some brain science, ji?”
he was cautious when moving, when following the other while eyes filled with stars would look around and how their surroundings would change at each step —from the halls to the campus gardens to the entrance of the smaller complex where the mail was kept, waiting on zeke to receive his delivery just like he’d wait for someone to pop out of the airport doors. there was this pit of agitation seeping through his stomach layers and he couldn’t tell if it was good or bad —he couldn’t remember if he ever felt like it. probably he did.
so when all was done and zeke was out, boxed smile and box-filled hands, he’d smile along with his bunny teeth showing off in their cutesy charm, his hands fixing the bag’s strap across his chest properly as the weight shifted onto his opposite hip. “ no, let’s ——let’s do this at home. ” the car was not exactly the safest place to be dealing about mysterious memory emergencies. sure, nor the dorm rooms were as safe, but somehow walls made him feel more at ease. and he’d admit —he’d admit of wanting to be with the other, wanting to speak in a place where he knew no one except gods above was looming over them. “ what do you think it’s gonna be there ? some hypnotism thingy? ”
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“it’s——fine,” zeke sighs as he pulls on his backpack. his shoulders drop. “s’not your fault.” the corners of his lips tug up in the smallest smile as jiyong tries to cheer him up. “it’s—” words die on his lips when jiyong wraps his arms around him, tensing up for a moment because when was the last time anyone had touched him? he can’t even think. mind sputters, fizzing out. but jiyong feels all warm and soft, so zeke breathes into it and relaxes. “yeah,” his cheeks darken a bit. returns the hug with a squeeze before stepping back. “oh—no, i haven’t .. tried soju.” he shakes his head. his brain tries to kick back into gear. fails, utterly.
“but, ah, yeah. we can get that if they have it at the store,” he scratches he back of his head and grins, “unless you’re keeping some secret stash somewhere that i don’t know about. which, first off rude.” outside the academic hall, clouds hang heavy over the sun and a little breeze chills through his sweater. it’s kind of dark, even though it’s still the afternoon. “oh—before i forget. campus mail. i ordered a book online about brain stuff, y’know? some psychologist that’s worked with memory before. i think it’s mostly about alzheimer’s patients, but maybe there’s something in there that can help? with you’re—ah,” a quick glance jiyong’s way, “stuff.”
he wasn’t going to lie —whenever zeke would hug him back, even if briefly, he’d feel his heart go all fluttery and his stomach making so many pirouettes he could compare it to a ballerina at a premiere. it was something that was making him feel so good and so agitated, almost afraid that being too expansive would make zeke hate him... and he didn’t want that. he didn’t want zeke to hate him. “ i have no secret stash, pinky promise —but i’m sure it can be found at the liquor store. i know there’s an asian market too, and you can get all the soju and the sake there too. ” soju was pretty strong of a drink, but it was something typical of his country and something everyone pretty much gets a glass of whenever there’s a dinner with friends or colleagues. sure, he probably had to explain the whole drinking rule to the other, but it was going to be funny.
“ oh ? for me ? ” now that came unexpected, but also not that really —ever since he confessed his memory problems and how he didn’t know how they started at all, ever since he showed him the things he apparently had written on walls and trees during some kind of trance zeke had gotten so invested in looking for ways and methods to help his memory up a bit and slow down its apparently imminent downfall. which he appreciated greatly. “ that’s really nice of you, maybe we could give it a try once we’re back in ! ” so he smiled, shining as lovingly and softly as the moon. “ the campus mail is on the left, right? ”
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I was alone, falling free, trying my best not to forget
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zeke glowers. “i’m late because that idiot,” pointed stare at the back of tweed jacket—clearly, his professor leaving the room, “refuses to listen to reason. look at this shit, jiyong.” zeke hands over a rubric, bleeding with red ink and a flourished C at the bottom. zeke’s indignant. “can you believe this? me, a C — on a damn presentation like i’m some stuttering freshman who doesn’t know freud from piaget. said i talked too much and should’ve let my other group members talk but they’re idiots, jiyong! i had to do this whole project myself and i’m——-” he breathes out through his nose, presses his lips together. center. “me. a fucking c. can you believe that?”
he snatches the rubric back and crams it in the messy confines of his backpack. zips it up more aggressively than he should. “c’mon. let’s just go. we’re stopping by the liquor store on our way back.”
zeke was upset and of course, this was something jiyong ddn’t like —the sunny shine off his visage dimming away as he pouted,huffed,frowned at each one of the other’s words and wanting so much to give the other a quick hug just to make him feel better,just to make him remember that even if his brain was really unreliable he was there for him too. “ i don’t know much, but i am so sorry you had to deal with that, hyung, i know you do good.you’re very smart and cool a—and they don’t get it they don’t. �� zeke was just very unconventional,and he didn’t need a super memory to know that. he just needed to think about when he dyed his hair pink and his mother almost screeched the first time she saw him.
but he wanted zeke to feel better, so he tentatively wrapped his own arms against the other, trying a soft pull, a soft inch of comfort. “ we can get allthe fried chicken,and maybe i can make you try soju ! did you ever taste it, zeke-hyung ? it’s what we usually get in korea if we don’t want beer with our fried chicken. ”
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the angel looks nervous, wide-eyed and soft in white silks and wings. so, what is he doing in this den? this delapidated shed, an abandoned warehouse on the outskirts of this warring city? zeke shouldn’t ask—-the same questions could be applied to him—–and maybe … maybe he doesn’t want to know, either. he can taste a once in the lifetime opportunity when it presents itself. and this? it’s one. he smiles, fingertips drifting down the boy’s arm until he can slip his hand in their’s. stops the fidgeting, the nerves with a warm press of his solid grip. “let’s go get you one, yeah?”
and then he’s pulling the boy through the crowd, leading the way with just a look over his shoulder. at the bar, he passes over his empty drink for two mixed ones. something fruity, sweet. laced with liquor to dampen the intuition. zeke glances at the angel at his back to make sure he hasn’t floated away before he passes over a cup — plastic, clear, and clammy — and moves to toast with his own. “hope you like it. careful of the rum. they — tend to give me a bit more than everyone else here,” he admits. for the first time, he’s a little abashed at that. lifting his cup to his lips, he takes a long, heady pull. throat bobbing. rum, a spike to the gut. clears his throat. the music shifts into something throbbing, lights flashing low. a sensual, smooth beat and zeke finds he can’t take his eyes of this boy. “you——wanna dance?”
it was clear that it was no place for him, regardless of whatever name or status would be hanging from his halo-crowned head —angelboy was too pure for the devious devices of the many, too much meant to be kept in glass bowls with glitter roaming around like snow while dew caressed his cheeks to make them rosy. he was such vivid contrast against the other who could indeed be lucifer himself without any disguise except for a drink or two clearly lingering nearby —for the head and lord of all sinners was the most beautiful of them all, many forget.
and there was carefulness in how smaller fingers held onto the cup, an accidental brush of digits catching falange knuckles before clasping around the plastic container, the bright eyes hovering the drink’s indistinguishable surface before returning to the one with the luciferine eyes and delivering but a shy, gentle smile, daring to take a sip and feel the strong flavors making his throat burn and his nose scrunch. he’d wonder so naively how people could like those kinds of drinks when he too was more used to the much luscious tastes of milk and honey, trying again to get another sip as if not wanting to disappoint the one luring him to the dancefloor, barely giving a nod while the throbbing and flashing made him feel a touch dizzy.
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the moments he preferred to spend the most —and he knew it was true, it was written in his notebook, he could tell it was his writing— were always with zeke, and he knew they were genuine and truthful because of how much they made his heart flutter in glee and delight, even when it was something as simple as meeting to have lunch together or hiding somewhere to talk about conspiracies —those were moments he looked forward to and always wanted to enjoy the fullest, moments that would confirm even more how strong and how real his love for the other was. he wondered if zeke would like him back. probably not, but he was okay with just being friends, too. as long as the other wouldn’t leave him alone in the dark.
that day wasn’t that different —he was waiting for the other to be done with his class so that they could go downtown to get treats for the documentary they wanted to watch, big smile on his lips. “ i was starting to think the professor had kidnapped you, really —is he even allowed to keep you all for this long? ”
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of course it’s an angel that attracts a devil’s attention. fucking destiny, or some shit. watching the boy from the bar, zeke runs a hand through his sweat-soaked hair and moves. a few steps closes the distance, and the crowd parts the way like they know they’re standing in the middle of destiny. or maybe it’s because they know who zeke is — who doesn’t? art on his hands, art on his chest. a familiar brand peeks from the wide-open collar of his shirt because he doesn’t bother with the first three buttons of anything unless it’s to take it off. a crown of horns, a slink to his walk. tight pants and a smile——god, that smile. it’d carve hearts out if his hands weren’t so willing to do the work first.
he stops in front of the vision in glitter and gold. wide eyes, high cheeks. flushed? hard to tell. pink bleaches them all in something soft. but he glimmers with mystery. zeke hasn’t kissed those lips before. he wants to change that. with a smirk, zeke leans close, asks, “can i get you a drink, angel?” nothing immaculate. zeke doesn’t want to be. he’s simple and curious and polite as he reaches forward to run his fingers across those gossamer wings, lets his hand drift close to the boy’s arm. looks at him from beneath his lashes, simmering with heat. a look of danger, a look of sweetness. zeke’s no newbie. “you’ve fallen so far. must be thirsty.”
there were so many other details catching his attention, having those eyes moving ever so cautiously —like the way locks of hair shone as if the other had thrown himself in a fountain for the too much heat accumulating within those walls, the way fabric would fold against his frame, the touch of that hand feeling a bit callous but still gentle, inviting to follow. jiyong is soft ignorance, soft innocence —looking at the devil himself without thinking of it as one, but as a creature who perhaps was suffering the undeniable pain of loneliness.
and he had been taught better. he had been taught about not drinking what strangers offered, to always observe caution especially after he got poisoned and almost died, almost —the ache of his limbs still there he remembered. but he was so sure his friends wouldn’t take him where he could get hurt. “ ah ———thank you. ” so at those words of invitation he’d feel his cheeks flush even more against the muted pink neons and his hands still fidgeting with the hem of his shirt, daring for a tentative nod. the place was hot, cramped, and it was indeed making him need for a glass of water.
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the air thrums with a new sort of thrill. heavy music, full bass. vibrates through the overturned crate zeke’s found himself on, blunt burning low between his fingers. mystified, he watches as the smoke curls up and catches the light, plays in the sharp shades of red, blue, pink. all of it bleeds together before dissipating with the rest. he’s not the only one catching a smoke break. someone prattles away in his ear but zeke isn’t paying attention, eyes on the crowd. observing, bored. none of the faces are new. it’s just a saturday night.
“m’ gonna go get a drink,” he says before he’s off. maybe they heard him, maybe they didn’t. who knows, who cares? his mouth tastes like ash from chain smoking and powder from the pill. shitty. not a new sensation, either. sucking out the last bits of good from the rello, zeke drops it to the pavement and lets a raver stomp it out as he heads towards the makeshift bar. gets a drink and waves off an invitation to dance, stacks of kandi bracelets jangling from his knobby, tattooed wrist as he downs the beer and waits for something half-interesting to save the night.
—— and as if the gods are goddamn listening, he gets it.
all but a party he was used to, that was —made of neon flickers and music that felt plastified to the core, and yet had something so foreign and captivating to the eyes of the boy-angel born within the luminous flames of the heo family itself, a boy meant to live completely secured in whites and golds and the most opulent luxury given to those who oh so well mixed being a socialite with having their hands drenched in blood. anywhere but there, for sure.
yet, despite what run through his veins, jiyong was epitome of innocence to the point that friends who dragged him to the rave meant to be a curious escapade had him dress as an angel indeed —with soft white silks of a flowy shirt and cute little wings attached to his back, glitter of gold on hair and cheeks alike, his eyes only looking bigger, looking so confused as the party went on, playing masquerade, laughing from time to time while being tugged around and left to his own devices soon afterwards. the only thing closer and looking somehow safe in a rally of mischief and hardcore miasma seemed to be the bar, and his cautious step bringing him forth —starry irises looking as he was being looked, his cheeks flushing peach.
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zeke brightens, “dude, it’s this whole thing about the phoenix lights — and the filmmaker started at vice, so it’s legit, you know? and she’s the one who did that other documentary we watched, about the freedom of information requests with area 51? remember that one? yeah, it’s gonna be good.” his shuffles through a thick pile of leaves hopefully heading back the way they came — away from the tree. “my roommate’s out, probably hanging with his girl. we can watch it at my place if you want.”
“ yeah, kinda. ” he had some blurry images of that documentary at mind, but he didn’t really seem to care when the excitement of spending the remaining hours with the other were making his heart beat so fast and his smile so wide and glimmery. “ good, i hope he’s having fun with her ! we could order some delivery, and watch the documentary ——vice? really? that studio has some good video editing skills, i can’t wait. ” thankfully it took less for them to get out of the forest than going in, sighing at the sight of the all too familiar courtyard and the profile of the college. against the sun.
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HAVE PEOPLE EVER TALKED ABOUT THIS?!?!
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i only really trust you. the words pack a punch. a weight. a quiet command to himself not to fuck this up — not to fuck jiyong up — more than they already are. it’s a lot to place on a person. luckily, zeke’s got broad shoulders and a body made of curiosity. he can handle this. he can totally handle this. zeke takes a long look at jiyong’s face before he nods, agreeing, “if that’s what you want. all right. we don’t have to involve anyone but each other.” really, zeke doesn’t even know what he’s agreeing to, exactly. but if there’s one thing he’s learned it’s that trust is paramount. for now, this is what jiyong’s decided. zeke trusts himself enough to know the limits.
he takes out his phone and snaps a quick picture of the tree. “gotta say, ji. your body takes you to some weird-spooky places.” a bit of laughter, an awkward attempt to lighten the mood. zeke looks around the quiet forest and huddles a bit in his sweater, turning back. “let’s go back the dorms, yeah? i can think better with a gallon of coffee in my system.”
it was like losing some of that weight holding him onto his knees and depriving him of the gentleness of fresh air —knowing he could count on someone he really felt strongly about, knowing he could trust zeke for real and that his own weren’t the misplaced beliefs of a lost youth. the other made him feel safe, he always did —and it was making him smile, it was making him giggle at that attempt the other was making to lighten the mood.
“ yeah, i know, i told myself that too, like ‘uh what the hell’— “ he’d shuffle a bit in his parka, his nose scrunching ever so cutely as its tip would already show signs of wintry redness, his starry eyes looking at the other lovingly, gently. “ yeah, let’s go! i really want hot cocoa, and we could sit under the blankets together and watch that documentary you wanted to show me, yes? you said it’s cool, and i wanna see what is it about. ” honestly, zeke could even tell him they were going snail hunting and he’d be as enthusiast.
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