Changes

So i’m trying not to go back to my old habits and call you names. I’ve realized that recently I relapsed into my old self who I was a few years ago. Calling your loved ones names to others is not on and I myself, have taken action to my choices. I know I fucked up but only if I could go back in time and fix everything up. I miss you Malinna, a lot.  I hope you’re doing well!! 

Thoughts

I miss you Malinna. I hope you’re okay after today when I spoke to you. I finally had the chance to tell you what I felt but because I’m respecting your decision, I couldn’t ask for you to come back into my arms. I hate myself, I miss everything about you. Your smell, your smile, everything.. I gave you our final hug today and started to tear up when I saw you walking away. It felt like how you walked out of my life into the real world. I feel so empty right now, I don’t know if i’ll be okay. I wish I could see you and we could get back together but I know myself that it wont happen. I’m hurt, i’m cut but at the end of the day maybe it’ll benefit you because you’ll be a happier person. I’ll always love you Malinna Pea, maybe we will find each other again in the future.

Strangers

So you walked past me today, how it felt? It felt as though we have never met each other before. I miss you, I really do.. I feel so alone, so empty right now knowing that i’m no one to you anymore. I took you for granted, I fucked up I admit it. I want to talk to you so much, I wanna fix every problem that we have but how am I suppose to when I know that you’re just going to ignore me? I hope you’re doing okay.. 

Broken

“I have nothing to do with you now”

I’ll always remember this. I’ve been let down before but I certainly haven’t felt this hurt I can tell you that.. I loved you, that’s from my fucking heart. You tore my heart into pieces, I don’t feel anything but sadness right now. Is this really happening? Is the person I truly love leaving me again? Oh wait, it is happening, it’s me.