Caffeine Birb

Today I learned about Prionops plumatus, the White Helmetshrike, who looks permanently strung-out on caffeine, and I can’t stop laughing….

Hey! Hey Jeff! Pick me up another triple espresso on your way back!

“Become a mother!” they said. “It’s so rewarding!” They said. Fuuuuuuuck, I will never sleep again.

Everyone can hear the grass growing, right? I mean… it’s not just me… right?

Oh my f*cking GAWD, Randy, will these damned kids ever SLEEP????

WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?! QUIT JUDGING ME!

What use is this life if you tell me I've lost my chance to love you? I refuse to walk away from you, may even the last man on this earth come and call me foolish. I'll spend my days and months and years hanging on to you, to make sure we are together for the ride, if never again for each other. Its just. Scary. I'll kill myself if i can't have this

“Captain’s log, supplemental: the Enterprise has encountered an alien life form who identified himself as ‘Ziggy’”

Yk I'm trying really hard and i feel suicidal with these thoughts like. Ami ki dosh korechi. Ami ki korechi. Rojdin na khub dukkho pai ei jibon ta theke. Khub. Amake shotti o bhalo bashe na. Amake na, amar bondhutto ke o appreciate kore hoy toh, kintu o amake bhalo basha bondho kore diyeche, amar shathe chepe chepe boshe thaka, kaadh e haat rakha. Ami shotti ei jibon niye beche thakte chai na , khub koshto hoy amar, amio chai je keu amake chak, amake keu chay na, khub nijeke, neshay rakhi mon thik rakhar jonno and aar parchi na ami. Egulo next 15 mins e ami bhuliye debo, haat kamre rokto ber kore bhuliye debo. I'll do it one day, and i won't tell anyone.

Today, i remembered that i feel unfulfilled because i keep telling myself that this relationship is my only purpose in life, and in doing so, put the burden of keeping me happy upon my beloved.

So instead, here's a picture of the chingrighata bhery. Maybe I'll never see this sight again. Note the fog, and the lake from which all the water has been emptied (?)

So, because i use a mod apk for spotify. It was stuck on sextape by deftones for the longest time. I heard it like. Constantly, sucks to be someone who doesn't download all their music hahahaha.

Tomorrow. Tomorrow i have planned to wear my cool long sleeved shirt and my even cooler. Opeth shirt. I am so cool, everyone is gonna love me omg. I am excited this is the first band shirt I've bought on my own, i am indeed, an enjoyer of the music

I was meant to be a character in a low budget horror movie in 2005 wearing a short sleeved shirt over a long sleeved shirt to signify to the audience that I am an enjoyer of music

Dearest diary, today I've given up, and I've chosen to give up for the rest of my life. I've given up on my love, because it just. I want it to be real. That's all. It's simple, i just don't know why i need to fuck it up everytime

While speaking to my beloved today, she said something. Don't worry, many men have fallen asleep to my poetry. You won't hurt my feelings. And

How dumb do i have to be. How fucking dumb did you even make me God?? Its about her feelings. I thought to myself then, yes i know it won't hurt your feelings but it hurts my chances with you and???????? Am i ACTUALLY DUMB? its always been about her feelings. Its her feelings that matter. Its her heart that matters. Is that so difficult to understand? To love a person you must want to love the world for them. To create happiness for them. Not because you want them to like you but because you want them to be happy.

I sincerely swear if i ever forget this I'll be very upset with myself. Realization has come too late, but i hope it stays

I'm back to cry, and i miss loving so much. Yk dearest, yk i would kill myself if you ever left. And this time ik, leave you will and it will be the end of it. The end of it all. I really hate. Disappointing you. I really hate causing you more harm than you need to be exposed to. I really hate myself Dearest. I do not want to add to your troubles please. Please God, please help me be a better person. Please give me chances to show her i love her. Please God I beg of you. Now i even know what i can do to make her happy, but yet? I cannot love? I cannot love her? But then what is within me diary dearest? I really miss you my love, and i miss being us. Ik its not there anymore, we walk in a line rather than with hands tightly held. I miss us so much Dearest. You'll always be my one love, at least if nothing else, i can make sure all of me is for you, if nothing else then i have not taken a decision that keeps me away from you, i do not wish to ever do that again. I send you my best dreams tonight, may you keep dreaming of tender love and men with rosy cheeks.

Ah yes thanks. My transformation into an old warty toad can finally begin

Christina Rossetti, from "Echo", The Complete Poems

— Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things: A Novel

I want to share with you Diary dearest. The time when my beloved had wished me. I live you, for my birthday. I live you too, beloved. I live in your heart, and there has been no comfier a home. Thank you, thank you for everything my beloved.

rent free and relentless (jamaal may, "macrophobia: fear of waiting")

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I would like to show this to my beloved. May they forever have ants to fight, may they always enjoy the comfort of familiarity and warm afternoons

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Kim Addonizio, from 'The Women', Wild Nights: New and Selected Poems/excerpt from 'The Complete Works: The Diary,' Virginia Woolf