it's like theres a hole in my heart that can never mend itself

texts from christmas

You're doing great, I hope you continue to recover well. Every day can be hard but there are always going to be things that you can appreciate and enjoy even if it feels impossible sometimes

hello anon!!! >< thank you so much.. i hope wherever you are and whatever youre doing, youre healthy and happy. i hope youll keep surviving and enjoying life too!!! i love you lots!!!

this goes for everyone else too.. living is worth it <3

piece that i did a week before my suicide back in march 2023. i never gave it a title but it's very dear to my heart

Hello i just came to vent alittle im not sure if this allowed though...

Is it normal for a parent to yell at you for having 'bad' hand writing or spelling Wednesday and science wrong? Im 15 and i just feel like he is being a massive dick about it. Only im going to read that why are you bothered???

im so sorry you had to go through this anon.. i may not be the right person to give opinions on this BUT STILL!!!

i think it would be a LOT better to use a gentle voice while correcting your kid. yelling is kind of counterproductive imo since it stresses the kid out but im not a parent so.. ahaha..... my dad does this too (the yelling part) and i can tell you it shaped me badly growing up.

again, im so sorry you had to go through it anon :( i hope you feel better after venting.. <3

its sunday...

good morning.. T_T im currently working on like 6 assignments that are due tomorrow. my good for nothing group project members are shoving all the work onto me just because they think their grades will turn out better if im the one working on it ahaha... i was too scared to say no. im scared that everyone is going to think less of me if i decline to do this. this sucks. but oh well.. im used to it so i will do my best today too. i hope your day is better, everyone...

don't give up

i adore you, hope you’re well <3

this is so old oh my god IVE BEEN WELL!!!! i have found myself thinking about you and your kind messages everytime i feel down so.. i want you to be happy too wherever you are ^_^

im proud of you for trying your best, please stay alive !

hello dear anon!!! uwah.. i love you.. im so glad youre still here too, anon <3 please make sure to be kind to yourself today!! or tomorrow.. if youre sleeping soon! take care okay!!

everyday life . when will you break the cycle

its a normal wednesday...

i finished 3 classes today! it was hell.. i had to carry a presentation but im glad it all went well. i am now currently studying for tomorrow! theres a quiz that i will have to do on genetics and we will have a lab session for agricultural extension.. slowly i am starting to function again. im hoping i can keep this up!

and for everyone reading this i hope you know that youre doing well just by being alive <3 keep it up too, okay?

eve update!!

hello.. im now 19 years old and in my 4th semester of college. ive been recovering from my suicide attempt (from march) and i think i want to thank you all for showing me support for my past artworks.

from time and time again, i come back to everyones words on here and it makes me smile to see how many of you find my art to be relatable. ive always wanted to create something that helps others to know that.. theyre not alone in this world (am i even making sense haha) and id like to think that ive achieved that.. even if its just a little bit.

im going through a rough patch again but im finding myself still kicking. i want to be alive so i will fight for it again and again. with a few vent art here and there.. maybe. i missed drawing on here so hello! i hope i'll be able to draw something soon again.. even if its not heard by anyone. ill be happy just being able to leave my mark on this world teehee...

hello everyone

we do a little drawing

Glad to see you are back here. I know life is not easy, but please keep on trying. I am blessed to have you on my dash.

hello! thank you for the encouragement, hehe.. it's been a particularly rough day today.. and your words have helped me to regain that little hope i have left, of how there could be better days ahead. i hope your days go by pleasantly as well!! take care! ♡

hi hi!! i've been feeling better... but today sucks so much.. i woke up feeling all suicidal and alone.. doesnt help that im practically home alone for a week.. wahh..

my real name is gabriel. as in the messenger angel. sucks that i once tried to rid myself from the title itself, though. hehe. here's to 5 months of me being alive since being brought back to life after my suicide.