in a truly baffling turn of events, my new doctor is refusing to prescribe my medication unless I go to a service with a 7 month waiting list so I can be re diagnosed with adhd for the third time overall and for the second time by that particular service
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the other main takeaway is that it wasn't some specific unique punishment from the universe to remind me that ******** university is racist, it is in fact just the standard punishment that institutions and individuals level upon any black person who has the nerve to exist within prestigious white institutions
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still like upset and angry about what happened earlier today but think the main takeaway for now is that if I want to heal I have to stop opening the wound
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you come into MY house on the day my mutuals are to be married and send me an evil boop ?
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This night, I say the name of the knife that wounds me still:
your hand almost gentle on the hilt; desire sliding neat
between my ribs, skin bruising soft as the rot-sweet peach.
I am reaching now for the pit of my heart, I am praying to you again.
I surrender my grieving made offering, I hail the winter
giving graceless way to spring—beg forgiveness by that awful
reverence, which I offer both what I love and what I fear.
Ode to Goncharov (1973), Yves Olade
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something v funny about people trying and failing to redeem abusive relationships in fanfic. like 250k words later and it's like, my brother in Christ I hate to tell you this but this is still abuse
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ik I have a chronic mental illness and so this shouldn't suprise me but honestly the fact that I just feel bad sometimes for no reason and there's nothing I can do about it is so unbelievably fucked up
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10 years since I started writing myself letters ever year on new year's day (or close enough). wild.
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was hoping my short christmas break would fix me but back at work today and immediately having the same breakdown I had two weeks ago bc I just have no idea how I'm going to do this lmfao
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finally watching iwtv and Paul and Louis are soooooo cute . the little dance I'm 🥲
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reblog this with what you’re proud of accomplishing this year in the tags! (this does NOT mean work-related!!! this can be personal growth!! relationship growth!!! a hobby you started!!! mental health challenges you faced and are working on!!)
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Reblog to have the most homoerotic year of your life 2024
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