I cannot express how jarring it was after being raised by a "Porn Addiction Coach" to get into a relationship with a woman and come face to face with the fact that she did actually want me to sexually desire her.

Like, in Evangelical Purity Culture, male desire was basically poison. It was a threat. It was this constant temptation that would destroy everything. And even after leaving, in the sort of queer, feminist spaces i spend most of my time in that wasn't something that pretty much anyone was spending time actively dissuading me from feeling.

But my desire is good. It's not something that I'm being accepted in spite of. It's a positive thing. It's a bonus. Not even just vanilla stuff, all the stuff I'd convinced myself were these weird terrible desires that were shameful to have.

It honestly took me over a decade to fully accept that. To stop dissociating during sex and confront that I was, in fact, being a massive perv and that was fantastic and preferable and that I could accept that into my self-image without shame or self hatred.

But it's important to do. It's important to leave relationships that don't welcome that part of you. To know that your sexuality is valuable and valid and worth owning and celebrating. Because the alternative is just...not being. Either existing as yourself and repressing the part of your identity that is sexual or allowing that sexuality to exist but turning off your self while it does.

“Please don't disappear ”

you cant ever let yourself forget what it felt like to be 15. how adults treated you. being treated without a shred of respect because people think youre too young to have thoughts and feelings of your own. the lack of autonomy. you cant ever forget that because if you do you might become the kind of adult who treats kids like theyre not people

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What I came to appreciate about KDJ narration is how well it mirrors the experience of constant dissociation. The physical aspect is there but it's second to the narration in his head, to his plans, to him judging the situation and then acting out his plans. KDJ feels so separated from his body and his emotions (which are also based in the body) and we can only see what he sees - a world of action and thinking but almost no physicality

Lively Paradise 2024, A Gumi/Gakupo/Una concert, Is Set for August

Date: August 10, 2024 (Time TBD) | Streaming Ticket Price: 4,400 yen

The concert will be performed at harevutai -IKEBUKURO LIVE SPACE and streamed online. As they've met their first three crowdfunding goals, Gumi, Gakupo, and Una will perform 18 songs. The stream archive will be available for two months after the concert for ticket holders.

Crowdfunding

Crowdfunding tier options include perks, such as merch, and higher tiers include Gumi's new VOCALOID6 AI Megpoid SOLID voicebank. Supporters can request songs in the notes section before checking out. Crowdfunding ends soon as they work towards their final goal.

Announcement | Crowdfunding

Crowdfunding ends April 30th, 2024 at 23:59:59 (JST).

when i came out as trans i had an old friend from my church days message me to congratulate me and ask me for my name and pronouns. and i was shocked tbh cause he was such a head-deep-up-the-church’s ass kind of guy so i was super wary.

and after digging a little deeper i found out that he was very supportive of transness, saying that trans men are men and trans women are women

BUT

he also believed in the church’s gender roles meaning that trans women had to marry men and be submissive wives and trans men had to marry women and be strong christian husbands.

which is like ????

the weirdest and most surreal form of trans inclusive misogyny i’ve ever seen.

the Columbia University arrests are worse than they seem. They're arresting protesting students for trespassing. It goes without saying students cannot meaningfully "trespass" in the common areas of a university they attend. So Columbia University has suspended all student protestors from their institution, in the process revoking their access to housing, their belonging, and most crucially damaging their academic futures. We are witnessing full scale silencing and removal of anyone of conscience from the next generation of academia.

Tech bros who think digital is forever and that uploading your consciousness to a computer is immortality crack me up. Like bro, you'd be "immortal" on the computer for like a year until your own company sends out some software update that makes you incompatible and whoops, there goes TechBro.soul into the great Recycling Bin in the sky

春のこもれび

sunny day

do you wanna kiss covered in blood? can we kiss covered in blood? when are we gonna kiss covered in blood?

dont you dare call me a fucking fake gamer i think about dick every moment of my life.

time is moving so fast and being alive on this earth is so scary and im not even in love. whatever. *watches another movie*