The truth is that those negative beliefs we hold of ourselves do come from somewhere. Maybe someone told you you were unworthy, lazy, stupid, ugly, unloveable. Maybe someone made you feel that way by the way they mistreated you. Maybe you can't really remember anything bad, but you also can't remember moments anyone told you you actually are a beautiful person worth caring and fighting for. Maybe you've been ignored a lot. These are the reasons why you think negatively about yourself. Not because it would be true, because it's not, but because you've received this message in multiple ways, so many times.

But now you've become so wise already, you have the power to realize those messages weren't true. They were wrong because they didn't actually tell you anything truthful about you, only about the messenger. They were wrong because they reflected an incapacity for love and understanding of the other person.

So please be mindful of all the times those bad thoughts cross your mind. Those thoughts saying "I'm ugly, I will never get anywhere in life, I'm stupid, it's all my fault, nobody loves me". They aren't true. They aren't even your own thoughts. They are the messages you've had to hear and feel since you've been a child. You've had to hear those things so much that you started believing them. Because it must've been true if your parents said so, if adults said so, if your peers said so, if so many said so. But this isn't true. And I know you know this too. Deep down. Because it has always felt so unfair. So please trust that part of yourself. And shed those lies and illusions you've had to live in. Now you have the power to stop and undo this brainwashing.

Love flower so much,

إِنَّ اللَّهَ لا يُغَيِّرُ ما بِقَومٍ حَتّىٰ يُغَيِّروا ما بِأَنفُسِهِم

Indeed, God will not change a person's circumstances unless and until they change what is in themselves

Qur'ān, 13:11

As someone who used to view vulnerability as weakness and has since grown out of it, do you have any advice on asking for help when you’re not okay or even admitting that somethings wrong?

I struggle with admitting to it mostly because it feels like there’s no point in saying anything if the other person can’t do anything to help.

Sometimes, it can be hard to tell others when we're not feeling okay, when we need help, or when something is bothering us. It might happen because we're not sure if they can help or because we feel like it's not worth talking about.

To start getting used to this new habit, pick someone you feel comfortable with, like a friend or family that you know would help. Then, be honest and tell them how you're feeling and what's bothering you. Expressing your feelings is really the hardest part because of whatever trauma or past experiences we have experienced before that shielded us and make us resent expressing our feelings. You don't have to expect them to fix everything; sometimes, just talking about it can make you feel better.

If you're worried that the person you talk to won't be able to help, you can let them know that you're sharing to get support, understanding, or just to let it out. Not everyone will be able to help you, but most people will- or at least try. We build connections with others through expressing ourselves. Our wants and needs. Most people you reach out to, who i would assume you deem qualified to probably be able to- have probably felt how you do in that moment.

It is also not a reflection of you if they can't help. This is mostly an internal battle. And once you overcome it, you will also be able to decipher peoples actions when choosing to- or not help. Really it helps a lot of with interpersonal relationships and navigating through life.

It's a sign of strength, not weakness, to ask for help. Start small if it feels overwhelming, because it will at first, and be patient with yourself. Sharing your feelings can help you feel better and bring you closer to the people who care about you. You have to talk yourself out of thinking it isn't worth it if you want to see results and really shift your mindset.

Cukuplah sebagai obat dan teman malam minggu,

Bangun tidur 6.37 lgsg kaget krna kesiangan buat berangkat kerja. Lgsg inget ini hari minggu,

Aku tidak tahu, seperti apa engkau menetapkan garis kehidupan. Tapi ya rabb, buatlah diriku meskipun bukan terbaik versiku, tapi terbaik versi Engkau.

Lagi gaenak badan aja banyak mau 🤧

I got it 🤟🏻#plantszombie

Tenangkan hati~

All fresh 🍃

Melukis keindahan Tuhan,

“Tiga atau empat tahun mendatang ku harap kita bertemu lagi. Kau akan melihat aku yang lebih dewasa, yang lebih bahagia, yang lebih dari segala imajinasimu tentang pendamping yang sempurna. Lalu kemudian kau akan merasa menyesal karena telah melepas aku. Dan aku akan berterima kasih karena telah dilepasmu.”

— Someday it will.

Headache 🤦‍♀️