“WHEN I cheat on you remember this and that this is YOUR FAULT, that YOU brought this on yourself”

...don’t I always?...just do it already. Break what’s left, bathe in my ashes, relinquish in the knowledge I am gone and no longer a burden to anyone I’ve known, loved, or met. You win. I will bow out...I am sorry for the wasted time and space I took up in this world...

Every year when the day meant to celebrate me existing rolls around and literally no one will celebrate with me or attend my party I truly feel like my life isn’t worth celebrating, and wonder if this next year is the one I will stop guessing everyone with my being here...I just want to feel like I matter to people...

Cyril Rolando  -  http://cyrilrolando.tumblr.com  -  https://www.facebook.com/Aquasixio  -  https://twitter.com/RolandoCyril  -  http://sixinside.com  -  https://www.youtube.com/user/Colinlyrador?feature=guide  -  https://vimeo.com/aquasixio  -  https://es.pinterest.com/aquasixio

serotonin? in this economy?

this is good

My soul is ready to receive positive Energy 🌔 as a release negative energy & old patterns 🧿✨

mmm…

I want to eat so badly but now I feel like I shouldn’t but all I’ve had today are a few bites of toast and tomato soup and I threw them up...I’m just so tired and sad...

I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore...my mean brain tells me I’m not attractive or worthwhile...and when I told my Daddy I was worried he’s seeking out other women instead of me because I’m unattractive and gaining weight, he flat out basically said of course he is, and snapped at me that if I wanted him to be into me I needed to burn some calories and I’m just....sad and crushed and my body dysmorphia is already awful and now it’s even worse and...I don’t know what to do...I don’t want to be me anymore...

I don’t even know what to do with myself anymore...my mean brain tells me I’m not attractive or worthwhile...and when I told my Daddy I was worried he’s seeking out other women instead of me because I’m unattractive and gaining weight, he flat out basically said of course he is, and snapped at me that if I wanted him to be into me I needed to burn some calories and I’m just....sad and crushed and my body dysmorphia is already awful and now it’s even worse and...I don’t know what to do...I don’t want to be me anymore...

One day, I will stop being a coward and erase myself...and I think everyone around me will truly be happier when I do...

the Ghost hoodie!

be prepared for halloween at any time of year!! (please credit me if you use this in another post!)

MCR albums QR for ACNH

Do you find it needy when she misses you and asks (not demands) to be near you?

I take it as an expression of love and desire, and appreciate that I’m lucky enough to have such a wonderful little creature that is so taken with me. 

It is not needy to want love and affection. It’s human. 

JD