Step 1: you watch it

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March 15th was a very special day for me. Blah blah blah March 15th was the day Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure became my special interest blah blah blah inspired me to draw again after considering quitting something something my art improved a lot in the 4-5 years since I picked it back up blah blah something creative endeavors I’m creating things I didn’t know I could achieve because of silly cartoon blah blah getting back in touch with fem things like hair/makeup I rejected as a kid finding my style blah blah rediscovering love for music finding my taste blah blah something about trauma and escapism I guess Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure is one of the very few safe spaces I have as an queer person living in a very conservative home. I’d throw Scott Pilgrim in this category too. Comfort series, special place in my heart love love blah blah love five years worth of collecting blah blah didn’t make post on March 15th bc I had work and was tired.

I finally caught up on Jojolands and the latest chapter ripped my heart out of my chest.

Jojo stand idea Bullet for my Valentine and it’s just a gun that actually works

I found Anasui’s shirt.

I haven’t posted on main for a minute but I wanna say I still love and adore Jojo’s.

Ive been super focused on Scott Pilgrim (my other special interest) atm but im still here unfortunately. You’ll never get rid of me.

I also had some irl troubles. :P

I want to go to there…

I CANT WAIT A MONTH FOR A NEW JOJOLANDS CHAPTER. ITS TOO SPICY I NEED TO KNOW IF DRAGONAS GONNA LIVE OR NOT.

jojo's bizarre adventure is such a beautiful epic of human connection and passion and it is a legend of a universe that had to exist for a new one to be born and people fighting for a life they will never get to live and risking their existence to save what is dear to them and ensuring the survival of the human race but people will look at it and be like "haha silly ghosts go ora ora ora ora ora" like NO it is on par with the works of homer to me it is mythology it is a piece of human culture it is a message to keep fighting so that someone else doesn't have to and to love because someone else doesn't get to ITS NOT JUST WEIRD OUTFITS AND GAY ITALIANS

There needs to be a whole case study on artist TikTok. The amount of hatred and toxicity there is insane. That fucking app single-handedly made it so I never want see another artist or to share my work ever again.

Almost every single time I’ve posted a piece of my art there I’ve gotten so much hate. I’ve gotten comments making fun of my disability, making fun of my skill set, making fun of my current situation as well as doxxing and death threats just because I don’t draw as well as everyone else. Because my artstyle is bad. It’s so infuriating.

I’ve always been super self conscious of my work for as long as I can remember, being on TikTok just made it even worse. I can’t pick up my pencil without this voice in my head telling me I should just quit right now because there are 10,000 artists who are half my age and much much more talented and skilled than me. Pair that with at least 500 AI programs that could whip up something in 10 seconds flat.

I used to feel so proud of myself for seeing something through that I just had to share but now I just can’t take pride in anything I do because it’s not and will never be good enough. My stepparents shitting on my hobby hasn’t helped either. Drawing is seen as a waste of time at their house. It’s not a “real” hobby, it’ll never help me in the real world, but that’s it’s own can of worms I don’t wanna open right now. It feels like the whole world is telling me to quit.

It really sucks too because I’ve been at it for quite a while. I found a unique style I really enjoyed. A style that combined everything I loved as a child. I worked really hard to get to where I was but I just can’t take pride in my style anymore. According to the comments it’s too childish and cringey. It’s far too late to try and change it because I don’t actually know how to draw anything. I never went to an proper art class so I never got to have any real art experience. I can’t draw hands, proper anatomy, realism, still life, anything. I feel like it’s far too late for me to learn how to actually draw anything nowadays. The yt tutorials don’t help. Maybe it’s the AutiHD I don’t know. I just don’t learn that way. All I know is that it’s too late for me. I’m 21. I should’ve had this shit figured out years ago. I’m too old to be a beginner artist.

So I guess that’s it… my career ended before it even started. I had a …run. I can’t say for sure if I had fun or not but it certainly has been a ride.

I hate drawing these days. My art bad.

Hey guess what was announced today.

He drops December 8th

I JUST WOKE UP AND TOORU HAS BEEN ANNOUNCED FOR ALL STAR BATTLE.

Hopping back onto Reddit was the worst decision I ever made holy shit.

The harsh reality that all of my stuff I put in storage against my will are gone now. I have nothing. Nothing but the Jojo stuff I have now.

My unattainable Christmas wish is to get a second “Tubby Jolyne” (my favorite Jolyne I hug to sleep) and stuff her with some weighted bead things. I keep seeing weighted plushies on TikTok and I really really want one but I also want it to be of my favorite comfort character.

Picture of my Tubby

Maybe I should’ve taken better care of Tubbs because she might be rare now. I can’t even find a listing of her on eBay anymore…

JOJO WORLD IS COMING TO NYC AND I WANNA GO SO BAAAAAAAD. I WANNA GO BUT I’M SCARED OF GOING PLACES BY MYSELF. MY SEVERE ANXIETY COULD NEVER.

A few weeks ago I had a dream where somebody DM’d me to do an edit of the stardust crusaders opening to true north by Knuckle Puck for their birthday and I responded “NO WAY HOWD YOU KNOW I WAS STILL WORKING ON THAT.”