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xanaroker · 1 month

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I blacked out and they became my third favourite ship of dunmeshi idk

#dungeon meshi #tragones y mazmorras #delicious in dungeon #cithis #flamela #pattadol #yuri #i love evil women

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xanaroker · 2 months

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I just... wanted to be your friend.

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xanaroker · 3 months

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labru is like “what if i was really good at reading social situations and i understand the body language and motivations of almost everybody i meet except YOU, because you LOVE MONSTERS and you’ve got no interest in people and i DONT understand you and that TERRIFIES me to the point where i regularly think about k*lling you . but i won’t do it because deep down i’m kinda obsessed with you and i want to know you and i want to know how you see the world so different from me . which is even scarier. let me stand by your side please i can be useful.” and i was meant to what? go on with my life normally after that?

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xanaroker · 3 months

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#I fking love Kabru OP this is an AMAZING analysis

Honestly I don't think I'm qualified to make this post, I just don't know if I can make coherent enough words man. But the thoughts are in there and I will try to articulate them. This is probably going to be mostly images though. anyway yeah KABRU POST.

A couple nights ago (at approximately 2:30am, lasting a little over half an hour) I had a bit of a moment about Kabru. That, too, was mostly images- most of what you see in this more concise post were presented then as well. I think my main points of the "moment" were about Kabru's trauma + self hatred, his autism and/or general otherness, and also a little labru if you'd like..

I think something easy to start with is I wanna point out Kabru's constant back and forth and conflicting opinions of demihumans and how, I believe, thats a reflection of how he goes back and forth on what he believes his purpose of living is- and the general worth of his own life. I've said it before and i've just kinda shown it in images; Kabru is "i think im a monster and it disgusts me" where Laios is "I know im a human and it disgusts me" (i could go more into the latter on another post)

the above are both from the world bible, with the left being from the section on kobolds and the right being from the section on Kuro specifically. Utaya was very near to the desert where most of the kobold population is, this is likely why Kabru is able to speak Kuro's language- he grew up around demihumans. (chapter 48 cover, kobold chapter in the world bible) I won't try to speak for how his mother or the rest of utaya felt about the kobolds but I can say that Kabru was very much othered as a child, as was his mother, purely for the way her son's (kabru) eyes looked.

I feel like its fair enough to say that both kabru and the kobolds were othered, and possibly for similar reasons (villager's seeing them as nonhuman, as monsters) and the fact that Kabru learned their language probably didn't help his case. I think his perception of kobolds (and all demihumans, subsequently himself, as he probably still views himself as nonhuman or not human enough.. deep down) was damaged by the Utaya incident. at 2:30am when I first started this ramble my main comment was that "had the utaya incident not happened kabru would have little reason to feel ashamed for his connection to monsters. and may have ended up similar to laios in that he couldve had otherkin swag" which is just a sort of silly way of saying Kabru could've learned to love the thought that he is possibly nonhuman or at least not hated himself so much for it.

in the original ramble I said, and quote, "he has been STALKING laios. laios is his hyperfixation to learn how he can ever be loved. he keeps going back and forth so harshly on wether or not he wants to kill Laios and he clearly sees his survival from utaya not as an unfortunate trauma [*] but as a necessary, deserved fate. a punishment for his mother's witchy sins, and for his sin of being non-human. to atone for it all, to apologize for being alive, he tries to better the lives of all humanity. He was set on his way to dethrone the governor of the island . do you understand? im going insane" *i also said somethings about the way he processes other people's traumas and not his own. He's able to understand and even help some people, but he struggles to process his own issues and see himself as worthy of love and life.

^some examples of Kabru being understanding of or helping others who have suffered greatly. I think its also worth mentioning that with Rin (called "Lynn" in that translation) he says "I wish there was a way to get her out of this" though he's insisted and pushed for himself to go into a dungeon;

In chapter 94, Mithrun says "The desire I had left wasn't revenge. All I wanted.. was for it to finish devouring me." and I don't feel like it's a stretch to say Kabru was in a similar situation. Mithrun sought out the demon with no plan on how to kill something like that because deep down he wanted it to end his (Mithrun's) own life, to finish the trauma it caused and kill him. I think Kabru went into the dungeon in part with the hopes that it'd kill him. That the same thing that destroyed Utaya and caused him so much trauma would just.. finish him.

I just think Kabru is a beautifully complex character, I have a lotta thoughts on him and I don't see nearly as many analysis posts for him than I do Laios (despite labru being such a popular ship)

there is no tldr for this post idk how to summarize it. do what you will with this collection of images. have fun. go crazy

fun fact the woman in the bottom left corner is his mother, she is labeled here as "witch"

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xanaroker · 10 months

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Howls room I made a while back!

#ghiblifanart #ghibli #xana art #isometric #cute #howls moving castle #howl #howl room

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xanaroker · 1 year

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Tondemo Skill inverted AU! In which mukouda is a magical beast transferred to our world, and Fel is a CEO now taking care of his nibling Sui!

#tondemo skill de isekai hourou meshi #campfire cooking in another world with my absurd skill #とんでもスキルで異世界放浪メシ #tsuyoshi mukouda #sui #fel #cat #AU

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xanaroker · 1 year

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Some animals I designed long ago!

#cat #dog #mouse #cute animals #kidlitillustration #kidlitart #kidlit #cute

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xanaroker · 1 year

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Any questions please DM me

I use PayPal and Bizum as my payment method!

Shares would be appreciated!!

También hablo español

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xanaroker · 1 year

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Tondemo skill x Zelda! I love the manga so much, and I’m loving the anime as well!

#tondemo skill de isekai hourou meshi #tondemo skill #とんでもスキルで異世界放浪メシ #Zelda #zelda botw #zelda ocarina of time

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xanaroker · 1 year

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Point Nemo: A point in the ocean so far away from land that if you were to end up there, your closest contact with another human being would be in the International Space Station

#fish #space #illustration #point nemo #international space station #digital art

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xanaroker · 1 year

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