So Long Farewell but not really

If you're an 90s or early 2000s baby then you probably know where I was going with the title, but it was too long to fit the whole thing. Anyway let me explain the title and what it means.

This is my unofficial goodbye post I say unofficial because this isn't forever nor permanent. I know most of you have noticed that I haven’t posted an actual fic in months. The last one I posted was the Monica Rambeau x reader back in November. At the time I was still making false promises of posting more in the near future. I just want to say sorry I never intended on those promises being broken.

Back then I still had the drive and inspiration to write fics, but I do think it was starting too fade a little bit. I was in denial about it because I always told myself. I'd never be one of those fic writers who just abandoned my work and left a bunch of fics unfinished. I told myself it was the lack of time, and other priorities getting in the way. That was only half true though.

I'm ready to admit the whole truth now. Which is the ideas for my fics are still there. I still get new ideas but I haven't worked on any of my ongoing series, or a new fic. In months and whenever I try I just seem to hit a roadblock. I don't think its necessarily a lack of motivation or that I lost my passion for fic writing. I still enjoy all the fandoms I wrote for. Its just more-so I'm kind of going through a lot in life now, and something had to take a backseat. So I made the unconscious decision that it would be writing fics.

Between my job which is full-time now with me occasionally picking up six days a week, the everyday responsibilities of an adult, finding the time to work on my novel, and figuring out my life, and myself at this point. I just don't have time right now and don't know when I will again. I felt like it was time for me to finally admit this to you guys. I should've admitted it a long time ago. I'm sorry you guys especially for the ones who stuck around checking on me, and looking for updates. I still appreciate every single last one of you and all the support. You guys still mean a lot to me. Its not easy for me to say this, but for now this is goodbye.

I'll be around on this app but I'm not going too be posting anymore indefinitely. I do believe that one day I will come back and finish my fics. I just don't know when.

I love you guys.

So I finally come to the realization that no matter how many books. I buy it will never be enough and book buying bans don't work.

im a simple girl.. i see book, i buy book, i let book sit on my shelf for months unread

Telling myself this every day here's a meme

“how did you get into writing” girl nobody gets into writing. writing shows up one day at your door and gets into you

One day

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I WILL NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT THIS EVER AGAIN!!! IT'S ALL HAPPENING NOW, SPEAK UP!!! SAY SOMETHING!!!!

I just want you all to know, that if and when this site does experience a real exodus and/or get sunsetted for good, even if we don't keep in touch I'll remember you so fondly. You're the online equivalent of the other kid on the beach where we built sandcastles together; the girl at the campsite where we explored the trees. You're the drunk person who shared kind words in the bathroom at the club, you're the talented artists at the life drawing class or the poetry night in a city where I don't live anymore. It makes me sad that maybe in the future our paths won't cross so easily, but even when we leave this little shared piece of cyberspace, carried away on our briefly intersecting trajectories, just know I still love you

I don't think many people realize how much they've been turned into a bunch of casually cynical jerks.

Someone may come to their parents and say "I want to write a book" and their parents will say "it's really hard to get published".

Someone might confide in their sibling and say "I want to sell my art on "x" platform" and that sibling will say "do you know how many people you'd be competing with? Do you know how many shops are even on that platform?"

I know a kid who once told his best friend "I think I wanna start a dnd podcast" and the friend was like "do you know what the word "oversaturation" means?"

Personally, I don't know why any of that matters? And even if it did, perhaps your response should be "Do it! Do it and see where it goes!"

I mean it when I say that my reading list is longer than my life expectancy.

So while there are literal international hearings about Israel’s genocidal acts, Netanyahu states that “a Rafah invasion is imminent” and that Israel would be “weeks away from total victory once they invade Rafah.” You can imagine what that means for the Palestinians still living in Rafah, with pretty much nowhere else to go with Egypt charging insane prices (literally profiting off a genocide). This coincides with the same day that UNRWA shares that it has not been able to transport food aid since January 23.

Starvation, mass displacement, living in tents, being carpet bombed every other day—and now your oppressor is saying that no matter what you do, no matter what anyone does, your last sanctuary will be bombed to pieces. How has this not warranted an emergency ceasefire? How is the ICJ seeing this and still allowing the US to play with time and mince words and stall on purpose? Why are Arab lives so insignificant to anyone who has the power to do anything to change this?

By the way, for people who did not stay informed about Palestine throughout last week:

Isreal has planned to attack Rafah and to completely close the border to Egypt on the first day of Ramadan. This week is the very last week where we can help disabled people to get out. We do not know when the border will be open again, but it could last month if not a year. And evacuating those people out is extremely expensive. If you can please send money to either of those 2 links:

https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/raindoved

https://venmo.com/u/Rain-Dubilewski

The money is going to Safebow to evacuate kids under 4yo, disabled, and pregnant people. Those are people who definitely will not survive if they are stuck in gaza. They are extremely urgent cases, people with cancer, who need insulin, people with broken mobility aids etc...

please help.

If you're giving at least 20€, you can send me proof of it and I'll count it as an art commission.

@lightning-in-your-teeth @rearranging-deck-chairs @chaosandwolves

28 and I just know I'll always be a kid at heart

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