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☔ that girl diaries // trying to be productive when i feel blue 🫐

not all days will be good. some choices may appear less optimal at the moment, but have advantages for the long-term (yes, i ripped that from my psych textbook). i tried to force myself to be productive today, but i feel worse. i'll be learning from this in the future.

❤️ spring cleaning continues + more cinema therapy

❤️ mindfulness meditation that didn't really work tbh, distracted scrolling did more to calm me down and according to my psych textbook at least, that is perfectly ok 😌

🥰 Chloe Ting arms + core workout

🧠 developmental psychology review

📝📝 Chinese lessons

📝📝 Japanese lessons

🧠 comparative cognition reading

💌: 💙

catharsis: nearing the end

counting down the weeks to freedom (🏫🙅🏻‍♀️) and in need of stress relief (💆🏻‍♀️🕊️🧘🏻‍♀️)...

1. october (tchaikovsky): maybe one day i will record this song bc it's one of my favorites. also really befitting my underlying mood in this latter half of the semester. under all the stress and frustration, i am just tired. i want to see the world. i want to feel the joy of living again. making my life revolve around the confines of school does not feel like living.

2. apparition de giselle (adolphe adam): the music at the part where she's spinning in circles in the "initiation" scene. that's what today feels like. a flurry of movement, a little desperate, and despite the energy, unfulfilled. even soulless. i'm tired, that's all. stupid insomnia - you know that feeling where you're physically tired and when you lie down on the bed it feels like such a relief, yet you can't fall asleep? i don't know why that happens. am i worried about something? possibly? maybe? but during the day, i don't think i feel super worried.

3. mazurka op. 68 no. 3 (chopin): the first piece by chopin i ever played. the way i heard it in my head and the way i played it didn't have as stately a character as this interpretation, but this was the recording i drew most of my inspiration from. i really miss playing piano and the youthful glow i had felt in that era. it feels like ages ago. and with every passing year, it seems i have more pressing priorities like learning how to be an adult, the desire to forge new relationships and tend to them, and establishing my career, so piano consistently falls to the wayside. i don't regret my career choice tho... gladly, after a long-drawn existential crisis in high school, trying to come to a career path that had the best chance of balancing my needs and wants with the world's, i'm still satisfied with my decision. i want to learn how to use my potential to be of service to others, including those beyond my inner circle. i also want to practice piano after my dreaded winter exams. i will make time for both. 4. rainy day coffee shop ambience with piano music and distant thunder: that satisfaction at having stumbled upon the truth, the solidness of it finding a home in my chest. ☺️ i finally figured out what's wrong mentally and now i have something to work with rather than just floundering, feeling "some type of way", unable to get out of it because i don't even know what "it" is. i'm 99% sure that's what's causing my insomnia. i feel so much more hopeful and peaceful now with my feelings validated and all. 🥺 (update: i had the best sleep i've had in ages ☺️)

5. i dreamed a dream (claude-michel schönberg): i seem to always cycle through the same songs like i'm constantly circling the same drain. do i really always cycle through the same set of feelings every couple of weeks? 🤷🏻‍♀️ i have dreams i don't know i can reach. some of them feel more like fantasies than dreams... in my mind, dreams are super ambitious goals i don't know if i can reach but that are in theory possible to reach (more variables are in my control and have a good chance of affecting the future in the way i want), while fantasies are dreams that are closer to impossible to achieve (fewer variables are in my control and may not have a good chance of affecting the future in the way i want). i don't know, maybe they just feel like fantasies for now, and really, it's not impossible. idk, i don't have a crystal ball...

6. the sound of silence: i literally mean the sound of silence tho, not the song 😂 so underrated when the mind has been a noisy mess. ... and then in random mindless moments, like in the shower or when clearing away the dishes, all the music comes rushing back, begging to be heard and felt and loved.

7. arabesque no. 1 (debussy): learned about CBT in psych so i'm trying out using the situation -> thoughts -> feelings -> behavior template in my journal so hopefully i can figure out why i do or don't do the things i do 😅 and then maybe branch into some small "behavioral experiments"...not really sure yet but hopefully it brings me some clarity!

19.04.24

I quite like this setup of bujo but this book is about to run out of pages and I accidentally ordered a very mini new one online so idk if this is practical

📖: The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk

🍋 that girl diaries // any pace is good, just keep going 🌼

今日は温かいなといいな日です。(today was a warm and nice day.)

🥰🥰 physiotherapy exercises + low impact workout

📚 read a chapter of Sophie's World

📝 Korean lesson

📝📝 Japanese lesson + unit exam

📝📝 Chinese lesson + unit exam

❤️ journal

🧠 developmental psychology reading

今日は私は好きな音楽を聞きましたとテレビを見ました。 (today i listened to music that i like and watched TV.)

❤️ slow morning playlist for getting ready

🎧 started watching Spy x Family to "practice Japanese" 🤭

🎧 interview with the cast of my favorite K-drama 👀

💌: 明日も大丈夫です。また明日、お休み、終わり~ (tomorrow will be okay too. see you tomorrow, good night, the end~)

Yea the left and right pages don't match. I really regret using that pale pink washi on the left again. I was going to use a darker one, but I wanted to use this pale pink washi as often as I can so I don't have to deal with it anymore 😣

🍓 that girl diaries // i just wanna have my cake and eat it too 🍰

今天我不可以運動因為我的身很疼的。我的醫生說從現在我也不可以跑步。我很傷心。跑步是我的最喜歡的之一運動。而且現在我用繁體中文版因為拼音一樣的。只是好玩，哈哈 😅 (today i can't exercise because my body is in pain. my doctor said from now on i also can't run. i'm very sad. running is one of my favorite exercises. also now i'm using the traditional Chinese version because the pinyin is the same. just for fun, haha 😅)

📚 read a chapter of Sophie's World — the last time i slogged through a book like this i was reading an English translation of The Pillow Book and i swore i wouldn't let it happen again... oh, well 🤷‍♀️

📝📝 Japanese lessons

🎧 Chinese small talk practice — now i can suck at small talk in 3 languages 🤣

🧠 Danish instrumental + writing assignment

📝📝 Chinese lessons

📝📝 Korean lessons

🎧 Chinese cleaning vocab because spring cleaning continues today!

❤️ spring cleaning + cinema therapy

🎧 Japanese vlog + Chinese vlog both from みきさん/Miki姐姐，我的非常非常喜欢的vlogger

💌: mentally, i feel much better today. physically, it's worse. i guess that's just equilibrium, 對吧? 哈哈哈哈哈哈... 😑 google, play fml 💀

Doing assignments day in and day out, went to a new place that opened nearby 10/10 experience. Summer has arrived so early this year! *glass shattering noise*

i am continuously amazed by how human beings have just one unrelenting goal: survive. your brain has adapted to every aspect of life that was seemingly a threat to your survival (parents,school,friends, etc.) and contorted itself to keep you safe. never shame yourself for your patterns, they helped you persist in the past.

you're one of my favourite moots

aww thank you so much!!!!!

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💪 that girl diaries // what doesn't kill you makes you tired 🙃

난 피곤해 와 답답해 하지만 이유는 진짜 몰라요. 내 에너지 그냥 갑자기 없어 그리고 한 것 안 싶어요. 난 계속 생각해, "그냥 시작해야" 근데 오늘 난 이미 다시 많이 여러 번 시작해. (i'm tired and frustrated, but i don't really know why. my energy has just run out and i don't want to do anything. i kept thinking "i just need to start," but i've restarted so many times already today.)

🥰🥰🥰 physiotherapy exercises + warmup + running — i was supposed to do arms and abs today but i've eaten more than usual as one does on days off, so i feel like i need to do cardio 😅

🦋 social hour

📚 read a chapter of Sophie's World

❤️ meditation but it's just laundry and stay by hoshi

✏️ sketching!! (human proportions are so hard and for what 🥴)

❤️ started Year Compass: The Year Ahead section (i already have my new year's resolutions, so i don't know why it's so hard for me to articulate the goals i want to commit to)

📝📝📝 Japanese, Korean, Chinese, lessons

❤️ some spring cleaning + healing poetry reading

🎧🎧 how to keep learning Chinese at an intermediate level + Chinese vlog

💌: 明天会更好。我做了很多的东西因为我想我会觉得更好，但是如果我很高兴，我也想做很多的东西。还是也许我可以只是做够了，对不对？ (tomorrow will be better. i did a lot of things because i think i will feel better, but if i'm happy, i also want to do many things. or maybe i can just do enough, right?)

bonus: ty @winryrockbellwannabe for the tag 😘

i find it so funny that my quiz results say i die and everyone saw it coming BUT WELL SHIT I SURE DIDN'T 😂

also this is possibly the realest picrew i've ever done, like this is legit how i look sitting at my desk "working" 😅

tagging some new moots for a fun break! ❤️ @panda-studiesmed @ilonar0 @perabera @roxysbbg @mortuarymorticia

😇 that girl diaries // a homebody who wants to go home now 🏡

now playing: minimalist jazz 🛋️

어제는 진짜 반대로입니다 🔁 나가왔을때 기분좋아 근데 나도 집을 보고싶어 🥺😅 오늘 쇼핑몰에서 가고 밖으로 저녁 먹었다 🏙️ (i feel good when i go out, but i also miss home 🥺😅 today i went to a shopping mall and ate dinner out 🏙️)

❤️ guided meditation

❤️ tried a new post-shower skin-care routine ☺️

🎧 이타리아에 가고 수있어 때까지, 나나 투어 보자 (until i can go to Italy, let's watch Nana Tour)

📝📝 Japanese lessons

📝📝📝📝 Chinese lessons + unit exam

❤️ finished the Past Year section of my Year Compass journaling

📖 my creative writing project is at ~4400 words and idk where i go from here but that's a problem for next time 🙈 today i just had fun 😛

💌: ending of Nana Tour is so sentimental, i won't say more because i don't want to spoil it in case you haven't seen it but i wanna cry 😿 at the same time it also felt really healing ❤️‍🩹 i'll try to gain the same energy from my short time off as well!

gentle reminder you can rise up from everything. you can recreate yourself. nothing is permanent. you are not stuck. you have choices. you can think new thoughts. you can learn something new. you can create new habits. all that matters is that you decide today and never look back.

Enduring fragment of joy found at the end of the platform where the sun casts down on your back and makes an admirable effort to chase the morning chill away.. The sweet juxtaposition of warmth and coolness enveloping the early commuter's bubble

In a nutshell: I don't know what I'm doing with this spread. I don't know how to work with this extremely pale pink colour, but the washi tapes were part of a set I bought and I don't want to waste it. It's so pale (and poor quality printing) than it looks pasty on its own, so I wanted to pair it with a more lively colour, but it's also so easily overpowered.

Tips are greatly appreciated!