“You’ve cried so much you feel like there’s no one left to cry to. You don’t want to burden anyone with the same chaos you keep drowning in. You feel hopeless and alone.”
— Journal
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I’m sorry.
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“I give because I know how it feels to want”
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lowkey wanna overdose and die but here i am babysitting kids
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depression seems like too weak a word to describe it
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one of the worst parts about being suicidal is that it's such a great accomplishment to not kill yourself when you're in a terrible place but nothing changes around you. you don't get any congratulation for that. even though last night you were sobbing so hard you thought your eyes would pop out, you still have to go to school the next day. you don't get a break after that unless you end up in the hospital.
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it's an odd feeling, not knowing if you're going to be alive by next week. "i should wear this new shirt i bought before i die". "i should finish this painting before im dead". i don't care about anything anymore. i didn't do any of my homework and i fell asleep in a pile of dirty tissues. i spilled a cup of paint water all over my floor and felt no panic or any kind of upset feeling.
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Google search: how to feel grateful that you didn’t die that last time you tried to kill yourself.
How to feel like you
didn’t belong in the ground;
how to feel like you deserved
to survive when so many other people
are living lives so much worse
than anything your eyes have
ever seen. How to stop
feeling like a fucking loose canon
in the body of a human girl;
ready to blow ready to blow at any second any second now.
Google search: how many pills can I take to come close enough to death that people will finally start paying attention?
How many pills to kill the demons
without killing myself too?
How many pills to lay comatose
in a hospital without losing
your life completely?
How many pills should I take
to have people care more than
just a week after ingesting poison
that I am still alive?
Google search: how to get attention without destroying your own body.
I don’t know how to ask
for help without slicing my stomach
in half and handing my intestines to
the people I want to pay attention
to my heartache.
I don’t know how to verbalize my
sickening sorrow when
I don’t know if anyone will respond
with love and reason and empathy.
How do I get people to show me
that they love me without needing to
douse myself in gasoline and light
a match; how do I get them to
care for my well-being
before I am on fire?
Google search: how to be grateful for surviving a suicide attempt.
* Overall, a recent review of 177 research studies around the world found that 4% of people who survived intentionally hurting or poisoning themselves went on to die by suicide within 10 years.
Google search: how do I become part of the 96% who survived this?
Google search: how do I stop wanting to die and become grateful for being alive?
GOOGLE SEARCH: SUICIDE (han hyland)
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i think i'm going to kill myself this weekend.
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im such a curse on anyone that's ever known me im so sorry
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my best friend sent me this today out of nowhere and she usually doesn't do stuff like that she's not v affectionate and i almost started crying i love her so much
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I wanted to kill myself and you were yelling about dirty dishes
12 word story, d.m (via i-need-a-cure)
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wow… this just hit me on a very personal level.
(via kiefeon)
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What do you do when you’re on the brink of killing yourself every night
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