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totallyawr1t3r · 1 month

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I jelly-artstyled them :3 🍓🍊

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totallyawr1t3r · 2 months

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Quick question do you hate Israel cause you’re saying that the indian anon is racist? Aren’t you also guilty since you’re condemning Israel which includes innocent people and defending Palestine? I get and feel pity at the injustice that the people of Palestine are experiencing right now… slaughtering of children and women but it doesn’t mean that Israel hasn’t suffered. Sorry that this may come negative but I just am tired to see people hating on all of Israel and invalidate their suffering because at the end of the day both nations have lost lives, children died, both sides loses. I blame both HAMAS and the corrupt and Xenophobic politicians of Israel that took advantage.

*sigh* I hope you don't take it too badly.... but you're so stupid. And ignorant. And stupid a couple more times.

I'm not even gonna try to defend myself against your false accusations, or even argue because I'm so dead tired of yall trying to think that there's ANYWAY to defend Israel rn when IDF is literally killing children, bombing hospitals, SNIPING KIDS AND ELDERLY.

Anyone who still thinks what Israel government is doing to Palestine because of its "right to defend itself/vengeance against HaMas" bullshit, yall do realise that if they can do it to Palestine in front of the ENTIRE WORLD, you bet your ass they can do it to you as well. You think they won't kill your kids, wipe out the existence of your entire families, make fucking tiktoks over your demise, ruins and dead?

Do you have any idea how idiotic you sound when you say "well, Israel suffered (whether you're referring to Holocaust or recently), um so Palestine should also suffer"?? By your logic, should we let all hell break lose and let the entire world go for ww3 because pretty much every country has suffered at one point or another.

What Israel government and the majority of its own people doing to Palestine is so bad is because Israel has suffered a genocide... and yet are committing one, at a much faster and worse rate??????

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totallyawr1t3r · 3 months

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W.I.P. For a personal project of mine called ‘I wish you were’

TW for Homophobia

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He swallowed, his chest tightening. “Red?” He whispered breathlessly.

HE licked HIS lips, softly pressing their foreheads together, providing Luke the warmth he had so desperately longed for. His heart fluttered in his chest, just begging to be let out. The colors around him glowed brighter, the rope wrapped around his thumb grew thicker. Was this it? He wondered, Was this finally happening?

“I wish you were a girl.”

Oh.

He sat there, his throat itching as fierce thorns bloomed inside him, entangling themselves around his ribs like a parasite. HIS warmth started to sear his skin, forcing him to pull away. His throat itches and itches as he tries to swallow down the sprouting needles.

He took in a shaky breath. “So do I.” He coughed out, flimsily pushing himself off the soiled floor.

He choked, squeezing his eyes tightly as he bitterly wiped away the tears. He tripped over his own two feet while he staggered out the door.

He hacked out a single gray petal, uncomfortably warm and sticky in his palm.

He should’ve known. He should’ve known.

He never stood a chance, did he? He was repulsive. He was disgusting. He was wrong. He was unlovable to the point his soulmate, the very person he was destined to be with, didn’t even love him.

He should’ve known.

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#oc #mlm yearning #mlm #oc: red wing #oc: luke lemon #homoerotic #homoerotism #homophobia #internalized homophobia #hurt/no comfort #soulmates #one sided love #oc x oc #my wips #wip #hanaki disease #red string of fate

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totallyawr1t3r · 3 months

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Yandere mother HCs on Cinder Fall please like how would she treat her children if their were goody two shoes and did what their told , to a rebel child who listens to no one ?

This has been sitting in my drafts forever and I thought about finishing it but I probably won’t ever so here

You guys get the unfinished version unfortunately

Maybe I’ll go back and revamp it, probably won’t though

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[Platonic] Yandere Mother Cinder:

Cinder didn’t know how it happened. She didn’t even know when she began to lose her clutch on You.

You were always a mamas kid, constantly by her side, always doing whatever she asked with no complaints whatsoever. If anything, You continually tried to gain Cinder’s praise and approval. Sure, maybe it wasn’t that difficult to do when it came to You but You still craved it like a bee to honey and she was all the willing to give it to You.

Until, that one faithful day You had said no to her. For the first time in Your entire life, You had the audacity to say no to Cinder, Your own mother.

It threw her off.

She didn’t ask You anything out of the ordinary. Just the normality of You companying her on her usual runs that You, for the most part, seemed to enjoy.

And yet You said no, like some ungrateful mutt.

She asked You to repeat Yourself. Maybe she just misheard You or something else. Either way, she was giving You a chance to fix Your mistake.

“No,” You repeated, narrowing Your eyes in some attempt to stand strong in the presence of Your mother. But she could see how Your shoulders tensed when she glared at You.

You always hated it when she even so much gave you the implication that she could be disappointed in You. It made it easier to control You that way.

Cinder’s fists clenched, fire dancing around the tips of her fingers. “No?” She barked, sneering at You.

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#yandere #yandere headcanons #rwby #rwby cinder #cinder fall #platonic yandere #unfinished

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totallyawr1t3r · 4 months

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(Reblogs appreciated!!) Who's Lila? I've been obsessed with this indie game so I had to draw fanart before I lost my mind. You guys should really check it out if you haven't.

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totallyawr1t3r · 5 months

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Very late Jackieshauna Halloween 🎃 from the wips!

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totallyawr1t3r · 7 months

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A lil low quality Hades animation meme

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totallyawr1t3r · 7 months

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shackie as a ship name has so many layers bc of the meat shed. reject jackieshauna, embrace shackle.

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totallyawr1t3r · 8 months

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if i was Shauna Yellowjackets i would not have shared Jackie’s flame grilled corpse with the other girlies. like YOU want to eat MY girlfriend ??? fuck off!!

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totallyawr1t3r · 9 months

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was waiting for someone to kick his ass for the entire movie. it would've been a lot shorter if they did.

meme ref under the cut.

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totallyawr1t3r · 9 months

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just saw a tiktok comment saying “Jackie is so real for having a huge argument with Shauna and then literally dying right after” and it’s the best thing i’ve seen all week

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totallyawr1t3r · 10 months

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Random Thought but Carrie Au for the Yellowjackets

Laura Lee as Carrie because I think it fits

Lottie & Nat as Sue & Tommy

And because I can’t really think of anyone else,

Jackie & Shauna as Chris & Billy

That’s it

#yellowjackets #laura lee #lottie matthews #natalie scatorccio #jackie taylor #shauna shipman #carrie #i think it would be silly

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totallyawr1t3r · 10 months

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Do you believe Jackie and Shauna have a codependent relationship in canon? and if you do, who do you think is who in the relationship ("giver"/"taker") dynamic?

i think this is a very interesting and difficult question to parse out, mostly due to the fact that they're teenagers when we see them together. being 18/19 really does mean heightened emotion, less frontal lobe development and therefore less impulse control and ability to moderate our interactions with others, more hormonal imbalance, just a perfect storm of codependency. i say this lovingly, as a lesbian who experienced what its like to be a teenage lesbian and did her fair share of insane shit lol, the type of crazy you can attain as a teenage sapphic is fucking unmatched. there is this deep and unyielding attachment that forms between girls in general at that age and when you add romantic love that spark of crazy easily transitions to a wildfire. i think so many people see themselves in jackie and shauna because it is a more shared experience than we like to admit and the show fucking nails it.

when you're in it, you think that you're the only one feeling that sort of intense obsessive consuming need for a person. often you don't see that the other person wants and needs you just as deeply, because we all do our best to hide what we know isn't acceptable. and its true. that sort of desperation isn't healthy at all. we should all strive to be more comfortable in ourselves and to stop putting all our happiness (not just happiness really, because when you're consumed by someone like that every emotion hinges on them) into external factors, especially one person. but learning to do that is a process. we don't come out ready to do that. it takes time and development and independence that you can't achieve when you're that young.

then we get older and we're embarrassed when we look back on those behaviors. we shove them down and pretend they didn't happen as best we can and we definitely avoid talking about them with other people. i can't tell you the amount of times a rush of just total abject horror at how obsessed i was with my high school best friend, turned homoerotic nightmare, turned girlfriend, turned ex hit me in my mid twenties. like your brain starts kicking in and you just go GOOD GOD!!! what was i THINKING??? but more years pass and time makes the sting of things lighter and now i can talk to her and sometimes (sometimes!) we can broach the really fucking deranged things we did and thought and its weirdly healing and horrifying all at once.

now, idk if you're still with me because that was a long intro that didn't even touch on the topic yet, but i promise i'm getting somewhere:

i think that jackie and shauna are fully and completely dependent on each other. i don't think that there is one giver and one taker. i think that they are a beautiful and tragic example of the crazy obsessive entangled love that happens between young sapphics. for me, watching them and discussing them and writing them is so freeing, because it allows me to actually face the harsh realities of unhealthy dependence.

neither of them could ever be whole without the other. and i don't mean that in a romantic hyperbole-fueled manner. i mean that in a truly horrifying way. i mean that to them functionally, they are girls who have body parts as real as any other, that are unattached from their nervous system. jackie's arms are shauna's arms and shauna's arms are jackie's arms. each girl has two hands that touch and do and create and destroy, without her brain giving the okay. each girl has to watch, as an extension of herself does something that she would never ever allow. when they're apart, when they're fighting and hurting, when shauna goes to sleep in the attic, its as though their lungs and their hearts are in another room.

who gives and who takes is hard to answer in specifics, though the simple answer is both for each. but the best way i can put it is that jackie gives more and more in the tangible real world. she tries to anticipate shauna's every need. she gives her the last bite of food. she gives her everything she has and then some, because jackie's biggest fear is shauna taking a seam-cutter to all the parts of them that are sewn together and becoming a separate entity. jackie squeezes shauna tight in her hands and shauna gives more pieces of her body and soul to their shared cache than she wants to.

shauna has an image of freeing herself from the dependency, but she doesn't like to reckon with herself and she doesn't like to see all the places that she expects jackie to be an extension of herself. so when she tries to make space, shauna doesn't even realize that she's not separating them at all. she's touching where jackie touches and kissing where jackie kisses. she is trying to be jackie, but not truly in a jealously way. not in a way that undermines their romantic love. shauna is trying to be jackie in a way that intensifies their dependence, because even if consciously shauna is aging and trying to forge a path for herself with a new school and a new life, like most of us tend to try and do at that age, shauna is still subconsciously trying to fuse them into one being.

and when jackie dies, shauna absorbs her. because she can be both. she's been practicing for this her entire life.

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totallyawr1t3r · 10 months

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