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ddyfckr · 6 months

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if i ever seem curt when talking ooc, i apologize.

i have been in &. out of the fandom scene &. tumblr for a little over a decade. at this point. i'm at an age where i don't have the energy for a lot of these things anymore. i am... afraid of reaching out &. forming bonds. i have realized that this is evidently my fault.

i am always eager to jump in with a writer &. make stories, exchange plot lines, do rapid fire roleplays, bur it always starts &. ends the same way : we're both invested, we make all these scenarios, we exchange in depth metas, we share videos, images, memes that remind each other of our characters, we talk every day for several hours on end etc etc.

but somewhere along the line, i lose them. the other person's interest dwindles until i'm trying to light up the spark in them again. responses become less enthusiastic, less detailed, until all i'm left with is one word responses or even just emoji reactions. until one day, i realize we haven't spoken in several months, sometimes close to a year &. it's not for a lack of trying on my end. i leave detailed plots or messages. or sometimes just me trying to check in. &. i get crickets, because by that point, the person has already moved on to something else.

it sucks.

what trips me out is that this doesn't happen once or maybe twice from the same fandom. this has happened in several fandoms, with several different people, at different stages of my life, playing with different characters. logically, if it the same thing keeps happening to you at several different times of your life with several different people, that tells you that you're the problem. but it's frustrating because... i never quite know how to make it better, how to fix it.

a recent incident has also led me to the conclusion that, just generally speaking, i'm not really likable. the other person was apparently looking forward to writing with me, until they realized that i was someone they already knew, &. all of a sudden, i don't hear anything from them anymore. &. i'm not saying that to get pity points or anything, even in real life, i've been told that i can come across really blunt, rude or selfish. i've been trying to adjust my behaviors, because i never mean ill intent, perhaps my personality may be off putting.

but again, it becomes frustrating because i don't know what exactly to do. what exact behaviors to adjust. previous experiences has shown me, apparently i'm likable to a point. but... then stuff happens, &. suddenly i'm not interesting anymore, i'm boring, i'm repetitive. &. yet i see other people acting the same way i do &. they don't seem to have the same issues, regarding writing &. interacting / roleplaying with others.

i just don't understand.

people tell you it's natural, not everyone can talk about the same thing for several years on end &. yet, i can't help but look with envy to those that have these strong friendships that last years on end &. they can indeed talk about the same ships &. the same plots &. everything.

so i feel stuck, tired &. not really eager to make new bonds because i know it'll end up the same way. i just came out of this very situation. i had a roleplay partner on discord &. we spoke for about just a little over two years about our ship, but then gradually, it started to dwindle. they stopped reaching out, they stopped getting excited to see me, they stopped checking up on me, even when i would still do the same in return. &. the crazy part is that, with all these, i'm never blocked, i'm never ' broken up with', these people are theoretically still�� my friends, but whenever i try to reach out, it's like i have to reintroduce myself all over again. it hurts because, i may have been easily forgetful for them, but for me ? i remember them, i go back to our messages &. i read them &. i have them ingrained in my head because they are people that i want to talk with &. continue engaging with. but the feeling is apparently never mutual.

so this has led me to where i am now, where i do want to roleplay, i DO want to interact, i WANT to be happy to get excited without the feeling of dread, but the pain of potentially going thru the same experience is too much for my mental health, so i just keep to myself. maybe i can learn to hype MYSELF up, to get excited over my own ideas i stead of seeking constant validation. it would be so much easier for me if i didn't care for interaction, because then i could just write all the fanfiction ideas i have, but have no motivation to write.

but i do crave that interaction, so... i just think it's best if i keep everything to a minimum. thus, if you have tried to reach out to me &. i don't seem that receptive, please understand that it's literally not you, it's me. i'm just trying to keep myself guarded for my own mental health, &. i'm not as diligent as i used to be with messages. inbox is always open, starter calls are obviously open if i post them etc. this isn't to announce that i'm changing anything, this is more of an explanation as to why i am the way i am.

thank you for reading xx

#cw negativity #cw vent #❮ * 𝗔𝗥𝗖 𝒊 [ . . . ] ooc : 𖤐 ── mun . ❯

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officialinvisibleanon · 2 years

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Welcome to Starlo's tips and tricks for "Getting Gud" at writing!

((Hey guys! It's me, Starlo. I've often been told that I write extremely well and realistically. So I decided to make a post to help others write as well. This could be a series or a one-off. But I'm not that great of a teacher, so it'll probably be a one-off.))

Lesson 1: GRAMMAR, GRAMMAR, GRAMMAR!

((In my opinion, proper, or at least, decent grammar is crucial to have a believable story. I personally think that a character speaking with the correct spelling of words is the most important part of the story. This is because they are SAYING it with their MOUTHS. So if a word is misspelled or a punctuation mark is misplaced, then the way they are saying what they are saying is changed. Often, it seems like they misspoke, but if it happens often enough, then they seem to have some speech impediment. This, of course, is often unintended.))

((However, narration having proper grammar is also important, if only to make it so other people can easily understand what's going on.))

((Now that I've laid out the importance of correct grammar, here are some actual tips for HAVING correct grammar.))

((They're, there, and their mean VERY different things. "They're" is a contraction meaning "They Are". "There" refers to the location of an object. "Their" refers to something that belongs to someone and is used like "Hers" or "His". I.e. "Oh, you're looking for the file on Dr. Jeffery? Well, their file is right over there."))

((Obviously, you should capitalize nouns and the beginnings of sentences, but capitalization can be used for other things, as well. Say, what if you wanted to discreetly define some Important Words? Or maybe you wanted a character to emphasize PART of a sentence or word, but not the WHOLE sentence or word? You can do a lot with capitalization.))

Lesson 2: It's The End Of The Word As We Know It (And I Feel Fine)

((What if Tumblr removed all text customization tomorrow? Could you tell your characters apart? Could other viewers? You always want to differentiate the speaking styles of your characters to match their respective personalities.))

((For example, Inviz speakers in an often blocky and chill tone, and he uses basic slang, like "chill" and "s'cool" often, but uses more, for lack of a better term, "slang-y" slang, like "Thicc" and "Cringe", extremely rarely. Orange almost never uses any slang, but is still really emotive. My point is, make sure your characters speak in a way that suits THEM, and not a way that suits you. This actually brings me to my next point...))

Lesson 3: You are not the one in control.

((Or at least, you shouldn't be. The plot is everything, right? NO! NO. Shut up. No. You couldn't be more wrong. I'm sorry for being blunt but it's true.))

((So what is most important? CHARACTER INTERACTION. Never ever EVER force a character to do something that clashes against their personality or morals. You could accidentally change the context of the entire story. Why would they do that when they logically would never? Are they hiding something? Are they hiding something BAD? You would never know because such an event would never happen again.))

((So how do you avoid such an event? Never let anything happen without a reason. If you can't answer when someone asks "why?", then do NOT let that character perform that action. Obviously, you can steer your character's in the "right" direction, but be mindful of how they do things.))

((If you have trouble figuring out exactly what a given character would do, just go with your gut. But do not stray from the gut. If you aren't sure, do not try to steer towards the plot, as you may accidentally make the character do something that shouldn't fit them. I know I'm basically reiterating the same thing over and over again, but- it's really important.))

Lesson 4: The End?

((And that's it! Tell me if you have any questions, get Grammarly, and goodbye!))

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headcanons-everywhere · 7 years

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who are these pretty people alex

GingAle - Today at 12:14 AM

dude's Josiah, gal is Olivia, aka Olive!

its a long road until they get together but

when/if they do, there will be sappy junk like

"my little olive" n shit bc anything cheesy you can imagine happening in an old timey / worn down sea-side town?

theyd do it

and will do it

but the idea came from History of Violence by Jason Webely (gr8 song, comes from "100 years ago tomorrow" abt a real historical event its p dark but rlly neat imo)

https://jasonwebley.bandcamp.com/track/a-history-of-violence

that song

n so far, josiah is a tired boy working odd jobs on and off various ships, never leaving the port on them but just doin stuff like matience / cleaning / loading and/or unloading the ship's cargo / etc

other odd jobs are usually tranporting stuff throughout the town for various markets n such, like hauling bags of flour from a ship to the local baker for example, stuff like that

kappital - Today at 12:19 AM

ooOOOOO

that's really cool!! and they're both really cute 80

GingAle - Today at 12:20 AM

n its a really worn down sea-side town almost built in a boardwalk sort of way where you could literally go to the edge of town and hop down the side of the small cliff-like area (which is barely 6 feet high at most prolly) and land in the long stretch of the beach area n watch the waves n shit, which he does in his (rare) free time

thaN K :Dc

only uh

thing

being

hes lowkey traumatized

ok more highkey

kappital - Today at 12:21 AM

FUCK

GingAle - Today at 12:21 AM

highkey traumatized bc, at least as far as im thinkin rn, if shit goes down with battles n what not, its kind of a "all hands on deck" (no pun intended) situation for the town

where any man 12 and over will basically be pulled into it one way or another while the wives n children try to care for eachother and the wounded

which, in itself is already kinda fucked right

WELL

at 17, he was one of these guys pulled into battle for whatever was happening

but you're never told much

just

get out and fight, protect your own and the town, yadda yadda

so he was basically handed a gun and told go

so go he did and he

never really handled a gun before that

and didnt want to be part of it

but somehow found himself towards the front of it all aaaand

kinda

shot a dude on a ship of the ones supposedly invading the town to start shit or w/e

and watched him fall foward and off the ship into the water n hes always haunted by that day

n if it wasnt enough

kappital - Today at 12:24 AM

GingAle - Today at 12:24 AM

it was speculated afterwards that it mayve not even been an attack

it mayve been a misunderstood trade ship or w/e

kappital - Today at 12:25 AM

god dammit

GingAle - Today at 12:25 AM

so he may have just been shoved into a battle of innocent people and he himself took at least one of those lives

so thats haunting his ass atm

and on top of THAT

he lives with his grandfather whos a p cold / quiet person, but will often praise him for what he did that day

which only fucks with him more bc its like "why would u praise me for killing a possibly-innocent person when i never wanted to be in that mess in the first place" n the grandfather shrugs it off bc hes one of those people thats a die hard believer in "War Is The Only Language Left To Speak" and "Protect Your Own At All Costs" n shit so thats fun

buT rn hes just

cargo boy, odd jobs here n there

and oblivious to olivia's crush on him

which is where she comes in

watching this dude carry like 4 bags of flour at once across his shoulders n its like that moment where they look intense and u see the sweat dripping off their face and everythings in slow motion as she sees him n its like

shes seeing Glowing Halo Of God Shining Upon This Boy Whos Probably An Angel Himself

while the most hes seeing a nap in the near future

is a *

sO YEAH she sees him around often being it a small "everyone is everyones neighbor" kinda town and flustered every time

flusters*

kappital - Today at 12:30 AM

shes head over heels for traumatized buss boy

GingAle - Today at 12:30 AM

YEAH HONESTLY

shes the kind of flustered where if theres a flower cart at the local market or somethin and she sees him

she just

not-so-causally-yet-tries-to-not-look-so-suspicious-ly hauls ass to hide behind the large display of flowers

like u wouldnt notice

bc she just

daintily walks over there a lil faster than her normal pace

but if u saw her face directly u would see her Suffering(tm)

like that red faced "oh fuck oh no oh no oh shit fuck fUCK SHIT FUCK FUCK --"

kinda look as shes internally panicking in hoping he doesnt see her staring

bc even behind the flowers

shell glance over

and be staring

kappital - Today at 12:33 AM

shes relatable

GingAle - Today at 12:33 AM

;Dc

kappital - Today at 12:33 AM

I like her

GingAle - Today at 12:33 AM

gOOD

shes overall just a gal trying to survive

both in the sense of day to day life

and also trying to not have a stroke every time she sees him

kappital - Today at 12:35 AM

olivia please

GingAle - Today at 12:36 AM

like legit there have been times where the weather gets hot and hes been working hard so you'll see like, most of his shirt buttons undone to where it shows like most of his torso as hes got this angry-but-in-a-hot-way kinda expression going as hes basically showing off his strength by carrying whatever it is that day on his shoulders like usual

n she just

becomes suddenly!!!! super fucking interested in her bible!!!!

but oh no!!! she forgot her glasses that she doesnt have bc she doesnt actually need them so shes gotta!!! bring that thing up realllly close to read it!!!

totally not hiding her entire face or anything!!!!!

kappital - Today at 12:37 AM

BIBLE

IM CRYING OH NO

oLIVIA

GingAle - Today at 12:38 AM

she carries one around w/ her bc even tho shes not super religious she grew up in a religious family so shes like

casually-religious

buT OH MAN ON THOSE DAYS

SHE JUST

RLLY GETS THE URGE TO RE-READ THE ENTIRE FUCKING THING COVER TO COVER IN THE MIDDLE OF THE MARKET PLACE

PRAISE JESUS AMEN HALLELUJAH

TOTALLY NOT PRAISIN JESUS FOR THAT TONED FRAME OF HIS NOOO NEVERRRRR

honestly shed be the kind of person ud see whos like

she sees him doing something especially attrative to her

and she just

reflexivly does the cross motion across her chest bc god help her

literall y

kappital - Today at 12:41 AM

DUDE FUCKIGN

aw I wanna write for them that's really cute

GingAle - Today at 12:41 AM

8Dc !!!

im glaD U LIKE EM AAA

kappital - Today at 12:42 AM

that sucks dude what if she's like

buying seeds for a garden or something and she's about to step out the shop and dude comes in with bags of dirt over his shoulders

but because she's at the door he steps back and holds it with his foot cause shes a lady

like dude she wouldnt be able to breathe dude she would die alex

GingAle - Today at 12:44 AM

YE AH

like shed

no joke

if she had a lot to carry or w/e and she ran into him n he was like "hey do you need help with that seed miss" shed literally just be like

"oh hun u could plant ur seed in my garden at any time"

"what was th--"

"HAHAIGOTTAGOBYE"

kappital - Today at 12:45 AM

shes gonna burn in hell this is BAD

GingAle - Today at 12:46 AM

PRETTY MUC H

if her fam knew like

they arent super strict or anything

but theyre more religious than her

and so if they knew

itd be like

"honey i love you but keep this up and we'll run out of holy water for the next 2 months in under a week from nearly drowning u in it"

like they wouldnt do anything sevear but itD BE

RLLY AWKWARD

n sometHIN WOULD HAPPEN

kappital - Today at 12:47 AM

IM CRYING

GingAle - Today at 12:47 AM

like idk "ur grounded from going to the market for 2 weeks young lady" type stuff

kappital - Today at 12:48 AM

that's not gonna stop the love demon, cupid,

GingAle - Today at 12:48 AM

YEA H

if he ever spoke to her for longer than like, "i just bumped in to you hi whats up" kinda talk, she would probably die

hes not like

josh / emitt oblivious

shes just rlly good at hiding it most of the time

so eventually he prolly catches on like "?? does she??? like me??? wh--" but doesnt act on it

but if they talk n she says "i like you. a lot. like, like-like you."

hed just be like

"i noticed, yeah"

and you would never see a more priceless "O H F U C K" look on her in your entire fucking life

kappital - Today at 12:56 AM

I noticed yeah

you

you fuck don't say that

GingAle - Today at 12:57 AM

wELL

hes rarely interacted with girls s o

hes got not much else under his belt besides blunt honesty and manners

kappital - Today at 12:59 AM

time to get experience fuckhead

GingAle - Today at 1:00 AM

YEA H

kappital - Today at 1:02 AM

what does he do though does he mercy kill her or

GingAle - Today at 1:02 AM

which part :)c ?

kappital - Today at 1:04 AM

after the

confess

GingAle - Today at 1:04 AM

she runs

shes gone

shes "HAHA SO I JUST FORGOT MY MOM WANTED ME HOME BY--WHAT TIME IS IT?? OH JEEZ IM ALREADY LATE HAHA BYE "

she runs

no grave

grace

no dainty "if i act chill he wont notice"

she fucking bolts

kappital - Today at 1:05 AM

I LOVE HER

GingAle - Today at 1:06 AM

high tails it back to her house, hides in her room, doesnt even take off her bonet or anything as she curls up in bed with a pillow to her face, basically screaming

GO OD

i figurred she might be a tad relateable ;D

but yA shes just

yelling, muffled by her pillow

kappital - Today at 1:07 AM

this poor baby

GingAle - Today at 1:07 AM

n josiahs just like

"?? what just??"

"????????????????????????"

kappital - Today at 1:08 AM

jos you fuck

GingAle - Today at 1:09 AM

IKR

he knows shes embaressed but it hasnt like

sunk in yet

like he knows she gets flustered around him n shit

but it really hasnt like

fully hit him on how in love she is with him

until later when they meet up again prolly but like

at that moment he just doesNT KNOW HOW TO REACT

they dont exactly give u "What To Do If A Girl Confesses Her Liking Of You And Then Immideatly Hauls Ass In The Opposite Direction" pamplets at the drug store or anything

kappital - Today at 1:11 AM

that is true

you gotta wing it

GingAle - Today at 1:14 AM

yAH

n he kinda

sucks at that

but they figure it out eventually :)

prolly meet up after he chases down her bonnet or somethin from it flyin off as she was tryina re-tie it or somethin just as cheesy n when he comes back with it they share a few moments where it clicks like

"aw fuck he really does care for me"

"oh my god im actually in love with her o h n o"

etc

n they actually chat for a bit n suRPRISE she doesnt run away this time bc they met up a few times before already

but shes flustered still n her hands are fumbling so he offers to help tie it for her n he does

granted, kinda looks like shit bc he doesnt know how to do the Exact(tm) method for tying it to look nice

but its still a bow

so after a bit from there, they eventually part ways

and when she walks in to her house her moms prolly like "?? honey why is ur bow so sloppy what did you do" n olive's just like "I Love It"

he eventually figures out how to fucking do it right once they actually start dating, but it def takes a few tries :,)

n thats abt all i got rn i thin K

so ya thats them :,y

kappital - Today at 1:26 AM

that's so fucking cute

theyre so

DORKS

dorks

GingAle - Today at 1:26 AM

kappital - Today at 1:26 AM

theyre losers I love them

GingAle - Today at 1:27 AM

im glaD ;*

#H.o.V.#Olivia #Josiah

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