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fyodorloveclub · 1 year
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Okay hello again i just remembered i made this concept :((
Osamu with a a ghost reader he meets at the cemetery Odasaku's at.
Like one day there just happens to be a new grave and poof, suddenly this ghost wont leave him alone. Like they will CLING onto dazai, even if their body is like really fucking cold and uncomfortable. And dazai, kinda enjoys.
Like cmon we know much dazai has a hard time connecting with people emotional hecantreallydoitoften..
So like imagine ghost!reader sitting on his lap while they rant about whatever topic they have a slight interest in, and they're like talking as if Oda is there with him and like,"people are so reckless i hate how some people just release bunnies and chicks they buy as "gifts" for easter into the wild, its just irresponsible, right Oda?" And theyd be nodding and continuing, and jt just warms Dazais heart.
I imagine ghost!reader to be very optimistic qnd childesh to make the pain of spending all of eternity as a being cursed to roam death.
But one day they just break, and Dazai'a there to catch them.
Dazai comforts them and does whatever they can to help ghost!reader feel a lottle better.
Also it can he totally platonic too??? Or a little like dazai sort kf feels like a guardian to them..? Okay sorry the daddy issues cane out.
I love how my irl coping mechanism is hyperindependence and as soon as bsd men come im like "mmm princess treatment give"
Anway, i really need a hug from the zaza 😔
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this is so cute and unique i love this concept 🥺🥺🥺 the sitting on his lap while they talk to oda im gonna cry fkjdskdjkdsl dazai trying to join in the coversation that he can obvi only hear one side of and reader just rolling their eyes and laughing with oda because dazai "just doesn't get it." i like to imagine dazai comes by and tells reader all these stories from the agency and just his general life bc they basically just live vicariously through him and they love to hear and remember what it's like to be alive. he'll also tell them all about what oda was like in the past and lots of memories they share, and reader being like "oh yeah oda already told me that one. he said you'd end up lying abt that" or something dflkkjdfkjl they're sooo clingy to him even tho like you said it's probably cold and an uncomfortable feeling for dazai and he would wear extra layers but reader has complained they don't feel as close to him that way, and they really miss human contact. and dazai is too endeared to say no to them, so he just holds them and kisses their cheek. i think this would be really cute as a platonic thing 🥺 it probably starts out at first as just a way for him to have a connection with oda, but he starts forming a genuine individual connection with reader. dazai is a pretty nihilistic/pessimistic guy so he probably would have a weird approach of comforting them, but it works well. he'll joke about how he's jealous of them for being dead, and promises that he'll make sure he's buried next to the two of them so they'll be together even in his death. and who knows maybe it does turn into something a little romantic, but idk how that would work askdjjfdk storytime: my lover is a ghost
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ohbuckie · 2 years
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going down to the actual lake with b!bucky and the rest of the band is very fun.
bucky makes sure that you both have sunscreen on at all times bc of his tattoos and he just cars abt you.
sitting on a very large blanket with bucky and he's complaining about the sand in his hair but he was literally throwing sand at Steve and Sam 5 seconds before
getting into the water for the first time and bucky is like 'jesus fuck i can feel my balls climbing back into my body's
getting one of those huge connecting floaty things so everyone can hang out together and bucky is determined to have you on his lap
having very simple sandwiches for lunch
bucky getting tipsy and then clinging to you for a while
Steve getting very drunk asking if you can all skinny dip together (it's the middle of the day and there are families around) bucky agrees bc he wants to see ur boobs
later that night you and bucky do skinny dip and then fuck on Steves porch (he's very mad about it. both the porch and the skinny dipping with out him)
i think the lake house is like a private beach but public lake situation. there’s like a shared dock in the middle and everyone has their own beaches around the shore so you guys are the only ones on that beach but there are other people in the lake
ok yes about the sunscreen. he wont use the spray because he says it always misses spots so he always is asking you to reapply on his back to protect his tattoos.
also yes about the fucking on the porch. it’s late at night and neither of you can sleep bucky’s like ‘hey i’ve never been skinny dipping you know’ and you’re like ‘ok get naked let’s go’ and you get into the water and mess around and you end up with your legs wrapped loosely around his waist and you’re making out and you end up laid with your back on the wood of the little deck thing while he’s PLOWING you and kissing your neck and telling you to be quiet because if somebody wakes up they’re gonna catch you 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 steve def finds out tho because bucky can’t keep his stupid mouth shut and he’s like ‘you guys really skinny dipped without me after i asked you to ALL DAY?’ and bucky genuinely feels kind of bad about it
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I feel like the change from working 24/7 to make negative money to working a weak 40 a week for like a thousand dollars after tax, despite being very good for me in every way, has been very bad for my concept of money
#i literally lived off like $100 a year and borrowed my tiny rent to live somewhere super shitty and eat plain rice every day#and my mindset is still like half there and half 'im god now'#im not so i cant be insane but i can afford to live somewhere nice and have acheived my dream of being able to eat out#without checking my bank acct first. which again is all i ever wanted from a job#i can do the same with expensive sex toys tho which is giving me some kind of prion disease <3#i cant wait for my cat to have her surgery so i can know how much savings i have left so i can order my fucked up body pillow#i also just want her to be healthy finally so she can live w me. insane comfy lifestyle. cat. food. sex. its everything 😭#also i hated being in school so much. going from like 25 years in hell to being in the best place beyond what i was able to imagine.#its fuckin insane#to be fair i also have a very measured concept of paradise. and i have some gripes#like theres no dunkin donuts right outside my work. its like 3 blocks away#theres a starbucks in the building i just hate how expensive it is#and i wish i could afford a house but i mean...thats realistically in my near future if i actually want it#idk tho bc some of these apartments here slap#i might live atthe upper end of what i can afford for a few years to like. taste the high life before i calm down and act normal#then i can save money and get stable#idk i hate being stable i wanna be a travel nurse and so everywhere#the money's so insane rn i hope it stays that way#actually i just hope all nurses unionize but its more realistic to pay all of us 6 figs for 4 months of work apparently#you wont catch me complaining abt that tho
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neo-shitty · 3 years
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toffee!
no dont apologise! i didnt check until just then so np :)
mmm yeah it is a bit trippy. hehe ITS TRUE THO. yeah sadly i think ur right, and tag blocking is probably a good idea. sometimes smut written well or not in excess is okay but goddamn when its abt 01 line and thats the whole fic... *silently blocks tags*
hehe i do that all the time lol this conversation is carrying on threads from a month ago :) mmm yeah ur probably right sadly, same. HA HE DIDNT HAVE A CHOICE and now i have someone to talk to abt them, so thats good! I KNOW felix was actually the one who got me into skz with his iconique gods menu line so i guess i have a soft spot for him. i always tell myself my bias is chan but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ guess im more whipped than id like to admit. mmm yeah that does make sense dw i hope they do that as well. YES king seungmin hIMSELF. GODDAMNIT DONT GET ME STARTED ON MINHO IN GODS MENU I DIDNT EVEN KNOW HE WAS PART OF THE GROUP UNTIL I STARTED GETTING MORE INTO THEM. BITCH (affectionate) THE LINE DISTRIBUTION HAS BEEN UTTER DOG SHIT but *deep breath* its better now so were moving on adn hoping it stays that way. sis same but i may or may not have gone thru a rlly depressed phase and actively sought out the elimination episodes so i could actually force some tears out of my emotionless shell of a heart but what cna you do? lmaoo i feel that irl, binnie deserves more vocal lines. yesss channies accent is rlly prominent then, i think also the way he structures his phrasing? is more english speaking than korean? but yeah i totally get what ur saying. AJKSAL lmao
okay then! im excited for whenever it gets done! (maybe tag me?) ahh the cold shrivelled heart of a dark au writer beats again at the thought of torturing another poor characters very soul (/j) :(( yeah that would suck not being able to see them. ohhh ur on the other hemisphere to me! were just going into spring rn. mmm smth to look forward to! YES you put it into words. they rlly are pretty independent from the company (remember how jyp rejected that other dudes songs after like 3 seconds and then how he was apparently nervous to show the song hed written to chan cos chan was so good at writing hits ahhh sweet revenge) mmmYES we rlly need a mute and remove notifications button for our brains dont we?
YES CORRECT i totally agree. some people jsut dont give it a try, adn assume its bad cos its korean smh racist assholes. yes! im coming up to my 6 month anniv actually! sis sAME, i feel like theyre being tugged into appealing to the western american market and theyre not staying as true to their artistic flair as a group, especially with only writing english songs atm. *sigh* ah well, at least theyre bringing recognition to the kpop world. AHUH dead on, theyre going to be discarded pretty soon and then where will bp be? theyll prob go solo paths which is rlly sad but what can you do when the company is run by a prideful asshole? yg is not going to last much longer in the big four if they keep this up.
hehe you get it. oooh very cool! whos ur ult? (sorry if youve said this before) mmmm yeah good decision, i feel liek thats probably a wise decision. this is my first album release as a kpop stan (not counting mixtape oh) so i think ill get it for sentiments sake. yeah! im excited for the new music! mingi was the one who got me into them, but atm my bias is seonghwa followed by san, wooyoung and ateez but jonghos high notes man *swoon* he, yeah atm ive got jake, jay, nikki, jungwon and sunoo down so just trying to get the rest :) heh, yeah kard i rlly only got into cos of bm, ive seen him like interacting with a lot of idols and he seemed nice so i decided to check out the group. ikr gunshot man *another swoon*
no noe! i didnt know what it was until i got it lol. thx toffee ill try and take that to mind :) yeah lol im on a waiting list thats not going to be free until late september so hopefully i can hold on until then. hope ur okay, that sounds like it sucks, hope you can find someone. maybe ill just take you along on my phone and the therapist can get a two for one patient deal lmaooo. mmm, sorry no i havent mentioned it before, i dont rlly talk abt it much. uhhh basically hypermobility? if you google it, it doesnt seem bad, jsut joint flexibility but ive got the severe end of the stick, leaning towards ehlers danlos syndrome so thats fun. basically it just makes it hard for me to exercise, run, jump, stand or just walk for long periods of time and gives me a lot of joint and muscle pain so... thats fun! but obviously so many other people have it worse than me, so i try not to complain. normally in young people it will improve as they get older, but my doctor said bc its severe in me, its unlikely to get much better. but again, i dont have the worst lot in the bunch, so its all g.
oh its good that its not the bad type of rain, a light sprinkling can be relaxing sometimes. aww thx darl, the concern is appreciated but it went pretty well and i managed not to cough too much on stage or kill myself trying to run around to the other side of the stage in the pouring rain so thats good! oooh tea buddies! my dogs a labradoodle, but shes a bit more of a feral poodle lol not much labrador in her at all, unless its her relentless urge to hunt down every bird that has ever walked this earth smh :((( hopefully they can come back on soon, does uni have dances?
ahhh a mood if i ever heard one. hopefully things will get better for you soon, ik anxiety sucks ass. ooh thats always good! when its sunny here, its always melt ur thongs to the pavement hot so the nicely cool sunny days are a lovely change. hehe impatience is not so good for you, but good for us that get to see ur beautiful theme early. ahh no worries, itll come eventually hopefully. and if not, then just things that make you not anxious are good. it doesnt have to be black or white, sometimes gray is good. mmmmm sames i have midterms this week to catch up on and then two weeks of end of terms so thats fun! i hope u can overcome that a little, heres some channie to be ur motivation https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a8LWyNjzOww. hah! i hear that all the time, he seems to be everywhere. did you see that tiktok of hans slowed back door rap, i stg it sounded EXACTLY like namjoon, it kinda scared me. also teh beginning of another day, sounds so much like joon i swear.
that reminds me! idk ur biases! i feel like this should be smth i should know so please! feel free to elaborate!
ahh im glad, i was worried it is. mmm same, so no hard feelings if either of us misses a day or smth. ill start worrying if weeks/months have gone by, but if its just a little while thats more than fine. ill just picture you studiously completing notes and i wont worry lol
<3 w.a. 🐺
at some point i really think i'm going to start blocking accounts because blocking tags won't be enough. i saw ask tags the other day and it just made me want to bleach my eyeballs.
i could talk about god's menu felix for hours man. the teaser for god's menu that featured his part on the bridge made me look forward to the mv release. you: biases chan, also you: lixiesbabyhands. yes you are more whipped than you think. i can't believe orange haired minho was given NOTHING during that era but they kind of made up for it in the b-sides. i also hope it stays that way. the distribution for this era was pretty fair.
"torturing another poor character's soul" in all honesty, i used to live for this. 2017 me leading up to early 2020 wrote nothing but angst. i have another aussie friend on twt and tbh i'm still really (O.o) about the seasons! jyp should be terrified skz could easily take over that company. heck if skz grow old and start their own company, they'd probably do a great job at running it. PLEASE. i have issues on muting/notifications both mentally and in real life. sometimes, i just wish to disappear.
some people in my country are just disgusting tbh. not only racist but homophobic too. they label kpop as 'gay' and it DISGUSTS me. it's a problematic behavior/mindset people in my country need to fucking get rid of. anyway, HELP ME 6 MONTHS??? and i've been in this shit for like a decade eye. tbh, i’m not fond of kpop groups trying to appeal to the western audience :// it feels like they’re losing their identity in a way. yes recognition but at what cost? yg has my favorite groups but that’s one shitty company when it comes to promoting.
okay my ult! it’s haechan from nct but i consider chan an ult too. like a close second above my whopping list of kpop boys. oh yes! you should get the album just for like a keepsake? remembrance? how did mingi appeal to you? omg did you start getting interested in ateez back when he was still on hiatus? NOT YOU BIASING THE SAME PEOPLE I DID WHEN I FIRST STARTED STANNING. the infamous ateez thot-line. jongho is easily one of the best fourth gen vocalists out here, no one can change my mind :( good luck with memorizing the rest of enhypen! just in time for the comeback too. i hope i’ll get into kard soon but i’m pretty content (and a tad bit overwhelmed) with the amount of groups i stan right now.
please hold on though, feel free to vent here if you like. thanks for the offer tho HAHA but like i’ll try to get checked here too when the cases die down a bit. i’m sorry to hear about your condition though :( please don’t ever overwork yourself to the point that your joints/muscles would ache. it’s completely valid to complain about it tho. i get that you have others in mind but keeping that mindset really doesn’t do you (like you internally) any better? so if you need to, vent your frustrations out and don’t keep it in.
oh my god, about your performance last sunday. was the stage out in the open? glad you didn’t cough too much and did well on your concert. i’m proud of you! i can never understand dogs and poor birds T_T uni doesn’t have dances unfortunately. i think there’s just one party at the end like a graduation ball. what year are you in anyway? if it’s something that you’re fine with sharing. if not, it’s cool.
good luck with your exams! and thanks for the link! AHA what a cutie. i think he does this motivation thing once in a while during his lives and it’s just comforting. yeah joon and han my irl just freaked when we made that discovery. ult crumbs for her. oh god not me forgetting about every biases when you asked. you can ask for my biases in a few groups just list down the one’s you’re interested in knowing. 
i missed yesterday because i was grinding and finishing what if we stay + school work. finally did it today. i’m sure i’ll reply in like a day or two, definitely not a month unless i state otherwise. if i ever decide to abandon this blog, i’ll let you know.
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wannasoftimagine · 7 years
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imagine park woojin as your classmate
project partners to dating partners :’)
(( AS REQUESTED // omg since ure a woojin stan can i get a request where y/n and woojin study in the same course after his wanna one activities (before he debuts in brand new music) and got closer after a project andddd you can write whatever after that LMAO :^) THANK YOU ))
okay so ure a fan of wanna one
who isnt tbh
and lucky u bc it turns out tht ure going to college w the one and only park woojin!!!!!!! (srsly tho what r the chances)
u forgot tht woojins age is kinda similar to urs bc he always acts like a tough guy on stage or a little kid off stage and u forget that hes a student like u
anyways
its a little weird to get used to seeing him in person after all the pictures n videos uve seen of him online
like?? hes a Real Person??? what a wild idea
and even tho ure both in the same college course, u try to keep ur distance
as much as ud like to befriend him, hes still an idol (even tho he hasnt debuted w brand new yet) and its rlly hard for u to start up a conversation w someone famous
also ure lowkey worried tht its going to ruin how much u admire him, and that actually talking to him will destroy how highly u view him
little do u kno hes seen u around campus before n thinks ure pretty cute
;))
okay but anyways
u make sure to stay out of his way bc the last thing u want is to bother him by asking for a signature or picture or smthn
u try and keep a minimum of like 10 yds between u at all times
(bc itd be even more embarrassing if u tripped right in front of him and that was the first thing he noticed abt u)
but lucky for u, life doesnt care what u have planned
bc its only a month into the semester and u already have a huge project assigned
of course, it’s a partner project
it might be okay if u were able to choose ur partners, but ur teacher insisted on trying to help everyone “bond w their classmates” so its all completely random
unfortunately for u, u get sick the day that ur teacher assigns partners
so u have no idea who ure paired up with
ure stuck asking some of ur classmates, but none of them rlly remember
everyone was a bit busy stressing out over their own partners tbh
and u keep asking around a bit, but u only know so many ppl in the class so eventually u kinda give up and hope ur partner isnt too bad
u settle on focusing on ur other classes, studying for future exams and reviewing ur notes in the library
even tho ure not sick anymore, u still feel a bit drowsy from all of the different medications u took and all of the work u were trying to catch up on
so. all excuses aside u fall asleep
prob not the best plan esp since some of ur things are balancing on the edge of ur desk
but the heart wants what the heart wants, and it rlly wants to sleep
ure having a rlly weird dream abt pirate monkeys when ure jolted awake by someone bumping into ur side
u look up to see someone sprinting away from u and like okay. thts a little weird
u try not to think abt it too much bc ure still kinda sleepy
so u settle on gathering ur things so u can head back to ur dorm and decide whether or not u want to study, sleep more, or find something to eat
as u collect everything, u notice a little post it note that hadnt been there before
in messy handwriting, it says “i didnt want to wake u but im ur partner for the partner project. im woojin and u can text me at [xxx-xxx-xxxx] whenever u want to meet up i hope u sleep well”
u realize that ur partner is prob the one u saw sprinting away from u earlier after he accidentally bumped into u lol
somehow u momentarily forget that ur partner is THE park woojin and ure like aw cool this woojin guy seems nice
then ure like WAIT A SECOND
ure highkey in shock and keep pinching urself to make sure its real
so u end up taking the rest of ur stuff back to ur room and wondering how u should text him
eventually u decide on a simple greeting and ur name, and u ask him when hes free
u have to send the text and then throw ur phone onto the floor bc U JUST TEXTED PARK WOOJIN ABT MEETING IN PERSON. GOD BLESS
ure suddenly super grateful abt every decision tht led u to this moment
anyways
ur phone buzzes on the floor so u scramble to pick it up
only to realize tht its a text from ur mom asking how ure doing
u text her back and tell her not to worry, then attempt to clean ur room a little instead of waiting for woojin to text u back
u just finish reorganizing ur closet when he texts u
its a quick text, smthn along the lines of “im free tmrw afternoon, do u want to meet by the cafeteria” so u agree quickly and hope u dont seem too desperate
and u KNOW its not a date
u guys havent even spoken to each other before so???
but ure still rlly nervous bc its WOOJIN and u want to impress him, even if ure just going to spend most of ur time talking abt boring coursework
u both settle on a time to meet and u pretend not to freak out
anyways skip to the next afternoon
u get there a bit early but ?? hes there already ??? ldsjks
and he looks Really Cute like hes wearing a sweater and ripped jeans and looking like complete boyfriend material wow ure p sure u can feel ur heart stop in ur chest
hes a bit awkward but uve heard abt how shy he is so u try not to take it personally
as soon as he sees u he blurts out tht u look nice and that is not helping the way tht this feels like a date
u guys end up moving to a bench in the shade bc its rlly nice out and this way ure able to talk freely without worrying abt being too loud
he explains the project a little, and u guys go back and forth offering up ideas
he always nods super enthusiastically whenever u suggest smthn and its honestly the cutest thing uve ever seen
its so weird for u to remember that this is the same guy uve seen videos of online bc what the heck
anyways
neither of u are extreme geniuses in the class, but ure both still pretty smart
ure pleased to find tht u guys complement each other well, w different areas of interest inside the same field
it helps ur project run a lot smoother than u thought it would, so u guys split up the work and agree to do as much as u can before u meet up again
ur conversations are still a bit stilted bc ure both still shy w each other, but overall u seem to get along well so ure happy
u text each other every once in awhile to talk abt the project or ask questions
u meet up a few more times in the next couple weeks but its all work and no business
still, over time u find urselves joking around with each other a little more, teasing each other and talking abt urselves instead of the project
of course, all things must come to an end
so all too soon, the day u submit the final project arrives
and ure a little worried tht woojin is going to disappear from ur life again
bc maybe he’s only been this nice to u bc hes just a sweet guy, but as soon as the project ends he wont care abt talking to u anymore
after all, its not like u guys meet up for meals or to hang out that often - even when ure just relaxing w each other, theres always some part of ur convo tht centers around the class
so as ure freaking out over this
he texts u asking if u want to come over to his dorm while he submits it
and mb u guys can just hang out afterwards?
obviously u agree and u cant stop smiling
when u show up at his dorm, hes wearing sweatpants and a tshirt and he looks adorable as heck when he invites u in
u guys sit on his bed as he loads all the stuff on his laptop and u try not to be hyperaware of the space between u two
woojins also screaming internally but somehow u dont notice the way he keeps staring at u out of the corner of his eye
u click the “submit” button together and HIS HANDS ARE SO GENTLE also theyre shaking a little???? huh
u assume its just bc hes Extra Nervous for the project but honestly? no hes just never been this close to u and hes freaking out
but anyways
u decide to go out to eat off campus afterwards to celebrate being done
a lot of the places have long waits or are too expensive so u just eat at a chikfila
its rlly casual but its fun and u guys argue abt whether chicken nuggets or chicken sandwiches r better and u cant help but think abt how much fun ure having w hiim
u end up blurting it out to him on accident and ure v v embarrassed
but he laughs and admits tht he rlly likes spending time w u too
so u promise each other to keep hanging out afterwards
it gets to the point where weeks later, ure still texting each other to complain abt classes or ask abt the other persons day
it still feels like a dream tbh
but u guys enjoy each others company whenever u can
most of the time u end up meeting each other at the cafeteria or studying together in the library, but u both just rlly like spending time w the other person
this routine continues for awhile and its prob the best part of ur life
but at one point ure trying to sneak up on woojin and surprise him when u see him talking to himself
as u creep forward, u realize tht hes actually on the phone, and he looks kinda stressed
it feels a bit invasive so ure looking around trying to find a place to go while he finishes up his phone call
but then u hear him say ur name so. consider u INTERESTED
and he keeps getting flustered and shutting down anything tht the other person says which is weird bc hes p shy, but hes never usually tht adamant and blushy abt something
eventually he tucks his phone away and lets out a Huge sigh so ure like,, hey u good
and he laughs it off but u can tell hes a little antsy, so u decide to tell him tht u overheard a little bit of him on the phone, and u ask him what it was about
he literally turns into a tomato its so funny u wish u had recorded it
but hes like “HOW MUCH DID U HEAR”
even tho u tell him u didnt hear much, he refuses to believe u and he spends the next few minutes pouting
u keep trying to get him to talk to u normally, but he refuses
finally he ends up grumbling smthn and ure like ???
and after a few half hearted efforts to repeat himself hes like “just tell me u dont like me back”
and. WHAT.
he pouts again and its so sos sosososoos o so cute u think ure going to combust honestly
“i kno u heard me tell him tht i like u!!!! just tell me u dont feel the same and leave me alone to cry”
and u have to reassure him tht u definitely didnt hear that BUT ALSO what???
n hes literally mortified when he realizes ure serious
but he has this rlly cute determined expression like “ok well now u kno i like u!!!!! y/n, please go out w me???”
n its like OF COURSE and u tell him tht u like him too and he keeps smiling and acting shy
honestly u both just make each other super happy
when u start dating, its not too diff from when u were friends, except now ure more affectionate w each other
both physically and with ur words
he loves hyping u up, and u feel the same
esp when he starts practicing more to debut w the rest of the bnm boys
u support the heck out of each other and can always count on the other person to be there for u when u need it the most
honestly its super soft and ure totally proud to be a lowkey campus couple even tho u have to keep ur relationship on the down low bc of dispatch
still u both care for each other a lot and u wouldnt trade what u have for the world
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youmeanlove · 5 years
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could you talk more about ur s/i dr pepper? im curious abt him and i wanna know how he interacts w wilson
HEH. im gonna use third person pronouns for him bc its easier in this context but!!!
I WROTE AN ESSAY AND IT WONT LET ME ADD A READMORE IM SO SORRY 
hes pretty much how i see my future if i succeeded professionally but epic failed in the emotional and mental department LOL! he’s a heart surgeon (?? maybe i havent decided on a specialty yet bc theyre all sexy) thats just tha tone tumblr post that says “the fact that i am constantly saying strange and unpleasant things is just part of my charm.”
for now unless i think of something better him and james were close in pre-med and medical school that they attended together! different specialties but they were able to talk enough to get rly close to each other and just have that classic gay academia friendship yknow? at that time in their lives they were both pretty..apathetic i guess? driven about their careers, but rly just floating along in other facets of life like their relationships and opinions and all that stuff! it was fun for a friendship but when you start getting gay for your bro and neither of you have the emotional capacity or strength to confront it things start to get a little messy lol...
james at that time was still the kind of veiled selflessness that he is when hes older but he was definitely very much aggressive about umm acting as if he had a complete sense of self and knew who he was/where we was going! it frustrated him that his good pal boston pepper had a habit of questioning everyones motives and feelings out loud which i slike so annoying boston please stop. and so eventually after enough of boston half-trying to place all the weight of their gay feelings on james and james completely ignoring it they kind of got into the ‘i like you and i dont want to so i am going to make myself hate you’ fight! it absolutely didnt work but they did both see it as a mutual agreement to back off and stop talking to each other as much : (((
so they moved on w their lives got jobs separate but close to each other and boston just watched as james got himself involved in 3 whole failed marriages and a ton of other girlfriends like :((( homie im sorry but ur gay.... boston wasnt doing much better tho he became even more like eeuuuuuuu world is a fuck born to say random thoughts that ocme to me in the middle of interactions and push everyone away because im ~~~weird~~~~...if that makes sense???
anyway they started working closely again around the time a year or two before house gathered up his first diagnostician team! it was very awks to see each other again but honestly neither of them rly tried to escape the situation bc like..hi old friend i love you so much lets sadly catch up over coffee....
writing this is making me realize i still havent figured out how we actually end up datingKJHFSJF is this just pining forever???? im not sure but!! their personalities are similar to how they were in college but with more intensity and more aversion to conflict. aka even more skirting around issues!
one thing is that boston is very umm..i guess it would seem to a lot of ppl hes someone that needs to be helped (not to say he isnt but he doesnt exactly like to be seen like that) which is just emotional candy for jamesKFHJFD he definitely worked more to insert himself into bostons life and habits and all that - partly as a way to just enter his life again and stay friends and partly bc he cannot hold back from trying to ‘fix’ ppl. boston was like okay yeah ill roll with this bc i miss my bro even tho it annoys me and makes me hella paranoid
im kind of losing the point here but! over time despite the fact that they both knew their reasoning for acting they way they are isnt really the best At All it did help to foster a friendship again and they do just act gay and kiss each other and dont talk about itJKFHSJ but dont worry itll be talked about it will.....
okay yeah i really got off track what i mean to say is. james likes to hover over boston and offer way too much attention under the guise of just wanting to be a friend and help the guy out! boston knows how wilson is and knows he wants to help boston to help himself and its a compeltely self-destructive selflessness but he wants to pretend he doesnt care and that this is all for friendship! they really offend each other a lot because of the different ways they care and interact but they do share similarities in how they finally Do talk about situations... when they both reach a certain point of frustrations theyll be completely honest tho it can all be a bit aggressive and DRAMATIC.
but no matter what dr pepper is a weird disconnected little man that cares about his patients but not himself (similar to wilson in that way) and all he wants to spend his time doing is sitting on the couch with wilson and complain about the news (which they do often)! 
i guess at this point in the story in my head theyre very clashing in thier personalities but theyre so endeared and in love they just need to find a way to get past their inner issues and how they act in relationships and then boom! gay time! also they need to stop dating ladies theyre gay therye fucking ggay
THIS MADE NO SESNEJKFHSJF I HOPE U CAN GLEAN ANYTHING FROM IT!!!!
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wizardingbias · 7 years
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HP!headcanon - NCT Yuta
 || WIZARDINGBIAS - where your fave bands live in hakho’s hogwarts au ||
Character Headcanons at Hogwarts ↳ NCT Yuta // Yuta Nakamoto // Slytherin
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fuck now we’re doing my bias wrecker hell no buckle up errbody this abt to be a wild ass ride
now that’s a long ass ride
Yuta is a Sly-therin
this cunning ass motherfucker needs to calm tf down
this is probably gonna be long af
more under the cut <3
so in my au,
Yuta doesn’t actually go to Hogwarts during the first year 
i haven’t planned out exactly how his life bf Hogwarts was like but let’s roll with it
so the reason why he switches school is pretty cool actually
like his parents had to pull him out of Mahoutokoro bc of a freaky murder case
or maybe cool is the wrong word
whatever
his parents are top notch investigators and they settle in London and send yuta to hogwarts
and yuta is a lil shit who wants to know everything but his parents refuse to tell him details
so he tries to go sherlock on the case
and surprisingly finds a lot of things
like it’s his free time project
he has a notebook with all his notes and red string and all that
yknow what im talking abt
so year 2
it starts with him going straight into the headmistresses’ office to get sorted
and he doesn’t have a clue what the fuck slytherin is
but he accepts it and his tie turns a bright shade of green
which the headmistress says is a sign
the force is strong in this one
the slytherin force
and lil 12 y/o yuta has a big smiley face as he sits down at the slytherin table and of course he’s the type to spark up a conversation immediately
he’ll probably be so curious and ask the people at the table what’s happening up front where the sorting ceremony begins
and this older slytherin thinks he’s adorable with his too-big-smile and wide, curious eyes and indulges lil yuta even though they’re supposed to be quiet
but sorting ceremonies can take a long ass time
and anyone can see that yuta is the fidgety type
but when the feast suddenly appears
yuta’s all
*too-big-smiley-face*
and absolutely fascinated by everything
what the fuck is shepards pie
year 2 is also the year he meets his best friend forever
this adorable hufflepuff named taeyong who is way too shy and intimidating looking for his own good, except, yuta sees right through that when the little hufflepuff boy helps him out in Charms class, showing yuta how to properly flick his wand and fix his pronunciation
and yuta thinks its so cute how this lil boy who is always quiet and always by himself has strolled over to this side of the classroom to help out yuta who is the only one struggling
so kind
so soft
cue *healing smile*
and taeyong and yuta become best friends and have sleepovers bc taeyong gets nightmares and misses his dad a lot so yuta indulges the technically older boy with late night cuddles to comfort him 
this part always gets me ffs
This is also the year Yuta finds out there’s an older Gryffindor that also is of japanese herritage
and Yuta never says shit like this but sometimes he misses the japanese culture and just talking in japanese bc english gets really hard sometimes like he can’t 100% express everything he wants to say so hell yea he’s gonna look for this gryffindor
the gryffindor is hansol
who is btw like the most beautiful creature yuta has ever seen
and the first time lil yuta spots this boy his cheeks flush a very distinct red and he automatically feels drawn to him
Hansol is flying on his really flashy looking broomstick one weekend, and yuta just kinda stumbles upon him
this is when Yuta is fully introduced to the art that is quidditch and he absolutely falls in love with the sport, like enough to try out for the slytherin team two weeks after Hansol’s taught him the basics
and he’s fucking good too
really fast
like the wind
but he’s too small and young to actually be on the team but the slytherin captain doesn’t want to let him go so he’s on the reserve bench this year but he still works so hard to improve and oh my god hansol is so proud even though he doesn’t say anything, he just smiles and goes to the slytherin practices to watch yuta but yuta doesn’t know that until he spots the gryffindor waiting for him outside of the locker rooms and
ahhhhhhhhhhh
Year 3 is when things start tho
Yuta finally makes the team as one of the three main chasers
even though everyone is worried that he wont be able to do it bc Yuta is gd smol 
him and taeyong are like the smol smol in their batch
but yuta is strong af and learns really quick and he’s fucking lightning fast on the field why isn’t he a seeker????
bc he has shitty eyesight thats why
he doesn’t like wearing his glasses but he kinda has to
especially when he’s studying or in class
t-yong thinks its really cute
whatever
and this is also the year he’s picking up his course work, like stuff is actually making sense
year two was filled with getting used to the english equivalent to everything and trying to catch up on first year stuff and also tryna figure out where everything is
why doesn’t hogwarts have a map???
thank god for taeyong
the lil hufflepuff will always pick him up if he’s lost
also thank god they have so many classes together
but yuta likes potions the most, mostly bc he’s weirdly good at it
except for that one time he was freaking out about his first ever seasoned game and nearly melted the table
be careful when brewing kids
Yuta clings to Hansol a lot this year
especially because they both like quidditch and it’s practically their lives
and hansol, in his ever so awkward and quiet way, teaches Yuta about quidditch history and secrets and about this one story of a couple that met on the field, both being seekers for rival teams, and fall in love as they’re both chasing the snitch, and they forget about the game completely and spend so much time giggling and messing with each other that the game takes more than 7 hours to complete, and Yuta is mesmerised by this cute ass love story
“It’s actually my parents’ love story”
“no way”
“yeah. they’re now considered the quidditch couple of the century.”
“that is disgusting. i love it,” Yuta gushes
and also, whenever Yuta is feeling stressed AF or worried about things and taeyong is busy doing whatever the fuck he does
(that boy is sometimes a fucking mystery, but yuta thinks he’s probably just stealing food from the kitchens)
((in reality, taeyong is actually being taught how to bake and cook by the house elves bc he’s having so much fun learning abt recipes and stuff))
Yuta looks for Hansol and gushes to him about his worries, and when it gets too much to contain and his tongue stumbles over the english, yuta switches to japanese without a problem bc Hansol can understand 100% of everything he’s complaining about even though he offers his advice in english instead but it’s such a relief and yuta is so thankful
eventually, towards the end of year 3, Yuta’s crush on Hansol becomes almost too much
but he doesn’t tell anyone about it
not even his bff taeyong who is the first to know about everything
bc he’s afraid of his feelings
like ‘what the fuck is this erratic heartbeat every I see hansol?’
and Yuta starts to think that his mind is playing tricks on his but he swears to god Hansol is inching closer and closer to him every time they hang out
One day
after countless of speculations and confusion from yuta’s side
Hansol casually grabs onto Yuta’s hand as they’re walking down a hallway
and hansol just continues on with their conversation like nothing different has happened
but yuta is freaaaaking ouuut 
he keeps looking up between hansol’s beautiful face and their interlocked hands
and fuck his hands are getting sweaty but hansol doesn’t pull away and what does this meaaaaannnnnn?????
In the summer between year 3 and 4
Hansol invites yuta to his place and it’s so nice
and they spend the summer back and forth at hansol’s and yuta’s house
and yuta’s mom absolutely adores hansol so much and feeds him cake and traditional japanese food bc ‘you’re too skinny, hansol-kun’ 
Yuta can’t help but smile at Hansol’s overly puffy cheeks as his mother feeds him copious amounts
it’s adorable
his heart
my heart
Year 4
yuta is greeted with his first ever kiss
closed lipped and chaste and so incredibly quick
it’s after Yuta learns how to ride his broomstick standing up
something hansol has been trying to teach him all summer
and hansol kinda just
accidentally kisses him
bc he’s so proud
and Yuta’s eyes get soooooo big
what just happened
and then hansol is so cute and flustered and his entire face is just beet red and “i’m so sorry, i didn’t mean to do tha-”
but Yuta interrupts hansol with another chaste kiss, standing on his tippy toes bc hansol is 500 metres taller than him
and it’s so cute how hansol turns even redder
and this is the start of their relationship and it’s adorable and yuta is so happy
so happy that sometimes, in the middle of the night, Yuta will curl into a ball in his bed bc the feels are too much and he can’t sleep bc Hansol’s the type to subtly give his robes to yuta bc yuta’s the type to be freezing and refuse to bring his own robes
but yuta is good at communicating or breaking the ice
so he doesn’t really tell anyone that they’re together
and both hansol and yuta aren’t super into skinship
and taeyong is a fucking oblivious little shit so he doesn’t figure it out
if anyone wants i can make a post going into depth on yusol’s relationship lol
but one day when t-yong and yuta are studying divinations, TY finds something odd in the bottom of yuta’s teacup, but yuta fucking sucks ass at divinations so he doesn’t know what the hell it means
it’s freaky tho how t-yong all of a sudden gets really protective and careful around yuta
“Bro.”
“What?”
“Stop doing that.”
“Doing what?”
“Treating me like I’m about to die.”
“You’re not dying, Yuta. Geeze.”
“If I was, you should be worried abt yourself.”
“Why?”
“Bc I’m dragging you into the afterlife with me.”
“Bro.”
but it makes sense that t-yongie is so protective and walking on eggshells around yuta bc by the end of this year, Hansol has announced that he’s moving to Mahoutokoro to play professionally for Japan
and Yuta has no idea what to think
bc he understands quidditch is so incredibly important for Hansol, that it his life
Yuta also loves quidditch, he totally gets it
but his heart hurts so much
he feels betrayed
but he also feels like he shouldn’t feel betrayed
and eventually he snaps at Hansol, yelling and crying like a mess bc he loves hansol so much, and he wants to be loved just as much back and why isn’t hansol picking yuta instead of quidditch? 
they end on extremely bad terms
Yuta doesn’t even see Hansol off on the last day of school
he refuses to
because yuta doesn’t cry in public
ever
but if he were to see Hansol one last time he would cry
san(g) namja yuta des
but thank fuck t-yong is there for him to take yuta’s mind off of the fact that his first love just left him to pursue his dreams 
Yuta throws himself into quidditch practice, school work, hanging out with t-yong and taeil and he masks all the pain he feels with his too-big-smile but it’s not quite as wide as it used to
and taeyong still doesn’t know they were together, but he’s such a softy for his friends and yuta takes 100000% advantage of that
YEAR 5
is suCH A BETTTER YEAR LEMME TELL YOU
Yuta is still heartbroken but most of it is settled over the summer so fuck that and fuck hansol let’s get back to business
his snarky comments are fucking back
and his healing smile is back
thank fuck
buT GUESS WHAT PEOPLE
Yuta’s appointed fucking captain of the Slytherin Quidditch team
aye aye captain
and he’s so happy he cries into Taeyong’s shoulder during their sleepover
he works hard AF for the team 
#1 priority
and then he meets this uberly adorable boy named Sicheng
and fuck Sicheng is perfect and cuddly
even more than t-yong and TY is the resident smol bean at the school
but Sicheng takes the cake
my heart for yuwin is srs
and they gET TOgethER FFS YUTAAAAA WINWINNNNNN
THE CUTEST COUPLE
SO MUCH MORE OPEN AND SKINSHIPPY
AND YUTA LOVES IT
WINWIN ALSO LIKES QUIDDITCH
LOVES FOOD
AND YUTA TEACHES HIM SO MUCH ENGLISH AND EVEN JAPANESE
THEY’RE MARRIED I SWEAR
and yuta’s smile is somehow the biggest it has ever been
and t-yongie is so happy for the couple
he kinda likes thirdwheeling them a lot
like he genuinely likes it
and yuta’s like
“it’s okay to share, ik he’s irresistible, but he’s mine after 7pm”
fuck my heart is not okay i didn’t even realise how hard i ship this fuck
YEar 6 
not much actually happens this year
except
the murder case suddenly has a lead
it’s been fucking years wtf parents
and Yuta’s parents have to move to Chile to go after this murderer
“okay????? what do you want me to do???? I aint leaving Hogwarts”
cuz he doesn’t wanna leave Sicheng like Hansol left him
even though Yuta really wants in on the case and get info and try to solve it for himself
but he chooses friends over his own ambitions
“you’re a total hufflepuff”
“shut the fuck up, taeyong”
but this year turns out to be awesome
bc he leads his quidditch team to victory
and the entire team carries him on their shoulders
THEY JUST WON THE FUCKING HOUSECUP
this time yuta cries in front of every one
and taeyong manages to take a picture
(it’s used a blackmail for literally years bc fuck yuta is an ugly crier no wonder he never cries in front of anyone)
and Sicheng is so happy for Yuta even though he’s sulking about his own team’s loss
it’s okay bc Yuta takes Sicheng out for ice cream and everything is so good
sicheng is the cutest
eating his ice cream with his lil tongue licks
like a lil cat
my heartttrttttttttt
im not even a sicheng stan but akjfigelhgskurtg
and then year 7 turns out to be pretty fucking good too
1) Taeyong doesn’t try to snatch sicheng for himself bc now there’s a lil bebe gryffindor named jaehyun that he’s got together with
but only because Yuta told jaehyun about TY’s huge ass crush but his best friend is just such a shy lil boi he needs to tell Jaehyun
bc a friend named johnny accidentally told him during one of the illegal underground parties that jaehyun thought TY was hella hot
so basically
T-yong owes his entire love life to Yuta
*pat on the back*
*healing smile*
2) byE BYE VIRGINITY
3) he nails his potions N.E.W.T.’s
4) he doesn’t fail anything else
even divinations which is a fucking hell why did he even pick to continue this subject wtf yuta
and he doesn’t fail Charms 
bc he’s charming af
but it’s so sad how this is the last year he gets to coach his team, and he works 100% harder to get strategies and practices done and everyone of his team members fucking love and hate him so much bc it’s 2x as much practice but it’s also a lot of fun games and stuff
curtesy of taeyong’s planning
honestly where would yuta be without taeyong?
BUT THEY WIN THE THE SEASON AGAIN SO SUCK IT
And then graduation comes and Yuta breaks down for the second time in public
but it’s just because he suddenly realises, in the middle of taeyong’s rockstar dad’s song, that he’s leaving the best place on earth, thank god for that one murderer that let him move to scotland, thank you to taeyong who is the bestest friend he could’ve ever gotten even though yuta never tells t-yong he loves him, and thank god for sicheng and his beautiful softness, he is the best thing (besides t-yongie) to happen to yuta, and thank you to his teammates for trusting him, he wishes them all the best, and thank you to himself bc he’s been a fucking amazing person
but he doesn’t say any of this to anyone bc san(g) namja ffs!!!!
but he cries so much
so so so much
tbh same yuta
all he needs to figure out now is what he’s gonna do after graduation
but then again, that offer to play professional quidditch for England doesn’t sound too bad tbh
but who knows wtf the future holds
this is a little too close to home omfg TT
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a/n: okay i’m done. i need to lie down. feel free to ask me for more headcanons :) I like making these lol (even though im supposedly swamped with shit to do)
↳ Yuta’s official profile (coming soon)
Taeil | Hansol | Johnny | Taeyong | Yuta | Doyoung | Ten | Jaehyun | Winwin | Mark | Haechan (will update over time)
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insanewizards · 7 years
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v long rant abt my mum its dotpointed tho lel
shes always goin on and fucking on abt how shes the only one who cleans up aroun the house
incorrect bitch
me and my dad (brother if hes asked but hes 12) are legit the only ones who clean the kitchen
other day i come home
ice cream maker is on the counter water is fucking everywhere
im like mum what the fuck (not verbatim) and she goes oh i think its mouldy can you clean it up
BITCH!! NO!!! UR THE ONE WHO DECID ED 2 JUST??? TAKE IT OUT AND LEAVE IT THERE FOR SOMEONE ELSE TO CLEAN UP!!
UR ALWAYS GOIN ON ABT HOW I LEAVE SHIT AT MY ASS BITCH CHECK YOURSELF!
she the only one home on weekdays, dishwashers full but theres like.. 1 thing put in wrong
her bitch ass wont put it on even tho itll take 2 gotdamn seconds to fix it then yell at ME for maybe putting in the spatula the wrong goddamn way 
bitch??
also she keeps goin off abt how she has to buy milk even tho she the only one who aint drink it
like bitch sourdough makes me fucking vomit but u dont catch me complaining when u make me go down to the shops for it huh??
ShE off complainin abt how she the only one who does chores i come home and see the kitchen covered in shit the floor dusty et fucking c
bitch i know the fuck you aint workin all day least u could fuckinegh do is put ur goddamn plate in the dishwasher ok???
oh my god and u bring up how she aint do nothin to clean up she’ll go fucken off abt how shes not a stay at home mother etc the mothers expected to do all the work etc we’re all fucken misogynists
u can put ur plate away and still be a feminist deborah jesus fucking christ
this is gettig long as fucccck but if the house gets Fucked Up (doesnt really happen now bc i got older haha) she’ll go the fuc off about how we’re all cavemen shes the only one who cleans the house is disgusting its all (me dad brother) our fault etc etc
ok bitch if u been cleaning then how come the house this disgusting
(i was tryna find that gif of the guy w the sidefringe goin doin that thing u know anyway shoutout if u read this lmfao)
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georgeluz · 7 years
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Congrats on 900! if u r still doing the ask game can i request The Pacific (blurb) + BoB! face tag is /tagged/my-face + about page is /about INFJ, passionate abt journalism + truth. idealistic but realistic. compassionate but wont take any shit. i h8 disingenuous situations. integrity is v important to me. in a constant battle between my anxiety + doing what i think is right. v serious but i have a dry humor + swear like a sailor. have an adventurous spirit. just want to make a difference. thx!
NO MORE ASK GAME REQUESTS PLSNTHNX.
IM SO SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG. ???? RIP IN PIECES. I have so much going on I swear aeoghajdfjgr. Anyway. Thanks for the ask, you got it!
The Character I See You As: Joe Toye! I love this kid so much. I’ve read a lot about him, about how he could be super serious and dry-humored and even scary sometimes, but how he also was very protective of his boys and the replacements. I feel like someone wrote in a book that one of the guys was being threatened and Toye literally picked up the dude doing the threatening and was like “never do that again” and juST SET HIM BACK DOWN and made sure the other guy was ok. Also, again, someone talked about how he was insecure about how he never graduated high school because he knew he was smart, but he was limited by his lack of education and HNNG JOE TOYE. SO PURE.
Your Three Best Friends: Bull Randleman, Carwood Lipton, Bill Guarnere
The One You Don’t Get Along With: Sobel. I avoided putting him as anyone’s just because it’s way too easy, but honestly I feel like he (and Dike) represent a real issue for INFJs–authority they can’t respect. And it’s not that you won’t respect them anyway, but rather it’s the helplessness of knowing that for duty’s sake you must respect them, but also knowing they’re a fucking idiot and you could do better given the chance. Like honestly it’s the worst of the worst and especially difficult for INFJs, who end up feeling strained and frustrated and bogged down by ineffective direction like Sobel, etc.
Who I Ship You With: Carwood Lipton! Gentle, patient, sweet, super smart, good under pressure, I literally almost can’t think of anyone better. Like fire and ice, tbh. Lip would be there while you rant about something, whether it be about justice, your anxiety, someone annoying you, etc. He’s the gentle voice of reason, trying to steer you in the right direction while also listening to you complain about what you need to in order to move on.
Wildcard: Staff Sergeant. 3rd Platoon. Easy Company.
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The Character I See You As: Bob Leckie/Hoosier Smith! ARE YOU LECKIE? ARE YOU HOOSIER? Journalism, idealistic but realistic, adventurous, serious, but super dry sense of humor. Anxious but still does what’s right even tho he’s internally screaming 24/7?? This is Leckie and Hoosier at the same time I feel like. This is also you I SWEAR. I mean I think in the show Leckie might get a little dramatic compared to you (though who am I to say?), whereas Hoosier has the overall salt but the COMPOSURE. But of course Leckie has the balanceof the idealism/realism and the love of journalism and adventure (whereas Hoosier just wants to sleep tbh and be left alone).
Your Three Best Friends: R.V. Burgin, Eugene Sledge, Ack-Ack Haldane
The One You Don’t Get Along With: EVERYONE. Just kidding. Just people who STEAL YOUR SHIT (looking at u larkin god). Disingenuous people, I know that goes without saying (you even said that), but yeah. Maybe Snafu since he’s a little off his rocker and almost nothing like you. 
Who I Ship You With: Chuckler Jeurgens. If this ain’t the realest….- Chuckler and Leckie are like mom and dad. So it would basically be the same for you two. Chuckler has a good sense of humor, is incredibly patient with everyone (despite the circumstances), always finds a reason to smile and goof around and boost morale. Whenever you’re anxious or despairing, all you have to do is crawl over to his bunk and lean your head against his bed and he’ll talk you out of it, talk to you about real world stuff, debate with you, anything to get your mind off things. He’s so pure….. I JUST.
Wildcard: Private. 1st Marine Regiment. Radioman.
Lil Blurb: You woke up in the aid station after Peleliu in a fit of sweat, cursing up a storm at the sudden chill. You realized you’d thrown off your blanket and sheets in the nightmare you assume you must have been having and reluctantly crawl out of bed, groaning as pain shoots up your spine like lightning. A mortar hit right behind you, sending you flying to the ground. That was one of the last things you vividly could recall before that that very moment, struggling to drag your blankets back into bed with you. Without another thought you crawl back into the cot, rolling onto your stomach, lulled into slumber once again.
The next time you’re awoken, the nurse is telling you that you’re being transferred to go home. You don’t know how long or how hard you’ve been sleeping. You’re groggy, muttering a few obscenities under your breath as you’re forced to change, gather your things, and join a host of other injured men (and a few women like yourself) to be sent back to the states. Your intestines seemed to twist at the thought, leaving behind the other marines. You felt almost guilty, wringing your hands. Hoosier, Leckie, Runner, and finally Chuckler. You were the last to fall. You had no idea where they were, where anyone was. You just knew you were alive.
You were transferred to San Diego hospital. It was the nicest facility you’d been in in probably a year, but that wasn’t reassuring. The white walls. The pristine decor–none of it felt right. It was all uncomfortable, oddly surreal after what you’d been through. You didn’t want to take it in. You just wanted to sleep until the wounds on your back turned into scars. The place in your shoulder where you were shot? That too. You’d almost forgotten about that, but it had happened so long ago, on Guadalcanal. 
After getting out of the wheelchair and stubbornly hobbling toward the woman’s ward (much to the nurse’s horror), a familiar voice called out to you from behind.
“Y/N?”
You stopped, shaking the grogginess from your head. You felt like you hadn’t escaped that feeling, the out-of-body, surreal feeling until that voice hit you like a brick wall, yanking you back into battle, into the memories suppressed.
“Lew?” You spin around on your heels. He’s still all height, hunched over slightly in pain; he couldn’t have been up long. Chuckler is one big crooked grin too big for him, ears too big for him, feet too big for him. He was barefoot, ridiculous as it was. You found him completely endearing. Two long weeks apart and all you wanted to do was throw yourself into his arms. He had done right by you, taken care of you, sacrificed for you.
“Holy shit, Y/N, I thought you were still in the Pacific.” Incredulous, he started forward, stretching out his hands to drag you into his chest. You didn’t resist (despite your aversion to public displays of affection), but leaned forward, burying your face into his hospital gown, gripping the fabric in your fists. 
“Jesus, fuck, Lew–Chuckler, I thought you were dead, god. No one told me anything.” You didn’t know whether to laugh or to cry, so you did both, finally releasing the gown and wrapping your arms around his waist. His nose was in your hair, eyes closed, waiting until he was sure you were done talking before he responded.
“Hey, hey now, we’re all good. Leckie and Hoosier too, we’re all fine, it’s all fine,” he soothed, dragging his fingers across your back. “Wanna go see them?”
You sniff, cursing yourself for crying on his shoulder. You left stains. Jesus, Hoosier would take one look and know for sure. You would catch hell for that. Wiping your nose and looking back at the nurse, who appeared disapproving (moved, but disapproving), you nodded your head. “Hell yeah, I need to yell at the two of them for leaving before I could say bye.”
Chuckler reached down pressed his hand into the small of your back, pushing you forward in the right direction. “C’mon then, Y/N, you have a lot of yelling to do.”
“Damn right, Chuckler.”
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