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dorotheataylor · 13 days

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You are in Love

Pairing- Gojo Satoru x fem!Reader

Summary- The three times he realised he loved you, and the one time he said it. Inspired by You are in Love (Taylor’s Version) by Taylor Swift.

Warnings- Its just fluff, a little angst if you squint? SATORU IS WHIPPED (hes so cute😭), best friends to lovers romance, Shoko and Suguru playing cupids, whipped satoru (yes this warning again), swearing (its only one word but still), no curses!au, modern!au, my poor english :p

Word Count- 3.5k words

A/N- Whenever I listen to Taylor, either this guy or his best friend pop up in my head. Like the amount of times I think about them is so insane and I can’t help it anymore. Anyways, here’s another songfic (is this even a surprise atp?) based on another Taylor’s song coz i love that woman so much. Alsoooo it’s my birthday today! And what is better than writing a fic abt your man on your birthday? So I hope y’all enjoy this little birthday gift from me!

The first time Satoru realised he loved you was when you were in college together. It was the last day of the semester before everyone bid farewell to each other and went home for the holiday season. You and him were walking along one pathway coming back from your Christmas shopping, snow falling softly around everyone’s body, and a chill in the air that made everyone want to snuggle up beside the fireplace in their houses.

Suguru and Shoko had joined you both too but then excused themselves to leave you two alone, hoping that the romantic ambiance of the holiday season would finally give Satoru the confidence to tell you how he felt.

To say he was a nervous wreck was an understanding. He had spent the whole afternoon talking to himself in the mirror, practicing what he would say so that he won't stumble on his words and ruin the moment.

He didn't have a problem talking to you as he normally does; you were his best friend after all, like Suguru and Shoko, but once he tries to tell you that you make his heart beat faster, make butterflies flood his stomach, it makes him lose all his senses. Suguru had to drag him out of his room, complaining about waiting for 'thirty fucking minutes' already.

Eventually, he met you and Shoko at the front gate of his house and walked with you towards the mall. The entire day, he felt so jittery, like he couldn’t stay still. You remained oblivious to the fact that Satoru was about ready to burst from the inside from how nervous he was.

Suguru and Shoko, on the other hand, couldn’t contain their laughter. By the time the sky began to fade into the night sky, Suguru and Shoko decided that now was as good of a time than ever and made up an excuse to leave the two of you alone.

Now here you were, walking beside Satoru, bundled up in your white scarf, and the cutest red blush on the tip of your nose. You readjusted your beanie, looking up at him to start conversation. Satoru felt his words get stuck in his throat, unable to remember how to speak with you staring up at him with the twinkle of oblivion in your eye.

"Toru?" you asked bumping your shoulder with him, noticing his uneasy expressions as you wrapped an arm around yourself to get some warmth as the snow had started to fall little more harshly, "am I that boring that your mind had to drift somewhere else?"

"God no." He blushed, finally able to say something without stumbling. Without thought, he wrapped one of his arm around you, bringing you closer to him. You sighed in content, melting into him and Satoru swore his heart swelled three times its size.

The snow crunched under your boots as you walked up the path. The lights lining the cobblestone street gave a yellow tint to the sight. He walked with you in silence but in his head, he was going over exactly what he wanted to say. This was the perfect time.

The snow falling from the sky, little snowflakes tangled in the strands of your hair. You were pressed up against his chest, so close to him that he could smell your perfume, sweet and addicting. There were no other people around, all too eager to find sanctuary in warmth that their houses brought. It was the perfect time.

He stopped walking, halting you with him. He let you go for a moment, taking a deep breath in and slowly let it out. You watched as the cloud of fog escaped his lips and dispersed into the air. His white hair poked out from under his hoodie, matted on his forehead. Satoru looked down at his wet boots, kicking around snow that pooled around the soles.

Finally, he looked up, taking your two hands into his palms in the process.

You smiled at the gesture, your heart fluttering in your chest. You looked at him, offering a comforting look as you raised your eyebrows up in suspicion, “What’s up, Toru?”

And just like that, all of the words he worked so hard to conjure up, slipped right out of his mind. When he saw you looking up at him, eyebrows raised, cheeks and nose tinted with a light shade of pink, and your lips plump and red, he realized that there were no words to describe what it was he felt about you.

You watched him in silence, studying the way he gave you a lopsided smile when you tucked a piece of his hair behind his ear. He leaned into your touch, letting out another sigh of relief.

“Nothing,” he finally spoke, letting go of your hands. He wrapped his arm around you again, hoping you won’t hear the marching of his heart in his chest. “You’re my best friend.”

The second time he realised he loved you was when he found you crying on your couch. He had came to check on you when you didn’t come over for the routine movie night. Every Saturday, you, him, Suguru and Shoko got together at each other’s places for movie nights. Laughter, jokes, entertainment, talks, drinks and what not went on full night and the next day all of you were passed out on either couch or the floor.

Today everyone was coming over at Satoru’s place. Suguru and Shoko were already there but when it kept getting late, Satoru became worried about you. Shoko tried assuring him you were okay, just stuck in some work but he wouldn’t believe it. Because you were time punctual and never missed the movie nights.

So he came over to yours and opened your door with the spare key you’d given him only to find you curled up in your couch, crying.

He immediately rushed over to you and wrapped his arms around you tightly as you held onto him. He didn’t say anything but stayed there, holding you, feeling his heart break as you sobbed into his chest.

A few moments later, when he felt you relaxing a little, he took your face in his hands as he asked, “better?”

You just nodded as you snuggled into him. Neither of you two said anything, a comfortable silence, just sitting there on your couch, engulfing each other, enjoying each other’s company.

“Now tell me what happened?” he asked softly when your crying had quieted down, afraid you might break again.

“It’s nothing. I just- its too much. Work, studies, family, everything. I just got too overwhelmed and just couldn’t keep it in anymore. And I had nobody present here for me to tell me that its okay or listen about what I felt.” You said now realising what mess you had made and quite embarrassed that Satoru had to see you this vulnerable. “God this is embarrassing! I’m so sorry.”

“Hey look at me.” He said, cupping your cheeks to make you look at him when you didn’t. “Everyone in this world has a vulnerable side. Everyone on this planet has things which is maybe too much overwhelming for them that they might just break at any point. Just like you did. But don’t ever apologise for this. Because none of it is your fault. Okay? And I’m always here for you. Even if you’re far away, I’ll always be there. You’re not alone, okay?”

You just nodded and gave him the smile he adored so much. And without saying anything else, he wrapped both of his arms around you once again, letting you rest your head on his chest. He kissed your forehead and hummed in content as you snuggled even closer to him if possible.

And as he looked down at the girl in his arms, he realised this is what he wanted for the rest of his life. He loved you.

The third time he realised he loved you was after summer. He hadn’t talked or heard from you since 4 months.

You left without a goodbye or a message to god knows where. He'd tried searching for you but always ended up getting disappointed. Suguru and Shoko missed you too. They had helped him to find you too but to no avail. It was like you’d disappeared into thin air.

Satoru often wondered if you ever thought about him like he did, if you missed him like he did. He knew you were probably out there pursuing your dream career, which you'd always talked about and wanted to do, but a part of him wanted to be there with you. To support and cheer for you at every step you take, to give you advices, to have late night celebration for your achievements. Call him selfish and everything. Everyday that passed, he cursed himself for not telling you how he felt before you left. Would it have made any difference? He’d like to think so. Even if it didn’t, he, at least, wouldn’t have to live every single day thinking: “What if?”

He kept a picture of you in his office. He often looked at it whenever he was free, always wondering how you were doing, if you were okay or not. Suguru and Shoko always found this sight pitful. They had tried to get him to move on, but all of them knew that Satoru was so in love with you and you were special to all three of them and that nobody could ever take your place.

It wasn’t until six months later when you stumbled into the building, chewing nervously on your bottom lip. A part of you knew you didn’t have the right to be there because you left them with no warning. You wouldn’t blame them if they asked you to leave the premises the minute their eyes landed on you. You knew you deserved the cold shoulder. Because if they were the ones who did that to you, you knew you wouldn’t be so forgiving.

The receptionist had told you to wait while she checked if the three of them were free or not. As you waited, you smiled sadly at the memories of last six months. You had gone for higher studies, as your dad had promised, for your dream career. You knew you should’ve at least informed someone before you left but everything happened just so fast that one moment your dad had agreed on your consent and the next moment you were on the plane.

Surely you enjoyed the studies and training period there, Paris being busy in days and nights, but having really nice places to visit. You would always go to the Eiffel tower, watching the sunset, half expecting for Satoru to wrap his arm around your waist but whenever you turned your head you’d always met with empty space. Whenever you came home exhausted, you always expected Satoru to be there with dinner ready and him greeting you with a welcome home kiss.

That’s why you came back. To be in his arms. To be able to kiss him. To be able to call him yours. Because you’d realise that your life was nothing if Gojo Satoru wasn’t in it.

The receptionist told you to go upstairs at floor 5 but as you were about to click the lift button, you heard someone running on the stairs. You turned to look who it was and your eyes locked with a pair of blue ones which were close to home. He just looked at you and slowly stepped towards you as you did the same.

When you were both closer to each other, he brought his hand up, touching your cheeks delicately as if making sure you were real.

Satoru couldn’t believe it. When the receptionist called him and said that someone named Y/N L/N was here to meet him, he left all his works and ran downstairs. And now that he’d seen you, he was mesmerised and shocked. Shocked because you were really here and mesmerised because you looked even more beautiful than before. He touched your cheeks delicately, making sure you were really here and not another one of his hallucinations. And then without another thought he took you into his arms and held you tight and closer to him, now promising himself to never let you go. All the feelings he still had for you, tripled. His heart rumbled in his chest, adrenaline pumping through his veins. Even after all this time, he was still so in love with you.

“No need to tell me where you were. Because I already know.” You were tearing up as you finally felt complete in his arms and realised how much you loved him.

“Don’t ever leave me like that again.” He said as he was starting to tear up too. He loved you so much and the thought of being apart once again was killing him.

“I won’t. Ever again. I promise.”

It didn’t take long for Satoru to tell you how he felt after you came back. He couldn’t hold it in any longer. Every moment that he didn’t get to call you his, chipped his heart. Both Shoko and Suguru were growing tired of it, encouraging him to just say it because they were sure you felt the same. He tried to ignore them, not wanting to get his hopes up, but he couldn’t help but think about how amazing it would feel if you told him you loved him back.

You came over to Satoru’s for dinner that night, Suguru insisted that they all missed you too much to go out to a restaurant. After dinner and catching up with everyone, you and Satoru excused yourselves and walked out in the garden. His hands were in his pockets, unable to look at you for more than a few seconds at a time. He’s been practicing what to say to you since years and yet, he still felt unprepared.

You were walking silently beside him, taking in the silence and calmness of the life you’re living now. You no longer had to worry about anything, just the day to day necessities, and your feelings for Satoru. Subconsciously, you intertwined your fingers with his snuggling up to his side for some warmth.

He froze for a moment. This is it, he thought, this is the perfect moment. So before he lost his confidence, he spoke, “Y/N, I have something to tell you.”

“Yes, Toru?” you asked, rubbing your thumb over the top of his hand. “What is it?”

There it was. He missed it. He missed the way you called him ‘Toru’. And now finally hearing it from you made his heart skip many beats.

He held you in your place, stopping in the middle of a field of flowers. The moon illuminated one side of your face, showing off your perfect features. Satoru smiled, reaching over to caress your cheekbone. With tears in his eyes, he said, “I love you.”

You gasped softly, looking up at him, “What?”

“I’m in love with you, Y/N,” Satoru sighed, connecting his forehead with yours. He closed his eyes for a moment, letting out a breathy laugh, “I’ve been in love with you for so long.”

You slowly brought your hand to his face and cupped his cheek as he melted in your touch. "Why didn't you tell me sooner?"

"I was afraid of what you'd say. I didn't want to ruin our friendship and lose you. I just thought that maybe if you didn't love me like that, I'd still have you. Even if it's just as your best friend."

"Then why now?" you asked, you voice getting even quieter. He kissed the palm of your hand as he met your eyes.

"Because after all those years of crushing on you, all those months of not being able to see you or be in your arms, made me realise how much in love I was with you. All those six months, you consumed all of my thoughts, your laughter was all I could hear in my silent nights, your smile was all I could see everywhere I went. And not being able to tell you how much I loved you was killing me." He finished, tears flowing uncontrollably from his eyes.

You didn't know when your eyes started tearing up. All you knew was how much you loved him at this moment. Him confessing all his feelings for you, so vulnerably. It made you realise how much you just wanted to hold him and never let him go.

So you said, "I'm in love with you too, Satoru."

At first he thought his ears were playing tricks on him. You loved him back? His eyes shot open, pulling away from you as he stared at you in disbelief. “Y-you love me?”

"Yes, you idiot." You chuckled through your tears, pulling him closer. Your lips ghosted over his, causing him to shiver. "I've been in love with you for a really long time as well."

"I'm really an idiot, aren't I?" he said, laughing a little.

"Yes, you are. But you're my idiot."

And with that, he kissed you. All those years where he hid his feelings came pouring out in this one kiss. His hands cupped your cheeks, pulling your face closer to his like there was any more space between the two of you to close. Your arms looped around his neck, his one hand snaked down to your waist to steady you while one still remained on your cheek. He kissed you, pouring in all his regrets, mistakes, apprehensions, into his love, no longer wanting to pass up an opportunity to love you for the rest of his life.

And when he pulled back for air, he had the biggest smile on his face. "I'm the luckiest man on this earth." You pecked him again as you gave him your biggest grin.

On your way back home, you could feel it, you could hear it in the silence, you could see it with the lights out in the garden. It lingered between you two, suffocating you but it was the best feeling ever. Gojo Satoru is in love with you. You are in love.

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notmuchfordancing · 6 months

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you are in love HAPPY 1989 (Taylor's Version) DAY!

#taylor swift #tswiftedit #1989 taylor's version #you are in love #i cant wait #5 minutes!!!!#nmfdlettering

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wordsarelife · 5 months

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heyyy, I just saw your appeal for theodore nott requests, but I also saw in one of your posts that you have a lot to do lately and I don't want to annoy you or something, take your time ♡

My idea for something with theo would be detention with Umbridge (I know it's cliche, but let's ignore this fact) and the reader (fem!reader would be great, but you can choose) has to write something that really insults her and hurts her pride like "I must not open my filthy mouth" or "Nobody wants to be bothered by me" (wow that sounds a bit depressing but let's ignore this too). And maybe theo is in Umbridge's little investigation team but changes when he sees the cuts on reader's hand (does this even make sense?). And maybe a little bit of angst which ends in fluff?

But please don't stress yourself ♡

—you are in love

pairing: theo nott x reader

summary: after a lovely visit with umbridge, theo must prove that the words carved into your skin are the opposite of the truth

warnings: mentions of blood and a wound, a little graphic

note: i initially didn't want this to get all like 'who did this to you?' but i just threw my principles out of the window in the middle of writing lol!! i hope this is something in the direction of what you wished for!! also: i'm living for enzo, just thirdwheeling and living his best life lmao

you knew you didn't like the woman the moment she had entered the halls of the castle. but now your hate was as evident as ever. she was sitting across from your, sipping on her tea, while reading the papers and you had a single task to fulfill.

you had much rather used the quill to cut out her eyes-

"go on, dear" she smiled and you had the sudden need to throw up "start writing"

"i don't think-"

"that wasn't a question!" you looked down at the paper, reading the sentence you were supposed to write ten times. it didn't even make sense to you what kind of punishment this should be. but what you read hurt you and maybe that was just the punishment she was so proud of.

you raised the quill, tapping it into the ink. the quill flew out of your hand after the first word. pain flodded through your body. "what?" you whispered to yourself, as you noticed the first word of the sentence carving into your skin slowly. the blood escaped the wound and dripped down your finger.

"continue" umbridge said and you did as you were told.

whatever she had done to you in that room, was the worst kind of torture, especially because you were doing it to yourself, with no escape. you read the sentence on your hand over and over again, scrunching your eyes closed in the hope that it would disappear, but it didn't.

atleast it was in the palm, which didn't make it any less hurtful, but atleast you could hide it better that way.

"there you are!" theo said the moment you entered the common room

"hi y/n!" enzo waved from one of the couches

"hey" you said tiredly, making a beeline to your dorm.

"woah" theo stepped into your way "no chess?"

"not tonight, theo" you tried to escape his eyes

"is something wrong?" theo asked concerned "did something happen?"

"i'm just tried okay? i just want to sleep" you clenched your hand together, trying to upkeep the lie. but you had unintentionally clenched your wounded hand. you winced in pain and a drop of blood hit the floor.

it was like slowmotion as theo, enzo and you all looked down.

"what the fuck" enzo stood up "is that blood?"

theo reached for your hand, but you pulled it back, causing more blood to drip.

"fuck, y/n" theo said "show me your hand"

"yeah" enzo agreed "whatever that is can't be normal" he leaned in to whisper at theo, but did it loud enough for your to hear as well "girls don't normally do that right?"

theo turned his head at enzo, send him a look with raised eyebrows and then slowly shook his head. enzo nodded, turning back to you "show him, y/n"

you sighed, understanding that you couldn't escape them even if you tried. theo gently took your offered hand, rolling the cloak up and opening your hand. he was met with nothing short of a sea of blood, which flodded your whole hand, making it impossible to see any skin underneath.

theo was staring at your hand. "get me a towel or something, quick" he instructed enzo, who just gulped and nodded, looking like he was going to throw up, but he hurried off right away.

theo guided you to sit down.

"what happened?" he asked, but you didn't answer "i asked you something"

"i fell over" you said. you knew that if you said it was umbridge, theo might never believe you. there was no use in fighting a teacher. especially not when theo was working for her and definitely not if this was your punishment after simply talking during class.

"the fuck you did" theo shook his head. before you could argue, enzo reentered the room, with a towel and a whole roll of toilet paper in hand.

theo wrapped the towel around your hand. it quickly soaked up the blood. he opened it back up, to softly pat some toilet paper on your wound. you winced in pain.

you watched theo closely and you knew what question he would repeat any moment now. he opened his mouth, but before anything could come out, he halted.

"are those words?" he asked calmly. too calm.

you tried to drag your hand away, embarrassed what exact words had been carved into your skin, but theo was quicker.

"hold her arm" he instructed enzo. enzo took your arm with one hand, while he clasped the other over both mouth and nose.

"what are you doing?" theo asked irritated

"it smells so bad" enzo said disgusted, while looking anywhere but your hand "and i don't want to throw up on her, then she'd be full of blood and puke"

"very wise decision making" you nodded "can't you just put a plaster on that and call it a day?" you asked theo. he shook his head, taking a new piece of the toilet paper and soaking up the rest of the blood. the wound was mostly dried now. the blood had been moved all around your hand and arm, but it was all dry aswell.

theo took off the toilet paper and his eyes flew over the words on your palm.

enzo, incapable of reading it quietly announced the words loudly "i will never be loved" he turned his head to look at you, eyes big. you kept your eyes on theo, waiting for his reaction.

theo just kept staring at your hand and you were more anxious than ever before. "theo?" enzo asked "what are we gonna do about it?"

"what are you gonna do?" you repeated "nothing! obviously. none of you will do anything, you hear me?"

"fuck that" theo said, making both enzo and you look at him.

"what?" you asked

"tell me the name"

"no" theo was still keeping a close eye on your hand, before he looked up at you answer suddenly.

"tell me the name, y/n" he repeated "enzo and i will deal with it."

"yeah" enzo agreed "we're on the inquisitorial squad. we can at least take points from them"

theo noticed how you looked at your hand at that. a very obvious tell you should've hidden better. but theo was usually too smart for you to trick anyway.

"oh" he said, understanding what had happened "umbridge did it, didn't she?"

"umbridge?" enzo repeated confused "what did she do?"

"sometimes, you're so slow" theo rolled his eyes at enzo "umbridge hurt out girl" he turned back to you "she did that to you"

your lack of an answer was enough for him. "take her to madam pomfrey, enzo" theo stood up

"where are you going?" you asked

"i have to take care of something"

you watched him leave the common room. enzo just shrugged. "come on"

madam pomfrey had quickly wrapped your wound in some bandages, but not before putting on a special treatment, that would help to heal it faster.

you were staring at the ceiling, bored to death, when there was a sudden sound. "theo" you said surprised. "where is your badge?" you asked, noticing it missing on his robe

"i gave it back" he sat down on your bed

"you did what?" you tried to sit up, but accidently put your weight on your hurt hand, wincing in pain .

theos eyes softened "i don't want to join some club that is fine with hurting the people i love"

"you didn't have to do that" your argued.

"yes i had" he insisted "simply because what she made you write isn't true. but i know that you questioned if it was. i won't let you think that"

"theo" you said softly.

"i spoke with potter and told him what happened. he has something going on as well. i know i can't do much, but he said he had a plan"

"you did all of that because of me?"

"are you kidding?" theo asked "of course i did. because i love you"

a tear slipped over your cheek. "thank you" you whispered "i love you too" theo softly kissed your forehead.

"i hope you get out of here soon"

"it will just be tonight"

"good" theo smiled "did enzo, the coward, really leave you here on your own?"

you shook your head, smiling, before you leaned over theo, dragging the curtain behind him to the side. there in the bed was laying enzo.

"he passed out, just after she took out the first syringe" you laughed "she gave him some sedatives and he's been out ever since"

theo shook his head, laughing, before he drew the curtain close again "at least then he can't see me do this" and with that, he kissed you.

#theodore nott x y/n #theodore nott x you #theo nott fanfiction #theo nott x reader #theodore nott x reader #theodore nott #slytherin boys #slytherin boys x reader #slytherin #harrypotterimagine #harry potter headcanon #harry potter #you are in love #taylor swift

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myillicitaffair · 2 months

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You are in love | Esteban Kukuriczka.

sumario: noches de pizza con tu amigo… claro, amigo.

advertencias: sexo explícito (+18) , penetración, sexo sin protección, consumo de alcohol.

créditos: las fotos del collage fueron extraídas de pinterest, más las edite yo. la canción cuya letra utilice es You Are In love (Taylor’s Version) de Taylor Swift.

notas: honestamente, no estoy muy contenta con el resultado final pero espero que puedan disfrutarlo de todas maneras xx.

No hay pruebas, no fue demasiado, pero yo vi suficiente.

Paciente, fuera de su recibidor, me encuentro parada, esperándolo con una botella de vino bajo la axila. Aliso los pliegues de mi falda varias veces con las manos, un hábito al que recurro para evitar sucumbir a la ansiedad que me atormenta. Con la cámara de mi celular, observo mi reflejo, comprobando que mi maquillaje permanezca en su lugar, que mi cabello siga viéndose inmaculado.

No recuerdo un tiempo en el que Kuku haya sido simplemente un amigo, siempre fue más; mi confidente, el protagonista de mis fantasías, quien roba mis suspiros y miradas, de quien terminé enamorándome.

Las pisadas sobre las baldosas delatan su presencia apropincuándose, luego el traqueteo de las llaves en la cerradura, las bisagras girando en su eje para revelarlo frente a mí.

La alegría tiñe su rostro al verme, redondeando sus angulosos pómulos y centrando mi atención en la mueca en sus labios. Condenadamente cerca de mí y a la vez tan inalcanzables.

Su voz dándome la bienvenida me sacude de mi subrepticia quimera, trayéndome de un zarpazo de vuelta a la realidad. Me estrecha contra su torso, con las muñecas serpenteándose por mi cintura para atraerme más cerca.

“Traje vino, Kuku”- pronuncio, a modo de saludo, mientras lo abrazo estrechamente.

“¡Gracias, ángel! Entrá que está por llegar la comida”- informa, de manera tan casual y ligera que siento mi corazón escurrirse hasta tocar el suelo.

“Ángel” me dijo, jodiéndome para siempre. ¿Cómo seré alguna vez capaz de recuperarme de tal agravio a mi integridad? Decido asentir y adentrarme a su hogar.

Me recibe una sala de estar cálidamente iluminada, las paredes blancas cubiertas de cuadros y fotos, un aterciopelado sofá rojo situado en medio de la habitación.

Me acerco a una repisa de madera, donde reposa un retrato recientemente seleccionado… todo el elenco de La Sociedad De La Nieve posando bajo el lente de su cámara, sonrisas reflejadas en nuestros rostros enmarcados.

“Esa la tomé el último día de rodaje”- me recuerda, apareciendo por detrás mío, con una mano en mi espalda baja.

No hay pruebas, un toque singular, pero yo sentí suficiente.

Mis vellos corporales se erizan ante el contacto, un escalofrío recorriéndome cargado de anticipación por lo que jamás sucederá. Asiento torpemente, deseosa de fundirme en el calor de su silueta.

Pienso en esos mismos dedos, acorralando mi piel a su paso, incendiando su sendero. Acariciando mis mejillas con ternura, colándose por mis labios, desvistiéndome con precisión.

El timbre retumbando en la sala me despierta, desarraigándome de mis maquinaciones pecaminosas. El hombre a mi lado da largas zancadas, con un caminar tímido y garbado, hasta alcanzar la puerta de madera y ojear la mirilla. Luego de cerciorarse de la identidad del intruso, le permite ingresar para que deposite el delivery entre sus brazos, marchándose luego de recibir su pago.

Sobre la mesa del comedor se halla mi bolso, el cual rebusco hasta toparme con la billetera y separar varios billetes para pagar una porción del importe de la cena.

“Dividamos los costos de la comida entre los dos, ¿te parece?”- debato, tendiéndole el dinero para así compensar la mitad de su perdida.

“Pero no, nena, ¡guarda eso! Te invito yo”- rechaza tajante al ignorar mi ofrenda, con juguetona indignación en sus facciones.

Más allá de mi recurrente insistencia, rechaza contundentemente todos mis intentos de devolverle la plata, escudándose en excusas absurdas. Una cálida sensación se apodera de mí ante su caballeroso gesto, traduciéndose en atontados vistazos en su dirección, mientras sigo cada uno de sus movimientos al sacar el par de copas de una alacena.

“Pedí pizza de ese bar que te gusta”- comienza a explicar, aun movilizándose para descorchar el vino- “la de pepperoni sigue siendo tu favorita, ¿verdad?”

Un solo paso, no fue demasiado, pero dijo suficiente.

Silencio. Silencio desgarrador y sepulcral a mi alrededor, petrificando el aire a su paso.

“¿Te acordaste?”- asevero con un hilo de voz, aunque suena más a una pregunta, reflejando mi propia inseguridad.

Mis extremidades tramitan un cosquilleo colectivo, despertándome de la anestesia que se había apoderado de mí.

“Si, obvio”- le resta importancia, sirviendo la bebida y entregándome mi copa.

Y yo entiendo lo tonto que debe sonar, pero, por un momento, me permito sentirme importante e incluso un tanto sustancial en su existencia. “Me escuchó” medito, atónita por la revelación, revolucionando todas mis ternuras dirigidas hacia él.

Mis ojos se obsesionan con su él, simplemente él y su aura dorada coronándolo como si de un halo se tratara. ¿Cómo logré tener tanta suerte?

“No me mires así, nena”- pide al devolver mi mirada, su entrecejo fruncido en concentración- “Vas a hacerme creer que los chicos tenían razón…”

Mi mueca se tiñe de confusión, no sabiendo con exactitud si se refiere a lo que yo supongo. Intento decodificar sus palabras, pero, tal vez por el prospecto de ver mi entusiasmo destrozado, me limito a repreguntar.

“¿De qué hablas, Kuku?”- atrapo mi labio inferior entre mis dientes para así detener los temblores que lo acosan.

“Ya sabes…”- se encoge de hombros, pero, al ver mi perplejidad se resigna a continuar- “Fran y Juani siempre nos cargaban con que… em, con que debíamos salir.”

Siento un hondazo envestirme de lleno y un deseo irremediable de que el mismo continúe hasta hacerme perder la conciencia.

“Ah, eso”- murmuro en voz baja, de repente completamente drenada de seguridad. Trato de difuminar mis conflictuadas preocupaciones con una risotada punzante, delatando la rigidez de mis hombros estáticos y la incomodidad en mi gesto.

¡Qué estúpida! ¿Cómo me permití alguna vez pensar que el podría sentir lo mismo que yo? Deseo tirarme al suelo y revolcarme en el bochorno que me arrima, lo suficiente para olvidarlo a él con sus grandes ojos fijos y perder la cordura a manos de la vergüenza.

“Era un chiste nada más, no deseaba hacerte sentir mal”- aclara cálidamente, rodeando la mesa hasta rozar nuestros hombros.

Es absurda la cantidad irremediables de terminaciones nerviosas que logra incendiar con solo oprimir su marco con el mío. ¡Debo frenar esta locura antes de que se me vaya de las manos!

“Claro…”- suspiro, forzando una sonrisa al tomar asiento en la silla que abuso bajo mis pálidos nudillos.

Tomando la copa entre mis palmas, la balanceo hasta verter el liquido más allá de mis labios, rezando para que el espirituoso proveniente de uva disipe su comentario furtivo.

El mayor, aún parado a mi lado, hinca sus rodillas para arrodillarse y así quedar a la altura de mis ojos.

“Ángel, lo siento si te ofendí. No era mi intención”- se disculpa, escurriendo sus dígitos entre mi cabello para plegarme un mechón tras mi oreja.

“Ya sé, Kuku… y lo prometo, ¡estoy bien!”- miento descaradamente en su cara, con las comisuras adheridas a mis tensas mejillas.

Por unos prolongados segundos- que se sienten como una eternidad- nos miramos firmemente, tratando de descifrar los pensamientos cabalgando en la cabeza opuesta. Con un afectado suspiro, se levanta del suelo para luego posicionarse en la silla contigua a la mía.

Una vez asentado en su sitio, levanta el rostro para enfrentarme y toma mis temblorosas manos entre las suyas. Inmediatamente noto su calor corporal, las asperezas desperdigadas por sus palmas, sus anillos colisionando con los míos.

“Ahora entiendo cómo mi comentario pudo haber sonado y te pido perdón por ello”- alega mientras me observa, pausando en cada pequeño lunar e imperfección.

Inhibida y un tanto cohibida ante su escrutinio, desvío mis ojos hacia un costado y muerdo mi labio inferior, aprisionándolo entre mis paletas.

“No quería hacerte mal…”- confiesa, con sus orbes ahora clavados en mis labios mordisqueándose- “Sos mi mejor amiga.”

una mueca extraña en su rostro. Pausa, luego dice “sos mi mejor amiga.” Y yo supe a que se refería, está enamorado.

Una fuerza gravitacional me empuja aún más cerca suyo; envalentonada gracias a su fijación por mi boca, empiezo a disparar la ajena sin dudarlo. Deslizo una mano por su cachete, acariciando la incipiente barba creciendo allí mientras le robo un breve pico.

Al separarme, escaneo al hombre que acabo de besar, desesperada por hallar una reacción. La confusión tiñe su cara, tiene la mandíbula presionada con fuerza y un furioso sonrojo trepando hasta su nariz. Sin perder un solo minuto más. Vuelve a unir nuestras figuras en un beso, uno real esta vez.

Sus labios en contacto con los míos consienten un hambre que venía cultivando hace meses, acelerando mi deseo de conseguir más. Mi corazón late con una velocidad alarmante, saltando implacablemente contra mi caja torácica, y agravando los temblores en todo mi cuerpo.

Una danza desenfrenada se desenlaza, dando rápido paso a una intrépida batalla por apropiarse de la ventaja que implica dominarnos mutuamente. Una de sus manos se enreda en mi melena, tirándola hacia atrás mientras su lengua se apresura en inmiscuirse en mi cavidad bucal, cepillando la propia y paseándose por toda su extensión.

El aire comienza a escasear y el ardor en nuestros pulmones nos fuerzan a dividirnos, aprovecho el breve impase para deslizar mis extremidades por sus piernas y así, sentarme a horcajadas sobre su regazo.

“¿Sabes hace cuánto deseo hacer esto?”- cuestiona, entrelazando sus dígitos por mis curvas y asentándome sobre la junción de su torso y piernas.

Bajo mío, noto un bulto que comienza a alzarse, punzando mi centro deliciosamente. Sin siquiera razonarlo, muelo mis caderas contra él, percibiendo un curso de placer recorrerme entera ante la fricción contra sus pantalones.

En un arrojo de valentía, me deshago de la blusa que flamea en mis costados, arrojándola lejos nuestro. Como si de un arreglo tácito se tratara, el argentino adjunta sus labios con mi pecho y comienza a succionar mi piel con fiereza, yo me limito a atraerlo contra mí mediante su cabellera.

“Tantas veces fantasee con esto…”- admito, sin poder evitarlo, mientras él libera mi busto del corpiño.

Levito hacia su remera, forcejeando con ella hasta deshacerla hacia las baldosas y revelar su tórax al descubierto. Recubierto de pecas difuminándose en su blancura, dudo alguna vez haber visto una imagen más hermosa.

Sosteniéndose de mis muslos, se irgue y tropieza hasta toparse con el sillón, descargándome sobre el terciopelo con una impredecible agilidad. Allí, acostada en medio de su sala de estar, centro mi atención a sus dedos desenlazando mi falda con ternura, para luego despojarme por completo de mis confinamientos.

Imitando sus movimientos, aviento mis brazos hacia su entrepierna para desabrocharlo y librarlo de sus prendas. Aceleradamente, lo desvisto hasta que nuestras desnudeces son lo único que prevalece.

“Sos hermosa”- me halaga, recorriendo cada centímetro de mi piel con delicadeza, intentando memorizarlo para siempre.

Respondo con mi agarre volando hasta su palpitante erección y acariciándola juguetonamente, con constancia hasta donde me lo permite.

“Necesito sentirte adentro mío, Kuku…”- pido, sin sentir un ápice de vergüenza ante mi explicitación.

Un gruñido escapa su garganta ante mi directiva, deshaciéndose de mi toque para posicionar su polla entre los pliegues de mi coño y comenzar a adentrarse. Sollozos son lanzados en su dirección, animándolo a ir más allá, a continuar.

“Dios, estás tan apretada”- pronuncia cuando la cabeza de su pene logra tocar mi fondo, disfrutando los espasmos que mi canal le proporcionan.

En un frenesí ocasionado por la sensibilidad que su miembro me genera, embisto mis caderas para acercar nuestros centros aún más y luego retirarme, provocando un extasiante vaivén. Los gemidos retumban en el silencio del salón, con la danza que nuestros sexos lideran al fusionarse.

“Estoy enamorado de vos, ángel, desde la primera vez que te vi”- dice al observarme con atención, aun penetrándome hacia la culminación.

Sorprendida por lo inaudito de la situación, una lagrima se cuela por mis ojos y rueda en su sendero por mi mejilla ante su confesión, una que aguardo hace meses.

Esteban la recoge, interrumpiendo su trayecto hacia mi cuello para besarme nuevamente, con renovada emoción.

Y ahora comprendes por qué perdieron la cabeza y pelearon sus batallas, y por qué yo he pasado toda mi vida tratando de ponerlo en palabras.