remember dear writers,

your writing is a privilege, not a right. It is shared with others and not for them.

write what makes you happy + not what everybody else claims they want because their minds change like the wind. That fic is still just as perfect with or without smut and thousands of notes.

people’s reading comprehension or lack thereof is not your problem. If they can’t understand your art, it’s not for them, period. Don’t let it discourage you. You are also not responsible for anyone else’s perception of your work.

POST YOUR WORK! Stop being scared and share that shit because the right audience will find you.

you are not a content machine. If these ‘readers’ can’t be vexed to care about your well-being and wanna unfollow bc you’re not pumping out fics everyday, FUCK EM. and I mean that wholeheartedly.

lastly, you are in competition with nobody. This is for fun and nothing else. Find your tribe, enjoy your fandom/fixation and leave the other shit to the birds. This is not high school, this is not Mean Girls + we’re all adults (I hope). We’re all a bunch of weirdos simping for drawings.

This pissed me off so much. I never thought i have such a strong opinion about this topic but here i’am.

In my language we have honorifics for siblings that we use daily. We can’t just say their name if we are not the older one, it’s rude and disrespectful.

But english language doesn’t have honorific for siblings. I get that it’s a cultural thing, but please don’t shame writer or make fun of them for it.

Especially if they write fanfic for a fandom that is not in english language originally (exp: Anime or Manhwa). I always read how people hate a story that has japanese honorific on it and will not show support (in form of likes, votes, kudos, or such) because of that, no matter how good the story actually is.

I get that it’s preference but please don’t make fun of writers for it. Don’t be a ghost reader.

I, myself, use honorific in many language for my fic because it’s so wrong to just say their name. Especially if the character is older than my mc or like a mentor to my mc.

My readers never complain about it but i saw some comments on other writer’s platform that pissed me off, so i need to say it.

In the English language we can call teacher ‘Miss’ or ‘Mister’. For master/mentor/superior is ‘Madam’, ‘lady’, ‘sir’, or ‘lord’.

But what about siblings? What about your older cousin? What about your sibling’s older friend? Wtf am i suppose to call them?

By their name only? That’s rude!

You know what makes me so mad?

When you're reading a book that has sooooo much potential, it reels you in with the promise of a plot that looks interesting, complex and real characters that look like they're going to go through actual character arcs and develop but then...

it falls flat on its face.

It boils my blood because you have something unique right there but it gets sacrificed for the dumbest reasons.

Whether it be that the character development was sacrificed for the sake of the main couple or that the plot goes sideways to make the main character the most specialest baby ever.

Whatever the reason, authors, I beseech you to PLEASE stop doing this!!! Or at the very least hire editors who give enough of a shit about your story to help you not do this and then ACTUALLY LISTEN TO THE EDITORS!!!

I want somewhere to rant all my incoherent ideas, but I want someone to ask me first, and then let me rant to them continuously whenever I feel like it

But y'all have lives.

How dare you.

How dare you have a good time living in the real world.

Lol

I should come up with a few personal tags or something like Ellia's Rambles or some shit, idk

tldr i want to strangle sampo koski

there will never be a character that will be more infuriating for me to write then Sampo Koski because we know fucking nothing about him outside of him being a masked fool.

His character stories are almost entirely unhelpful for direct motive. His dialog feels oily and to at ease to be genuine. every fucking interaction you have with him screams DO NOT TRUST A WORD THIS MAN SAYS to the point it SAYS THAT DIRECTLY.

Every detail weve seen of him is superficial. A facet of his personality that seems interesting but yields nothing. Everything we know is gleened from the Masked Fools and how they act as a whole, and most of that is from Sim Uni.

his name might not even be sampo fo0r all we know !!

Hes shrouded in a mist of mystery that feels so perfect, to perfect to be real. Hes a walking deflection who runs and hides and prods and watches and manipulates the dominos to fall just right.

We dont even know why hes in belobog for gods sake we know NOTHING

WE DONT EVEN GET CHARACTER INTERACTIONS TO INFER FROM EITHER

At most we get dialog ABOUT him , but the most we seem him interact with other playables in game is literally once when he asks if Gepards around (and he doesnt even stick around to talk to him), when hes leading the gang to svarogs , and another where he summons natasha to aide in the fight againsr svarog and from that alone we only ever see him interaft with 1. us , 2. the trailblazers, and 3, seele. Everything else? off screen or indirect

I absolutely love him as a character but GOD do i struggle to write him. Motivation is a key part in writing and plot development so to not know what sampos is outside of superficial inferences is frustating beyond belief because I have to make one up and i dont wanna be disingeniunous to the character. Literally the only thing guiding me rn is that hes on the path of Nihility

so much personality and quirks for me to work with and so little motivation to attatch it to

i should probably also note that this is entirely positive i love the challenge BANDNSR i just wanted to rant about the difficulty of gauging his reactions to events

I want you to remember something. Writing is not an innate talent that people are born with. I've read /so many/ things where people who are old enough to know better, decide to "write a book" because they felt like it, without any knowledge on how to actually write a book, then think they're shit is the best and doesn't need a rewrite or edits.

And I'm not talking about aspiring writers, either. Aspiring writers are people who actually want to learn how to write. We all start somewhere. It takes time and practice. I'm talking about the idiots who think they can wake up one day and write Shakespeare without any kind of preamble work up to actually making that first draft and think it's publishable.

Writing takes Time, Effort, Dedication, and Practice. It's like any other profession: you can't learn it over night. But people drive me insane thinking they could 'do my job' without any kind of experience in it.

Next time you writers - actual writers that day dream about your stories, write fan fiction, make original stories in your head as you go to sleep, anything that's any sort of preamble to actually writing - think that your writing sucks? Stop and remember this. Writing is a skill you learn. You've just gotta work that muscle until it's strong.

Some of you are stronger than you think.

Someone shake me — I’m finishing up the draft of my next chapter of Trapper, Keeper and I’m struggling to keep it under 10k words (my arbitrary chapter word limit). Send help!!! I need to be sedated, i can’t stop!

T.T I’m so wordy but I like it all mdjdjdkdkdkdk do I split it up into two parts?? Is everyone fine with these long chapters or would you lose interest halfway through?? T.T

Cannot say loudly enough how strongly I disagree that the only way to get your readers to care and have feels for your writing is by "putting your characters through crap," it's fine if that's what you want to do but it is not AT ALL the ONLY good and right way to write and mostly IT'S FINE TO DO THIS IF YOU'RE GOING TO RESPECT MY GOLDEN RATIO lololol.

(This is in response to a specific post involving Big Deal Writers and I don't want to get into a big fight with that post especially because those people are all professionals with the big publishing gigs but it just always upsets me when it sounds like the only way to do writing is to make everyone cry in pain all the time. Yeah, you want your readers to feel. There's an entire spectrum of feelings out there. Feelings aren't just tragic.)

(But also, I'm maybe really feeling this because I just finished a book called The Kingdoms and I loved it, I thought it was so well-done and brilliantly plotted and the characters were all A+ and it was 350 pages of epic pining and then the OTP literally got together on the last page of the book and I was just like, .........what the hell was that hahahaha. I had to go hunt down fic and read, like, 15,000 words before I felt satisfied enough to go to bed. Idk, sometimes leaving your readers wanting more *isn't* a good thing, Idk Idk. Sometimes you just want people to be HAPPY for a little while Idk Idk Idk.....)

Something I just wanna make a quick comment about is how odd the fanfic community can be sometimes. Like in a post I reblogged awhile ago it was talking about how people attack male insert writers claiming that their “predators” which is so fucking wild to me because you call male insert writers predators yet you turn around and say that cnc, rape, pedophilia, and a bunch of other messed up shit is completely fine. Look I don’t give two flying fucks about what you get off to and I know half the time the people who write/read it are able to separate fantasy’s from reality. But some can’t. Some people out there who write this shit actually think cnc and all the other gross things I listed are okay when their not in even the slightest. And people call people who just wanna insert themselves into their favorite medias predators just because of their gender. And big shocker here: most people write fan fiction for themselves. This isn’t a job and just because some hateful person on the internet told you “your a bad person for writing (insert kink, trope, or anything else)” guess what? THATS NOT YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM. They’re the audience and your the writer, if one person boos a singer because they didn’t like a lyric in their song they aren’t gonna care. Their just the feedback, not the source of information you should trust always. And I’m not saying to not take feedback ever because that’s not the point I’m trying to make. What I’m saying is do what makes you happy!! Not what makes user6969 happy, not what makes blog-number33 happy. What makes you happy! Take the advice and use it, if you find it useful? Great! If you don’t? Still great! Do what works for you and what makes you happy.

The more I write, the more I understand why Google (in this case, specifically google drive) has such a chokehold on the world.

There is just no other platform that covers all the bases when it comes to the different services and abilities I want to have available for my work.

Google Drive offers a cloud storage i can access on pretty much any device that can download the app or access a browser, and if I'm willing to stoop to using chrome (im not), I can even access/edit my files offline. I can share my files with anyone else that also has access to the app or a browser easily and directly, and give them varying amounts of access to the work. I can have conversations with them INSIDE the document, either in the chat window or through leaving comments on the work itself, all in real time, and easily respond to suggestions from others without having two versions of the project open and skimming for the differences.

There's even an ao3 script I can use for google docs that adds in the html coding I need to make my formatting work properly on the archive.

In an attempt to move away from google drive, I tried a few other options, and none gave me the freedom/services that I need/want from a writing platform. There are file-sharing websites that would let me send a document to someone else, but no way to transfer back comments unless they reformatted the file, edited it, then sent it back for me to reformat. Plus those websites almost always require the other person to also have an account with them. There are offline options, like Scrivener, which is what I use currently for a few different fics, and while it has lots of options, there are almost none that relate to intercommunicative work with editors or Betas or anyone else. Because everything is saved to my computer rather than a cloud, I can work offline, but I'm limited to only being able to access my work from a single device, unless I save everything to an external harddrive and plug it in whenever I want to work. I can't access it on my phone, or share it with others, or leave comments within the work for referencing later. Because it uses its own formatting, I can't even copy/paste writing into it or out of it. In order to put anything in ao3 from scrivener, I have to download the file in a specific format, then re-upload it to google drive and run it through the script i have, THEN copy/paste it into ao3. In order to get any perspective from an editor/beta, I still have to download it and upload to drive, then share the file with the person I want. Then, either I make the changes in the drive document, then Re-download and Re-upload it to scrivener and have to completely recreate the chapters/files that I had working for me, or just have both versions open and only make changes in the scrivener version and just keep downloading/uploading it over and over again to drive. I believe the mac version of scrivener is supposed to let you send documents more easily to other people who ALSO own scrivener, but it's not the kind of back and forth sharing that I would want. It's just a faster file-share than downloading and e-mailing it to someone.

No matter where I look, i cannot find any other platforms that offer the ability to save your work to a cloud (without it ONLY being hosted on the cloud, like Drive. I just want to be able to save a copy of it so that my work is in two places) then share it with others easily, and allow them to make edits/suggestions/comments within the document, while still letting you retain the ability to work on your documents offline when you so choose. Why then, do I not want to use google drive, if it offers everything I'm looking for? Because google fucking sucks. If my documents get to more than like 60 pages long, the entire page starts lagging, as if I'm asking the page to load a massive picture instead of basic text. There is no fix except to make an entirely new document and repaste the words. Drive also kicks me offline at random, despite my internet working literally everywhere else on my computer, and while my work is offline, I can't make any changes, so I have to deal with random pauses in my writing where i'm just waiting for it to reconnect. I can't use the offline edits feature without using a chrome browser. Plus, it breaks constantly, buttons on the screen going missing and documents corrupting in strange ways. In short, it's google. I don't want to use it. But for some reason NO ONE else has made a platform that actually works like google drive, but isn't shit. I don't know whether what google drive offers is actually that difficult to recreate without the concessions that google forces people to put up with, or if no one making websites/platforms understands that this is what people need/want.

The hoops writers have to go through in order to do any collaborative work (and in fandom, that's SO Much more common) outside of google drive is infuriating, and made more so Because google drive exists. I wouldn't be so annoyed that I'm not getting All the options that I want from one platform, if it weren't for the fact that drive is sitting RIGHT THERE proving that it's totally possible for it to exist. it's just that no one's made it, or if they have, it's locked behind a massive paywall.

not even to wake up in a haterrific mood on such a beautiful morning but I feel like I gotta say something. Especially when I’ve been seeing a multitude of posts critiquing black writers and seeing so many of amazing moots leave. (and reminder that the anon button is OFF so you will argue with the wall or get that ass cussed out publicly, your choice. And if you feel brave enough to come to my DM’s, I got something there for you too 🤗 so feel free) but I am so so so SICK of seeing these very unnecessary and annoying standards being placed on black writers. I’ve said this once and I’ll say it again that the goalpost keeps moving for us. It went from the toxic, plug, sneaky link, etc fics are harmful and damaging to us as black women to now I’ve had the displeasure of seeing that modern AU’s in general are problematic and we should write more canon AOT stories (I wish I was making this up). Don’t know about you but I want no parts of that depression fest. Especially because the ONE black person was basically observed like some type of mystical being. I’ll pass on the whole ‘why does your hair feel like that’ and a handmade’s mammy tale of tending to a war criminal’s wounds in a jail cell. Regardless, all of this is rooted in a respectability and projection issue. Because as I’ve said before, none of these critiques started until the TikTok girls started publicly bashing black writers and using them as a ploy to get views because doing it to other groups who write the SAME tropes with a “digestible” packaging would’ve gotten them backlash. So as does everyone on this hellscape of a planet, they use black women as a punching bag and laughing stock to garner engagement. Now you’ve got an influx of people regurgitating these same things and making others feel bad for what they write. I’ll be honest, a lot of these tropes/stories that I see, they’re not exactly my niche, mainly because I don’t smoke, I don’t do parties and stuff like that so I can’t resonate with it (don’t come at me, I got asthma and social anxiety, bitch 😭) but that doesn’t make me love/wanna read them any less. I love seeing different perspectives and being in another set of shoes for a while. There’s nothing wrong with that because as long as black women/enbies are happy and confident in what they write and it’s not causing harm, I’m going to support ten toes down because we need representation, we need that community and I’ll be damned if I turn my nose up in the air at anyone just trying to express their creativity. What I WON’T support is a bunch of hateful, nasty spirited shrews parading around in clean girl cosplay and bashing others to be seen as acceptable and ‘one of the good ones.’ Not liking smut doesn’t make you a better reader/writer, not liking modern AU’s and ‘overused’ tropes doesn’t make you some prophetic, divine person and sitting up in anons and on the dash, reporting fics because YOU personally don’t like them doesn’t make you superior. And running everyone else off of here won’t make your writing any better. What does it make you is a loser, a cornball ass bitch and a lazy bum. Because the energy you exert into being haters, you can simply open a Google doc or draft on here and write what fulfills you. Be the change you want to see in the world or whatever they say. Also, a lot of us ARE writing these very scenarios you all are claiming you want to see. We can also see the notes count in comparison to the ones being deemed so horrible so again? You as the consumer determine what’s popular and not. We’re only going to write what’s going to be seen. Anyways, black women/femmes/enbies, I love you. I love your stories, I love your portrayals of our favorite characters whether they’re a drug dealer or a doctor, I love seeing y’all on my dash and I hope that you continue to grow in your writing journeys. I hope that you write what brings you joy and block out all the bullshit. Stay safe and have a wonderful weekend! 🫶🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾

If you’re wondering how Illusion is mentally doing in Act 3 of RRFF, here’s a paragraph I just deleted from a chapter draft, but is still canon nonetheless:

“I don’t believe in chairs. Chairs are a social construct,” Illusion grumbled. He knew the truth about this video game. He knew chairs weren’t real. If he broke this so-called chair and picked it up, his inventory would correctly call it a stair block, not a chair block. Stair blocks were only insisted to be chairs once they were put in front of a table, which was also a social construct.

Can we collectively put the fun back into writing? Let's not hate on other people's writing just for the sake of acting "better than." Not everyone writes for the purpose of being grammatically correct. People get so focused on what's logically wrong that they don't bother to look at the meaning behind it all. Besides, if, I, want, to, put, unnecessary, commas, I'll, put, unnecessary, commas!

Is it funny that you did well on drawing a character from a series you know and then when you draw your own characters is not really good compare to ones you draw from that series?

IIIIIIIIIII’m not sure how to answer that because I am not a drawing artist whatsoever.

But I do see where you are coming from and agree with you. Because it’s easy to write stories about characters from other series in fanfictions because there’s already been an establishment of characterization and the world they live in and their storylines and character arcs. We got the base we can work off of or build from.

But in original stories, you have to basically create these stuff all on your own. Create your own world. Create your own characters. Create your own storylines. Which can maybe or maybe not be as great as the stories you loved (I’m pretty sure it can be; it really falls on the person’s personal interests).

And even then, honestly, when it comes to writing fanfictions, you still have to worry about making sure the characterization is still accurate at least. And just hope people comment you enough that you did a good job doing so.

Other fans are like "oh I love angst and being mean to characters" but I am actually like "I like conflict but ultimately just want all my babies to be happy 🥺". Unfortunately, I am also a sadist.

So occasionally I will get a horrible idea for fic and then I go like "but surely there is no need to write something so excessively horrible" and my sadist id side of my brain will be like "yes, but horny" and I am like "I have integrity (lying)" and ends up writing the horrible thing to get it out of my system and inflict it onto others.

And then I would think it's done I am done I have made a perfect beautiful bad end when 2 days or a few months later I am literally incapable of just leaving a dead dove in its paper bag and is forced to write a hopeful epilogue because "🥺 I just want babies to be happy" side kicked in the door.

Does it make the story better? No necessarily! I think, at least for Confinement, the hopeful epilogue actually weakens the story! And like. Because the "hurt" part of the h/c story was never written with comfort in mind, just pure cathartic destruction, the tone is actually not very coherent. And I recognize this! I am always like "just let fucked up stories stay fucked up it's fine!!!" And yet. I am literally incapable of leaving fucked up stories where it is. It's impossible for me. I am too soft.

you are 13 when your dog dies and you cry as if you know what the next ten years are going to bring.

you are 14 when your birthday celebration has to be cancelled because you are in bed with a forty degree fever and feeling like death warmed up and your father shouts at you on the phone for making him spend money unnecessarily.

(the day of the celebration he takes pictures of the fun your family is having without you and leaves them on your bed for when you come to visit next so you are aware of what you were missing out on.

it's the only birthday present you will receive.)

you are 15 when your oma dies and everything changes with it.

you are 16 when your father and your step-mother decide to call it quits and you lose another person that used to stand up for you behind the scenes.

you are 17 when you are introduced to his new girlfriend and realise the friendship you started to build with her might not have been as coincidental as you thought.

you are 18 when your little brother is born and your father doesn't call to let you know. Instead he sends a text message with a picture attached to it and you think it's the ugliest babe you've ever seen. Deep down you know that ugly feeling churning in your stomach is jealousy.

you are 19 when you quit school and decide to finally do something for yourself.

you are 20 when your newly discovered passion for Life is cut short and the blooming euphoria in your chest starts to wilt.

you are 21 when years of anxiety, repressed emotions, depressive tendencies and childhood trauma snowball into several mental health diagnoses.

you are 22 when you think you've finally reached the lowest point of your life. You are at rock bottom. Surely things can't get worse than this. You are wrong.

Someone has offered Life a shovel.

you are 23 when you realise the only person that ever loved you unconditionally was your oma and the biggest impact she had on your life was the day she died and took all her love for you with her.