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thetreeturnedoff · 2 years

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i'm replaying the arcana and i knew i would yearn for asra's route but then he had his first line in the prologue and my feelings for him hit me like a goddamn semitruck. like holy shit i wanna play his route so bad. but i can't :(((

#i mean i will #but it'll be last #i wanna get the ones i don't like over with first #but i wanna read it so bad :(#but i'm playing all 6 again cause i've hit a point where i don't know what knowledge i have is canon and what's fanon/something i made up #i'm like actually taking notes and shit. and i feel like i'm learning a lot i missed originally #this is like the 4th time i've read the prologue too. i just never really paid attention before #too distracted by pretty people 😔#which is funny cause i'm hella aroace irl. my heart is reserved for fictional characters #but yeah. asra :(#gonna play lucio's first and gotta deal with knowing what asra's probably going through seeing that #and like. he's a fictional character!!! he does not have feelings!!! and yet i still feel like i'm hurting them #i have literally never felt feelings for anyone ever in my life as strong as the ones i feel for asra. i am so fucking In Love with him #even other characters i've hyperfixated on in the past. i think the closest i've been to this was saeyoung from mystic messenger #but even that obsession wasn't as bad as this one. and that one was horrible #my sister fucking knew about it and they were in elementary school at the time #i read probably every fanfic about him there was on wattpad #i had so many pictures of him in a few different pinterest boards or whatever they're called #i'd made his name my kindle password of all fucking things #he was my intro to cosplay too. got really really close to cosplaying him actually #but i was a child and had no money and was also a child #i literally have not thought about saeyoung in years. i still love him apparently #but not as much as asra #do i have a type? are they similar? i can't remember enough about him #but i'm not going back to that. it fucked up my sleep schedule so bad and i know i would spend way too much money on that game now #but a babe can dream #i know at one point i ran out of space in my phone because of how many pictures i had saved of saeyoung #it was also a shitty second-hand galaxy s3 so like. idk how much space it had to begin with. but i remember it hurt to delete them

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