#where would we be without her <3
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i love you green. i love you forests. i love you smell of damp earth. i love you feeling before the storm breaks. i love you moss. i love you rivers. i love you streams. i love you thunderstorms. i love you sunlight shining through leaves.
#just overcome by how Perfect green is this evening#where would we be without her <3#okay to reblog#green#nature#cottagecore#naturecore
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lazy scribbling of my baldur's gate 3 characters
#*emerges from 430 HOURS of life-changing playtime blearily like a lost and confused kitten*#i lost my interest in drawing bc everything is too sad & horrible right now. it was a luxury and privilege to lose myself in this instead#what follows will be my personal and trivial emotions about that#i'll do better proper drawings later. for me. they are both so very dear to me... deeply dear...unforgettable journeys of fate#truly have played like one possessed for the past few weeks. you have no idea. what do i do now. what do i do.#their personalities are so vivid to me though they mostly made the same choices. both intersex and they/them - canonically <3#i missed out on FOUR PARTY MEMBERS in my first playthrough due to not understanding anything whatsoever.#gloaming ended up with wyll and pavane romanced karlach and astarion. and ended up with the one i did NOT plan on. this wasnt the plan#one of the most fulfilling romance paths i've ever..i cant say more..it all got too immersive and now i have to just.. MOVE ON ??????????#live in THIS world where i can't gut imperialism personally and emerge alive from that?#without Long Resting? without my character requesting a kiss from their beloved after a tough day ??#without preparing my little spells? without channelling divinity from my death god to keep us all alive?#without dyeing my man's clothes fancy colours for him? without him Approving whenever i lie and double-cross our enemies#without sharing clothes with my ex? without choosing to eat the heavy food first so that the weight is easier on her Carrying Capacity?#without orchestrating ways for all of my friends to kill the abusers that ruined their lives for a decade or even 200 years?#without experiencing degrading horrors on a daily basis but in a cathartic way where we always make it back to our rooms at the inn#WITHOUT SPEAK WITH ANIMALS???????????#at least there's music. just like with persona 5 that will always be with me. always#like how p5 melodies take me back to those feelings. those rich and personal feelings.... BUT THIS WAS A WAY MORE NUTS EXPERIENCE#i thought i would hate it. i did at times. thought it would desensitise me to various things. it did. but there was so much more..it was...#Well anyway *continues my life* imagine if dnd was real..something to think about
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Suffering more than Jesus atm (being a fan of 80s/90s Suicide squad in 2024)
#god amanda waller what did they do to you....#i KNOW i never shut up about this but GUYS ITS SO BAD#fucking WHY would you take the interesting antihero protagonist and then strip her of any redeeming quality and use her as this horrific#unforgivable villain who is treated as a hated antagonist in her own comics#WHERE SHE ISNT EVEN THE MAIN CHARACTER MOST OF THE TIME#like why are you trying to make me sympathize with fucking harley quinn or smth when the actual main character is right there. why are we#turning her into this horrific villain w a million master plans making deals with the devil and shit.#we are supposed to like her. like maybe not all dc fans do because shes almost always an antagonist in other books but in her own shes the#main character!!! there should be some aspect of interest or sympathy for her. as opposed to just making her like badass or whatever#so sick of this#and its in freaking EVERYTHING right now on god i cant read other comics that are otherwise good (like ga) and enjoy them without the#obligatory intense demonification of one of my fave characters#like shes my no 6 in locg for a reason i genuinely love waller like yeah she sucks sometimes but shes INTERESTING.#this is not interesting or creative in any way what theyre doing with her#this genuinely could have been any government baddie like honestly#dont flatten 3 dimensional characters into 1 dimension (or at best like 1.5) to tell a story you tell the story around the 3d characters.#why do i need to say this. basic competent storytime#blah#amanda waller#istg i throw out another waller rant every freaking tuesday on here#suicide squad#you know what. at least we had the movie#you heard me. higher hopes for the new gunn dceu series than actual comics for the forseeable future#viola davis save me...#need to do a bit of 00s reading still to verify but on god watch this all come down to a fucking new 52 thing. like not to say that i think#thats where it all went wrong bc i need to read more to verify but i have an idea of what rlly did it and i think it was a nu52 decision#but then again maybe im stupid
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just full force threw a shoe at my sister's face and when my mum got me alone after she was like 'you shouldn't clobber her. but i get it' 😭
#it kicked off today but in my defence she's actually proper in the wrong this time even my DAD called her a bitch and my mum is FUMING#baso my sister came into my work with her mate when i was closing the other day and all the staff GLARED at them bc of aforementioned#close so i was being v chill so everyone 1) knew it was my sister and not some customer coming in late and 2) her friend wouldnt be uncomfy#like that's the real kicker her i was being extra laid back FOR her friend so he'd feel more at ease. and one thing about me is yes ive#said countless times i have a rural accent but my mum also raised me to know when and how to speak nice if need be bc people are cunts here#so when im waitressing i speak nicely bc it's a stuck up restaurant w stuck up customers but when im with my sister? making a point of#being laid back? my normal accent came through. and her mate when i was gone said i sounded 'really [from the county we live in]'#which WOULD NOT BE A COMPLIMENT. it's baso saying 'your sister sounds local and chavy' without using such explosive words#and my sister LET HIM SAY IT. SHE DIDNT DEFEND ME. and she told my mum about it later bc SHE THOUGHT SHE'D TELL ME OFF#LIKE SHE DID IT TO SNITCH. THERE WAS NO SCENARIO WHERE MY SISTER WASNT BEING A CUNT. and my mum hit the ROOF#one thing she's rlly been big on is loyalty bc it's always been the 3 of us so when she found out my sister let him say that she FLIPPED#and this all happened last night and i only found out this morning bc i overheard them screaming at each other and turns out my mum#tried to keep it from me bc she didnt want my feelings hurt and IM pissed bc it actually did hurt more than i thought it would#like i KNOW what people say about my accent but it's a guy i know? my sister's been friends w him for years? i was being nice?#it's EMBARRASSING like i was clueless & friendly and turned around for him to be like 'look at this stupid local girl' like??#and my sister did NOTHING? it just sucks so i STORMED upstairs when i found out and had it out with my sister#and she knew she was fucked so she did all 'im not talking to you i have nothing to say' AND PUT HER EARPHONES IN?#the way i RIPPED them out. got in her face like okay girl u think i sound like a chav ill act like a chav lets GO#and it just got really aggressive and i wound up grabbing HER OWN SANDAL and full force hurling it at her face 😭 oops#from close range too like i was already in her face so i basically just smacked her with a sandal DSHGJKSH#now we're sat in silence bc alas we still share a room. WHAT the fuck. insane tbh but it's a bit funny. im so angry rn i could KILL#hella goes home
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to anyone dealing with ptsd, has there been anything that has helped relieve some of the symptoms?
#im emotionally stuck due to the constant reliving of what happened#i get these weirdly intense flashbacks where i can remember the how the fabric of the couch looked like up close#and how they felt. and how everything looked. the way the colored lights hit the room a certain way#i think i did myself a disservice by thinking i was soooo in love that i didn’t want to forget any details lmao#now i can remember everything like a photograph and sometimes i find myself back in my old apartment and the fear floods my chest#and i can’t breathe and my stomach starts turning it’s terrible. i really felt like i was in hell#i stopped smoking ouid 3 weeks ago bc whenever these flashbacks would happen the high would make them HD and it would send me into a loop#but now i think weed was the thing keeping me above water… it’s been a rough 3 weeks. but before i start smoking again#i wanted to ask if anyone found something else that made it a little easier#it’s been months since our break up and i really want to move on. i’ve tried to meet other people but i’m terrified of men#and i find myself unable to connect with anyone…#i’ve been physically better which i am so grateful for because being unhealthy was my biggest reason i was so depressed#i’ve been doing therapy but i talk about the same thing with her every week. i’m tired of it#i think i’m still in disbelief that they did that to me. i never thought they’d be capable of hurting someone so badly.#i can’t get over the fact that he r***** me for months while i was disabled and pretended not to know what he was doing was bad#i realized he knew when he tried to make it look like i was crazy. that made me really sad. i think i was hoping he was clueless so#i could still believe he was a good person… or at least the man i fell in love with. i was willing to forgive him once he apologized…#when he tried to make it seem like i was going insane the blindfold came off and i saw him for who he really was#like no wonder i was so scared of u dude… no wonder i kept having panic attacks anytime we were together and i couldn’t sleep next to u#i’ve been afraid to admit that shit broke me as a person. i don’t think i’ll ever be the same. i can’t function.#plus knowing i stayed for her bc i was worried for her and didn’t want her to experience the same thing without someone there bc i realized#how good he was at gaslighting and lying. only to find out she was waiting for an excuse to get rid of me… she wanted me gone…#i went thru all that for nothing…#and i still don’t understand why each time i tried to leave for my own good- to get medical help and support they begged me to stay!!! why#brain vomit
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Mmm Jeanne
#servants cant learn new stuff (i'll talk about jalter in a second) therefore#jeanne shouldnt know how to read or write#we actually Dont get a confirmation that she can do those things in summer 3. because the book that jalter thought jeanne wrote#was actually Her own book#jeanne works with marie. maybe she comes up with the ideas and does rough drawings that marie would be Delighted to bring to life#marie reads to jeanne is my image#jalter taught herself how to read and write and i think that was possible because of the unstability of her existence#if you try to teach jeanne how to read and write it will stick for a second but if like idk 15-20 min pass she would likely find herself#unable to read again and her writting to be suboptimal#she can sign her own name ofc thats historical#she can recite the bible from memory iirc#i love jalter's ability to be her own person even if it comes with the fact that she is very much. an ephemeral dream#like her FCKING SKILL IS CALLED.#WHY MUST YOU HURT ME LIKE THIS FGO#anyway. now jeanne again but physical#oughhh thank u for the support in the tags when i said jeanne should have self image issues because she looked different in life#i hadnt fully talked bout it i just went with hair but yeah. i need to check again because im pretty sure her body wasnt Suuuper different#but i just gotta confirm#but im just so i love the idea of her just not liking the way she manifested abd not knowing Why she manifested like that#when there are Countless depictions of her with her short brown hair#sieg looks to the side whistling (its not his fault but he knows the pseudo servant part#and its probably a mix of . fate apocrypha's manifestation and of how some people imagined jeanne looked like#but it still upsets her#not that she'd ever complain to people#you can probably get it out of her tho#unrelated and only to those who reached this far: im thinking of a singularity set in 15th century orleans in the Middle of the hundred year#war. but the difference aint “oh jeanne d'arc came back to life evil” rather than “there seems to be a battle here where it shouldnt and oh#my god is that jeanne- oh god jeanne d'arc fucking died--#and chaldeas has to try and fix the war without living breathing jeanne d'arc#actually thats not the middle of the 100yearwar but yknow what i mean. also haha jk unless...
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also my friend (from the village) (a different friend) and i have been texting a lot this year
#it all started when we were at the village and it was just the two of us (weirdly enough. its usually the three of us)#and we somehow got to the convo that it would be cool if she came to visit me. i think bc we were talking abt how we only see each other#in the village and not in our like. respective 'homes' (the village is also my home ofc but its different)#and somehow the plan for her to come visit me pulled through and she spent a weekend here#and now im due for a visit to her house soon hopefully. so we kinda check in w each other? idk its kinda weird#we used to not contact each other for an entire yr. then spend 1-3 months together (the 3 of us) during the summer#and rinse and repeat. idk kinda crazy if u ask me. idk if this is a teenager thing or what. now since im here (aka not in the US)#i do see the other friend more often since shes actually from the village. so like 2 times a yr when i go visit#oh and these two friends were together and broke up so there was a very weird vibe w each other for like 3 years#coincidentally the three or so years we didnt see each other (bc of the stupid pandemic). i cant believe i had to go 3 yrs without seeing t#them. but godddd its so crazy. im glad were texting more and stuff but. idk it still feels kinda weird. its the only friend i do it with#like. texting just bc. if i text other friends its usually to meet up in person or arranging something.#i dont even know where i was going w this actually#z xarre
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well I just finished konya sukiyaki dayo and I am openly weeping with joy
#I question the realism of Tomoko continuing to afford that apartment on her own but if she lived further away it would be sad#bc she'd really be living alone again. Unlike this same building situation where it kinda just feels like one family in two apartments#also we never did get more focus on shinta. It's perfectly fine without it but also c'mon give my guy an episode in the spotlight#I love him#love love LOVE Yuki getting into cooking!!!!!! I hope he and Tomoko start to cook together!!!#lol I hope Aiko never really learns to cook but she's surrounded by her family who can and so never has to#when they're really busy she'll make them onigiri. I imagine it will improve slightly and be a comfort food for Miyu one day#sorry I would've written this all in the main post if I realized I was gonna go on so long. Ah well too late now in the tags it shall stay#konya sukiyaki dayo#I still wonder about my '3 bedroom house' (or now with Miyu in an ideal world 4 but 3 would work) solution...#if that would be a good idea or not
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What is your staple food of choice like chips rice pasta bread noodles etc?
RICE,!,!?!?!??!?!×;×;:×^@:+^+&!;@
^^ that was from like last night but it's staying
Anyways absolutely rice. She's my everything. And so incredibly versatile too!!! Literally all the good food you can eat rice with. I bet you can't eat like. What. Um. Curry with noodles. I have 0 examples. BUT more importantly it's very good 👍
literally like. Breakfast lunch and dinner level flexible. You could eat rice every single meal ever even desert isn't that cool. Also I love making fried rice like u have extra rice you're never going to eat and BOOM. Breakfast for tomorrow. And you can make eggs and spam or literally whatever you want and eat it with fried rice and very yummy 🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥. I would be absolutely nowhere without rice. Did you know one of my friends have never had rice. And I think about it. Constantly. She'll get Chinese food and not eat the rice. Not due to dietary reasons or anything she just. Hasn't. Which is completely respectable but whenever I eat rice I think about it.
noodles/pasta would be an easy second favorite because funny shape and also bread bread is soo good u can do so much with that guy too. It's like rice if it was slightly worse but also together they kind of cover all the ground ever. Like if you can't use utensils or whatever BOOM sandwiches and wraps and everything ever and if you can use utensils BOOM literally everything there is nothing rice can't do. Bread also gets soggy eventually which is sad. Rice also gets soggy but it doesn't matter because you're using utensils. I personally don't like putting sauce on my rice because I like mixing it all individually like a special little snowflake except you can also just. Mix stuff into rice or throw it on top and you have a super portable and pretty good bowl of stuff
i think the worst part of rice is when people literally can't make it and it's mushy (HORRIBLE UNACCEPTABLE KILL KILL KILL) or just dry. (Somewhat acceptable. Looking at you disrespectfully.) But that's also a problem with pasta so I'm going to file that under the "it's not her fault" category. Unrelated to rice but also noodles I'm a huge fan of just. Eating noodles. Completely plain. Enrichment activity.
#askstag#NOT bias. Never.#top 10 foods ever though <33 where would we be... without her..#Far simpler than a lot of other foods like bread and pasta like you can buy a huge bag of rice and you're just set for all rice needs#(I have a big bag of rice sitting in my kitchen)#but with pasta there's a bunch of kinds which means you always have to go buy it#same with bread#rice is simple but I like it that way <3
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i miss jude....... jude if u are still on tumblr at all i miss u sm <3
#i do not think she is....#i also lost track of her url after she updated it so i'm not sure where she's at all rn except for discord#sigh maybe i will message her and lament abt how bad we r at keeping touch without succeeding to change anything as we do.....#her current discord bio is what would it be like to have sex with allison janney. glad to see some things don't change <3#ted talks
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crying over weiss throwing her arms around yang in the camp
#no you don't get it that's her SISTER#team rwby was SO much more of a family to weiss than her actual family#like she grew up in a mansion where. her father was abusive. her brother always took his side and helped him to stay out of trouble himself#her mother shut down and was entirely absent from her life due to her father's behaviour.#and her sister was hardly ever home bc of her military career and she counted each of her visits as a blessing#she idolized the shit out of winter but she was still never there. weiss grew up almost entirely alone. klein was her only present family.#and then she joined team rwby and she suddenly had 3 sisters she got to spend everyday with and she loved them all so much#and she even fucking says as much when she confronts jacques and says '[these aren't] friends. [they're] family.'#god everyone in team rwby has family trauma#yang grew up with no active parent for a long time since tai shutdown after summer's death and qrow was an alcoholic#(like yeah both of them loved her but neither was a good parent)#(if she can at 5 years old disappear into the woods for several hours with a toddler in a wagon behind her without any supervision#while said woods are filled with monsters then im sorry the parents aren't parenting)#and after the loss of her mother ruby was raised by yang who was literally only two years older than her#blake got the best deal but she got fucking groomed into hating and abandoning her parents by That Fucker#and we know how much his actions fucked her up for nearly her whole life#team rwby is a family and i would die on this hill i am crying as i write this#(the best deal parent-wise her parents are amazing. not saying she got a better deal overall)
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revealing my own personal standards for “most fuckable” but i don’t think how easy or hard it is to get with a character is that relevant 🤔
#to me. obviously#in my mind it’s more of a correlation between like. how how you personally find them and how worthwhile you think the experience would be#sorry to talk about friends the tv show but#you know that ep where ross and rachel make a hall pass list and he puts isabella rossellini on it but then takes her off bc everyone#convinces him he’s not likely to see her. and also we know if he does she’s not likely to agree!#but she’s still at the top of his list mentally even when he takes her off. to me that’s what this is about agdhsjsk#cori would be up there even if she’d have to suddenly discover she harbored feelings for you for 3 years without her knowing it#before it could ever happen#but i can’t vote for them not just bc they would hate it but bc i prefer to think of everyone#in eorzea thinking of them as like a benevolent woodland creature who wandered into their midst and inspires a sudden but strong devotion#to protecting them and all that is good in the world#which may or may not rank them high on a list of fuckability.#anyway. i can eat my breakfast now#i need a text post tag#scream. how *HOT you personally find them. i’m not fixing that
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slightly disappointed - just slightly - that they didn't include fischl in the windblume event because she would fit the legend/fairytale category of the charade so much?!
#how did they not remember the person that actually lives in one?#logically it would make sense okay 😂#i hope we get to see the other mondstadt characters even for a second at the end#jean barbara fischl kaeya diona and diluc the excluded ones ✌️#like i don't care about timmaeus and his crush sorry give me characters i care about (mona was so real for interrupting him yes queen <3)#okay sorry timmaeus i hope you succeed in romancing her 😔#i think you're a great addition to the synthesis thingie when i need to make materials the game wouldn't be the same without you 😔#on another note!!! i love when genshin's events or quests are like therapy sessions like yes thanks for teaching us about anxiety and#struggles with self identity and how sharing our problems with others isn't a burden and how being vulnerable will allow us to create#meaningful connections and relate to others around us that only through connection and being able to see other people we are able to#fight the feeling of alienation we had in the first place and gain a new found confidence!!! like yes. trauma holds us back and can#influence the way we interact with others around us and follow us for so much time but we can also thrive regardless!!!!#genshin lore is so good but also the way this game helps us find peace regarding so many things we all struggle with is beautiful methinks#a lot of the struggles the characters face in the game are related to the fantasy world their inserted to sure but they're also still#incredibly relatable to the most common person if we strip down that fantasy layer#i think it's about being seen and understood feeling less lonely and also seeing others through less of a 1st person lense about finding#beauty and significante in diversity#but anyways rant over#i'm having fun with windblume and i love events like this where we just get to revisit characters and see them have a good time with each#other!!! it's so comforting plus mondstadt looks so pretty
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i hate ōkubo atsushi as much as the next person because of his fanservicey fetishism but i love the way he makes batshit crazy women characters.
#thinking about all the nutty women in fire force 🫶#🌟#they have depth they have swag#where would we be without haumea and inca and PUPPETEER.#ritsu. amaterasu even.#hell i'll even include hibana and hikage & hinata.#the true downside is that he gave no room for the 3 main girl protags to have any bit of unhinged nature to them. extremely unfair and i#feel like they deserve more and better.#i wish those 3 had stronger character in general and were treated WAY better than they are ESPECIALLY tamaki.#god i will never forgive him for tamaki.#she had so much damn potential i could yell about it forever but of fucking COURSE he reduced her down to being his fanservice target#if i could uppercut ōkubo i would. Right now.#anyway. fire force<3👍
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thinking about how it took claire one firm "no" to go "well okay fuck you then" gjhj
#the writing for ID is so dumb sometimes bc claire's first thought was oh okay i see where this is going#she just said you do you and i do me without much of an explanation she's missing like half of the plot she was shoved away from#which is why i kinda reject ~the great war~ in the parking lot. it's not really in character imo and#an underground joint investigation throughout the years leading to re6 would actually be more interesting#than whatever excuse to justify the lack of presence. by the end of ID there are like 4 people alive who know about the chip in some extent#i'd rather believe they actually worked together to bring down the corruption tho it didn't lead nowhere as we know already from tall oaks#ALSO it ties with what neil asked claire in rev2! when he asked her about tricell and washington she lied through her teeth <3#i hope re6r will give us that claire dlc this time around bc it could give (me) closure about how that chip situation was solved#BUT I DIGRESS
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also ok . i know i have been irlposting way too much but my parents are going to a concert 2 hrs away tmrrw for a Very Famous Person and it’s outdoors but certain to be crowded and it’s like uhmmmmm. a little ironic and frustrating is all. not to mention i am afraid for my siblings and my lives a little bit and also for my parents lives or whatever. lol
#purrs#like the way my *** terrorized ne for wanting to. and i repeat. walk around campus without even seeing anyone. but now you’re going to an#outdoor concert and will likely be the only one wearing masks? idk. i don’t like it. and we have nowhere in the house for anyone to isolate#so if they get it we will all get it. and i DO NOT want to get it. i do not want it. i want it to stay away from me. my throat felt a tiny#bit funny on tuesday (it was ok i just swallowed something wrong) and was so intensely anxious about FEELING myself get covid by the second#that i couldn’t focus on my work and barely got anything done. and this feels like a recipe for disaster. like the absolute irony of our#family being on lockdown STILL and barely going anywhere and me having to fight to work in person 2 days a week with like basically 1 person#in the office who wears a kn95 / n95 at all times…. and then you go to a fucking ***** **** concert in one of the front rows where ppl are#gonna rush the stage etc etc. it just is scaring me. i know my mom would be devastated to not go but also like. lol. i missed my graduation#and all my senior stuff and i know it was a spike but it fucking sucked so why do you get to go to this concert when you’ve been to redacted#concerts like 50x in your life… idk. bitter and jealous about it but it just infuriates me because if it was something i cared about a lot#she would shut it down bc it would endanger all of us and now here she is taking THE biggest risk anyone in our family has taken since#my brothers graduation which was also outdoors at a concert venue but like. most ppl were masked and rates were rly low and it wasn’t a#concert. this is very different. idk. im so scared i will get it i do not want covid i od not want long covid i want my brain exactly the#way it is i want my body exactly the way it is i want my life exactly the way it is and it just feels uhhhhh unfair and cruel. lawl#ALSO NOT TO MENTIKN the part i left out which is like… what if someone Does Someting. lol. i will lose my shit all day tomorrow and all#weekend too. i can’t take it i really can’t#also ok yeha i didn’t finish that thought but like the double standard of it. ***** **** is her lifelong idol so she can go see him at this#huge fucking dangerous concert but i can’t meet up with my friends in groups of 1-3 outdoors masked distanced etc. like ok#it’s the whole im the parent you’re the child shit. well it’s gonna be really funny if she gets us covid after putting me thru hell in#2020 in ways that have permanently damaged our relationship. play stupid games win stupid prizes and this is the DEFINITION of a stupid game
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