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sturnlovr · 2 days

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𝑹𝑬𝑺𝑶𝑹𝑻 ┆彡

part 1

Pairing: chris!poc reader

Summary: you go to a resort in hawaii with your best friend to celebrate your 1 mill followers on instagram ; meeting the sturniolo triplets but one stands out to you . . .

Warnings: suggestive, swearing

Authors note: TYSM FOR 100+ FOLLOWERS I LITERALLY LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH (also readers name is alyssa).

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"How could you forget a fucking towel to a trip to hawaii maya?" You sigh, emerging from the water.

"We dont need to dry off. We're at a beach for gods sake, live a little!!" Your best friend maya shrugs off your scolding with a grin, jumping into the water once again.

You shake your head while chuckling at her antics before joining her in the water, she has always been the same ever since you guys met in 4th grade.

"Race you to that buoy?" Maya challenges pointing towards a distant marker bobbing in the water.

You raise an eyebrow "Oh, youre on"

𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒

You had just moved to the neighbourhood and was feeling nervous about starting a new school. On your first day you sat on a desk alone, feeling out of place among the unfamiliar faces. Your teacher called the attendance, you dreaded this moment as all eyes would turn to you once your name was said.

"Maya, here!!" a cheerful voice called out from across the room, drawing your attention. You look up to see a girl with curly dark hair and light brown skin, waving at the teacher enthusiasticly. The class laughed at her, it was no doubt she was 'popular' amongst the other kids.

"Hey maya!" The teacher greeted with a warm smile before looking back down at her clipboard of names.

"Looks like we have a new student joining us today. Everyone welcome alyssa." You gave everyone an awkward smile, hesitating to respond to the greetings of everyone. A couple of boys in the back sniggered at this, casting judgmental looks your way.

"Looks like we've got a shy one" One of the boys behind you whispered loud enough to be heard, you didnt bother to look back, you just wanted the attention shifted off you.

During recess, you found yourself standing by the swings alone, watching the other kids play. The same boys from earlier approached, their mocking laughter rushing back to you.

"Why are you so quiet new girl? Cant talk?" One of them taunted.

You kept your head down low, hiding your embarrassment. Before you could respond maya appeared at your side, a determined look on her face.

"Leave her alone," Maya demanded standing tall next to you. "Shes just shy no need to be mean about it"

The boys exchanged glances before reluctantly backing off, leaving you and maya alone.

"Thanks" you murmur with a small smile on your face.

"No problem," Maya replied with a grin, "Thats what friends are for right?"

From that moment on, you two shared a special bond, maya was outgoing and extroverted while you were more introverted but had grown to the nature of her silly behaviour and her striking confidence. You were both inseparable, now living together in the same neighbourhood you grew up in. You both shared an Instagram account as influencers with 1 million followers, which got you all different types of sponsors. For the 1 million milestone, you and maya planned a trip to hawaii, somewhere you two had been dreaming to go since forever.

𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒

You both reach the buoy, mayas laughter fills the air as she reaches it just a few seconds before you. You splash water at her direction in defeat.

"Whatever," you roll your eyes while trying to catch your breath.

Maya grins triumphantly "Maybe next time lyssa" She pats your back as you both step out the water onto the shore.

"Well im not staying wet all day, lets go see if the resort has some towels" You suggest already walking towards the building, maya following behind.

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As you enter the resort, maya by your side, the air conditioned breeze hits your wet exposed skin. Your blue bikini the only sort of warmth you have.

"Excuse me" Maya says to the receptionist behind the counter, "Do you have any extra towels we can borrow? we forget to bring ours"

The receptionist nods while smiling warmly "Of course let me grab some for you"

As you wait you glance around the lobby, admiring the elegant furnishing and the activity of guests coming and going in and out of the building. Out of the corner of your eye you spot a group of people lounging in the seating area near the entrance, chatting and laughing. You notice that three of them share a resemblence, with similar features and expressions. 'Triplets?' you think to yourself. But one of them stands out from the rest. His loud laugh and the way he would run his hands through his hair only for it to just plop back down on his forehead drew your attention. Theres something about him that just sets him apart from the others.

As you continue to watch you notice a girl and boy with them, they didnt resemble the others and seemed to be engaged in their conversation. The boy who caught your attention met eyes with you, they were blue and easy to get lost in, you both didnt break eye contact, his friends trying to get his attention. you didnt realise you were staring until you felt a tap on your shoulder. You turn around to see maya standing there, a playful smirk on her face as she holds up the towels.

"Got the towels" She announces with a grin, her eyes sparking with mischief.

"Whats got you so distracted?" You contort your face in embarrassment, maya had caught you staring.

"Oh, uh nothing," You stammer, trying to play it off.

"Girl he was totally eye fucking you go talk to him" Maya tries to push you towards him but you stand your ground

"Stop no he was not" you say in a whisper-shouting voice.

"Uh-huh..." Maya turns her head to the group of friends. They were all looking at the two of you now.

"Lets just go" you grab her arm and yank her to the elevator, going up to the 3rd floor.

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The soft morning light fliters through the curtains, casting a warm glow on you. As you stretch and yawn you hear maya from the bathroom.

"Alyssa wake up! breakfast ends in 30 minutes!"

"Fuck why didnt you wake me up earlier" you groan while scrambling to get ready,

After a quick shower and change of clothes, you and maya make your way to the hotel restaurant for breakfast, you step into the elevator talking about what you guys should post for your one million milestone when the door of the room next to yours burst open. 3 boys charge at the elevator, determined to make it in before the doors close, another boy and girl follows behind, her eyes glued to her phone.

"HOLD THE DOOR" the shortest one of them shouts, his voice filled with urgency.

You and maya glance at each other before giggling, noticing it was the group of people you saw yesterday.

As they all pile into the elevator, you can't help but steal glances at the boy who caught your eye earlier. He's focused on fluffing up his hair in the mirror, a confident smirk playing on his lips. Meanwhile, the girl with long black hair looks up from her phone and gives you a sheepish smile.

"Thanks for waiting. These idiots forgot to set an alarm for breakfast," she explains, nodding towards the boys with a playful roll of her eyes. "I'm guessing you guys are late too?"

You nod, feeling a sense of relief that your not the only ones rushing to make it in time. "Yeah, looks like it," you reply, offering her a sympathetic smile. "Guess we're all in the same boat."

Before anyone else can speak, Maya blurts out the question that's been on all of our minds. "I hate to be the one to ask, but are you guys triplets?"

The three same-faced boys exchange glances before one of them, the tallest of the group, chuckles and nods. "Yeah, we are," he confirms, his tone laced with amusement. "Hard to miss, huh? I'm Nick, that's Chris, that's Matt, and our friend over there is Nate."

The girl interjects with a grin, reminding you and maya not to forget about her. "Oh, and that one's Madi," he jokes, earning a laugh from the group.

Chris, who had been focused on fixing his hair, finally averts his eyes to you.

"Oh, um, well, I'm Alyssa, and that's Maya," you reply, feeling a burning sensation creep into your cheeks at his sudden attention. The doors open and as we step out the elevator, madis words catch you off guard.

"Do you guys wanna eat with us?"

Maya shoots a smirk at me before replying,

"Sure, we'd love to"

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#sturniolo triplets #chris sturniolo #matt sturniolo #nick sturniolo #christopher sturniolo #nicolas sturniolo #sturniolo fanfic #sturniolo smut #sturniolo x reader #nathan doe #chris smut #matt smut #matthew sturniolo #fiction

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hiddenwashington · 23 hours

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there has been a calm over the streets of washington since halloween. an easy winter, with a simple valentine’s day, a whole season without any sorts of issues may have lulled the city residents into a sense of peace. unfortunately peace never lasts forever in a city like this, and the calm unawareness that keeps people calm now will only leave them vulnerable in the end. it comes to them at night, knowledge that citizens wake up with out of the blue. a face and a name of someone else living in the city, and people just know by some form of magic in the city that it's a target, someone they have to take out. the city doesn't fill them with the malicious unnatural rage of other chaotic moments, but it gives them more knowledge, unavoidable consequences if they don't comply. it's kill or get killed, and if people don't get rid of their targets by the deadline the city will kill them instead. do you become a killer, stalking your prey in the middle of the night, or do you try and stay peaceful, even knowing what will happen to you as a result? and what of your own safety? after all, you woke up with someone else's face in your mind. who's to say someone else didn't wake up thinking of you?

TLDR; washington has been quiet from bloodshed for several months. it isn’t rare for the city to inspire something murderous within it’s citizens but this time it’s different. a city wide game of assassin, but with stakes far greater than the sort of game you’d play in school. everyone involved knows their target, knows that if they don’t succeed they’ll face the consequences, and knows that someone else is almost certainly trying to get the kill on them. will they be able to take out their target before it’s too late? or will they be unable to bring themselves to murder, even knowing the potential consequences?

OOC INFORMATION:

hello friends! we know it's been a little while since washington has had any proper chaos, so we're here to provide! we're so excited to bring you another slice of chaos to have some fun with! with the opportunity for both murder as well as some ooc speculation and paranoia. this is a fun chance to make characters unaware, stress everyone out, and even lightly betray your friends! please read on for all of the rules and information surrounding the event and please as always have fun friends! we hope you have a fun time and don't hesitate to let us know if you have any questions ♥

DATES:

may 1 - may 15

this event will last the same amount of time ic and ooc

THE GAME:

loosely based off of the assassin game often played in high school all characters are given a target to kill. with the magic of washington characters involved just woke up on the start of the event knowing who their target was.

they also know that if they don’t kill their target by the end of the event they themselves will die. characters don’t know how this will happen but they’re certain it’s true. the admins will keep track of targets and who succeeds in their task, and make sure that the promised punishment happens at the end of the event.

there is no magic making characters suddenly murderous, just the knowledge that it’s kill or be killed, and if they wish to save themselves they will have to kill someone else

THE TARGETS:

due to the nature of the event we will be individually dming people with their character’s involved and the targets of those characters. KEEP THIS SECRET

part of the fun of this event is not knowing who is targeting your character. anyone you submitted for the event has the chance of being a victim and you don’t know what thread that might happen in

we will send out targets a few days after this is posted. if you no longer wish for your character to be involved in the event now that you know the details please reach out to us promptly so we can remove them from the list

THE MURDERS:

though usually these are more preplotted, these murders will operate a little bit closer to how they did in the murder mystery event. if your character is a potential murder subject they can be killed off in any thread without warning

with that being said it’s not really any fun if people are just murdered immediately, so please try and wait until there are a few notes on the thread before jumping in to kill your target

also, do your best to keep up replies to all of your threads. obviously it can be easier to reply to preplotted threads, but in this instance if you'd like the fun of potentially getting your character murdered you will have to make sure to keep up with random threads as well

in addition, since murders cannot be preplotted please do not do anything too extreme in killing someone else’s character. we will be providing a list of hard no's for all written murders based on the triggers submitted in the poll so make sure you don't cross those lines!

any character submitted as a target can be killed by normal means. if they are usually overpowered and only able to die in specific ways the magic will nullify that for the length of the event

things will also be different than normal in that we will insist a certain amount of threads be kept chronological. if you get a surprise reply that your character is murdered in you can no longer finish a thread of your character killing their target. any other previous threads started can still be finished, but it’s kill or be killed and your character cannot do both

when someone is killed the person they are targeted is freed from the curse and no longer has to complete their murder to survive. for example, if adam has to kill charlie and charlie has to kill lute, if adam is killed before charlie completes her murder she no longer has to kill lute. of course, if you’re well into your murder thread by the time this happens you’re welcome to finish it up, however this does give some people the opportunity of an out, should they have a lot of characters in the mix, or some who may have a hard time with murder. we will do our best to keep people properly updated with this so you are aware if you can safely drop your murder thread.

there will be a channel in the discord to send character deaths as soon as they're done, please make sure to keep it updated!

the usual rules regarding a character’s memory status still applies here. if your character is killed their memory status will change though we will update the pages once the entire event is over.

THE STATE OF WASHINGTON:

characters who were not submitted can of course still get themselves involved. like most murder events the city is in a state of disarray, as people are dropping quickly, and there is violence in the streets. feel free to say your character is out trying to hide and take care of themselves or is out helping other people.

you are welcome to get creative with it. if your character isn’t the sort to murder but they have a close connection who is they can always outsource in order to kill their target, the system can be cheated. it doesn't care who does the murder as long as the target winds up dead, just make sure this plotting is being done very quietly!

HOUSEKEEPING:

please make sure to tag all event threads hwevent17!

you will receive your targets over dm on discord from either admin maig or admin sunny, most likely a mix of the two of them. in order to make sure admins can have some fun with this event as well we are splitting up the groups of targets and victims in order to keep our own characters secret. in order to keep these secrecy as tight as possible we will not be sending out targets via the main!

though we highly encourage everyone to prioritize their event threads we will not be pausing regular threads during the event. we know that these sort of chaotic events are not everyone's sort of thing, so if you're more comfortable regular threads can be continued during this time.

make sure to tag all triggers! obviously this is one of the more violent events and we want you all to be able to have fun with it but make sure to keep the dash a safe space for everyone! you can find a list of our triggers here!

feel free to begin plotting now! we recommend waiting on full starter calls until targets are sent out so you can make sure to get whatever threads you need while staying sneaky, but you're welcome to begin plotting whenever you like!

that should be everything! if you have an questions, or would like to remove any muses from the pool before we get to randomizing targets please let us know! beyond that just make sure to give this a like when you've read it in its entirety, and have fun!

#hwevent17 #hw: event #hw: admin

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thepictureofjune · 2 days

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The Tortured Poets Departement of schloss einstein

— relating songs to characters and relationships because in my eyes, everyone is a little sad

Hallo. Wilkommen. This is me trying to relate everything I somewhat like to my current obsession even if it does not fit at all because this is a kids show and the album is probably anything but relatable to a 12 year old, trying to find a treasure. But I tried and I tried explaining my choices. This is my very insane and over-dramatic interpretation, please just deal with me.

Disclaimer: hab versucht, mich möglichst auf Staffel 26 und 27 Charaktere zu begrenzen, hat aber (siehe literally erstes Beispiel) manchmal besser bei früheren Charakteren oder Beziehungen gepasst. Btw would love it if anyone could find people to relate the missing songs to. (my chronic rewatching kinda failed me in the end…)

Fortnight - Till und Martha (Staffel 23)

And for a fortnight there, we were forever Run into you sometimes, ask about the weather Now you're in my backyard, turned into good neighbors Your wife waters flowers, I wanna kill her All my mornings are Mondays stuck in an endless February I took the miracle move-on drug, the effects were temporary And I love you, it's ruining my life I love you, it's ruining my life I touched you for only a fortnight I touched you, but I touched you

For me this fits within the whole Martha Kasimir Till drama and obviously the somewhat enemies to lovers arc Martha and Till had going on. How probably liking Martha ruined Tills life more than it already was because when they kissed for the first time, she was still dating Kasimir and that, of course, ensured a lot of issues probably.

The Tortured Poets Department - Nesrin und Annika (Staffel 27!)

But you're in self-sabotage mode Throwing spikes down on the road But I've seen this episode and still loved the show Who else decodes you? And who's gonna hold you like me? And who's gonna know you, if not me? I laughed in your face and said "You're not Dylan Thomas, I'm not Patti Smith This ain't the Chelsea Hotel, we'rе modern idiots" (...) Sometimes, I wonder if you're gonna screw this up with me But you told Lucy you'd kill yourself if I ever leave And I had said that to Jack about you, so I felt seen Everyone we know understands why it's meant to be 'Cause we're crazy So tell me, who else is gonna know me?

We get introduced to them as these two best friends who are never really seen without each other. Annika knows Nesrin and Nesrin knows Annika and no one is ever going to get in between them, right? Because then it changes and we get the whole fight of Nesrin not really seeming to know Annika all that well anymore, them constantly fighting because maybe after all, all they had was the pranks they did together and what is their friendship beyond that? What is their friendship now?

Down Bad - Noah und Colin aus Noahs Sicht (Staffel 27 post 1062)

For a moment, I knew cosmic love Now I'm down bad, cryin' at the gym Everything comes out teenage petulance "Fuck it if I can't have him" "I might just die, it would make no difference" Down bad, wakin' up in blood Starin' at the sky, come back and pick me up Fuck it if I can't have us I might just not get up, I might stay

Did you take all my old clothes Just to leave me here, naked and alone In a field in my same old town That somehow seems so hollow now? They'll say I'm nuts if I talk about The existence of you

I loved your hostile takeovers Encounters closer and closer All your indecent exposures How dare you say that it's— I'll build you a fort on some planet Where they can all understand it How dare you think it's romantic Leaving me safe and stranded 'Cause fuck it, I was in love So fuck you if I can't have us

So Noah kinda knows he likes Colin now, knows that he misses Colin but what if Colin doesn’t miss him? What if Colin already moved on? Nothing would make sense anymore. He lost his best friend and for what? Only to be alone in the end?

Because right now, for all Noah knows, Colin might still be mad at him.

So Long, London - Noah und Colin aus Colins Sicht (Staffel 27 post 1056)

I saw in my mind fairy lights through the mist I kept calm and carried the weight of the rift Pulled him in tighter each time he was driftin' away My spine split from carrying us up the hill Wet through my clothes, weary bones caught the chill I stopped tryna make him laugh, stopped tryna drill the safe Thinkin', "How much sad did you think I had Did you think I had in me?" Oh, the tragedy

So long, London You'll find someone For so long, London Stitches undone Two graves, one gun I'll find someone And you say I abandoned the ship But I was going down with it My white-knuckle dying grip Holding tight to your quiet resentment And my friends said it isn't right to be scared Every day of a love affair Every breath feels like rarest air When you're not sure if he wants to be there You swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? I died on the altar waitin' for the proof You sacrificed us to the gods of your bluest days And I'm just getting color back into my face I'm just mad as hell 'cause I loved this place

But Daddy I Love Him - Julia Sponer (Staffel 25 u 26)

Too high a horse for a simple girl To rise above it They slammed the door on my whole world The one thing I wanted Now I'm runnin' with my dress unbuttoned Scrеamin', "But, Daddy, I love him I'm havin' his baby" No, I'm not, but you should see your faces I'm tellin' him to floor it through thе fences No, I'm not coming to my senses

This one is mainly for the dramatics of the song, of playing the part and of Julia wanting to take a path (acting) that is usually not really met with great immediate success.

Fresh Out The Slammer - Lucky und Paulina (Staffel 11 u 12)

Gray and blue and fights and tunnels Handcuffed to the spell I was under For just one hour of sunshine Years of labor, locks, and ceilings In the shade of how he was feeling But it's gonna be alright, I did my time Now, pretty baby, I'm runnin' back home to you Frеsh out the slammer, I know who my first call will be to Camera flashes, welcome bashes, get the matches Toss the ashes off the ledge As I said in my letters, now that I know better I will never lose my baby again

Give me one couple in the entirety of Schloss Einstein that screams Partners in Crime better than they do. (also give me one modern character that would be looked at like a criminal - they don’t do them like that anymore)

Florida!!! - Joyce Simon (Staffel 24 u 25)

Little did you know your home's really only A town you're just a guest in So you work your life away just to pay For a time-share down in Destin (...) The hurricane with my name when it came I got drunk and I dared it to wash me away Barricaded in the bathroom with a bottle of wine Well, me and my ghosts, wе had a hell of a time Yes, I'm hauntеd, but I'm feeling just fine

One character who never quite seemed to feel at home, who had a friend and still fled the country, who has never had a home because family was always foreign.

Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me? - Joshua Hockenbrink (Staffel 27)

The who's who of "Who's that?" is poised for the attack But my bare hands paved their paths You don't get to tell me about "sad" (...) Crash the party like a record scratch as I scream "Who's afraid of little old me?" You should be The scandal was contained The bullet had just grazed At all costs, keep your good name You don't get to tell me you feel bad Is it a wonder I broke? Let's hear one morе joke Then we could all just laugh until I cry (...) So tell me everything is not about me But what if it is? Then say they didn't do it to hurt me But what if they did? I wanna snarl and show you just how disturbed this has made me You wouldn't last an hour in the asylum where they raised me So all you kids can sneak into my house with all the cobwebs I'm always drunk on my own tears, isn't that what they all said? That I'll sue you if you step on my lawn That I'm fearsome and I'm wretched and I'm wrong

A birthday party organized simply to taunt him, the usually slightly mean behavior that drives everyone away and makes you think he is nothing more than rude, nothing more than a villain. But he’s also the boy that seems to want nothing more than to find a place that accepts him.

loml - Leon und Io aus Leons Sicht (Staffel 27 post 1064)

We embroidered the memories of the time I was away Stitching, "We were just kids, babe" I said, "I don't mind, it takes time" I thought I was better safe than starry-eyed I've felt a glow like this never before and never since (...) You holy ghost, you told me I'm the love of your life You said I'm the love of your life About a million times Who's gonna tell me the truth when you blew in with the winds of fate (...) I wish I could unrecall How we almost had it all Dancing phantoms on the terrace Are they second-hand embarrassed That I can't get out of bed

I Can Do It With a Broken Heart - Massuda Phanit (Staffel 26 u 27)

I can read your mind "She's having the time of her life There in her glittering prime The lights refract sequin stars off her silhouette every night" I can show you lies 'Cause I'm a real tough kid I can handle my shit They said, "Babe, you gotta fake it 'til you make it" and I did Lights, camera, bitch, smile Even when you wanna die Breaking down, I hit the floor All the piеces of me shatterеd as the crowd was chanting, "More" I was grinnin' like I'm winnin' I was hittin' my marks I'm so depressed, I act like it's my birthday every day

Massuda is glitter, she is smiles in the camera, she is organizing parties and loud music and dancing and…She is also the parents that don’t accept her if she doesn’t have good grades. She is also the one who has to hide her true self whenever her parents turn up.

Clara Bow - Marlon to Simon (Staffel 27)

"You look like Clara Bow In this light, remarkable All your life, did you know You'd be picked like a rose?" I'm not trying to exaggerate But I think I might die if it happened Die if it happened to me No one in my small town Thought I'd see the lights of Manhattan Take the glory, give everything Promise to be dazzling

This might seem a wee bit crazy but hear me out! Marlon likes Nesrin but he also thinks Nesrin likes Simon. And he knows Simon is probably better at this whole liking someone and flirting with them thing that he will ever be because after all, he’s just the kid with the star bread.

— june🪐

(the anthology comes in a separate part bcs else this is too long to read - it already prob is)

#schloss einstein

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hazelcallahan · 1 year

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i don't wanna have any adventures unless they're with you. / i am, and have been for some time, just totally, ridiculously, desperately in love with you.

#willow #willowedit #tanthamore #kit x jade #jade claymore #kit tanthalos #**#y'all mind if i. ahem.#every night in my dreams i see you i feel you that is how i know you go on far across the distance and spaces between us you have come to s #how you go on near far wherever you are i believe that the heart does go on once more you open the door and you're here in my heart and my #heart will go on and on love can touch us one time and last for a lifetime and never let go til we're gone love was when i loved you one t #rue time i hold to in my life we'll always go on near far wherever you are i believe that the heart does go on (why does the heart go on)#once more you open the door and you're here in my heart and my heart will go on and on YOU'RE HERE THERE'S NOTHING I FEAR AND I KNOW THAT M #Y HEART WILL GO ON WE'LL STAY FOREVER THIS WAY YOU ARE SAFE IN MY HEART AND MY HEART WILL GO ON AND ON #ok full disclosure i wrote these tags yesterday before jons tweets #but im keeping them bc i think its silly

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starrynightsxo · 2 months

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I went for a blog aesthetic change, can someone tell me if it's vibey or no?

#if not I will bury myself in a deep whole and stay their forever :)#aesthetics #changing the aesthetic feels like im a whole new person #i feel like this matches more with my “starry” in my user so here we are #if not we're going back to academia girly cos that is me but I wanna be a bit different for a bit idk #thanks guyssss

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willowser · 6 months

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one of those crazy girls by paramore except it's gojo

#now when you say you wanna slow down #does that mean you wanna slow dance?#maybe you just want a little extra time to focus on our romance #what do you mean i've got it backwards? you know we're gonna be forever #why are you telling me goodbye? arent you gonna stay the night?#are we really over now? maybe i can change your mind #as soon as you walk out my door i'm gonna call 100 times #i pour my heart out to your voicemal let you know i caught a bus to your side of town #now i'm standing at your doorstep #if you dont answer i'll just use the key i copied 'cause i really need to see you #if you're not here when i break in i'm gonna go through your closet just so i can smell your skin #i know i'll never love again i swear i'll never love again #IT'S SO HIM PLS #✿ thoughts: gojo

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yonder-yonder · 10 months

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Tag yourself as the varying things Elder Choop said at the end of the title sequence in Yonderland:

To save us from the shadows...

and stuff

I reckon

Apparently (!)

it says here

with any luck

Can you dig?

hopefully

which is nice

And all that jazz

which is lovely

and alike

So that's nice

... a saviour, who sorted all that out, so everything's fine now and will probably stay that way forever, I should think.

if we're lucky

allegedly

thank goodness

if that's oKaY wItH yOu

ooh, just got DEJA VU

ThAt'S wHaT yOuR mUM sAiD AnYWay

or so I'm told

Give my poor man a break, can't you see he's stressed

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softquietsteadylove · 4 days

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Hello birdie 🖤✨

I've got something for the Life Interrupted AU.

Thena isn't feeling well lately and is considering to go back into this hellhole where she's getting drugged to unconsciousness. She's packing her stuff when Gil shows up. He's trying to talk it out of her.

(And I definitely didn't had this Idea because I'm stuck in one of those hellholes, lol)

✨🖤Hugs an Love🖤✨

"Going somewhere?"

Thena sighed, setting down one of her shirts and staring down at her bed. "I was thinking about it."

Gil walked further into her room, having just arrived. "Druig texted me. Really surprised me to hear from him, but he said you've been acting weird--wants me to 'talk to some sense into you'."

Thena let out a humourless chuckle. "I'm surprised he decided to entrust you with that task."

"Gotta say, I am too," Gil agreed quietly until he was standing behind her. "I have to agree--you seem a little anxious lately."

She had been nervous, jumpy, and Gil knew it. They hadn't been able to go out on a date in weeks because she felt on the verge of a panic attack at the thought of having to navigate crowds or risk running into someone. "Maybe...maybe I should consider-"

"Don't," he whispered, placing his hand gently over hers. Her bag was already half full. "Don't say you're going back to that place."

Thena squeezed her eyes shut, tears already burning the insides of them. "Where should I go, Gil?"

"Anywhere else," he concluded. He pulled her hand away from packing up as if she were sailing off into the horizon. He moved slowly and gently until he could sit on the chair in the corner of her room and look up at her. "Please, Thena, just talk to me."

When he was seated lower, she had no excuse not to look at him. But she stared down at his hands, holding hers so, so gently. "Druig and Makkari have been looking at places again."

Gil raised his brows. "That...that's good...right?"

It was. It was what she wanted. She wanted their lives to continue on after the ugliness of the last year. She wanted her brother to feel free to settle down and marry the love of his life. And he could do that without worrying about his sister, she was determined.

"He keeps asking me to see them," she admitted quietly, as if Druig had his ear pressed against the door and would be wounded by overhearing her. "He keeps picking rooms that he says can be mine--if I so choose."

"So," Gil prompted, giving her hands a little squeeze, "what's so bad about that?"

Thena shook her head, looking up around the ceiling of her room to keep her tears from falling. "I'm not some child he has to drag around with him. He should be choosing a home to suit him and his wife, not worrying about his burdensome sister."

"Come on," Gil whispered, his eyes drifting downward from the sheer weight of Thena's discouragement. "You know he doesn't think of you like that."

Thena sighed, pulling her hands from Gil's and plopping herself on the corner of her bed. She pressed them to her head, trying to keep them from shaking. "I know he doesn't. That is exactly the problem."

"Okay, so you don't want him worrying about you," Gil shrugged, turning in the chair to face her head on again.

Thena stared down at her knees. She wasn't wearing her work dress and stockings with a tight ponytail. But she couldn't bring herself to wear soft sweatpants anymore, opting for athleisure leggings and a cardigan at even her most comfortable.

"What else?"

She toyed with her fingernails. "I don't want to live here alone."

Gil nodded again, leaning back in the chair.

She hunched over herself more, despite her sore back. "It's not about the cost, it's...I can't be here by myself, thinking all these...things."

"Okay, so we'll find somewhere else for you," Gil leapt at the opportunity to suggest an alternative. He leaned forward again, even scooching toward the edge of the seat. "I'll help you look."

She smiled, although she still wasn't feeling the intent behind the action. "Druig offered the same. Even Makkari--but that's not the point."

Gil seemed to understand what she was getting at. And of course he did, it was Gil. He was sweet, and understanding, and he always seemed to know what she was trying to say, even if she didn't have the words. "You want to find a place for yourself."

She sighed, looking at her hands again. "I don't seem capable of anything these days."

Gil took her hands in his again, rubbing his thumb over her skin. "You know that's not true."

She wasn't as sure as he was. She never was--never had his confidence, or positivity. It was something she both envied and admired about him. She loved it about him. "Maybe-"

"No!"

She blinked, taken aback by his outburst. He was always so soft spoken, especially with her. She had never heard him so much as raise his voice. The only things he did loudly were laughing and sneezing.

"Maybe nothing!" he pressed, standing from the chair. "That place never did you any good. I don't think it does anyone any good! And I will not let you go back to that misery!"

Thena's eyes fluttered, her back straightening. Her heart began to squeeze at the sheer volume of things, but this was Gil--she was safe with him.

"Thena," he finally quieted again, kneeling in front of her. "You never have to go back to that place, okay? I don't care if you have a nervous breakdown--I'll take care of you. I'll take better care of you than they ever would in there. Just--just promise me you won't go back there because you're worried about burdening people."

She blinked, those tears she was trying to hold back finally falling. It was completely dark outside, her small bedside lamp offering minimal lighting. But it caught Gil's features in just such a way that made him seem so beautiful. "I don't want to go back there."

"Good," he nodded, turning her hand so he could press his lips to it.

"But," she gasped, her lip wobbling. She clung to him. "But what if I'm not me, anymore?"

"You're exactly who you need to be," he said without a hint of doubt in his voice. "You're Thena."

So completely unwavering, her Gilgamesh.

"You're my Thena," he repeated, softer this time, kissing the back of her other hand before pulling her up to stand with him. His hands slipped around waist to rest at her back. "That's all you need to be."

She wasn't sure who 'Thena' was, at times. At least, not as she knew herself before all this. Gil kept saying that the past year was a part of her, for better or worse. But she just wanted to leave it behind--to revert to the version of her that had existed before it all.

"Look," he whispered, still holding her so gently. "Maybe that's easy for me to say. I didn't know you before. But the Thena I know is pretty damn amazing."

She let another laugh, still not humoured in the least.

"She is," he chuckled, though, and he did mean it. He leaned closer, touching his forehead to hers. "She's this badass translator, works in a big, fancy office. She's actually pretty funny, if she's in a good mood. Kinda likes messing with me."

"I do not."

"Just a little," he contested, scrunching up his nose faintly. "But I think that side of her is cute. And she's tough--way tougher than she thinks she is. And she's an incredible sister, even when her brother is being a pain in our ass."

"Our?" she interrupted.

"Our," he confirmed, touching the tips of their noses together to silence her. "And I know he's just worried about you. That's why he keeps saying you can stay with them if you want. But I guess he doesn't really know it's stressing you out."

Thena sighed, dragged back into the depths of her problems like plunging into ice cold water. "How do I tell him?"

Gil skipped over that question, still busy holding her, almost swaying as his weight shifted from foot to foot. "So, this Thena--I mean, to me, she's the most incredible woman in the world."

"Gil," she sighed, trying to pull him from his reverent description of her.

But he nudged her head until he could kiss her lips, also gently. As gently as everything else about him. "She's the woman I love, plain and simple."

Oh, did she ever love him. She had gone from being someone who probably didn't really believe in love for herself at all to being head over heels for her sweet, gentle giant.

She sighed as she kissed him again, leaning up on her toes to loop her arms around his neck. Kissing Gil always made her feel more human--more grounded and real. It took away the buzzing in her head and replaced it with with a heavy and pleasant sedative that could spread through her veins.

Gil stayed close, his forehead against hers, lips still faintly puckered. "Better?"

"Hm," she sighed. She didn't need to explain herself--not to him. She ran her fingers gently through the hair at the back of his head. If only she never had to go to work, or take public transport, or go to house viewings where the realtor would look at her oddly. If only she could stay in Gil's arms every second of every day.

"Good," he sufficed to say, tapping his fingers against the back of her sweater. He moved his hand to her hip. "So, about this living situation-"

"Right," she sighed the heaviest she had yet (which was saying something).

"Hey," he nudged her gently, pulling her eyes up to him. "A unit in my building is going on the market for next month. It's the one above mine--sweet old guy is moving out to be closer to his grand kids."

Oh. Living that close to Gil--being neighbours?

"I can always ask him if he'd be open to a lease trade-off," Gil suggested, although he was unable to hide his excitement at the prospect in his smile. "What do you think?"

Being that close to Gil? Being his upstairs neighbour?

His smile wobbled faintly, turning sheepish as he looked away. "It's a little more modest than this place. But it's a one bedroom, and it's not a bad location. And-"

Thena stood on her toes, pressing her lips to his, even with a cliche 'mmwah' sound. He looked dazed after the firmer kiss, which made her smile genuinely for the first time that night. She leaned against him heavier, but he steadied her without a second thought. "I think that sounds perfect."

"Really?" he asked, beaming like a dog about to receive a treat with a wagging tail.

She took his cheeks in her hands, "it sounds wonderful, Gil."

"O-Okay," he laughed, sounding near hysteria. But he pulled her against his chest in his arms, even lifting her off the ground slightly as he spun them. "This'll be amazing, sweetie, I promise!"

He needed no promises. The thought of having him a mere flight of stairs away was already comforting, in a sense. And she had been to his flat plenty of times. He was right, it was in a good location, and it wasn't any further from her office than she was now, all things considered.

Gil set her on her feet once more. "I'll talk to him tonight."

"Don't get too ahead of yourself," she advised gently. It wasn't often she was able to offer a calming voice of reason these days; it felt familiar, even soothing. She toyed with some some stray hairs of his. "I may have to apply, like everyone else."

"Peh," Gil waved in dismissal again (making her laugh, again). "The old guy loves me. And that's before I tell him some sob story about wanting my girlfriend to move in so we can be closer."

Thena blushed softly, toying with the hem of her cardigan. Sometimes she had to remind herself that Gil wasn't just 'someone she was seeing', and actually the man she had known for more than half a year and had been dating for more than half that time, now.

"It'll be great," he whispered, pressing a kiss to her cheek. "We can carpool to work, I'll be right downstairs if you ever wanna talk--or cuddle."

"Gil," she admonished, but it came out as a light and air whisper as he kissed her cheek again, his five o'clock shadow against her skin.

He stopped nuzzling her just to look at her more solemnly. "You should tell Druig."

"It was your idea."

"Exactly," Gil made a face, shrinking somewhat. "He'll kill me."

Thena rolled her eyes, her spirits lifting by the moment. "It's not as if you're offering to shack up with me yourself."

He didn't laugh at her joke. He didn't even seem to realise it was a joke, just shrugged one shoulder. "I mean they're both only one bedroom units. Plus, I imagine you want some space for yourself for a little. Feel like you have some more control?"

Well, he was exactly right about that, as always. Although she hadn't expected his rebuttal to be that they would need a larger space if they were to live together. She just blinked, "precisely."

"So it's decided," he grinned again, and gave her another kiss for good measure. "I'll go talk to Karun, you talk to Druig. He really is worried about you."

"I know," she mumbled, feeling properly chastised. She unlinked her hands from behind his head and squeezed his forearms. "I'm sure he was desperate to call you."

"And I'm suggesting you move into my building instead of in with him?--he's gonna have my head."

Thena laughed genuinely for the first time that night. "Don't worry, I'll protect you from him."

Gil stared at her in a way that made her toes curl. He bent his head down to sneak into the crook of her neck under her jaw. "I know you will."

She shivered as he left a kiss on her pulse point.

But he left it at that, pulling away and standing to his full height again. It left her feeling chilly, needing to pull her cardigan tighter around herself. "Okay."

Thena nodded, letting him take her by the hand. She did have to talk to Druig--about everything. About moving and also about how she would be okay without him hovering over her shoulder. She would be okay without that hell hole and its medication and she would be okay even if she felt like this different version of herself, possibly forever.

Gil grasped the doorknob with his other hand, the door not fully closed and letting in just a sliver of light from the rest of the house. He held her other hand, giving it a squeeze. "Ready?"

She nodded, holding his hand tighter, just in case she needed it. But she smiled, "ready."

#Thenamesh Life Interrupted AU #I love this au!#and we love you Love!#Thena is feeling worse and worse about Druig moving out before proposing #he's all stressed about her staying with them #but stressed because she doesn't want him to stress #it's a lot going on #so Thena gets more withdrawn thinking about all this #and eventually Druig does the unthinkable #he texts his sister's boyfriend and tells him to get his ass down here and talk to her #they come out of her room #They're holding hands and Thena looks oh so besotted #Druig sits up from the couch holding Makkari like I already don't like this #Thena tells Druig listen she appreciates his concern and she'll come and visit all the time #but she's going to move into Gil's place #and Druig loses his everloving mind #he blows up about how it's too soon and they barely know each other and he doesn't trust Gil enough to let them shack up #and Thena lets him get it all out of his system before finishing saying: Gil's apartment........complex #Makkari: lol #Druig totally loses his steam and just goes oh...well I guess that's not so bad #because Thena knows how to break bad news to her little brother #Druig is still a little wary of it and he still tells Gil that if he ever thinks Thena is upset because of him #he's got a whole lot of hell comin' his way #but he's also a good brother and tells her he'll help her move and he's not going anywhere until she's settled #they haven't settled on a house yet anyway and he won't actually leave until Thena is settled #if she called and said I don't like it here Druig is like okay we're living in the townhouse forever #meanwhile Thena actually wants him to leave the nest so she and Gil can be cutesy flirty neighbours and carpool and have sleepovers

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bookwyrminspiration · 9 months

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i feel like everything's been too calm for a while, no chaos, nothing sweeping the fandom by inescapable storm...where's it coming from next...my senses are attuned...

#kotlc fandom #it never stays quiet here forever #we may be in a lull #but that just means we're vulnerable to be caught by surprise...#who will next say something entirely innocuous that will turn into The Fandom Meme #...where will it come from...where will it go...my eyes are looking

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opens-up-4-nobody · 17 days

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#it's an old frustration. an old pattern of thought.#i just feel that i have a brain that doesn't hold information. that lacks the discipline to gain knowledge. that is incapable of deeper #thought. and i cant teel you how maddening that is. to sit in a room and listen to other people discuss a paper you read in depth 5 times #like it's the 1st time you ever heard anything about it. how is that possible? how do i work with that? i read and nothing sticks.#nothing stays with me. how??? i was talking to a prof recently who ive heard is hard on her students with disability accommodation. and she #was saying how she doesnt see these things as a disability. how we're just different not disabled. ive heard the phrase differently abled #a lot of times. and i get what she's saying. i do. ad i get why she's hard on them. she wants to push them. but there comes a point where #you are quote unquote differently abled and you run into a wall that other people dont have. then what are you supposed to do? work harder?#but what if that doesn't help? what if that just compounds the hurt that's always been there? what if that leaches away all the wonder? what #then? at what point does a thing become too much of a barrier? i think there's a reason i dont run into many other dyslexic grad student.#everyone has adhd. it's a place where those with adhd prosper. but dyslexia not so much. at least not with the level of hanicap i have #and everyone's really nice. they want to help. but there's nothing anyone can do for me at this stage. it's up to me to compensate for my #leaky head. and i kno im not stupid. ive got a piece of paper stating my iq is above average after correcting for uneven intelligence. but #i dont feel very smart most of the time. i feel more like my uncorrected iq score that comes out at just below average even with me trying #my very best. iq is bullshit but there's something to be said for that gap. im smart if unconstrained by language and time. but were bound #by language and we're bound by time so what am i supposed to do? is there anything i can do? im stuck with this forever. theres no getting #better or making it easier. my brain is wired in a way that gives me the reading skills of a child. forever. and i just have to accept that #and im trying to swallow around that idea easier because the only other option is to choke on it. but maybe i chose the wrong career path.#one of my lab mates said she wants challenges all the time and ive chosen a path that's challenges all the time but im jsut trying to do #what everyone else can without a second thought. it's deeply demoralizing. yet here i am. trying to be easier abt it.#maybe im just nit cut out for this. doing a job im not built for.#unrelated

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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everyone say thank u to my roommate for going to visit her parents this weekend so I can jack it loud and nasty 🙏

#i love her but there are some benefits to having the flat to myself.... love getting to wander around in just my boxers + a tshirt too #things i could do while she was still here if i wasnt a pussy 🙄#jk itd just make her uncomfortable and im too respectful for that #having a lowkey crush on her is an endless comedy to me bc we would be so woefully incompatible romantically #and also sexually.. historically ive only ever stone topped bc ive never been comfortable enough w anyone to let them fuck me #despite very much Not being stone or exclusively a top. and i think shes some form of sex repulsed anyway so like. sits there dead silence #and also shes so in love with her other friends and i showed up late to that party.... ive been feeling kinda guilty lately bc ik-#she misses them a lot and wishes we'd be able to stay roommates w them too. and im a pretty poor replacement for them tbh #and i love spending time with her but whenever i do i feel kinda painfully aware im not them like i could never fill that space #and asking to hang out more with her always feels like im taking away from time she could be talking to them. or even being alone ik she-#likes her own company and i get that a lot too so its chill but ahh.. man #i dont mean this in a bitter or jealous way at all like theyre all such sweet ppl i couldnt ever hold it against them #theyre kind of a 3 headed cerberus type situation and im like. the stray puppy they found on the side of the road #theres nothing they can do differently i was just born to be alienated from other ppl forever until i die. and someday i hope ill-#finally get used to it and accept i wont ever feel like im enough for anyone else or feel like anything else is enough for me #old wounds healed over 5082 times that still hurt to touch but i cant help pressing my fingers into them anyway bc its a familiar pain etc #anyway lost where i was going with this its just been on my mind again recently. i hate to be pitied i hate to feel like im only included-#bc they didnt want me to feel left out i hate feeling like a shoddy secondhand stand-in and its been a lot of that lately #also been a little annoyed bc sometimes it feels like shes trying to micromanage my social life and girl. we're not close enough for that #im sure its well intentioned but im not part of what they have going on i cant compete in that ring so dont try to push me into it..#ahhh. its all ok tho one of the guys is coming to visit next month which will be rly fun but ill try to give them some space too #its good at least im doing this processing now bc group situations can be spike traps of triggers for me sometimes #regardless of how good friends i am w ppl and ive already had a wobble a few weeks ago w how i cope and i dont want it to become a #fully fledged regular issue again bc its so hard to crawl back out of that pit. anyway losing coherence here im gonna stop rambling #and go make myself an early dinner and then back to drawing........#sorry for long tags if ur reading this blows u a kiss but go find a better use of ur time girl!!#.diaries

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dinitride-art · 2 years

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The Lights Analysis vs. The Papa Script - (No Actual Lighting Discussion)

Okay, time to cross-reference/analyze my analysis with the Papa Script.

First up here: Robin Buckley.

Originally, I wanted to look at her saying, “It’s not everyday you loose your home and vehicle in one fell swoop,” because that has foreshadowing of Will and Mike in the van scene. Will breaks both their hearts in one fell swoop. However, I didn’t even make it to that point (these scripts also aren’t mine, but I’m sorry if this is yours because I can’t remember where I took it from)-

Because my brain stopped on this;

“ARMS CROSSED; a gesture of defensiveness: an instinctive act in nearly every single person facing something unknown. Her ANXIETY is obvious.”

and then I went- hey, that reminds me of something-

Oh, hello Mike and Will at Suzie’s house, how’re you doing? Feeling uncomfortable, ANXIOUS, perhaps?

I went over this it in this analysis, but Mike and Will both are tense at Suzie’s house. And this line with Robin helps to establish the fact/idea that they are in fact defensive and anxious.

And now onto the most correct I’ve ever been in my entire life (except when I correctly guessed, after reading Gideon the Ninth, that- just realized that that’s a major spoiler so, uh. Go read the locked tomb series if you like the idea of “lesbian necromancers [exploring] a gothic, haunted mansion in space.” anyways- back to the post.)

“There’s something else that Will isn’t seeing” vs. “What are you 12 years old dude?” and Will not grasping the true meaning of what Mike said. (this is the post, because I linked the other one. There’s 16 parts at the moment, I won’t make anyone trudge through that if they’re only looking for one thing. So, here it is if you’d like to see it.)

This line in the script, right here, “nervously”, “contemplatively”, god damn.

“He stutters through this sentence like he’s nervous. His tone during this statement isn’t sad or heartbroken, it’s contemplative.”

It makes sense. This all makes sense. because they aren’t talking about El, they're asking, “What about us?” But Will doesn’t understand what Mike is saying and Mike doesn’t understand what Will is saying.

And we didn’t need a script to tell us that.

#byler #bylerscript #stranger things #the lights #can't believe that i actually said nervous and contemplative #thats some wild shit right there #but like #this gives me confidence in our ability to look at this show and know how to analyze it #this didn't tell us alot we didn't already speculate (except- I hate who I am- that shit hurt)#but even then we had- sometimes when youre different you feel like a mistake #so #we're on the right track #when i started the lighting analysis it was after causeineedu's music analysis dropped #and this was me convincing myself that i wasn't crazy #and that i knew how to analyze media #because i did it for the literal past year #but like the consequences of watchin voltron when i was 13 stay forever i guess #we aren't stupid #in fact there are so many really fucking smart people here

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