Me: *talks about my feelings*

Mom: 😐

Me, remembering: Oh yeah sorry i forgot that we don’t talk about our feelings in this household😄My bad

I wanted to a redraw of a doodle I did wayyy back in 2013 vvv

One of the many hills I’ll die on is my defense of the Girl Scouts if you hear the “girl” in Girl Scouts and immediately assume “well, clearly all they’re teaching them is how to bake cookies and manage a household and become a good wife and mother who stays home and cooks and cleans” then that shits on you yeah some troops aren’t going to be as good as others it all depends on the leadership and resources available but that doesn’t negate the fact that at it’s core it is there to teach young girls valuable skills and it can provide unique opportunities and a nice community for people who may need it

If Elizabeth had been old enough to understand how Jane had usurped her mother's place and hastened her downfall, she would have resented her bitterly. As it was, at just under four years old, it is unlikely that she realized the full implications of Jane's rise to power.

Elizabeth’s Women, Tracy Borman

When I was younger, older people told me I'd understand my mother's abusive behaviour when I became a parent.

Then I became a parent.

I understand her even less.

I got a complex baby just like I was and it's been rough and yet I've always responded to my child with empathy and love. I enjoy our fun moments and I act as the anchor in the storm during the hard times. I am a constant, and I am consistent.

I love my child and I make sure she knows it every single day.

Am I perfect? No. Absolutely not. But we don't do abuse in this household. We do not do neglect. Children are not abandoned and their needs, emotional and physical, are met with patience and care.

Because they are children and I expect them to act like children.

........AND MY CAR HAS NOW BROKEN DOWN

i know we all know this and everyone talks abt it but god damn.. landlords ask for too much money and have impossible standards for ppl in desperate need of a place to stay. and everyone's rent goes up every year, no matter what, it seems.

literally it seems like only private landlords are even willing to negotiate if you have a bad credit score, no cosigner, ect. and yet they seem to be the minority in this world of Leasing Agents working for some property firm (it is legitimately impossible to meet their standards for salary, i have no idea how people with minimum wage jobs are even doing it, even when they split the rent with somebody else..)

Okay but how do you actually food prep? Like. Ppl keep saying it’s great and you should do it but??? What, do y’all actually cook all the meals for the week ahead of time and then just stick them in the microwave? That sounds great but idk how long things actually last in the fridge, like what actually lasts a whole week??

Hey rat my dude, it's okay if I rant a little bit here? Lately I've been struggling with wanting to be an artist like I want to make art but it feels so stupid like dude there are people dying and you want to sit there writing little stories and stories that BTW will never reach them because the most imporvished communities in the world don't have acess or even time for your little stories. it feels like 2/3 of the world is out there on fire, starving, amidst war and I'm out here making up stories for remaining 1/3 of the world. like fuck mate harry potter isn't helping the kids in africa and Taylor swift isn't improving people's life in fucking haiti. it seems selfish. if there is any art that is helping poor communities is the art of their own communities. not me, a foreigner. It just feels like the people that need the most help in the world won't be helped by art (not my art at least) so Its a foolish endeavor to pursue it while there is so much suffering.

Tldr: feeling like absolutely shit wanting to be an artist bc art is for the 1/3 of the world that is not too preoccupied trying to survive

I've actually received a couple of asks exactly like this over the last few months, and I've been wondering how to address it, and ultimately I just have to be honest. this is not going to be the answer you were hoping for, but I hope you consider it and really try to think about what I'm going to say here.

this is not a sane way of thinking. I mean this completely 100% seriously. this is a level of delusional guilt-bearing that you should be seeking help for. I understand why you feel this way, because the internet is absolutely saturated with the message that you're not a good activist or ally unless you feel crushing guilt over every good thing you have and you're analysing and critiquing everything you like/desire, but this is not an attitude that you should be taking on. I know it might seem virtuous, and it might make you feel like you're not part of the problem, whatever that problem is -- or if you are, you're at least conscientious of it -- but this is an insane way of thinking and it makes you a liability. nobody has time to alleviate your guilt over issues that aren't yours. when going into spaces where somebody else's struggles are meant to be the focus, you're not being a good person by making it about your own angst.

not to mention the fact that this line of thinking just does not add up. it's unfair and wrong for all creators to be held to this standard. we're not here for other people. we're not here to be good examples. we're here to create, and if we want to work in political or social issues into our work, we can. if we want to use our art to draw attention, we can. but we should also be allowed to just create. in the same way as we all know it's bullshit to only assign value to things if it's making money, we should not be assigning value to our art only if it's making a political statement. that's just bullshit.

if you sincerely wish to assist people, look for things you can actually do. donate money. volunteer at shelters or soup kitchens. donate your old clothes. buy directly from impoverished communities. go out there and get active. if one day you do succeed as an artist, you're now rich -- congrats. all of that money can go towards important causes, if you want it to. but the one way to get nothing done -- not helping others, nor personal achievement -- is if you angst over completely delusional things like this. I'm sorry if other people have made you feel like your art isn't worth anything because there are people suffering, because that isn't true. but if you sincerely believe this, and you sincerely think this way, I urge you to get help. this kind of guilt complex is literally a mental illness. it's absolutely shocking that it's considered a sign of a good person these days, and in terms of real activism, it is absolutely useless and even offensive to most people actually living these things.

I'm sorry if this response seems harsh. I'm not attacking you, and I don't think this is your fault. this is just the thinking that people are being exposed to, some of them from very early ages. but you seem to be caught very deep in it, and sometimes being harsh is the only way to adequately make a point like this. I hope that you get out of this way of thinking, and I wish you luck with everything you want to achieve.

Happy winter everyone!

Don't forget to warm your bones 😏

Oh and eat snow cones, you know the trick right?!

Hate how dating for the most part is just behaving until you can convince someone to move in with you

okay very srs vent / trauma dump ahead i seriously advise No1 reads this..

tw for the same described in last rb i am sorry

i apologise for usin this acc for ventin a lot heh i prommy i try 2 keep it silly.. but its more convenient here than on instagram. 🙏

y'all i am not built for the heat. i love summer, but i need the sunshine to be accompanied with no higher than 75 degrees bc i'm too old to be this sweaty. ANYWAY, i'm here watching key and peele while i write replies. i might reblog my favorite meme too since i have some new folks around here.

edit: i've been writing a reply for like an hour and a half, because we're on day four of constant fireworks and my dog simply cannot handle it.

The thing with the writers strike and actors strike is that. You ALL have to start realizing that the cool creative jobs they paint as "glamorous" in the media are actually ALL struggling in a big way, and basically everyone below "Huge Household Name" is actually often having to spend THEIR OWN DAY JOB MONEY to keep trying and trying to "break into" that household name status.

Like, im a cartoonist. Just starting out, but already fairly successful! My comics are sold in a handful of states, i sell out of my works, and i even have been featured as a finalist in a couple awards shows AND have pieces bought by a cartooning museum. I still barely make a couple hundred per month off it IF IM LUCKY, and spend almost as much trying to print more. Oh yes, i have to print my own comics! And working for a big comic company, they generally require you to bring some level of your own equipment. Heck, even if you make it "big" as a cartoonist...you wanna know how much you get paid if your comic that you spent months of back-breaking labor on is adapted into a marvel movie? A one-time check for $5000. Out of the BILLIONS those movies make, in perpetuity for eternity, you are given $5k. Pre-tax. Pre-agent. Pre-lawyer. (Yes we have agents and lawyers too, quite often). There's hardly any cartoonists who can afford to quit their day jobs, and even those who do are never living above the lower middle class range.

Now obviously cartooning is not the same as acting or writing, but my point is that we NEED yall to stop thinking just because you see our work as cool that we are living some dream life!!! Basically the only people who are living these dream lives you think of are CEOs of major companies and the occasional celebrity. The rest of us are just out here, struggling to survive just like you, we just happen to have a side hustle which is Kinda Cool.

Oh if carpet beetles were smart, they'd sense my rage and bloodlust and split to atoms this instant to avoid any possible contact with me. Too bad all they care about is scaring the love of my life and having babies, which we haven't seen yet and hopefully never will. When will I win the lottery so we'll have our own house... or an apartment in a new building... imagine