we are still hurting

fighting art block by drawing SU gems I’ve never drawn before, (part 2!)

Playing volleyball

Because volleyball liking to play volleyball was a funny thought

no no listen to me listen listen pearl for so long made excuses for rose. she's a good leader because she kept secrets. I kept her secrets because that's good that's a good thing secrets are GOOD. she's obsessive over it. it's good it's good. she was having a denial crisis over rose having a LION. a lion. because the idea of rose not being exactly what she thought she was and her not knowing everything either, the idea of it at all, it scared her. her going to volleyball I should've believed you, not her. I shouldn't have gone "no, the rose I knew wouldn't have done that", because I didn't know everything about her. that is GROWTH.

and her saying "but you were hurt, badly." even when volleyball said what pink did to her was an accident. yes it was an accident but you were still hurt. you still get to be hurt. it's still awful what was done to you. how many times had pearl invalidated her own pain via it was an accident. rose didn't think it would hurt me. rose was doing what was best for us, of course she didn't realize it'd hurt me. it wasn't her fault. she wanted to help. it's fine. pearl learning rose did good and rose did bad aren't mutually exclusive and THATS how she moves on. that's how she moves on. accepting the reality of rose. the good and the bad and the in between. rose didn't mean to but she still did and I can be hurt. I am not betraying her by being hurt by what she did. I am whole without her, I am allowed to be happy without her. by reaching out to volleyball she helps both of them. them fusing is so so huge to me. they understand each other they go "I see you, you were in so much pain for so long, I'm so sorry, I've got you now. I know what it's like to love someone who hurt you." the solidarity fuck me gently with a chainsaw it's so good.

AND HER SAYING TO STEVEN. I KNOW HOW AWFUL IT FEELS TO KEEP A PART OF YOURSELF A SECRET. FUCK!!!

she says he never should've had to keep this a secret. that it's awful to feel like your past is some dirty thing to be hidden and washed away so people can only see the pretty parts they want. it's awful to be expected to move on when you're still festering over what's happened because your pain was never addressed. she gets it she understands him do you hear me do you HEAR ME. FUCKKKKK. THIS SHOW IS SO GOOD. why didn't I watch this sooner ohhhhh my god.

(for the record this isn't an anti rose/pink post. this is a rose is flawed as fuck and I think it's interesting post. got it? good.)

So I decided to fuse a few of these lovely ladies <3

Meet Mystic Topaz, a fusion of Bismuth, Pearl, and Volleyball!

She's a sweetheart but she WILL kick your entire ass.

Please support my art!

Drawing on my phone is my personal layer of hell

volleyball

🩰🧰 PINK PEARL & RUBY

Jan 2023 doodle :] they're special to me i love them

Au idea: volleyball gets rejuvenated instead

And there's horrible angst because pink knows what she did and think volleyball should hate her for it but also doesn't want to be hated by her friend. And like is horrified at her being memory wiped and creeped out at her more unwavering loyalty and wants her friend back and wants to apologize. And like, knows the reason that volleyball's injury manifested physically and knows that she found a way to bring her memories back every white would know.

And yeah

Pink Pearl in a pretty floral dress~ 🌼

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“Knock knock”

“Tsk. Who’s there?”

“Olive.”

“Olive who?”

“Olive you and am so happy that we’re getting married!”

COLLAB BETWEEN ME AND MY FRIEND @veecalaveras

I sketched, and she inked/ colored it!!

Dialogue is based off of a really cute comment I received on deviantart for the proposal comic that I posted last year, so credit goes to that!

Original comment from deviantart btw!:

Though I changed the dialogue up a bit and shortened it before sketching the comic, it’s still adorable nonetheless!

I like the way Pearls move. They are so aesthetically pleasing to me.

Look at the bottom 👀

VOLLEYBALL IS LITERALLY DEFENDING PINK🥺😩 We stan for our perfect pearl

i love her!!🌸

:D