That strange feeling of longing when you are at a train station, in a 24/7 open market, when you are buying a coke from the vending machine, watching the city lights glow from your window, when you’re walking aimlessly on a busy street after 5 pm, that feeling as if something is missing in your life and it will never come back although it was never there in the first place; that inexplicable urban sadness.
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there’s a thousand places
i can see
a different city,
another week
but all these pretty lights don’t shine
quite as bright as before.
and all the people I can meet
are just reflections of
who i can’t be
anymore.
n.w — an urban sadness
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I’ve been simping over your ‘human’ Nomicon design since it came out in Ninja-November. If you have any headcanons about them, would you please share?
ah, a fellow monster/eldritch horror enjoyer I see! thank you! <3 tbh that Nomicon design was like an one day revelation, because while I love all the human!Nomi designs I've seen over the years (and there are some banger ones, man), it hit me that we as a fandom really underutilize all the uncanny aspects Nomi possesses. So ye. I do have a couple hc.
Nomicon is an entity that doesn't have its own face and voice.
Whenever Nomicon talks to Randy it uses proxies in form of art/images/drawings/scribbles/writings. It gives strangely non-verbal vibes for something so cryptically eloquent! And whenever it does use a voice, its voice of the First Ninja (or more accurately his VA xD) , its first owner/wielder. When it uses a face, its usually the static/unmoving marble-like faces of Art or silly pen scribbles - both of which hold that uncanny valley look of something that looks human but really isn't. Not to mention the fact that it once literally stole Randy's face/body to teach him a lesson.
I like to think that Nomicon has a library of faces/visages/voices it can take on, but all of them are creepily unsettling because - what would a book know about how to be human? It's face moves wrong, the eyes are too wide open, its body is creepily still, the voice uses inflections like its copying someone else (and sometimes voice warbles and changes/overlaps with other voices because it has so many).
All of it gives these fae/cryptid vibes of creatures that steal voices/faces to trick people, but in this case Nomicon collects those faces/voices from its owners along with their memories (which is another messed up thing we collectively forget is very creepy lol).
Nomicon is an entity that doesn't have a body, and most importantly - hands.
The reason I gave Nomicon so many shadow hands is because, well, Nomicon is a book. Hands hold those books, so the hands are very important to Nomi. All those shadow hands? Are memories of all the hands that held it (mostly previous Ninjas, but also the Creep and some others). It remembers everyone who held it.
The fit- the hat and the cape are kind of obvious, it look like center of the cover and the cape looks like covers on either side with pages underneath. The weirdest addition I made - is the spaghetti noodle-doodle 'hair'.
It constantly fascinates me that Nomicon, besides the Greek Key/9 motif, has those sort of concentration circles that are also present during Mask/Suit transformation. It gave me thought of sort of weird halos i guess?? Which adds to creepy vibe, but in this case its biblically accurate angel / holy deity type of vibes.
Nomicon has very basic understanding of humanity.
For all the experiences/memories/personalities it was created from and it absorbed over the years, human things are a rather alien concept for the book. It's the reason Nomicon is so bad at its timing whenever it buzzes Randy. It just doesnt care that you are at school Randy, its trying to teach you how to be a better ninja!!! In some sense, it absorbed the most prevalent quality of First Ninja - the dedication to duty, the whole reason for its existence - to serve Ninjas to be the best they can. So, such human/mortal things as good grades/video games/a good nights sleep are very nebulous concepts to it.
Less of a hc but more of an observation/gripe but-
COME ON ITS NAME??? Ninjanomicon as in Ninjanecronomicon??? Because lets be honest its not just a book/guide for Ninjas its a book full of DEAD NINJAS??? LIKE??? In some sense all previous Ninjas, when they go through Ultimate Lesson, 'die' in the real world (because they are no longer Ninjas) and are preserved in Nomicon. And First is like deadass dead? (Plop plop too lol). So I feel like there should be more creepiness about that.
Anyway thats basically most of it, and sorry for silly doodles but i cant really draw creepy stuff xD
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God. Imagine being undead. You've gotten a second chance at life, and you're highly thankful to whoever brought you back. But at the same time you've lost so much.
People are afraid of you. Even people who know you who talked about how undead don't deserve to be treated badly are still always a bit awkward with you. They don't want to be physically affectionate the same way with you, they're less likely to trust being alone with you, it's like they're still worried you might attack them. Those freinds who do care, who are just glad to have you back, are more likely to act like you constantly need help and reassurance, even when you just want to exist. Only a handful of your closest freinds still feel like freinds.
Your family is even worse. They still held a funeral for you. Still mourn you. Even when you're right there. At worst they treat you like a further insult, at best they treat you like a stranger.
You spend time trying to look human. Stay in at night despite sleep not being possible. You wear a lot of makeup just to look like a person, because even though you aren't actively rotting you certainly don't look like a living person. When your freinds eat you order something too, and you can't even eat it, you just look at it, wishing you could.
Your politics change, you realize police and security guards aren't here to protect you anymore, they're here to protect from things like you. Society assumes you're dangerous at worst, and an emotionless drone at best. And you have to prove to them that you aren't.
Most of your new freinds now are people who are either not human or have a lot of experience with nonhuamans. Because other people don't really have the willingness to just treat you like a person. Dating is out of the prospect, because every undead who might want to date you sees you as so young for being freshly raised, and every human you meet is probably a chaser.
So many people treat you being this way as a form of selfishness. When you never asked for this. You're so cold now, and so few people still will embrace you with warmth.
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