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stinknoodle · 1 year
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Just One Dance
Summary: Steve bumps into you after dropping Dustin off at the Snowball and decides to stop and catch up, unintentionally uprooting long forgotten feelings within the both of you.
Fic Flavor: Childhood friends to lovers(kinda), mutual pinning, mild angst
Word Count: 5,316
As Steve pulled away from the gym entrance, jaw clenched, he spotted a familiar form in the distance, one he hadn't taken in for a while. You were perched on the edge of the sidewalk, your leather jacket pulled tight around your body and a cigarette in hand. He frowned, this was an odd hour to be sitting alone outside. With recent events weighing heavily in his mind, he pulled up to park about a yard away. He'd just check up on you, maybe offer to give you a ride home, just in case. He only harbored fond memories of you and the thought of something bad happening to another person he knew made his stomach turn.
As he approached, you didn’t take notice. A skateboard, your skateboard, sat upside-down on the road, pushed against the sidewalk. The bottom was decorated and seemingly hand painted, your name in an edgy font surrounded by haphazard doodles of skulls and flowers and all sorts of other clashing designs. Your shoulders jumped slightly when you finally became aware of his presence.
"Uh- hey." He greeted awkwardly, hands clenching and unclenching at his sides.
Much to his relief, a wide grin split across your face. "Well, well, well, if it isn't King Steve, in the flesh."
He scoffed lightly at the faux title, choosing pointedly to not comment on it; the only thing he'd felt like "the king" of lately was the losers. "Glad to see you haven't changed too much, (Y/N)."
Which isn't to say you hadn't changed at all, you held yourself very differently than the last time you had really talked. You sported some new piercings and dark eye makeup that made the color of your eyes pop. A couple chains hung loosely at your belt loops and a few wrapped about your neck. The alternative style you'd taken to was starkly different to the softer, preppier one you had worn the last time he had checked, but then again that was, what, eighth grade? He tried to not be too surprised. You seemed much more comfortable in your skin now anyways; it was pleasant to see.
"What's Mr. Harrington doing out here all alone on this fine night, hm?" You tilted your head with a smirk.
He scratched the back of his neck. "Just dropping off a, uh, friend at the Snowball." It felt a little weird to call Dustin a friend, but at this point it would be weirder to call him anything but.
"Ah," You grimaced slightly, "s'that why you look like a kicked puppy?"
"What?" He snapped, a little more irritably than he had meant to, immediately regretting the tone.
Thankfully, you held your hands up in mock surrender and chuckled. "Sorry, I just saw Nancy in there and assumed. Teach me to make assumptions."
"No it's-" He sighed, dragging a hand down his face, "it's fine, I'm sorry."
You shifted a bit and leaned back on your free hand. "You are forgiven, your highness. Care to take a seat with a lowly peasant, have a smoke?" You offered up the cigarette with a friendly grin. 
He sat next to you gratefully, hesitating a moment before taking the cigarette from you and taking a long drag. The quiet between you was filled with the distant thrum of music wafting from the gym. Your shoes tapped the pavement, but there was no anxiety to the movement; it was more like you were bursting with energy that your body was hardly containing. It had always been like that with you, though you had tamped it down more in your younger years.
"Do you remember our Snowball?" You suddenly spoke up, a fond smile on your lips. You weren't looking at him, but at the hole in the thigh of your black jeans, which you were picking at with bored hands.
"Uh, kind of." He shrugged, the memory felt so distant now.
Suddenly your gaze shot up, your grin widening impossibly. "Wait, do you not remember?"
He blinked at you, brows slowly knitting together as he tried to scrounge for what you could be talking about.
You laughed easily, catching yourself on his shoulder as you leaned back from the intensity of the movement. "Holy shit, you really don't! That's fucking wild!"
"What are you talking about?" He finally relented, cheeks flushing lightly with embarrassment. You gently plucked the cigarette from his hand, taking a short pull from it before pushing the smoke through your teeth.
"Way back when, I asked you to go to the Snowball with me. You said yes." You snickered as you watched recognition slowly leak back into his face. "Then, when we got there, you completely ignored me. Didn't even dance with me once."
Guilt boiled through his stomach and up his chest, remembering vaguely with horror. "Oh, God, right. I- I'm so sorry-"
"Don't be!" You laughed again. He didn't understand, especially as you propped a warm arm up on his shoulder, looking up into the sky with a fond expression on your face. "It's kinda funny now. I mean, obviously it was absolutely devastating at the time, but now I look back at it and laugh. I mean, what did I think would happen?"
His frown deepened, confusion marking up his face. "How is that funny?"
Your smile didn't falter as you turned your gaze to him. "Just- what did I expect? You're Steve Harrington and I'm- well, I'm me." You shook your head and chuckled, lowering your gaze to your lap. You sucked in another breath of smoke and blew it out of the corner of your mouth. He didn’t miss how you used the present tense in your statement, implying that this was still a current dilemma.
Quiet fell over you once more, but this time there was a mild tension to it. Steve floundered for a way to express the thoughts in his head as he recalled that night.
"I'm sorry I did that to you, it was really shitty of me to ditch you." He spoke genuinely, picking at the sidewalk.
You glanced at him with a funny look and you shook your head. "Nah, there's no hard feelings, really. I just get it now, y'know?" You shrugged. "It's probably for the best you crushed that when you did, we would've never ended up suiting each other."
"What does that mean?" It stressed him out how casually you sold yourself short. You tapped the ashes off of the tip of the cigarette on the thick sole of your shoe and placed it into his hand in favor of toying with a safety pin on your jacket.
“I really liked you, Steve. Like, a lot.” You smiled. Before he could respond, you continued on. “But, if you had indulged me even a little, I’m certain things would have turned out much worse. You let me down arguably easily, I never would’ve survived the popularity you garnered.”
He let the words settle in for a bit before he shook his head. “I wouldn’t have let anyone give you shit.”
You smiled appreciatively, but still mirrored him with the shake of your head. “Nah, look at us. You would have been a social outcast just from being around me. It’s better like this. I’d rather us be distant than ruining everything over some stupid, shitty eighth grade break-up anyways.” You laughed.
“I guess… I just feel bad for screwing you over, even just as a friend.”
"Don't worry, Stevie. You'll find a nice girl to settle down with, make a little family, and I'll- I don't know, find someone more my speed. Things will work out one day."
He rolled the cigarette between his fingers in thought, swallowing hard. Why did that sting so badly? He hadn't thought about you like that in years and yet it hurt to be written as completely incompatible, for you to paint your respective futures without the other in them. He knew you hadn’t really talked in years, but that didn’t mean you couldn’t start again, especially with how well things were going tonight. He took one more drag before putting out the stump of the cigarette, discarding it in the street. The two of you listened to the music, a light hum starting in your throat.
"I actually did want to dance with you." He suddenly confessed. You gave him a confused look and his cheeks burned under your gaze, a hand scratching at his neck. "At the Snowball. I remember thinking that you looked really pretty and uh, I wanted to dance with you. Really badly. But I-" he coughed into his fist anxiously. "I let my friends talk me out of it. Which fucking sucks and was really rude, and even though you say it's fine I'm still sorry."
Your lips parted slightly, something unknown sparkling in your eyes. As he finished speaking, you smiled warmly and let your cheek press to his shoulder, almost like you were hiding.
"Thanks, Steve…" Your voice was softer than before.
"Yeah…" He replied, tentatively wrapping his arm around your back to softly grip your forearm on your far side. The silence rolled back in, but it was softer this time, and lasted much longer.
"I'm sorry about Nancy, by the way." You spoke quietly, hands fiddling in your lap. "I was- uh, I saw you guys kind of get into it at that dumb Halloween party. And then I saw you leave without her and Jonathan and-" you sucked in a breath, like you'd said too much. "Yeah, I'm just sorry."
He squeezed your arm lightly, swallowing the lump in his throat before replying simply with, "S'fine."
You chewed your lip for a long pause, but when the distant song changed to something slower, you suddenly sat up straight; Steve quickly missed your warmth.
"Well, I believe you owe me a dance." You grinned brightly at him and held out a hand.
He stared into your scraped up palm, bewildered at the sudden change in mood. "What?"
"Hey, it's the night of the Snowball, I'm dressed in my best,” you gestured to yourself almost sarcastically, “and you always look good,” you gestured to him, sounding a hair more sincere, “and you owe me at least one dance." You snickered and pushed yourself to your feet, offering up your hand again. "Unless, of course, you've suddenly decided you don't want to associate with undesirables."
He rolled his eyes and took your hand, albeit gently to accommodate for the scuffs there. "Stop talking like that, I'm not really that much of anything anymore, and you’re not," he scrunched his face up and shook his head, “undesirable.”
You tugged him to his feet with surprising strength, and he was mildly grateful for your thick-soled shoes; it put you at the perfect height difference, which made it easier to dance. You guided one of his hands to your waist and trailed your fingers lightly up his arm to rest on his shoulder. The two of you slowly began swaying awkwardly, a little stilted and bodies just a little too far away from each other.
You laughed sweetly, head thrown back in a way that exposed the pretty skin of your throat. "Harrington, I don't think any teachers are gonna come tell us off if we get a little closer. I didn't take you for being shy." That smirk pulled back onto your face.
He rolled his eyes, cheeks burning hot as you stepped into his space without hesitation. He released your waist and brought your joined hands above your head to give you a quick spin.
"How's that for shy, huh?" He said as his hands returned to their previous placement.
You only laughed again in response.
As you both relaxed, you slowly drifted closer and closer, as if being drawn together by an invisible string. Soon, your head was pressed to his chest, his hand released in favor of joining your other hand behind his neck. Both of his hands stayed respectfully on your waist, his chin lightly pressed to the top of your head. While you swayed, he was suddenly very glad he had decided to stop and talk to you. That reminded him, however, of the reason he'd stopped in the first place.
"(Y/N)?"
"Yeah?" Your voice was like a fluffy blanket, soft and warm.
"Why were you sitting out here alone?"
You laughed shortly, leaning up to his ear. "To be honest?" You hesitated, voice shaking with hardly contained humor, with an ever widening smile. "I ate shit while riding my skateboard around and was trying to pick the gravel out of my body, but it made me nauseous so I stopped."
"Oh my God." Steve laughed through the words, delighting in the way you hung off of him as you lost it. You hid your face in his shirt, muffling the high, hysterical sounds of your giggles.
"Do you want a ride home after this, then?"
You looked up with tears of laughter in your eyes. "I thought you'd never ask.”
Despite your protests of being okay to walk on your own, he helped you into the passenger seat of his car, giving your hands a light squeeze before drawing back to shut the door and head over to the driver's side.
"So, how's about we head over to my place to patch you up first, hm?" He spoke as he pulled onto the road. "It's pretty late, though." He added, more to himself than to you.
You chuckled, "Sure, Steve. My parents aren't home anyways, they won't even notice."
He nodded knowingly. Some things never change, and that had been one of the reasons you two had originally gotten so close in eighth grade. Neither of your parents were ever home, so you'd just walk to each other's houses after school. Sometimes just to hang out, but mostly to spend the night. It made you both feel just a bit safer, to have another body in the house with you. He realized how much he had sorely missed that feeling of security as he pulled up to his house.
"Do you… do you wanna stay the night?" He cleared his throat and tried to sound more confident than he actually was. You winced and opened your mouth to reply when he suddenly realized how charged with implications that question now was.
"Not to like- not like that, just, y'know," His voice died as he concentrated on parking the car and finally turned to look at your hesitant face, "like we used to. Obviously I have the guest room and you can say no of course you can always say no but-"
"Steve," You pressed a reassuring hand to his shoulder, "I'd love to stay the night."
He sent back a small, apologetic, and grateful smile. To be truthful, he hadn't been sleeping very well, if at all. Every time he closed his eyes, all he could see was those things. He heard them between every baited breath, and when his eyes slipped closed, he felt them watching. The rational part of him knew it was all over, that he was probably safe in the confines of his room, that the only creatures he had to worry about in the tender hours of the night were wild animals typical to the area, but he just couldn't shake that feeling. The feeling that he was being watched, that the worst was only yet to come, that something was waiting just beyond their sight, watching, waiting.
"Steve?" Your voice pulled him out of his spiraling thoughts, hand clenched around the cold bathroom doorknob.
"Sorry," He mumbled before twisting the handle and stepping in.
"It's fine," you stated gently, closing the toilet seat and sitting atop it while he dug through cabinets to locate the first-aid kit. "Where were you?"
"What?" He glanced up at you without turning his head.
You waved a hand, lips pursed. "You looked like you were… somewhere else. Somewhere bad."
It took a moment for him to get what you were saying, but once he did a lump formed at the back of his throat. He knelt at your feet, trying to roll up your pant legs with careful consideration for your knees.
"Nowhere, it's fine. I'm just kind of… tired." Not a lie, he felt like his limbs were made of lead.
You hummed, leaning forward to rest an elbow just above your knee and perching your chin on your hand. "This'd be easier if I was wearing shorts. You got anything I could borrow?"
He stood up, relenting and letting your pant leg drop back down to your ankle. "Yeah, I'll be back in a sec."
It was only when he had started digging through his dresser that he realized how readily he agreed to lend you his stuff, how easy you had found it to ask him to. There had been no hesitation, it almost felt natural, like it hadn’t been nearly four years since you’d even spoken a word to each other. He felt something warm in his chest, and he decided to be grateful for the comfortability that still remained between you two.
When he got back, you were picking at the open wounds on your palms, wearing a bored expression. "Stop that, you're gonna make it worse."
You looked up and gave him an award-winning smile of innocence. "Doing what? I've got no clue what you're talking about."
He tossed you the shorts and t-shirt in his hands and headed for the door. "Let me know when you're done changing."
You tilted your head curiously. "Why's there a shirt? Something wrong with mine?"
"Just figured you'd want to sleep in something other than your street clothes, you're free to just give it back." He called over his shoulder before pulling the door shut behind him.
The bathroom was nearly silent behind Steve as he leaned against the wall beside the door. He was almost nodding off when your voice suddenly sounded.
"You can come back in, pretty boy."
The pet name made his cheeks glow with blush, taking a calming breath before opening the door with indifference forced onto his face. It got even harder to keep the expression when he saw you, in his clothes, in his bathroom, staring up at him. Your street clothes were folded neatly on the edge of the sink, your socked feet lightly tapping at the tile. A smirk tugged at your lips, and you were opening your mouth to say something when he quickly ducked the statement to kneel at your feet once more.
"Christ, how were you even standing?" He lightly ghosted his fingers over the bloody gashes at your knees. He pressed his palm just above your knee and stroked the skin there with his thumb. "Why didn't you say something sooner?"
As he looked back up at you, he found your mouth still hanging open, cheeks flushed. You coughed into a fist and cast your gaze to the side. "Looks a lot worse than it actually is."
He scowled lightly. "Really?"
"Yeah, I've experienced worse." You chuckled. "Nothing will compare to when I broke my leg sophomore year." You grinned down at him, an attempt to reassure him gone wrong. "The bone was sticking out, it was pretty sick."
He looked horrified and you laughed, loud and hearty and so very you. "That's terrible."
"It's fine, really. I've recovered, obviously." You chuckled. He finally withdrew to start digging through the first-aid kit, shaking his head in disbelief as he did so. That definitely explained the massive scar on your left knee.
"Okay, here, this'll probably sting a bit, but it's important that we get them as clean as possible." He narrated as he pulled out some hydrogen peroxide. He dug around for a small hand towel and dumped some of the liquid on it.
"I'm a big kid, I'm sure I can handle it."
He shook his head again. "You can squeeze my shoulder if it hurts too bad, and we can always take breaks if you want."
Your grin turned mischievous, "Oh, yeah? You gonna take care of me?" Your flirtatious tone made his face light up like a Christmas light. He quickly pressed the cloth to your right knee.
You gasped loudly, hands flying down to squeeze at his shoulders. "Jesus Christ, Steve! A little warning would've been nice!"
He didn't respond, opting to rub your left thigh apologetically. He would've apologized out loud if he had trusted his voice to not shake. By the time he was done wiping down your knees, you had two fistfulls of his red shirt in each hand. Your makeup was running down your cheeks and neck, forcing yourself to swallow back a pained sound.
"You did such a good job, we're almost done, alright?" He spoke softly, setting down the cloth in favor of antibiotic ointment and bandages. To give you some credit, they did in fact, look a lot worse than they actually were. Still, he hadn't been expecting any reaction less than the one you’d had. 
"Give me your hands?" He asked lightly as he finished up bandaging your knees.
You gave him a hesitant look, paired with a sniffle, but extended your hands at his patient expression. He felt you relax in his grip as you realized those didn't hurt nearly as bad as your knees.
"There," He practically breathed the word out, having to clear his throat to continue, "all better."
"Gonna kiss 'em better?" He looked up into your watery grin, and he found himself having to scramble to regain his footing in the situation. He looked back down, and leaned in to press a soft kiss to each knee.
"St-Steve-" you stammered, but you choked on your words as he took your hands into his, looking into your eyes as he pressed light kisses to your palms.
Satisfied with your silence, bright red cheeks, and gaping mouth, he stood. "Better?"
"Y-yeah." Your voice trailed off, quickly glancing into your palms to trace the kisses with your eyes.
"Good, you had anything for dinner yet?"
You shook your head wordlessly, jumping a bit when his hand reached into your view.
"C'mon, I think I can whip something up for us." He didn't actually expect you to take his hand, you would probably just push it away with another hearty laugh. That's what would have made sense with what knowledge he’d gathered on you. You did no such thing, however, taking his hand and letting him pull you to your feet. He felt your hand squeeze at his lightly, lingering just a little longer than what was probably acceptable, and let go.
What was happening? Why were you both acting like this? Steve was absolutely puzzled as you started talking his ear off, it was almost as if none of that had just happened. He was only half listening as you rambled, but you didn't seem to mind his distant expression; you must have just wanted someone to talk to. The entire time all he could think about was how bizarre tonight had turned. He felt almost bad at the fluttering in his chest, but it was kind of soothing and certainly preferential to the ache that had been there earlier in the night.
After dinner, you had cleaned your makeup-smudged face off and gone your separate ways. You had patted Steve's shoulder with a splitting yawn and mumbled out a "G'night." The knowledge that you were in the house with him did less to soothe his nerves than he thought it would, less than it had when you were little. Then again, he had had less things to worry about at that time, As he laid in his bed, his eyes kept drawing back open to stare at the window. Every little sound was some nightmarish creature, every shadow was hunting him. He dragged a tired hand down his face, stretching out the heavy bags under his eyes. Suddenly, he ripped the blankets back from his body and stood, a hand quickly being pressed to his desk to steady himself. He couldn’t help but look out of the window at the pool. His stomach lurched and he forced himself to turn away, a sad attempt at shutting out the millions of thoughts spinning through his head. It’s bullshit, we killed Barb, we killed Barb, bullshit, bullshit, bullshit. He tried to be quiet as he stumbled to the bathroom and splashed his face with palm-fulls of water; it took at least 30 minutes to stop himself from retching.
With any chances of sleeping officially ruined, he made his way to the kitchen. He got himself a glass of water and sipped at it morosely, trying to convince himself that he was safe. The creak of the stairs set him on edge, hand gripping at the cup. His heart pounded in his ears as the sound of something moving through the house got closer and closer until-
“Steve?” Your groggy voice immediately shattered the tension. You gave him a tired smile, your tone teasing as you continued. “You too cool for sleep, huh?”
A heavy sigh of relief tore through his chest, the inhale proceeding it shaky. “Yeah, something like that.”
“You okay? You look…” You sleepily searched for an adjective as you made your way over to him.
“Like shit?” He provided.
“Scared.” Oh. “Terrified, actually. Did something happen?” Oh.
It was humiliating how that simple question nearly brought him to tears. He liked to blame the lack of sleep for how vulnerable his body was trying to be. It took a massive amount of effort to dam up the flood of tears and the selfish explanation that came rushing in. The less of the truth you knew, the safer you would be, and he refused to be the one who put you in that kind of danger just because he couldn’t keep his shit together.
“Bad dream?” Your fingers lightly brushed the back of his bicep as you unknowingly provided a helpful excuse for him to escape with.
He nodded, teeth clenched tightly. He averted his gaze quickly to stare into the wall and attempt to blink back the tears.
You were quiet for a long beat, fingers drawing soothing patterns into his skin. You took the glass from his hand and took a sip from it. “D’you wanna build a blanket fort in the living room?” When he looked back at your face, you were grinning childishly.
“Okay, that should do it,” You groaned with a stretch as you gave one last tuck to the corner of the blanket draped over the top of your soft structure.
“You’re still really good at that; you been practicing without me?” He teased with a tired smile.
You laughed and shook your head. “Build a fort? With another man? What do you take me for?”
He let out a responding laugh, combing a hand through his hair to push it out of his face.
You grinned up at him, clearly pleased with that response. “Well, what are we waiting for?” And with that, you were crawling in through the entrance.
Steve waited for you to settle inside before heading in out of fear that he would tear the whole thing down. You were snuggled into the corner, surrounded by pillows and trying to set the flashlight up in a way that it didn't need to be held to still shine light into the makeshift cove. The fort was not as spacious as it had appeared to be, or rather, the two of you were a lot bigger than the last time you'd built a fort together, and you hadn’t accommodated for this factor. His legs ended up snug against yours as he laid next to you, your shoulder pressing into his chest.
"There." You finally let out a quiet, excited woop as you succeeded in putting up the flashlight. "Now," you turned your gaze to Steve, suddenly holding a faux air of severity, "you gonna come here or what?"
“What?” He laughed the word out, feeling the tops of his cheeks and the tips of his ears heat up at your opened, welcoming arms.
“Well,” you wiggled a bit to get more comfortable, “this is a pretty small fort, and you look pretty cold, and I’m pretty sure you’d benefit from a good snuggle.”
“You look pretty,” He grumbled out, the words a failed knee-jerk attempt at sass. Your cheeks leaked rouge and you beamed back at him.
“C’mon, I won’t make you do anything if you genuinely don’t want to, but you seriously look like you need a hug.” He was grateful that you hadn’t brought up his comment.
You were right, of course, he definitely needed a hug. The longer he stared at you in contemplation, the harder it was to resist giving in. Finally, he slid closer to you, careful to not press his entire weight into your body. Your arms wrapped around him and your hands came up to hold his head, all to pull him closer into you.
“There we go, c’mere big cat,” Your smile was evident in your voice as you gave him a tight squeeze. “Isn’t that so much better?”
He grumbled a half-hearted complaint about your fingers being cold, but his body language spoke very clearly that he was in pure bliss. His arm slid up to hold across your waist, grip a little stronger than you had expected. His other arm was pulled up against his chest, fist tucked up under his chin. Your breath ghosted over the top of his head, one hand stroking gently through his hair, picking softly and splitting apart hairsprayed strands. The other hand rubbed a line up and down his back with a firm tenderness; every careful touch pulled him into a state of calm that he hadn’t known for quite some time. A soft, embarrassing sound came from his throat as you pulled your hand away from his back and you chuckled.
“Just grabbing a blanket, s’that okay?” Your voice was somewhere between speaking and whispering.
He nodded against your chest, letting you lean up slightly to grab a blanket and he helped you pull it over your bodies. You tucked it gently up to his chin, sending a small smile down at him when he met your gaze. Your fingers were warmer than before as they slid down from his hair to gently cup his cheek, thumb brushing under his eye.
“You comfy?” You smiled brilliantly when he nodded again. “Good. Try to get some sleep, yeah? You look like shit.”
He huffed out a half-laugh and pressed his cheek back down to your chest. “Easier said than done.”
“Yeah, I get that…” You continued to stroke his hair, apologizing when one of your rings caught and tugged a strand.
Despite his snarky comment, he found himself slipping into the clutches of sleep in your arms. He could hear the rhythm of your heartbeat through your ribs underneath his ear, and he felt the rumble in your chest when you started to quietly hum. His tight grip around you slowly eased as he drifted away from the conscious world, finally letting his tired body rest.
You could feel the moment he fell asleep, could see it in the way his expression relaxed. His eyebrows finally drew up and apart, his lips parting just slightly and the softest snores started to leave through the gap. He looked very pretty like this, all relaxed and peaceful. You leaned down to press a feather-light kiss to his forehead, and eased your head back into the pillow. You squeezed him one more time, his arms unconsciously tightening around you a hair, and you let yourself finally be taken from the world by sleep as well.
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us3rnam3-r3dact3d · 13 days
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I’m back on my Redacted shit, here are some Post Inversion headcanons
As a note, I’m not a doctor. I did some cursory googling about the medical stuff, but I very well might be wrong. On that note TW: injury, some discussion of… guts… and general angst.
David feels weird for days after the Inversion, like there’s something moving around inside of him. At random points during the day, he’ll stop what he’s doing, press his hand to his chest, and hold his breath until it passes. He asks Sam about it, and Sam explains; “You were essentially disemboweled, David. We had to put parts of you back in while we were underground. In surgery and in major healing, we usually take the time to arrange the organs carefully. But… we didn’t have the time. You bleeding out was the bigger concern. But your organs know where they’re supposed to be. What you’re feeling is everything… finding it’s way back.” David nodded and thanked him, and promptly locked himself in the bathroom and vomited for half an hour.
The entire pack stayed at David and Angel’s house for about two weeks post Inversion. Asher and Christian were the worst off, and spent pretty much the whole time sleeping on the sectional in the living room. At some point, somebody turned on Family Guy for background noise and it ran uninterrupted for pretty much the whole two weeks. Now, Ash and Christian have very intense opinions about Family Guy, and Ash claims that he very strange, Family Guy themed dreams to this day from how much he slept with it playing in the background. David is still angry that his recommended feed on Hulu is forever changed because of this.
Sam doesn’t sleep for a week after. It starts innocent enough, just him trying to run interference between Vincent and his new progeny and the pack being largely down for the count. He and Darlin’ end up taking a lot on in the days following the Inversion since they’re on their feet and, largely, in one piece. He gets pretty far running on fumes, but Vincent catches him after a week. Sam had been staying with him to help with Lovely, and Vincent walked in to see him staring motionlessly into the fridge. Vincent didn’t know how long he’d been there, but after calling Sam’s name and getting no response, he starts timing it. When they hit fifteen minutes, he escorted Sam to the nearest flat surface and forces him to sleep.
Damien developed very bad sleep paralysis after the Inversion. Almost every night, he would wake up freezing cold and to a shade hovering over his bed, claws extended getting ready to tear him into ribbons all over again. It would take two or three minutes for him to break out of it, and even longer for him to convince himself that the shade wasn’t real. He took to sleeping with all of his lights on and his heat turned up. It got better when he moved in with Huxley, but it never goes away entirely. It gets worse in the winter, especially when he’s reminded about the Inversion in some way. The Moonbound Solstice is particularly difficult.
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wandasfifthwife · 1 month
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masterlist ༺ only ever underground series
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paring: vi x fem!reader
summary: you and Vi were stubborn as kids, letting petty feelings get in the way until you loose one close to you, your sister. Situations change, as well as people—to the point where they’re unrecognizable. Years ago you would have never guessed you’d be falling in love with her like you are right now.
tw: hurt/comfort, 18+ content, minor character injuries, love confessions, fighting so blood/guns/knives are mentioned, mentions of alcohol/drugs, discussion of major death (r’s sister), “enemies” to lovers trope
a/n: Each smaller fic will have a tw that explain the contents for that specific fic.
MASTERLIST
** = 18+ content, MDNI
main story
(1). we’re only kids | coming soon
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avelera · 7 months
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Maintaining Scope of Violence in Your Story's World
I saw an interesting discussion in the Baldur's Gate 3 subreddit, commenting how a player's immersion was broken when a version of the player character, known as "The Dark Urge", is apparently to blame for a particularly brutal murder and yet the companion characters don't turn on him/her/them immediately. The commenter was baffled given the brutality of the killing. Yet many replies pointed out that other members of the party are also murderers or tapdancing on the edge of committing atrocities, not to mention other mitigating circumstances that it would be spoilers to go into.
This got me thinking about scope of violence in genre fiction and how, on top of all the other difficult jobs the writer has before them, establishing what level of violence is "commonplace" vs "shocking" can be a surprisingly delicate process.
(Cut for length. Includes references to Game of Thrones, House of the Dragon, John Wick, and NBC's Hannibal in an exploration of how to establish the scope and scale of on-screen violence. TW for discussions of violence against children in shows like GoT and HotD, though it is largely in abstract terms.)
I'm reminded of "House of the Dragon" (HotD) which, I must confess, I found to have rather patchy and uneven writing.
One moment in HotD that I found rather dissonant, shall we say, was when a child of the nobility loses his eye in a brawl with other children. His mother, an aristocrat, is understandably horrified and enraged. However, some of the threats she makes to equally powerful Houses over the incident feel, dare I say, disproportionate to the event, given that her threats could lead to the world as she knows it being plunged into civil war, all over what amounts to a tussle between children, albeit one that ends in a particularly gruesome manner.
On the one hand, any modern mother likely would completely freak out at such an appalling injury as a lost eye from a knife fight between children. That would be a major shock to a modern community, where such violence is quite rare. And in fairness, the aristocrats of the world of "Game of Thrones" and HotD by extension are largely insulated by their privilege from the day to day violence we see portrayed in the series. If anyone was realistically going to have a modern response to a child's maiming, it would be the sheltered daughter of a noble house with regards to her beloved child.
However, as understandable as her reaction might be to modern viewers and to those who take into account her sheltered upbringing, in my mind, the show's narrative wobbled there in terms of establishing the level of violence that is considered commonplace in the world of HotD/GoT. In the first season of Game of Thrones, we famously saw a child pushed out of a window, permanently disabled and left in a coma for months, and while this is a major event that creates a great deal of tension and conflict, ultimately the family after their attempts at individual revenge the fact is they can't start a civil war over this single event. So in a way we're sort of left with: this is just a thing that happens that we have to suck up and deal with, even if certain individuals might wish to and continue to pursue a personal vendetta. Couple that with commoner children being murdered and the deaths going completely unremarked upon by wider society, we're left with the impression of a world in which brutality, even brutality against children which would grind a modern community to a halt, is simply an ugly and relatively common part of life. A life with so much ugliness and personal violence that it really almost gets lost amidst all the other horrors.
Which makes the HotD mother's reaction feel... disproportionate. Not in relation to her child's suffering, which is entirely understandable, but her view of what retaliation constitutes a proportional response comes across as hysterical. Too modern. Children are horrifically injured in the GoT/HotD world all the time. Frankly, by comparison, a lost eye is almost minor compared to a loss of mobility in a rigorously martial world, access to which Bran lost with his fall. We don't get as good of a set up of what the conflicting morals of this world are, we don't get the comparison between commoner and noble children as clearly as in GoT, we don't really get all the conflicting views of "When is it normal to start a civil war over a child's injury?" - the sense of scope and scale of violence and how we and the characters are supposed to react to it... wobbles.
Along these lines, I've also pointed out that in shows like NBC's Hannibal, the show is scrupulously careful about not really referencing global events like wars. In my mind, there's a simple reason for that. Your average drone attack on civilians in the Middle East kills more innocent people by accident than Hannibal Lecter has ever killed in his entire murderous career. Compared to weapons of war, one murderous serial killer is barely a rounding error in terms of death and human suffering. So the show has to remain almost claustrophobically intimate so we never get confronted with the "So what?" of the individual death and human suffering Hannibal and the other serial killers bring about on a very close, personal basis. The horror style is meant to force us to imagine ourselves if we were the victims (or the killer) in these incredibly intimate murders. If our suffering was writ large. If every individual death was massively significant. But this is in contrast with real world mass casualty events which would dwarf many times all of the deaths in the Hannibal show combined.
As a final example, the moment the first season of "True Detective" lost me was when the value of a single life also wobbled dramatically. The conceit of the show is that a single murder, or a half dozen at most, murders of young white women is worthy of a major, multi-year investigation. Yet when the investigation inadvertently leads to an outbreak of violence in a predominantly black community, shown almost immediately to kill more people (in front of their children, even) than were lost in the entire murder spree of white women that's being investigated, the show didn't seem to care at all. Individual white female victims were worthy of a breathless investigation into their untimely loss, but twice that number of black people killed in an outbreak of violence directly linked to the investigation didn't even seem worthy of commentary or reflection at all. The value of a single human life was no longer consistent. If these deaths aren't worthy of justice, then why should I care about the few individual deaths being investigated?
As with any measuring of scope in fiction, it's very hard for the author to do alone. It really is an instance where an outside pair of eyes is incredibly valuable.
But things to keep in mind while crafting a narrative around violence is just how much are readers or viewers supposed to be alarmed by individual acts of violence. It's common and indeed necessary for modern media to establish the rules of its world. Even stories nominally set in "our" world actually do almost as much worldbuilding as any fantasy tale in this respect. In a cop drama where each episode is built around a single murder, we need to inhabit a world where a single murder is worthy of dozens of people spending time and resources bringing the killer to justice. In such a world, a mass casualty event of several deaths should be shocking. To this end, like in NBC's Hannibal, it's probably best to avoid mentions of mass casualty events caused by war or natural disasters.
By contrast, an action film like John Wick might place less value on individual deaths (beyond the motivating deaths of a single dog, which is thoroughly commented on within the story as feeling disproportionate and therein lies much of what makes the plot so unique. I'd argue it is also the cutest dog ever born, but I digress). We're not going to see a lurid headline, "John Wick murders 26 local men in cold blood, read about this tragic loss along with quotes by their devastated wives and children on page 6". To a certain extent, the violence there is meant to be just shocking enough to thrill, but we're not meant to get too invested in the details of the actual body count.
And, to go even more extreme, in war or disaster movies, we see or have narrated that thousands have died at a time. Again, to go back to Game of Thrones/House of the Dragon, one reason it's hard to see the mother's reaction to her child's maiming as anything but a bit disproportionate is because we see with such brutality hundreds if not thousands of men, women, and children dying directly or indirectly as a result of war. While it's understandable that a mother would burn the world down for an injury to her child, we're not well placed to agree with or sympathize with her reactions on the broader scale, in terms of retribution that would lead to war, against a backdrop of brutal mass casualty events in the thousands where even more families are devastated and more children injured or killed.
As a final, positive word on the Game of Thrones universe, the early seasons of the GoT were actually very good at controlling the audience's reaction to the scope of violence. Namely, the Battle of the Blackwater sticks out in my mind. The world of GoT is so grounded in the mud, in ugly, personal but intimate violence done with hands or blades, otherwise rudimentary weapons, that the first time we see an explosion on a near-modern scale feels as genuinely breathtaking to modern eyes as it might have to the Medieval-eseque eyes of that world. Yet there are movies chock-full of explosions where the explosions lose impact and importance, become background noise, because they're simply one of many. By rigorously tamping down and limiting the scope and type of violence to largely hand to hand combat, Game of Thrones set up a moment where modern warfare-style explosions are awe-inspiring. Against that backdrop, the appearance of fire-breathing dragons on the battlefield is also arresting, though their capabilities would likely be dwarfed by a modern fighter jet and many viewers of GoT would be familiar with films where the scope and scale of violence is much bigger and more explosive. It feels big in GoT because the scope and scale has been so small to that point.
Once you as a writer have established the modernity of your violence, the scope and scale of it, the average body count, the importance of a single human life, it's important to stick to it. If a character has a differing view, then they should be noted as having it by the narrative. A grizzled war veteran might shrug at a small town murder investigation of a single individual, but a sleepy town might lose its mind over it. In the modern world, the lives of children are put on the highest pedestal, but once you establish in your world that some children's lives are of lower value, then showing a mother act with an understandable modern sensibility of horror and outrage still needs to be commented on so we understand where her reaction falls within her society, especially if it's in contrast. That is what teaches us how to watch and appreciate the narrative choices as they're meant to be appreciated.
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˚ · • . ° . rp partner(s) wanted ! ˚ · • . ° .
my name is mallory (or lory), i’m twenty-one years old and i’m looking for people to write with !
below the cut you’ll find some ‘requirements’ as well as some of the fandoms and tropes i’m into.
i’d love a partner(s) that wants to talk outside of rp as well because i love headcanons, sharing pinterest boards, playlists, and just general gushing over our characters/plots.
i do write both males & females, but i have more experience writing males. for ocs and canon characters with no established actors, i like to use faceclaims (just for establishing looks and (again) gushing over them). can be canon or ocs. that being said, i also love oc x oc pairings in an established universe (i.e. harry potter, shadowhunters, teen wolf, GOT and many more! just ask and i’ll let you know!).
i do like darker themes. limits can be discussed later (some basic ones are pedophilia, beastiality, rape). i’m down to write angst, fluff, smut.. pretty much whatever.
i also love fandom crossovers ! my personal favourites at the moment are wednesday x shadowhunters, wednesday x teen wolf, shadowhunters x teen wolf and shadowhunters x harry potter.
some basic rules
must be 18+. i don’t feel comfortable rping with minors, sorry!
i rp exclusively on discord.
i write between 1-2 full length discord messages. could be more depending on the content/inspiration.
i write in third-person and past tense.
fandoms i’m into
harry potter/marauders
bbc merlin (!!)
teen wolf
the maze runner
shadowhunters (the show)
wednesday
shadow and bone (the show)
ships i’m into
draco x hermione (hp)
draco x harry (hp)
sirius x remus (marauders)
regulus x james (marauders)
merlin x arthur (merlin)
merlin x gwaine (merlin)
merlin x gwaine x arthur love triangle (merlin)
merlin x lancelot (merlin)
jace x alec (shadowhunters)
simon x raphael (shadowhunters)
stiles x derek (tw)
scott x isaac (tw)
stiles x isaac (tw)
scott x allison (tw)
thomas x newt (tmr)
gally x newt (tmr)
thomas x gally x newt love triangle (tmr)
kaz x inez (shadow and bone)
kaz x m!oc (shadow and bone)
wednesday x xavier (wednesday)
stiles x alec (crossover)
& a wide variety of other crossover pairings !
tropes i’m into
enemies to lovers
childhood friends to lovers
sunshine x grumpy
forced proximity
forbidden love
unrequited love
hurt / comfort
angst
redemption
‘there is only one bed’
love potion
injury/illness
major character death
slow burn
rescue missions
huddling for warmth
mutual pining
fake dating
love triangle (love love LOVE!!)
you can either message me or like/comment on this and i’ll come to you !
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Pedro Pascal Character Fanfiction Recs | Vol 33
AO3 | Kofi | Main Masterlist | The Spreadsheet Masterlist
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Howdy!
Welcome to the Spreadsheet Digest, my weekly(ish) fic rec list. This is two weeks worth of reading, but still fairly short. Animal Crossing had me in a chokehold lol.
All info provided by the author unless it was blank, in which case I filled it in.
Fic Recs Below!
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The only time we have
Din/Poe one shot by @nerdieforpedro
Summary: Is taking care of physical needs all Din and Poe doing? All they're capable of? Only the darkness and walls know.
Tags: anal sex, cum worship, body worship, rough sex, semi-public sex, cockwarming
do i really have to chart the constellations in his eyes?
Frankie/Santi series by moonknightly (AO3)
Summary: "Neither of you want the night to end. That’s the only reason it takes you ten minutes to put your clothes back on and the only reason he offers to share his tequila after he’s gotten you out of them."
Tags: Cheating, Infidelity, Post-Break Up, Angst, Smut, Cuckolding, sloppy blowjobs, Dom/sub, Threesome - F/M/M, Spanking, Pain Kink, Choking, You're mostly fucking Santi here
Down the Rabbit-Hole
Jack series by @absurdthirst and @wardenparker
Summary: When Jack accidentally shoots a civilian on a mission he takes on not only the guilt of the man’s death, but inherits his soulmate as well. To you, it’s a dream job with more perks than you can imagine - but for Jack it’s a nightmarish complication. Even more so when he starts to develop feelings.
Tags: mentions of deceased spouse, a lot of food and alcohol consumption, family recipes, age gap, cursing, Canon typical violence, Death, gun use, angst, Jack has a temper and Tequila has a dumb first name, Making Out, a bit of groping, heavy flirting, sexy shower time, a whole truck load of anger, Fisticuffs, a bunch of angry people being upset with each other, Kidnapping, Torture, burning victim with cigarettes, Broken Bones, a whole lot of gun pointing and talk about murder, medicine by injection, oral sex (f and m receiving), Outdoor Sex, Public Sex, Unprotected Sex, Vaginal Sex, Cream Pie, Cum Play, Anxiety, Accidental Hurt, panic attack (symptoms based on my own personal experiences), intrusive/racing thoughts, physical symptoms of anxiety, Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Guilt, Possible Unwanted Pregnancy, Lies, Nausea/Illness, Talk of Abortion, canon typical injuries, Family Planning, Mentions of Sex Toys, Lingerie, Spanking, rough sex, Flirty and somewhat explicit banter, Pregnancy, Discussion of symptoms, Mood Swings, cemetery/deceased loved ones, speaking to deceased loved ones
Are You Alright, Honey?
Javi G one shot by @javigutierrez
Summary: You’re going on a long weekend with your gorgeous new boyfriend, and after a day of unresolved sexual tension out on a roadtrip you’re ready to jump him the second you get home. Unless he finds a movie at the gas station he had been looking for for years and he wants to watch it with you. Will you be able to mask your desire for him, to enjoy a movie that means so much to him? *(Spoiler alert no you won’t)*
Tags: fluffffff, freshly established relationship, pining like *whoa,* very explicit smut, f!oral, f!fingering, *tons* of nipple play, non-penetrative sex (sumata ig?), unprotected penetrative sex, multiple orgasms, allusions to squirting, pleasure dom!Javi vibes, tw alcohol, tw food mention, Javi is a *major* dumb of ass but he makes up for it, reader has female genitalia, some boobs, and long enough hair to tuck it behind their ear but no other descriptions (let me know if you find anything else!), no age references
Come here often?
Javi P one shot by @dancingtotuyo
Summary: fucking men in bathrooms of dirty bars isn’t your usual cup of tea, but sometimes you make exceptions.
Tags: strangers, alcohol consumption, sex (p in v), unprotected sex (wrap it up), mirror sex, dirty bathroom, rough sex, mentions of bruising, hair pulling (reader has hair long enough to pull), degradation, 1 slap on the ass, Javi is a menace, Javi touches reader in flirtatious ways without consent, hints of exhibitionism, use of “good girl”, dirty talk, aftercare, soft! Javi at the end. Let me know if I missed anything.
Just Dumb Enough to Try
Javi P series by @whatsnewalycat
Summary: In 1993, you met Javier Peña in San Antonio. You made an emotional and physical connection with him. Now it’s 1998 and you’re starting a new chapter of life in Laredo with your fiancé. And who else walks back into the picture, but the man who left you high and dry five years ago.
Tags: alcohol use, Binge Drinking, Swearing, Recreational Drug Use, Cigarettes, Voyeurism, Smut, Bisexual main character, Touch-Starved, Female Masturbation, Vaginal Sex, Unprotected Sex, Dirty Talk, Teasing, Flirting, Mutual Pining, Cheating, Infidelity, Sexual Tension, Attempt at Humor, Soft Javier Peña, Movie Nerd Shit, use of daddy in a sexual context, Vulnerable Javier Peña, Angst and Feels, Family Issues, Mostly Post Season 3, Existential Crisis, Banter, Mental Health Issues, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, friends to lovers to friends to lovers, Emotional/Psychological Abuse, Fluff and Humor, Oral Sex, Slow Burn, No beta idk I just got here, Fluff and Smut, Not Canon Compliant, Impact Play, Pain Kink, Domestic Violence, Praise Kink, Unplanned Pregnancy, Breeding Kink, Blood and Violence, Mild Gore, Kidnapping
Online Friends
Joel series by @walkintotheriveranddisappear
Summary: hot single dilfs in your area want to chat, and you're more than willing to comply (aka: anonymous sex chatting with joel) -- and then all the stuff that comes after
Tags: dom!joel and sub!reader, heavy dirty talk, degrading language, joel is a little mean but like in a sexy way, use of 'daddy' like twice, talk of p in v penetration, mutual masturbation, fingering, pillow humping, sex toys, sending nudes, p in v sex, unprotected sex, creampie, fingering, exhibitionism, public play, a bit of bondage, semi-public, some face slapping (in a consensual, sexual context)
Put it in, coach
Joel one shot by @magpiepills
Summary: you are an 18 year old high school senior on the cheerleading team, and Joel is the beloved and successful football coach. He helps you with some stretching after practice.
Tags: SMUT!! This is just porn. The girthiest age gap (18 & 56), consensual but extremely unethical sexual relationship, pervert Joel, power imbalance, dubcon (due to said power imbalance) but I assure you reader is of legal age and enthusiastically consents! Unprotected piv, oral (m receiving) fingering, dirty talk, innocent reader, spanking, minor pussy slapping, blackmail, creampie, twist ending, possibly dark Joel. Could be more, I don’t remember. No use of y/n, no physical description of reader, This is a good example of things that are GOOD in FICTION and BAD in REALITY.
Lovesick
Joel one shot by @prolix-yuy
Summary: You've been greedy for Joel for too long.
Tags: descriptions of wound care and blood, allusions to dubcon due to drinking and drug use, no actual smut
One Night
Marcus P one shot by @secretelephanttattoo
Summary: You get one night with Marcus Pike.
Tags: Implied/referenced smut but nothing is explicitly described. Smoking and alcohol. Angst because they only have one night together. Marcus is a flirty menace. House party nostalgia. Heavy petting in a stairwell
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I'd also just like to call out some fics I've been reading for a long time that finished up recently and that I loved: Psychomanteum - Dieter Series by @whatsnewalycat and Whistle in the Dark - Joel series by @gasolinerainbowpuddles.
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My most recent fics ( I have not been writing much lol)
Ravage - Ezra x f!Reader - saltburn AU, vampire scene
Only Good Girls - Dave x f!reader - D/s, punishment, mirror sex
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Happy Reading!
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serickswrites · 3 months
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Whump One Shots
Here are all my one shots (can become series by request!) organized by theme (this is the first of many)
Whump
That Didn't Work Out as I Intended--TW: implied/referenced kidnapping; hurt/recovery; trauma response: flight and freeze
Definitely Not--TW: kidnapping, torture, future torture, restraints, creepy/intimate whumper
Just Watch--TW: kidnapping, confinement, creepy/intimate whumper
Let's Kiss--TW: noncon; assault, future assault, kidnapping, self-sacrifice, creepy/intimate whumper
You Can't Quit On Me Now--TW: kidnapping; blood; hospital; wounds; mild description of gore; major character injury; recovery and aftermath
Idiots--TW: referenced kidnapping; implied torture; helplessness
If I Have to Tell You Again--TW: kidnapping; creepy/intimate whumper, implied torture, noncon, defiant whumpee, conditioning
Horribly Wrong--TW: kidnapping; future/implied/referenced torture; beatings; restraint; forced to watch
A Mask--TW: kidnapping; blood; death; character death (temporary)
Impossible--TW: referenced torture; hurt/comfort; hurt/aftermath; recover/aftermath; reluctant whumpee; hospital
Kind of Fun--TW: suffocation; blood; creepy (not intimate) whumper; defiant whumpee
Moon--TW: blood, major character injury, restraints, captivity, stabbing, rescue, caretaker and whumpee
Stars--TW: mentions of torture (electrocution, beating, whipping, waterboarding), attempted drowning, bound, forced to watch 
Rain--TW: past abuse/torture, recovery/aftermath, conditioning, burns, break with reality
Wake Up--TW: torture, burns, kidnapping, creepy whumper, blood, future torture implied
Lost--TW: restraints, rescue
Flirt--TW: wounds, injury
Movie--comfort, vaguely referenced whump
DND--TW: kidnapping; torture; blood
Late--TW: restraints, torture, defiant whumpee
Sleep--TW: torture, creepy/intimate whumper, water torture
Braids--TW: kidnapping, restraint, gags, torture, creepy/intimate whumper
Call Me, Maybe?--TW: kidnap, rescue, injury, referenced torture, restraint, gags, seizures
Smile--TW: kidnapping, creepy/intimate whumper, noncon, future assault, past assault (assumption)
Earth--TW: kidnapping; burial; buried alive; rescue attempt
Gone--TW: recovery/aftermath, discussion of suicide (very very passive ideation), implied torture
Five Minutes--TW: kidnapping, torture, blood, creepy/intimate whumper
Flowers--just comfort, vague implication of past whump
Tree--TW: restraint; kidnapping; defiant whumpee
Hush--TW: ball gag, gagging, noncon, implied kidnapping, creepy/intimate whumper, defiant whumpee
Ghost--TW: character death, death of a loved one
Snow--TW: kidnapping, escape attempt
Reunion--TW: past mention of trauma/abuse; dissociation; comfort; hospital; mention of blood
Taste--poisoning
Five--TW: kidnapping; torture; blood; stabbing; creepy/intimate whumper; conditioning
Beloved--TW: past abuse/trauma; aftermath/recovery
Sizzle--TW: restraints; mild depiction of gore; branding
Countdown--TW: kidnapping; torture; referenced murder
Here?--TW: kidnapping; beating (aftermath); hallucinations; referenced character death (major)
Sleep--TW: sleep deprivation; kidnapping; torture; restraint; defiant whumpee
Song--TW: hospital; coma? (honestly idk what medically is wrong with whumpee....); aftermath and recovery; implied torture; implied kidnapping
Shoulder--TW: gun; blood; gunshot; wound; mild depiction of gore
Snap--TW: escape attempt; broken bones; torture (mild); kidnapping (implied)
Crackle--TW: sickfic (maybe, idk what caused Whumpee’s pneumonia--which is what this is y’all if you didn’t know lol)
Pop--TW: restraint; kidnapping; dislocation
Cook--TW: kidnapping
Shirt--hurt/comfort
Roses--TW: non-con drug use, creepy/intimate whumper
Unsure--TW: aftermath; trauma aftermath; hurt/comfort; hurt/recovery
Better--TW: captivity; kidnapping; implied torture; referenced botched rescue attempt
This--TW: self sacrifice elements
Lies--TW: torture, blood, knives
Anniversary--TW: captivity, non-con, drugging, restraints, creepy/intimate whumper
Touch--TW: referenced captivity, hurt/aftermath, referenced blood, implied kidnapping, implied torture
Wake Up--TW: implied kidnapping; mcd; noncon drug use; poison
Sea Sick--TW: cruel whumper, seasickness
Dropping the Eaves--TW: captivity; physical assault; implied torture
On My Way--TW: no express whump warnings, but pain is coming
Sick--TW: creepy/intimate whumper
Tired--TW: blood, unconsciousness, hurt/aftermath
Sense--TW: implied kidnapping/captivity
Worse--TW: injury, blood
Writing--TW: hurt/aftermath, hurt/comfort, implied torture, implied kidnapping
Missed--TW: implied torture, implied future violence, rescue
This is a nightmare--TW: referenced kidnapping, referenced torture
Wrong--TW: captivity, restraint, torture
Wonderful--TW: kidnapping, torture, restraints, non-con, sexual assault, blood
Hug--TW: hurt/aftermath, referenced kidnapping
Stubborn--TW: captivity, torture
Try--TW: abduction, implied future torture
G'Morning--TW: implied noncon, restraints, creepy/intimate whumper
Interesting--TW: choking, implied noncon, creepy/intimate whumper
Last Chance--TW: kidnapping, restraints
So Many--TW: restraints, implied torture, stress position, noncon, creepy/intimate whumper
Goodbye--TW: self-sacrifice
Happen--TW: hurt/aftermath, blood, unconsciousness
Plan--TW: hurt/aftermath, hospital, broken bones, head injury
Unexpected--TW: bindings, gags, restraints, implied noncon, creepy/intimate whumper
Stay Down--TW: head injury, blood, physical violence, gun
Struggle--TW: kidnapping, sensory deprivation
Blood--TW: blood, blood loss, knives, stabbing, gore, caretaker and whumpee
Bad Dream--TW: kidnapping, torture, restraint, drugging, creepy/intimate whumper, hurt/aftermath
To Annoy--TW: stress position, whipping, blood, violence
Let Me See--TW: blood, wounds, gunshot, sprains, self-sacrifice
Cold--TW: hypothermia, hospitals, rescue
Dreaming--TW: mcd, referenced death
Bolt--TW: arrow wound, wound, blood, losing consciousness
Worse Ways--TW: threats of death, electrocution, defiant whumpee
Spiked--TW: drugging, referenced kidnapping, hurt/aftermath, hurt/comfort
Why Care--TW: hurt/aftermath, hurt/recovery
My Heart Belongs to You--TW: medical whump, blood, gore, blood loss
Yandere Whumper Request--TW: yandere whumper, captivity, non-con, restraints, gags
Self-Inflicted--TW: captivity, blood, knives, self-harm, escape attempt
Shrapnel--TW: explosion, blood, wounds, unconsciousness, self sacrifice
Alright For Now--TW: Hurt/comfort, hurt/aftermath, tbh this is just fluff
Don't Leave--TW: hurt/comfort, hurt/aftermath, implied sensory deprivation?
Like That--TW: torture, knife, blood,, defiant whumpee
Safety--TW: torture, captivity, restraints, electrocution
Clown--TW: captivity, torture, wounds, whipping, restraints, defiant whumpee
Promise--TW: implied torture, kidnapping/captivity, mcd (maybe? you pick your ending folks: does team arrive in time to save whumpee? or do they just find caretaker? the world may never know)
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critter-genfic-events · 3 months
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Pike Trickfoot Recs!
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This week, we have eleven fic recs that focus on Pike Trickfoot! Healer, fighter, and Grog's buddy - we have fics that focus on many different facets to her character. Check them out under the cut and don't forget to comment and kudos if you liked them!
The Sun Always Rises by tameila (120527,Mature) Warnings: tw depression Pairings: Pike Trickfoot/Scanlan Shorthalt
In the quiet, mountainous town of Westruun, where nothing much happens, Pike Trickfoot leads her parish. She knows her work and does it well. If she has ever wanted for more, it has never been her place to ask. But, a new spring is blooming, and those longings may become too fervent to ignore, especially when one wears the face of popstar sensation, Scanlan Shorthalt.
Reccer says: It's LONG fic but it still manages to be raw, well-paced and -written, with a great character development and hints at a larger world. One of my very favourite modern AUs ever.
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vice and failure by beeclaws (3216,General) Warnings: None Pairings: None
Pike, and the woman she never let herself be.
Reccer says: It's a love letter and absolutely beautiful character study of Pike
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Cerberus Was a Puppy Once, Too by Crewe (11828,Teen) Warnings: None Pairings: Grog Strongjaw & Pike Trickfoot
Grog and Pike, growing up and growing into their destinies.
Reccer says: Pike and Grog's relationship is one of the best parts of Campaign One, and this fic is a great exploration of it with a great Grog voice. May have made me cry.
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hail to victory (second champion is not surrender) by friendly_ficus (2538,Teen) Warnings: Pairings: Grog Strongjaw & Pike Trickfoot
Sometimes you take a year off, sometimes you go to Vasselheim with your best buddy and become Second Champion of the Crucible.
Reccer says: I liked it
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the first rule of fight club by impossibletruths (2430,Teen) Warnings: None Pairings: Pike Trickfoot & Kashaw Vesh, Pike Trickfoot & Vox Machina
It’s been a while since she’s had a proper fight, and Kash seems as willing a sparring partner as any. Friendship really does spring from the oddest of places.
Reccer says: I love Pike and Kashaw's dynamic
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some sun has got to rise by allapplesfall (22973,Teen) Warnings: Major Character Death, technically (Wilhand) Pairings: Pike Trickfoot & Wilhand Trickfoot, Grog Strongjaw & Pike Trickfoot
Wilhand dies. If Pike were as used to being left behind as she pretends to be, this would all be a lot easier.
Reccer says: An amazing exploration of grief (especially grief of a parent) and Pike.
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make the world better by EssayOfThoughts (2043,General) Warnings: None Pairings: Grog Strongjaw & Pike Trickfoot
Pike is tired. Grog takes care of her. Author's Summary: In the wake of the Dread Emperor, Pike is tired helping the traumatised children. It's alright, though - Grog's there for her.
Reccer says: It's just nice to see Pike be comforted and also to let Grog be the caretaker for once (while also being completely in character for both of them)
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Until Our Luck Runs Out by turtleducknewton (3102,Teen) Warnings: Blood & injury, discussion of past character death, and some general existentialism Pairings: Pike & Vax, Pike & Grog, Pike & Vox Machina
Pike is injured on a Slayer’s Take mission and Vox Machina has to find a way to help her
Reccer says: I liked it
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the sum of all our scars by memorysdaughter (1967,Teen) Warnings: None Pairings: Pike Trickfoot & Vox Machina
Where pike physically feels all the pain that she heals from others
Reccer says: Pike already has a self sacrificing/caregiving thing going on in canon, but this fic dials it up to eleven.
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The Grand Poobah's Book Club by memorysdaughter (7199,General) Warnings: None Pairings: Grog Strongjaw & Pike Trickfoot
Six vignettes in Pike and Grog's friendship, as seen through the books they read.
Reccer says: It's adorable and sweet and has some great art to go along with it!
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Life Keeps on Crashing by percahlia (2861,Teen) Warnings: None Pairings: Pike Trickfoot & Vax'ildan
Faith finds Pike in her family shrine and finds Vax years later in a tomb.
Reccer says: Pike and Vax's friendship is amazing in it (and in canon)
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highball66 · 10 months
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How do you think Chris deals with his trauma compared to Leon? We know that they both rely on alcohol as a way to cope. Leon in particular also uses humor as a coping mechanism. He hides how traumatized, stressed, and tired he is behind a sharp wit and dry sense of humor. I’m not sure when it comes to Chris, though. Maybe he tries to push his trauma aside and not think about it?
Tw// discussion of trauma, mental health, depression, suicide, and alcoholism
The Vendetta novel goes into detail about how Leon is pretty much passively suicidal and uses heavy drinking as a (maladaptive) coping mechanism. He makes the quips and sarcastic comments to hide how everything is affecting him. When he's by himself or trying to put on a brave face for someone else, that's when he makes the majority of his quips. It's almost like he's just saying shit to try to focus on anything but what's happening. But during serious moments, when things become too overwhelming or the situation is too dire, he's quiet. It's especially noticeable in RE4-- he held Luis's hand and his eyes got teary when he died, he cried again when he had to kill Krauser, and the look on his face when he finds Ashley on the couch is heartbreaking. So while Leon does try to hide how much things are affecting him, sometimes he just can't, and he cries (which is a completely normal, human reaction) and he drinks, and it doesn't look like he sleeps well either based on the dark circles in RE4. He has the tendency to internalize things and carries so much survivor's guilt.
Chris, by contrast, seems to deal with things by not dealing with things. He keeps pushing forward, probably because if he lingers on everything he'd been through, he's going to break down. He only used drinking as a coping mechanism after he suffered a traumatic brain injury that left him with amnesia, but he seems to have gotten sober fairly soon after regaining his memories and remembering who he is. Chris also seems to react with anger in a lot of situations, which is understandable for what he's been through. After Wesker kicks his ass, Chris decides he's going to do everything in his power to be able to fight Wesker and win in hand-to-hand combat which is why he beefed up considerably in RE5. When Cathy dies in Vendetta, he screams "no!" Darth Vader style and swears vengeance upon Arias for what he did to her (hence the title of the movie being Vendetta). He plans on killing "Ada" straight away after realizing she was the one who got his men killed in re6.
I think it mainly comes down to Leon internalizing everything while Chris externalizes it. Leon blames himself for everything that happens and while Chris has his fair share of feeling responsible for everyone's deaths in some way, he wants justice via avenging those that he's lost. This is pretty clear in the speech he gives Leon in the Vendetta novel-- Leon wants to give up, he doesn't want to fight anymore and he never wanted to fight to begin with, everyone keeps dying and he feels like it's his fault despite the fact that there's no possible way for him to save everyone, Chris has accepted that people die and he wants to honor their memories by continuing to fight and by taking down those who had caused the deaths of people he's cared about.
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(excerpt from the novel)
Leon is pissed at the end of RE2 and he wants justice for what Umbrella did, but it doesn't present in the same way it does for Chris, and I think that mainly comes down to the fact that Chris wanted to fight, Chris wanted to join the BSAA, and Leon... well, he never had a choice. And he was threatened into "working for" the US gov, which covered up everything about Raccoon City to hide their own involvement.
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Reply Roundup: All Over The Place Edition
Had a couple of questions piling up over time, so I’m gonna get to them all in one place! No theme to this Reply Roundup because there’s a lot of different scraps today
@halogenwarrior for Bonefall TNP: “How long will Frostfur and Wildfur live?”
For Frostfur, she can survive up to early OotS without a problem. I’m keeping her in mind as a body to toss into a major epidemic, she will probably die in one of the Color Cough outbreaks at the beginning and end of Po3. That said, I’m keeping her in mind as a possible kill for TNP, too. In any case, she won’t be left behind at the Forest Territory.
For Wildfur, he will no longer die of chest complications! There’s no need to kill him as a warning for Briarlight in the future. He’s getting a simple mobility device and he will be making the journey as a respected ShadowClan elder. He’s not getting a BIG role, it’s just nice to just have some disabled characters in the background. He’ll either die peacefully just before Briar’s injury, or shortly after giving her some practical advice.
@halogenwarrior for Bonefall TPB: “Since Cloudtail is now Firestar’s adopted son, does Cloudpaw have a new mentor?“
This is a special case where a father figure mentors their son. It’s not forbidden under the code, just usually counterproductive to the social purpose of Mentor/Apprentice relationships.
But here, the reason this taboo is being broken is because Bluestar is trying to make Firestar eligible for deputyship as quickly as possible. It’s not that she expects Tigerstar to betray her the way he does... but she also isn’t stupid. There’s a prophecy about Fire Alone saving the Clan, there’s at least suspicion about this deputy, and there’s constant war, disease, famine...
Things can change fast. Best to be prepared, and make sure that there’s no way to dispute Fireheart’s legitimacy under the Law of the Deputy (AND THEN SHE JUST WAITS A WHOLE DAY AFTER TIGER’S BETRAYAL, CASTING DOUBT ON HIS LEGITIMACY ANYWAY)
And besides, Fireheart brought this extra kittypet to ThunderClan. Bluestar also expects him to make it into a warrior as well.
TL;DR outstanding circumstance, mentor remains Fireheart.
@hehhdhejdudues “Why are Runningnose, Frecklewish, and Ravenwing in the Dark Forest?“
Runningnose is a Bad Boy in this rewrite, Frecklewish and Ravenwing are sent to the Dark Forest because of StarClan’s clouded judgement due to their mob-like fury about the Mapleshade situation.
There are lots of reasons to end up in the Dark Forest in this rewrite, but it’s also not as bad as canon. There’s even cats who go there in protest of StarClan.
@halogenwarrior “Is Hawkfrost and Reedwhisker’s age gap too steep?”
No, don’t worry, I went and charted it out. Reedwhisker is noted as a toothless kitten when Fireheart saves him from the river, meaning he’s less than 3 weeks old in Forest of Secrets (leopardstar’s humdrum made him older but we dont respect that book or its retcons). So, he’s a few weeks older than Bramble and Tawny.
Even if we went by the official wiki estimate, at most, Reed and Hawk are 1 year apart in age. Going by the toothless-kitten evidence, it’s somewhere near 9 months. That’s well below my 4-year-cutoff.
If Reedwhisker was a warrior, the small age gap WOULD still be an issue because of the power dynamic. However, add in the fact that Reed is forced to stay as an apprentice for an entire year because of Skyheart, there’s no problematic power dynamic at play here. It all checks out.
Aaaand for this last one, I’m going to talk a bit about ex-TigerClan supporters and Thistle Law in a serious discussion about fascism so this one’s going under a cut. TW for Fascism and all the racism, sexism, and xenophobia that comes with that, with a real-world example.
What exactly do RiverClan cats besides Hawkfrost (who wants an ally in his bids for power) get out of the WindClan rebellion? I would think their aggression and xenophobia would make them unhappy to get a leader who is also aggressive and xenophobic, but against THEM. Xenophobes won't be allies of other xenophobes from the very groups they are prejudiced against.
@halogenwarrior
Much like real-world fascism, Thistle Law looks different between its incarnations. Supporters of Tigerstar’s brand of Thistle Law are committed to annexing other Clans into one unit, to enforce a standard of purity into itself. Blackclaw, Reedtail, Heavystep, and the rest of Hawkfrost’s RiverClan reinforcements want a second TigerClan.
In its simplest explanation, I could leave it there. Anything that gets them closer to TigerClan 2 is their goal.
In addition though, I think it’s very important to remember that bigotry is not logical, consistent, or principled. Prejudice is irrational. Fascists only understand power and will work with groups they're actively bigoted against, until the exact moment they don’t have to anymore.
So, I flatly disagree with the idea that xenophobes don’t ally with other xenophobes of the groups they are prejudiced against. That’s actually one of the things Fascists are known for, worming their way into other movements by breaking off prejudiced subgroups. Terfs are the well-known example, antisemitic minorities are another. If fascists take power, they will turn against the JK Rowlings and Kanye Wests who were previously useful. They don’t reject the help before that point.
I could get into deeper historical examples about this, this tactic is as old as the term Fascism itself. But I’ll leave it there for now because it’s already gotten heavy.
Just know this is a topic I care immensely about. I put more effort into this aspect of my rewrite than anything else, because I think it is the most important thing I’m doing with it.
Back to Funnie Battle Cat though,
Mudclaw thinks the RiverClan cats are united in helping to get rid of Onewhisker, and fight the encroach of Firestar’s influence. Accepting all these outsiders (thinking about this part i should definitely give windclan an ex-bloodclan member), giving away land peacefully, all this inter-clan mingling... He was willing to give Hawkfrost deputyship to get his supporters on his side for that push. I do really like Winds of Change, but one thing I reject about canon is the idea that Mudclaw was just... completely Bamboozled by Hawkfrost and really had the interests of his Clan at heart.
Like, no lol. You were going to make a total stranger your deputy so you could have more claws to kill Onestar’s supporters with. The inciting incident for the assassination was finding out StarClan was going to speak to him-- totally abandoning the idea that StarClan would sort this out if One, Fire, and Bramble were all lying about Tallstar’s switch. “Best interests of his clan” yeah right.
Hawkfrost’s plan was to get deputyship in WindClan, and then present this to Leopardstar as evidence of his capability. He is actually right that this would impress Bonefall Leopardstar, and set the stage to start merging the two Clans.
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chrysochroma · 28 days
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Febuwhump 2024 Masterlist!
@febuwhump i made it babeyyy! thank you so much for organizing this, i had a lot of fun!!
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Total Word Count: 25,212
Day 1: helpless - “show us some good entertainment"
Hermitcraft, Teen, 1.1k
TW: blood, violence, broken bones
Day 2: solitary confinement - within your walls (desire, desire, till there’s nothing left of me)
Hermitcraft, Teen, 2.4k
TW: Kidnapping, Torture, Human Experimentation, Temporary Character Death
Day 3: ALT 4: human weapon - These are the Glorious Days (TGD) Ch 1: Slice, Come Paradise
Generation Loss, Teen, 1k
TW: Major character death, Blood, Flashbacks
Day 4: ALT 1: human shield - Starting With Them
The Owl House, Teen, 1k
TW: Possession, blood, violence
Day 5: rope burns - Black skies change to blue
Tangled the Series/Varian and the 7 Kingdoms, Teen, 1.3k
TW: Blood, Injury, Rope burns, Tourniquets
Day 6: “you lied to me” - Everything Moves Ch 1: So many angles, so many lines
Varian and the 7 Kingdoms, Teen, 1k
TW: crying, yelling, betrayal
Day 7: suffering in silence - TGD Ch 2: I give you the Judgement of God!
Generation Loss, Teen, 1k
TW: Dissection/surgery, Derealization, Graphic description of dissection
Day 8: “why won’t it stop?” - Kill The Rabbit (KTR) Ch 1: Eclipse
Original Work, Mature, 3.4k
TW: Arson, Death, Derealization, Panic Attacks, Scars, Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
Day 9: bees - Futurum Ch 1: Humanity
Original Work, Teen, 1.2k
TW: Death
Day 10: ALT 9: lightning strike - Sacrosanctity
Original Work, Teen, 1k
TW: blood, lightning, cult ish
Day 11: time loop - KTR Ch 2: Waxing Crescent
Original Work, Mature, 3.2k
TW: Murder, Blood and Violence, some Very distasteful discussion of suicide
I just realized that i forgot to make a tumblr post for it but its too late for that now so
Day 12: ALT 6: immortality - In a Tulip Field (Tulip) Ch 1: Always More
Original Work, Teen, 232
TW: discussion of death
Day 13: “you weren’t meant to get hurt” - Everything Moves Ch 3: So many ways to see the sunrise
Varian and the 7 Kingdoms, Teen, 1.2k
TW: Violence, injury, crying
Day 14: blood stained tiles - Neon green and scarlet red
Danny Phantom, Teen, 857
TW: Dissection/vivisection/surgery, self loathing, bad parenting, blood
Day 15: “who did this to you?” - Rusty Repair Kit (RRK) Ch 1: A Bright Red Poppy
Hermitcraft, Teen, 658
TW: Mourning
Day 16: came back wrong - “You don’t remember?"
Malevolent Podcast, Teen, 642
TW: yelling, swearing
Day 17: hostage situation - I’m Gonna Win Ch 1: I’ll be Bloody and Bruised
Traffic Life, Teen, 100
TW: Defeathering, Violence, Reference to past trauma
Day 18: too weak to move - Thrill of the Chase
The Magnus Archives, Teen, 162
TW: Violence
Day 19: “please don’t” - Everything Moves Ch 2: To keep the pulse alive in you
Varian and the 7 Kingdoms, Teen, 594
TW: Yelling
Day 20: ALT 7: last words - Tulip Ch 2: Those Who Remember
Original Work, Teen, 187
TW: Discussion of death
Day 21: unresponsive - “All you have is your fire"
Traffic Life, Teen, 100
TW: Unconscious
Day 22: “you weren’t meant to be there” - I’m Gonna Win Ch 2: I’ll be Laughing Alone
Traffic Life, Teen, 200
TW: Yelling
Day 23: presumed dead - Tulip Ch 3: For Them
Original Work, Teen, 181
TW: Discussion of death
Day 24: “i’m doing this because i care about you” - Molten Gold
Traffic Life, Teen, 959
TW: Kidnapping, Flashbacks, References to past trauma, Fire powers, Yelling
Day 25: ALT 5: CPR - Make a mercy out of me
Hermitcraft, Teen, 200
TW: Drowning, Burns, Crying
Day 26: “help them” - Boogeyman
Traffic Life, Teen, 100
TW: Violence, Betrayal, Lying
Day 27: left for dead - RRK Ch 2: Bloodstained Gears
Hermitcraft, Teen, 842
TW: Violence, Blood
Day 28: “no…not like this” - TGD Ch 3: Hail His Majesty!
Generation Loss, Teen, 100
TW: Panic, Yelling
Day 29: not allowed to die - Success
Traffic Life, Teen, 100
TW: Panic, Suicidal thoughts
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natasha-in-space · 1 year
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✧ Masterlist ✧
Masterlist gets updated frequently, but do let me know if you can't find something <3
Tumblr limits the amount of links to a singular post, so the masterlist will be split in multiple posts!
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~ Full multi chapter series list ~
Saeran:
✿ A Crimson Rose (Suit!Saeran/gn!reader);
✿ Pocket Suit Saeran au (Suit!Saeran/cmc: Natasha Stakh);
✿ Here With You (VAE!Ray/gn!reader);
✿ Vampire!Suit Saeran Drabble (Suit!Saeran/cmc: Natasha Stakh);
✿ A family get-together (GE!Saeran/gn!reader);
✿ From the Ashes into the Light (VAE!Ray and VAE!Saeran/cmc: Natasha Stakh) - series;
✿ Shared Struggle (SE!Saeran/Self Insert) TW;
✿ Fried Food (Unknown/gn!reader);
✿ Saeran's favourite places to kiss his SO;
✿ Saeran having triplets;
✿ Saeran with a SO that is a business analyst;
✿ Saeran with a SO that is an athlete;
✿ Saeran's kid decides to become a hipster;
✿ Giving a gift to Ray;
✿ Unknown with an affectionate and cuddly assistant;
✿ Sweet Beginning (Ray/cmc Lila Lancelot);
✿ GE Saeran celebrating your birthday;
✿ Old Melody Sang Anew (SE!Saeran/cmc Natasha Stakh);
✿ Secluded Waltz (Ray/gn!reader);
✿ Looking at the Stars (Suit!Saeran/cmc Natasha Stakh);
✿ Safe and Sound (GE!Saeran/gn!reader) TW;
✿ Planting flowers with Ray;
✿ Saeran as fairytale and mythical creatures
✿ Fractured Heart (Unknown/cmc Natasha Stakh) - series;
✿ High Enough (Unknown/gn!reader);
✿ GE!Saeran comforting mc that's struggling with abandonment issues;
✿ Show & Tell (Unknown/gn!reader/Zen) CW
Saeyoung:
☆ Mundane Troubles (Saeyoung/gn!reader);
☆ Saeyoung comforting you after failing an exam;
☆ Saeyoung comforting you when you're sick;
☆ Stargazing with Saeyoung;
☆ Saeyoung motivating you to study;
☆ First date with Saeyoung;
☆ Playing with Saeyoung's hair;
☆ Saeyoung with a SO who's a computer programmer;
☆ Saeyoung comforting a SO who's struggling with chronic pain/chronic illness;
☆ Saeyoung celebrating you passing an exam;
☆ Having an argument with Saeyoung;
☆ Saeyoung wishing you a happy birthday as soon as it hits midnight;
☆ Play fighting with Saeyoung;
☆ Confessing to Saeyoung in school (set in canon timeline)
☆ Cruel Miracle (Saeyoung/gn!reader);
☆ Saeyoung with mc who's struggling with social anxiety;
☆ Thoughts on Saeyoung's trauma with the agency;
☆ Bringing a puppy to Saeyoung
Jaehee:
\̅_̅/̷̚ʾ Cookies and Cupcakes (Jaehee/gn!reader);
\̅_̅/̷̚ʾ Christmas Reminiscing (Jaehee/gn!reader);
\̅_̅/̷̚ʾ Dance with Me (Jaehee/gn!reader);
\̅_̅/̷̚ʾ You and Jaehee getting a sphinx kitty who loves her a bit too much
Rika:
✦ A Snowy Play Fight (Rika/gn!reader);
✦ 2022 Rika's birthday CG analysis;
✦ A Wilted Daffodil (Rika/cmc Chaewon Lee) - series;
✦ Overall personal thoughts on Rika and her complexity
Vanderwood:
๑ Vanderwood bonding with the Choi twins drabble;
๑ Vanderwood with a SO who's the opposite of them;
๑ A Playful Afternoon (Vanderwood/gn! reader)
Yoosung:
* Yoosung with a SO that is a pet groomer;
* Yoosung with a blasian SO TW;
* Yoosung's kid turns out to be a major animal-lover;
* Yoosung and mc who has an allergy to dog/cat hair;
* Yoosung's family reaction to his eye injury;
* Discussing how Yoosung and Matsuda from Death Note would be great buddies;
* Meeting Yoosung after knowing him in high school;
* Thoughts on Yoosung going through therapy
Jihyun:
𖤓 Jihyun going through therapy;
𖤓 New Tomorrow (Jihyun/gn!reader);
𖤓 Jihyun with a mc who's similar to him
Jumin:
ᗢ Jumin going through therapy;
ᗢ Jumin with a SO from Daegu;
ᗢ Jumin with a SO who's a famous idol
Zen:
⟡ Zen confessing his love to you;
⟡ Zen with a disabled mc
Headcanons:
Random headcanons that live in my head rent-free;
Cuddling headcanons for the whole mm gang;
Choi twins comforting a SO that is struggling after the death of a loved one TW;
Mystic Messenger gang as Disney Prince's;
Jumin, Jihyun and Rika with a SO that they've met before during their childhood;
RFA + Minor Trio as trainer classes in a Pokemon au;
Mystic Messenger gangs professions in a Stardew Valley au;
Zen and Jaehee comforting their child who is struggling with workaholism;
Yooseven headcanons;
RFA + V and GE!Saeran with a cheerleader SO;
Warrior Cats/Mystic Messenger au brainrot;
Picking up the entire Mystic Messenger gang headcanons;
RFA as fairytale and mythical creatures;
Jumin and Saeran soulmate au drabbles;
RFA + minor trio with a punk mc;
Engagement rings headcanons;
RFA + Saeran with mc who's studying to be a veterinary neurologist;
RFA + V and Saeran making you gingerbread cookies;
Analyzing Yoosung's and Saeran's relationship after Yoosung's good ending;
RFA + Jihyun with the child that grows up to be 'daddy's kid';
MM gang as Sailor Moon characters
Events:
Mysme-fictober 2022
Mystictober 2022
Cmc info-sheets:
✽ Natasha Stakh (Saeran's cmc);
❦ Chaewon Lee (Rika's cmc)
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LGBTQIA+ Raph fics
Based on an Ao3 request; limited to pre-2k18 fics as per specification. You can also find this list and others here. 
The Chronicles of Karai Getting Her Shit Together by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - 2012 AU centered around Leorai, but also include Ace!Raph (tw violence, past csa, trauma, underage/rape-noncon, internalized ableism, self-harm, suicide attempt, nonconsensual drug use, torture)
Your Heart's Desire by Werepirechick - Rasey AU about groceries, holy water spray bottles, and the dangerous of summoning while drunk (tw violence)
De Novo by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Slash finds Raph at Northampton and sets about turning his world upside down (tw explicit, past violence)
Call Me What I Am by Kyn - A "surprisingly unsexy" intersex!Raph story where a stomach bug takes on strange new dimensions, and the fallout sends the family reeling (tw gender identity issues, underage rape/noncon, trauma, violence)
vulnerable by coffeeandcream - Raph doesn't know how to deal when Casey is gentle (tw insecurity, sexual content, intimacy issues)
A Collection of Raph & Casey Shit by coffeeandcream - Fluffy little stories about the street punk and the mutant turtle (tw explicit)
Kiss by melismatic - Casey and Raph debate the meaning of a first kiss
resolution by taizi @taizi - Raph welcomes in the New Year with Casey
well suited by taizi @taizi - Casey and Raph make a try at normalcy
Panda Wolves by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Strange dreams force the Hamato to take a dark trip down memory lane; background Rasey (tw underage rape/noncon, csa, gaslighting, child abuse, attempted child murder, trauma, violence, bathroom issues, victim blaming, nonconsensual drug use)
Misdirection by thekumquat - Casey and Raph find revelation through miscommunication (tw light violence)
The Bandana by TMNTFOREVER666 - April discovers a secret; gnc/possibly trans/unclear Raph (tw misgendering)
fowo's TMNT universe by fowo - A series about Raph struggling to figure out his feelings for Casey; includes themes of asexuality (tw awkwardness, discussions of bigotry; the third story includes trauma, major character death, and grief)
Casey Trips and Falls... In Love by coffeeandcream - Casey and Raph's "friends with benefits" relationship takes on new dimensions (tw explicit, awkwardness, relationship angst, insecurity, self-esteem issues)
Winner Takes All by Adoradork for Duz-Machines-1984 - Raph and Casey engage in some rough games (tw explicit)
What Doesn't Kill You by ladycyon - Raph tries to hide his heartbreak at Casey's wedding (tw one-sided relationships, alcohol, unhealthy coping mechanisms)
Mixed Signals by ladycyon - Casey figures out the reason behind one of Raph's less human habits (tw implied sexual content)
"Chapter 3" from TMNT Smut Dump by suthnmeh - A brilliant piece of Rasey art (tw explicit)
Rough and Dirty by orphan_account - Casey and Raph get dirty in multiple ways (tw explicit)
Hobo Au Caseyraph by dragona15 - Art of Raph receiving comfort from an unusual source (tw implied homelessness)
Raph✘Casey | "La La Love" [HBD Justy!!] by Ransy - A magnificent Rasey tribute (tw flashing)
You're Fine by leones @leonsi - Raph visits Casey in the hospital and tries not to crumble (tw sickness, fears of major character death, referenced panic attacks)
Say My Name by LeeontheNeon - Shot of pure Rasey fluff
this art by snuffed - Crack AU where Rasey runs headfirst into the Twilight cover
our love is a forest fire by taizi @taizi - Raph gives Casey a place to rest (tw implied alcoholism, tw past child abuse, injury)
oh, but I'm not bitter. i'm just tired. by leones @leonsi - Leo's brothers help him with a breakup; featuring bi Raph (tw past family dysfunction)
"Alcohol" from ABC TMNT by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Casey and Raph celebrate a fight and make a discovery (tw alcohol, past violence)
"Enemy" from ABC TMNT II: Out Of The Ooze by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Casey won't let Raph go again (tw mind control, violence)
"Eulogy" from TMNT ABC IV: Turtles Forever And Ever And Ever by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph's boyfriend and friends help him find some closure with a long-ago loss (tw grief, past homelessness, trauma, past violence, implied ableism)
"Intruder" from TMNT ABC IV: Turtles Forever And Ever And Ever by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph's family learns about a change in his relationship situation (tw violence, nightmares, trauma, implied child abuse, implied sexual content)
"Tastes Like Blood And Tears" from Underground Rainbows by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - 50 sentences about Casey and Raph (tw child abuse, abuse, major character death, blood, violence, sexual content, homophobia, speciesm, trauma, crying, alcoholism, torture, mpreg, amnesia)
Merry Fucking Hangover by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Insight into the turtles and their friends on Christmas morning, including background Rasey (tw implied sexual content, implied family dysfunction, drug and alcohol use)
"Bloody Kisses And Fierce Hearts (Red)" from Covered In The Colors, Pulled Apart At The Seams by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph will do anything to save Casey, even when Casey doesn't ask for it (tw past violence, past gore, past child abuse, sexual content, past homophobia, slut shaming, past underage prostitution, past domestic abuse, mentions of alcoholism, blood)
Fallen Angel by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - AU where Hun brings home a trapped turtle for his criminal gang and equally trapped son (tw child abuse, violence, bigotry, slurs, suicidal thoughts, torture, dehumanization)
"I is for...." from Rainbow Soup by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph breaks the rules to take part in a pro-intersex rights demonstration (tw implied nonconsensual medical procedures, bigotry, fears of violence)
"White bodies naked on the low damp ground" from The Waste Land by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph and Donnie a special kind of heartbreak at the end of the world (tw horror, major character death, violence, apocalypse, grief, trauma, gore, corpse desecration)
"I never promised you an open heart or charity" from The Red Room (The Bloody Chamber) by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph remembers a lost love while in the hands of a monster (tw torture, mind control, underage rape/noncon, blood, knives, sexual assault, humiliation, emotional/psychological abuse)
"There are loud toys" from "All are welcome and all have a home in the toybox" of The Red Room (The Bloody Chamber) by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Casey is a dick, as usual (tw explicit)
"In public" from "Embrace" of We All Need Someone To Lean On by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Casey and Raph work out an awkward, but not-unbearable means of avoiding discovery via cuddles
Yo Woody by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Mikey writes Woody letters from Northampton; features background Rasey (tw implied csa, implied underage rape/noncon, family dysfunction, trauma, past mind control, past violence)
My Flesh To Rule by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Casey engages in a difficult, but necessary procedure (tw transphobia, harassment, brief slut shaming, abortion, accidental pregnancy, implied sexual content, medical procedures, anti-abortion sentiment from minor characters)
"First Dates" from sweet creature (we're running through the garden) by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph and Casey head out on a perfectly normal patrol together
"Red Lipstick" from spice up your life (who would want anything else?) by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Casey dresses up for the night and Raph takes notice
not gonna write you a love song by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters for leones - A story about genderfluid!Raph working out platonic desires and aromanticism with Casey's help (tw sexual content, brief internalized arophobia)
apathy's a tragedy (and boredom is a crime) by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - In which Casey, Mona, and Raph deal with memes and bondage (tw explicit)
it's important to hold on (hold on) by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Little Mermaid AU where Raph ends up saving a reckless human (tw blood, injury, near death experiences, emotional constipation)
"soulmates" from with friends like these, who needs by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph's an aromantic person with a soulmate, and he and Casey have to deal with that (tw insecurity)
"forbidden/star-crossed romance" from with friends like these, who needs by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Raph is called to serve in a moment of need
Turtlecest (wasn't sure if this counted for request, included it separately)
Casting Stones at the River by GoblinCatKC @goblincatkc-blog - Raph and his lovers reckon with the passage of time and how it refuses to touch them (tw tcest, explicit, family dysfunction, possible abuse, violence, mental health issues, explosions, apocalypse)
Blackout by Queen_B - The turtle family play a game of hide and seek with steamy stakes (tw explicit)
Past to Present by crabapplered - Raph and his family welcome Donnie home (tw explicit, past violence, internalized ableism, trauma, family dysfunction, past separation)
A Different Path by VenusTheMarvelTurtle - Raph finds his heart dangerously tangled up with that of Leonardo, the Foot clan's most ruthless warrior (tw explicit, torture, past child abuse, child abduction, violence, mental health issues, trauma, suicidal thoughts, torture, rape/noncon, past csa, toxic relationships, alcohol, vomit)
Twisted Autumn by GoblinCatKC - Leo and Raph try to discover who they are together (tw explicit)
Broken Brother by Koalagriton - Leo finds an unconventional way of calling a brainwashed Raph home (tw explicit, alcohol, mind control, identity issues, violence)
Haunted by Kiraynn - Raph does his best to help Leo recover from an ugly experience (tw past rape/noncon, trauma, explicit)
Evolution by Kiraynn - A timeline of Leo and Raph's slowly developing relationship, through the lens of a shared bed (tw explicit, underage/underage)
Hello by Gemi - Raph has an unusual encounter in the jungle (tw guns)
Release by Blackdragon @blackdragon-sama - Leo gives Raph the support he needs at the farmhouse (tw injury, trauma)
Gravid Problems by Gemi for Blackdragon - Raph and Leo try to figure out a sticky new situation (tw mpreg, sexual content)
Push and Pull by orphan_account - Raph has a willful brother to tame (tw explicit)
Abyssal by orphan_account - Raph experiences something awful and Leo tries to help him through (tw explicit, rape/noncon, near-death experiences, trauma)
The Games We Play by babygirl127 for hummerhouse - Raph tempts Donnie into a game (tw explicit)
Usually, Don plus bed plus moaning was always a good thing. by turtlesketches for DashWrites - Raph tries to help Donnie through a difficult time (tw explicit, mpreg)
Focus by babygirl127 - Raph and his brothers teach each other about focus (tw explicit)
Colorful by Anonymous - Raph needs to watch his smart mouth, but Leo doesn't mind (tw sexual content)
Uncover by orphan_account - Raph and Mikey negotiate the rocky new world of spanking (tw explicit)
Running Scales by orphan_account for InkyTurtle (Melodistic) - Dirty little stories about Raph and his brothers (tw explicit)
To Give by orphan_account - Leo and Raph put on a show for their family (tw explicit)
Lick the Bowl by Plastron - Donnie discovers Raph is up for licking a lot of things (tw explicit)
Raphael and Donatello by RomaMarufixx - A collection of sexy Raphtello stories (tw explicit, some fat shaming)
Eggs by squishyturtlefuckfics - Leo pushes Raph's limits (tw explicit)
Handyman by Plastron - Donnie pushes himself too hard and Raph takes advantage (tw explicit)
"The Secret" from The 100 by Alessa_DC - Raph and Donnie reel from a revelation
Raphael/Donatello Mating Drabbles by Plastron - A collection of both steamy and warm-hearted stories (tw explicit, mpreg, dubious consent, body image issues)
Lava Cake by orphan_account - Mikey and Raph figure each other out with food
Fair's Fair by TheAlchemistsDaughter - Leo provides certain services for the family, but Raph wants to give back (tw explicit, insecurity)
Same Coin, Different Faces by orphan_account - Raph and his brothers work out cross-dimensional sexual tensions (tw explicit)
The Red Herring by orphan_account - Raph tries to handle losing Leo, his soulmate (tw family dysfunction, relationship issues, shame, trauma, separation, not-actual character death, grief)
Montage by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Sexy stories about Raph and his brothers (tw explicit)
Stolen Time by GoblinCatKC @goblincatkc-blog - Leo has a strange request for Raph (tw shame, mature/explicit)
Libido in Question by Bad_WolfGirl - Raph and Donnie team up to prove the strength of Raph's libido (tw sexual content)
Drawing the Short Straw by squishyturtlefuckfics - Raph and his brothers play a game (tw explicit)
Kink-Off by Stegosaur - A collection of Kinktober stories, many of them starring Raph (tw explicit)
Primordial Monsters Get Good Coverage by orphan_account - Casey gets caught up in Leo and Raph's game (tw explicit, possible dubcon)
To Succumb by orphan_account - Mikey helps Raph test his limits (tw explicit)
Unwanted Bonds by Blackdragon @blackdragon-sama - Raph is brought him with heavy scars (tw explicit, trauma, child death, forced pregnancy, PTSD, depression, medical torture)
Forever is a Long Time by DuzMachines1984 (orphan_account - A collection of interwoven stories about Leo and Raph's relationship (tw explicit, trauma, dubcon, rape/noncon, abuse)
Party Time by orphan_account - Raphael is offered up at a party (tw explicit, alcohol)
The three times Raphael swore he was being stalked by Languidly - What it says on the tin, to the tune of Leo and Raph's developing relationship (tw nonconsensual stalking)
Burning Alive by spaze_cat - Raph and Donnie through interlinked stories about fire (tw injury, mentioned explosions, implied sexual content)
He Doesn't Scream by GoblinCatKC @goblincaveofficial - Leo and Raph's relationship takes a strange term (tw explicit, dubcon)
Someone Has a Choking Kink by glitch0_0 (orphan_account) - Raph lends Leo a helping hand (tw explicit, consent issues due to heat)
The Hots by Languidly - Raph can't keep his eyes off of Leo (tw explicit)
"Honor and Courage" from Everybody Wants Leo by Alessa_DC - Art of Leo and Raph together (tw very explicit)
Send Your Lifeboats Out For Me by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - Raph, Mikey, and Donnie try to figure out one of Leo's secrets (tw rape/noncon not between main characters, child abuse, victim blaming, genital mutilation, torture, trauma, violence, explicit)
The Driver's Seat by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Raph and Leo fight over who gets taken for a ride (tw explicit, dubcon)
At Odds by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Donnie tries to figure out his warring brothers; chapters 1 and 4 are particularly Raph-centric (tw explicit)
Doctor Donnie by PrincessFreak - Donnie pushes his brothers' medical limits; chapters 1, 4, and 7 are Raph-centric (tw explicit, dubcon)
Aggressive Empathy in the Abyss (AEITA) by Gemma Winchester (PrincessGemma12), PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Pieces of Leo and Raph's relationship unfolding in the shape of something awful (tw past underage rape/noncon, consensual underage, trauma, explicit, unhealthy coping mechanisms, flashbacks, psychological trauma, recreational drug use, PTSD)
Good as His Word by hummerhouse for NeatTea @neattea-ruby - Raph finds himself losing a high-stakes bargain with Leo (tw explicit)
Three Days Later by what_should_i_post_here - Donnie finds his place in Leo and Raph's relationship (tw explicit)
Hindsight is Twenty-Twenty by Crapapplered - Leo and Raph wage a war with Donnie serving as the battlefield (tw explicit)
Drabbles and Slash by her_silhouette - A collection of drabbles frequently centered around Donnie/Raph (tw explicit, relationship issues, shame, mind control, mpreg)
Full Throttle by Dorkjitsu - Donnie and Raph find new uses for Raph's motorcycle (tw explicit)
Erogenous by Kiraynn - Raph won't leave Leo in peace (tw explicit)
Heart to Heart by Crapapplered - Leo helps Raph when he worries about taking advantage of Donnie (tw mature/explicit)
Stairway to Heaven by Crapapplered - Casey, Raph, and Don share something special (tw explicit)
Rope by Crapapplered - Donnie is caught off guard by what Raph, Mikey, and Leo are up to behind his back (tw explicit)
TLC by Crapapplered - An injured Raph receives a very special kind of comfort from Donnie (tw injury, explicit)
Christmas Shopping by Crapapplered - Raph and Donnie go shopping together
Nara Black: Mirror's Shadow In My Skin by crabapplered, GoblinCatKC @goblincatkc-blog - Raph and his brothers desperately try to outrun a curse (tw violence)
Punishing Raphael by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Raph gets punished for coming home late (tw explicit, dubcon)
12: Raph and Leo dirty talk HCs. Someone had to ask. <3 by Blackdragon Sama - An insight into Leo and Raph's sex life (tw explicit, mock-possessive behavior)
Raph 18 by Blackdragon-sama @blackdragon-sama - Further insights into Raph's desires (tw explicit, dubcon)
Broken words - Leonardo, with this, this, and this related art by blackdragonsama @blackdragon-sama - Leo and Raph form a dark pact (tw sexual content, blood, suicidal thoughts, self-harm, intense self-harm imagery, mental health issues)
Black Swan by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Raph and Donnie's relationship takes a strange turn during a harrowing captivity, complicated by the presence of Agent Bishop (tw imprisonment, threatens of torture, molestation, rape/noncon, dubcon)
Knock Off by PrincessFreak - Raph struggles with his feelings for Donnie (tw internalized homophobia, misogyny, toxic masculinity, sexuality crisis, gender roles)
Leoweek RxL by NeiNing - A fan comic about Raph helping Leo out during his heat (tw dubcon, very explicit)
Trust by Kamefootninja (Kame630) - Raph learns to let Leo take over (tw explicit, phobia mention)
Show Time by Caroaimezoe - Raph witnesses something odd and it has reverberations through his relationship with Leo (tw explicit, relationship angst, insecurity)
The guilt you dont deserve [comic] by Traitmill - Raph comforts Leo after a painful experience (tw trauma, gore, explicit, guilt, blood)
Midnight Bargain by GreenElphaba - Leo and Raph find a kind of balance in their seemingly endless power struggle (tw explicit)
The Toll of Hours by GreenElphaba - Raph sits up by Leo's side and tries not to fall apart (tw injury, blood, trauma)
Let's go hunting by NeatTea @neattea-ruby - Sequel to Donny needs some love (that story has some dubcon); Leo and Raph share a special experience in a lake (tw explicit, mild near-drowning)
Losing All Control by renk3r - Raph tries to figure out what exactly irritates him about Leo (tw sexual content, mature)
Do you feel it? by Riu_wiu - Raph helps Leo come to terms with his guilt over their relationship (tw shame, relationship angst)
Self-Control by hummerhouse @hummerhouse - Raph doesn't want to be patient anymore, much to Leo's chagrin (tw explicit)
Chocolate by Kiraynn - Leo is the center of a mystery that Raph wants to solve
An Eggplant Among Pickles by Crowdog @50-shades-of-cloaca - The turtle brothers test each other's limits (tw explicit, dubcon)
"Raph" from I Routed a Labyrinth To Your Lap by orphan_account - Mikey gives Raph a special gift (tw explicit)
Quotes by what_should_i_post_here - Drabble collections from various turtle pairings (tw relationship angst, grief, loss, trauma, separation, explicit)
Bonsai by crabapplered - Leo works to change Donnie's role in the family, and Mikey and Raph take notice (tw explicit, grief, objectification)
You Are Shellarious by PrincessFreak - Raph has a strange reaction to his brothers' colorful language (tw sexual content)
Secondborn by SuuriSakara - Raph has his own way of dealing with Leo's return from Japan (tw explicit)
On the Fence by GoblinCatKC @goblincatkc-blog - Mikey gives Raph a very strange gift (tw extreme dubcon, sexual content)
Tmnt Exchange Art by Kitsune1818 for Caroaimezoe - Leo and Raph walk a dark path together (tw blood, injury, implied sexual content)
A Bet's a Bet by PrincessFreak - Raph owns up after losing a bet with Mikey (tw explicit, mild dubcon, homophobia, misogyny)
"Day 1 - Mikey/Raph - Rimming" from Taste Our Sins by squishyturtlefuckfics - Mikey irritates Raph by drawing things out (tw explicit)
My Good Girl (I) and My Good Girl (II) by squishyturtlefuckfics - Raph loves to play Leo's games (tw explicit, mpreg mention)
My own worst enemy by Caroaimezoe - Raph is determined to teach Leo a lesson (tw explicit, dubcon)
Kalamari by GoblinCatKC @goblincatkc-blog - Leo and Raph get very creative escaping a dangerous situation (tw sexual content, captivity, dirty jokes, threats of violence)
Notes on the Fridge by Geaven - Donnie, Raph, and their extended work things out over the fridge (tw sexual humor)
By Your Side by Kiraynn - Raph gives Leo the support he needs at Northampton (tw trauma, past violence)
Jungle Fever by Elphaba-Rose - 2007 AU where Leo and Raph end up in the jungle together and matters take a vastly different turn (tw explicit, violence, injury, savior complexes, mild dysfunction, blood, brief references to rape that doesn't involve either character)
Raphael x Leonardo drabble set by Goblin Cat KC @goblincatkc-blog - Raph tests Leo's limits after winning a late-night battle (tw mature, sexual content, possible dubcon)
story about SO3E01 by @ringingt - Leo awakens from his coma in a surprising way (tw surprise kissing, mild near-drowning)
yay! headcanons unite! by @blackdragon-sama - Headcanons about Raph being intersex; a possibly better term for this specific content might be dualsex, I'm not sure (tw sexual content, accidental voyeurism, inadvertent coming out)
come back for us by @blackdragon-sama - Raph tries to call Leo home (tw implied sexual content, mpreg, mind control)
Play Pretend by @blackdragon-sama, Elphaba-Fae - Leo and Raph try to find each other in the shadow of terrible things (tw explicit/mature, underage rape/noncon, csa, mutual dubcon, torture, emotional manipulation, painful sex, trauma, victim blaming, child abuse, blood, imprisonment)
meditation session by Spicyturtles - A comic about how Raph won't let Leo meditate in peace (tw explicit, possible dubcon)
Never Have I Ever by what_should_i_post_here - Secrets are unspooled during a drinking game (tw alcohol, implied sexual content)
30daysOTP SlashRaph by dragona15 - A collection of beautiful and steamy art (tw explicit)
Calm down. .Just Relax. by @ringingt - Raph and Leo on a rooftop (tw implied sexual content, possible dubcon)
We Care For You by Seigaku - Art where Raph's family shows him a special kind of support (tw explicit, background angst)
Mikey's first time by anomalae - The turtle family takes the virginity of one of their own (tw explicit)
luv ya bro by P-Jo Art - Comic where alcohol loosens Raph's tongue in the most awkward way (tw alcohol, underage drinking, homophobic language, possible internalized homophobia)
RRR/L by Navia - Art of a multidimensional Leoraph tryst (tw explicit)
Raph x Mike - Tight by EnclosureOfFish - Art of Mikey and Raph together (tw mature/explicit)
tmnt SxR hoboRaphau by dragona15 - Art of Raph having a highly charged encounter with Slash (tw explicit, implied homelessness)
Your argument is invalid by P-Jo Art - Comic where Raph goes to unusual lengths to get Leo to shut up (tw surprise kissing)
This art by languorous-sky - Raph and Leo mess around with rope (tw explicit, choking)
let me help you by Spicyturtles - Fan comic where Donnie gives Raph an offer in the shower (tw explicit)
Summer Home by spaze_cat - Leo and Raph come to an understanding on a trip to the seashore (tw light relationship angst, mentions of pregnancy)
kink sketches by @blackdragon-sama - Collection of Leoraph art (tw explicit)
those eggs by @blackdragon-sama - Art of Raph being disciplined and undone (tw explicit)
Beyond Our Control by SadoraNortica - The turtles get stuck in the past and have to deal with oncoming mating season (tw fears of child loss, explicit, consent issues due to heats)
Somewhat by Gemi - Raph and Donnie find their way towards perfection (tw injury)
Worth It by Kaliopeee - Leo catches Raph off guard (tw explicit)
I never had you down as... by @blackdragon-sama - Raph gets roped into the family entertainment (tw explicit, dubcon)
Close Shave by squishyturtlefuckfics - Mikey and Raph take advantage of surviving a dangerous situation (tw explicit)
Lure Rebound by Various - A magnificent Leoraph art collection (tw explicit, angst, separation, blood, dysfunctional relationships)
My Nightlight by squishyturtlefuckfics - Raph gives Mikey some much-needed comfort
Summer Blow Out Sale by Winnychan, xkingofgamesx - Donnie and Raph navigate the harrowing world of online shopping
How could he not? by ItsMickeyYouAss - Raph can't keep his eyes off of Leo
Visions: One Word Prompts by Gemma Winchester (PrincessGemma12) @princessgemma12 - A collection of 50 sentences from different AUs, with heavy Leoraph throughout (tw implied rape/noncon, implied incest, teen pregnancy, identity issues, addiction, food insecurity, animal cruelty, blood, child abuse, implied underage rape/noncon, implied csa, gun violence, trauma)
Slave by Spicyturtles - A Raph/Donnie comic with heavy BDSM (tw explicit)
The Violence in These Delights by Sundayeyes - Raph and Donnie make a discovery about what they're both capable of (tw explicit, choking)
Jinkyo by Caroaimezoe - Raph races to save his brother from an ugly transformation (tw violence, rape/noncon, consent issues, mind wipes, identity issues, possession, blood)
[title unknown] by buttmagoo and nicecentrifuge - Raph can't get away from Mikey right now, and doesn't really want to (tw sexual content, mature/explicit)
According to deviantArt, it’s buttmagoo’s birthday. by @nicecentrifugre - Some sexy art based on sexy fics I, unfortunately, haven't been able to find (tw mature explicit, discipline)
Mikey/Raph, an AU where one of them is physically a girl and the other one finds out. by @nicecentrifuge - A trans!Raph AU where Mikey stumbles onto his secret (tw menstruation, accidental outing)
Fortress by @nicecentrifuge - Raph and his brothers try to survive the end of everything they've fought for (tw torture, mutilation, rape/noncon, underage rape/noncon, abuse, emotional manipulation, unhealthy relationships, nonconsensual drug use, trauma, family dysfunction, blood and gore, medical issues, unhealthy coping mechanisms, mental health issues, possible Stockholm Syndrome, grief, trauma)
UrotsukiLeo (Half-Shell Hentai) by meh_guh for aliassmith, Cthonical (Nellie) - Raph deals with his brothers' transformation (tw explicit, dubcon)
Tonight by cndrow - Raph and Leo negotiate the moments when people is hard to come by (tw relationship angst, dysfunction)
Old Fears, New Need by orphan_account - Raph and Donnie keep each other together (tw blood, injury, sexual content)
Quality Time by Kiraynn - Leo and Raph take a few early-morning moments together (tw explicit)
Lost and Found by Kamefootninja (Kame630), NaruButt - Raph and his brothers find a long-lost sibling named Donatello (tw past rape/noncon, past csa, past sexual slavery, trauma, miscommunication, violence, grief, possible consent issues)
2012 turtles nsfw head canons by orphan_account - Includes a section with Raph (tw explicit)
This animation by Hammytoy - Raph and Mikey quite simply go for it (tw explicit)
U R Beautiful by Caroaimezoe - Raph is jealous of Leo's attention (tw explicit, knives)
Halloween party - Gift for Katii-kee by RenegadeBleat - Leo and Raph at Halloween (tw explicit)
Steel by Plastron - Donnie and Raph experiment with Raph's san (tw explicit, discussions of violence)
Warm by DashWrites for Sakycchan - Leo needs Raph's help to deal with the chill (tw explicit, mpreg)
Claiming and being Claimed by DarkxKitsune - Raph and Mikey need some help with their heats (tw explicit, mild dubcon due to heats)
"Young Lovers With Their Legs Tied Up In Knots" from My Ghost, Where'd You Go? by Gemma Winchester (PrincessGemma12), PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Raph and Leo explore the occult and a hayloft (tw explicit, shame)
Is This Where You Want To Be? by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 for This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Westworld AU where Raph visits a brothel and has a strange encounter (tw dehumanization, possible consent issues, discussions of fetishization, objectification, explicit)
Auto-Robotic-Erotic 2: Electric Boogaloo by squishyturtlefuckfics - Raph learns one of Donnie's more peculiar secrets (tw explicit)
Kissed By The Whip by Lisa_Frank - For once, Raph wants Leo to control him (tw explicit)
Natural Sub by GoblinCatKC @goblincatkc-blog - Raph and his brothers discover Leo's secret (tw explicit, discussions of dubcon but consent is strong here)
OT4 by Queen_B - A sweet, steamy series about Raph and his brothers (tw explicit)
Aphrodisia by Kiraynn - Leo is a scion of the Foot Clan, and Raph can't look away (tw violence, explicit)
Art by FaRaDo-Age - Raph and Donnie with some new getup (tw sexual content, mature)
Inspired by the dream I had last night. by nei-ning - Raph seeks comfort from Leo after a bad dream (tw nightmares)
and maybe it'll be clear when we get there by @leonsi leones for This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - A collection of polyamory-themed stories, a lot of them including Raph; specific pairings are in the summary they were angelic enough to create (tw past abuse, self-harm, trauma, migraines, self-doubt, secret relationships, implied rape/noncon, implied csa, mental health issues/illness, vomiting, insecurity, self-hatred)
Colors by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Multiamory March about a TMNT OT8 of Raph, Leo, Donnie, Mikey, Casey, Karai, April, and Shini (tw implied rape/noncon, pregnancy scares, implied violence, teen pregnancy, unplanned pregnancy, parent/child incest, csa, underage rape/noncon, abortion)
Walk Me Home by DarkxKitsune - Mikey trades letters with a prisoner (tw jail, discussions of molestation, potentially unhealthy relationships)
Raph is a Femboy by PrincessFreak - Raph's family discovers his secret (tw outing, dubcon, humiliation)
Call Me By Your Name by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Leo and Raph try to figure out a mind swap (tw explicit, self-esteem issues)
I Keep Telling Myself This Might Be Nothing by PrincessGemma12 @princessgemma12 - Raph and his family stumble into a relationship (cw underage/underage sex, underage masturbation; tw identity issues, shame, loneliness, relationship difficulties)
This by Anonymous - Raph struggles not to be jealous, but Mikey makes it nearly impossible (tw possessive behavior, jealousy, potentially unhealthy)
“i was an island / before you came along.” - I Was an Island, John-Allison Weiss by lonescove - A magnificent art piece about Leo and Raph (tw implied sexual content)
Cliché (it was too late for me) by leones @leonsi - Story with Leo/April focus, but strong background Raph/Donnie (tw mild homophobia, speciesm, trauma, eating disorders, anxiety)
Did somebody say threesome? No? Oh well. 2007!Leo, 2012!Leo and 2007!Raph <3 by reosexuals - A multiverse-spanning art piece (tw explicit)
it's not revolutionary by leones @leonsi - Raph does his best to support the turtle he loves (tw mentions of self-harm, self-hatred)
Almost Home by cndrow - Raph and Donnie make up for lost time (tw explicit, implied character death, separation, grief, trauma, stress)
Cussing fetish? by RiusTcestCave - Comic about Raph's unusual kink (tw explicit)
Just Practice by ninjazure - A comic about Leo and Raph's attempt to practice kissing, and how it slips out of control (tw implied sexual content, accidental voyeurism)
Art by nise - Leo and Raph share a kiss
Art by えんらい - Raph and Leo in bed together (tw explicit)
Art by 82 - Raph and Leo celebrate Halloween
Art by ninjazure - Leo taking Raph apart (tw blood, sharp objects, very explicit)
Yeahh, have some tcest on flying pillows~ by sakycchan - Leo and Raph give Donnie some tender love (tw implied sexual content)
The Benefits of Not Shutting the Fuck Up by Floozdooz @floozdooz - Donnie is determined to shut Raph up (tw underage/underage, explicit, dubcon)
Raphael / Donatello tcest by cndrow - A series of stories about the genius and the brawler (tw explicit)
Strange Little Shadows by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - 50 sentences about Karai, Raph, and Leo (tw implied sexual content, mind control, injury, choking, trauma, major character death, grief)
The things that we could be by This_world_of_beautiful_monsters - Leo, Raph, and Karai camp out under the stars (tw explicit)
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COLLIDE-JUSTIN HERBERT- 6
TW: Mention of suicide. Just the word, also no hate to any real life people. This is just a work or fiction.
shit.
Shit.
SHIT.
Justin was freaking out. What should he do? Should he tell his parents they should cancel their flight? He couldn’t do that, they would ignore him anyways and he knew she would never admit it, but his mom was losing her mind. This was his first major injury at the NFL level, and he was in alot of pain.
But that also left the question of Sara, she was staying at his house. What was he supposed to do about her? He didn't want her to leave, but he wasn’t sure that they were ready for that step. I mean they haven’t even had a talk about what this meant. Now she is going to be meeting his parents?
He wondered how he was going to navigate this situation, he didn’t think his injury was serious for his parents to come from Oregon, his parents had lives, jobs, and friends. Not to mention Patrick was still living with them. They had enough on their plates, they didn’t need to come down just for this.
He went through the rest of the tests in a daze, so much so that he didn’t realize how much time had passed, or there was a knock on the door.
Mike came in, Sara right behind him holding his bag. Mike had a shit eating grin. “I ran into your girl as she was going to drop off something."
She held up his bag, " I was just going to give it to Mike but he insisted that he take me to you."
The team doctor was starstruck, “I'm not trying to be unprofessional here, but its very nice to meet you.” He shook Sara’s hand. “My daughter is a huge fan of the show, and your acting in general. Would you mind if I took a picture for her?”
Sara blushed. “Um sure.” The doctor passed his phone to Mike and he took the photo, not realizing that Justin was glaring at her the whole time. After the photo was taken, Sara wanted to leave. Detecting that Justin wasn’t happy about her presence but Mike wasn’t having it. He wrapped his arm around her. “Naw see we gotta introduce you to the guys that are here! You’re telling me Herb has been keeping you a secret all this time and now you wanna leave?”
Justin tried to interfere. “Mike. Stop”
Mike brushed him off, continuing his hold on Sara. “Naw man you finally get a girlfriend, and you tryna hide it! And look at that ,a famous movie star!” He looked at Sara “Did you know Herb had no intention of calling you after you gave him your number!”
Sara smirked at Justin. “Oh I’m sure I was the one that called him”
Mike busted out laughing. “I fucking knew it.” He slapped Justin on the thigh. “I bet Ekeler $50”
Justin’s face paled “Wait Ekeler knew?”
“Hell ya man! You ain’t that slick, we all knew you were seeing someone. Hey, I am happy for you guys. Make a cute couple,” He walked out. “Hey Sara, you need to come to one of our Brisket days.”
He left, leaving the Doctor, Justin, and Sara alone. The doctor decided to check on some results leaving the couple alone.
“I was going to text you to let me know when you are here I could have discreetly picked it up.”
She shrugged. “I was trying to message you, I was looking around for security and Mike spotted me. I am sorry”
“Its fine. Hey listen” He scratched the back of his head. “I got a text from my parents that they are en route from Oregon.”
Sara sighed. “I guess that means I should be-”
“You can still stay with me.”
That stunned her into silence “Sara?”
“Wow. Are you sure? I mean I would love to meet them but what does this make us?” She had to put it out there. It was driving her crazy not to know what this was. They had been dancing around the subject for a few months.
Justin looked around. Now was not the time to be discussing this “Let’s talk later, I don’t think this is the place.”
Sara nodded. “Okay, but I am not going to forget about this.”
They were interrupted by a knock. The doctor poked his head in “Um Justin? We have the results ready.”
“Okay I have to go, I’ll pick my parents up from the airport when I am done here. See you at home.” He got up and left with the doctor.
Sara smiled like a schoolgirl
He said “See you at home.”
“Come meet my parents”
They did have to have the talk but right now none of that matters. She had to impress the people who made the man she loved.
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A fucking rib cartilage fracture.
“You will be put as day to day” Coach Staley said. “We will be giving you a few days to rest and recover.”
“How long will recovery be in general?”
“Months, I would recommend missing a few games.” Justin and Staley both shook their heads no. “No way, this season is too important.”
“Justin, we don't want any long term damage. You’re taking a big chance if you continue to play like this. Its going to be really uncomfortable.”
Staley stepped in. “Look, we have a few extra days. Justin, go home and rest, spend time with your family. We will check back in on Monday. “
The doctor had prescribed painkillers for him to take and bandage wraps for his midsection. He warned Justin that sneezing, coughing, and laughing would be painful for some time.
Justin went to the pharmacy to pick up the stuff he needed before heading to the airport to pick up his parents. As he was waiting in the pick up area, he was trying to figure out how he was going to make this speech. He was also wondering if his parents knew who she was, he would like to think they are hip. However, they are still his parents and used to actors and actresses from their generation. He can recall he and his family in theaters when Bohemian Rhapsody came out.
It was funny, because he never gave that movie a second thought, but now that he is dating the person that was Freddie Mercury’s love interest he might have to watch it again. He broke free from his thoughts when he got a text from his dad saying they had arrived. He placed his porsche in park and put on his mask so he didn’t get recognized
It didn’t take long for him to see his parents coming towards him, considering they have been there so many times. “Justin!” His mom reached out for a hug but stopped herself as she remembered the reason she was in town. “Oh I’m so sorry baby. How are you feeling?”
He shrugged. "Fine as can be." After they were all settled and in the car Justin told them the complexity of the situation. After a quick silence he decided to break the news. "So listen I actually have a friend staying with me right now. I was going to text you and say not to come down because I was covered but."
"Oh? A teammate?" Holly questioned.
"Um no"
"Someone else came from Oregon?" He smiled. His parents knew he didn't have any friends outside of his teammates in LA.
"No it's actually someone I've been seeing." The air got sucked out of the car. Justin saw in his peripherals that his dad turned around to face his mom in the backseat. "Mom. Dad?"
"I had no idea you were seeing anyone. Is it new?" Holly was the first one to ask questions.
"Well it's been a few months."
"A few months huh? And she's already staying with you?" Justin knew what his mother meant by that. She was protective of her sons and she wasn't stupid. Once word got around that her son was going pro, girls started to surround him. Her other son Patrick was going through the same thing. Girls would do anything if it meant they became the girlfriend or wife of an NFL player.
"Mom, it's not like that. She makes more money than me." He didn't know her exact net worth, but he had overheard conversations with her banker and investors and wow.
His dad finally spoke up. "What does she do?"
"She works in the entertainment business."
"Oh like on sets?"
Justin smirked "I guess"
"Well that's great sweetie. We can't wait to meet her." He could tell his mom was still hesitant. He didn't introduce them to girls. The last one being in high school.
By the time they arrived and Justin unlocked his door he could smell food and sweets. Sara came around the corner with a bright smile on her face. However he knew her too well. She was twisting the ring she usually wore on the forefinger. It was a habit that she did when she was extremely nervous.
"Hello Mr. And Mrs. Herbert. I'm Sara" she stuck out her hand. "Nice to meet you."
"Sara, nice to meet you. Please we are Mark and Holly. "
She smiled. "I made dinner, and there's cookies in the oven. I had no idea you guys were coming in."
Holly smiled. "We usually don't, but I was so worried seeing him on the field like that. I thought he would need help. But apparently not."
Sara reached their bags, ready to put them in the guest room but Mark insisted they could do it.
Holly remarked. "If I had known about you.
I would have brought out the photo album."
Sara felt a pang. "He didn't tell you?"
"No, he is very private even with us. So I'm not too surprised." Sara looked out to where Justin and Mark were standing
"I haven't said anything to my parents. So I can't say anything." She confessed.
"Really? Private as well "
Sara was surprised that she would spill information to basically a stranger. "My parents are somewhat wealthy snobs. Corporate careers only matter. My sisters and their husband's are all basically business and law school graduates and there's me."
"Justin said you worked in entertainment."
Sara smiled. "I'm an actress." Holly clapped her hands together. "I knew I recognized you from somewhere! You were in Little Women!"
"Yes, and a few other films."
"Is everyone getting along?" They looked over to see Justin and his dad heading in. Justin looked nervous.
Holly smiled. " Everything's great."
Justin was suddenly distracted by the huge edible arrangement on the counter with a teddy bear. "What's this?"
At the mention of the fruit Sara's mood soured. "It came while you were gone. I don't know who it's from there's a card though."
One of the good things about acting is that she could hide her emotions once she processed them. She had more than enough time to process this.
The bear was holding a heart that said 'get well soon' which peaked her interest when the delivery guy dropped it off.
She knew that she had no right to look at the card in the envelope but it wasn't sealed. As Justin looked out the card she knew exactly what that fucking card said.
'I'm always here for you. Miss you
Your Tay Bae
She watched his face out of the corner of her eye. He seemed neutral as he ripped up the card.
"Justin!" Holly scolded. "That's rude! Who sent that nice arrangement?"
"The O-line sent it. Trying to mess with me by sending the bear." He rolled his eyes.
Sara wanted to punch him
One of her flaws was that she was a very jealous person. Obviously dating someone with a fan base involves female fans getting out of hand. She dealt with that with Harry.
But this.. this was something else.
Who the fuck was Tay?
"Sara"
She made sure to keep record of the name
"Sara."
He wouldn't be stupid enough to follow this bitch on instagram
"Sara!" She snapped out of her daze to find the group looking at her. "Huh?"
"I said something smells good." Mark laughed as she flushed bright red. "You were spacing out."
"I'm so sorry, where are my manners. Yes I made a spinach mancotti." She took the food out of the warmer. Justin began to pull out plates.
Dinner was a hit. Sara loved his parents, they were easy to talk to. They asked about her career and how she got started. Justin realized he didn't even know the answer to these questions and he started to feel bad about not really asking her about her career. She was so invested in him that he didn't even pay attention to hers.
The card seemed to be forgotten as everyone ate, dessert and coffee was served. Holly and Mark couldn't stop complimenting her cooking skills.
"I took culinary classes in high school and college. I was always more drawn to the arts rather than sports."
"Oh god it's so nice to hear that. My family is sports obsessed and so am I. It's just nice to discuss some other topics.
After dessert Justin and Sara cleaned up while his parents sat outside on the patio. She insisted on them not helping with nothing and relaxing.
Unbeknownst to the couple in the kitchen. The elders were watching him
"That kinda reminds me of us when we were younger. " Mark remarked to his wife as he saw his son pinch the brunette's butt as she swatted at him laughing.
"Who would have known he found someone? You know he did not discuss football or the game once since we met her." Holly smiled and took a sip of her drink. "Who would have thought?"
"I don't think I've seen him like this with anyone."
They watched as Justin looked at Sara while she was wiping down the counter. He was staring at her like a love struck boy. It was adorable to see.
Before too long the couple joined them and they spent the rest of the night talking. Around 10:30 Holly and Mark went to bed.
Soon after, Justin and Sara headed up to his room. Sara helped him out of his clothes and switched out his wrapping. After he was done and laying in bed Sara did her night routine. When she walked out of the bathroom she saw him reading.
"I'm going to turn this light off since you have your nightstand on." She turned off the overhead ones.
"If you need anything I have my phone up. Goodnight babe." She was about to head to the living room when he called out.
"Uh where do you think you're going?"
She looked confused. "I'm sleeping on the coach. It pulls out."
He rolled his eyes. She was silly If she thought she was going to sleep on the coach. "Um I know it pulls out, I bought it."
Sara rolled her eyes. "Get your cute ass on this bed." He patted the spot next to him.
"No way, you said I'm violent in my sleep. I'm not risking you getting hit."
"I didn't say 'violent' I said 'move around too much. Difference" He smirked.
"Don't change it. I remember it clearly as day. 'Gosh Sara you're violent.'" She mimicked his voice.
He laughed then let out an 'Ow as he held his rib.
"See I already did enough damage. Goodnight."
She left the room, and Justin was left pouting. The whole point of her being there was to sleep with him. Not sexually, well maybe a little sexual. He liked that physical connection. He liked closeness, it was embarrassing to admit but he and Sara tried cockwarming a few times and he had become obsessed with it. It would usually lead to sex, but if it didn't he would be content with that.
After a while of reading, he fell asleep.
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Sara waited til she heard the snoring from his room. Then she investigated.
She put her brightness on low, then went to the first place she thought of
Instagram.
She was going to log into her personal account. The one that only followed family and close friends but she thought against it. She went into her fan page account. It wasn't to actually have a fanpage for herself, it was to snoop on people and other things. See what they were saying about her.
Clicking on Justin's profile she went to his following. The first thought that ran through her head was the name
Tay Bae.
Tay is usually a shortened version of Taylor. Let's start with that. She put in the name Taylor.
11 results. Most of the names were guys, except for two.
There was taylor who was a sports dietician that was private. Then there was Taylor Biscotti.
She was a sports reporter for the Chargers and NFL analyst. She was blonde, pretty the usual nightmare for girls like Sara.
But that didn't prove anything. But then she thought about the conversation she and Bella had in the kitchen.
Everyone has a past, why is he so private?
She didn't Google Justin's personal life. She swore she would never do that. Anyone can do that and make assumptions. Hell people have done that to her.
But now she had to get to the bottom of this.
Going into Google Images she typed in
'Justin Herbert and Taylor Biscotti'
The first photos were interviews they had done together but the caption on one of them caught Sara's eye
Justin Herbert in lowkey relationship with NFL-
Upon clicking the article, she was going to be sick.
Justin Herbert is in lowkey relationship with Taylor Biscotti
The two were spotted out and about the Irvine area after picking her up from the airport.
She took a deep breath, okay maybe this is an old article. She looked at the date.
June 15th 2022.
She searched again and stumbled upon an interview she did with him on Twitter last season. To the normal person it would seem like a normal interview. But she knew Justin, she knew his body language and his facial expressions. In the comments there were some crude ones about them. Remarks about Herbert getting interviewed by his girlfriend.
"You motherfucker" She whispered.
Sara liked to see the best in people she really did. However being an overthinker overruled that.
Maybe he ended it once they started dating. But why the fuck would she send that expensive arrangement? She kept deep diving. She found some blogs that speculated due to their careers it was just a hook-up and nothing serious. But again who the fuck sends a hookup something like that?
Also another thing bothered her.
"Both reps were reached out for comment but no return."
Now if nothing was going on why wouldn't they deny it.
Sara liked to hurt herself so she went back to Taylor's page. Her most recent post about the NFL being back and she was rooting for the Chargers made her angry. Torturing herself further, She looked at the comments.
Gorgeous
Beautiful Taylor
Go Chargers!
Justin is a lucky man!
You still seeing Herb?
She couldn't handle it. She logged out and deleted her search history.
She locked herself in the furthest bathroom and stifled her crying.
Is this why he didn't want to follow her? Why was he so private? Was he protecting her feelings?
What about her feelings? It was at that moment that she came to the Realization that she was falling in love with him.
Maybe she was being overdramatic. Maybe it was just a hookup and they were cordial. They work together and Justin doesn't like awkwardness.
She calmed herself down by coming to that conclusion and splashed cold water on her face. Now was not the time to bring this up. Not with his parents here and him being injured.
She headed back onto the couch. Just as she was about to drift off she felt herself being pulled against something. "What the-"
"Shhh" She felt kisses on her neck and she settled down. "You're supposed to be sleeping." She tried to keep the bite out of her voice.
He didn't seem to notice. "I can't sleep without you. I miss you."
She tried to get out of his arms. But despite his injury, his good side still had more power than him. "Stop fighting me" He growled. He tried a different approach. "You're gonna risk hurting me and we can't have that can we?" He continued kissing down her neck and sucked on the spot that got her going. She held back a moan
He was being so cuddly and clingy. She had to ask "did you take a pain pill?"
She felt him nod. She felt herself nodding off again. She wasn't sure if she was supposed to hear what came out of Justin's mouth
He whispered. "I'm crazy about you."
And in that moment, all was forgotten.
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The rest of the weekend went great. Holly and Mark got to know Sara more. She tried to back off and allow his parents to spend time with him. She kept herself busy on the phone with her publicist trying to go over specifics over next month's darling premiere. Justin and his parents were at the training facility going over his treatment plan before he dropped his parents off at the airport.
"Oh by the way." Her publicist Heidi was an older woman with sharp tendencies. To many people she came off as a bitch. But the truth was she knew the business like the back or her hand and didn't want to see her clients get caught up on the wrong side. "What are you doing in Irvine?"
"Huh?"
"I was scrolling at your tag on Twitter. There was a guy posting a pic of your autograph, saying you refused a picture."
"Oh! Yes I was grocery shopping and I didn't want to get recognized. " hoping that she bought the lie.
"In Irvine?"
"Yes, I'm sort of taking a break, plus one of my friends from college lives there so I was staying with them for a few days."
Heidi didn't seem to think anything of it as she changed the subject. "Also Mr. Styles' team requested that you two take a photo on the carpet together at the premiere."
Sara was confused. "Why would he want that?"
"Beats me, but he is pretty consistent. This could be a big opportunity for you two. Maybe a big reconciliation. An interview where you say you want to work together? This could be big Sara, if rumors start that you two might get back together this will blow up!"
'Except I'm over Harry and don't want to be in the press with his name' She thought to herself. She took a deep breath. "Heidi I don't want to be associated with rumors that aren't true. It would just be a lie, I'm not saying I could never be cordial again. It's just I can't see anything past that."
She heard a sigh of disappointment. "Okay well its something to think about. You two would be the ultimate power couple. The press, your fans would go nuts!"
"Yeah I'm not too sure." She heard the front door open and she was grateful for the distraction. "Hey can you text me? I got to go." Sara hung up before Heidi could respond. She looked over at Justin.
"Parents on plane?" He nodded. He seemed nervous. "What?"
"Can you help me shower?" He took off his cap and ran his hand through his greasy hair.
She laughed. "Why are you so shy? I've seen you naked so many times." He flushed even redder, making her laugh even harder. "Come on, let's go."
She set up a bath for him since she would have to wash his hair and it would be too hard for him to stand up.
She got all of her products out. He had too nice of hair to be using patene. She did a bubble bath and turned on the jacuzzi jets.
Once she stripped Justin she undressed to her underwear. At his raised eyebrow she shrugged. "I don't want my clothes wet."
He slowly lowered himself in the water, groaning at how good it felt, Sara sat up on the ledge on the tub behind them. She guided him to lean his head back. She rinsed his hair before lathering up the shampoo. Making sure she was massaging the scalp as well. "God that feels so good." He moaned which made her smile. She did a couple washes, while rinsing his hair of the suds she remarked. "You have such nice hair."
"It's getting long again. I need to cut it."
"Just a couple inches. A little cleanup." She heard Justin start laughing. "What?"
"You wouldn't like it if I buzzed it off like last time.
She pulled back. "You mean you buzzed off all of it! When?"
"Give me my phone." She got up and handed him the iPhone on the bathroom counter.
After a few minutes of searching he showed her the 2020 photo. She was silent "Babe"
She snapped out of whatever daze she was in and looked at the photo. Immediately she burst out laughing. "You look like a cadet! Fresh out of high school and all!" She said between giggles.
Justin had to defend himself. "Hey! It wasn't that bad!"
"Yes it was!"
"So if I came to your place one day with this cut. You would break up with me."
She pretended to think about it. "I wouldn't say break up. Maybe some space til it grows back. Which lucky for you it does. "
After the condition and some help with body washing :which came with some innuendo) the pair dried off and began to look for a snack. She was about to open up the chips and salsa when she saw Justin throw out the edible arrangement. Bear and all.
"Aren't you going to eat that? The team payed alot of money for that." She couldn't hide the smile that came across her face.
"Naw it's old."
They continued looking around for snacks. Finally Sara had an idea. "Let's go out"
"What. Where?"
"I know a place, trust me it's very private. I know the owner." Justin was hesitant. "Please trust me." She grabbed his hand and she saw him have an internal struggle before he said. "Okay"
After locking up, she led him to her car with tinted windows, the sun was almost down and once they reached their destination. After a quick phone call she began to drive.
As the city lights passed them by, Justin was staring into Sara's profile. She was stunning, and cute when she was focused.
He meant what he said when he said he was crazy about her. Again it had only been a few months but he had never felt so…. Alive. Normally he would be watching game videos. This weekend was about rest and he had done that. The team had told him it was all about pain management going forward and that he should be able to play against the Jags.
He was so lost in his own thoughts that he didn't pay attention to the radio playing or that she was singing beautifully to the song.
"You sing?"
She smiled. "You forget I was a theater kid. I had the lead role in musicals. I was on the drama team in college."
He actually didn't forget. " So you would have hated me in high school."
"You were the star quarterback, you and your teammates would have bullied me."
"I wasn't like that. You watch too many movies with that trope."
Sara was silent for a bit. "I lived it." She said softly.
"Huh?"
"I was bullied alot. My older sisters were all athletic and smart. I was smart, but not athletic and I was constantly compared to them. Even By my own family. I've dealt with it. It still hurts, especially this industry. Sometimes I still feel like I'm in high school when any guy I showed interest in chased after skinny blonde popular girls."
She continued "and that's fine, everyone has a preference, it's just hard when you never were anyone's preference."
"I'm sorry."Justin didn't know what to say. Cause in theory he was one of those she was talking about. He thought back to all the women he was involved with. There was a brunette. But it was mostly blondes he was after. Until Sara came into his life.
"When I told my parents I wanted to pursue the arts they told me it was a waste of time. They paid for all my sisters' degrees, didn't help me with mine. They compared paying for my school to flushing money down the toilet."
"You didn't deserve that." He thought about his and brothers upbringing. His parents were always supportive of everything they did. He couldn't imagine not having that.
"Things got better when I came out here for college. I found myself. I began auditioning for cameos and finally got a couple of commercials, and befriended some nice people. Which wasn't easy, so many people would backstab you for some loose change if they could. Found that out the hard way early on."
"I'm sure your parents are proud."
"They say they are for the cameras. But I know that deep down they think it would be better if I was a lawyer or a doctor. It looks better to their country club friends."
"Well if it's any consolation. I'm very proud of you. Watch some of the commercials I did and you could give me some pointers." They smiled at each other as he grabbed her hand
At last they arrived at their destination and Justin realized they were far out of civilization. The place looked like a run down shack. "Uh what is this place?"
"So this place I discovered accidentally when I was nineteen. I was going through a rough patch with school and just not in a good place mentally. I rode my bike far out, and while riding about a block from here my tire deflated. So I came to Jerry's pub crying my eyes out with no money and he calmed me down, fixed it and gave me a ride home. I would always come up here since then. He's pretty much my second dad."
"It doesn't even look like this place is open."
"It's not busy on Sunday nights, however if I'm coming I'll call and he will clear the place out ahead of time. So it will be just us and him if you don't mind."
She reached her hand out and Justin grabbed it and let her lead the way. She knocked on the door four quick times before it opened. A well toned, middle aged man answered. Immediately drew her in for a major hug. "Thank you so much for doing this on short notice Jerry."
He had a deep voice. "Anything for My favorite girl." He looked at Justin. "And you must be the friend. I'm Jerry, owner here."
Justin returned the handshake. "Justin."
" SareBear here tells me you guys are seeing each other. What do you do for a living son?"
Was this Sara's dad? Was this a set up? "Um yes sir. Um I play Quarterback for the Los Angeles Chargers."
"Isn't it San Diego?" Jerry laughed. "I'm sorry. I don't really keep up with sports like that."
Justin found himself laughing too. "It's fine, I like it that way."
Jerry's place was a small bar, old fashioned dive with a jukebox. He made them drinks. (Wine for Sara, water for Justin since pain meds.)
It felt normal, she felt normal. Like a normal twenty-six year old who was falling in love with someone that could be the one.
Her favorite Taylor swift lyric went through her head.
"And all at once you are the one I have been waiting for."
Maybe this was her moment.
She and Justin talked for a few hours until Jerry joined them. At some point Sara excused herself to use the bathroom.
"I like you Justin, your a good man with a good head on your shoulders"
"That means alot. I always try to be humble."
"You treat her right ya hear? Harry messed her up real bad. She's a good woman who deserves to be loved by a real man."
Wait. Who was Harry?
Justin nodded "Sara told me how you guys met, but can I ask what drew you to her?"
Jerry smiled. "She reminds me of my daughter Kate, she was the same age as Sara, the pride and joy of me and my wife's life. All of our kids, but Kate was our oldest. Outgoing, funny, always wanting to help and be a bright spot in someone's life."
"Here and Sara get along?"sadness crossed the older man's eyes. "Kate committed suicide her senior year of high school."
Justin felt so low. "I'm so sorry"
"Yeah she tended to hide a lot of her emotions til it bubbled over. She was so busy taking care of everyone else that she neglected herself. I blame myself, she was going through so much but always downplayed it. Bullying, was scared of the future. She felt lost. I see so much of Kate in Sara that I worry about her."
"What do you mean?"
Jerry sighed. " She buries her emotions. Sara keeps everything to herself. She doesn't want to burden anyone with her emotions. I've met her parents, nice people but they don't appreciate what an amazing soul she is. Call her immature
, a dreamer. She says it doesn't matter but she tries so hard to impress them, and it seems like it's never good enough. I've told them about Kate. Hasn't affected them."
He took a swig of his drink. "Someone like Sara… she comes around once in a lifetime. She's a special person. I hope you realize that you are one lucky man."
Justin nodded. But before the conversation could continue Sara came back to the booth. "Jerry, I see you got a new jukebox that has Bluetooth connection! Welcome to the new age!"
He rolled his eyes. "Yeah and guess what? I've had it for three months and not one person uses the damn feature."
"Well today is everyone's lucky day. " She hooked up the phone.
" I'm gonna put my phone on shuffle."
The first song was upbeat . Sara began swaying and singing the song. Jerry smiled and went to take his glass to the back of the bar. Justin thought about his words
'She's a special girl'
A few more songs played, he found himself singing along to the ones he knew.
They called it a night with promises to come back.
Sara was on a high as she drove them back. The 1975's falling for you came on and it was the song to set the mood perfectly
'On this night, in this light
I think I'm falling, I'm falling for you.
Once they arrived back at 1 in the morning She helped Justin get ready for bed. After a bit of back and forth about her sleeping arrangements ( she gave into sharing his bed with him) she headed into the kitchen to grab a glass of water.
As she was shutting off the lights. Sara noticed his phone on the kitchen counter. She went and grabbed it when it started to light up and vibrate in her hand.
Suddenly she was brought back to the harsh reality when she looked at the screen to figure out who would be calling him at this hour.
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˚ · • . ° . rp partner(s) wanted ! ˚ · • . ° .
my name is mallory (or lory), i’m twenty-one years old and i’m looking for people to write with !
below the cut you’ll find some ‘requirements’ as well as some of the fandoms and tropes i’m into.
i’d love a partner(s) that wants to talk outside of rp as well because i love headcanons, sharing pinterest boards, playlists, and just general gushing over our characters/plots.
i do write both males & females, but i have more experience writing males. for ocs and canon characters with no established actors, i like to use faceclaims (just for establishing looks and (again) gushing over them). can be canon or ocs. that being said, i also love oc x oc pairings in an established universe (i.e. harry potter, shadowhunters, teen wolf, GOT and many more! just ask and i’ll let you know!).
i do like darker themes. limits can be discussed later (some basic ones are pedophilia, beastiality, rape). i’m down to write angst, fluff, smut.. pretty much whatever.
i also love fandom crossovers ! my personal favourites at the moment are wednesday x shadowhunters, wednesday x teen wolf, shadowhunters x teen wolf and shadowhunters x harry potter.
some basic rules
must be 18+. i don’t feel comfortable rping with minors, sorry!
i rp exclusively on discord.
i write between 1-2 full length discord messages. could be more depending on the content/inspiration.
i write in third-person and past tense.
fandoms i’m into
harry potter/marauders/fantastic beasts triology
bbc merlin
teen wolf
the maze runner
shadowhunters (the show)
wednesday
shadow and bone (the show)
game of thrones
the walking dead (i’m only on s2 rn)
ships i’m into
draco x hermione (hp)
draco x harry (hp)
sirius x remus (marauders)
regulus x james (marauders)
grindelwald x dumbledore
merlin x arthur (merlin)
merlin x gwaine (merlin)
merlin x gwaine x arthur love triangle (merlin)
merlin x lancelot (merlin)
jace x alec (shadowhunters)
simon x raphael (shadowhunters)
stiles x derek (tw)
scott x isaac (tw)
stiles x isaac (tw)
scott x allison (tw)
thomas x newt (tmr)
gally x newt (tmr)
thomas x gally x newt love triangle (tmr)
kaz x inez (shadow and bone)
kaz x m!oc (shadow and bone)
wednesday x xavier (wednesday)
stiles x alec (crossover)
& a wide variety of crossover pairings !
tropes i’m into
enemies to lovers
childhood friends to lovers
sunshine x grumpy
forced proximity
forbidden love
unrequited love
hurt / comfort
angst
redemption
‘there is only one bed’
love potion
injury/illness
major character death
slow burn
rescue mission
huddling for warmth
mutual pining
fake dating
love triangle (love love LOVE!!)
you can either message me or like/comment on this and i’ll come to you !
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