Aaah, I had forgotten how fun it's just to edit pictures to your liking. The thrill of seeing how you manage to modify the original picture to your liking just so it's closer to your vision. Because at times just creating something from scratch isn't sought out, not to mention...just like being able to create art from scratch, it takes talent to really manipulate pictures in such a way it looks like 'yeah, it could have originally been like that'.

Or, watch me browsing thousands of pictures to find even one picture reference that would look even closer to the character I just made up for my friend's D&D, just to realize there isn't any and you don't want to draw the character, because it's faster and easier to edit an existing picture to do the job. (Not really. Good editing takes also time.)

From the Arranged Marriage Prompts prompt number 4 with Hashimito take, please?

Enjoy! This sort of...did its own thing and I don’t know how closely it actually adheres to the prompt but I tried.

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The gods are stupid.

It might be a bit childish, but Hashirama isn’t feeling particularly mature at the moment and he is inclined to agree with Tobirama’s assessment of the situation.

The gods are stupid and adults are stupid and wars are stupider.

He sits on the grass with a thump, not caring that it will stain his robes. It will hardly be the first set he’s ruined by “rolling around in the dirt”. (It is patently unfair that they are putting all this stuff onto him because of what he is, but don’t like it when he is that.)

(Except when he’s hurting people with it. Which is even worse.)

Its stupid that they are making him get married to the princess from the sea just because the oracle Butsuma consulted decreed that the union of the forest and the whirlpools ending the war of the wildfires once and for all. And Hashirama can get behind the war ending bit, though if he has his way it will end a lot differently than his father wants. But this marriage isn’t about this, not really.

It’s about his father trying to turn him and this girl into some kind of weapon against Fate itself. He honestly wouldn’t even mind so much if he was to be married to seal a trade agreement or something like that, that happens all the time. But this...it feels wrong. The trees groan and the earth rumbles in his very bones that forcing Fate like this is unnatural.

“Are you hiding out here too?”

Hashirama startles and scrambles to his feet, still awkward and unsteady after his most recent growth spurt. The girl is immediately recognizable as his new betrothed, between the richness of her clothes and ornaments and the distinctive red hair of her house. She walks right up to him, her steps dainty and proper, and gives a small bow. “I am sorry to bother you.”

“Oh, no. No.” Hashirama stutters, giving several rather frantic bows in response. “It is no bother, Princess Mito, I was simply startled.”

She looks him up and down and Hashirama, for the first time in his life, feels a little self-conscious about the grass stains on his clothes. His wife-to-be is just a little bit scary for such a small person. It’s like if Tobirama or Touka was short. The Princess huffs a short, sharp, un-princessly snort and grabs the front of Hashirama’s collar. “We need to talk.”

Hashirama lets her lead him over to the closest garden bench. Once they are sitting, the difference in height is less noticeable, though it is still undeniably their. But it means she doesn’t have to stare straight up to talk to her, which makes everything less awkward. Hashirama still has to lean down a bit as she begins to speak in an undertone. (He doesn’t know how to tell her that no one will disturb them. That Tobirama is sitting in a tree at the entrance to the garden and will not let anyone enter, not without warning them.)

“You and I both know that this is a bad idea.”  Mito says abruptly, displaying none of the gentle diplomacy she is so famed for, even so young. “Anytime men try to manipulate the Gods and Fates into favoring them it ends tragically.”

Hashirama nods.

Mito’s eyes are sharp and glittering. “We are going to be the most pious household in the country.” She informs him. “Every ceremony and rite shall be held to the very letter. Followed in spirit and in law. We will do everything we can to ensure that whatever misfortune is coming does not land on us.”

“But rather on our fathers, who arranged this.” Hashirama finishes and Mito smiles.

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4. I am trying to learn how to play the kalimba these past few days.

5. I am so talkative in the internet yet I can carry a conversation for more than five minutes in real life.

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I'm extremely excited about my newest watercolor artwork, which I'll probably upload online somewhere next week!

It recently hit me that I dislike it when someone compares my character to an already existing other character, especially if I have drawn fanart. I'm not sure about other artists, but I didn't feel at all flattered when I had drawn this fanart of X character and then someone replied to my artwork 'oh, how cool, your art style reminds me of FMA'. An innocent statement and somewhat flattering, right? Well, when I asked further 'how', they replied 'because your fanart of X-character reminds me of FMA's Y-character'.

And that's the thing I realized I disliked because of this fear I've. I can honestly write I fear experiencing any artistic choices or styles that would deviate too much from the original creator's style because I am scared if someone sees my fanart, they won't be able to tell if it's supposed to be that character that I meant them to be.

Hence, when I see some fan artists drawing fanart in their unique style, I can't help but wonder how they do it. How can they draw in this unique manner that barely resembles the original one, yet you can still say in confidence 'oh, it's that character from Z-series, how neat!' Just how?

Hence, I avoid deviating too much from the original creator's style. Even though at times I want to. At times...I just want to experience different styles, but I feel like if I did... people would look at my artwork and not be able to tell it's that character. Because it would differ too much to be able to tell it's that character...

I feel like that Picard meme when I'm trying to desperate write Star Wars Rebel's fanfic to my friend and my knowledge of Star Wars as a whole topic is based on that one series (and not even all seasons!) and some very shaky memories of the movies.

Like, I've so many questions related to the fact, how things are addressed in Star Wars.

Like, what are droid's wrench-like hands called? Are those just hands?

Do imperial troops shoot lasers? Bullets? Like whut?

Also, those white stormtroopers...does the rebels call them stormtroopers or bucket heads?

Hows do the Force work apart from the fact Jedis and Padawans can use light sabers and make things float?

Is there cussing in Star Wars? I want to Zeb have potty mouth.

What are the ships called? Like, imperial ships? Enemy ships? How I should refer to those from the rebels' point of view?

And all the other little details keep coming to my mind, even though I'm pretty sure my friend won't mind as long as I'll make enough 'kaboom' and 'boom' scenes. Or, they'll laugh their butt off for all the 'mistakes' I make or be super impressed I could actually write a Star Wars fic, despite the fact my knowledge of it is very...very...bad.

But hey. It's fiction! So, I get to make my own rules!

(Not really, because I'll dread all the 'mistakes' I might make, even though I'm sure they won't notice those.)

Haha, I forgot how fun writing fanfiction can be, but at the same time stressing.

Watch me writing A + Star Wars fanfiction, while circling around all the little details masterfully~.

I just remembered a few days ago that Yamamoto x kinda reader fic that I wrote last year or so, that I never published. Now I kinda want to post it, but I still remember how the person who betaed it to me, all but called it garbage, because reader-san wasn't at all likable in their mind, so ditto. I'm again unsure if I should grace the fanfiction world with my bad writing or not... (Or, should I just go full anon in AO3 and publish it.)

BLEACH: Thousand-year Blood War ep 2 review

(This includes some slight Bleach: TYBW manga arc spoilers)

Let me get one thing right off my chest: the fact they expanded just slightly certain scenes, like the sorrow of Sasakibe's death and the casualties in First Division, the invasion of Hueco Mundo, and Yhwach's getting his report from the arrancars was a good pull from the anime's makers.

In the manga, I couldn't really feel these things which I find actually very important when setting up a mood. In the manga, it felt more like Kubo stated this is like this and that is like that. But now...oh man. I really loved how the second episode set up things.

The fact that Sasakibe and a bunch of First Division members got killed felt like the shinigami are actually facing a big crisis and not just something that could be easily brushed under a carpet. Even the Karakura gang could feel the heaviness of it all, even though that all didn't directly concern them. While it did, it only felt like it hit home when Nel showed up. This brings me to another point: I just loved the whole Yhwach vs. Harribel and arrancar conflict was actually shown as in the manga we just see Harribel being chained up and...that's it. But now as a viewer, I could get Nel's sorrow and arrancars despair. Plus, I just loved how Harribel was crushed against that stone wall and knew she wouldn't be able to make it and Nel and her company would die, but like a good Queen, she told them to run away while she still faced OP Yhwach. And yes, the fact we're seeing this early Yhwach IS indeed OP is a big thing. It makes the threat feel all the bigger and more dangerous.

Plus, the scene where he just gets the reports from the arrancar, and after their usefulness has been used? The fact he kills them on-screen was perfect. The despair within the arrancars, Yhwach being all 'this is for the sake of the peace' is coloring him nicely as a lunatic villain who is a bit deeper than your average anime villain. (Somehow, when he was talking to Jugram about the arrancars and why their death didn't really matter, I couldn't help but chuckle when I saw those two quincies mopping the floor from blood. I don't know, it felt like a very natural thing, which implies Yhwach has made them mop the floor more than a few times...)

Though, I couldn't help but wonder if the anime will show that glimpse of Sasakibe's and Yamamoto's past? I suppose it's alright if they show it in the next episode, but delaying it any further (unless we see it when Yamamoto dies) could cause pacing issues. Also, I'm still wondering if Tres Bestias were on a picnic or where when Harribel faced Yhwach or what? Like seriously, where were they? Anyway, it was still amazing to see them fighting against Quilge Opie, just like seeing Loly and Menoly fighting against him too. The whole prisoner scene with arrancars and Quilge Opie craziness/not caring about arrancar prisoners? Ah, it was perfect. Really made me as a viewer dislike the guy as we're supposed to side with the Karakura gang and in this case with arrancars...and yes, just like Urahara pointed out, the irony is strong, but we love it. (It made me lol when Urahara all but admited 'yes, I stalk Kurosaki, so what?') Also, it was nice how naturally the whole blue fire explanation came as it gave even more sense of dread about how deep trouble Hueco Mundo is, not talking about the scattered bodies. (Just showing empty scenes with no bodies, even though there were clear signs of destruction here and there doesn't really give the feeling of 'oh no, we're in BIG trouble!')

I think this time when a new character was introduced (I just love the neon pink aesthetic that all but is used as blood in certain animes yet the anime still uses the actual color red when showing blood) it was smooth and suited the atmosphere. Oh! The garganda had also gotten a nice upgrade. Now it felt like an actual dimensional tunnel and not just a black tunnel underground. I still dig how at the end of the episode there is a manga panel with a 'poem' that is spoken aloud by the character (I think this time it was Quilge Opie? Not sure?) and both the opening and ending were this time very good. Loved how they used the pink aesthetic in the opening and generally how it felt. It was also a nice touch in the opening, how they showed us, the viewers, some upcoming fights in it. But the ending this time? Seeing all those Zanpakutos lying on the ground like broken toys? And at the very end Ichigo's Zanpakuto on top of the dead bodies of several shinigami? Anyone who has read the manga knows the reference hint to that. Also, SennaRin who sang the ending song sang it beautifully and hauntingly! It gave me this feeling of something beautiful yet mysterious. (Even though I know how this all will go down unless the anime makes some sort of drastic changes to Kubo's plot, which I doubt.)

Disappointment

*Sigh.* I just logged in today DA and learned to those who don't log into DA and browse my gallery will see some of my art tagged as mature, despite the fact those aren't mature.

Apparently, my artworks aren't enough 'good' for brand ads, so those get flagged as mature unjustified manner. (The only little good thing is that no administrative actions are being taken against my account.) My disappointment is immeasurable and I wouldn't be surprised if DA would start to one day remove people's artworks just because.

There is also the fact, first and foremost I'm a traditional artist. I've digital copies of my digitally created artworks saved, but some of my traditional artworks? Nope. Some were gifts to other people, so if those get deleted...well, I suppose the internet people won't then ever see those. (In some cases that's a shame, I admit.) So, it's no wonder this upsets me so greatly.

After all, most of my art is still uploaded in DA. I'm slowly crossposting my art to Insta (starting from older ones) and some in here too and Pixiv, but I'm starting to wonder if should I start to mass post even my older (not so good artworks) in here Tumblr and Pixiv.

Some good news concerning my artworks on DA

Alright, it seems contacting the DeviantArt support helped mostly the issue of the majority of my artworks getting blurred/hidden from non-logged members on DeviantArt. (Reference to these posts.) There are still some artworks of mine having been marked as "May contain sensitive content. Log in to view." but it seems the majority is now visible.

This is actually a huge relief as at the end of 2022 I felt extremely desperate, disappointed, and just sad about what came to DA's bot problems (originally it was a bot that caused havoc on DA, hiding people's artworks as it marked those as 'mature'. Talk about failed AI attempt...) and the lack of fixing that bot's errors. After all, DA was the first actual art site where I had posted my art and built my art gallery, so having it crash and burn because of something like that? Not cool.

It took a lot of time, me posting several journals/posts about the issue and even contacting the support, not to mention DA isn't still out of the hot water with me as still few of my artworks are being hidden/blurred from the public, but now the situation is enormously better. Now it doesn't feel anymore like I'm running some sort of huge "sensitive content" (like DA would put it) art gallery on DA, which is a good thing.

I'll still keep in the future eye of my gallery from a visitor's perspective to ensure such an unfortunate event won't ever happen again where most of my artwork will get hidden, just so I can faster contact the support as I feel like contacting them helped most...

Just got my first...

Just got my first hate note concerning my art on DA. The creativity level of it was zero and it was pretty mild from what I've seen other people get. Blocked the user and deleted their note as any sensible person would do. I suppose I'm finally starting to make some rounds in there. Even so...I'll draw whatever I want and if that doesn't align with someone's interest who sees my art, I kindly ask you to move on and allow other people who like my art to see it. We all have different tastes, after all. So, let's try to get along, alright?

I just remembered last year, I made that ByaTomo Valentine's fic. I never posted it, because it got betaed after Valentine's day, but that was fine because I was still hammering some details during Valentine's Day...but that means... this year, I finally will get a chance to share it.

Get ready for the utter chaos of chocolate making! And yes, shikai will be used to make chocolate. And yes, some odd side effects will occur when poor guys (Renji, Ikkaku, Izuru, and Shuuhei) have to taste test (Rangiku's, Rukia's, and Tomoyo's) chocolates.

And Unohana is zero impressed by this all.

And there will be an extra part to this all!

Update concerning my art and Tumblr blog

I'm getting sick and tired of the fact DA is blurring/hiding some of my artwork, because of some ridiculous reason. (Reference to these posts.) It seems they've taken yet another new step by providing this text: "May contain sensitive content. Log in to view." So, if you're a non-DA member, you'll see some of my artworks sporting that text.

What's more, it seems by slamming that text instead of 'mature' or 'unavailable' has now resolved the "issue" as DA has in their help & faqs section 'Known Issues'. For a long time this issue was listed there, but not anymore. So, the issue has been solved. Not really. Some of my artworks are still hidden and I can't figure out why.

What's more, when I looked at why some artworks may be hidden, there was basically a section that if external audiences deem those artworks "don’t align with their interests" those will get hidden.

Excuse me, what? While I can understand real adult themes should be hidden/tagged correctly and somewhat negative emotions (even in that explanation I don't understand why "sadness or other topics associated with negative emotions" can't be shown. Like hello? Those are part of life?) That basically means if the external audiences decide they don't like, say fanart, boom, it gets hidden. Or if they decide 'bunnies don't align with my interest' boom, it gets hidden. I feel like DA is slowly spiraling into children's sites as in 4kids style. Where most ridiculous things get edited (in this case hidden) because someone decided 'nu-huh, I don't like this!'

Well, I'm still trying, despite the fact I'm starting to feel like giving up on DA. I've contacted the staff about this issue and I hope they'll answer to me what's so 'bad' in some of my artworks that those get hidden. Depending on their answer (or the lack of it, since I wouldn't be surprised if they won't answer me or they just tell me 'it's what it's) I might change my main art site.

I've already taken steps on my Tumblr blog to change it more into a personal one. Unfortunately, that means I won't anymore reblog as much as I've before as let's face it: when a person comes to my blog and sees 20-plus posts that are just reblogged, they'll think my blog is just a reblog blog. They won't notice my art. They won't notice my writings. They won't notice any original content I'll make unless it falls into the popular/niche tag.

I know this might sound harsh and some of my followers might be disappointed, but I originally made this blog to interact with people on Tumblr (which, I don't sadly do anymore so often as some people have left Tumblr or things have otherwise changed), post my writings and at times art. But things have changed. I want to show my art without ridiculous restrictions because of someone else.

If I want to post an anime/manga character on the beach with a bikini, I want to. I don't want someone to hide it and make it sound scandalous when it isn't. I want to post pretty drawings of pretty anime/manga characters without someone deciding to hide those because I didn't happen to draw full bodies that would show they're fully dressed up. And there is so much more. I tag very meticulous manner my posts on Tumblr and any other site to ensure people can block those tags if they don't want to see such content. I've played by the rules, but when those rules start to get too ridiculous and like I'm being punished for no reason, I don't see why I should stay on such a site or anymore play by those rules.

Hence, if DA's reply to my inquiry will be a negative one, I think I'll start to be more selective about what to post on that site. I'll still post there, but if it gets hidden the next day, I'll probably just delete the artwork on whisk it on Tumblr and Pixiv and later on to Insta.

I've started to build my Insta as my main art site, but it'll take time.

I've started to post some of my older works here, on Tumblr and Pixiv, but it'll also take time.

This is truly a pity because the way DA has been built is different from any other sites that I'm using at the moment. I just hope my most dread won't become true, but if those will...well, it's what it's. But for my own happiness that should ultimately matter, some changes will happen. I just hope those who follow me on different sites will accept these changed and maybe still follow me. But if they won't follow me, that's their right and decision that I'll honor.

To draw or not to draw that's the problem

To put it lightly, I'm super excited about the upcoming drawing that I'm drawing at the moment. Haven't felt for a while as excited as I'm at the moment. But the worst thing is it comes with a mental package of anxiety. After all, I would just want to draw, draw and draw it, but I'm supposed to do other things too, so my time to actually draw is limited...plus, each time when I feel like this when drawing, I also feel like 'this will become epic if I succeed' which creates anxiety over the fact 'what if I mess up it royally?' Which makes that, while I want to draw, yet at the same time...I unconsciously and consciously avoid drawing it. It's like some sort of paradox.

BLEACH: Thousand-year Blood War ep 3 review

Ukitake looked as fine as ever, Mayuri looked like 'I don't want to be here berated by my boss' and 'once I get out of here, I'll blow some of my subordinates and-...oh yeah, I probably shouldn't do that, because balancing souls...well, I'm sure we can mark a few of them as collateral damage when the actual war break!' in the captains' meeting.

I loved the contrast they played later on when Yamamoto talked with Mayuri. Did you notice Yamamoto had been placed on the side of light while Mayuri was on the side of the dark? Light vs. Darkness. Emotion vs. logic. Contrasts, but everybody should remember...light can blind one from ugly things, while in dark you can't ever be so sure if the path, you're venturing on is the right one or not... Gotta love this kind of thing.

Alright, they went full punkish idol look with Hidetomo Kajomaru (or, at least as much as they could) because I remember in the manga, he was almost a carbon copy of Aizen. I think it's nice there is a contrast between the sleekness and the fact he has some punk accessories. (Because those wristbands and earrings gave me such a vibe.) Though I must admit each time I see someone wearing a dog tag, it's like a big death flag to me. Like RIP, at least they'll recognize your body Kajomaru when you'll die.

Though, even though as a manga reader I know how the whole system works already (what comes to shinigami being balancers and quincies) and I recall that from earlier Bleach anime, I think Kajomaru's explanation about the whole thing was very nice. Shino and Ryūnosuke had a very easy time following what was truly going on, which I think it's important when fighting against your opponent. The lack of information when going against the enemy or even understanding why you fight someone...could be deadly. It was also a nice touch Kajomaru basically told there isn't justice when fighting in the war. It just is, which is true. There isn't anything cool or glorious...it just is. Two sides clashing and...yeah. I think his explanation did drive the point nicely.

I liked how Uryuu stubbornly still searched from the family library (?), despite the fact, Ryuken had told him plainly 'the information you're seeking isn't in there'. But because their son-father relationship is poor...it's poor, lol. Like, Uryuu just searched out of spite after his father's clue. xD Good thing he eventually got it. (Though, it made me think just how many times Uryuu has done things out of spite, just to try and show off to his father.) Though, each time when I see when there is a clear communication cut, I can't help but wonder...why? I mean, yes, it's obvious there is bad blood between them, but wouldn't it hurt to like...maybe talk things through and thus help the other party understand things from their perspective? Because when people don't talk, it'll often lead to more trouble or misunderstandings or something bad or all the things mentioned.

I seriously lolled at the end over the fact Urahara was carrying on his back Dondochakka. xD Goes to show how strong he is, despite the fact he doesn't look like one.

Also, the next episode spells trouble for the shinigami as Sternritters have arrived~. Their arrival looked very cool and poor Kira...

This time the ending was spoken by Toshiro! ...I didn't get why, though. Though, I suppose his ending 'poem' did suit the episode...kind of?

That satisfactory feeling when you've just finished an art piece and it's looking damn fine. ✨