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studiousbotanist · 8 months
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#does a bear blog in the woods#just phantom period stuff fuckingbw my brain chem i think is whats going on this week !#i knew the new tfb would rip emotions outta me but im messed uppppp .#ive been single the longest ive been in a Long Time now ...#theres good and bad . theres so much cooking in my head from these few months#dealint with grief . bad job . good job now#and still working on getting my life and health togethwr#and im really trying to craft and make shit again . its So necessary for your soul and ive been neglecting#tabletop has helped so much and roleplay will too qhen i get into it#in the mean time though . im LONELY !! im in a mood where being by myself is Torrrtureeee . butnive also been overstimmed !#i was very somber earlier cuz i jusf did Not have rhe energy to be up and do shit ..wjich is why i called out#but was just thinking the thing i miss most abt a relationship is always having some1 to hang out w or be around#especially physical side cause i am very physically affectionate !!! and tryin to get back to it .#its been hard cus of well ...trauma and also the pandemic . overthinking . itd help if i cried i think#i coulsve put this all ina read more ..too late now LOL !#i just want to word vomit . been stuck in a bad nasty rude to myself feedback loop abt NOT venting and NEEDING to reach out directly#but good gd its difficult when we are All exhausted . and when i judt Need the vocal speak vs typing#if u read all this mess thank you LOL . ill be okay . ive got to let myself feel this
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soldier-poet-king · 1 month
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today is just. hm HM
still reeling from the political shitshow last night at family dinner with my uncle's alabama republican wife being like 'IM VOTING TRUMP [again]' and then bro1 making shitty arguments about democrats like no i do not like genocide joe either but. yknow. ALSO. NONE OF US SAVE THE WIFE ARE AMERICAN/CAN VOTE IN THIS???
priest from my childhood died this morning. i didnt know him well but he was quiet and kind and just Always Present and im a lil sad
angry about [redacted fandom thing] except it's not even a fan thing i am genuinely personally offended by takes like this because it stems from a wider societal disregard for the dignity of the human person and i WILL fucking die on this hill. isla you're the realest. iykyk
my body?? gone to shit?? hormones?? sadness?? bitch can you decide on a lane and stay in it, they say birth control is often bad for mood disorders but at this point i'd take PREDICTABLY bad on a schedule than just. entirely wild west no rules out here. better yet. just get rid of that shit completely. do not want it. do not need it.
family drama bullshit. father out of town. another (distant) family death. just. so much garbage and everyone is so gd annoying about it and im mean and cranky and do not CARE
STILL SAD AND UPSET FROM LAST NIGHT MELTDOWN sleep did NOT help and this has been happening with increasing regularity
my nonna, as much as i love her, managed to make the sentence 'youve lost weight' an unambiguous negative the same way lots of ppl say 'youve gained weight'. and like. my weight has not changed. i was simply wearing baggy sweatpants and an oversized band tee. and she means well. but also. i simply prefer to Not Think About Being A Body
stressed abt work??? in like. the newness of the job. the added responsibility? i have a major months long project to start and im a little afraid of fucking it up? esp because it's kind of out of my wheelhouse a bit, and yeah it's a learning opportunity but also if i do badly it will be Very Public since it's partially exhibit planning
ive started another really depressing notesaspp list of characters that fit a certain trope and it is. Very Sad. it should not be comforting. it is. oh chronically melancholic despairing folks with a devotion to duty and their usefulness being their only purpose and reason for living. if i cannot be loved and life cannot be kind at least let me be used up for a greater good.
HIP HURTS
i am so tired of hearing about [redacted] i am going from neutral, sometime vaguely positive feelings, to just. i cannot fucking hear about this anymore. who tf cares. i wont be mean about it bc that's petty but oh my it is so tiresome and mediocre
I Must Scream
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roleshirked · 1 year
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To b fair, if a person has dysphoria that doesn't enter remission with therapy how much of a choice it is then to "be trans" (aka transition)vs do nothing?? idk i go back and forth on this bc yeah for several the trans id is like a cool club entry or a bandage for being ashamed of being gnc ("i'm not an ugly weird woman i'm a man / i'm not some embarrassing sissy perv im a normal woman like any other) but at the end of the day GD is a medical condition that might not be flexible to treatment
despite my post (i'm assuming this is from the greentext reblog) my thoughts mirror yours a lot anon, and it's something i find myself going back and forth on too. especially considering i have a handful of friends who are fully transitioned/"stealth" and don't give two shits for the whole ID part of it.
but i think my bottom line is that "being trans" should never be a game of identity, and in the event someone feels they have absolutely no recourse but to "transition" in order to alleviate symptoms of dysphoria, it should probably be treated with all the same levity as someone with cancer or severe psychosis. they need a team of experts to examine and help guide treatment options that are specific to their use case, as treatment can often be extremely taxing on the body, and may or may not wind up enfeebling someone beyond the state they initially entered medical care. in an ideal world treatment for sex dysphoria wasn't transition - in an ideal world, we'd have stronger therapy and psychoanalysis, and we'd be able to treat it in a way that is less invasive and more appropriate.
even having said this, at the end of the day, sex dysphoria is a mental illness. why are we treating the body to alleviate mental symptoms? we don't allow people with anorexia nervosa to tighten their gut. we don't practice lobotomies on people with depression (not anymore, anyway...) we don't cut off the arms and legs of people with phantom limb. nor do we look to the paranoid schizophrenics and indulge their delusions. because none of these things help the people in question beyond assuaging short-term feelings of distress - and going a step further, these short-term bandaids can often have long-term repercussions.
severity of sex dysphoria can be impacted by environmental factors too, and often shares co-morbidities with other disorders, namely EDs and mood disorders. for these reasons alone i feel it should never be treated in a vacuum
i'm also deliberately using sex dysphoria vs saying "gender" dysphoria even though i think the latter is what is (or was?) in the DSM5 because with how contentious the idea and concept of "gender" even is, pivoting the viewpoint of the disorder to something as concrete as sex makes much more sense when it comes to discussion i think.
sorry i rambled. tl;dr i agree with you at a first glance but i also think there's more just beneath the surface, and ultimately i really just wish we had better (and less biased...) research into it all, so we could generate better, more holistic resources & help & treatments & therapy that can actually treat the cause, not the symptoms. people deserve not just to be happy but to be healthy, too.
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chaos-coming · 2 years
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i want to live somewhere warm!! I want sunshine!!! I want food that has flavor!! I want to fucking scream!!!
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gazelessmenagerie · 2 years
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(...the masculine urge to make a HZD verse for broly.....)
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haahka · 5 years
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real talk its 2019 how did i never hear 맙소사 before 
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moved-19871997 · 3 years
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whatever you feel like, I'm just in a mood for some brainrot yknow
my own works (zephryus on ao3) are like 70% dnf fluff, 3 dsmp dnf + one sole georgebur fic + also just all of my bookmarks but here are some of my absolute, read a million times over, favourites
ok so this got very very long all of them are dnf and i think sfw (im sorry if they're not tho!!) but they're all immensely good if u read them make sure to comment + kudo !!
anything (want you to have it) by squigly
14k, dream and george’s kids get into fights a lot. dream has a small sexuality crisis. sapnap is a good bro
the idiot’s route to confessing a crush by crimsvn
8.1k, hs au, dream asks george for help in french to get closer to him. dream’s first language is french
only angel by hendollana
2.7k, dream and george and nicknames. it is immensely cute. also actually just all of their works are bangers
quality time by princedemeter
1.1k, dream is simp. sapnap makes fun of him. very very very cute
ordinary names by didnt (series, 2 works)
23k total, roommates to lovers, george has commitment issues. it is so well written and it feels so intimate and its such a good work overall
messenger bird by didnt (series, 2 works)
29k total, getting back together (they dated in college, it didnt work out, now they work at the same place), which honestly is one of my favourite tropes (ive only read the second work but its so gd good i am going to read the first in a minute)
all’s well that ends well (to end up with you) by yearningdream
1.2k, slice of life, very very very cute
the things we left unsaid (i’ll say them if you will) by authorialintent
45k, future fic where it’s been 2 years since the dteam broke up and they're back together doing a 50 mil special for dream. its so gd well written dude the description almost made me cry it is very very very very good. it is so fucking good
strawberry blond by hendollana
7.4k, dream and george’s neighbours think they're dating, dream pines a lot. very very very good i have read this a concerning amount of times
i still see it verse by downthedarkpath (series)
46k total, FOOTBALL AU SPORTPEOPLE AU SO FUCKING GOOD, this was the one i was yelling abt before it is so good, jaded/hesitant george my beloved <3 its so good
like constellations by fictionalparadises
4.3k, college/roommates au. dream pines. very very very good
heart and throat, lined with it by fendsandmarshes
1.2k, cuddling, very soft, kinda getting together? peak comfort fic. very very good ++ all of their works tbh
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anyu-blue · 3 years
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I know a big part of it is the sleep deprivation.. again.. but I'm hella depressed.
Like overall I'm.. content? I guess? I have job. = Good. I have place to live. = Good. I have my game(s) I can play anytime I have time/want. = Good. I have appointments to try and get feeling better and keep trying and keep trying when I don't. = Good. I have Kizzy and will probably have him for at least 3 more years, if not longer. = Good. I have contingency plans in place for paying for my surgeries. = Good.
I've got a lot of good right now. And it's not that I'm ungrateful. I am EXTREMELY grateful. Considering my issues I've done extremely well. Even if some of it was on accident.
It's just.. well.. I'm tired, of course. Not sleeping well or much for days on end sucks. Especially because I could have, but people are going to keep living their lives and accidentally waking/keeping me up because they just don't think about my situation 24/7. Or even know it. Or consider it. Because life's too short for that according to, like everyone but me.
I'm sick of course. I've definitely tried the 'I'm doing great/not sick!!' mindset.. and it doesn't work.. cuz stuff HURTS. I don't have the energy to keep pretending either... And I don't think there was really a time I wasn't sick. Not in my whole life.. and It feels impossible to have any hope I'll ever not be physically sick... No matter what or how hard I try. Especially because I'm aging as all people do. Especially being forced to constantly check what I eat because if I don't I can hurt myself/make myself even more sick. Or starve, which hurts me too but is better than the alternatives. Especially being I have to rely on a healthcare system that looks down on what I can afford. Especially because what I can afford is so little. Especially because of our healthcare system being so politically charged people like me with the needs I have (even just replacing bones!!! Hello?! Our STUPID society forgets teeth are BONES and NECESSARY ones at that- but the instant you say teeth people literally don't give two shits, think you're just vain, and 100% brush you off. Even doctors.. and I have cried so hard over this stupid stuff and tried to rally and I'm STILL trying to save my own god damn life. I hate saying that's what I'm doing because I have some of that stupidity in me of thinking vanity... But I'm literally trying to save my forsaken life and be a LOT less miserable, and I feel so hopeless because only the little people who get it actually seem to want to help/be able to push aside that vanity thought and it hurts so badly to ask them to squeeze for me-- thank you if you're reading this and you've reblogged/shared my post. And I cannot thank you enough, and feel I owe you so much if you've donated... Every tiny bit helps. You and I are little people in the sense we don't exactly have $10,000+ to just throw around an have no worries about lol)
I'm.. also lonely? I guess? .. it's probably the best way to describe it. I don't like people all over me. Or really messaging constantly because moods change and People have lives.. but I miss... I want... Stress free interactions. Getting to spend time and go and do things. Not being alone all the time or missing out on everything. Time is meaningless pretty much right now in the sense I've missed all the holidays. 100%. No time spent celebrating or using the time or even seeing people. Im so much a damn adult and yet I still feel like crying whenever my siblings/cousins talk about last halloween because they had so much fun... They spent the day together in matching costumes by themselves at a park. And that's it... I was delirious from sleep deprivation when I saw them for the 5 minutes I did.. and stress because of my ex being the bastard he is to me. And work. So I couldn't join them. And it doesn't bother them in the least. It's such a happy memory for them and I am struggling to let go of the envy. They have so many days they spend together too.. remotely mostly, but they have so much fun. They wake me up alot with their calls.. and get pissed when I'm like hey guys I'm sorry but could you tone it down? I honestly stopped asking lately because they get so pissed and have even been like 'It wasn't me at all!!' even when I can quote what they said back to them and try to find anything and anyone else to blame... My little sister especially is CONSISTENTLY Telling me she has no idea what she even just said so I know it's bullshit it's not her.... And it just hurts. I try so hard. I drug myself to fall asleep almost every single workday now and I hate it. It's not good for you I feel. Says non habit forming but I just. Uck. And I have familiar, soft sound on. And I've shut my cat out. And I've consistently changed my bedding and cleaned and worn masks/covered my eyes, and done everything I can think of to try and make sure I'm going to sleep as long as possible. I don't go to bed and wake up early in the evenings to cook or spend time with them anymore because I'm trying to give myself more sleep. I don't stay up to see my sisters during the day anymore. Because I'm trying to give myself more sleep. I turn everything off (besides what I hope will help with the noise) at noon and try to lay down as soon after noon as I can every day. Anything blue gets covered or turned off. Everything has red light filters too to get rid of the blue.. but I can't seem to get more than a few jagged hours any given day unless it happens to be their early days where they take naps or I end up so exhausted I'm passed out at night when I should be awake so my shifts aren't so hard... So all that adds up to my being alone and lonely as my own damn fault. Because obviously I stopped making the efforts... The thing that hurts most about that is I was the only one making ANY effort at all to include myself in people's lives (still rings true for everyone in my own city at least- family, friends, the works).. and when I HAD to stop and told them why and asked if they'd be willing to meet me sometimes when it was hard for them (even like once a month fully planned out if need be, or spontaneous because I'm NOT picky)... I got yesses. I did. But. Do you think it ever once happened besides the very day we talked about it?
No.
I can and have gone through every single message and note I have (my memory isn't what it was after I got as sick as I did last fall so I try to keep track of everything instead of relying on my memory anymore)... The only person who even slightly tried was only doing so because he wanted every gd opportunity to beg me to sleep with him (pretty much- he wasn't subtle).. and I had to cut him out because he's not a good person in his own right, sadly. Which left me entirely alone in many ways. Which leaves me entirely alone unless I reach out first and sacrifice sleep.
The continuance of this unfortunately has contributed to my depression.. and the fact no one wants to be around cuz I'm a bummer. And the sleep issues have caused irritability I try so hard to control, but at certain stages I just lose my filters and don't want to say stuff or ramble but I also don't want to miss the opportunity with the person (usually one of my sisters) so stuff gets awkward and they don't like being around THAT. And I don't blame them. But I'd do?
Ugh... I know night shift is my fault... And is a major part of the problem... But I work it to avoid People who don't care about me and mine. To keep myself safe. To keep myself from having panic attacks. I'm doing a lot better with them... But I was breaking down so often at or about work it was getting out of hand... With night shift I'm not overwhelmed like that and I don't have to worry do much about my poor mind losing its sharpness as much. I can take my time more or less. And I get paid enough to survive. ....
I'm just depressed and I know it's on me but I wish I had more help than I do..
Wishing is also the problem. Instead of being happy with what I have.
Blargh...
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oharaslair · 3 years
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KSDFGNKJFDSG icr how long you've been following me so you might know this already but god ive seen spvtw 40+ times no exaggeration. solidarity
gd that's a mood every time im sad i rewatch it and i have been doing it ever since i first heard of spvtw so a few years JAJDKDKDKDKDKDDK
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𝕄𝕒𝕥𝕔𝕙 𝕌𝕡♡
hey if its ok cld i have a male matchup request for aot, saiki k and free? also cld i be anon? sorry if this is too long i wasn’t sure what the requirements were :0
appearance - im a 5 6’ girl with dark 4b hair up to my ears and curvy-ish. i have dark brown eyes and very light brown skin.
astrology/personality type - im a sun aries, moon cancer, rising virgo, and venus taurus. im equally fixed and mutable and im 4 fire and 3 water. im a INTP/ENTP and a 5w4 and a ravenclaw. my dominant signs are sagittarius and aquarius.
personality - i’m an ambivert and am a talker and a listener but with one on one conversation i prefer to be the listener. i get along well with people and have a variety of friends. im a spontaneous person and enjoy feeling exhilarated. im very open about myself unless it comes to my private life which im very closed off about and dont tend to open up to people about. i prefer to empathise and help others than to be helped. im very observant and find it easy to pick up on others behaviour, habits, body language, thoughts, emotions etc. and ive been told i give the best compliments because of how oddly specific they are. i value humour, kindness, spontaneity, intelligence, and a pure heart a lot and usually end up liking people with one of these qualities. im a very neutral person but if im passionate about something i can be very stubborn about it. i dislike germs and often get paranoid about them.
interests and hobbies - my main activity is athletics which i do about 3 times a week for 6-7 sometimes 9 if i do a competition in the weekend. i love reading books, mangas, watching anime and movies, sleeping, sometimes eating depending on my mood, walking for hours in random never ending fields at random odd hours, studying greek and roman mythology, learning about psychology, philosophy and ethics. i also like listening to music, doing random things and laughing with my friends, just being in the rain with someone, having witty banter, hugging and cuddling ppl.
thank u smm for this have a gd day! :)
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Hello hello~! Of course you may have this match-up~! I do apologize that this took so long to get out, but I do appreciate the patience~! I hope you enjoy this as much as I did with writing it~!
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The swimmer boy for you is Rin~! Though he likes to keep his thoughts to himself, he finds a level of trust in you that he’s comfortable in sharing almost everything with you after becoming good friends. He finds your spontaneous energy to be renewing whenever times get tough for him, and for that he’s thankful to you. 
With your hobbies, whatever they may be Rin will try his best to accompany you to any competition that you’re a part of, and will most definitely take leisure time alone with you be it reading, studying, writing, anything where he can just be in your presence is enough for him.
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Trying hard to move past his life of a delinquent, Aren is most definitely thankful for your observant and understanding attitude. He loves how observant and kind you are and strives to be similar to you in that aspect as he also wants to provide you with the same level of comfort and reliance that you’ve set up for him. 
Whenever he can, Aren will try to partake in any and all physical hobbies that you have. As it’s a way to help him with stress relief, and best know that he’ll be there at the front lines to cheer you on anytime that you’re part of a competition. Though he will admit that he may be impatient when it comes to getting to know you and learning about you, he will continue to force himself to be at least patient and at the utmost understanding towards you.
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Though he may be stubborn and hot-headed at times, Jean is the one for you~. When times are rough and he has no one else to rely on, you appear to him as if a saving grace. Allowing him a chance to speak his mind and venting in most cases whenever no one wants to listen to his ramblings. For that, he is immensely thankful for you and will constantly remind you that he will always be there to lend a listening ear whenever you do need it.
When it comes to any sort of physical activity, he’ll try his damned best to keep up with you, but in all honesty he enjoys the times when he can just spend reading and basking in each other’s presence. 
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theworldsoul · 3 years
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I'm concerned. I'm not expecting any notes on this, but whatever. I hate how this has become a vent blog, but whatever. I need to talk about this.
I was sorta in a good mood today and I was talking about my interests all happy, talking about my fave slipknot member, my fave homestuck trolls, my fave mcr member, my fave animes, like idk I just felt happy.
I was talking cos my mom said she would listen but the whole time I was trying to talk about my interests she kept interjecting with these weird questions and comments and I felt like she didnt care about what I was saying, or like she wasn't listening??? And it was lowkey hurtful because these are... my interests. I'm really into this stuff. Like "hey, I'm gonna talk about things I like."
But the concerning part is the things she interrupted with. Like... it's very insensitive of her to bring up dark shit like that when I'm... happy... talking about my fave bands.... its VERY insensitive. The very mention of these things makes me UPSET but she doesn't seem to care? I need to mentally prepare to talk about these things. Talking about these things makes me feel drained and upset the rest of the day. These things HURT. It's like I was stabbed and I'm slowly pulling the blade out. So to try and talk about it when I'm caught off guard is so fucking insensitive, so fucking mean and HURTFUL. Okay? I found that hurtful. Obviously she doesnt know what shes talking about really, like the way she speaks I can TELL she doesnt know what shes talking about, but idk, it still hurts. Even if that wasnt her intention.
She kept being like "how are you feeling... inside? How are you feeling about your body? Are you still trans? Was it a phase? Are you depressed? Are you okay? I want you to see a psychologist" With this Concerend Voice and this Worried Face And like... woah okay way to barrage me with deep shit the moment I sit down to relax and be happy. I wasnt ready for these sorts of questions so I got scared.
My mom doesnt get like this unless she notices I've hurt soemone or myself. My parents dont start to care until someone's been physically hurt. I ask her why shes being so weird. She responds with "I've seen something I shouldn't have."
THATS SO FUCKING CONCERNING. WHAT DID SHE SEE? my bloody band aids and shit are still there, my knife is still there, nothings been touched in my room. Where my shorts too short today? Was my thigh visible? Did she see my breakdown on the sidewalk?
I never got to know the details of what she had seen and how, because she started saying shit like "u better not be cutting omg I'm gonna tell ur dad :) if you wont tell me :)" and she was acting all upset but like... DOES SHE REALIZE THE HARM SHES DOING? if she tells my dad he will be angry. Bye bye phone, bye bye video games, music, art, bye bye anything I ever loved, hello intense therapy that I'm just gonna lie my way through anyway.
So like, all these questions about "are you cutting urself? Show me. You better not be." Made me fucking SCARED. I'm afraid. I feel like a little rabbit running away from a wolf. I said I was tired, wanted to sleep, and I got the hell outta there.
But I'm concerend. Because she KNOWS I relapsed. I might be punished for this. And I dont want to be.
I don't want to see a fucking psychologist either. I'm fucking done with psychologists. Nobody can understand the complexities of my issues like I can. Nobody can understand like I do. Nobody can help me except myself. I've seen a few and... I never really told EVERYTHING. Some things are too personal to tell people. Some things are too serious. Some things will get you in trouble, in deep fucking trouble. Some things I can't discuss with any sort of adult in my life.
I just need to.... pull myself together?
God its painful. I don't think I'll ever get better. I just need to get better at hiding it, keeping it down. Not acting up.
I barely even know what's wrong myself, how is someone who doesnt even know me gonna help. How. Literally I've had them deny anything was wrong with me, I've had them tell me i was a horrible person, I've had them upset at me.... only good therapist I've ever had was the one who diagnosed me with GD. But that's because it was for a diagnosis. In and out. Quick.
Now I need to deal with complex, deep rooted issues and I DONT WANT TO!!!! I dont want to go to fucking therapy and cry and come out feeling like I've been beat up and go in the car pretending I wasnt just crying 2 seconds ago in some office.
All this shit that's resurfacing? I give up. I'm not gonna deal with it. I'm gonna push it right back where it was before in the back of my mind in a locked box. Because that's where it's best kept. It's too MUCH to discuss and work thru. It's too complex... so complex I feel like I cant tell truth from fiction.... too complex to discuss and work thru.
Best to just pretend it never happened.
AND MOVE ON!!! IM SUCH A STUPIF FUCKING PIECE OF SHIT IDIOT. Why am I stuck on old stuff that happened a long time ago. Why. Get over it pussy. Get over it you stupid fucking baby. I'll kill you.
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garbagegrimoire · 3 years
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podcast notes week 1
Here are the notes I had going into the podcast recording for week 1. 
There are some spoilers in here & all of the doodle/synopsis posts have not yet dropped but the episode is recorded & here we gooooo...
Train to Busan
Starting out strong with a zombley deert (to speak in cursed rickyisms).
Giving his kid some yuppie bullshit talk & almost gets them clobbered in traffic, great dad.
Damn that escalated quickly. Why did it take so long for the first lady to turn but the others are like instantaneous?
The shots, effects, & choreography in this movie are crazy!
The grandma has lucid moments before changing which seems more than what the passengers got. & she used them to break hearts.
Ohhh he's a “fund manager,” ofc he's a dick.
Watching a zombie movie during a pandemic hits different.
I like that the bad ass in this movie is a soon to be dad with a dad bod & he's also a boomer who doesn't know how to change his ringtone.
Okay, they’re officially fit daddy & dad bod.
Okay legit tears at dad bod sacrificing himself even though I knew it was coming.
LOL young capitalist bastard fighting old capitalist bastard
This is capitalism & I hate it. OFC the motherfucker willing to screw over everyone else even if he doesn't need to prevails nearly to the end.
We need a zombie killing axe... Oh wait, nevermind, a shoe is good too.
Oh wow, that shit is poignant. The most ruthless capitalist of the group having a mama moment before he changes.
I'm sitting here yelling, get his nards, fit daddy! Do the nuts still have any effect?
Oh shit, fit daddy is infected. Human bites are gross.
This sucks, I hate it. :(
OH FUCK WHY DO THEY MAKE IT WORSE OMG!
& worse.
I didn't want to cry this much, not fair.
Re-Animator
Ooh, my German 101 skills are tingling.
Chaos nerd is everything in this scene. You wondrous ball of absolute cheese.
The security guard saying "Nobody wants in & ain't nobody getting out" is the Chekov's gun of this movie.
Fuckin’ nerd talk. Do either of you even lift? Why don't you duke this out in a tables, ladders, & chairs match?
I don't feel great about that transition between her playfully saying "no" & them full plowing. Greeeeeassy.
I'm with the cat on this one — scratch him!
"The world's last living puritan." LOL, come to eastern Washington tho.
How in the world is this lady's creep radar going off w nerdboy but not with the creepy old man trying to bang her?
They did a few things really well with this cat thing. Because usually I could not DEAL with violence against a pet. First the dead cat doesn't look anywhere near realistic, nonetheless once it's reanimated. Also, there's no like huge emotional connection between the character & the cat because the only experience the viewer has with it prior to it dying is it scratching his back after he's done banging, which I mean, solid choice there kitty.
"Because it's maaaad?" Best line in this mf movie.
I like how quick Halsey turns on nerdboy who he was stoked on like two days later. All because he insulted the creepy old man?
"Here's your meatball!" Writers were A+ obv.
"I know you're all by yourself now." Ew no. Again, she reacts to something other than the creepy old guy trying to bang her. PLEASE REACT, maybe punch him in the face or move to a different state without notifying anyone.
I’m dying, it looks like he's dribbling cherry applesauce out of his mouth.
This is the corniest, dumbest break up scene I've ever watched.
So once they're lobotomized they have like a mind link with the old guy head? Alright...?
Okay so we've arrive. This scene is fucking pure unadulterated cringe & makes me feel like I need to take several showers & drink bleach.
"Get a job & a sideshow." This entire movie is this nerd & that's what I'm here for.
How is there this seemingly endless supply of this green ooze? Also this reminds me of TMNT.
LOL the murderous colon strikes.
I'm very confused on the rules of what stays alive & how. Like the hand is still twitching but the guy in the hallway is dead?
Nothing gore-wise has bothered me so far but the chest compression sound is gross.
This guy is the worst. If he loved her he'd let her die.
Plan 9 From Outer Space
"Future events such as these will affect you in the future." You don’t say, friend.
Hillabilly gravediggers saying "sorta spooky like" is the mood here.
The scream is so good. 
A conspiracy theorist manifesto delivered on a suburban patio made entirely out of wicker.
The walking dead in this movie are so much more chill than the last two, just saying. Like if you're going to kill me, fine, but be chill about it.
"The earth people who can think are so frightened by those who cannot — the dead." Truuuuuuu. Thinking sucks, bro.
The pillow talk is all kinds of weird.
Hey, I know you're worried too, but because you're a child that can't care for herself, make sure you lock the doors because that's something a feeble woman wouldn't remember to do.
"You are on the verge of destroying the entire universe." Ooof this hits different now.
Yeah, it's old timey & corny but there are some seriously artsy scenes in this. I love the glowing trees.
Vampira is aesthetic goals if: I was more feminine, if I gave a fuck, if anyone ever looked at me, lol.
If some big dead dude was coming for you why in the hell would you just stand there or sit there & scream? Like these are the easiest monsters to escape from, you all are so gd slow.
That's it, I'm dressing up as one of these aliens for Halloween. All I need is some black pants, a belt, & a shiny purple shirt.
LOL little green men. Shoot first, ask questions later. Get all the tropes in there buck-o.
I just realized the dude alien is called Eros & I'm laughing. Total heartthrob. "You're always right, Eros." Fucking yuuuck. Miss me with all of this.
Holy trigger happy.
Explode the actual particles of sunlight. LOL, OMG "STRONGER NATION THAN NOW." These fucking nationalist trashbags.
Yes, of course aliens are religious too. & the're sexists. OH MY GOD IM GOING TO THROW THE MONITOR OUT THE WINDOW STAHP!
This was so much. I mean it's the old humans are dumb, violent animals & need to be gently led or annihilated. Okay, that can be true. But the aliens here needed to FOAD too.
Dead Birds
Is Mark Boone Jr in everything & will he die early? (yes)
Very aesthetic theme
Bank manager's whiskers are on point. 
The fuck? Oooh racist, niiiiice. I hate everyone all the time.
Yup this is how bank robbers would behave, wanting to kill of members of the gang to get a bigger share.
Gross, just listening into their friends banging, being creepy.
Is it turning into a bear? (Ohhh, the footprints)
Okay one of these dudes actually has something like a conscience, good to know, still hate him.
54 minutes in & I'm getting real bored.
Good jump scare w the little girl.
Okay the lady in the barn was too much for me. Gore was too much.
"There are worse things than dying" Best line.
Okay first I was like "that's not vomit, it's too white" & then I realized she'd been in bed with her dude earlier & yelled "ew, is she puking cum?" at my computer because that's where my dumpster fire of a brain goes.
Poor horses :(
He just disappeared? TF?
Nah, I’m not feeling this.
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mingi-bubu · 4 years
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Watch “Love O2O” with Me!
Episode 9
HOLY SHIT
Sorry i just read the episode summary
before we get into that
i have my water, i have my ramen, the show is pulled up
as the man who cant get either nct unit (dream and 127) to listen to him when he says quiet down, mark lee would say, lezgeddit
ok we start this episode WAIT THE SUMMARY
I NEED TO TELL YOU THE SUMMARY
“WEIWEI REALIZES SHE IS IN LOVE WITH NAIHE.  guang asks erxi about weiwei’s mood.  NAIHE INVITES WEIWEI TO MEET HIM IN REAL LIFE.”
OK ARE WE ALL SCREAMING TOO??
GOOD.
fuck photo boy.
anyways
we start this episode off with the moment september tells the xiaos what happened
mrs. xiao really looked like she was gonna disagree with her husband just then
not at september really do be falling for nai pulling his leg
not at september blaming kodak for thinking of the game
akldfjasldk his parent walked in on them talking about mrs. nai
HE’LL BE ALT ELAST 40 WHEN HE MARRIES
aslkfjdaslk his dad is sending me
also a;lfkasjdf WE WONT GET A DAUGHTER IN LAW SOON FUKLCFAKL;JDFAIWENFAW
also im dying at the fact that people keep talking about fish head soup
september really did just oh
oh he’s paying for the bill for the hospital
if i do cry it is going to be sucking
september is gonna say that he’s indebted to nai for the rest of his life
BITCH WE ARE CREYING
FUCK
SHUT UP IM ALREAYD CRYIGN ENOUGH
SEPTEMBER TOOK ONE LOOK AT NAI AND SAID GUESS IM RIDE OR DIE FOR HIM
GOD PLEASE IM ALREADY IN TEARS
OF OURSE YOURELIVE IS AS VALUALBE AS HIS MO
oh its beena few days ok
its good that hes able to get this out tho
if hes been holding this in for that long
i like that we’re getting more character development for the #Squad tho
i hope the other two get a chance to have an episode to expand on their characters
i appreciate kodak and mirror fish cheering him up and like comforting him
once again i love the friendships in this show
erxi is gaming while wei2 is just listlessly studyign?
bumptious?
ok
alskdfjas weiwei is gaming and being mean
she lost?
oh wowowowow
she really do have been going thru it bc of naihe
oh wowowow wei2 is bringing up the idea of meeting him
to erxi
but still
erxi is like understanding but not understanding
but why do i feel so panicky this time?
*you in love bitch*
check the game
see if any of the #Squad has said anything to you
ok the way shes overthinking?  mood
shes afraid to log on
and is crying watching the video that they made
inchresting how things occurr
“Oh no...im being sentimental”
“I SEEM TO BE IN LOVE”
ma’am
oh damn nini just told him what’s up
ooohhhh she lay on the guilt hard
oh bitch what the fuck how do you know
DID HE HACK HER COMPUTER???
BITCH THE FUCK
ok lowkey
highkey
lowkey creepy
bud the eye strain
she really do just be watching naihe mcmurder her character huh
alrighty then
yeah you should be in pain sir
you cant just expect to be fine after being in a coma for a few days
aish aint no one in this have any gd sense
good rest sir
maybe put on some socks
her light is so bright how are any of her roommates able to sleep w/o an eyemask
i do not understand
walking thru dead leaves in sandals
baby girl that is NOT the move
UGH THIS GUY AGAIN
god i love that she juast walks away
fanstastic
ooh film class again
THE BRIDGES OF MADISON COUNTY IM SO WEAK
does he really think that a yakult is going to make up for it
god i love her
ma’am just walk like a normal person
man this professOR SIR JUST SAID TO STOP FLIRTING I HATE IT HERE
but poor erxi i feel bad for her
i love her
why did you suddenly find a conscious
incredible
i love that shes sus af
she has every right
I LOVE HER
SHES INCREDIBLE
she thwacked him with her backpack
shes so iconic
your intentions werent good you wanted to use her
in her nightmares im marrying her
she really do be conniving incredible
oh no she didnt realize that he was doing that to see 2 BREAKFASTS I LOVE HER SO MUCH
throw your drink
throw your drink
dont help him hes a creep who cant take no for an answer
oh god
OH GOD EW ERXI HAVE SOME TASTE PLEASE
oh god erxi have some confidence T.T
YOU ARENT TALKING TO HER YOU CREEPY CREEP CREEP
i swear to god if they get married in game im going to shut my computer off
ok thank god they just went to a field with lightning bugs instead
ew
this is excessive
i hate it here
fireworks too?
seriously im sick of this shit
also without the editing this mustve been such a funny thing to film
stop that
stop walking no
oh dear
hes picturing him and weiwei
as if
gross
erxi seems to be having fun tho so
noakdfj;aewkj
why are you so romantic all fo the sudden im so weak
listen
im going to kill a man
disguestojg
he really did propose
ma’am its an in game marriage under false pretenses on his end
weiwei really do just be in the library watching the video over and over
yes do log in
oh my god
sack up girlie
wait no studying for your exams is better actually
i support this more
ooohhh who plays violin?
oh shit she just got a BIG call
MARRIAGE BY ABDUCTION FEATURE INTO THE GAME
SELLING THE RIGHTS TO THE VIDEO
OH MY GOD
now she has to log on
sidenote i highkey want erxi’s shirt
she’s herself again
literally sisi i am in love with you
your outfit is so pretty
ooohhhh naihe is back O.O
september sweeiteie
woke up after a day
damn shes pissed now
it stems fromm worry yes but still
OH MY GOD LIKE A NAGGING GIRLFRIEDN I LOVE HIER
uhhhh
well
you see
bitchhhhh
stop this is so
im gonna cry again
say youre not mad if youre not
bitch he really
YOU KNOW NO THE FUCK YOU DNT
HOOOOOO BOY
FUCKGIN
MEET IN PERSON
HOLY SHIT
OH MY GOD
OH MY GOD
OH AGLIJDFPOIAWEHRP98TGWQHEARSFOI;K
HE GAVE HER HIS CELL POHONE NOUAIJAIEOHA
I AM SCREECHING HOLY SHIT
oh thats fucking RIGHT
her phone was stolen
damnit
i really do be forgetting things
he’ll pick her up
bitch the romance of it all
uni east gate at noon
uni
east gate at 11:35 yaaaasss bith
she really did just yeet herself out of that situation increciley
iS SHE GOING
OMG SHE REALLY DO BE GOING SHOPPIGN WIH AL;DJFAWEOIFN
I LOWKEY LOVE THIS
OH DAMN
THAT DRESS IS CUTE
NAI IS GONNA FUCKING DIE
MY BOY IS GOING TO GO INTO INSTANT CARDIAC ARREST
ME TOO
OK OK OKOK
i cannot wait to watch the next episode hhhh
but it’s almost 5 am rn so thats a #nogo
anyways
i’ll see you guys soon!
thank you for reading!!!
stay safe and stay healthy <333
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maastrash · 5 years
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LOL MY FRIEND IS READING TOG NOW
Oh bitch you already know
Send a pronunciation guide pls
I got my fuzzy blanket and my tea. Shit is about to go down
The maps :,)
*reads the first sentence* "after a year of slavery in the salt mines of Endovier, Celaena Sardothien was accustomed to being escorted everywhere in shackles and at sword-point". Bitch where’s my fucking pronunciation guide.
A BITCH IS ALREADY STRUGGLING
I already love this
She's a smart cunning bitch and she knows it
She’s literally a whole ass mood
"As if she'd lose her bearings that easily"
Pfh bitch try me is basically what she's saying and I fucking love every bit of it omfg 
Do you really pronounce his name KALE bc I picture nasty greens now 
BITCH I'VE LOOKED AT THE GUIDE THREE TIMES ALREADY AND I'M ON PAGE 2
Oh cauldron save me
Chaol is a whole ass prick and I dont quite know how I feel about it yet 
Do ppl call her cel bc celaena is so long
But also she gives zero fucks and is so out there damn well knowing she is a whole ass slave and I love it
Shes asking this manz all sorts of questions and gives zero fuckssss
I'm excited
Also the kings dogs love celaena????
Soxubqkziwbakwma
LW RN I SHIP DORELAENA BC HE LOWKEY WICKED
Ahem Dorian is a man whore
HE LITRALLY WINKS AT ALL THE WOMEN AND LOOKS THEM UP AND DOWN
MAN. WHORE.
And chaol is the new fav bc at least he has substance
WHEEZE DORIAN IS AN ILLEGITIMATE CHILD DEAD 
Oh bitch Hes definitely not the kings son
The king outwardly hates his asssss
OMG DEAD
What a boof ass king
I love this lil set up here
OWNXKZIQBDKXOQNWMQ
Omg Dorian just got back handed bitch slapped by his "dad" I'm pissing
Fr tho celaena needs to beat his ass already gd
HE WAS LIKE oh ya chaol warned me to watch my tongue during this meeting but OH WELL 
OMFG DORIAN AND CELAENA BOTH LOVE TO READ 
HE GAVE HER BOOK SUGGESTINS AND SAID THEY HAVE TO TALK ABOUT THEM
Omfg I CANNOT 
SARAH J MAAS RLY DID THAT TO US
Omfg chaol is everything
AWWWWWWWW HE WAS LIKE SO NICE IM CRYING
Bc she was LK having a panic attack and he was like you're ok
What a nice manz
Gurl I can already tell this is gonna be a whole ass whirlwind
This bitch. (kaltain)
Celaena is funny as hell
Her pun got me dead
I PEEEEED celaena literally threw a flower pot at her 
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAH
I. AM. PISSING. MY. SELF.
SHE IS AN ACTUAL QUEEEEEEN
I cant they both love reading I dont know which ship to sail
Fr tho I'm kinda dying at the moment
SJM is rly out here toying with us and she knows it
Girl I'm on page 121 Its fucking fire 
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pigstepmp3-moved · 5 years
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any buck x eddie fic recs? :D
i mean. i love every single buddie fic ive ever read and i cant be asked to just Choose Some, so instead im gonna give you all of my fav buddie fic writers + my Number One Fav fic of theirs ok? ok
@lovelessmotel aka the savior of my life holy SHIT. i love every single thing emily writes, ok? shes so gd talented that its not even fair. and i think we all know my fav fic of hers: buddie librarian au. if you havent read it yet then youre legally obligated to bc its got Soft buck w glasses and messy, curly hair + disaster eddie. what more could you want out of a fic (AND maddie and chim are married in it, like?? ugh, her mind)
@evaneddie GOD DHYLEN IS FANTASTIC OK. not only are their fics so gd lovely to read, but theyre just so sweet!!!! ok!!!! owner of my heart!!!!! an enby icon!!!! and this is a v hard decision, but i think my fav fic of theirs is good morning, husband. perhaps im soft!
@eliottsevak ARABELLA IS A SAINT SEND FUCKING TWEET. choosing just one of ara’s fics to rec is so difficult bc EVERY THING SHE WRITES IS AMAZING. but i think it’s a tie between got me turning around and when you’re sober. got me turning around bc its buck w the long curly hair which, as we all know, is my favorite thing ever, and when youre sober bc buck being a dumb bastard who accidentally comes out to the love of his life? a mood
@tabbytabbytabby god tabitha is just so goddamn talented. shes got soft af fluff and painful af angst. the Full Spectrum Of Human Emotions or w/e. its so hard to pick just One of her fics bc theyre all such delightful reads, but i think my favorite just might be horrible dates, but better nights. its got buck being an entire goddamn dumbass, so what more could you ever need
@onetrueemotion / @one-eighteen yall thought i wasnt gonna add amanda to this list? puh-lease. our patron saint of buddie HAS to be on the list. i think my fav fic of amandas just might have to be blame it on the [painkillers]. i am nothing if not an entire slut for eddie taking care of buck
@hasan-minhaj aka aanal is really out here with like my number one fave series ever ok. the evan buckley vs verse IS SO GODDAMN GOOD. like, the fluff? the domesticity? the pining?? beautiful. iconic. the power her fics hold? its unbelievable
ok ok i dont know if they have a tumblr, but cargo on ao3? not only are their fics fucking AMAZING, theyre also just like. so gd sweet. theyre really out here with the comments that make me feel soft and warm inside. all of their fics so far are hurt/comfort which is like one of my FAVORITE tropes ever ok. i think my current fav fic of theirs is fix me, mostly bc fics where Buck takes care of Eddie arent very common so i just eat them right tf up when i get them
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