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i-love-def-leppard · 11 months

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my def leppard meet n greet experience 2023 🫶🏻🫶🏻

a/n: this is my personal experience that actually happened to me a few months ago. it sounds crazy but it actually happened. i have never been more grateful for an experience in my life. i love the def leppard boys with my whole heart and manifest that you all get to meet them one day as well. i hope you enjoy my story time and lmk if you all would like to hear a list of my concert highlights from being right in-front of the boys (especially joe) during the concert. i love you all and hope you enjoy my attempt at putting all my thoughts into once place haha!! ❤️❤️

okay everyone! storytime.

SOOO…back in february i did the meet n greet package with def leppard and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. so, as i was waiting in line i was FREAKING out obviously!!!! when it was my sister and i’s turn to go next, they pulled back the curtain and the boys were standing right in front of us on the little platform that they stood on to maintain the 6 foot distance that they are keeping for their meet n greets (sadly because i want to shake their hands but i completely respect their choice). my heart is racing just thinking back on it.

then, i remember walking in and saying hi to all of them but i remember not being able to look away from joe. HIS EYES! they literally drew me in. they are unbelievable to see in person and are unreal. i don’t even have the words to describe it. they are cat-like if that makes any sense. ANNDDDDD he was wearing dark red which sent me over the edge! anywaysss, i walked in and my sister and i said “hi” to all of them and i was able to say a few things to them which are kinda irrelevant for this storytime but all that matters is that I MADE THEM LAUGH!!! i remember hearing sav laugh the loudest…i am so proud of myself. then after i finished briefly talking, i turned around to the camera man so he could take the pictures. i put my arm around my sister as we waited for him to finish and LET ME TELL YOU…it was SOOOO scary standing in-front of them because i knew they were all just standing behind me! the people i have been idolizing for years are just standing there. it is so intimidating but so thrilling!

to continue…the camera man says to us that he got the pictures he wanted which sadly meant it was time for us to leave. as i was walking out from the curtained off room we were in, i made sure to look behind me and walk kind of side ways so i could take them in for as long as possible. now here is where it gets good. as me and my sister were walking out i told them “thank you” and that it was so great to meet them when joe said, “bye ladies i hope you enjoy the show” as he reached out with both hands (in a little wave) and leaned forward to us. THEN…it is at this exact moment when i saw his eyes trail down my body and back up with a smirk on his face. LIKE OMG ITS GETTING HOT IN HERE YALL!!!!!!!!!!

at this point i was absolutely losing my shit and couldn’t even talk. when we left the curtain my sister goes “*my name* DID YOU SEE HOW HE LOOKED AT YOU AT THE END?!” and i said “UM YESSSS WHAT THE ACTUAL F***?!” so yeah. woah.

now guys. it’s been months since this has happened and i am still in the recovery process. like what?! i feel so lucky and grateful to have been able to meet the boys and experience that night. now i have become even more obsessed.

i cannot stress enough how sweet they were and it is so easy to tell that they are all genuinely amazing people. i have so much respect for them.

also i was able to get front and center at the barricade for the concert and joe kept looking at me and at my tits. he would look at me during the songs and i could see his eyes trail down MULTIPLE times. joe hun…you aren’t as sly as you think haha! it’s so weird to type out but it actually happened which is even crazier! and now…i know some of y’all might think i am being de-lulu but I have people to back up these occurrences. anddd my joe hoes already know that he can be a little slutty at times even at his current age. (he has had many slutty eras lol) i mean just listen to him sing pour some sugar on me during the concerts lol 😏😏

also from this, you all should take notes to wear something similar to what i wore if you want joe to notice you. because he clearly enjoyed it. i wore a low cut red cropped corset top with black leather pants and black platform boots. and yes i wore red on purpose because i knew it was joe’s favorite color. i also wore the leather pants because it gave me rockstar gf vibes and also made my butt look good lol. red long acrylic nails too!

alright. okay. wow, that was a lot of words. thanks for reading all of this if you have gotten all the way down here. this is not my usual content but i personally love hearing other people’s experiences so i figured i’d share mine. i appreciate you all!

p.s. i am super tempted to add my picture in here from the meet n greet with me and my sister but i prefer to stay anonymous. i hope you all can understand as much as i would love to show it <3

hugs and kisses to you all from i-love-def-leppard 🫶🏻

#def leppard #joe elliott #rick savage #phil collen #rick allen #vivian campbell #steve clark #defleppardmeetandgreetexperience

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last-ofthe-starks · 1 year

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HOTD Episode 10 Easter eggs and spoilers

alright, aint much I can say that hasn't already been spoiled this week but here we go!

The painted table is SO COOL. To see it up close was amazing. The attention to detail this show and its incredible artisans have displayed is actually unreal. When they light it up from beneath the table I LOST IT. In the books it is about 50′ long so this version is shorter in comparison. In GOT, we see this table in a far different room than this hall, so perhaps this version of the table is destroyed at some point and later remade.

As a book reader, every scene with baby Luke is tugging at my heart strings. His rejection of Driftmark is so sad because even as a child we saw that he was resisting his fate and responsibility. He feels so underprepared to step into his responsibilities, and the moment when he touches Driftmark on the map and says he is ill fit to rule it is foreshadowing to the rest of this episode and Luke’s fate.

The significance of the second son is part of this episode as well, because Luke suffers from the same ill fate that so many second sons in this show fall into. They try so hard to prove their mettle and worth and inevitably it causes the downfall of those around them and themselves.

A minor detail, but Sir Lorent of the Kingsguard looks so much like Harold Westerling its kinda crazy. We don’t know where Harold is at this point in the show, sooo unsure if he has picked a side yet.

Princess Rhaenys is just such a badass in this entire episode. I wish they gave her a bigger arc at the beginning of the season to match with these last two episodes, but the end of her arc this season has been amazing. Eve Best has done a wonderful job giving this character humility and an iron backbone.

Give Emma ALL the awards for her incredible acting and her portrayal of grief. Every scene of hers in this episode is so well done. I was so emotional when the baby came. If anything, this show has made so many efforts to not shy away from the horrible things that can happen during childbirth and all of the many ways that it can go wrong. That scene was incredibly graphic and I am sure some will say they didn’t need to see it, but others will say that it is warranted to show the true nature of those events and the real human experience. It’s another divisive moment that I think many people will argue over. This is Rhaenyra’s first war, and it is just as horrible and bloody as the wars Daemon or any other man fights. The parallel between her battle inside giving birth and Daemon preparing for war with the Greens is a very well done contrast.

Ah Daemon. He is so eager to go kill everyone after hearing of Viersys’ death, and if anything else, this episode is a depiction of how differently both he and Rhaenyra grieve and deal with their anger and sadness. So many moments of this episode will split fans. Whether you are pro Daemon and Rhaenyra or anti, this show has always had multiple scenes which paint them both in less than ideal lights, as a couple and as individuals. At the end of the day, there are no purely good people in this show and this episode surely depicts that Daemon is not black and white. While Rhaenyra is crying out to him in pain, he is trying to strategize. When she is alone and taking care to prepare the body of their lost child, he is alone on the beach mourning. Daemon’s actions meant that despite Rhaenyra crying for him, they both had to mourn alone, and I know so many people who support them will wish that he was with her. BUT, they are two completely different people who handle these moments entirely different. I think this episode was meant to call back on the many reasons why Daemon was never fit to rule and Rhaenyra was the correct choice.

Daemon is trying SO HARD to make immediate moves to protect his family and their house but he is doing so at the deficit of his very family he is trying to protect. While Rhaenyra is still mourning not only her own daughters death but that of her father, Daemon cannot seem to understand why she is not reacting with the same urgency he feels and anger he displays. I think Rhaenyra realizes rather quickly that Daemon believes he is making decisions that the both of them want, but she is far less temperamental than him and he seems to forget that there is a reason she was named heir and not him. I’m his heart of hearts I believe he knows this, but he is blinded by his anger in this episode even more than he usually is.

The presentation of Viserys’ crown to Rhaenyra was so touching. When Daemon takes the crown from Sir Erryk, you can see him looking at the symbol of their house. He has always wanted for their house to rule and to restore themselves to their rightful glory. Based on his expression, though, I think he sees this symbol and immediately thinks of Viersys’ and the fact that he is truly gone. Daemon also believes that placing this crown on her head will allow Rhaenyra to step into her role as Queen and finally begin to make the necessary moves towards protecting their family and avenging Viserys. We learn later on that her inaction is because she is mindful of the greater cause, The Song of Ice and Fire, of which Daemon does not know about. When she realizes that he did not know, Rhaenyra almost smirks at him. I think this might be because she knows that despite his best efforts, Daemon is still hurt by his brother, and that he knew in his heart of hearts that Daemon was never going to be worthy of such a secret. It is a power play that Rhaenyra now has over Daemon after he has been trying to ruthlessly display power over Rhaenyra all episode.

At our first meeting with the Black Council, we hear of the House’s who have sworn loyalty to Rhaenyra. That includes House’s Darklyn (who reside in the Crownlands), House Emmon (they live on Sharp Point in the Crownlands, Lord Bar Emmon was a member of Rhaenyra’s Black Council), House Celtigar (who rule Claw Isle in the Crownlands and who become her master of coin later on in the books), House Staunton (who live in the northern part of Blackwater Bay), and House Massey (from Stonedance in the Crownlands).

Rhaenyra has the most support from the Crownlands and the North, while Aegon II has majority of his support in the West. By sending Luke and Jace to the Stormlands and the Riverland's, Rhaenyra would theoretically have the entire eastern half of the continent as supporters. Pair that with their plan to cut off all import by sea, and she has a strong plan to cut off Kings Landing.

I loved that Rhaenyra included Baela and Rhaena at the table. I really hope next season we actually get to hear them speak and get to know them as characters.

Rhaenyra showing up to meet Otto on her dragon was not only an awesome parallel to the earlier episodes but such a power move. It was so good to see her dragon again after so long.

The page Alicent gives to Rhaenyra is from the book 10,000 Ships, which is about the warrior queen Nymeria (who Arya Stark names her direwolf after). With this paper, it is implied that Alicent is reminding Rhaenyra of Nymeria’s story, where she sacrificed herself in order to let her people live peacefully in Dorne. Alicent wants Rhaenyra to give up her crown in order to avoid bloodshed and hold the people of the realm together.

I am sorry, but if someone basically stole my entire life in a matter of hours, a piece of paper from a book of our past would not undo that. We as viewers know that Alicent hasn't been entirely responsible for the events taking place in episode 9 but at this point Rhaenyra doesn’t know that, and I’d be BULLSHIT if Alicent sent me a measly piece of paper from our childhood after her countless betrayals. She held Rhaenys captive, for god sakes.

Rhaenyra says she does not want to be the Queen of ash and bone, just like Daenerys says she does not want to be the Queen of the ashes (then proceeds to burn Kings Landing down).

I understand both Rhaenrya and Daemon’s perspectives on the situation, but both are wrong about their approach. Daemon too aggressive, Rhaenyra too hesitant. THAT scene where Daemon uses force on her is going to be incredibly divisive as well, because how could Daemon do that when he loves Rhaenyra? But lets be honest, this man has always been a mili-second away from snapping like that. Given the situation they find themselves in this episode, I am not surprised in the slightest that his true colors expressed themselves with Rhaenyra. This is who he is, he is not a good man. He has moments of lightness and many of darkness. He lost his brother to the same people who removed him from Viserys’ side, fed him lies, manipulated his will, and now Daemon is under the impression that they killed Viserys to put Aegon II on the throne in place of his wife. Then to rub more salt in the wound, Rhaenyra is telling him of more secrets kept from him by his brother, and it is obvious that his brothers approval and acceptance meant so much to him throughout his life. To know that in death he could not trust Daemon with a secret this important must be a huge blow to Daemon’s ego. It’s no excuse for his actions, but clearly this just another event that sparks his recklessness and aggression in this moment.

There is also something to be said about Daemon using force and strength in that situation, which is how he wishes to stop the Hightowers. In a twisted way, Daemon may be trying to show Rhaenyra that if you go for the throat, you are effective. If you take your time like she appears to be, you will lose. They are only strong because they have power in their dragons. He sees the ruling of the seven kingdoms solely as a means of power, while Rhaenyra knows that sitting on the thrown has a far greater purpose for not just their family, but for the lives of everyone in Westeros.

Rhaenys and Corlys’ conversation is so wonderful, Rhaenys truly would have been an amazing queen. Corlys arriving at Dragonstone made him look back on his actions and realize that the throne is not important anymore, and then for the first time Rhaenys is the one to say to Corlys ‘no, we need to pick a side and take action here.’ She has been against Rhaenyra for so long, but in the previous two episodes Rhaenyra has shown Rhaenys that she is worthy of the crown she is going to take. She has shown her that she understands how to be a smart and not impulsive ruler, and Rhaenys knows that she needs the support. I love how they made this the way Rhaenys announces her allegiance to her. Corlys is also such an incredible character and I love how they depicted their family in this show.

Corlys says that the Stepstones are now secure and that means Rhaenyra now has the support and control of the narrow sea, a HUGE advantage. He also mentions that they left a Garrison on the Stepstones, which I believe is what Rhaenyra said that they should do back when Daemon was first fighting on the Stepstones back in episode 6.

Jake and Luke are so wonderful, ugh my babies. Knowing what is coming with Luke just breaks my heart during the last scene with Rhaenyra and her sons together. She is such a good mother in this show.

Daemon singing in high Valaryon to a dragon (who I think is Vermithor) was just as satisfactory as I’d hoped. Vermithor fought in the 4th Dornish war so he has war experience and would be a huge asset to the Blacks. This scene was also a call back to the first time that Tyrion went into the darkness of the Dragon Pit with nothing but a torch to unchain Dany’s dragon. Vermithor will have a new dragon rider, but I am unsure if we will see that in season 2 or season 3 given the pace of the first season. Vermithor’s original rider was King Jaeherys.

We see Aemond is already in Storms End on Vaegar and rocking a sapphire in his eye when Luke arrives (the sapphire is also his symbol is during the opening credits). Aemond’s depiction in this show is such a departure from the books and I am unsure if I prefer it or think that the writers are trying far too hard to create a scapegoat for every big event happening in this history. By the end of this episode, you can argue that everything leading up to this war is Aemond’s fault - he picked a fight with Luke during the last episode, which is why Rhaenyra left Kings Landing and was not present for Viserys’ death. Now, he is responsible for the death of Luke, the Queen’s son. Even if he clearly did not mean to kill him and it was not done intentionally, it came at his hand and this is the first blood drawn in the Dance of the Dragons.

The fight in the sky is just so wild and sad, because you know that Arrax was just a scared, inexperienced dragon and that Aemond horsing around on Vaegar would have led to danger but he chose to be irresponsible anyways. These dragons are wild animals, they are not controllable. Viserys did tell Rhaenyra that their control over dragons was nothing but an illusion, that has never been more true than in this episode, and is great foreshadowing for the battles to come with these creatures.

This scene between these two boys deals with an issue so many of these characters struggle with - their pent up anger and frustration that they do not deal with properly. It’s true was Emma and Matt said in early interviews; if they all went to therapy and talked it out then this whole thing might have been avoidable 😂

Daemon and Rhaenyra holding hands is the one time we see them on the same page all episode, and poor Rhaenyra has now lost two children and her father in the span of one episode. It is understandable that she would be ready to murder at this point, despite trying so hard to do the right thing and move forward through this obstacle with grace and responsibility. She doesn't care about the prophecy, she just wants revenge. Book readers know that Daemon goes out to get that revenge in the most brutal way possible soon after the events of this episode, but we will have to wait until next season to see.

And finally, this episode mirrors the first episode with the last shot we see being Rhaenyra, looking directly into the camera. What an ending, what a parallel, and what a win that they cast such amazing actresses to play this character.

#hotd #hotd spoilers #house of the dragon #hotd 1x10 #got #game of thrones #a song of ice and fire #hotd episode 10 #daemon targaryen #daemon x rhaenyra #rhaenyra x daemon #rhaenyra targaryen #hotdedit #asoiaf

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nicoleanell · 10 months

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Sooo The Leftovers... how much am I gonna hurt? Like from 1 to Laura Roslin wouldja say?

Aaaah The Leftovers, one of my favorite TV shows EVER, I'm hardly an objective person on this. :) It's definitely a heavy show exploring themes of grief, loss, nihilism... a realistic human-first approach to an unreal/mysterious catastrophic event. So… YEAH I WANT EVERYBODY TO WATCH THE LEFTOVERS but definitely be aware it's a "make your heart ache" kind of show. It's also very intentionally ambiguous with its 'mysteries' and doesn't answer every question, the biggest plot twists are just character reveals.

That said, the ending? CHEF'S KISS, as opposed to BSG which everyone hated. (I'm mostly a BSG finale defender but I get it.) The Leftovers finale makes me cry happy tears every time, in the end it's a show about love and connection and characters finding a way through what seems like the end of the world.

I tend to warn people that season one is kinda the darkest in tone - there's just this relentlessly bleak mood to it especially in the earliest episodes. (There are also certain S1 storylines that are kinda… bad holdovers from the novel it's based on and they get dropped real fast.) The later seasons get a lot weirder (in a good way) and have some more humorous and hopeful moments.

...I mean, even S1 by the end is very good, but it just gets better from there. S2 is my personal favorite - I love the final (3rd) season too but I think they dropped the ball on some characters who I wish had more to do. (Like was Regina King busy?!?!? Did the showrunner go on to make "Watchmen" as an apology to her?? Lol.)

One more thing since I saw your tags on another post and was gonna mention it to you - Jasmin Savoy Brown does not turn up until S2 and even from then on she's only in a handful of episodes. Without spoilers, she's a pretty important character but has relatively not a lot of screentime.

#the leftovers #just typing this now - JUST NOW - i remembered that i saw JSB in person once. she crashed a Leftovers panel in austin #i think because she lives/lived in the area #i just remember them being like IT'S EVIE and it took me a minute to realize it really was her and not a joke #if only i knewwww

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auzzzilly96 · 1 month

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Could I learn about your B and James interprets lore 🥺🥺🥺

Errrm well tbh I kinda already said most of the stuff abt my interps the last time I was asked but I guess there r a few more things I could talk abt :3

Mk sooo more abt B’s whole being way older than he should be thing n more abt what his life was like b4 he got lost in the backrooms. So pretty much he was born in the year 1950 in America around the Texas-Louisiana border[silly goofy projection we will not see more of that later definitely not]. He was pretty poor for most of his life, especially in childhood, but they made it work. He might have had siblings idk, neither does he [boom vague Reagan reference where is my gold sticker/SILLY] He was very close with his mother bc his father wasn’t around a lot, mostly out working bc the whole living in poverty thingg. He actually learned 2 speak japanese b4 he learned english bc that was his mom’s native language so that’s pretty silly :3. Well everything was well and fine for about the next 20 years but then uh oh! B’s mom becomes terribly ill one day and ends up dying a few months later! [how sad] This event is pretty much the catalyst 4 every bad thing that happens in B’s life 4 the next like 50 years. Cuz a bit b4 this he’d found out how to no clip and did it a few times but he was just so distraught in the moment that he just kinda went 2 the backrooms and just walked around 4 so long until he passed out n when he woke up he couldn’t no clip back soo yeah that’s basically his epic backstory yay. On the lighter side this is something I meant 2 explain A WHILE ago but just kinda forgor abt it so sad ik but uhm this dude n his fuck ass jacket omg. Basically his like overcoat thing is like a backrooms artifact n its pockets r basically like tiny little openings 2 an empty pocket [pun not intended] dimensions that just stores stuff n that’s it. As long as something can fit around the opening it can be put in the pocket. That’s y blud was pulling out whole ass water bottles n flashlights from them in my fic [read my fic btw chapter 4 just came out last month] Also this blud is like ADDICTED 2 Almond Water actually………. Like. this guy can’t go 15 milliseconds without a lil sip. Smh this goofy ass guy😔😔[SILLY]…..

Ok now James’s epic backstory yippie 😁😁💥💥!!!!!!! oke so like I already talked abt his sad backstory where he lost his eyes n stuff but ig I'll talk abt what he was like b4 that :3. So basically growing up she was treated as like a child prodigy. Like. VERY good in school. Skipping a couple grades type beat. With her being so “gifted” n all she wasn’t really ever given a chance to be. like. a normal kid. Everything throughout her life up until the “accident” was always just focused on just “being the best at everything™” bc that was the mentality that was instilled upon them by their parents. And oh boy. The parental issue I gave this mf. Unreal. Someone needs 2 lock me up[JOKE]. Bro’s whole life he was constantly told over n over again “work work work study study study get into a good collage be successful be somebody important” nothing but that for like 15 years. Like bro had no friends until the age of 26. shitz crazy[silly]. So like time goes by n he’s successful in school n college n gets his job as a professional chemist. So fun n good she did what she was suppose 2 yippiiee nothing could go possibly wrong!! But then the whole explody eyes go bye bye thing happens [not as fun]. N so now this is the catalyst 4 their suffering yippie <3 [sarc] N it’s kinda ironic bc the reason he ended up being so careless in that moment was bc his upbringing made him so unreasonably confident in his abilities that he disregarded even the most basic of safety protocol. So anyways bro wakes up in the hospital blind, scared, confused and alone. Is told what happened. Is so mortified that she has a meltdown right then n there [things r not off 2 the best start]. Not just over the life long facial disfigurement but also over the fact that they failed. They failed to be the perfect scientific prodigy they were supposed 2 be. N in the process, didn’t just fall themself but failed everyone who ever believed in them[At least that’s what they thought at the time]. Like bro didn’t even get fired he CHOSE 2 resign bc he was so ashamed of himself n what he’d done. a lot of this built up trauma n self resentment is y she’s so attached B n Hashely bc they were rlly like 1st ppl in her life 2 show her any kind of unconditional support or affection. Bc after the accident when she was at her absolute lowest point her parents like just softcore cut her off. Like. she tried multiple times after the fact 2 try n contact them but nothing ever came back so they just stopped trying after a while :( Also kinda related is that I think their hair is like naturally curly but they straighten it bc it being curly reminds them of the past n they HATE being reminded of the past.

Erm ok kinda ended in a doomer note but erm oh well :33

#srry this took a bit I needed time to yap properly :3 #austin ramblez #dave and bambi popcorn edition #headcanons

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kdramaspace · 11 months

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MEMBER OF THE MONTH ↳ Congrats Eda @venuseda

💌 NOTES FROM THE ADMINS

Layla: eda, edA, EDA!!! where do i begin even with!! you’re a queen of giffing, literally every gifset of yours leaves me in a completely speechless, the coloring the blending the typography everything come together very beautiful, your gifs are absolute MAGIC💯🔥!! and the recent surge of yours run on gifsets is amazing, living through all these moments again through your gifs... and i love when you revive old dramas with your very beautiful sets... you have a very distinctive style i could recognize your gifs very easily... so thank you for feeding our eyes with all of your beautiful gifs and being a part of our community💛💛... wish you the best!! ↳ favorite works: [ 1, 2, 3 ]

Sam: EDA!!! literal QUEEN of color and blending and typography?? How are you a master of BOTH natural colorings and color manipulation? spare some talent for the rest of us. I really love how you continue to put out stuff for older shows, it’s sad how the kdrama fandoms die off after a show finishes ending so it’s refreshing to see content for old time favorites. I can always recognize your typo/color sets you have such a distinctive and wonderful style for those. whenever a drama makes its way onto your watchlist I know my eyes (and everyone’s dashes) are about to be blessed. also: love the run on throwback gifs happening right now, it feels like ages ago when we were all in the run on brain rot and you’ve revived it! thank you for all the content you create and being a part of our kdramaspace family ^^ ↳ favorite works: [ 1, 2, 3 ]

Alexa: oh my goodness eda, watching you get into kdramas has been such a delight! i always love seeing which drama you’ll pick up next because i know anything you create for it will be BEYOND stunning! like your run on gifs? everything to me!!!! i love getting reminded of all of my favorite scenes from slightly older dramas through your content! and oh my god, your coloring and blend abilities are UNREAL. the coloring is always sooo beautiful and vibrant and then blending and text choices just tie everything together perfectly, i live!!! thank you so much for creating such stunning content and for being part of our little network! congrats ↳ favorite works: [ 1, 2, 3 ]

#member of the month #venuseda #usereda

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usermaha · 10 months

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THE MONTH OF TXT

There's lotttsss coming up from txt and im super excited but also. a tad bit worried.

SWEET- 5th July

When I heard this was gonna be a full album i was sooo hyped. Since we have JPN versions of all the Titles now, we could expect at least a handful of original tracks right? No we just got one :/ I have yet to listen to the whole album, and who knows, it might be an enjoyable listen front-to-back, but im still disappointed.

As for the song herself: I wanna talk about it in another post but Hydrangea Love is an easy classic txt homerun. Slower romantic track. Killer vocals. Huening Kai. What more do you need?

Im genuinely confused about how the album dropped. SRR JPN dropped in late June, then Hydrangea Love also dropped before the album was set to release? Why?

Do It Like This- 7th July

here the marketing is confusing me. They announced it as a "comeback", and are clearly treating it as such. Did Jun have to go caramel for a collab track? I dont remember making this much noise for Valley of Lies.

I suppose Jonas Brothers is a much bigger name, but they haven't done anything relevant since their comeback in 2019 either.

Idk the hype around this is very high and it can very easily fall through. It can very easily end up sounding like a pop song from 2015, no txt-ness in sight. Ryan Tedder is the producer i think which puts me even more at edge.

Another thing is the timing. Placing both the JPN album and this Collab so close to each other doesnt seem like a good idea to me. How do we get the time to properly promote both? I thought they were shooting for a proper comeback later in the year (it still might happen, which furthers my point.) The US leg just ended, there is Lolapalooza...

I just think there is too much going on surrounding txt. Its been one thing after another for years at this point. I would rather have them properly rest for a reasonable stretch of time, and have more complete projects, rather than rushing one-song-releases.

Our Lost Summer- 28th July

Again marketing i was like "what is this???🤔" in the comments till a kind moa explained its a tour documentary. From Disney Plus :/

But why Our Lost Summer as the title though? Doesnt that automatically make you think of 2020? We didnt lose that summer we made the best out of it. Shouldn't it have the sentiment of Our Glorious Summer?

To be fair i did want there to be a One Dream Season 2, a full-circle moment. bc One Dream was about their first time taking on the U.S as txt, and after three years its their first world tour. But without Mnet's involvement.

I hope this can be introspective and delve into the persepectives and experiences of each member and kind of like round up their career until now (i basically want a doc about txt as a whole not just that summer). Instead of just "here's some tour footage". Honestly id take that too bc ive been hungry for high-quality tour footage. The whole thing on streaming would be the ideal but. I'll take anything 🤲🤲

Man looking back at it all will be great that moment in time. felt so unreal. Best time of my life? Arguably.

#i hope nobody takes this as overtly negative or hate #im just sharing my honest opinions on what this implicates for their career #i am BEYOND excited for all these projects and im grateful for the content #i know. its txt. they always knock it out of the park. i have nothing to worry about.#im saying all of this bc i care.#dubaddu

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xolborsaysstuff · 2 years

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The library | short little story thing. |

The library was usually a comfort for the battery, but today it felt off.

The building was still its mostly silent self, the rows of different books mostly the same from what they could tell aside from the few books that had been taken out or swapped with another since the last time she was here, and despite how big the place was it was usually quite a cozy place, especially near the back where they were, at a table only she and a few of her friends liked to sit at.

"Hey, you zoning out? Wow, how you ever got a job is beyond me with your spacey personality." The voice of his charger plug cousin, C____, told her in their usual teasing manner beside him as they put their hands down on the table to lean onto it before sliding into a chair opposite him and using their elbows.

"..." ____ stared with a deadpan look, not wanting to suffer through their antics. This was what had felt off, C___ hadn't spoken to her since they had roped ___ into one of their dumb schemes. C____'s smile slowly dropped, and they leaned back in their chair.

"Gee, you're just SOOO ecstatic to see me, and on a day off from work too! I... Thought you'd wanna hang out with me seeing as it's been really long..." C____ looked away. "...What.. Christ, what happened to us? We used to be good friends!"

____ was very aware of where this was headed, he just hoped it wasn't something that bad as guilt won over the logical part of his brain. She sighed, leaning back in her chair as she shut the book she had been reading.

"Alright, C____, we can hang out, what did you want to do? " the feeling of regret almost disappeared at the sight of the bright and excited smile their cousin gave.

"Okay, so I had an idea you might actually be up for this time..."

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The being contemplated the thoughts and memories that didn't count as theirs as they continued on.

Walking through the darkened halls with broken ceiling lights and wallpaper that was once once white and slowly being covered in burns, blood, and other things that would permanently damage this soon to be closed off wing of the facility, the thing that once might have been referred to as an object slowly stepped, as if the actions were foreign to it.

The only light in the area belonging to this strange thing's unreal features created by their new abilities, pure electricity jumped along their face in certain shapes to poorly mimic a face, the electricity also jumping out from where arms would have been, the controlled lightning zapping things carelessly as it writhed and jolted, going from multiple veins of electricity to one at random as it followed the beings commands, on one end of the lightning a rubber glove was somehow attached, and gripping a twisting snake like thing with unnatural strength.

The being stopped, thinking for a moment on their conversation with C____ and that being of power. The supercharged object turned slightly to the still moving thing in her hand, loud and painful static coming from the always moving fake mouth until slowly it began to form words.

"###...#.######... W.....WWW....WANNT...TOOO...MAAKE... A...GAME.. SHOW.WITH ME?"

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End.

@too-many-hyperfixations hey yeah can we make an Ethel tag cause like Battery-O has one so why not Ethel?

Anyways TY for reading this!! Just a lil object OC lore of mine because yes!! Hoped you enjoyed it!!! It was fun to write.

I'm gonna get back to EYE phone AU stuff if I can, have a good one!!!

Xol

P.S: I'm not telling you his full lore yet because yes.

#Battery-O #object ocs #xolmumbles #object show oc #Object show #Battery-O goes by all pronouns #I can't believe for a split second I was scared to admit that this is why homophobes shouldn't be allowed to force religion on kids #That shit fucked me up for life >:(

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galaxygrv · 3 months

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ahh hollow being close to front and influencing my (spyte) own emotions towards things is certainly,, Something. its not like its out of the ordinary for us to bleed over neutral or positive opinions + emotions + etc. but like.. this is more negative stuff (which is a little more uncommon, but not rare). its mainly bcuz they dont like any ship content between them and their sourcemates. this is not good bcuz a good 50% of the fan content we see is ships w either quirrel or grimm (and another 50% of those ships arent fucking tagged w the ship names so theyre almost unavoidable). they Do Not like either of them for almost the same reason. theyre repulsed by most people (irl + in source) and they esp dont like romance. quirrel is okay as a person (boring + annoying but not the worst to sit in silence around), and they just dont feel anything towards him and they feel disgusted when they see the fan content. feelings r the same w grimm, they dont like him (boring + annoying again !!! how wonderful) and think hes off putting in the worst way possible.

anyways im neutral towards the ships on a day theyre not bleeding over to me but the days they are,,, wow. okay. hatred and disgust vibes x500

(this is not to say the ships themselves r gross, its perfectly fine to ship them lol. these r just our hollows feelings abt it)

below the read more is in depth stuff abt their dislike of a lot of people cuz they want to talk abt it but its gnna make the post too long lol. also ⚠️ cw for calling people/relationships unreal in a serious way? idk what to call that so its not tagged but heres the warning ⚠️

our mom is okay in their opinion, shes interesting to them and likes us and doesnt get mad at us that often and almost never argues w us. our father though.. he argues with them all the time. anytime he speaks theres always a problem and hollow does Not have a filter so they end up getting pissed and arguing and then its a whole Thing for a few hours and our dad just starts screaming at a point etc. etc. they also generally dont think hes interesting and theres nothing to benefit from interaction w him. sooo 0/10 for dad, 7.5/10 for mom bcuz she does get after us for our arfid and thats beyond annoying.

also, our friends piss them off regularly. they often feel like snapping at them and getting mad but hold back most of the time cuz they know i would cry my eyes out if we even had a minor disagreement. the only times they dont stay quiet abt it is when i agree w them (typically out of confusion on my part).

they also seem to b the main source of our whole "we are the only real people. everyone else doesnt actually exist. no one has real emotions or lives, we're the only ones who actually exist." thing. so thats a bit telling of one reason why they dont like many people. this happens especially with our brother and most people we see once and never again. they also feel this when they see others in sexual, romantic/romance adjacent, or generally affectionate (?) relationships.

its.. very strange to see others be in love and then only have the thoughts and vibes of "thats not right! why are they doing that? thats disgusting, i cant believe thats something they would do in front of us! what the fuck! that looks/is so unnatural!" etc. etc. its like.. x20 strength when we witness someone we're close to doing it. we've been in relationships before, and the feeling only gets worse as time goes on while we were in the relationship.

it also happens to ANY physical touch. handshakes, fist bumps, hugs, kisses (platonic or not), hair touching, cuddling etc. is all disgusting to them (and whoever is close enough to feel it too)

its. also very difficult to get their approval. i think i understand what "they dont like many people, so dont be surprised if they dont like you" means now. they even have neutral feelings towards the other members of the system, and they only like me moderately enough to talk to me.

so uh. i think its safe to say hollow is our main holder/source of repulsion towards people and any sort of relationships. i was wondering where the feelings would come from because they seemed to come and go at random, but i think i got it now :P

#🌀#🐾#our posts #cw vent #vent cw

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renewingagain · 5 months

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saturday 18 november 2023 // 10:53pm

hello!

been a while as per usual, but oh well. i almost ditched journalling today to just watch some TV (one tree hill) and sleep but i know it is good to do this

many things happening as always - simmy got married ♡ the wedding was fucking exhausting lol but it was so sooo lovely

DFC ARE ON FUCKING TOUR !!!!! we had a glorious week in the south - my heart smiles every time i think about these guys, i am honestly thankful to have them, i really need to be more grateful for having such a wonderful blessing in my life like this. i will be so sad when tour ends, i wish i could do this for the rest of my life. but it has been unreal and everyone seems to be loving it - our shows are doing really well and we have sold out a fair few

i've got fkn gonorrhea again LAKMSDFKSJND fuck sake. i've been treated now and just need to go for my test of clear. so obvs i messaged all the boys i've recently seen, and that includes lewie. unfortunately lewie didnt take it so well in the sense that he didnt want to feel like 'some other guy' i had to tell this - which is completely valid. so he said he doesnt want to see each other anymore which i totally understand - but i really miss him like a lot. i so enjoyed spending time with him, hes adorable and we really got on. i'll get over it but i am sad i wont get to see him again - i definitely had feelings for him of some sort. and he is just so lovely. i wish i could tell him how lovely he is

anyway - moving on! i've been feeling very deflated since coming back from tour and have actually been feeling a little depressed - i still just seem to feel very overwhelmed with life because i just dont know where my life is going AT ALL. i need a plan of action for the next year coming. right now im not too fussed because i've had the busiest year of my life and so much great stuff has happened

plan a) is to just find a job in london ASAP so i can be down there and away from sheffield. i love sheffield but i am done here and tbh i dont want to live in a houseshare anymore - but i wouldnt be able to afford my own flat

i need a proper sit down to really think about it, i want to have moved by march which isnt far at all, if i can find an alright job asap then its cool :)

gonna stop now cus my head feels ugh, but its a plan!

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chronically-ghosted · 8 months

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I love everything Mike does tbh, even the midnight club lmao! (Which so many people disliked??)

But my favourite has to be Haunting Of Hill House. I’ve watched his movies before and I liked them! But his shows are just so top notch, it’s insane.

So Hill House is my absolute favourite and obviously the famous car jumpscare lmao! (I actually don’t scare easily, most jumpscares don’t get me but that one had me violently flinching 😂) I just love the story and the actors and the characters. Who’s your favourite from hill house?? Mine has always been Luke! Idk why but I just adore him…

Also, the iconic the rest is confetti scene? I still cry about it.

But I do also love Bly Manor and Midnight Mass. I love Rahul Kohli so these two also have a special place in my heart!

Tbh, Owen and Hannah in Bly was so much more emotional to me than the main story. I freaking love them and my heart is absolutely broken, still!

And midnight mass is sooo good too! Rahul is phenomenal in it! And that scene with Erin and Riley on the water with the little boat… holy shit.

Also love Kate Siegel and I love that she’s in everything, like power couple!!! (like tell me that’s not Dieter if he were to ever become a director. He would so cast his wife in everything he possibly can lmao)

I just freaking love everything this guy makes and I love so many of the actors and that he uses them in so many other projects too! I’m so excited to see what’s he gonna do with Amazon (also I love that he’s on tumblr always answering asks, so freaking cool!!)

Haunting of Hill House really is in entire league of its own. When I say I like ghost stories, that's exactly what I mean. Themes of grief, and love, and family, and trauma -- all manifested into a literal haunting. Truly unmatched. How Nell literally haunts the narrative the whole time -- she was dead from page one but that ends up mattering more than anything else to save her family. Destroys me every time!!

As for my favorite Crane child, i think my favorites are definitely Nell and Luke -- the twin connection was unreal and how deep it got as more was revealed -- CHILLS! I also see a lot of overlap between Dieter and Luke, so maybe that's why we like him so much!

Growing up in the south, I had some negative experiences with structured religion and Midnight Mass was a wonderful place to explore those feelings in a healthy way. Plus, vampire priest???? GALAXY LEVEL BRAIN. And as a personal point of joy, I love that they styled Rahul after Joel 😆😆

If my wife was Kate Siegal, I would put her in EVERYTHING. She's so talented -- I love that Flanagan uses a handful of actors every time. My personal opinion is that the mark of a good actor is how versatile their characters are and Kate is fantastic at that! Her performance in Hush is one of my top favorite horror movie performances!

With Twitter X going down as a sinking ship and more people search for an alternative, I'm wondering who else is going to show up on here! 😆 It makes me nervous because I definitely wrote some Midnight Mass fic back in the day and my nightmare is that he or anyone from the show finds it! 😅 I very much appreciate a large space between fandoms and the creators of the initial medium.

alskdfjl;akjd Dieter as love-struck director and his wife, there is no doubt in my mind that he would hype her up for every.single.project! what a good hubbie! 💗

#taylor talks #flanaverse

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xaeyrnofnbe · 9 months

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Have you seen astv yet? What was your opinion?

(assuming you mean across the spiderverse) I HAVE SEEN IT!!!!! TWICE ACTUALLY!!!!

i saw it the first time around a week after it first released it theaters with my gf, (second time was with my family but that’s not really relevant to any of this) i went into it feeling sooo cautious and wary cause the first one was so monumental. it was groundbreaking. SURELY the Industry-Defining into the spiderverse was a one-off thing, a lucky fluke, an accident, right? SURELY they couldn’t follow that up with anything other than mediocre!! i was concerned it wouldn’t live up to expectations (so i kept mine incredibly low just in case,) and i was worried about the teased romance between miles and gwen. the visuals, however, would be about equal to the first, so at least there would be that if the story wasn’t good.

it was in the intro with gwen on her drums that i immediately knew they had outdone themselves, and with each new twist and turn and reveal and character my mind was blown just as much as the entirety of itsv. it wasn’t without its flaws, to be sure,but the grandness and spectacle of it all impressed me so much, i loved all the character designs, environment, actually i could go on for SUCH a long time about how ungrounded in reality this film felt in comparison to the first, but like. in a GOOD way. like it was SO cool. dimension and physical space didn’t feel as important as more attention and focus was brought to the characters and story, and i LOVED IT. i was delighted by the heroes and villains, the spot took up such a weird little corner of my brain it’s unreal, miguel was genuinely frightening at times and i mean that as a compliment, and i ended up actually really enjoying what was going on between gwen and miles! it didn’t feel at all forced like i had feared, it felt natural and restrained in a way that was still just as refreshing as the LACK of it in the first movie.

spoilers in case whoever’s reading this hasn’t seen it yet, but when i watched it i was just overall kinda bummed because probably my FAVORITE part of the first movie was the section of plot with uncle aaron/the prowler, the character just left such an impact on me with both the storytelling and THE SOUND DESIGN, aughgifhfj yeah distorted elephants are my favorite sound effect i think. and that character died, yeah? so i was a little sad about him and his cool sounds not being in the sequel, but OHOHO that ending did NOT disappoint, i’m so obsessed with characters and their fates and destinies like. in general. so you can probably imagine how stoked i was to find out that these two miles’s basically swapped stories by accident and there’s potentially Big Consequences for that.

all in all, i guess you could say i liked it. ¦]

#spiderverse #across the spiderverse #atsv #things i said #xaeyrnasks

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biorg · 1 year

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hey! for the end-of-the year book ask: 2 (did you reread anything?), 4 (anything new you liked?) and 6 (something you meant to read, but never did?) :)

Omg hehe, that's unexpected, thank you for giving me an opportunity to speak about books!!

2. Did you reread anything?

I have reread sooo many books because I started the master's program and the literature course basically covers the same books we read in the bachelor program (madness, luv), so I reread a few ancient greek/roman/Western medieval classics. But I also did quite a lot of rereading just for myself. To name a couple, my beloveds Robbers by Friedrich Schiller and Excession by Iain Banks hold up greatly. Also had a blast with my childhood favorite horror "don't read the black notebook" or at least that's how I'd translate the title, since it's only available in Russian (I think)

4 anything new you like

1. Leave the world behind by Rumaan Alam

It's a shame it has tanked so low on goodreads. It's so weird and unsettling and good?? Also, the common critique I saw was that the finale was too open ended, like girl, were we reading the same book? It basically told EVERYTHING that's gonna happen.

2. Notes from Underground by Dostoevsky

My life-long quest to read everything my babygirl put out in the world goes on, and this one hitttttt. He gets it like no one else. Reading dostoevsky always twists me like a pretzel.

3. Callirhoe by Chariton

Surprisingly good for an ancient Greek novel?? I rooted for Callirhoe and her homeboy Chaereas to break up so bad it's unreal. A very fun read!

6. Something you meant to read but never did

I guess I wanted to get to Yanagihara's new novel 🤔 but I never did. Also, I have been reading the Magus by Fowles for months now and I'm still on page 234, still waiting for it to become unputdownable!! Oh, yeah, there is this series by Dyachenkos, Vita nostra trilogy (plus now there is a direct sequel to the first book) and I have been meaning to finish it for years, but I remember coming from the dark and weird academia setting in the first book, to the second one which was.... Not even a companion novel, there was basically no connection at all to the previous story, so I never picked up the third book. Maybe 2023 will be its year, idk!

#This got sooo long hehe I love to ramble about books #Thank yo u again for the ask!!

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eeveegay · 1 year

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Eu postei 174 vezes em 2022

Foram 174 posts a mais do que em 2021!

42 posts criados (24%)

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#while this is my edit the pixel art isnt mine its from one of those old pokedex thingies where theyd show the pokemon in pixels

Meus principais posts em 2022:

i used to be a lot more cynical about what was true here on this website, until my gf told me about the Cole Sprouse Zoroark Incident

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OMG you guys theres 22 of you here now hiiii heres farelos

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today i left for alola

im really, really tired so all you get is these pictures of farelos cheering me up before the big trip

good night

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so tonight my family decided to drop an awful bomb on me, like incredibly life-plan-changing bomb that i can't get out of, i don't think I'm sleeping anytime soon now with this, can't even begin to process it

but to summarize it, they're forcing me to go on the island trials too

fuck

posts might slow down while imm trying to process this torture this madness I'm being put thru arceus he'lpl me FUCK

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Meu post nº 1 de 2022

im curious about something sooo uhh hey pokebloggers that follow me, reblog and tag this post with the first pokemon you had and how old you were when you got it!

and i mean like your pokemon family pokemon dont count xD

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i can't believe 2022 is ending, i dont know if im ready for next year lol

#tumblr2022 #retrospectiva #Minha Retrospectiva 2022 #Sua Retrospectiva 2022 do Tumblr #year in review #my 2022 tumblr year in review #your tumblr year in review #its been fun here tho #gay rambles

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imagine-otome-games · 3 years

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Survivors Guilt [GI Childe]

Pairing: Childe x Fem!Reader [[3RD POV]] [[Heavy use of she/her]]

Warnings: Angst, dark-ish imagery, dark thoughts etc also kinda long since theres barely any dialouge.

!!SPOILERS FOR LIYUE ARCHON QUEST!! [[Vague but if you know you know]]

A/N: working on that diluc but uh this hit me sooo.. I wondered what would have happened if that fight didn’t go so smoothly..

;; a day in which all his debts were paid off with interest;;

“ Pᴀɪɴᴛ ʙʟᴇᴇᴅs, ɪɴᴋ ʀᴜɴs, ɪᴍᴀɢᴇ ᴏғ ʏᴏᴜʀ ʟᴏᴠᴇ..”

It was truly a sight to behold- something like a breathtaking scene in a famous novel. Poets and authors alike would try to replicate it, but it would never be quite the same- not as impactful.

No words could ever truly replicate the way he had screamed upon hearing the news. No painter could even come close to recreating the look in his anguished eyes- the rigid state of his entire body- the immediate stream of tears. However, who would truly want to? Words hit hard enough so an actual image would be pure torture and yet.. some found inspiration at the way this hardened Harbinger absolutely broke down for his love..

Even the strongest of people have their weaknesses and his lied with her..

“I promise I’ll be back soon.”, he had said, with pure confidence too despite it all.

She had been so far from the harbor- she didn’t give him any hint that she would be on the waters that day. Even she had, what had ultimately happened was a last resort. He never intended to do it but.. perhaps if she had mentioned something that day.. he would have stopped himself.

If he was stronger- if he hadn’t allowed himself to be used..

The rage mixed in all that anguish was suffocating- each and every breath he took as he moved forward felt like it was searing his lungs. His legs felt like the bones within were made of lead, threatening to cave in on themselves. He almost wished they would- he wished they’d shatter- he begged to his current wounds to just end what was only the beginnings of his endless suffering.

Instead of hoping his death would happen in glorious battle he wished for it to be swift- for it to carry him home immediately, no matter how selfish it seemed.

He had a family, he had to think of how they would feel but now... now the blood on his hands was blood he was never meant to spill..

He always knew the true costs of his line of work would catch up to him.. Childe simply thought that cost wouldn’t be so high- so immediate. Or.. something of his own doing-

Once he made it to where the crowds had gathered- to the aftermath seen by all, he was gifted with burning daggers in his back by their eyes- a hint of pity accented within the obvious poison. They would forever be embedded in his flesh. None would be unaware of his horrific deed in Liyue harbor- the absolute disregard for innocents and his own dearest heart.

He wished the people would be more violent, but he knew they wouldn’t be. That was too easy- too merciful.

Within that crowd he found what he had destroyed. There, in the calm waters, surrounded by mourning citizens that knew her well... she floated calmly. Her calm face struck him hard- it was now dull, there was no life within her features- this was not like when she slept or when she turned her face to soak in the beautiful sun.

The reality of everything hit him so hard it knocked the breath and rationality out of him.

He had begged and pleaded and sobbed in vain- she had been gone all along. When he was told you were missing- lost at sea, deep in his very core he knew the waves had stolen her. Osial must have stolen her was what he allowed himself to believe for a time, but Childe was not that much of a fool. His own idiocy and failure to think rationally stole her from him. He did this to himself and now, in front of all of those which he wronged, he breaks.

He will never be able to see her smile- how is it that one person can have so many different smiles? So many expressions to miss and touches to crave and be robbed of. Childe would never hold her in his arms. He could no longer relish in the taste of her lips or her warm embrace on late nights.

Her voice would no longer bring him back to life on the days he lost himself- he would be left to drown out at sea, just as he deserved. There was no future to look forward to- a time when he would get to call you his wife or perhaps the mother of his children- not even a time in which he got to live freely. To be just Ajax and not Childe, the Eleventh Harbinger of the Fatui. Nothing. There was nothing and perhaps it is selfish thinking- his family still lives but will they still adore him when they learn of his horrific deed- of what his job genuinely costs.

“ I ᴄᴀɴ’ᴛ ʙʀᴇᴀᴛʜᴇ, ɴᴇᴇᴅ ʏᴏᴜ ʜᴇʀᴇ ᴡɪᴛʜ ᴍᴇ..”

The screams were so painful that no one could bare to look for long, the cries so devastating others felt its harsh pangs in their chests. He cried like he was being tortured- cradled her head and damned the very skies for taking something so precious- something that was not for it to take- someone that deserved better.

The people of Liyue granted him the mercy of time with her. His only true gift from those he hurt. They felt the sincerity in his regret and pain.

Hours felt like mere seconds to him and in the setting sun the cold finally dug its claws into him. He could feel the blood in his throat and the raw sting in his eyes. His freezing fingers had to be pried from her lifeless body and still he begged. He pleaded for everything to be a lie- a cruel prank to get him to see how horrible that was of him.

How could she be the only fatality in all this- surely there were others on the water? Her little boat was not the only one out there. Not to say he wished the same fate of other innocents but... did it have to be only her? In the very boat he gifted her when he learned how she adored to just... exist in the middle of the ocean for a short time. To take in the salty air from its source and take in the scenery the archons gifted its people to see.

In the same boat that was now in pieces along various shores and in the unrelenting depths of the ocean. Lost to him forever, just like her.

Her sweet laughter from that day still haunts him, “I’ll believe you if you promise to go out to sea with me when you get back.”, she had said, bargaining with him as if she actually ever needed to. She could tell him to jump and he would have asked her how high.

‘I love you, Ajax. Be safe.’

So, he promised- crossed his heart and hoped to die. Then when would that debt be paid? How long must he wait to be in her presence again?

“ Aɴɢᴇʟs ғᴀʟʟ, ɪᴛ’s ɴᴏᴛ ʏᴏᴜʀ ғᴀᴜʟᴛ..”

The picture painted of her for that day pierced through what was left of his now dead heart. He meant no offense to the artist, but it did no true justice for her. It did not encapsulate her like his cruel mind did. Her eyes felt lacking- the expression was so.. unreal. Yet, silent tears felt all the same.

This was it. He must let her go for good. This is all real- too real. His breathing becomes labored and soon he is doing his best to silently sob. Her painting becomes blurred and, in the midst,... it looks as though she is crying with him. Somehow.

‘You know I’ll always love you, right?’

“ Gᴏᴏᴅʙʏᴇ ᴏʟᴅ ғʀɪᴇɴᴅ. ᴡᴇ’ʟʟ ᴍᴇᴇᴛ ᴀɢᴀɪɴ...”

“Traveler...”, he begins, “Do we have to do this every time? You know what I want... stop denying me for the sake of your own morals... please..”

The outlander looks at him, pity in the swirls of gold staring into his dull blue hues, “You know I can’t, Childe..”

He laughs bitterly, ignoring the way it hurts to do so, “You can- c’mon, it’s not that hard. Your sword is sharp enough. One good blow-”

“You need to move on somehow- take a break and grieve properly stop asking me-”

“Move on? Move on? I am a murderer- I killed her- I deserve to-”, he starts, voice growing angry and so very sad.

“You didn’t do it on purpose. You didn’t want her to...go.”, the outlander says, pools of gold growing brighter in concern, staring upon his form in the ground.

Childe was a mess of sweat and blood, on his back staring up at another whom he deceived, begging to be put out of his misery. Shamelessly so.

He laughs again, this time with a ragged breath, “It should never have been her- it should have been me. It was always supposed to be me first.”, he’s crying now, he’s sure of it. It always turned out this way, usually the tears are left out, “I was never- I never... she was never supposed to even be hurt because of me. Traveler I... I loved her so much- I still love her. I can’t let go- please. I’m begging you- please. End it- end me..”

There was no answer, just silence. There was no saving him and as painful as it was, the wandering traveler left him there on the ground. He never saw this traveler again. In the back of his mind he always wonders if the sibling was found. Was the journey fulfilled- was there a happy ending?

He hopes so. No one deserves to suffer loss in any way.

“I miss you..”, he whispers into the sky, knowing she resides somewhere far past the clouds.

The calm waves of the sea gently rock him in this small boat. There is only one destination for him. He is no longer welcome anywhere else. No one has said so, but he feels it within his soul. A piece is missing, and he will find it once more, one way or another.

“I’m coming home.. I hope you didn’t wait long..”, he says as the blackened clouds start to surround him. The sea below him darkens and he can feel the static of danger in the tense air. The waves start to come alive and he hopes they finally swallow him entirely.

This time, he hopes he will not be found by a pitying soul.

“ Tɪᴍᴇ ɢᴏᴇs ᴏɴ ᴡɪᴛʜᴏᴜᴛ ʏᴏᴜ..”

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Rocker! Hongjoong x reader

angst, fluff ending

tw: smoking, drugs, alcohol, foul language, vomit, depressive symptoms, sexual harassment and toxic behavior—please don’t read if sensitive!! I don’t condone these acts <3

~you wanted to be more like him and less like you

~“fuck off! I don’t want to see that shit-face of yours again!!” ~

Tears streaming down your face, staining the flesh with a trail of black from your running eyeliner. You can’t get those last words out of your head, taking in a breath of smoke, and exhaling through your nose. Trying to ease the pain of abandonment—you contemplate what you’re going to do now.

Standing up from the concrete staircase you’ve been sulking on for the past 15 minutes,, burning out your cigarette—you make your way down to the only place you can think of..

The blaring sounds of screams and cries piercing your ears—the smell of alcohol and smoke,, bodies together,, this...this was it. This was where you could let go...let loose..and live.

“I am a cancer. I am a creep. I am the black sheep”

Hearing those booming lyrics-you look up to the stage. Finding the lead singer screaming into the mic—and bouncing with his guitar. From the eyeliner to his ripped-chained pants..you were sucked into a void. Eyes burning from the atmosphere,, head pounding—now heart aching. You couldn’t stand it any longer.

“Hey baby..can I get you something?” —snapping out of your self destructing trance, you look up to the raspy voice speaking to you.

~“Let me buy you a drink...you here alone?” ~

The buzzing effect in your body-taking you away..you felt numb. You didn’t feel right,, blurred vision, limp body—you were useless. Feeling your head being shook and lightly slapped, trying to blink your way to clear sight—you started to fade..

hearing the lone sounds of laughter and booms—everything felt underwater. You couldn’t quite see, hear or breathe. Maybe this was what you needed..no one loved you anyway. For fucks sake-you got kicked to the curb tonight—by your shitty once called boyfriend. Who which you caught cheating—and to which led to you being pushed out the door-with nothing but a pack of cigarettes and a twenty dollar bill.

You were drowning,, choking, needing air. Desperate..everything turning black,, it was what you deserved... until—

“Hey bitch!!”

jerking conscious from the ice water—wet, cold and vulnerable..you’re surrounded by big figures. Your body finally awake, the smell of the place hits you like a truck. Only causing your body to respond naturally—meaning dry heaving. Choking—you weakly stand up to be towered by the looming men. Clutching your stomach—you needed the bathroom, slapping your hand over your mouth to control the potential mess. You wobble forward..clearing a path to your destination— All while the lead singer watches you from afar....

Barging into the bathroom you’re met with a couple making out by the sinks, and the stench of regurgitated essence. Only causing the feeling in your stomach and throat to worsen..abdomen convulsing you knock through the stall—and spill your guts. Face flushing from the lack of air—your nose and throat burn, and your stomach churns with sickness. Flushing your vomit down the toilet—your mind hazes once again...and soon enough you black out against the stall wall—helpless.

———

Hongjoong hasn’t seen you come out of the bathroom for the past 20 minutes..he was starting to get anxious himself. But he still had to finish his last song before ending tonight’s show-

“You crack the whip, shape-shift and trick”

The bright lights—beaming all different tones of red and blue. He lived for the stage, the rush of adrenaline when the whistles and screams came. Hongjoong was meant for the spotlight—his soul voice, talent for the guitar-and his aura in all. He was a performer,, meant to please his audience—and when he saw you come in tonight, all ragged, sad and helpless. He couldn’t stop watching you, you were everything he wasn’t. And when those men spiked your drink—he wanted to kill them so badly, but he didn’t want to risk his place.

Sweat pooling down his face, hongjoong finishes the last song—

“Everyone wants a ride. pulls away, ooh—from you”

The screams from people lungs, the jumping of bodies close together, and the sweet sweet feeling of glory—all lasts for a second....

Jogging down the hall towards the women’s bathroom, Hongjoong gets stopped in his tracks. A girl extremely tipsy, reeking of alcohol puts her hand on his chest. “Heyyy..youurrr, yyou’re that s..singer guy...” trying to push her away—she only falls to her knees. “Excuse me—move” not understanding his words she squeezes hongjoongs thighs, then wraps her dirty fingers around his pants chain and pulls him forward. “S..Stop being sooO difficult..lemmeee make youu feel g..GOood” rubbing him she fiddles with his zipper

“What the fuck! Get off me bitch!” Pushing her head back she lands on her ass, and hongjoong steps over her with disgust. “Go give some other fucker a blow” taking a deep breath, he tries calming his raging thoughts of the drunk woman. Speed walking to the bathroom, barging through the door he screams at the couple grinding on each other “GET THE FUCK OUT!!-“

sending them running away, he sees your bare legs from under the stall. Pushing it open-he wants to hurl, but seeing you unconscious he swallows the urge down. “Hey-babe?” Shaking your limp body, causing your head to slide off the wall and hang down. Quickly hongjoong holds your neck in place and examines your face and body.

Your damp hair and top-makes him curse under his breath...how dare someone put something so fragile through hell? Why did he feel the need to help you so bad? Was it because of your differences...that he felt the need to protect you. And harm all the people who decided to put you down, and treat you like shit..

Trailing his eyes down, hongjoong sees your legs-scraped, cut and bruised, then he can’t help but notice your attire. The big T-shirt dress wasn’t doing its job in covering your lower half well, when sprawled on the bathroom floor, so he decided to help,,picking you up and taking you to somewhere safe...

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The shooting feeling of your head pulsing caused you to wake finally conscious.. not knowing where the hell you were. Under the sheets of an unknown bed, surrounded by band equipment-you started to panic. Breath staggering-heart racing, eyes tearing up you quietly sobbed.

What did you do?? You’re in a strangers bed, and who knows what they did to you. Wiping your eyes you look down—dressed in a loose navy shirt, and boxer shorts...definitely not what you wore yesterday. Sniffles fill the empty room, and the smell of your hair comes to realization. Shit..someone really cleaned you up..

Heaving in a sharp breath—you feel your heart speed up..shit~not now..you can’t lose your mind right now. Someone can come get you-and you’ll be defenseless and weak against them. Ripping at your legs—trying to feel your way back to yourself through pain..you just whimper. Taking your head between your hands, hanging low—tears fall on the bed covers. The sounds of your sniffling cancel out the foot steps advancing your way through the hall-

“Hey~you’re awake”—jerking your head up to the mans voice..you immediately regret it, because your skull jolts in a jabbing pain. Making you cry out and curl in a ball, holding your head. “Wo..woah,, you okay babe?!” Hongjoong speeds to your suffering self. He didn’t know what to do..looking at the sheets and seeing your tear droplets..he can’t help but scoff. You have problems, it’s unreal...how can someone be so destroyed—physically and mentally??

Unscrewing the lid to the cool water bottle he brought in, he sits himself next to your hunched self. Placing his hand on your soft hair, he gently brushes strands out of the way..so he can see your face. “I know you probably have a million things on your mind right now..but I need you to drink some water-please” the mans voice somehow soothing the tightness in your chest, you open your eyes

His damp hair covering his eyes, his gentle hands gripping the water—you weakly slowly started to make your body lift.. eyes continuously leaking tears, you gently reach for the bottle. Slightly grazing his hand, you quickly look into his brown orbs in apology. “Sorry—” Just from talking to him out loud you feel pressure coming up again. Heaving in a deep breath-trying not to crumble again already just in the span of minutes, “what am I doing here?”

As Hongjoong watched you take a swig of water he softly reached his hand with nails painted black to wipe your cheek of tears. “Well...you were unconscious—so I wasn’t just going to leave you there like a shithead..” gulping, and putting the cap back on the empty bottle you take in his words. Your body being overwhelmed with awkwardness, you cover your face and whine. “You b-bathed me..and put me into n-new clothes..”

hearing Hongjoong chuckle out, you quickly uncover your face with shock. Why was he laughing at you?!! What did he do?? “Don’t worry~ I didn’t do anything to you,, just cleaned you up...I wouldn’t make moves on a someone not aware of their own decisions..” looking back down to your legs your mind begins to turn against you once again...

~Of course he wouldn’t do anything to you..no one would want to anyways. You don’t deserve anything, because you’re no good for anything.~

“Are you okay??” Cupping your head, you slowly give him a nod..eyes pooling with warm fresh tears. You blink away the blurriness, trying to calm down and speak again. But all you do is choke out a broken cry, “I s-shouldn’t be here...I don’t even know you, I don’t know where I am...and I-“ looking away from him, staring at your bandaged legs. Droplets falling onto your skin, you sniffle and realize your once broken skin that was decorated with cuts and bruises were now covered and protected.

“I understand..please forgive me, I’m hongjoong..I’m the lead singer and guitarist from the band you heard playing last night-“ lifting your head by your chin, he gives you the softest look. “y-yes I recognize you..I’m y-y/n-“ finally giving you a bright smile, and taking the bottle from your grip Hongjoong slides off the bed. “So what’s your story?-“

———

Walls broken down—exposed to the male you only just met a week ago...you’re starting to feel not so drifted from the world. Slowly regaining and healing...all thanks to him, all thanks to the person who is the complete opposite of you. He’s given so much to your little self, and you took the time, to breathe....take in the good and actually find meaning to live. Overcoming cruelty that fed the blazing fire which spiraled your self valuing into the pits of hell..

he saw you when you were drowning, in need of help.. and made you feel worth living for. With Hongjoong, there would be no more doubt, he..the man in the spotlight, chose you....

Who would’ve thought you’d turn up here.

Where this new beginning started....

But only this time, you weren’t in it alone....

“Before we start up tonight, I want to introduce an important person.” adrenaline coursing, blinding lights, aggressive shouting and screaming filled the hall... “Everyone, this is Y/n...”

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tagging my wife @hongjoong-a-holic 🥺

~this is kinda a mess...don’t really know what I was doing....I’m sorry

lyrics from: black sheep by palaye royale + black sheep by kailee morgue!!⭐️

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